#i think a lot about them

[xanvasofxords]

Jerza arts that live in my brain rentfree and 24/7

#i'm actually having a jerza brainrot #i think a lot about them #they have a very special place in my heart right after nalu #them being all spicy in mashima arts but not having a proper conversation about their feelings in the manga? yes that's ft for you #did jellal admit to loving erza for more than a thousand times? yes #does he do anything about it? no #he still considers himself a sinner? yes #why's that? mashima knows #fairy tail #jellal x erza #jellal fernandes #erza scarlet #erza x jellal #jerza #fairy tail 100 years quest #hiro mashima

[jazzkrebber]

do you ever think about how they went from Matthias dreaming of Nina again to Nina only seeing Matthias in her dreams

#🚨 crooked kingdom spoilers 🚨 #i think a lot about them #i also think a lot about how many posts i start with do you ever think about #scroll through my page and you'll find so many 😭 #shadow and bone #six of crows #grishaverse #crooked kingdom #ruin and rising #siege and storm #helnik #matthias helvar #nina zenik #leigh bardugo #wesper #kanej #wylan hendriks #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #save shadow and bone #six of crows spin off #renew shadow and bone #malina #zoyalai #genyalina #safyk #zoyalina

[yeahimcal]

[And you are a lithograph/Sketching my history]

[Under the floodlights you look more like god to me/You’re way too fucked up, you’re way too tough]

[Two shots of tequila to speed you up/And I guess what I’m trying to say here is thank you]

[But I go cold]

(Symbolism below the cut if you care!!)

[You are a lithograph]

Young Jason has a target on his back, showcasing how being Robin put him in danger. He was just a kid. He’s talking to Batman, looking up at him, showing how much he trusts him, all the while he has a glaring red target on his back.

[Sketching my history]

Jason’s memorial plaque with his shadow over it. The shadow has ‘history’ written on it to show how Jason has become history, how he is just a story now, he’s not even in charge of how he’s remembered. To quote Richard Siken, ‘history is a little man in a brown suit trying to define a room he is outside of. There are many names in history, but none of them are ours’. Jason is history. He’s not Robin anymore.

[under the floodlights you look more like god to me]

Silhouette of Batman with no eyes, to show how Bruce never really… saw/understood Jason. Jason died thinking that Bruce was this good man, the best man, who always knew what was right. A god. But there is no god to Jason, not anymore. The floodlights are turned off. Jason had to die to recognize the flaws of his father.

[You’re way too fucked up, you’re way too tough]

Half of adult Jason, half of young Jason. Jason can’t go back to who he was. He can’t go back to that little boy who was too tough for his age, who thought Robin gave him magic, who was so good that it hurt. Jason is way too fucked up, now. He came back wrong. Everyone thinks so.

[Two shots of tequila to speed you up]

Jason’s Red Hood mask, a crowbar, a batarang, and his old Robin mask. Two things from his new life, two things from his old. He can’t go back. He can only go forward.

[And I guess what I’m trying to say here is thank you]

Jason’s pointing a gun at his father, who still does not see him. But he cannot kill his father. No matter how many times Bruce fails him, Jason will never be able to take that shot, he will never be able to wipe away the only father he has ever had. Even if he has every opportunity, even if he wants to, he’ll never be able to kill Bruce.

[But I go cold]

Bruce covers the target on Jason’s back as the sun rises over Gotham. Because no matter how many times he fails Jason, he will always keep trying to protect him. Try to keep him intact. The night is dark and it will always be dark and no one will ever be able to wash away all the bad, but as long as the world keeps spinning, Bruce will love his children. Even if Jason doesn’t want the protection, Bruce will give it to him. This is their curse. The will never escape it.

I have some pretty. Insane thoughts about Jason and Bruce’s dynamic as a father and son. So. Yeah…….

