#i swear one of these days i'm going to post something that's legitimate one line art

[snickerdoodlles]

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

😅 What's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists? (Are you even capable of being embarrassed??)

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

🎃 Do you write fics for certain holidays? Which is your favorite holiday inspired fic? (ahahaha...)

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

🎉 What leads you to consider a fic a success?

🥰😘 ty friend!!

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

end of making assumptions ch1. I am absolutely still cackling about that.

😅 What's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists? (Are you even capable of being embarrassed??)

I am not! I'm trying to think of literally any of my WIPs that makes me bury my face in my hands but...nope. you'd think insatiable fic at least would inspire something, except I throw that WIP at literally anyone who even sneezes an interest in it. I still cackle in delight over a stable relationship fic. nothing can touch me 🤣

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

[insert pun about accidental pony play here]

but uhhh hmmmm. in terms of WIPs, bodyguard fic goes thru the most highs and lows. of posted fic... probably red line? tutoring date -> thug beat down -> kisses -> adrenaline crash -> clinging is a lot to pack into a few thousand words or however long that fic is

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

I don't! sometimes I'll put on sounds because I do like some white noise, but if I do music I'll get sucked into it >.< I've been listening to a lot of stray kids and ofc jeff satur lately while not writing tho

🎃 Do you write fics for certain holidays? Which is your favorite holiday inspired fic? (ahahaha...)

😂

I don't celebrate holidays myself. or like, I kinda do because family does and I get pulled into that whether I like it or not, but holidays in general aren't my thing. I love to incorporate them into stories because festivities can be perfect for giving characters different environments to act in and/or be really good to show the passage of time. sometimes some one-shots use holidays to build off canon in those ways and I like those, but I don't seek out holiday fic. and anything based on western chirstian holiday traditions for shows based in non-christian countries has to do the gymnastics to explain why the fuck that's happening or i mute.

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

hnfbfjdhfbfjdhf uhhh let's see, what to spoil...

was writing for youtuber!Vegas fic yesterday, which is going to get a running gag of fake sponsorship ads. mostly sponsored by a service that provides eternal reminders for all the embarrassing things you'd rather forget (use code WEHADANAGREEMENTMACAU to receive one poorly packaged younger brother FREE). Might give him one(1) legitimate sponsorship by Kinn's favorite lube company.

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

[cries in eternity] I'm getting there one small steppy at a time I swear I promise

🎉 What leads you to consider a fic a success?

if I still like it after I post! I go thru cycles of hating my posted fic but overall, I like what I have up more often than the days I don't. which is really good, because I'm my most frequent reader and!! gotta keep that bitch happy!!

and also, on a more serious note, my reaction to a story is the only thing I can control about it after I post. what gets attention vs what doesn't is impossible to control or guess and I just really, really hate when I feel discouraged because I didn't hit a certain number of comments or notes or whatever on a thing. any time after I post, I pretty much just spend the next several hours pretending I'm the only person with any opinion of value and taking screenshots of the bits I like. I try (and usually fail lol, but I try!!) not to read comments until after I've hyped myself on what I posted so that I'm just excited to gush about what I wrote instead of using any of people's lovely responses as a measuring stick. which isn't the best for helping me respond to anything in a timely fashion, but idk a better way to ensure I'm posting for me rip.

fic asks

#okay i got rambly in some of these ajdjdj oops #thanks for letting me ramble tho XD

[snowysobsessions]

"Quickly" Reviewing Four Nine Inch Nails Albums

A few months ago Germs by Weird Al and Closer were stuck in my head for several days. On a gut intuition I said "Well, I obviously like this music, why not check out more Nine Inch Nails?"

Currently I am attempting to steal Trent Reznor's gender and haven't listened to much non-NIN music last few months. So I'd say I might be a big fan. Possibly.

I'd like to thank my new friend Gray for giving a very helpful recommendations on what albums to start with. <3

For this I'll start with the few negatives, then move on to the many positives. Because I like ending on a positive note. :) We'll also be going in the order I listened to them as opposed to order of release.

Pretty Hate Machine: 8/10

Negative: I find because nearly all the instruments are fairly simple synths and MIDI soundfonts, the sound can get kind of monotonous when you listen to the entire album in one sitting. A lot of it sounds like video game music from 1990-1995 to me, which is oddly distracting. On first listen I kept asking "Why does this sound like DOOM music?" To be honest, I found Down In It the weakest track. Rap is just not Trent's thing and I'm glad he didn't pursue it.

Positive: Despite the limitations, these are really well put together tracks! I think this a very solid album, especially considering at the time no one was using synths this way. The melodies also feel very unique and are usually why these songs get stuck in my head. I found myself liking the lyrics way more than I anticipated. Even though they are dripping with teenage or young adult angst, which I typically don't like. The emotions on display are so raw and pure it's hard to not feel empathetic. It's hard to choose, but I'd say Terrible Lie and Sin are the strongest tracks to me. Just generally really good tracks that are addicting to listen to.

The Downward Spiral: 10/10

Negative: It's not an album I can listen to just anytime. I kinda have to be in a bit of a bad mood. Sometimes I find myself skipping songs that are very emotionally intense, like Big Man With A Gun and Hurt, because I'm so worn out and just want to enjoy some music. This album does not have a weakest track in my opinion. Any "lazy" writing lyrically or musically feels very intentional.

Positive: The positives on this one are really endless for me. Good lyric after good lyric. Amazing melodies and harmonies one after the other. Auditory assaults and walls of noise that are fun to listen to. Sound design that makes it feel like a soundscape of the mind. And I love that there's a story on top of all that. I could make a whole post about each individual track. This album takes you on a roller coaster that only goes down. Strongest track is extremely hard to choose, but I always come back to The Becoming. The odd time signatures, long verses, the increasing intensity of the vocals, and the theme of becoming something cold, emotionless, robotic, and other is a perfect combination to me.

