#i think it helps. i cant really tell.

[leafwateraddict]

Was feeling really frustrated with my art today

Transcript under the cut

First panel: you frustrated?

Second Panel: art is different for everyone. it takes time and practice remember?

Third panel: everyones different [illegible]. you’ve just gotta keep telling yourself that until you believe it. everyone learns at their own pace. just because you don’t get it yet doesn’t make you stupid.

Fourth panel: you’ve got this kid 💙

#the context is I saw an artist I really like and got envious and sad #just me telling myself this stuff didn’t help much #but i thought drawing sans saying those things would help #and they did! #so i feel better #:) #i think i mighth have ended up making a sans oc halfway thru #cant think of a name for him tho #hes supposed to represent all those possible mess ups you make during art #sans #sansnomaly #leafs art #undertale #he has a name now #mistake!sans #mistake sans

[frecklystars]

𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃'𝚂 𝙸𝚃 𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝙵 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴? 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙺𝙴𝙳. 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙺𝙴𝙳.

#THIS IS QUEUED BTW this is old art. im still working on comms hehe #self insert #self shipping #ryan gosling #rgosling #blade runner 2049 #br2049 #officer k #my art #💕♬♪ ♡ I can't help falling in love with you ☆- ̗̀💛 ̖́-☆ #I DIED DRAWING THIS BUT IM SO HAPPY WITH IT. WE ARE IN LOVE!!!!!! #IM REALLY YEARNING IF YOU CAN'T TELL #ok here's the test. queueing this to post early. and then ill reblog in the afternoon #or repost if it flops #im trying to figure out the best time to post art. it used to be 4pm EST #anyway. [shaking] i cant stop thinking about joe so i needed to draw us together #i miss him so bad. and yknow what... i think he misses me too 🥺🥺

[whaliiwatching]

her throne is his lap

#strange magic #marianne #bog king #butterfly bog #not rlly happy with the last one but whatever #theyre in love and it transcends lineart #im really trying to do more with color if ya cant tell lol #usually i just sketch and move on but i want to make more dynamic and engaging stuff #eh ill get there #sometimes i think of the ‘she was his queen and god help whoever disrespected his queen’ quote when thinkin bout them #absolutely cracks me up #even tho in reality its more like ‘he asked for no pickles >:((‘

[angel-archivist]

It's so interesting and so exceedingly frustrating how agab is being utilized now within the queer community as a way to isolate and sort nonbinary and genderqueer folks into binary boxes that determine their moral purity levels, and their authority to do and write and exist.

The way nonbinary writers are being put under accusation of fetishizing gay men while their AGAB is continually brought up in a way that feels like queer-space-approved misgendering.

The way feminist circles that are supposedly trans-inclusive will use the word AFAB in a way that implicitly but intentionally isolates nonbinary people who aren't AFAB from joining. It's for women*.

The way the language is already flawed and leaves out intersex folks from the conversations while focusing on a binary of sex that isn't truthful.

The constant obsessing over whether someone is AFAB or AMAB and whether or not that gives them the privilege to join, do, write, or be present in certain spaces really really concerns me. How are we supposed to dismantle a binary system of gender if we can't even move past forcibly assigning and focusing on people's genders assigned at birth?

#and yes i understand! that agab language can in some circumstances be helpful in inclusive language and in the medical world but ultimately #is misgendering and unnecessary it should be up to the person to disclose their agab not an expectation of them to give up freely #I think that inclusive language shouldnt be misgendering in nature and agab as far as i can tell should only be used in select discussions #and certainly not as a way to frame a nonbinary writer as a “biological woman” but in a way where the queer community will nod along and sa #“oh they have a point” because you used the word AFAB instead #honestly afab is the term i see used most frequently and most harmfully towards other nonbinary people who don't identify w the label #to exclude trans women and amab nonbinary people #to frame nonbinary people as “still women” because of their assigned gender at birth #also i understand its not as simple as “not using” these terms bc they still serve a purpose and are important #but as they leave the queer community and as they enter the hands of cis queer people they become weapons #i wish i could like manifest my thoughts super clearly but i really cant bc its a difficult situation #its just another example of misogyny and bio-essentialism creeping into the queer community #because the patriarchy impacts all things including our discussions of trans oppression and gender we need to stop viewing it #as a strict binary of male female and oh sometimes we'll mention nonbinary people but we're all afab and amabs at the end of the day <3 #like flames literal flames #if you wanna like chip into the conversation just shoot me an ask or respond to the post i'd love to hear other peoples perspectives #im not infalliable so if i said anything you view as incorrect especially in regards to intersex folks and how you all would like to be #included in these discussions as im not intersex but am aware of how agab is a subject that leans into the idea of a binary of sex #so yeah rant over <3 #retro.bullshit #rant

