#i think i'm drowning

[kale-of-the-forbidden-cities]

i want to scream that's how much i hate myself

#these thoughts. won't stop and idk how to get them to stop i want them to stop please #i don't want to deal with this anymore #i really don't #i think i'm getting worse but i told them i'd be doing better #i promised no knife and i kept that promise and i put the knife back in the kitchen #but they don't know i remembered the razor #in the middle drawer #i'm sick of feeling like this #i think i'm drowning

[sleepmybeauty]

coworker: How are you doing?

my inner monologue: oh, well, I'm not on any meds yet and I stopped seeing my therapist; I'm not sure she was actually helping, but it's highly unlikely she was hurting and I really should be talking to someone. Working from home is nice, but also terrible, but being in the office wasn't helping either. A stillbirth and a miscarriage just kind of fucks with your brain in a way that no one can really prepare you for, and every person is different so there really wouldn't have been any kind of preparation for this situation anyways. And I don't even mean emotionally, I just mean like... functionally; in that, my brain doesn't function properly, or at least, not in the same way that it used to. And while that is understandable, it is not tolerable, or tenable. It is ruining my life.

me: oh, I'm doing all right! How are you?

😂😂😂

#hey look it's me #i think I'm drowning

[toasteaa]

Sorry sorry, I thought about Neuvillette getting so lost in the feeling of your mouth or your cunt around his cock that he fucking shatters the headboard caught in his grip.

Something about him always being in control, always being so careful with his strength when it comes to you, holding you so lovingly even when his thrusts grow harsher. Rougher. Sweet whispers littered between his subtle moans and your keening whines before you hear a sharp crack in the wood above you.

The way his hips stutter against yours, stilling as he presses his face deep into the crook of your neck; a single, deep groan and a hiss of "yes" as his warmth floods you - and he practically tears a chunk out of your headboard as if it's nothing but a flimsy sheet of paper.

His endless apologies afterwards and his insistence that he pay for the repairs (or for a new, more study bed); you're just trying to figure out how to get him that feral again.

#toast talks #genshin impacted #I'M SORRY I'M SORRY THE IMAGE ENTERED MY BRAIN AND FUCK #I NEED IT I NEED IT I NEED IT AAAAAGH #FUCK BED BREAKING SEX I JUST NEED HIM TO DROWN IN PUSSY AND RIP MY HEADBOARD TO SHREDS #cons of fucking a dragon: broken headboard. pros of fucking a dragon: broken headboard. #UGH THAT AND HIM LOSING HOLD OF HIS COMPLETELY HUMAN FORM AND TURNING INTO HIS HALF DRAGON FORM WHILE FUCKING YOU 💙💙💙💙 #I NEED TO BE *RESTRAINED* #genshin smut #neuvillette x reader #neuvillette x you #no more tags because this is SO self indulgent and I'm going INSANE thinking about this -

[an-established-butt-dent]

'Harellan'

Solas: Dragon age

Mixed media on paper

#I was aiming for the ancient sad puppy eyes #the 'i'm faced with the burden of my mistakes every day' kinda look #haunted by the past kinda vibe #the look while thinking of Lavellan kinda look #the 'fuck i fucked up do you think she still thinks of me kinda look??! #'I have only dedicated the last few thousand murals to my Vhenan while drowning in my sorrows and Heartbreak' kind of look #honestly heartbreak is a good look on him? I mean yes he's one of my favourite characters but i still like watching him suffer i am sorry #and i'm awful #like we're all suffering in solavellan hell #heartbreak solas #solavellan #solavellen hell #solasmance #solas dragon age #solas dread wolf #da: dreadwolf #fen'harel #ancient betrayer #harellan #the dread wolf #solavellan hell #da fanart #fanart #my art #my fanart #dragon age fanart #dragon age #traditional media #illustration #dragon age inquisition

[golyadkin]

You ever notice a running theme in your life?

