#i truly and with my whole heart LOVE oikawa

[elizadrafts]

the last voicemail

timeskip!oikawa x gn!reader

warnings: all hurt no comfort, mentions on engagement, iwaizumi mentioned???, not proofread

wc: 532

synopsis: after a rough fight with oikawa, you’ve been staying at a friends house for the time being. while you’re unable to sleep, you find yourself listening to a voicemail from an unknown number.

a/n: this is my first fic ! please be respectful when giving me criticisms !! had to edit due to copy errors…forgot the whole first paragraph oops

rest under the cut !

it had been about four weeks since you and oikawa got in the worst fight you’ve ever experienced. doors were slammed, voices were raised, and rings were thrown. your hand had felt bare without the beautiful silver ring that oikawa gifted to you, a promise of his never ending love. none of it felt real, you wished it were a horrid nightmare, that you could roll over and see oikawa’s sleeping figure.

you’ve been staying at your friends apartment for the time being, quick to pack your bags and get out of the house where the fight ensued. it was radio silence from tooru, no calls or texts of any sort. it slightly worried you, but you figured he had moved on already. he had hundreds of fans that were waiting for him, waiting for *you* to mess up. and you did.

tossing and turning in bed, you found yourself sleepless one night, something felt off. you weren’t late for work, it was still dark outside, there couldn’t have been a problem with a loved one, you had lost the one only who lived in the area. finally reaching for your phone, you saw the notification of a voice message from a number you couldn’t recognize, you couldn’t even recognize the area code.

“hey y/n… it’s quite early there.”

frozen, you took a moment to process oikawas voice on the other end. his breathes were short, it was like he had just played a whole volleyball match, a core memory from your high school years.

“it’s been a while since we talked...i wish i could’ve seen you before i left. i never even got to tell you the news.”

racking your brain, you couldn’t remember what he was looking forward to..did he get into a top university? had he landed a good job?

“i left last week, to argentina. made it onto their national team. crazy right? i remember spending nights talking about this to you.”

he forced out a laugh, it was clear he didn’t know how to tell you. hearing this shattered your heart, you remember how you planned to be there to celebrate the moment with him. you planned to go to the airport with him, wish him farewell. you planned to travel the world by his side, supporting him through every up and down.

“i still have your ring. maybe it’ll bring me good luck. make sure iwaizumi’s okay for me, he’ll work himself to death without someone watching.”

another forced laugh, it felt as if he was hiding who he truly was. it was a pain that couldn’t be soothed. you’ve truly lost tooru, there was no apology that could bring you two back to how you were.

“one day let’s meet again y/n.”

the voicemail ended with a satisfying beep. feeling tears well up in your eyes, you realized this was all too real. desperately trying to call him back, everything went straight to voicemail. you couldn’t send one, you needed to genuinely talk to him. this wasn’t how you wanted to end, but the universe doesn’t things for a reason, hopefully.

you’ll remain watching him on the big screens, cheering for him on the side.

#haikyuu x reader #timeskip haikyuu #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu oikawa #oikawa x reader #oikawa imagine #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu #haikyuu scenarios #oikawa angst #haikyuu angst #oikawa x y/n #oikawa x you #haikyuu x you #angst #oikawa

[mrs-kodzuken]

Self care w/ me & you & you ♡

Pairing: Haijme Iwaizumi x fem!reader x Tōru Oikawa

WC: 1.3k

Genre: fluff, so much fluff

CW: fem!reader, poly relationship, self care night with iwa & kawa, kissing, slight cursing

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"A what?"

A loud gasp was heard from the one and only Tōru Oikawa.

"Iwa-chan! Are you serious? Haven't you ever heard of a lover's self-care night? Oh Y/n-chan! Our relationship is failing!" Oikawa dramatically sobbed on my shoulder.

"To be fair, it really isn't something that's heard of a lot, Oikawa." I tried to reason with him as Iwaizumi scoffed and kicked a pebble that was in his way of walking.

"But if you truly want to, then I'll do it, and so will Iwajime." I smiled at them both, which got me a cheer from Oikawa and a gruff remark from Iwa to Tōru.

"You guys are such little kids. Go and change already; I'm going to go get everything ready. This sleepover is at my house, correct?" I got a thumbs up from Oikawa.

"Alright, see you guys there!" I waved them off, but not before snatching Hajime's volleyball jacket from him and blowing an air kiss to him.

Being in a poly relationship with those boys is pretty hectic most of the time. It's like taking care of two children and making sure they do not kill each other at the same time.

But nevertheless, I still love those crackheads. I still remember when we all got together; Oikawa had actually tried to get Iwaizumi and me together, even though he liked the both of us.

He just wanted his best friend to be happy, even if he couldn't have his happiness.

Reminiscing about that always makes my heart flutter with endearment. When I confessed that I was actually infatuated with the both of them, it was as if I was elated in that moment.

And ever since then, we've been in a heavenly correlation.

I broke away from my relentless thoughts as I headed up the stairs towards my room after telling my parents that they were coming over this weekend.

To be honest, I wasn't really sure what Oikawa meant by 'a lovers self-care night' but I do know that it's probably going to have to deal with facial care and things like that.

Gathering skin care, blankets, snacks, and movies is definitely some type of workout, and I should get an award for it. I slumped myself onto my bed and caught my breath.

I wasn't really into doing anything, so I definitely have low stamina.

The finished product looked way better. I made a huge fort in the middle of my bedroom, and inside are my portable projector for movies, string lights that I hung up, and bowls of snacks for us to eat.

All that was basically missing were my boyfriends, dinner, and a shower. I grabbed my phone and quickly ordered two boxes of pizza.

I didn't have a clue why I was so frantic about this whole ordeal.

Possibly because Oikawa always has everything planned out cautiously. Which is one of his positive skills that also contributes to him being a great partner.

After the pizza had come, I decided to go ahead and take my shower before they got here. I'm pretty sure that Oikawa is going to show up in his alien onesie that I bought him for his birthday.

It's covered head to toe with lots of small alien heads on it, and at the hood, it's green with the aliens eyes and mouth.

Soon, when I was finished with my shower, I put on a new set of pajamas that I had randomly bought.

Its fabric is really soft and has crescent moons, silver small stars, and gold stars, with random dots here and there splattered all over it. I absolutely love it; it fits right in with my love for astrology.

As soon as I pressed the last button from my top, the doorbell rang, signaling that Iwaizumi and Oikawa were here. I quickly rushed down the flight of stairs, almost tripping on a few, and opened the front door.

"Hey guys, come in. I've already set everything up for tonight." I explained as they followed me slowly up the stairs to my room.

"You shouldn't have been in such a hurry to open the door; you could have fallen and hurt yourself, Y/n." Iwaizumi assertively said this to me with a pointed look.

"I know, I know. I'm just excited." I answered sheepishly.

"Baby, we could hear you from outside; trust me, we weren't going anywhere." I mean, who would pass up seeing a face as beautiful as mine?" Obviously Oikawa said.

"Me," Hajime answered, "Yeah, definitely me too." I agreed with him, which made Oikawa pout and turn away from us.

"What do you say? You want to run away without Oikawa?" Iwa joked to me, "Why yes, of course, it's not like we're all in a relationship and love each other unconditionally or anything." I sarcastically agreed with him once again.

"If this is your way of saying you're sorry, then I accept it." Tōru said, but he still had a pout on his face.

I gave Hajime a look, as if telling him it's his turn to kiss Oikawa for when he gets annoying and pouty like this. He rolled his eyes, grabbed Oikawa's right hand, and yanked him down a bit for a kiss.

When he pulled away, his cheeks bloomed into a rosy pink tint, as did Tōru's.

I smiled wide when I saw them kiss. It's something that they always get nervous and flustered about.

"I see you smiling over there, Y/n. Don't think you're off the hook just yet." Iwaizumi said that and tugged my long sleeve over to them.

They both started attacking my face with kisses everywhere, built up laughter bubbled inside of me till I let it out.