With Teeth: 9.5/10

Negative: Not a lot of negatives here. Kinda has a similar problem to Pretty Hate Machine with the instruments sounding similar, although not nearly so much so. Sometimes I wish there were more songs that lead into each other. Weakest track is very hard to choose, they're all very good. But I'll go with Beside You In Time for no reason other than the throbbing synths legitimately give me a headache. Wish I could enjoy this song. </3

Positive: I really love the prominence of piano in this album, as well as the vocal layering and distortion effects. I also like the usage of guitars across this album, often I can almost feel the air vibrating with the strings. The sparing usage of swear words also means I can play nearly the whole album at work without issue. Generally I like this album a lot. It feels like something simultaneously from the future and the past. Strongest track for me boils down to personal preference. So I'll go with either All The Love In The World or The Line Begins To Blur, in my opinion two of Trent's most beautiful songs. They need to be put in a museum of some sort forever.

The Fragile: 20/10

Negative: Not much to speak of here. Sometimes the intense layering of sound plus high volume makes it feel like my ear drums are going to explode, but that is to be expected with NIN so I'm used to it. Can't name a weakest track. I look forward to all of them. It's 20/10 for a reason.

Positive: This may be one of the best albums I've listened to in my entire life. Every track has something memorable and creative. All feel meticulously designed to convey not an emotion, but Trent's exact state of mind at that moment. The lyrics are sparser than usual, but oh so much more impactful when they do arrive. It feels painfully real and deeply personal. It's not just a story of what-ifs anymore, it's reality. This album is a lengthy, beautiful mess of ideas and emotions and I wouldn't have it any other way. It is the most human a piece of art can be. Strongest track I think is almost forced to be La Mer. It impacted me emotionally so greatly I wrote a whole post about it before writing this section. Realistically I could make a post about each track if I wanted to, there's so much to talk about for each one.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

#snowy speaks #nine inch nails #nin #pretty hate machine #the downward spiral #the fragile #with teeth #long post #album review

[undeadhousewife]

Do you have any websites or books you’d recommend for gardening information?

Oh do I!

I think the biggest question is how educated you already are - because there's always a learning curve to things and so I'm going to list a few things that spans different educational ranges.

Rodale Gardening Books - are in my opinion the best most informative books, especially for beginners. Some of the info is a little dated depend on the book but I pick them up regularly when I find them and I swear I still learn something new with each book.

If you're anywhere in the western part of the US then the SUNSET line of books are also fairly helpful. I find them a bit dry at times but definitely a much needed guide if you're somewhat educated, especially for landscaping and floral gardening.

Website wise I relay very heavily (especially in my early days) both The Spruce (which feels like it should be a bad pinterest kind of site but has a lot of legitimate solid gardening info - both for indoor and outdoor plants!) and Garden Know How. I also very VERY muchly like Joe Lamp'l website (which I discovered via his podcast) and though I find the website isn't as good as the other 2, if you listen to his show acts as a great reference and jumping off point.

Which leads me to my other recommendations - podcasts. Imo the best of the best is Joe Gardener, aka Joe Lamp'l. His show is definitely information heavy and sometimes really leans towards those already educated, but I would be no where today with out that podcast. I do also enjoy Backyard Gardens podcast, if only for the fact one of them is a small space, urban gardener like myself. (the info from them is definitely hit or miss, which is why I hesitate to recommend the show, but fir small space gardeners it can be inspiring so I will toss it out there)

I know a lot of gardeners will recommend hitting up places like your local county garden extensions and all that, even local college or university websites, but personally especially for beginners the info is DRY, hard to understand and just not helpful unless you know what you're reading. But that is also definitely an option depending on the person.

Having said all that, I learned pretty much everything I know by playing around, failing miserably, and googling for hours.

Anyways sorry for the massive post but I hope this helps a little, and seriously if anyone has gardening questions or wants advice - my asks are always open.

[homeofjonicles]

The Jonicles - Entry 15 [CW: ... Maybe? I dunno there's a lot of Jon's ass]

^^ second image accurately sums up this entry

Note: This is the fifteenth entry of The Jonicles, hence why the date does not match when this is being posted. This was written back in June of this year before I started this blog, and there will be errors or developments in how this series was being written. Please enjoy (or don't enjoy) the fifteenth entry of The Jonicles!

It is currently the 24th of June, 2022 on a Friday at 9:35 am. It's my last day of school for the term, and I'm taking the day off, because who goes to school on the last day?? Not this fucker! It is also day #37 of my Jon Arbuckle hyperfixation, I'm almost on day #40 dear god

So! As you may have guesses from the title, top text and the image, today I'm going to be talking about something that deals with Jon's handsome physique. Something I see in almost every Garfield comic Jon's in. Somerhing that... Follows me. Something I always notice. Something that haunts me.

And that something is Jon's ass.

I'm just gonna get straight to the point. This man has a dumptruck of an ass. It's huge. Bigger than you'd expect for a man like Jon. Listen, if Jon looks under average to the regular person, there's one thing that makes all of that up and that's how absolutely thick Jon is. Man has cake.

I think I've mentioned Jon's ass previously, but I'm gonna get right into it (nOT LITERALLY). There are so many fucking instances of Jon's ass being on full display, and it has been there since literally the beginning of the comic's syndication. Yes, even since it was a small strip in the Pendleton Times.

I can't tell you every instance of Jon's ass in the comics otherwise we'd be here for hours, but I can tell you the very first and most recent instances of Jon's spectacular rump (i swear every time i say jon's ass it reminds me more and more of the tom's ass thing).