#death // #trauma // #drowning // #comics #gpoy #art tag #i know it's not an omen lmao it's probably a subconscious thing HOWEVER #i do think it's weird my dm did that #that one did weird me out a bit #let me know if there needs to be more tags i'm just throwing them on here #i'm not going to tag the books even though all three have their own tags that's not the point of this

[everysongineverykey]

very pleased to report that i tried literally counting sheep last night and got my first full night's sleep in like a week in a long period of sleepless nights!!

#not sure if i should say 'this works guys!' because while it worked for me #i'm not sure if it'll work for everyone #but yeah! focusing on counting sheep gave my mind one thought to focus on #so it could drown all the others out! much more effective than just trying to 'think of nothing' which i CANNOT do #and as i got further i began spacing out the counting. i listened to my heartbeat #and after like ten beats i'd count the next sheep #and in between the counting i found my mind drifting sort of aimlessly #vague noise i wasn't fully consciously thinking of #which i think is generally a good sign for me. cause i'm losing control of my thought processes and slipping into dreaming #but every time i'd count another sheep it was fascinating. #'one hundred and sixty sheep' and just like that the background noise was all gone. and my mind was quiet again. wow. #anyway i had a full dream for the first time in a while. my cousin was there. i missed school by accident and was disappointed. #love you all💙 sweet dreams and restful nights on planet earth even though it's ten am for me

[canisalbus]

As a longtime (2015ish) follower of yours, its been fun watching you become... more tender? toward Machete. back in the day it was angst angst angst, and i loved it! but you cant know darkness without light and vice verse. Youve been a massive inspiration the whole time btw. Its nice to see not-anthro!Machete again too

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#I just put the guy in a glue trap so tender is perhaps a questionable choice of words #but I get what you mean #I like to think I'm expanding his personality not overwriting it #so angst and edginess are still applicable #but lately it's been so fun exploring the side of him that isn't quite as soaked in hatred and despair #I've always known or at least hoped that he has a bit more range than the endless negativity he's been drowning into for so many years #even if I largely failed to convey that in any meaningful way #Vasco's presence has really helped to bring out the humanity in him and I think that's kinda neat and unexpected #answered #anonymous

[wlw-cryptid]

I am once again thinking about having a big strong butch lay back in my lap to nurse after a long day

Telling them that I want to make Daddy feel better and pulling their hands to my chest, helping them pull my shirt away. They'd hum and humor me because not even whatever cool-headed calm exterior they put on will stop them from having their princess's heavy tits in their mouth, and I'd eagerly pull them closer. Once their mouth was full, I'd start start talking them through it. Telling them how good it feels in my soft, warm voice, telling them how much I love them. What a good daddy they are, what a good butch they are, how they take care of me like a good husband should. My body's here to take care of all their needs.

I'd go from holding their hand to rubbing their forearm to massaging over their hips, and their eyes would get heavy as they relaxed more and more into me. Sure I'd sigh and whimper and love how it felt, but my voice would begin taking on that other tone; the one that reaches into their mind and soothes all their thoughts down until they can only wait for what I tell them. Before they even realized it, they're preening at being called a good boy and I'm undoing their belt, slipping my hands under their pants and palming at their bulge. I coo about how hard they are, how sweet they are to me, asking them little things like "do I taste good, sweetheart? does that feel good?" just to make them nod and listen and obey more than anything else. When I stroke their cock through their nice black boxers, I want them to moan into my breast and whine out "more" and "please" until they can't take it anymore n remind me whose in charge

#anyways i got off thinking about this earlier #i just want to be taking care of daddy and Pretending like I'm being subservient as they actually drown in subspace #she speaks #i know this isnt fine writing but i wanted to share #it would be so healing to start a scene cooing for daddy. make them moan for mommy. n then switch back to them being in charge n mounting m #once theyre inside. coming back to their senses and me falling apart under them #i wish you all a very lactation kink. drink my milk and tell me how youll help me produce more #greatest hits

