#i told you guys i'm pessimistic about the future kshsk asking for my thoughts leads to me writing about pain and betrayal

[mgsdays]

Hello! I don't know if I'm exaggerating things but, kindly I’d like to know your thoughts on this:

First: studying? We know this Christmas special posts their graduation so does that mean Mo is attending university/ school?

2nd: He is wearing the ring Mo gave him on his Ring finger!! As I know in Chinese symbolism is:

What does that mean!! Does he take this seriously??

Oh, I hope I'm not exaggerating things!!

Hey dear! I think yes, Mo is studying for college / some kind of degree, I think He Tian is taking the ring seriously BUT I think they're not together romantically and that Mo didn't mean it that way so... it doesn't matter that he's taking it seriously. You can't get engaged if the person isn't asking you? kshdkdh He Tian is just like that

I am super pessimistic about the Christmas chapters 😅 I don't like sharing my thoughts because some people read these as the two of them already together and I wouldn't want to be bursting that bubble. But I don't think they are together. HT doesn't know where Mo lives. Mo is uncomfortable when HT touches him -- just as uncomfortable as he is now. HT doesn't know if Mo is studying and seems unsure about what is happening in his life. They act like they haven't made any progress at all, if anything, they've taken steps back.

I think when He Tian left this hurt Mo deeply. Mo is still angry, aching, pulling at scars at every turn, and he'll have a hard time trying to trust again. So He Tian taking the ring seriously is just He Tian being He Tian. He can't get engaged to a guy that is still hating his guts.

And Mo, god. I think Mo is in love with him, probably hasn't stopped, since he was 15, but He Tian leaving hurt him so much. He had never been hurt that deeply by someone he trusted before. Mo has a hard time letting anyone in, he's got scars, and he was fighting all those inner demons for He Tian. He Tian was carving out a space for himself in Mo's life and Mo was letting him.

Mo was taking care of He Tian on occasion. He was beginning to show he cared. For him, that's not easy.

He was coming to He Tian for help. With She Li, the most pressing issue, but he was coming to He Tian for help but in general too.

He was opening up and learnig to trust and letting He Tian in.

And then He Tian leaves.

When He Tian left, all of that journey for Mo would read like a deep betrayal. It is reaffirming some of those demons Mo had been carrying with him before - he should be alone, letting people in only causes him pain. He really can't trust anyone.

He Tian showing up again doesn't fix this. He's playing it cool, smilling his way into Mo's heart again, and eventually it will work, but they are not there yet. The ring doesn't change this. They still have a long way to go.

#sorry if this is.... sadder than you wanted dear haha #i told you guys i'm pessimistic about the future kshsk asking for my thoughts leads to me writing about pain and betrayal #i think it's totally cool if you don't see it that way #if you disagree with me i actually hope you're right haha #19 days #ask box #da-zz