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i have never felt this uniquely insane about a character <3 i cant get a read on him

#what is his DEAL #im usually really good at pegging a character's intentions / general vibe #BUT IM GETTING SO MANY MIXED SIGNALS THAT I JUST DONT KNOW #his off the charts rizz is fucking up my geiger counter #is he evil? is he a victim? a pawn/minion? does he have good intentions? neutral ones? bad ones? #I CANT TELL #welcome home #wally darling #i mean im team 'wally is a victim just trying to help / protect his friends (maybe the 'viewer')' #and home is maybe the main villian but also not bc the villain is the abstract force of cosmic horror manifesting as the chasm under home #and it has simply infected home or possessed it #and welcome home's whole deal is cosmic horror from a puppet's perspective #and they all need to stick together like glue to get through the Ordeals and Situations #and wally's just trying to keep his friends safe and the neighborhood together and fix home #BUT if it turns out wally is straight up evil then. yknow. i support his wrongs <3 #he could do literally anything and id be twirling my hair cheering and clapping #i love his big hair and gay little outfit #ever since i watched night minds video he hasnt left my brain. i think he's eating it #like i want him dead. i want him to be happy. i want to beat his little body against a wall until his stuffing comes out. i want to hug him #he is everything to me. he activates my maiming instincts but also my cherish instincts #i want him to get all the hugs from his friends #god i cant wait for this whole enchilada to kick off its gonna be a DOOZY #i trust clown's brilliant mind no matter which way they take this #absolutely fascinating stuff. i already know im in this for the long haul

[pansear-doodles]

imposter syndrome is a bitch

it can happen to artists you think are already enough or are skilled and great in your eyes

as much as it motivates us to improve ourselves and do better, its still not a pleasant feeling at all

its a persistent cycle of admiring someone who doubts themselves and i dont think its selfish to think that "you're not good enough"

because life has been cruel to us and for most of our lives we've been taught to "suck it up" or that we fear that our outputs are invalid in some way or mean nothing to anyone- the outputs that have parts of ourselves in it, even if it isn't meant to take a part of ourselves- it still came from us nonetheless

posts can easily say that you should be kind to yourself more but when it comes to trauma and something that's been with you since childhood, it's not as simple to shake off

it can take years and years- varies for every individual- and even then the people around you, the world and even yourself will change

as much as its awkward or a downer to see, be kind to artists who are hard on themselves. its not your obligation to give them attention. no, i dont think every single person who sees a vent post should come up to the person and be there for them to cry on their shoulder.

i just think at the very least we should understand that every single person you meet and the artists you admire are imperfect, and they will continue to think crappy thoughts about themselves- unlike in fantasies where its some simple character arc that is a story obstacle that can be overcome and forgotten about- fantasy is meant to be a fulfillment- a desire.

we are real human beings, but we can learn and grow and live.

#this is unfortunately why some of my friendships ended. this insecurity has controlled a lot of my life but im trying to break from it #often id see people with the bigger numbers and i tell myself to be better or if im not good enough. i cant help but feel that #“trauma isnt an excuse” for shitty behavior towards others? yes. but for people thinking crap about themselves and cant help it? not really #do you think i can be not sad at the flick of a switch? you assume i can emotionally cope well as much as everyone else simply? why? #anyway to all of my mutuals who think harshly of themselves. youre all alright. we are all here to have a good time. take things slow. #this might just me being silly neurodivergent again but there's nothing wrong with being careful like this. it *may* just be me after all #but who knows but me #thoughts

[mosstrades]

Oh wait this is fucked up actually. Marcy grew up around Simon while he was actually already under the effects of the crown (both physically and mentally). He was already unraveling by the time they found each other, even if he still felt like he was 'himself', so Simon as we know him, regular-ass Simon, would be in ways a kind of stranger to her. Physically, in his appearance and presence decoupled from the effects of the crown; situationally, what with them not being in a barren wasteland and whatnot; emotionally and personally, with Simon maybe doing things or showing himself to be things that Marcy didn't know to expect. And add to that how much they've both changed over the course of their lives since they separated...