"Okay! Okay! We better stop before this escalates to something unwholesome." I pulled away from their pecks and smiled at them. Tōru's face was basically saying, 'Can we please let it escalate?'

I glared at him for having indecent thoughts and engulfed myself in Iwa's arms.

"Oh Iwa! Save me! Oikawa is thinking unholy thoughts!" I cried.

"Shittykawa, quit being nasty." Iwaizumi hit him on the arm, and I finally took time to look at his pajamas.

They were, of course, godzilla, but it was a long-sleeved black shirt with a manga page of godzilla on it in the middle. His bottoms were black and white plaid PJ pants.

"Alrighty, so I've got facemasks, nail polishes, a pillow fort, snacks, and movies." I said, clapping my hands together.

"Ooh! I want to do my nails and a facemask." Oikawa almost jumped at the thought of getting his nails done.

"Okay, anything you would want to do, Iwa?" I giggled at Toru's childishness.

"No, you two go do that. I'll turn on a movie," he said, turning around.

"If you say so, baby, alright, Tōru, let's get this facemask on you." I turned around and faced him, but he already had one out and prepped his nails, ready for me to paint them.

"Kawa, you're so cute," I complemented while getting my green nail polish out and painting little aliens on his nails.

When they were dry and his facemask was off, we found Iwa under the covers on his phone, waiting for us.

"Hi babes! What movie did you put in?" Oikawa asked Iwaizumi while showing him his nails.

"Shrek, I thought that you might want to see yourself on TV tonight." Iwa smiled at him as Kawa gasped.

As much as I wanted to laugh, I decided to say, "Hajime, please apologize to Tōru." I finished as I laid on Oikawa's chest while Iwa wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Sorry, honey," he said sarcastically, just in time for the movie to play. I'll never get tired of these types of nights.

Just me and my boyfriend's cuddling and watching a movie with the occasional teasing.

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a/n: this is from my book “Haikyuu x Reader One Shots” on Wattpad! I hope you enjoyed and let me know if you have any requests!

the header is made by me, please like/reblog if used <3

#haikyuu poly #haikyuu oikawa #haikyuu iwaizumi #haikyuu iwaoi #iwaoi fluff #iwaoi x reader #haikyuu fluff #hq x you #hq x reader #hq fluff #hq oikawa #hq iwaizumi #iwaizumi x reader #oikawa torū #oikawa x reader

[kuraniii]

now playing:

what could have been

leilani ft. iwaizumi hajime.

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 3:45

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warnings: angst, infidelity

how did this happen?

how could this happen?

it was just a week ago that you were gazing into your lovers eyes, being held lovingly in his arms.

now you were sitting on the same couch, under the same blanket ;

without him.

you had spent the last few days crying at every reminder of him, which was basically everything. you could almost feel him, as if he was still wandering around your apartment. you could hear him, calling your name from the kitchen. the first few times you even got up to see what he needed. only to break down again upon realising he wasn’t there. and he wasn’t coming back.

little did you know, at oikawa’s house, the same thing was happening. iwaizumi was sulking around with red, puffy eyes, and a tearstained pillow in his arms. a pillow that he wishes was you.

how could he have been so stupid?

you were everything he wanted, everything he needed. you were his world, why would he need anyone but you? yet he still found himself dancing with his ex on that dreadful night. at least, it started off as dancing. he found himself dreaming of your gorgeous face, your soft skin and adorable laugh, only to wake up with tears rolling down his cheeks.

he had tried, following oikawas advice, to contact you after you kicked him out. but to no avail. he didn’t even have the energy to collect his things from your old shared apartment.

the apartment where you shared your joy, your misery and your tiredness. the apartment which contained some of your greatest memories. however when you parted ways, it felt like that box of memories had ripped open, and was spilling out onto the pavement below.

your mind was constantly being torn back to the night he shattered your heart.

he had gone out with his friends, and you completely trusted him

because, well, it was iwaizumi, right?

yet you were proven wrong when you received a picture of your boyfriend, your one and only, dancing with his ex. and as you tried to convince yourself that it meant nothing, you flicked through his friends instagram stories and sure enough, in the background you saw him kissing her.

maybe it was your fault. maybe you were the one at fault. maybe, just maybe,

you were the problem.

sobbing on the couch, you didn’t even hear your boyfriend come back home, he ran into the room as soon as he heard you crying. rushing to your side, iwaizumi desperately tried to calm you down, but you were just pushing him away.

you lifted your head and glowered at him whilst holding your phone up with the looping video of him cheating on you displayed on the screen.

hajime’s gaze flickered from the phone to your face. “baby i swear, i swear you- i- we-“

“stop trying to make useless excuses iwaizumi.” using his last name was like a knife in the heart. he had truly thrown away your whole relationship.

“the only thing i want to know ,” you continued, “is why?”

there was a long pause of silence as you watched the strongest man you thought you knew crumble in front of your eyes.

after two disappointing conversations and a shouting match, you had had enough. “JUST GET OUT. GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!”

your house? what happened our house?

oh.

and he left. that was how you got here. wishing you could’ve done something better. then again, maybe he never loved you. maybe those all nighters, those conversations, those hours spent comforting one another meant nothing to him.

but at least, you got a glimpse of what could have been.

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[eurydicees]

Random ask, who are your top 5 (or top 3) fav characters from Haikyuu? And why do you love them? Also, what are your top 5 fav moments from the series? Thanks if you want to answer....

oh i would LOVE to answer !!! sorry it took so long to get to this!! this was sooooo hard to do. it's not in any particular order because i can't bring myself to do a favorites list like that, as i have so much love in my body to give to the world and also haikyuu specifically. under the cut because this got long!! there ARE manga spoilers in this post!!!

top 5 characters

oikawa

yeah we all say this one coming let's be honest with ourselves here. his growth as a person genuinely makes me crazy. he's so well developed and he's truly such a fascinating character. his arc is beautifully tied in with the MCs and beautifully ended. the way it all ties together and comes together with him at the end...chef's kiss. i have a whole theory about the way it all comes back to oikawa that i have ranted about on discord but i have not posted it...oops.

bokuto

my beloved............he means so much to me. he's so special in my heart. adhd representation fr. he's so much smarter and has so much more depth than people give him credit for--which drives me crazy and i hate it--and he genuinely has such an impact on the narrative that doesn't get appreciated enough. i love him so much.

atsumu

i really don't know how to put this into words but i'm so obsessed with him. he's so important to me. it's smth about the drive and hunger to get better at what you love, the absurd confidence in yourself that is earned rather than a facade, the way he never sees another option but putting all of your heart into what you love and want to do....he means everything to me.

akaashi

i don't know if this one will come as a surprise to people, but he's fr one of my favorite characters. he's so interesting. his mindset is really interesting and i absolutely loved seeing him in the fukurodani v mujinazaka game--it's about how he recovers, how he learns to keep trying as best he can no matter if he's worth it or not or strong enough or not, how deeply he loves his team and how deeply they love him, how he learns to love them rather than try to control them. it's just like. you and those you love being the most important people in the world, the protagonist of your own story and life, but also not being afraid of losing. not being afraid of trying, even if it means you may fail. give me your 120%. i know you can. man. i don't even know. he makes me crazy.

kenma

oh man. his journey and arc makes me...i don't even know. it means so much to me. the promise to make him say something was fun or frustrating--then nekoma's loss, and him saying it was fun anyways. oh my god. crying about it tbh. his development as a character: not particularly remarkable at first sight, but cunning and smart underneath what he looks like, learning to put every piece of himself into a game, learning to have fun while playing even if he loses. man. yeah. kenma.

top 5 moments

tanaka's mediocre me monologue (chp 263)

aaaaaaaa. this idea that you may be mediocre but that doesn't mean you can't risk it all and push yourself further and be the best. it's the whole POINT of haikyuu. don't limit yourself because of your insecurities or because someone tells you that you can't do something. you don't have time to waste by giving up or doubting yourself, because there's so much you can do. this is the moment that solidified tanaka's character for me; i hadn't super loved him before this moment and then i got to this and went. oh. yeah. ok. that's really good actually.

