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y-vna · 4 months

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Ty for 400!

It may be 1:30am, but honestly, I just felt like I wanted to write this. Thank you for 400 followers!! That's crazy. I'm super thankful, and honestly, it means a lot to me! <3 super excited for more to come, I hope my moodboards rn are up to standards!

I'm not tagging anyone this time since I don't want to disturb everyone every time I write one of these. Just know all my mooties and idols r amazing, and I love them. You guys know who you are, ily 💕

Just a boring text post for this milestone post cuz I can't be bothered rn ahh

Teeny Itty bitty vent in tags since I can't get my life tghtr rn erm! Don't feel pressured to read it, idrc ig?? 😭😭

#lil vent i will most def regret in the morning #im not quitting just tired ig? social media and my lack of motivation r just dragging me thru the mud brutally and thats why im slow postin #i literally cannot handle seeing pepple from discord that despise me from when i used to gossip and a bunch of stuff on there #im gonna prob delete the song req stuff in my inbox. im so done w it. js like the event prizes #i want to still provide the full prizes #but its so much work and im unmotivated so ill do it eventually :(#i dont rlly think ill makr an event anyrime soon cuz it kind sucks aaahh #my moots nd friends on here the only reason i havent quit bc im burnt out by myself i only live off the interactions i have on here #i dont know what else to say i just wanna like forget any accounts on anywhere from me every existed cuz im not a good decision maker at al #i'll be normal in the morning probably hahaaha #tysm for the support anyway

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moenmomentsthemoe-en · 3 months

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i might incomprehensibly scream and cry with no context without replying to anyone on tumblr for the next two weeks please forgive me

#GAH IM DOING OKAY ISH i think im just burnt out from treating tumblr like a form of work standard that i have to keep up #while my mind unravels im gonna try something (and be majorly inactive. {I SEE UYOUR TAGS AND MESSAGES PLEAS KNOW I LOV YOU I CANT REPLY-#-WITHOUT GETTING DEPRESSED OR ANXIOUS SO IM TRYING A DETOX SOSO PLEAS KNOW I KEEP YOU IN MY HEART AND WAVES AT YOU FROM OTHER SOCIALS SOMET #OKA SEE YOU my sanity is depleting but there is a plan.#will it work.? one way to find out #. also if anyone wants my discord feel free to ask for it (i may reply really late though . the Illness)

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levi-dayne · 8 hours

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being autistic -> 🫠

vent in tags

#im so fucking burnt out #its so frustrating bc according to my parents im 'high functioning' and 'shouldnt let my autism impact me that much'#beyond that being outdated like they didnt just slap an autism label on me for FUN. its bc i fucking have autism #so yes i have difficulties related to my autism. they dont understand and its so frustrating theyre always on my ass about things i CANT do #or struggle doing bc im autistic and burnt out and i hate this so much #and i called my mom out on it and she said 'well i didnt say you dont struggle just that it should be manageable'#okay but its fucking not???????#like i stg they think my autism is JUST special interests and sensory issues. which its fucking not.#i struggle taking care of myself. i struggle interacting with people. i struggle with keeping up with things or switching between tasks #and dont even get me started on my DAD he doesnt even believe the doctors that im autistic #he compared my inability to understand social cues to wanting to be a bitch but being forced to repress it #like dude. when people perceive me as being a bitch its not bc im failing at hiding it #its bc i genuinely cant tell if my words or body language is coming across as bitchy even when i dont have any underlying resentment #he doesnt even think im autistic which is so frustrating #my mom begrudgingly accepts it but my dad thinks the LICENSED PROFESSIONALS are wrong #he hasn't done ANY research on autism EXCEPT to correct me when i say autism instead of autism spectrum disorder #which is also bullshit bc he and my mom use outdated terms like aspergers all the fucking time #(and ableist slurs)#im just so overwhelmed and i cant function #personal posts 😌✨️✨️

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n-o-eyes · 1 year

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okay soooo dlc is out and everyone is going to go insane about it. Im not in the mood for live-posting or whatever and I don't really feel like chatting about it with others rn because spoilers or what have you. That being said I will compile my thoughts while I play through it and talk about it later.