Jon's ass, as far as all the publically available information we have goes, first appeared on the 22nd of January, 1976, on the fourth panel of the strip. This was the earliest version of the strip where Lyman moves into Jon's living space, but it's also the first time we get a proper glimpse at Jon's behind. Even then, his ass was pretty nice, though it doesn't stick out as much as some other comics. That is to be expected though, as Jim Davis' art style had much more realistic proportions for the characters in 'Jon', which later became 'Garfield' in 1977. Jon's ass appears again several times, one of my favourite instances coincidentally being in that first 'Garfield' strip, where his cake is REALLY visible. There's even some lines that indicate movement near said cake, it's brilliant. Spectacular, even. One could even say it's foreshadowing for how thick Jon would become in later comic strips.  I gotta say, his ass is a solid 7.5 outta ten. Nice ass, bro. Oh, and for those wondering, the very first instance of modern Jon's ass is June 25th, 1978 in the last panel. And that anniversary for that is tomorrow!

As of today, the 24th of June 2022, the most recent instance of Jon packin' a load of rump is dated... Yesterday, actually! You can't see it clearly, but just under Jon's hand is his amazing butt once again, along with a good view of his meaty-ass legs. Seriously, the man has got really strong looking legs, there's a lot of muscle there. It's probably from carrying all that cake all the time because DAYUM IS THIS MAN PACKIN'. Ahem, now where was I... Yes, Jon's ass has definitely evolved over the years from your average butt to something out of a luxurious bakery, and whilst I have no fucking idea why Davis decided to exaggerate Jon's ass to such an extreme, I'm glad he did, because it gives me a legitimate reason to simp for Jon... Well, a reason that seems legitimate to normal people who don't swoon over what they'd consider an "average-looking" "loser" from the one of the world's most "mundane" comic strips. Anyway, despite this instance of Jon's ass being the most recent in his ass evolution, it's not my favourite. For that, we'd have to look back to when my dad was a teenager; the 80s!

80s Garfield has to be my favourite iteration of Garfield, as 1983 to 1989 is, in my personal opinion, when the art style was at its peak. It's iconic, nostalgic and memorable. Most of the comics I read and most of the cartoons I watched were from that time period. And that means 80s Jon is, by proxy, my favourite iteration of the loveable cartoonist. He was goofy yet serious, he's a bit of an idiot yet not to the point where it's unlikeable or annoying, he's sad and has issues but still has his happy moments, and of course, his ass is also magnificent.

Oh boy, where do I even begin with this man's rump? I noticed it just recently, but there are so many instances. Like for example, in the comic dated the 9th of Feburary, 1980, in the second panel, Jon's ass is very visible. It sticks out to the point where it reminds me of JFK's ass in Clone High. And he's just standing there, not running or anything that would cause it to be as exaggerated as it is. The man's butt is so thick and powerful that it just sticks out like that on its own. Beautiful, stunning even. Literally every time Jon is seen walking or moving, like that first image, his cake is on full display. And that image of Jon having a stroke while taking a fresh, meaty tray of lasagna out of the oven that could only be comparable to the amount of meat in that guy's ass? That's from the 80s too, baby! And that's not all. The 80s influence of Jon's thickness bleeds into the more modern comics as well. A comic dated the 15th of April, 1990 shows a grumpy Garfield in a shopping trolley being pampered and pet by a bunch of cat-loving guys while Jon's absolute DUMPTRUCK of an ASS is shown on FULL DISPLAY as he bends over picking what I think are oranges from a shelf (i keep thinking theyre potatoes). It is on FULL. DISPLAY. RIGHT THERE. It's so thick! How does one man, who otherwise looks pretty "average" have the ability to possess such a huge fucking ass??? It's amazing! Magical, even! It haunts me how thick Jon is! The way his ass is not only fully visible when he bends over but when he's just standing. Doing nothing but standing. Jon doesn't even need any effort to make himself look good, he just does. And to think it's been like this since the very beginning, it's incredible. Jon's incredible. His ass is incredible. I'm absolutely amazed and enchanted by Jon's thickness, I think I've run out of vocabulary to describe it. Holy shit, man. That's a nice ass.

But at the end of the day, no matter how thick Jon may be, I still love him for who he is, regardless of his aesthetics. Even if he's wearing something tacky or his ass isn't as thick as it was in the last comic, he's still Jon. He's Jon, and I'm so glad that he is who he is. So Jon, I once again welcome you with open and wide arms into my fucked up brain and my heart, ass and all. We love a man with not only a big ass, but a big, kind, caring heart and a loveable, dorky personality that could charm anyone who's willing to give him a chance. Take care of yourself, Jon. Love you, man :)

Last edited at 11:14 am. Jon got cake tho

The entry. THIS. ENTRY. Is my favourite so far. It's fantastic. I go so into detail about Jon's ass, and I'm barely even scratching the surface here. He's so thick. He's so fucking thick. It's magical, it's amazing. Jon's ass is amazing.

And yes, I did have a nice Jon's ass anniversary... assiversary? Anniver-ass-y? Whatever it's called, it was nice. I enjoyed celebrating this ass of a fictional character. It was really nice :)

Cheers,

Your Local Jonnoisseur

Posted on the 22nd of July, 2022 at 8:30 pm.