While Simon managed to see her life through Ice King's eyes for a while, I like to imagine the memory is fuzzy at best and entirely unreliable at worst, so — in a way, truly, their reunion is them getting to know each other all over again, in a new dynamic, but with the base of that same old, foundational relationship; that same old, old love.

And I'm so normal about it.

#(the reconnection of a grown up kid and her dad who she only knew as an active user after he gets out of rehab) who said that #<- projecting hard #adventure time #nick.txt #marceline abadeer #simon petrikov #fionna and cake #Do you think Simon has a strained relationship with self-expression and silliness after being IK. Do you think it makes Marcy think about #the Simon who raised her - always cracking jokes to help them both cope? #You ever think Marcy gets a bit weirded out by how... normal... post-canon Simon is. #Do you ever think Simon gets bouts of 'madness'* and she's like 'oh hey I know this guy'. #Do you ever think she tells childhood anecdotes from that time he wasn't there and he gets this heavy look of regret he cant quite hide-- #(at this point i have been shot with a tranquilizer dart) #*I think the relationship AT has with the complicated-ass concept of altered consciousness/'madness'/mental illness is really interesting #and has a lot of potential for expansion in fic #What with themes alienation from yourself and from others. What with the portrayal of what your being 'mad' 'does' to you/those around you. #What with themes of guilt and forgiveness and acceptance and responsibility and healing. #Like. If youre like me and you hc Simon as having a litany of mental struggles. At what point does that differ from #the magic-induced altered state? #and what does that look like and feel like? How does that affect himself and his connection to others? #I think its a very easily dismissed concept bc of how it brushes some pretty stank ableist tropes #but I also think it could be incredibly #resonant if treated skillfully and compassionately and realistically #to put it crassly #local man finally free of crazy-crown-curse discovers he has severe mental illness. like. the normal person kind. #has to deal with that. #tldr simon my friend simon my favorite he/she grandma who experiences psychosis <3 #and marcy my friend marcy my favorite she/they mitski stan who just wants love to surround her #the tags in this post are like three other posts. im right tho

[daily-hanamura]

i have more screenshots but idk if tumblr can handle it

#submission #hanamura yosuke #listen i do in fact think about this scene so much. so so so much. #i cant help but think about what saki used to tell naoki about yosuke considering how during an early meeting with naoki #hes brought up how he hated yosukr as well #but listen i think for me the main thing is how much i love when yosuke's big brotherness comes out especially when someone younger #is in a vulnerable state of mind #look at how hes trying to speak to naoki and reach out to him yosuke really does want to help here #and i have such a soft spot for the fact that its yu's slink with naoki i just love when yosuke shows up in yu's slinks #but yosuke being here was so important. and they wrote him so gently #god im down bad i know im not even coherent here im just!!! really! overwhelmed!! with! emotions!! #he wants to reach out to naoki but hes also careful to do it in a way that doesn't patronise him or talks down to naoki #yosukes not the best at speaking and being articulate and he's really just doing his best here to meet naoki where he is and aaaaaaaaa

[themyscirah]

This is how this went right?

Parallax!Hal: I miss being a hero... wish I had my ring back

Kyle: oh well you can have mine then! That way you can have a second chance : )

Parallax!Hal: YES!!! A SECOND CHANCE TO PLAY GOD AND RESHAPE THE WORLD AS I WILL IT MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Kyle, now ringless: .................huh. im gonna be honest here I really didn't see that coming