nekoma's loss to karasuno (chp 324)

oh my god. this makes me crazy. i don't even have words for it. don't make me think about it. i'mc rying.

kiryuu's monologue (chp 334)

it's just. the idea of this top 3 ace who doesn't have enough confidence to believe in himself learning to "channel your inner narcissist." AND ITS BOKUTO WHO INSPIRES IT. CRYING. and like just this idea that well, you may not have confidence in yourself, but other people believe in you and you believe in them, so don't let them down by talking down to yourself. and like..."it takes everything i have to keep up with this man, it takes everything i have to play volleyball" and playing anyways...i'm biting things .

oikawa's volleyball is fun moment (chp 373)

oh my god ok. this moment means everything to me. it's about the burn out it's about the passion it's about the rediscovery it's about the fun it's about the love it's actually the point of everything it's what matters it's one of the best chapters in the manga, one of the best pieces of development for oikawa, one of the best pieces of development for hinata, i'm going crazy i'm so insane about this moment . i actually cried reading this for the first time. tears streaming down my face. i have a more in depth post about this moment here!!! but like genuinely as someone who experiences artistic burnout so easily and so often, the reminder that what you love is fun is so important to me. easily one of my favorite moments in any piece of writing ever.

the ending (chp 402)

i'm not gonna include the whole monologue but it makes me fuckign wild. i just. yeah. yeah. yeah. haikyuu. it means so much to me.

honorable mentions for top moments:

"if i'm here, you're invincible" don't touch me i'm crying

NISHINOYA FOOT RECIEVE

yamaguchi's failed serve and the way karasuno recovers & yamaguchi's six points & tsukki and yamaguchi's serve and block panel with the shield and spear. going insane.

"when oikawa is backed into a corner, he'll set to iwaizumi" i'm actually crawling up the walls about this

the last point in the second aoba johsai game. enough said.

tsukki's Moment TM . you all know exactly which one i'm talking about.

kenma calling yamamoto tora

"volleyball is a sport where you're always looking up".......garbled screaming at this

HINATA PERFECT RECEIVE

tsukki's "if i could stuff this now i'm sure everyone would go crazy, but i can't, so...you better be there hinata" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the last inarizaki point. the reflection in kita's eyes. the flashes of we don't need the memories. this angle, this position, it's perfect. the parallels to the last aoba johsai point. speed isn't invincible...those two understood that a little better than everyone else. oh my god. shaking.

can you tell that my favorite game is the inarizaki one. because really i should just say my favorite moment is that entire game.

kenma's "it hurts. it's painful. i don't ever want this to end." & "don't give up on me now hinata"

the kenhina knife fight. oh my god. i feel deranged with the way i talk about this panel.

"someone even better will find you" oh my god kageyama my sweetheart

#ask #haikyuu #haikyuu manga

[kiyelle]

♡ 1-800-destiny - [oikawa tooru]

note: for my lovely caelin! happy birthday bff i love you so much @shoyotime <3

when it comes to remembering things other than plays or techniques, oikawa admittedly doesn’t have a very good memory. so that’s why he had the amazing idea of writing the number his new coach had given on the back of his hand, until he was able to finally return home to where he had left his phone behind.

but now he’s found another flaw of his, his handwriting. he still sighs, slightly blowing his hair out of his eyes, as can’t for the life of him discern what the last digit of the number is. an eight perhaps? or maybe a squashed six, who knows? it’s only after staring hopelessly at the scrawled ink on his arm for ten minutes that he decides to just call the number over and over with a different last digit until he finds his coach.

half an hour later he’s talked to a range of different people, some nice and understanding while others were less… but now he’s down to the last two possible digits it could be, an eight or a nine. he types in the number for what feels like the thousandth time and throws himself back on his bed in frustration as it dials.

“hello?” you call out through his phone, and oikawa instantly freezes. he props himself up and searches for words but he’s left grasping at thin air. he knows this voice, it’s your voice. “um… is anyone there? i’d rather you don’t waste my time,” you continue while he’s still shocked into silence, “YES! i mean, yes i’m here” he wants to hit himself what kind of response is that, he thinks.

“alright… so who is this?” you press on growing a little impatient with this mystery man. at this point oikawa’s pacing before his bed, he doesn’t know whether to thank the universe for throwing you back into his life, or to curse it.

you’re the first person he ever truly loved, and you’ll probably be the last too because no one will ever have such an effect on him. just the sound of your voice after ages of not hearing it has every nerve in his body alight. you dated for a while but conflicting schedules and little time together made what was once beautiful and fun, incredibly sour.

but there’s no way he’s going to let that happen again, especially when by some divine power you’ve been brought into his arms once more. “it’s tooru,” he finally replies, his whole being a little shaky from the rapid beating of his heart but otherwise his words are firm. “oh, how did you get my nu-” “y/n i want, no, need you in my life again”

“i feel the same, tooru”

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[starrystevie]

tagged by @yournowheregirl and @judasofsuburbia to show 6 characters I relate to!

here i give you the "if they can relate to mirrorball, the archer, and you're on your own kid by ms. taylor swift then they are a reflection of me" list

steve harrington (stranger things): listen if there was one character that i think truly is a perfect reflection of me, it would be steve. i don't want to bore you all with the thesis i could write about him so here are the cliffs notes: protective, people pleaser, romantic at heart, sarcastic, gifted child burnout, specifically this line from mirrorball "shimmering beautiful, and when i break it's in a million pieces"

steve rogers (marvel): ahh yes, and then the other steve that is the other side of the mirror. loyal to a fault where i would start a civil war for those i love, a leader, compassionate, stubborn, wants to dance the night away in a jazz club with my baby on my arm as we sway to the crooners, living in an idealized version of the past, not very good at taking compliments, specifically this line from the archer "i wake in the night, i pace like a ghost, the room is on fire, invisible smoke, and all of my heroes die all alone, help me hold on to you"

lorelai gilmore (gilmore girls): i knew that watching gilmore girls from such a young age would have a lasting effect on me. we both hold grudges from things in the past. both like to go back to those things thinking things will be different only to realize we still want to run away. witty, uses too many media quotes for our own good, lives off junk food and spite, crave the small town life and the smell of snow, specifically this line from you're on your own kid "from sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes, i gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this. i hosted parties and starved my body like i'd be saved by a perfect kiss" (this whole song is lorelai coded btw choosing just one line was hard)

jo march (little women): oh man, where to start. writing as an escape from a world that feels to small, wanting to explore and see the world and the beauty that hides in it, craving love but not knowing how to give it away freely, on the other hand craving attention and soaking it in, fierce, loyal, would do anything for those she cares about no matter the consequences, specifically this line from you're on your own kid "i didn't choose this town, i dream of getting out, there's just one who could make me stay"

dean winchester (supernatural): hi hello daddy issues! but also never being able to live up to you father's expectations and dealing with the fact that your sibling is the favorite no matter how hard you try, covers everything up with a smile and joke or anger and a clenched fist, hopelessly obsessed with women but confused over sexuality because of a pretty men, loves road trips with the windows down playing classic rock, would fight god bare handed if it meant that the people i love got to live (i'll refrain from going into religious trauma but if y'all want the full essay on how much i love dean winchester, please let me know), specifically this line from the archer "combat, i'm ready for combat, i say i don't want that, but what if i do? cause cruelty wins in the movies, i've got a hundred thrown out speeches i almost said to you" (this song is so dean coded i didn't know how to just choose one line)

oikawa tooru (haikyuu): tries so hard to be perfect only to have someone more naturally gifted best you, serving cunt with a smirk, whiny baby who wants their way, kind of weird but hides it as best as they can, showing their full deck of cards to people who deserve it, specifically this line from mirrorball "i'm still on that trapeze, i'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me"

i'm not sure who all has done this so feel free to use this as me tagging you if you'd like to along with these no pressure tags!: @scoops-stevie @thefreakandthehair @buckleydiaz @vecnuthy @stevethehairington @riality-check

#bee coded #tag meme #i could literally go into all of these in way more depth but i figured i should stop it there #shoutout to all my mirrorball/the archer/yoyok trifecta girlies!!