#jonicles 15 #JON'S ASS #HIS ASS #OH MY GOD his ASS #WHY IS JON SO THICK??????!?!!? #my GOODNESS Jon you have a DUMPTRUCK of a butt #a-anyway #Lyman also has a big ass too #have you seen the cake on that man? #it could compete Jon's ass #why are they so thick #i never noticed this as a kid but now? hoooo boy #he thick #jon's ass is too powerful for this world

[sonorousangels]

he’s a freak, he’s a weirdo, he’s just about to give the local fish population a poetry lesson of a lifetime

#castiel #cas #godstiel #casposting #minimalism #spn fanart #i swear one of these days i'm going to post something that's legitimate one line art #not today though #not with this headache i've had since unholy hours in the morning #anyway! this is my favorite scene from all 15 seasons (aesthetics-wise) #i had tons of fun redrawing it. 10/10 would recommend to a friend #art

[legendaryyouthyouth]

I am not sure where I stand on cancel culture and I recently was doing some research on where it came from, how useful it is, and if it is necessary. However, its very complicated, for me at least b/c I'm sure this topic has been explored many times, to find any concrete based evidence and facts to build an actual case for or against cancel culture that remians netural and non-biased (well as non-bias as a Tumblr rant can be) and accurately address what I wanted to adress about this topic.

So, recently, I have also been following the "Trisha Paytas (allegedly) have DID" storyline for awhile now. I didn't watch any of her videos and I am not claiming she has DID or not, which is along the lines of what everyone is doing. No one is accusing her of not having DID and neither will I, but what she has done has legitimately upset the DID community and the mental health community as a whole.

I don't keep up with Trisha and have barely known about her unless she was invloved in something scandalous like wearing black face in a music video( yeah she did that!), claiming to be transgender (that is neither disconfirmed nor confirmed), etc basically the whole point of her channel. She is beyond problematic and people have been wanting to "cancel" her for awhile. She has pushed to far and been pushing for a while because she is now actually doing even more damage to an already small and misrepresented community: https://youtu.be/5jiepCPbIf8 ( A video made by one of the recent youtubers w/ DID to talk about DID in a recent interview with Anthony).

What Trisha did is not only damaging to people with DID but also to people with severe mental disorders!

The point I want to make is that there has been a petition going around to get Trisha off of Youtube and I am fully behind this movement. I recently watched a video that showed a video of Trisha swearing and calling anthony and DissociaDID crazy and the anger and what she said messed me up. I am not sure what exactly set me off but I dissociated halfway into watching the video and I could no longer watch it without making it worse, so I instantly closed youtube and my phone to ground myself with a few exercises my therapist taught me to do when dissociating b/c I believe in self care.

The dissociation was due to my PTSD (Disclaimer: I was diagnosed by a mental health professional!) and if I someone without DID was triggered by this I can't imagine what someone with DID went through when watching this or even hearing about it. Like I said before, what Trisha has done is not only damaging to people with DID but to people with any mental disorder that people call them "crazy" for, which is all mental disorders. I felt so strongly about this that once I felt grounded, I signed the petition and started getting to work on this post b/c I wouldn't have been able to function for the rest of the day if I didn't address this mess. So, if you have been following along with this mess or just heard about it from this post for the first time, think about signing this petition: http://chng.it/gWnFDtfzWr.

Do your own research, come up with your own conclusion about what do you think should happen, and if you want reblog this to get it out there and let people make their own decision, please do so. Thank you.

Also, more pics of a cat to end this post on a happy note (sorry for the messy room😂)Just Dante( orange tabby) and Cleo (ark brown amd beige stirpes) this time💕

[shslshortie]

Okay I'm going to make a post because I can't deal with everything that got asked/shat out my way