#KYLE OH MY GOD #losing my mind at this actually WHY DID YOU DO THAT #kyle falling prey to hal's manipulation tactics (old man tears) #i cant tell i think this is supposed to be a tense emotional moment? maybe? BUT ITS JUST SO FUNNY IM SORRY #just wow #im honestly very split on this emotionally #because while i AM laughing part of me is like KYLE WHY DID YOU DO THAT YOU IDIOT meanwhile the other half is just like kyle.... <33333 that #was actually very sweet of you (ignores the 🐘 of kyles lack of belief in himself as a hero) #vs my thoughts about hal like THE FACT THAT THAT ACTUALLY WORKED. okay girlboss you really manipulated your way out of that one ahfisusish #versus like ollie did just shoot him.... maybe he was being genuine... he seemed genuine in many parts #anyways i think the answer is very much both for all of the above #like hal was telling the truth and he was hiding his intentions from kyle and trying to prey on him to get the ring #AND kyle was being naive when he gave the ring to hal but he was also showing his good heart by trying to help PLUS was very much in his #'denial of the call' phase of his hero's journey and dealing with issues surrounding having the ring #anywaysssss #kyle rayner #hal jordan #lanterns #green lantern #parallax #dc comics #blah #swishy liveblogs

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[skelekins]

some seabun concepts :3

Leggy Seabun - He doesn't have the ability to leggy by himself. So he wears an enchanted necklace that lets him walk on land. Kelek takes Snaps to a surface monster market to get him one.

Fishbowl Ass - Seabun's booty plume are actually his gills. So thought it would be funny if he strapped a fishbowl to his butt to wander around on land. Also spritzes himself to keep from drying out too much.

Shorts - Seabun's a sea slug, he moves pretty slow, and that carries over to on land. He finds walking on the surface exhausting. Also someone made him wear shorts bc boy u nekkid.

Defense Mode - Seabun doesn't have any really offensive abilities, but he can defend himself very well. His 'fur' are actually tendrils, which are filled with toxins from the sea sponges he eats.

The pink spots you see on him are a little bulbous at the tip and store a separate pink toxin in it. When he's feeling exceptionally threatened he can release a cloud of the toxins into the water around him. It dissipates quickly in the water, but for him to use it the predator is most likely going to get a face full of it.

All of his toxins are fatal to most creatures.

#love concepting if u cant tell slkfjsd #needa do some illustrations tho #not just for seabun just in general #really needa d some friend drawings >3< #he'll stand with his arms in front of himself like that bc it helps cover his tender underbelly #if hes in defense mode he basically will huddle or flatten on the ground and looks like an angry fluffy pincushion #its not often he goes into defense mode since most creatures recognize his warning colors #kelek #creature concept #seabun #mer kelek #skelekins art #i luv seabuns chub #i think hes a lil chubbier tahn the keleks usually are

[runningatypufullspeed]

I AM BEING FORCED TO ROLEPLAY AS SCYTHE FUCKING GODDARD FOR MY SCHOOLA SISIGNMRNT CAN SOMEONE END ME PLEASE END ME NOW

#CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME?? LIKE GIVE ME SOME POINTERS #arc of scythe #only talking about the first book btw I forgot literally everything else #IVE ANNOTATED HIS CHARACTER FRONT AND BACK BUT LIKE DESPITE ALLAT IM STILL REALLY SHIT AT ROLEPLAY #also I SUCK at 0aying these sorts of villains if he was creepy that’d be a different story but he’s just pompous #and greedy and sadistic and power hungry like YEAH he is KIND of creepy but not like. captain beatty #weird comparison but *vague hand gestures #scythe goddard #I actually think it’s really interesting how both he and scythe curie glean for the sake of solving stagnation #it’s just that scythe curie gleans handpicked stagnant people whereas #goddard thinks that EVERYONE is stagnant thus he feels the need to not only glean them but traumatize them as well #‘’remind them of their mortality’’ or whatever bs I CANT ACTUALLY TELL IF HES BEING GENUINE BUT #THATS WHAT I GOT FROM HIS JOURNALS #who knows maybe that’s just an excuse to end lives excessively ugh he’s such a #I don’t wanna say shallow character? but. but #SOMEBODY HELP ME? PLEASE? #I WANNA GO BACK TO F451ING

[snekdood]

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else #you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should #change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting #affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree #with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them #or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation. #the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this. #and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough. #you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you #an authoritarian. #i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont #set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU #FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police #n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be. #you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all. #what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you #throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh. #accelerationists should never be taken seriously.

[shhh-secret-time]

To be honest, stardew valley has me in such a chokehold. It always has, even before the 1.6.