#cotl spoilers #cult of the lamb #im burnt on socializing a lot of folks are really bumming me out #and i miss the days when it was just me and the brainrot thinking about things a mile a minute #ramble

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britneyshakespeare · 4 months

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i might seem like just a mentally ill eccentric. but deep down i care about the children

#im talking about my job #tales from diana #i probably dont seem eccentric at all to the ppl i work w just socially anxious (which is very obvious irl & always has been w me)#i dont know how to explain my conflict about working at my high school lately other than. it's not just my trauma #with that particular building. i mean yes it's very much awoken w me when im in there #but everything that was wrong w the *culture* of my school. the way teenagers in that district acted.#it's like. exactly the way i left it seven years ago #and i think a lot of it has to do with the incompetence of the administration and i hate to say it but. individual teachers to some extent #i mean ppl just have no expectations for these children to be respectful and apply themselves #when you treat students with dignity and present their work with dignity they will feel dignified and care more.#there are lots of systemic issues that affect teenagers too that cause them to be disengaged as well #and you never know what's just going on in their individual lives that's interfering w their school success.#in many ways it's like the way they fare is so out of our hands that i get why teachers are so burnt out and cant be assed #im very much bright-eyed and bushytailed in some ways. even tho i do not see this as a glamorous job #i am very young and haven't been doing this long enough to have EVERY ideal beaten out of me. just most of em.#yeah. the culture of that high school is just awful.#in general i have very high opinions of teenagers. and low opinions of high schoolers.#it's not who they are that is wrong. it's the building they inhabit and the ways they move around it.#it's the potential of them that is being ill-served that frustrates me so much.#they deserve better and so do we as the adults working there #that's that on that

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no-mercy-bby · 6 months

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I feel like no one ever talks about feeling numb enough. Like I haven't felt a single emotion today.

#we power through #it could just be because my social battery is drained or stress i guess #but i hate it #cause i was to be happy but i just feel like :/#bby rambles #i think im getting burnt out...#but. no time to dwell on that #i am going to clean and eat snacks at the same time

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ur-cute-so-i · 8 months

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It's funny going to therapy for a new issue when you've been going for 6 years for a now stabilized issue. I spent my whole intake appointment being like- here's the whole story of my anxiety issues but I've got it covered actually don't worry about that, do you think I'm just regular burnt out or have I been low key neurodivergent my whole life?

I think I'm just regular burnt out but who knows maybe I'm one of the people contributing to those "why is everybody AHDH/autistic nowadays" articles 🤷🏻‍♀️

#like seriously im like here the time i dropped out of school and had massive dissosiative episodes #heres the time i thought everyone hated me because i couldnt keep my room clean #heres the fact that i used to cry every time i did dishes #but ignore that #im very tired all the time and cant do my chores.#do you think im just burnt out since being a nurse is hard or do you think ive been neurodivergent?#i dont think i am really- at least not adhd autism #i think i just spent my entire life only knowing divergent people so that was the socializing i did #but my partners have both been like #babe you look rough and need help #so i am listening to them

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#me when im feeling normal: lol y do i get burnt out so badly?#also me when im feeling normal: ur not allowed to do anything until u get X things done. u will focus for 8hrs then youll fucking sit there #and focus some more bc u really wanna not be doing X anymore #and my brain is just like wah i dont wanna #im trying to be nicer abt it. like trying to not get so frustrated when i cant focus and get distracted #and then just take a deep breath and start things #but it is weird how for whatever reason part of my brain decides im not allowed to do things until i meet X conditions #its very annoying and is why my life is such a fucking disaster lol #srry for being so chatty today i dont think I've talked to anyone since like friday? or Thursday?#no wait i opened the doors to the lab for a friend yesterday. but i was kinda talking past her bc my brain was like 2min delayed lol #hhhhh ive gotta get up at like before 6 to work with the fucking machines. bc i said i would test something today but i didn't so tomorrow #morning it is. but 1st i gotta fucking start this last application bc i wanna stop having stress dreams #hhhh 8 days and i can go home :-( and then i can stress abt other things #its weird to think abt but idk if ppl realize how little i tslk to ppl. like my socializing is being around ppl in the lab #and i try to go in when theres no one there so a when im stuck in a car with someone its like bro this is the most ive talked all week #i spend 90% of my life in silent isolation and the other 10% talking way way too much lol #but i cant help it. lulls in conversation make me wanna scream. also insert that always sunny quote abt having shit to say lol #unrelated