I am sorry for this rant, but I am legit ready to leave tumblr again. Like I forgot why I hated it so much, but lord is this an unhealthy environment for so many reasons. Mainly, because of discourse/call out culture. And I'm obviously not talking about being "PC" or anything, but just being an all around mean spirited person if anyone says anything that either 1) doesn't agree with you/your views/your fandom, 2) if anything is even slightly false or not entirely fact-checked, or 3) goes against most popular opinions without writing an entire graduate-level thesis about why you believe your opinion/view/observation is valid. Like if you want to complain or voice an opinion about anything, or even joke about something that you think is funny, you could very likely almost immediately be called out or even be sent WAVES of hate that usually is completely undeserved. Especially since people are hiding behind a screen of anonymity or at least behind an online persona, they don't think about the person on the receiving end of it. They don't think how their mean spirited comments or backlash could effect them mentally, and they don't even stop to think what else could be going on in their lives. Yesterday, (was it yesterday? I think it was yesterday, but GOD was it a long fucking day if it was) I made some posts after recapping through the Rost. Cup after I watched each medalist's short and long, as well as all the US skaters, big names, and for the men and ladies, almost all 11 skaters honestly. I love figure skating, and NO, unlike a lot of people wrongfully assumed, am not a part of the "fandom" and did not get into it because of YOI. Was a passion reignited from like a barbeque level flame to a bonfire with YOI's help? Yes. But would it probably have gone to a similar level with the Olympic season going into full swing? Highly likely. But anyways, I made some posts because I wanted to voice some observations, complaints, and things I thought were funny because tumblr is the only place I ever really rant/voice theories/talk about a lot of my interests, since I don't have any irl friends who are interested in almost half of the things I am. So, tumblr is usually the place that I dump these feelings/thoughts. Sure, one of them was a little off-color, and posted without thinking, but after about an hour (and like 3-4 replies I think), I looked back on it, and realized it didn't need to be posted out there, even if I didn't mean it to be mean. Does this mean I owed every single person who "called me out" for being uninformed, or for being mean, or for being whatever the hell I am a reply? No. Did I know that some things were answered over Twitter, or weibo (sp?) or Reddit, or whatever other gd social media that I don't use? No. Does that man I am uniformed and spreading lies or whatever? I don't think so, and that doesn't make me a fucking villain. I also deleted it, because I realized I was wrong. End of story, part 1. But then, the figure skating fandom found some of my posts/commentary/rants. (god forbid they somehow find this and attack me ALL OVER AGAIN, except for y'all that were part of this whole issue. I hope y'all see this, because it's not like I blocked you. Except for one tumblr user who blocked me because of my post? Like you do you, except don't reblog my post and block me so I can't see what you said, presumably about how I am a terrible person). And apparently 1) if you insult/don't like/say Y***** H**** didn't do his best/were disappointed in him, or if you like the person who won over him more... Then you deserve to die. And 2) if you even make a post about YOI or other anime, you are a fake fan who knows nothing. And 3) even mirroring almost the exact words of sports (specifically figure skating) commentators in your posts means nothing? Like it OBVIOUSLY means that you are making up bullshit to hate on skaters that are popular and are misinformed, right??? Or if you say one thing that was similar to an APPARENTLY problematic broadcast group, that nothing (including any commentary from official other broadcasts, because GUESS WHAT: it's hard to find recordings of all of the programs and exhibitions with English commentary, and there are usually 3-4 networks that have it, and SO MANY people upload different ones to YouTube) else you say matters or has any merit. I haven't even read all of the hate mail and submissions I received from this debacle. My mental health can't take it. I literally woke up for school the next morning, saw my notifications and couldn't get myself to stop crying from the anger/upsetness/trauma/depressed thoughts that bubbled up with all of it, and I couldn't even get myself to go to class because I was so shaken. Like visibly, physically shaken, to the point where I couldn't think straight and I literally had tremors from how upset and unstable it made me feel. Tumblr should be a place where I can voice my opinion on something I am passionate about without all this hate. I literally have no other place. Right now, irl, I got dragged into drama (not mine, I swear, I was just a witness and got pulled into the mess) with my honor society, and the girl who started it all is trying to pit the entire organization against me. I can't post anything on my finsta, and God forbid I even tried to post anything in Facebook. (Not like I would). I am already in a very dark place mentally and emotionally because of the trauma this is putting me through, and how unwanted, useless and disgusting everybody is making me feel. I shouldn't be getting that from strangers who just decided to make my life even more miserable on top of it. Legitimately, out of the 30-40 comments/asks/replies/submissions I recieved, only one person even tried to realize where I was coming from or to educate me on what I had done wrong or missed in my analysis. But some of their wording just mirrored all the hate l had recieved, or even other things I had been told in real life that just made me cry even harder and I still can't bring myself to reply to even the person who was civil. My one big point to anyone who sees this is (besides don't be a dick/cyber bully/create and stir up unnecessary discourse) is don't assume that people don't know what they're talking about? Or don't assume that they are fake fans? And don't make people spell every letter of their opinion out for you in a 12 page thesis if it doesn't comply with the tumblr norm. Cuz here are some fun facts about me that I don't normally publicize / post about on tumblr: Yes, I am an anime fan, but Jesus Christ I love/am a huge fan of WAY more than I am in the fandom for. I am honestly only in like 4-5 anime fandoms. Same thing goes for other things I like, such as Harry Potter or marvel. I can like things, A LOT, and be passionate about them without being in the fandom. That doesn't mean I don't like it or I'm not knowledgable on the subject. That doesn't mean that I am an idiot for not knowing a fact/opinion/theory that has made its way around the fandom, that I'm not a part of. YES, I am a HUGE SPORTS FAN. It was legitimately also my fucking career (as a sports reporter/journalist/broadcaster). Do I post on tumblr about Baseball or Football or Hockey? Almost never. Does that make me any less of a fan, or does that make me any less knowledgeable about teams and rules? No. Does that mean that I didn't play/participate in almost every sport growing up? (baseball for 6 years, I still play Intermural football, tennis for 3 years, volleyball for 4, soccer for 1, swimming for like 5 years, I tried track, even karate and some other random stuff.) YES, I AM FUCKING KNOWLEDGABLE ABOUT PERFORMANCE SPORTS. I have participated/competed/trained/still watch almost every kind of performance sport. Of course color guard and marching band has been the longest, and the thing I was best at (7 years), but I grew up doing all kinds of dance and I still do lots of dance, as well as TONS of my own choreography. I've done baton and cheer for about 1-2 years each too. I did gymnastics for 4 years — was I very good? hell no. But do I know about it and appreciate it? Yes. SAME THING GOES FOR FIGURE SKATING. I only had like half a years worth of lessons, and like 3 routines that I ever finished and performed with figure skating, but that is because it is an expensive af sport, and I had way more activities and sports that I was better at, more passionate about learning, and were more accessible. BUT did I grow up going to figure skating shows like Disney on Ice or Stars on ice? Did that stop me from waiting in line for hours to get Michelle Kwan and other famous figure skaters autographs? No. Did that stop me from watching almost every single minute of the 2014 and 2010 Olympics? No. Do I still remember watching parts of the 2006 Olympics with my parents and absolutely being ENTHRALLED and wanting to do that too? YES. I still remember watching the 2014 Olympics from my aunt's house when I was staying on a cot in her living room because my mother was in the hospital and CRYING when I saw Y* H* perform, break world records, and win the gold. It was a sense of normalcy and awe because everything else going wrong in my life didn't matter while I was watching these amazing athletes perform. And GUESS WHAT, since I'm not really a part of the Figure Skating fandom (just like I'm not in the musical theatre fandom, or in anything regards to hair or makeup) I don't post about my own hype or plans regarding how excited I am for things to come out. So nobody here on tumblr, or almost ANYONE knew how excited I was for this upcoming Grand Prix season for the first actual competition of the Olympic season. I watched almost every challenger series video, as well as the autumn winter classic and competitions of the like. Even the JGPF events in anticipation. But guess what: I literally have a note on my phone that has all of Team USA's competition schedules, and their scores that they have gotten so far (like at the COR), along with a list of my favorite international skaters, and other new skaters to watch. I was so hype, so excited, and I thought that maybe, since figure skating had boomed in popularity, thanks in part to YOI (but also, helped people be more vocal and open about how much they love the sport even if ex already did) I would be able to discuss the excitement with other people. But no. Instead of being able to say "omg I'm so excited for blah blah blah, I hope they make the Olympic team. But I also love this show concept and this other persons costume, and you also can't count out blah blah blah" and being civil with conversation among other fans... They instead will say " wow you like blah blah blah? But you said this about them, and that offends me so you're wrong, and you forgot this tiny detail from 3 years ago, and you like anime so you OBVIOUSLY only care about figure skating because of YOI. Take your bandwagon fan bullshit away from me and go kill yourself". So now, I am staying the fuck away from the figure skating fandom, I've literally left half of my choreography untouched for almost 2-3 months, don't want to read/finish any of my YOI fanfics, and will probably even have a hard time watching Skate Can this weekend (even though like 6 of my favorite skaters are competing, and I was so excited before). Guess I'll just have to annoy my snapchat friends with videos of skating and me screaming because of skating. Fuck you tumblr, and I doubt I'll make any more original posts outside of APO planning and reblogs in the foreseeable future,