In such a way that my brain wants to smash my hyperfixation into it. So late at night I'll be awake thinking of this stardew/south park mashup.

Call that bad boy Star Park AU.

But no brain! Bad! We already have too much going on! You have a Secret Soulmate AU. Fantasy AU, A Cowboy AU story staring Kenny that's still in the outline phase, and these one shots!

(Look at the tags to watch me descent into madness)

#like C'mon #it would be so cute and wholesome #ya know #everything south park isn't #its not my fault I think about me and my friends ocs starting a little farm together #i got one friend I rp with #we smash everything into our stardew rp #it ain't even really stardew besides like the layout of the town #I could write something like that up #like Stan and his family are already “farmers” #the heart event where he tells you he fucking hates it #but next heart event he confesses he's starting to associate farming with you #and now...maybe its not so bad? #COME ON #Kenny taking Karen to see your animals and falling in love with the way you're so gentle with her #Kyle finding you passed out in the mines and scolding you for being careless #but he's patching you up while he does it!!!? #Cartman demanding you bring him crops from your farm because #“everyone elses crops taste like dirt and ball sweat! at least I can stomach yours.” #(its the sweetest thing hes ever said tbh) #tweek having his little coffee shop set up there #he gets away from his parents and moves out to the valley because its quiet! #Craig moves out there to study the stars because they're so clear he can almost see all of them without a telescope #Clyde is JUST Alex and you cant change my mind #after the death of his mother he goes to live with his grandparents #Bebe is like a mix of Haley and Emily! #her events would be you helping her get her outfit designs off the ground and using her photography skills to have you model them #Wendy's whole thing would her being the mayors assistant but over heart events you make her believe in herself #and she becomes mayor; fuck you lewis you old fuck #shhh its a secret

[bluebugjay]

kinda interesting how Mike has two big speeches throughout the show, both when a character he cares for is close to death and needs help but only one strictly calls for him reminding them of a cherished past moment yet he chooses to use the same formula for both, telling them about how they met and how it made him feel, almost as if he was struggling the second time and relied on what he knew worked the first time to try and help..

#cause i think its actually so random that he chose to confess his 'love' to her and tell her about how they met in this moment #because why would that help?? #they actually had no idea what was happening whilst El was piggybacking except that she seemed to be choking so #what part of that called for a love confession and a trip down memory lane? #compared to with Will where reminding him of important or happy memories was the actual key to helping him... #cant blame Mike though really the poor boy was panicking at least he tried #i will continue to push the parallels between these speeches / monologues im not crazy #stranger things #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #el hopper #platonic elmike

[itshomobirb]

> cat's urinary episode probably caused by stress

> both my parents left for a vacation earlier this week

> the implication that my cat got stressed out from my parents leaving

> which includes my mother, who has [redacted] me and is abusive and just Not a Nice Person

> my mother, who finds fault in litcherally everything i do for the cats. and even if i give in and do what she wants... several months later, she's complaining again

> swapped their litter several months ago to pine pellets. they've adapted nicely. their litter is fine. also doesn't track everywhere (something my mother complained about for MONTHS with their previous litter)

> my mother, unprompted: did the vet say that maybe this could be caused by their new litter?

i fucking hate her.

#borbtalks #my mother is fucking stupid and asks really pointed questions like that to try to force her opinion as Being the Right One #this includes asking me if maybe my hrt. the stuff that helped me not be low level depressed all the time. has turned me into... #.... an angry cold mean heartless brat. and that maybe bc im autistic im just not self aware enough to notice. #like uhhh no youve been calling me an angry cold mean heartless brat since i was like 5 #or asking if my dr has said im immunocompromised (with the implication that if im not. i shouldnt be masking around them.... #....i started masking around them after they tested pos for covid and didnt tell me for several days) #or when i said i wouldnt be able to participate in thxgiving bc i was having a rough time w/ my health & she asked #'is it bc of ur chronic illnesses or are u just being antisocial?' #my mother will find any fault within me & if she cant. she'll make one up. #and then everyone in my family will take her fucking side bc umm yeah her looking up ur skirt & purposefully staring at u naked is bad... #but have u um. talked to her? and asked her to stop? i just think u need to give her another chance :) #fuckijg. putting myself in a clown car & hoping it explodes.