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storytellersun · 2 years

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#i just told my partner that i gave up everything to come to nyc for school #that ive been dealing with social isolation and burnout here everytime i come back for a semester #and i have their emotional state on my shoulders bc he doesnt understand that when he complains abt his coworkers or his mom or dad or #siblings that i would cut out my heart and eat it to not have to schedule a time to talk to my friends back home or to him or anyone #i told him to get a new therapist if he was foing to keep dumping his shit onto me without allowing me to breathe #i had to deal with him crying and sobbing eben though im the one 4000 miles away from home #even though im the one who thinks im not good enough to even live here in academics #i told him i was burnt out and it became a discussion abt him and his feelings and i hate it #i feel like im choaking #no one cares harleigh

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gayemoji · 7 months

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i am a bag of flesh and bones. i am tangentially alive.

#today is a throwaway day but i need to do things so i cant actually throw it away #i am severely sleep deprived . idk how this happened .#i think im also burnt out from job interviews. and job interviewing .#and social interaction in general bc of how many calls ive had with random people ive never met #i feel so lethargic and tired #i need a nap #i have another call in 3 hours #i just want to be lazy and watch a movie :[#bad idea to openly journal on the hellsite but here we are #thanks for listening #m

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cynicalundead · 11 months

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it's lowkey kinda hard to deal with being the host of my system ngl

like before when I was I was kinda in my element yk? most of my existence was protecting us from my stepmom and dissociating. but now I'm a whole ass adult? and I have to manage a job? and a life?? and my SYSTEM??? WHICH IS A MESS BTW??

it's so hard I'm honestly kinda exhausted. thank god for escapism and women. don't know where I'd be without either. as much as it's cool to not be preoccupied with survival all the time it's kinda hard to do stressful adult stuff that takes considerably more effort than just sitting around being mistreated. can't wait for my vacation at the end of this month so I can actually relax for a few days

#ramble #not rlly a vent i dont think? but just in case #vent #david.txt #i only recently started being host again because of a situation with our last one jesse #long story short she formed to protect us from something traumatizing that our gatekeeper percieved as an active threat still #and didnt know until recently #however the way that she protects us is very persecutory and socially & psychologically damaging #so for the past 6 months that shes been host everything has been hard #all the rest of us have been trying to hold the system together while she was beyond dysfunctional everytime she fronted #which was 80% of the time #it was extremely damaging and dangerous for her to be host #eventually i got over her shit and she was 'healed' enough to allow others to front more often #and so i decided i wanted to be host #i tried for a few weeks it didnt work she ended up back #but then 2 days ago she realized what her problem was and recollected the traumatic event finally #and the gatekeepers apparently didnt like that bcuz now shes inclined to heal from it sooner than theyd like #and suddenly i havent heard from her in two days and im frontstuck #i mean i was fronting for nearly 2 weeks straight before that but not without jesse around #so i was already burnt out before she was no longer allowed to front #but oh boy. now im really processing the wild ride im in for. here we go ig #david arc part 2 #idk if ill be able to do this shit man it's a lot

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whimsimoon-archive · 1 year

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so crap at life lately

barely have energy to do anything

#i think im just burnt out with it all #i should probably get off social media too lol #whimsi words

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pizzapizzadickz · 1 year

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I. Its gonna be a hard day.