[smwhererealistic]

Haikyuu Boys And What They Get You For Your Birthday:

Haikyuu boys:

Sugawara,Iwaizumi,Kita,Kenma,Ushijima

Warnings:Confession,Fluff,Cute clumsy romance,lots of hugs and kisses

Reader:she/her(sorry!)

Sugawara Koushi:

he starts preparing your gift like two months before your actual birthday date

he also plans a whole script for confessing to you

daichi had to help him even though he himself had no idea on confessing

the poor bby just wanted to find out how to confess to you and not look like a fool.

he did not want to get laughed at by the famous loverboy,oikawa tooru.

"man,she is pretty.i might snag her for myself."

suga legit cried to him not to.

i love suga sm.

on your birthday,he walked to your classroom and peeked his head in.

he called for you and prepared himself.

"I like you,Y/N.Please take me as your boyfriend!"

ofc you accepted.

he got flowers,chocolate and he gives free vouchers of kisses and hugs everyday <3

Iwaizumi Hajime

oikawa teased his bestfriend for having a crush on the captain of the cheer team.

"kinda sad she isn't one of my fangirls.for all i know,i might end up being her fangirl-AUGH!IWA-CHAN!DON'T HIT ME!"

tbh oikawa got many chocolates everyday so he requested to give his good ol' bestfriend some to confess to his crush.

yeah,he got attacked by volleyballs.

he wanted to do it all by himself;

buying chocolates,making homemade gifts(paper flowers),making paper rings.

he went to the gyn where the cheer team always practiced.

he peeked in and looked around as the vice-captain,Akumi,smirked at his sight.

"Oh,Y/N!Your casanova is here for you!"She exclaimed as the gym erupted in giggles and "ooo's"

you put your pom-poms aside and walked towards your bestfriend as he pulled you outof the gym.

he saw your cheer uniform and how tight it looked.

oh,how he wanted to put his jacket around you so no one would look at you.

"I..like you.Please be mine already!"He exclaimed in a rather agitated tone.

you were taken aback by his sudden tone as he panicked.

"uh-uh,i didn't mean it like that.i like you but like in a nice way!"he got real flustered.

he heard a stiffle of giggles and turned around to see oikawa and half of the team.

he glared at them and they all scidaddled away.

he sighs,having no hope anymore.

he already embarrased himself.

you probably don't like him anymore by what he said-

a peck was placed on his cheek as he froze.

"i like you two,iwa."you giggled as he then quickly took off his jacket and shoved it over you.

he hugged you tightly,pulling your skirt down slightly.

"please tell your teammates that i'm no casanova...please don't tell them how i confessed either."

you chuckled and nodded at his rosy cheeks.

Kita Shinsuke

he is calm.

he doesn't want to tell his team bc he feels like he will get WORRIED OF CONFESSING.

tbh his team would pester him so he gets stressed :(

he only tells aran who he mostly trusts.def not the twins or suna.

poor bby needs hugs from you to calm down.

the only way to get hugs is to be his gf

he gets some flowers that grandma yumie grew herself

he made a handmade card that when it is opened,hearts pop up.

he also got you a plushie of a grey fox

you recognised it easily based on the reference of kita.you didn't tell him tho

he confessed to you at the cherry blossom tree at the back of the school.

ofc you agreed to be his gf.

"I like you Y/N.You make me calm and truly free to act my true self.You are as bright as the sun-"yeah..he rlly loves you.

the team was hiding poorly behind a tree.

so many things were going on at once.

"hey live,see my captain.my favourite captain.my only captain.he is confessing.must be nice to have a partner."

"damn,you actually pulled a woman,kita-OW.SAMU!"

"SHUT UP SUMU!"

"oh hey suna's insta live.its yoyr favourite setter."(insert wink)

"you're making my views go down."

"YEAH SUMU.MOVE AWAY!"

"DON'T GRAB IT-OW.NOT MY LUSCIOUS LOCKS!"

"hey suna.you said "must be nice to have a partner"-"

"no,i don't go that way with guys."

"i also don't."

"get a partner then if you wanna know if its truly nice or not."

"haha..no."

he sighed in frustration.

he was gonna give them laps

but right now,its huggy time with you

"congratulations captain!"ginjima beamed happily.(tbh he a cutie too)

Kozume Kenma

ofc kuroo gotta participate in this

as much as kenma wanna put in effort;he doesn't know how to.

he atleast places his game aside.

but he doesn't understand.

he tries so hard for you :((

"cmon kenma!it's for her right.don't give up yet!!"kuroo encourages while yaku smacked some sense into him.

literally.

SMACKED some sense into his back.

kenma made made you rose flowers and bought apple pie for you two share when you come over to play games with him.

"hey y/n.."he starts,his eyes still on the game.

you hum in acknowledgement.

"i like you.would you date me?"

you froze as he smirks and drops a banana peel infront of your cart.

you managed to avoid it and give a small glare towards him.

you smirk as well as an idea pops into your head.

"sure,i'll date you.peck."you kissed his cheek as he lost focus.

in the end,you won mario cart with kenma.

its fine though,he gets his hugs now and you feeding him apple pie.

Ushijima Wakatoshi

this cutie has liked you for so long.

his team knew.

his team also knew how close you two were.

tendou being his wing-man decided to persuade ushijima to confess.

tendou decided to try asking during practice.

"cmon wakatoshi-kun!plus..isn't her birthday on the 14th of February."tendou winks at him as ushijima's eyebrows furrowed.

"why is your eye twitching at me like that?"ushijima said bluntly as semi spat out his water.

"what is on the 14th of February?"he asks as even goshiki looked shocked.

poor ushijima.

he got to listen to tendou's long lectures about love.

and here he was,outside your dorm room.

a bouquet of flowers in hand and chocolates,specifically your favourites,Ferero Rochers.

tendou told ushijima to ask y/n sneekily so he did.

(bro just walked up to her and asked;"what's your favourite chocolates?tendou is experimenting.")

tendou ran away with ushijima as you stood there confused.

they got goshiki,the innocent first year to do it instead.

the team hid behind the wall as you opened the door.

"happy 14th of February.let's get together."ushijima said proudly with no expression.

tendou slapped a hand on his forehead as shirabu sighed.

"you gotta learn alot more dude.."yamagata patted ushijima's back.

"so what do you say Y/N?get together with him?"tendou smirked as you flusterdly nodded,having the whole volleyball team infront of you as the stoic captain confessed.

"happy birthday y/n-senpai!"goshiki cheered as you honestly cooed at the boy.

GOSHIKI IS SO CUTE.CHANGE MY MIND HABSJAHAKEJANAJSAK

now,ushijima holds your hand proudly to class,to the dorms,to a practice match,wherever.

he doesn't want to lose you :(

#ushijima #kenma #kita #iwaizumi #sugawara #oikawa #goshiki #daichi #yamagata #semi #shirabu #tendou #aran #atsumu #osamu #suna #ginjima #haikyuu #karasuno #aoba johsai #nekoma #shiratorizawa #inarizaki #grandma yumie #bday #y/n

[theglitterypages]

Fly High

Chapter 9.2

Haikyu Masterlist ---- Fly High Masterlist

Prev --- Next

You froze when you heard him whisper those words. It's not like you never heard him say that, ever since he came back he always finds a way to say I love you.

There would be flowers and chocolates delivered on your house, or he would whisper it before ending his phone calls with you.

You slowly removed his hands off of you and cleared your throat to try and wake him up and when it didn't work, you gently shook his shoulders and he sat up immediately.

“Sorry, I didn't mean to sleep.”