#figure skating #I don't care about other tags so oops oh well #fuck you FS fandom #you are ruining something I love #I literally have cried again while writing this #and I feel sick like I want to vomit #my self esteem is at a healthy -94 right now #shut up Dani #long post

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Because I'm Me , I'd Do Anything for You

Okay so first things first this is my first legitimate post on my choices blog. It’s also my first time sharing my work on a public domain, but I’ve had this rolling around in my head all day. I also have wanted to participate in the Choice Carnival so here I am. 

@hollyashton and @pb-boeboe this is my entry for the sixth choices carnival I hope this a nice way for me to introduce myself to the fandom :-)

Summary- AUish where Zig takes up photography and can’t get over MC. He pines, and she gets married tada.

Pairing- ZigxMC (not really lololol) & JamesxMC

Rating - T (I guess I think I said a bad word or two oops)

“We’re not exclusive.”

Zig swears he can still feel her breath on his neck as she whispered those words to him, silencing her phone, another text from James going unread. It’s all he could think about when she took James back, when he waltzed in from LA with his apologies for his neglect and delusion about the media industry. It was all he could think about when she called with the news that she’d moved in with James uptown over the summer. It was all he could think about when James proposed to her in the park surrounded by friends only a few weeks later, all stumbled words and professions of his love for her. Zig would lie if anyone asked him about that day, and say he had terrible seasonal allergies if anyone pointed out the way his eyes watered and nose reddened a bit as he watched it all unfold.

And Zig. He can still feel the tenderness in her words as she expressed her concerns for her relationships that spring, how genuine she was, how much she cared. Everytime he thinks about it his stomach pinches, tight and unhappy. He wants. He wants to feel that heavy press of affection again; he wants to feel the weight of the love she has for everything around her. He wants the soft, secret smiles that her and James share when they think no one is looking, and sweetheart to be called to him across the quad.

But she. She has James. James who gets to see those parts- gets all of her now. Parts of her Zig felt he,personally, had for moments that passed far too soon.

In the months leading up to their wedding, Zig stopped holding on to the thought that what happened between them wasn’t a mistake because she never acknowledged it after she and James made up. He wouldn’t lie and say he didn’t feel slightly used. Maybe that’s why he’s been acting the way he has in the months leading up to the wedding. Faces with no names attached, coming and going. He tried to avoid her, but it was impossible with the way that the cafe had been apart of their group long before he arrived. She always showed up when she wanted to in his apartment, and prattled on for hours and he listened because this is what they’re relationship had resorted back to. He’d take anything she was willing to give.

He decided he needed a distraction that didn’t involve cold brews at the dive he took her to so many months ago, so he decided to take up photography. His sister had stopped by one afternoon, and begged him to go thrifting. He saw a camera and the idea seemed easy enough. And it was because he was Zig. Intuitive and quick when he wanted to be. This of course didn’t work out in his favor because when did things ever. She called him up three weeks before the wedding asking for a favor like friends tend to do.

Take pictures at the wedding. Her wedding. Because what was better than spending the evening watching the person’s he’s in love with get married. What could be better than memorializing love at it’s peak? It seemed easy enough, and he was her friend. He was Zig. And that meant he’d bend over backwards until his back broke if it meant she was happy.

Of course he’d never admit, but it was true.

~

He’s about to go for a smoke on the balcony when he hears the soft knocks on his door. It’s Chris he’s sure because he texted him twenty minutes ago saying he had big news, he’s sure of this, so he doesn’t bother putting a shirt on, leaves the cigarette hanging loose between his lips and pulls open the door.

It’s not Chris though, it’s her.

The girl Zig has been pining for hopelessly, who doesn’t look very happy with him at the moment, the girl, who snatches the cigarette from Zig’s mouth, the girl who just got married.

“You know I’d expect someone who’s been dodging my calls to be either undisturbingly busy or like dead, but imagine my surprise when I see Chris getting dressed to come over here,” she folds her arms and arches her eyebrows expectantly.

Zig would, in very Zig-like fashion, point out that undisturbingly was not a word, but she didn’t look amused, so he opted against it.

“Hello to you too,” he sighs as he turns to let her in, pulling another cigarette from behind his ear.

“You know I can’t stand those Ziggy. You know I’m not going to be the friend who watches you smoke yourself to death,” she says it like a complaint but the underlying concern in her voice grates against him. Zig hates himself a little for not having more willpower when it comes to her. He puts the cigarette away. “You know you were supposed to send me those pictures forever ago. We all want to see them, and you know how the Ashton’s are. They were already up in arms that we didn’t pick a date that accommodated them, and now they call everyday asking about the pictures.”

Zig winces, and keeps his face out of her line of vision by attempting to busy himself with tidying up.