#i cant do this im so stupid i want to die #hey lets go to the bridge #socially acceptable #diary #personal #the more absolutely exhausted i am the more i just. appear autisitic.#like. idk maybe its not that exactly. but. i sorta stim more. with a flat face. and stare off in space.#idk. im burnt out rn. so like. ill force myself to function but im not really.#i. honestly cannot feed myself. im just hoping i can get home easily today bc im not sure ill be able to even.#like. i may have to give up at some point and find somewhere to like. sit down for a bit.#yknow what happens when something goes wrong for me (like i miss a bus). i just sorta walk aimlessly.#bc internally its like but like. externally im very flat.#god im already just dreading everything i have to do when i get home today.#i have to shower. feed the bunny ...thats it really.#i probably wont bother feeding myself today. unless its grab n go via the fridge.#its too expensive to buy myself anything. i dont wanna bother.#god i feel like such a bother. whenever like this i get into the loop of thinking that i just. should push through everything. im faking #mn. im getting myself really worked up already. i really wanna walk around. its maybe calming? but when i do its aimless #and i cant stop when im distressed. bc i have to find a destination to stop and usually i think #mn. its not like i want to die or anything. i just need to curl up in a warm dark very quiet place. n listen to my music and slee0 #i. think today will turn out very badly. haha. i hope i dont have a breakdown. probably will?#suicidal ideation #its too bad its socially unacceptable to lick out cups. i always do. whenever i make a latte at home i lick out the last bit to get it all.#mn. im always trying to be and mask. and honestly im so upset. so hopefully i still look okay at this cafe #well maybe ill get high when i get home today ...if i dont work tomorrow. fuck this is all burning me out.#ik i can do it. but its hard bc i need something to keep going. like. idk. all the horrible coping mechanisms i prevent myself from doing #are really what keep me from having a breakdown. tho i guess its just a moreso controlled breakdown. cuz i usually do anyways.#drugs tw #mn. i think ill just plan and prepare for the rheumatologist appointment next week. planning calms me. and i ran out of books to read #i dont feel like reading lately. too tired really. maybe i should email my therapist like ive been meaning to.

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ex-vespidae · 2 years

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feel like a crusty blob on the floor

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flowerflowerflo · 1 month

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girl's guide to academic success: part 1 ⊹˚. ♡

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ organisation

first off, have something to organise ur academic life with! i personally use notion (which i'll add later) but u can use anything as long as it's cute, convenient, unique and accessible to you, your life and your schedule specifically. especially as a visual learner, i like to have somewhere i can dump literally everything regarding a singular area in my life, so i do this for almost everything along with school and i highly recommend this <3

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ recognition of talents & improvements

analyse your strengths and weaknesses. think back on tests, exams, marks, and analyse which ones you got highest and lowest on. dont beat urself up for it, obviously; it's just to check which subjects you're doing good in and which ones have room for improvement. for example i love science but im not the best at it sometimes and we had an assessment recently and i didn't get as high as i'd like so i wrote down a little list on a piece of paper in my pencilcase for the topics i got the least in for me to study on my own to practise later.

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ laying out goals

set down specific goals; i like to do this week by week accustomed to my schedule that week in my school notion page along with images and vision boards based on the term/semester, but you can do it for the week, the month, the year, anything as long as its helpful to you

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ productive planning

plan accordingly based on ur time energy. when creating any to do list or productivity plan dont pile a ridiculous amount onto it that just leaves you stressed and overwhelmed because that defeats the entire point; this works the same for academic plans and goals and lists etc.

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ extra credit

put extra work in to the subjects you know will help you in the future. for example, for my personal aspirations i need to excel in english, history and textiles so i always try my absolute hardest and put my all into those lessons and do extra studying for them in my free time where i can. school is to prepare you for the future so take advantage of that

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ asking questions

please don't be shy to ask questions! that's what teachers are there for and you won't have them forever so take advantage of it while you can! you can even do it in that little window of time just after class if ur too nervous to ask in class. for example, on my last english exam i went to my teacher after class and asked about what i needed to improve on to get the marks i missed next time, and he told me i added too much detail and some other things so i wrote it down and am keeping a note of it to remind me to improve on that next time! (i got top of my class though so i didnt mind. still kind of pissed i added too much detail though)

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ participation

participate! ok im saying this as someone who still struggles with social anxiety a fair amount but if u wanna get higher marks and get on good terms w ur teacher i 100% recommend this. i don't do this in every class but i do it where i can and when i'm confident in my answer, and it's really intimidating at first but what i did is i did it first in the classes i felt most comfortable on and continued from there. it gets easier every time i swear, and nobody's judging you; they'll forget about it after five minutes. plus, what would they be judging you for? being smarter than them?