You just smiled and handed him a towel, a shirt and a pajama, you thanked the Heavens that Kenma left some of his clothes here, Oikawa's been wearing his clothes since morning, you know he'd want to take a shower at least.

“You didn't like sleeping without taking a shower right? Or you don't do that anymore?”

Oikawa smiled as he took the towel and clothes from you, “I still do, but I just kind of forget about shower after my time with our kids.” Oikawa told you and you nod your head in approval, you knew that feeling as well.

Things you used to do may not or may change after becoming a parent, you used to hate people who eats messily but after having kids you've learned to love seeing them eat their food messily.

“Thank you for giving me the most beautiful gift I've got in my whole existence.”

You looked up at Oikawa and his eyes shines because of the tears that he's been holding back.

“Thank you for giving me the chance to become a Mother, Toru.” you whispered.

Silence ruled between the two of you, all that were exchanged were looks and gazes that nobody could ever name, not even the two of you. Both hearts beating fast, both hearts who lost each other is finally together but it still feels like there's still more questions unanswered.

Oikawa looked down on his lap and smiled bitterly, "I'm sorry for the pain I gave you for all these year and for the pain I'm still giving you, I'm truly sorry." he held your hand and kissed the back of it gently.

You didn't do anything but watch him, you just looked into his eyes and see how many emotions it hides. "Toru, I'm the one who ended our relationship and none of us knew that I would get pregnant. It is my choice to keep them from you because I got too scared, you were already living your dreams and I don't want to take it from you." You squeezed his hand slightly and smiled at him, a smile that assures him that what happened already happened and there's no going back in time. The best that you both can do is to face this.

"Sophia and I had sex a month after I moved in Argentina. I was drinking to forget, she showed up and I gave in...I'm sorry. I couldn't really talk to you after it all because even if we weren't together anymore it felt like I cheated on you."

"I also had sex with Bo," you told him, still smiling. "I was finally setting myself free from our memories, that's what I think it was. And I won't deny that a part of my heart believes I'm in love with him." Oikawa held his breath, his chest tightened and it felt like he's running out of air to breathe.

He closed his eyes and told himself that this is the moment of truth where you tell him that the relationship he's hoping to fix, is never gonna be the same again. Even if it feels heavy, he told himself there's no problem if you end up with someone like Bokuto because he already saw what he can do for you.

At least, he won't feel that bad because he knows he chose a good man.

"But I still love you, Toru. After all these years, I wanted nothing but to see you keep the twins in your arms, I wished nothing but for you to show up in my door and tell me that you will stay. I admitted loving Bo, but I still love you even if I denied it to myself ever since you came back."

Oikawa opened his eyes to see you crying and the first thought he had on his mind is to hug you tight, “I never stopped loving you all these years.” He whispered as he kissed your temple. “I know that I don't deserve you, you deserve more than what I could offer but I'm willing to pass my own limits to be the man you deserve, to be the father that our children deserves.” he gently pushed you away from him, tearing up as he reaches out to.caress your cheek softly, he wiped your tears away before he leaned in to press his lips on yours.

It was so slow and gentle it almost felt like your first kiss, the first kiss you both shared as a couple on your graduation day in high school. Just like that first kiss, you are both too careful this time, like you're both scared of doing something wrong.

And when it was finally time for both of you to breathe, Oikawa let your lips go but he pressed his forehead against yours.

"I love you, YN." he whispered underneath his breath and you smiled.

“I love you, Toru.”

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Flashback

Bokuto was nervously waiting for you, he just received a message from you asking him to meet him up today.

And Bokuto knows exactly why you've summoned him.

“Hey, Bo. Did you wait too long?”

You sat in front of him and he shook his head with that same cheerful smile. “No, don't worry about it! I just got here.” you smiled back at him and waved at the waiter who got your orders for your and Bokuto.

“Thank you.” You thanked the waiter as you held your utensils, after he left, your eyes fixed on Bokuto who's started digging onto his food. “Wow this is great.” He says as he kept eating while you watch him.

“Bo...”

“Hmm?” He looked up at you with a smile yet his heart is not smiling. “I...” You couldn't help but pause, since you couldn't bring yourself to say anything.

Bokuto saw you holding back your tears and he reached out for your hand with a chuckle. "Come on, you don't have to say anything. I already know you too well, YN." He said as he seriously looked into your eyes, he let out a deep breath and caress your hand gently.

“I hope you will remember what I told you before. I would never force you to love me back. And I don't want you to feel any guilt for not being able to love me the way you love him.”

He beat you to it. Bokuto sighed when you didn't say anything. “Can you smile even just a bit? If you don't I would think Oikawa blackmailed you into choosing him.” you laughed and Bokuto smiled as he wiped your tears.

“That's the YN, I know."

It's not like he never wanted to fight for you, the truth is he wants to but he knows where he stood right from the start and all he wants is to see you happy and contented even if it meant that he will lose you.

End of Flashback

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You woke up after hearing giggles, of course you knew it was your children but when you walked out of your room, you saw them in the kitchen with Oikawa and when they noticed your presence the kids ran to you and Oikawa soon followed.

You carried the twins and you scanned Oikawa from head to toe before you giggled uncontrollably.

"That apron suits you...pft!" You commented and Oikawa rolled his eyes as he kissed your forehead.

"Good morning to you too. Mi amore."

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[drawingasmile]

For as long as he could remember… for as long as he’d known Oikawa Tooru… this had never. Ever. Happened to them. But in the 25 years that they’ve known each other, and plus in the 6 years that they’ve been in a relationship… it was bound to happen eventually right?

Hajime blamed Matsukawa. 

During their last get-together, Matsukawa was sneezing all over the place, while adamantly denying that anything was wrong with him. “It’s just seasonal allergies!” he had said.

/Seasonal allergies my ass./ 

Thanks to Matsukawa, Hajime and Tooru reached their first relationship milestone of being sick at the same time. The two of them were rendered into useless puddles at home. Sneezing, stuffy noses, coughing, hacking, the whole she-bang. 

What made this so hard was that they have never ever been sick at the same time. It was always one after the other.

When Hajime was the one sick, Tooru became unusually attentive, doing things to lessen Hajime’s burden and responsibilities. He would do all the chores (though he might put off on doing the most unpleasant ones towards the end), and he would also make sure to make Hajime’s favorite agedashi tofu. (And even though Hajime couldn’t taste it fully due to his stuffy nose, the gesture warmed his heart nonetheless).

And when Tooru was the one sick? Well, he liked to be… babied. And coddled. And pampered.

But when they were both sick? It took everything in Hajime’s power to make sure that the two of them got sustenance, fluids, and medicine. The two of them had agreed that Tooru would sleep in the guest bedroom when they were both sick so that they would be able to rest without disturbing the other with their respective coughs, sneezing, and general feverish movements. 

At the end of the day, Hajime would take some Nyquil and pass the fuck out. Rinse and repeat. He could see the light of good health shining at the end of the tunnel. However, there was just one problem.

Tooru was not getting better.

It was bedtime again. Hajime stood beside the guest bed in his pajamas, crossing his arms and staring down at Tooru disapprovingly. Tooru coughed and gave him a weak smile in response.

“All better, huh, Hajime?” he croaked out.

Hajime narrowed his eyes. “How come you’re not getting better?” 

Tooru shrugged, “Must be because I’m a delicate flower who needs nurturing, whereas Iwa-chan has the constitution of an ox —” 

Hajime cut him off, “What time are you sleeping? Have you been taking the medicine?”

Tooru wrinkled his nose. “I don’t like how it makes me feel drowsy. And…” he averted his gaze. “Iwenttosleepat3amlastnight”

Hajime felt a vein throb. “You /what/?”

“I know, I know, I know!” Tooru exclaimed. “I should take the stupid medicine and go to sleep earlier — but the bed is so empty and I feel so lonely without you by my side, Hajime.” he finished, looking up at him, his eyes large and pleading.