[mispatchedgreens]

🪭 The Court Official and The Curious Case of the Bitten Peach 🍑

or, wang baoxiang is the protagonist of a xianxia drama where there's less betrayal, the same amount of ghosts, and also bisexuality is unlocked

#the radiant emperor #he who drowned the world #she who became the sun #wang baoxiang #the third prince #ayushiridara #i lost my MIND on this #special thanks to all the cdrama i watched recently and also to gatoraid #for writing a man of letters and giving me permanent bi wbx disease #he's like haha girl I'm so gay I'm straight it's all good but nuh uh comp het was here for you all this time #anyway someone shoot me so i can stop thinking abt the third prince sarcastically calling baoxiang 'gege' #also this is fantasy okay it's fantasy he can have a mullet #my art

[vimbry]

jumping off the back of the post about genres of song lyrics, another thing about tmbg's lyrics in particular is that even when they write about pleasant themes, they still manage to frequently do so through a sinister lens:

the experience of having children and looking after them:

a nice little nightlight protecting a child muses on the shortcomings it would have outside its assigned responsibility:

fantasising about getting high in the park with your crush:

#tmbg #AND. I love it. #please feel free to add to this btw. I feel like there's more flansburgh examples but they're dropping out of my head #I've gone on and on about ''sleeping in the flowers'' already. so I won't repeat myself too much in the tags here #but I can also see how it's intended to come across as playful. like. #it's two people in love having a silly exchange between each other #I also like the little interlude from the nightlight's lullaby-of-sorts to the child to describing how it would make a really bad lighthous #''man it's a good thing I'm not one of those. I'm too small. if I did that then people at sea would crash and drown horribly hahaha #anyway good night'' #and actually re: nanobots. it only just occurred to me #I'd gotten 'newborn citizenship of the micronations'' being a verbose way to describe. babies lol #but is the start of verse about the actual birth of a child and getting so distracted by the preparation and stress #that you almost forget oh yeah. I have this kid now :) #and thinking about how even tho your worries around that are now over you'll focus instead on all the future responsibilities you'll have #how does something written in such a detatched way manage to be so sweet

[lunarharp]

I wish things were easy

#witch hat tag #orufrey #why..did i draw this . one of those times i just draw to drown out my brain . All night . . . *leaves* #Was just thinking how oru is living in that beautiful slow cook paradise day in day out where this could go on for years #don't even gotta dwell on it - it's cooking itself cause the lid's on - just sit back my friend - #and thus what we'll have at the end will be so perfectly to our taste. And qif's living in an evanescence song #i will never leave them i will be here until the end #Sorry i made alaira qifrey's ex again. i'm apologising to myself even though i dont mind but i would if i wasnt me but i am

[coffyblak]

#i'm too tired rn to think of something to write #anyways. i liked this one #the pose on the right *is* a bit weird-looking but i liked making this #green fuck #☕ draws somethin #ben drowned arg #behavioral event network #digital art #digital artist

[langernameohnebedeutung]

because of course OceanGate guy is the son of an oil magnate

#I'm going to out myself: I do feel sorry for these poor bastards. They're complete morons who did this to themselves but #honestly what a shitty way to go #even if they find them in time - they cannot lift them #so I really hope it's hull damage. One 'pop' and they'd be gone. Not even drown just get flattened by the pressure. #I think it is the best way out for them at this point #oceangate

[imminent-danger-came]

hi. mentally ill about soren and claudia. the siblings in tdp all make me insane but soren and claudia are so. viren's daughter claudia and her brother soren (he doesn't like soren). the fact that at first claudia seems like the nice one but soren questions when he's doing the wrong thing and claudia digs herself deeper every chance she gets. that one scene where to protect ezran (?) (it's been a while since i watched this bit) he threatens claudia and she just looks so heartbroken and determined. they both do. because they still do care so so much about each other, it's just that they've taken such different paths and neither of them is willing to bend, not even for the other. <- not normal

OMG A TDP ASK FOR ME??????????????