#Spotify #jason todd #red hood #Batman #bruce wayne #red hood dc #⇔cal’s art #♡cal’s favs♡ #dc comics #Batman and red hood #Bruce and Jason #to quote my friend ‘AUGHUGGHH PARENT/CHILD DYNAMICS IN MEDIA’ #I think a lot about them #and what happened #I think about Jason a lot at baseline #but this. this I think about all the time

[solitaireships]

Any other selfshippers have trouble coming up with things they'd do/say for gush posts? I can never think of anything to say about them and it sucks

#my posts #vent #a little anyway #bcs i feel like gushes are like. a popular thing in this community #and that gives me a kind of disconnect here #bcs i can never really think of anything #i don't get blushy or flustered or anything over my f/os #i think a lot about them #but not in a way that would be translatable to a gush #or it'll feel too stupid and/or personal to actually share

[nicosraf]

Hello! I can’t express how much I adore your book! It is my new obsession! Anyway, today I decided to draw some Rosier & Asmodeus fanart on my free time and was listening to music. A song called La Rose by Lesiem started playing and it made me imagine Rosier and Asmodeus together in a garden somewhere as the sun rises, making me wonder if all that stuff in the story didn’t happen, would their relationship have grown into romance? The song seemed quite campy to me, but I was unable to finish drawing with the brain rot this gave me :/

Hello !! I'm glad you like it!! :]

Ohh this song kind of slays like yeah its camp but it's also really good Im putting this in the hypothetical ABM playlist immediately

Regarding Rosier and Asmodeus' relationship developing into a romance:

It's interesting because Rosier and Asmodeus were literally together for about millions of years as housemates and really close friends but never got around to making out or anything. I think a part of it was their personalities, mostly Rosier's (since he's very comfy with his repetitive life and doesn't have a big appetite for exploring outside of his routines, I think). (Though Asmodeus loves that about Rosier; he wishes he could just be happy and satisfied with the little things too). Another part of it is a fear of God, though more subconscious (the fear of doing something that seems to be unknown and thus scary and probably against God etc etc)

I think they'd need a little push, maybe God has to disappear or go missing for a long time. And maybe they need to see romance in another couple first. (Or it's something simpler than that: they see two birds sharing a peck, maybe in Eden, maybe on Earth).

Then, one day, I imagine they go out for a picnic or they sit in the patio. One of them kisses the other on the lips, and they find the lingering taste of fruits there. They decide they like it. I think they'd be pretty romantic, after that. But they'd take things slowly, which is fine. That's just how Rosier is and the two have eternity to explore anyway! :)

#yes i know Rosier is so autistic coded #but ah.. #these two #i think a lot about them #mine #ask #thabk you for this ask #feeling gay tonight ..... #abm music #angels before man

[the-crow-binary]

Isaac: Oops ! Got your mental illness !

BB: Please give it back. It was a gift from my family.

#isaac is a mentor to bb #i think a lot about them #benedict belmont #isaac #castlevania #castlevania oc #belmont oc #devil forgemaster belmont #isaac laforeze #incorrect quotes #characters dialogue

[aliengirl]

for someone who named their blog after aliens, i have a lot of vampire headcanons

#sims or not #i just love vamps #i think a lot about them #let me just finish cleaning the house #and i might post some of them #ppl may not even care about it #but i care #and the blog is mine #and mine wanna talk about vampires

[nancyboyy]

hinata and kageyama’s relationship in haikyuu is. so funny to me. bc i agree it’s very gay but most of the time that’s where ppl stop. like we’re not gonna discuss how their rivalry and friendship to each other is defined by pushing the other forward so they can just not only be better partners, but better people. hinata and kageyama are amazing characters are on their own but it’s bc of their partnership and their promise to each other that they both end up at the olympics and achieve their dreams.

#i think a lot about them #i always hesitate to talk about them bc i’m scared ppl will just frame me as some crazy shipper but like #they are more than a relationship or soulmates really #they have a very purposeful connection that furudate put in

[starbuck]

i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’

#i don’t know how to explain this to normal people 😭😭 #for the record my coworkers didn’t directly question me on this #but i think i have vastly overestimated the amount of the population who is aware of like. Films. #NOT claiming that i have seen a lot - but i’ve mentioned three *REALLY* well-known films in the past four days #and got blank stares each time #the one of them was a REALLY good reference too… someday my top-notch association skills will be recognized #my first act as Mansion Acquaintance of the [redacted] Director will be to force everyone to watch a 40s romcom i didn’t even like #i’m getting off the point #the POINT is that It’s About The Catharsis

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[sualne]

he's fiiiiine.