Hajime felt his resolve shake. While he has built up a resistance to Tooru’s charms through prolonged exposure, he truly was soft for him. Especially when he looked all pathetic with his stuffy nose and bloodshot eyes.

Hajime sighed. “Fine. I’ll stay in bed with you until you fall asleep, okay?” 

Tooru let out a small cheer and lifted up the blankets, inviting him in. Hajime complied and snuggled up next to Tooru, enveloping him in his arms, and putting his head on Tooru’s shoulder. Hajime felt Tooru let out a contented sigh. 

“I missed you, Hajime,” Tooru said softly.

“I missed you too, Tooru,” Hajime responded, pressing a gentle kiss to his shoulder.

Soon enough, Tooru drifted off to sleep, his snores made funny by the congestion in his nose, but it was cute, nonetheless. Hajime smiled to himself and started slowly extracting his arms, but he stopped. Actually... it wouldn't do any harm to stay with Tooru tonight, right?

He settled back in and tucked the blankets around the two of them.

It was more comfortable here anyway.

God, he really loves this bastard. 

//END

#iwaoi #sick fic #based on real events #I started writing this when I was sick and forgot about it for 2 months #iwaizumi hajime is a simp for oikawa tooru

[the-travelling-witch]

Heyooo

There's a saying that goes "It takes an amazing author to know an amazing author" and considering you are a really good author {who deserves so much more recognition than you get but don't worry I know you'll get there}

But can you recommend some of your favorite/most highly rated fics the genres don't matter? Some authors write good ones but some are just hella ooc and cringe.

i’m really flattered you think i’m a good author, i honestly can’t see it myself but thank you ଘ(੭˃ᴗ˂)੭

it’s been a while since i actively read fanfic, so this list probably isn’t as extensive as it should be; i’ll try to structure this to the best of my abilities and i might add more in the future ♡ there’s so much good content to recommend, my brain just flaked on me especially when it came to recommending fics specifically, so i probably forgot half of all the blogs and fics i want to recommend </3

genshin impact ❀

blogs:

@dustofthedailylife- my lovely moot but i promise i’m not playing favourites, her fics are really high quality; if you’re looking for a longer fic, check out her series ‘a heart of stone is a heart nonetheless’

@witch-hazels-musings*- i don’t think i have to say a lot about my fellow witch, hazel; if you haven’t heard of her blog yet, welcome to tumblr, it’s great to have you here

@genshin-karebear*- another talented author i’m sure you’ve heard of already (and if you haven’t, this is your sign)

@primofate*- wow i’m really just recommending blogs all of you already know, huh? not only does lena write for a multitude of fandoms, the variety of characters she includes is nothing to sneeze at

fics:

yours truly/ sincerely by @xiaowhore

subtle by @glazelilyy* (nsfw implications, so you get a star)

genshin boys as your prom knight by @alatusxiaoo

this theory by @zaneswhite

this helpful tidbit on scara’s hat by @kyquu

haikyuu ❀

blogs:

@luvbub- if you’re looking for lots of cute and fluffy fics with some angst sprinkled in between, this cutie is the blog to go to

@toru-oikawas-milkbread*- looking for a wide variety of written fics and smaus? well look no further, kasey is here to save the day!

fics:

the flirt by @cutenimi (skater!suna makes my head spin)

victory high by @kewrai (honestly you can go through the whole masterlist, everything is good, why didn’t i just put you in the blog section of this post?)

cold brew by @meiansmistress*

what the haikyuu boys (realistically) wear by @ryoccoon (not technically a written fic but i want to mention it anyway; also, rose, if you see this, your blog is so cute and aesthetic~)

tokyo revengers ❀

blogs:

you can basically look at my moots list and have your pick but i’d like to filter out @crown5* @softbajis* @feitania* @virtue-and-beneviolence*

fics:

bonten husband fics by @sukirichi*

trouble by @sakusins* (this one belongs in the blog section as well)

touch starved + feeling loved by @kshira*

this edit by @haruchyio* (i’ve seen this video in so many variations and it’s still so funny to me)

miscellaneous fandoms ❀

@demonfamilytherapist [obey me!] (i recommend especially the pact mark headcanons and aftermath of lesson 16)

@house-of-laminations [obey me!] (if you’re a sucker for world building like i am, this is a gold mine; i also recommend evolutionary biology 101 with prof. mc, i had a good laugh reading it)

@aemoonie and @k-rising [kpop, zodiac] (even if you don’t like kpop, their astrology content is still really interesting)

this case study on bakugou katsuki by @randommha

fanart ❀

i could go ahead and tell you that all their art is incredible and that i enjoy each and every art style found on this list but i honestly think you should go and see for yourself ✧.*

@koyuxim

@kkumri

@burucheese

@emaiiyaru

@chouchen

@ainudraws

appreciation/ mail blogs ❀

not really fanfic blogs either but they allow people to send anonymous love to genshin creators on tumblr, which i think is such a cute idea it deserves to be mentioned ༊*·˚

@teyvatmail

@sakurashrine

@teyvatlove

*=this blog posts/ interacts with 18+ content

this list has officially drifted away from being about fanfics, so i’ll end it here (as i said i might expand it in the future); i hope all of you don’t mind being mentioned here and i’m sorry to everyone i might have forgotten ♡

#coffee & tea break #letter from: a mysterious sender ❁ #this list is a mess #but i hope you can find something or someone interesting on here regardless <3 #holly recommends stuff ♡ #recommendations

[particular-one]

Yes! You get it, why are we so twinning right now!!! When you said you had a bunch of angst drafts I was so 👀👀 but this first love fic was also scrumptious 🤌

OMG just earlier I was talking jokingly about my soulmate being a guardian angel and then you said that!! The universe is universing 😵‍💫 mallues, my love confirmed!!! Omg oikawa's defense lawyer LOL you're hilarious 😂 you must have your work cut out for you, that's a full time job!! I also think he's whipped in love and would be so down bad! And seijoh hates him for it because he's daydreaming through all of practice and out of it but once game time comes,, the KING is back! It's so effortless too! He would look totally cool if every point wasn't followed by a 'yoohoo~~~' and him winking and shooting hearts at reader LOL. What I wouldn't give to break Oikawa's heart and leave him a mess 🥲 The only man's heart I want to fictionally break and have an angsty love story with more than oikawa is.....kuroo. pls those two simps would be so good to ruin in misery! Oikawa crying in the rain, after having his heart broke multiple times, whyyyy would you put that in my headdddd!!! Kuroo's a scorpio so he'd be so ready to get revenge but he's a squish at heart and really just wants to be loved 🥺 would have a whole revenge plan and then see you in the aisle at target and kenma has to hold him back from going over and proposing right then and then. OMG AND THE THREE AM DRUNK TEXTS AAAAAA!!!!

I'm sorry for spamming your inbox, it's so fun talking to you hehe 💕 I had a rough few days so I'm really enjoying myself on your blog hehe. I'll go now but I look forward to your other works! I do want to request but I have no idea what 😅 Take care and stay hydrated 🥰

-🐰

the conflict of wanting to give my comfort characters the biggest and warmest hug and simultaneously unleashing pain on them is my dilemma always and forever<\3 but heehee it was def fun to write something more fluffy for dan heng before disaster strikes OH FR?? what are the chances LOL a mind link is occurring?? all jokes aside, malleus truly seems like the perfect match 🤭 no but ABSOLUTELY. oikawa thinks he’s all that but reader being 🫤 just throws him off majorly. like what do i have to do to actually make you find me charming :( he is so down bad it is actually really funny. he’s so used to easily winning people over that it frustrates him that it isn’t the same with you. the fact that he is oh so willing to get his heart broken for you???? dedication. yet another point for my “why is oikawa one of the most dedicated characters from the media i consume” essay. 😤 OH I GET U I GET U …. kuroo getting his heart broken and coming up with a full blown revenge scheme but simultaneously drunk texting reader at 3am on why things ended up the way they are is just :(( oikawa and kuroo are just hopeless idiots pining in denial. dw abt it!! it was definitely fun talking to you<3 i’m sorry to hear that, but i do hope things get better for you! my inbox is always open whenever you want to chat ✨ if u come up with any requests u would like for me to write, hmu anytime!