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ prioritising ur health

this is mentioned a lot in these types of posts but if you're tired or burnt out or overworked or just feel like you need to take a break then do. do the best you can and compromise like i said earlier if you need to, just make sure u are prioritising yourself over anything. <3

inspo ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

my notion ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

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lots of love! <3

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cremedensada · 24 days

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I’m gonna need general hcs on interactions with the boy next door… like what if we just moved to town and we first meet him as we’re moving in… Also can they be in like highschool? I don’t know if that’s already the gist but yeah. She’s moving in with her mom and he’s there…

Yandere Boy Next Door

sorry anon i think i went way to far away from what you wanted shdhdh also theyre senior high school students (grade 11 - 12) which is like, two preparatory years for college. so theyre adults bc im much more comfortable with that :33

btw his name is lukas !! he's named now

male yandere + gender neutral darling/reader

lukas is easily approachable - he's got that warmth about him that just draws people in. it's all practiced to maintain his popularity though.

he's also a huge people-pleaser, despite the fact he easily gets burnt out and has his social battery drained.

so when his mom asked him to be a dear and help the new neighbor's kid on their way around the school + neighborhood, he just couldn't say no

sure he's tired, possibly close to having another breakdown just thinking about being pestered by fellow students for answers to homeworks and other menial stuff, but he still manages to say yes and give her another perfectly practiced smile

when he goes over to the house next to theirs - the ones you moved in to, you had no lasting impression on him

now, don't be mistaken, he does think you're good looking but at the end of the day he'd much rather curl up in bed and sleep

so he puts up that perfectly crafted persona and invites you to head to school with him. a new environment is much easier to deal with when you're not dealing with it by yourself! (or something like that)

he tries not to be overbearing, trying to get you to open up while also making sure he's respecting your boundaries and comfort as you made your way inside the school gates

you don't share the same classes, so he asks you for your time table so he knows your schedule

he hopes he's not being creepy or anything, he's just making sure your first day transferring here goes well

sure he's known for being a caring person in general but he does feel like it's his responsibility to make sure you're doing well you know? you're neighbors now, you guys should get along!

it's smooth sailing until it's time you guys finally went home

like that morning, he waits for you and invites you to walk home with him to familiarize with the shortcuts and local lounging spots for students

all the while he tries to get you to talk about your experience today

it must be due to the amount of stress piled up on his plate that lead him to feel... nervous.

his perfect persona cracking as his calm demeanour and collected way of talking slowly devolved into nervous tangents talking about anything at all

were you displeased? his perfection was practiced and polished since he was a kid, was it still not enough for you?

he could handle disappointing people a lot better now but paired with his currently leaning towards unstable, your displeasure is something that's slowly tearing him from the inside

he's jolted out of his thoughts when you suddenly speak up.

"thanks for showing me around. i thought i was going to struggle getting used to things all by myself."

you smiled up at him. "so... yeah. you're... okay."

his heart thumped.

everywhere all around him feels a ton of degrees warmer.

"...okay." lukas was tongue tied.

on the remainder of the journey back home, he walked you to your house, ensuring you got inside safely before making a beeline towards their house and into his room.

normally at this hour he'd be passed out in bed, tired after a whole day of pretending and smiling. today was perhaps the first time he didn't go to bed with his cheeks hurting and aching from smiling so much.

laying in bed, making an excuse as to why he's not going to be joining for dinner, just thinking about you and your words.

lukas grew up living to the standards of being perfect. a perfect son. a perfect student. a perfect friend.

anything less is... unacceptable to say the least. when you do or think of something so often in your day to day life, it becomes a habit. and lukas' habit is perfection.

but you thought he was okay.

okay.

suddenly 'okay' sounds much better than being perfect.

suddenly your opinion towards him becomes much more important than anyone else's.

lukas is a people pleaser, and onwards from that moment, the only 'people' he will ever want to please is you.

i hope this is sufficient? i'm actually v sleepy rn lol but thank you for the idea!

#sub yandere #sub character #yandere oc #yandere x darling #yandere x reader #yandere imagines #yandere headcanons #yandere #yandere scenarios #tw yandere #gender neutral reader #gn reader #yandere boy next door #oc: lukas

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