“I’ve just had some trouble. I think the film is fucked up. It’s just taking longer than I-”

“Zig. That’s bullshit and we both know it. This stuff has become like second nature to you. There’s no way. At least let me see what you have.”

And of course she knows the way to Zig’s little makeshift darkroom. When the other’s come round to watch a movie or just to catch up she’ll always come knocking with whatever concoction they’ve mixed up with the contents of his liquor cabinet. She always notices when he isn’t there. Now she’s pushing past Zig, and through the hall.

“Ugh please. They’re not finished. Don’t-” but she waves his words away like she does when he starts getting down on himself. When he feels like the second chance initiative isn’t going to work out, and that maybe he won’t get to redeem himself… like he won’t get the chance to prove he’s good enough for her.

“I know they’re in here and I just don’t get how -“ she pushes the door open carefully and Zig groans, brings a hand to his forehead, closes his eyes and waits with dread for her reaction. "Zig these are -” she stops though, and Zig can hear her intake of breathe. What the hell was he thinking? Even though his eyes are closed he already knows how her face changes, can imagine her eyes scan the pictures hanging up all over the room. Zig could probably  draw most of them in the dark if someone asked, he’s stared at them long enough, the nervous smile as she walked arm and arm with her father down the aisle, the crinkles in her eyes as she says her teary vows, her blush when James fumbles with her ring, the flush in her cheeks after their kiss… “Zig, I don’t understand, what is this? Where are all the others?"Zig groans, and finally opens his eyes. "I’m so sorry. I - there aren’t any others. It’s only,” his voice cracks and he takes a deep breath, swallows past the lump in his throat. “It’s only you.” She is silent, just stares at the photo closest to her. It’s one of her eyeing a glass of champagne, her hand catching a small piece of hair to tuck behind her ear, a soft smile on her lips.

“Oh Zig -” she says finally. Zig just looks, and tries to keep his face from contorting in synchrony with the pain he’s feeling now, the pain he’s been feeling since James got down on one knee in the park.

“You never said anything.” And it’s with amazement now; she’s staring at Zig like he’s a new person and Zig hates that, hates that she’s been so oblivious. "I still - I mean didn’t want to - after James came back you- you’re my best friend,” he settles finally and he hates how pathetic he sounds. “I’m sorry Ziggy, I wish I -” she stops herself and takes a breath. “I did think about it. Wondered if I’d be happier with you for a long time. It fucked me up, but I love-” “Don’t.”

She turns towards him, her eyes glittering with eminent tears.

Zig can feel heat pooling in his chest, his heart. She’s always had a with her words, warm in her gestures, but not like this. Not so naked and so honest. Not so upfront and so forward. She walks over to Zig, eye contact unwavering. “It used to scare me, the things I felt for you.” She rests his hand on the back of his neck like its knotted and she smoothes out the muscle there, very slowly, as to ease away every bit of pain from Zig’s body. It’s a futile effort.  “It’s not so bad. I get to have you at the end of the day, don’t I? I’ll always have a place for you Zig.”

Zig kisses her then, partly because he can’t listen to anymore of this but mostly to feel her lips on his one last time. And it’s torture because it’s better than he remembered, and over far too soon.

She backs away gently, apologies in her eyes. “I’m sorry,” he says, “I’ll tell James that the film fucked up or something. I can’t- I should go.” And there’s nothing that Zig can say to make her stay, make her change her mind. Thinks himself stupid for actually believing she would ever reconsider her decision. She’s married. Zig presses the heels of his hands into his eyelids until he sees swirls of colors against the black. “Hey,” she says softly, “They’re breathtaking, Zig.” She places a comforting  hand against Zig’s cheek for only a moment and then she’s gone.

#choicescreates #playchoices #the freshman choices #zig #choicesstoryyouplay #im so angsty sorry like does this even count as passion #i think it does lol i guess it's up for interpretation

[bluedino15]

Last , Last Thoughts on That Issue/ Why I'm just Disappointed in Both Sides

Disclaimer before I get stared: yup, I’m going back to THAT again. If you just want to see art on the Glitchtale tag and are sick and tired of this issue like I am, sorry for making you scroll a bit more so you don’t have to see this. I probably should just let this die because we’re pretty much off this, but I still see the occasional comment on twitch or on here, so I need to get this off of my chest. I’m going to try to not take a side, but if you’ve seen my other posts, you know I do believe that word could be seen as offensive, though not in context, but that it should be treated more carefully, and that I also do not hold much Ill will towards Cami (still slightly peeved) I will also have a section of this where I talk about not liking the use of SJW or triggered. But again, I’ll try being non-partisan here besides that.

I’m disappointed in both sides here. For people who found the use of the r-word offensive or troublesome, I’m disappointed in the lack of trying to peacefully reach out to Cami. It was clear she meant not to insult anyone mentally disabled and that she had no idea the word had a negative connotation in some parts of the world. Now, that wasn’t entirely clear when she first said the word and people might not know the word had no offensive connotation in Chile, but still, anyone who knows it as a slur should also know that some people use it like a standard Insult to mean idiot (such as younger kids do in America) because they are not aware of what it’s been turned to, and that the user is not trying to insinuate someone is a lesser being because they were born with a mental disability. So it was not right to say things like Cami was ableist (someone who hates the disabled) or that she was trying to be rude to anyone other than that kid. It also doesn’t help to get super angry and toss out other swear words like “fuck” or “bitch” left and right because it makes you harder to take seriously when you swear like a sailor while arguing with someone, and they are less likely to understand or want to compromise with you when you insult them. And finally, it doesn’t help to either a) try to act surperior or Talk down someone who you think is being a jerk because it makes you look egotistical, and b) don’t specifically insult Cami’s friends (however, overall being annoyed with people supporting Cami is understandable, which is what my next thing is about). Overall, if you act to rudely or intensely in trying to make your point or change someone’s mind, you only guarantee that people are less likely to agree with you, which means you are shorting your argument in the foot. And as someone who was making that argument, I’m really freaking angry at the people who made it impossible for the argument to go anywhere pleasant, and I feel sorry for anyone else who wanted to be civil while still disagreeing. While civility may not have changed anyone’s mind, it would have been better than what did happen, because now Cami’s probably never going to understand or empathize with people who don’t like the word.