#·˚ * 🔭 carlyle asks: 🐰 anon

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

Thanks for letting me rant, Ma, and thank you for sharing your experience with you kiddo too. I really appreciate it :)

NOW! This is a lot of typing to make a simple point but I don't care.

Idk if I could call this my favorite episode, per se (idk if I'd be able to actually choose), but I'd say the episode I appreciate the most is also S3 E3, Guess Monster (twins, Tendou Anon!) And I will explain in great detail exactly why.

I've mentioned before that my four favorite/'I simp for' boys are Noya, Bokuto, Tendou, and Atsumu, and for for each of them was a different situation.

With Yuu, it was a pretty fast fall. He came in at the end of that one epi, made that awesome receive, and his introduction was just great. It was an instant "o,..,o yo, he's awesome, and he's spunky, and adorable!"

With Kou, I had heard a little bit about him before I started watching, and knew he was popular, so I had kinda decided "meh, we don't need to fall for the really popular guy, I'll prolly pass". We'll turn out he's popular for a reason because he's fuckin wonderful! XD I didn't fall as fast as I did with Yuu, but it was pretty quick. He's so dorky, such a goofball, and I love him very much.

Skipping Satori to Atsumu, this man was a struggle! I hated him at first! I was mad that he traumatized Kageyama, and he was just a general dick. Then, reading fics is actually what started to turn things around for ne. Fanon Tsumu is so sweet sometimes. Then in canon we got the flashback with Aran, and the whole (dubbed) "People don't like you, Tsumu" "Yeah, so what?" and I was like "O: that's how I feel too!" Falling for him was a slow trickle after that, and many goofy arguments with my partner of, "you like him!" "no I don't!" "yes you do!" "ok maybe..."

But with Satori, it was more instant that I think I realize, and I easily relate to him the most, almost out of any hq character in general. He was actually properly introduced in "Guess Monster" and is, in the most endearing way possible, a complete and utter weirdo. He's so ridiculous, and I think his character actually startled me at first, but in the best way possible.

I relate and connect with him in so many ways. His insistence on being himself and only himself (or rather, his inability to be anything but himself) was something I instantly related to, and that only got stronger as the season went on. In the flashback, the stupid teacher lady, and those damn children that I'm going to punch were both things I had experienced. Teachers/elders telling me to do things 'the normal way' and my peers not understanding me at all, so resorting to bullying. Then we got the scene with Tori and Washijou, Coach telling him to play however, as long as he gets the job done, and it kinda hit me pretty hard, realizing how badly I crave a mentor like that, and how thankful I am for the people that do support my "I don't give a fuck about your opinion" attitude.

Anyway, that was a lot, but basically 'Guess Monster' because Satori is my biggest comfort character :)

- Dragon anon

Ok but I love this 🥺 I will say, I did not like Atsumu when I first saw him easy. His general vibe just gave me Oikawa but ⭐️ season 4 ⭐️ vibes. It's really the Fanon version of Sumu I love the most too just like the fanon version of Oikawa. Also I truly believe he matured a little as he grew up 😅 or at least I like to hold out the hope that he did!

And please, Tendou is like the sweetest! I adored him from the first time I saw him and I'd definitely say he's the character that is most like me in HQ. Literally I was always called a freak for being so tall so I relate to him so much. I think Tensou fits so perfect at Shiratorizawa, like the coach is a total grumpy man but he knows how to bring out the beat in his players and wr all know he cares about them. Plus Ushijima and Tendou as besties makes my heart clench 🥰

#my lovely bbys #dragon anon

[ki-limepie]

tagged by @jiminsproof​ to show my whole ass and talk about my favorite 10 blorbos<3 i live my life through fictional characters from games an anime so i will try to whittle my list down to 10 hahah

the top two are in order because i’m completely normal about them but the rest are just scattered without an order in mind ahah

Yatora Yaguchi (Blue Period)

oikawa may be my og blorbo but yatora is my Forever blorbo. have i talked about blue period enough? the answer is no, never. aside from blue period just being the most real and personal manga i have ever read in my life, yatora just GETS me on a personal level that i cannot describe . the way he’s confident to the point of cocky, but crashes and burns twice as hard; the way he’s so so flawed and he has doubts and struggles but still, at his core, just loves art and wants to connect? oooouuugh [”: anyway blue period chapter 47 broke me, made me have a full on breakdown but yatora is forever my special favorite blorbo

Oikawa Tooru (Haikyuu!!)

oh my original blorbo... i have so many thoughts and emotions and feelings about oikawa that i cannot possibly put into words but he is my og blorbo that i adore and cherish so much while also punting him to the moon [”: his constant push to work harder, better, and his immense pride is extremely personal to me; he’s the reason i wrote 20 haikyuu fics over the course of the pandemic and for that i love him

Mono (Little Nightmares II)

ogs remember my intense little nightmares brainrot early last year<3 i don’t have many thoughts about mono other than “that is my little guy”, i spent a long time studying his (essentially nonexistent) character personality and maybe i’m projecting my nonbinary agenda on him but he’s a very special little guy to me

Rachel Gardner (Angels of Death)

so here’s the thing about aod. it is not a well written story nor is it one i would recommend to anyone because of how grisly and edgy it is. and yet, have i consumed Every Kind of media that i possibly can of this story? yes absolutely i even bought two copies of the final volume of the manga by complete accident. something about the early 2000s rpgmaker edginess is special to me and i found the game at a very... turbulent time in my life, let’s say haha none of the characters are good characters but ray has just that touch of “fucked up traumatized child” that i connect with somehow

Maka Albarn (Soul Eater)

yknow i think maka was one of my og awakenings KJGDSKA soul eater is just one of those anime/manga that i fondly think about from time to time and i’ll never forgive what they did to it in the spinoff. maka is just that kind of girl who would kick my ass to the moon and when i was a teen, i definitely had a huge crush on her (not to mention she’s voiced by laura bailey in the dub; a win all around for me)

Theobald Leonhart (LiEat)

looks like i’m pulling out my  ✨obscure rpgmaker games ✨ card on this one. lieat is one of those games that really spoke to me and i don’t know why! theo is such an important character to me and that “stuck with you until we’re eventually family” relationship he has with efi melts my heart [”: also miwashiba popped off with their character designs

Mob/Shigeo Kageyama (Mob Psycho 100)

mob is actually my little guy ever sorry mono, this kid is so important to me. mp100 in general is just extremely important to me (how are we feeling about mp100 III in october? insane.) i don’t have any big deep reason why i enjoy him so much, he’s just very easy to love

Shion (No. 6)

sometimes i think about no. 6 and the pain it brought me and i think that was truly my villain origin story; in my heart, they get a happy ending and are gay and in love forever [:

Kris Dreemur (Deltarune)

so deltarune.... i feel like every fellow nonbinary that i know loves kris. solidarity 🤝 i don’t have complex feelings or emotions about kris yet, they’re just so... the character ever yknow? little gremlin enby

Gear (Servamp)

i miss servamp, i need to catch up again sometime... this guy is just so Me, that’s all i’ve got to say about him; he feels like he was written and designed for me [: i’m forever salty that we will never get animated wolfboy gear but he is in my heart

thank you once again natalia for allowing me to be unhinged about my guys 💕

#i want it to be known that when i woke up today and saw you tagged me i said to myself out loud 'I GET TO TALK ABOUT MY BLORBOS TODAY? :DD' #and then immediately told my friends who congratulated me #most of my thoughts on these characters are incoherent and u would think as a writer i would have more eloquent words for them #actually i think my thoughts just became more incoherent as i got down the list #my thoughts: wow i adore this character so much and can relate and entirely understand their struggles and personality #my mouth: hehehe the guy ever #honestly i also could have just written down like 5 blue period characters . yotasuke i'm so sorry i excluded you... #keywrite #natalia 🌙

[tetsunova]

Writing your name on their hand

mc x gn!reader

genre: fluff

a/n: it’s so silly but i love it hehe. we used to draw our names on our hands with coloured glittered pens in school all the time and get scolded for it. 

masterlist

Is confused at first, but gets so excited later. His face starts glowing and he asks if he could write his name on your hand. He makes sure to make it extra neat and pretty. Adds a couple hearts and starts to make it look cute. Also may or may not end up getting too invested and start drawing even more on your hand. He wants to draw on your hand all the time now, not just his name but anything he can think of.