#one piece #monkey d. luffy #trafalgar law #tony tony chopper #one piece spoilers #my art #my comic #undescribed #been thinking a lot about them recovering at a normaler-ish rate after onigashima and the conversation that couldve happened. #i also wished we got to see law be a doctor more when he was with them. even just asking how theyre doing.

[rachelfc-art]

The Beginning of Everything

(Please consider supporting me on Ko-Fi if you like my art!! Donations go to my parents this holiday season for their endless support. $5 donations may request a doodle too)

#botw #botw fanart #breath of the wild #breath of the wild fanart #totk #totk fanart #zelda #loz #the lengend of zelda #i think about them a lot

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[egophiliac]

What do you like about the Diasomnia boys if I may ask?

I always love hearing about the different reasons people enjoy characters.

I mean, c'mon. he has split custody over Sebek okay

also, Lilia in particular has maybe the best timeskip character development of all time

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 chapter 4 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 chapter 4 spoilers #stage in playful land #i hope this is legible whoops #anon i am sorry but you made the fatal mistake of asking me to talk about diasomnia #insert 'i just think they're neat' jpg #i do like the other characters a lot but they are definitely my favorites #they just hit a lot of my favorite things in characters i guess! #yes even you sebek even though you keep shrieking NINGEN at me #(it's okay he gets Character Development™ later) #and their dynamic! it's great! these guys frikking love each other SO much and they WILL have terrible terrible angst about it #ohoho delicious #give me all your emotional hangups baybeeeee #also somewhere in there i went from 'i like them all equally (but lilia is the most fun to draw)' #to 'lilia is absolutely my favorite (and still the most fun to draw) (EVEN MORE fun now thank you swishy ponytail!)' #(it was probably when his candy coating got a little scratched and whoops all the tragedy fell out) #(where's that 'get loved loser' post because i need to staple it to lilia's forehead) #i am extremely bad at putting things into words so please don't ask me to explain it any further #just know that the diafam is everything to me and if we don't get more episode 7 soon i'm going to crumble into dust and blow away #we'll be getting the crowleytimes on monday and maybe there will be. idk. some foreshadowing or something in his groovy #probably not but LOOK i'm desperate

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico referring to his mom as "Mama" implies he most likely at least used to refer to Hades as "Papa" and i 100% headcanon he still does but mostly in the manner of him having the entire Underworld wrapped around his finger for being the baby of the family

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #headcanon #my art #nico flexing youngest child privilages by pulling out the most pitiful expression he can manage #anyways i find it fun to explore character word choices #cause yknow no two characters are going to select their words the same way #or even necessarily think about it to the same degree #i like to think Nico thinks about his word choice a lot #so of course every time he uses ''papa'' he fully knows he's pulling the Baby Of The Family card #Hades definitely knows this too but falls for it every time anyways #cause Nico hasnt called him ''papa'' regularly since getting his memory wiped - just detached ''father'' or at best ''dad'' #so it just reminds Hades of How Much He Just Wants His Children To Be Happy Like The Old Days #and how much poor Nico has been through and he's just the baby of the family and- #cue Nico smugly staring at the camera cause he knows how much power he holds #also i say Nico is Hades' only son cause mythologically even when Zagreus *is* Hades' son (rarely) he's. dead. #a major part of Zagreus' mythology is that he died #and im p sure every other deity said to be Hades' children are all goddesses and also are like 50% of the time not his #theres also only like 3 of them. and as far as we know in riordanverse canon one of them is implied to not be his daughter #so Nico is Hades' only son and also youngest in the family (cause Hazel is older by a month chronologically or 1 year biologically) #(and everybody else is a deity if children of hades at all)

[rissaito]

it’s another one of those long nights at work… 💤

#my art #genshin impact #kaveh #alhaitham #kavetham #haikaveh #i think about them a lot but i don’t draw them enough #i like to think that alhaitham doesn’t express his love with words as much as quiet support and actions #sighhh i want what they have #2022 art #rissaito