Who doesn't love Soren and Claudia.

Like, Soren was willing to kill his father in the name of what was right, and Claudia was willing to bring her father back from the dead ignoring what was right ("I did things...I never imagined I would be able to do"). Claudia in s2 wants to "use [her] words not [her] muscles" but when it comes down to it, she's always going to use the strength dark magic gives her to get what she wants, and Soren has since learned that forgiveness and friendship are powerful things. Claudia has only distanced herself from the personhood of the creatures/people around her further and further (which is part of the danger of dark magic), while Soren has only become more and more aware of it.

Soren would jump headfirst into the sea in heavy armor to save an innocent baitling, whereas Claudia would try and squeeze her former friends to death for the sake of her goal. They both have a completely different understanding of the value of life, at all different levels, with Viren learning that value later:

And I think Soren learning to value life more and more over the course of his arc 1 er, arc, only adds to the fact that he's willing to kill his father at the end of s3.

Had Soren been down in the ocean with the rest of the gang in 5x09, I think he wouldn't have hesitated in killing Claudia either, despite how much he cares about her.

While Claudia's followed the dark path of her father ("Daddy look! I'm following in your footsteps!") Soren's been trying to walk a different path. To follow Ezran and his efforts for a brighter future.

I just think they're neat!

(For context, these scenes take place right after one another. Soren staying on the surface to look after their creature friends VS Claudia who sinks bellow to the ocean floor using the corpse of a pentapus)

Bonus "My eyes for truth" and seeing personhood comp:

#thinking about how 'No matter where you are on the path- no matter what you've done before...every step forward is a choice! I am free' #also applies to walking on the path of light #Like for Soren reaching after Clauida. And Callum doing dark magic again in 5x08 #You know what I'm saying #tdp #tdp analysis #tdp parallels #the dragon prince #tdp Soren #tdp Claudia #asks #gumy-shark #also tdp is insane with it's water/darkness symbolism #Like in 5x07 Soren is all like ''If you see Claudia again tell her I said hi'' and then he gives up and prepares to SINK and DROWN #Going back to the abyss are we Soren #Be amazed by how much I can overthink everything

[chalkrub]

ode to the drowned rat. who’s hiding under there??

#my art #monster art #oc #baphy #(spoiler alert it's baphy. baphy is hiding under there) #anthro #kind of #these festival designs are very fun to draw....I said I wouldn't but I might design their actual appearances too #i'm redrawing them rn to be more detailed. baphy was first designed so naturally she gets first redraw #they all have themes for their costumes. baphy is a drowned rat. hence the writing saying drowned rat #i love shading things without thinking about light sources and just doing whatever the fuck #one last thing - hanging out with friends the other day and discussing which animals we thought we could beat in a fight #and only two of us thought we could beat a european badger. SAD #and then we were made to feel like WE were crazy for saying we would absolutely win against a badger in a fight #am i crazy for thinking i could destroy a badger in a fight. they're 30cm tall

[hikarielizabethbloom]

You don't get it. The point is that HE SEES HER!

Nobody else did. Not even her closest friend. No one. But the d(o)rk lord does. He looks at her and he sees an equal. Someone as strong as him, as powerful as him, as smart as him.

And she likes it! She likes the feeling of BEING SEEN!

#I'm not saying it's just women #But the 'pain' of not being seen #Listened to and taken seriously #Is a feeling that I think it's universal among women #So it's easy for me to understand why a character like Galadriel may feel drown to Halbrand #Even in Tolkien's canon no one listened to her #Hell #Not even fans sees what his behind her graceful facade #Sadly I have many feeling about Galadriel #the rings of power #lotr rings of power #rings of power #amazon rings of power #trop #rop #saurondiel #haladriel #galadriel #sauron #halbrand/sauron