Now, here’s my other point. I feel like Cami and some of her supporters got kind of–and yes, I will use this word despite the fact that it seems to piss off people on here–rude. Rude for understandable reasons, but still rude. It feels like, because There were people who were being equally rude at a stressful time in Cami’s life, she was too angry to be willing to compromise or be understanding. I just am bothered by the fact that everyone seemed to say stuff along the lines of “the word isn’t offensive at all to me/ check the context/ check the definition” and write it off there. And that’s what bothers me. People didn’t seem willing to understand that word really was seen as offensive to a decent amount of people. It seemed like Cami and a lot of her supporters felt that, if they couldn’t see offense in it, no one had a reason to get offended. And it’s fine that they Don’t get offended or see any problem with the word. But it would have been nice to see something like “okay, I still don’t think the word is offensive, but I understand why people are bothered by seeing it.” Instead, it felt like anyone bothered by that word was being treated like a baby who was calling Cami Hitler and saying the kid was better than her. So that led to some people immaturely using the word when being asked to stop, which feels like the verbal equivalent of a baby tossing their peas in their parent’s face when asked to eat them in terms of behavior. (I am not referring to Cami herself using it more because I get she only used it once, I’m referring to the fact that I saw other people saying that as if it made them comedic geniuses) there was also a few people saying stuff like “stupid Americans trying to make the world about them.” Forcing you to adopt the death penalty, use English, eat my food, or use the imperial system of measurement would be arrogantly forcing my culture on yours. Getting offended by something seen as an offensive word in my country which I have been taught not to use is the result of naturally carrying my national baggage onto an international stage. I’m not saying that means the American view that r-word is offensive is right, but if Cami makes the honest mistake of assuming the rest of the world doesn’t find it offensive, why can’t we make the honest mistake of assuming the rest of the world does find it offensive? Heck, asking “why is it like that in this country” instead of saying “this country is stupid then, because I know the way I grew up with is right” would allow for some discussion that lets us open to each other and increase our worldview. It would help you understand we don't just choose to get offended because we want to. Heck, maybe you have actually read about how the word became a slur and still think we're stupid. Fine. But at least don't write it off as us having no reason .

And here’s where I get to the part that I do become partisan. Why the hell is anyone who gets offended even when they aren’t personally insulted deemed an SJW these days? What the hell is wrong with worrying about someone else? I guess people would say “if they aren’t part of that group, they are misrepresenting it by trying to talk for them. Heck, I am a part of this group and I’m not insulted.” Five things: 1) what about people who actually, legitimately, understand the issue and want to defend that group. 2) how does not being part of that group stop me from having an opinion? 3) is it wrong of me to defend other people (and before you say “I could defend wrong” reread 1) 4) great if you aren’t insulted, but there are others who will be insulted. 5) defending a group does not mean you want attention, you can legitimately have feelings on an issue. This isn’t just applying to what happened with Cami. This is almost any freaking time I see someone use SJW, and I just happen to be here while I’m venting. SJW should be used for someone who is taking an issue where nobody has complained ever anywhere, making it an issue, and bringing nothing to back up their argument. That’s someone who you can be legitimately pissed off at because they want to make themselves a hero out of something truly meaningless to anyone.

Oh, also, for People who make the “Triggered” jokes. You know, that word refers to people who would actually have PTSD if they saw something that reminded them of an uncomfortable experience, like a soldier with PTSD hearing a gun or bomb. I get that a small number of people might appear to act that extremely. But getting offended by a word is not the same as that 99% of the time. And generally those people who get offended actually have a reason that it might help you listen to, instead of saying “lol, that person is upset, so I’ll make fun of them by doing something I know bothers them.”

Still I understand that she was angry, and already at a stressful time, and that there were people who were being too rude in their responses to her that word. They did not have the right to insult her like they did or act like surperior dickheads. And I understand why, emotionally, she would be unwilling to be less angry in her responses if a decent amount of the opposition wasn’t civil to begin with. And I get that I’m probably generalizing her reaction and I’m mistakenly assuming she didn’t literally mean people were calling her hitler. I was just bothered that some of her and her defenders counter responses seemed pretty rude and Inconsiderate. And that people who got angry at her were also inconsiderate by insulting her so rudely or acting like their position made them morally superior. It was stupid off them, and what lead to Cami insulting them in the first place.

And I don’t mean to imply Cami was weak for having an emotional response. Emotions are part of who we are. Obviously not everyone will be able to stay calm and fine at all times. Heck, I have one of the shortest fuses on the planet. I brought up emotions because I think people who chose to insult Cami were at fault for why she would be somewhat hostile.

TL;DR I feel like both sides here were not professional in how the r-word issue went down. I am Not expecting pure civility or happiness on the internet, and I understand not all arguments can be handled calmly and orderly, or that polite argument leaves everybody satisfied. I’m just disappointed because we could have still had that debate without drama or angriness, Even if we ended upcoming to the same conclusion as we did a few days ago. And sorry for anybody I might have thrown under the bus with a generalization, or if I assumed to much of the meaning behind what someone said. Also sorry if I ended up using loaded language in my argument or subconsciously made it anti-r-word usage despite trying to remain neutral.

Finally sorry for bringing this up if it starts the whole mess over again. If it happens, put the blame on me and my inability to not let shit die.

#glitchtale