Hinata, Tendou, Atsumu, Bokuto, Lev

‘Getting a little possessive aren’t we?’. This cocky bastard will not let you hear the end of it. He loves it so much but would rather tease you than show you how much he’s blushing internally. Definitely, keeps making lines over it when it starts to fade, but in secret. He wants to treasure it for as long as he can, all he hopes is that you don’t notice the fresh and wobbly ink on his hand. Spends hours admiring it. Seriously, he cannot get over it.

Tsuki, Kuroo, Oikawa (god bless you if his fangirls notice), Matsukawa, Terushima

Frankly, he didn’t even notice until you asked him if he liked it or not. You don’t get a response, only a boy in front of you who was besmirched with hues of pink on his cheeks. Just when he thought this couldn’t get any more adorable, his eyes landed on your smile and that was all it took for his brain to stop functioning. He pulled you into a hug, hiding his mess of a face into the crook of your neck and muffled, ‘I love it.’ 

Kenma, Suna, Iwaizumi, Yamaguchi, Kiyoomi

While he waits for you to finish, he removes the coloured pens he has stored neatly in his pencil case. After you’re done he hands them over to you and asks you to add colour to it if you’d like, to which you gladly accept. Truly, he just wants you to stay with him a bit longer so he’d hoped the coloured pens would work and what a relief it was when it did. He couldn't help but smile at how focused you were. 

Akaashi, Kita, Ushijima, Sugawara

He just keeps looking at every stroke you make, getting more invested by the second. After you’re done he just brings it closer to his face and examines it like a baby who just got a new toy. ‘It’s just my name’ you say. “It’s beautiful”, he replies. He’s all smiley the whole day and doesn’t hesitate to flaunt and talk about it if someone asks or points it out. Get’s clingier than usual and is extra careful he doesn’t get soap on it while washing his hands or taking a shower after practise.

Iwaizumi, Daichi, Osamu, Kita, Akaashi, Kageyama

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#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu x you #haikyuu headcanons #kuroo tetsuro headcanons #kenma hcs #oikawa tooru #suna headcanons #suna x gn!reader #iwaizumi x gender neutral reader #akaashi x y/n #bokuto x reader #kiyoomi sakusa x reader #ushijima x y/n #osamu x y/n #atsumu x y/n #kita x reader #tendou x y/n

[trash1129]

Shade | Oikawa Tooru

Summary: Oikawa wants to break up because the shade of his once bright relationship has darkened and it’s his fault for not loving her enough.

Word count: 2,471k

Fic notes + warnings: Oikawa x fem!reader, mentions of fluff (through flashbacks), angst, mentions of cheating, one-shot, swearing(?), established relationship, song fic, based off of Shade by Yukika.

Song link: https://youtu.be/rK69AriTIZc

Note from the author: Hi, hello! So, this is probably one of my first ever angst fics and I have been meaning to write this for MONTHS now and haven’t had time. Once I heard this song I knew I had to write something based off the lyrics! I hope you enjoy this as much as I enjoyed writing it! Sorry if there is any errors in grammar or any of that, I’m too lazy to edit. Lots of love! -Cyber

Let’s break up,

Oikawa stared at the ceiling of his bedroom with a peacefully sleeping (Y/n) by his side. His mind scattered with the only coherent thought being the thought of breaking off his relationship with his current girlfriend. At this point, He knew it couldn’t stay just a thought and that it had to be an action made in his part. He needed to break things off. 

The longer he stared at his ceiling the worse his thoughts got and the twist in his stomach tightened.

Because I’m a bad person, because I don’t love you.

Tooru glanced over at (Y/n)’s sleeping form and felt his heart clench. He knew what he was doing was horrible. He knew he was a horrible person for staying after what he did. He was horrible for not loving her the way he used to. She deserved to be loved but he couldn’t give that to her.

Your shade is darkness to me, goodbye.

Staring at (Y/n) peacefully sleeping, he couldn’t help but feel this disgusting guilt in himself over what he had done and her not knowing anything. It made her once warm, bright, caring nature feel dark and all because of his own guilt. All of this because of something he did to someone who didn’t deserve it. Someone who didn’t know what he did.

Maybe it wasn’t love between us. Was that an unjustified, meaningless relationship?

Tooru rationalized with himself almost every night that their relationship was just a simple, forgettable high school relationship. One that people would call silly in the future due to them thinking it was truly love. He was right, wasn’t he? They were only in high school, it’s not like those relationships last. That’s what he told himself. Though, he knew the truth. He knew that (Y/n) was possibly the best thing to happen to him. That (Y/n) loved and trusted him. She accepted him for himself, his flaws, and never once wanted him to change. She loved him for who he was even though he felt he didn’t deserve it.

The momentary tremble, the momentary joy

Tooru felt like his heart was about to explode as he awaited (Y/n)’s answer. Her (e/c) eyes staring at him wide and her whole face covered in shock. It felt like hours to him as he waited for her to answer. Suddenly, he heard a laugh. A laugh he had grown to love throughout his time getting to know the girl. One that never failed to make his face break out into a smile.

“You’re telling me, the Oikawa Tooru: Captain and setter of Seijoh; Aoba Josai’s idol, is asking me out?” She asked smugly while smirking up at him. “what happened to ‘My only love is volleyball’, hmm?” she chuckled as she referenced what he had once said to a confession he had gotten earlier that year. The sentence alone was enough to make his face heat up in embarrassment.

“You know I only said that to get her to leave me alone!” He huffed making her laugh once more.

“No way! Are you embarrassed, Tooru-kun?” (Y/n) teased. Tooru glared slightly at her response and swallowed back the slight hurt from her lack of answer. “You know what, let’s just forget about this, (Y/n)-chan...okay? I’ll see you later.” He quickly dusted off what he said earlier and smiled to save face from the embarrassment of being rejected. Turning on his heel ready to forget this happened and head to practice.

“Wait, Tooru!” She quickly grabbed his hand, “I’m sorry, I would love to go out with you.” Her voice trembled slightly like she suddenly realized he was serious about his confession. Those trembly words were enough to send his heart into overdrive. Before she knew it, Oikawa scooped her up in his arms and smiled.

“Tooru!” She squeaked out of surprise. There was a beat of silence as he held her and took in the joy of this moment.

“(Y/n)-chan?”

“hm?”

“I’m so getting you back for teasing me earlier.”

Those emotions sometimes become an after-image that torments me

His stomach twisted remembering that day. He remembers the pure happiness he felt when he finally told her his feelings. The days after where he would tease her just to see her get embarrassed, where they would do stupid things together, where they would just want to be with each other for the hell of it. Those once amazing times made him feel sick and he knew he was at fault for it. All because he felt unfulfilled with the endless love he was given. All because he was selfish and wanted more. 

Tooru’s eyes stung with tears as he realized the weight of what he had truly done. Just staring at her was causing him to feel guilty. Quickly turning away from her, he stared at his bedroom wall and waited for sleep to consume him.

Let’s break up, because I am a bad person. Because I don’t love you. Your shade is darkness to me.

It was morning after the long night. (Y/n) was in the living room talking on the phone with her mother while Oikawa slowly made his way out of his room. He didn’t want to face her. Last night was hard enough, but he couldn’t tell her no when she asked to stay the night with him. He made his way to the living room hoping she would be to busy on the phone to notice him. He wasn’t ready to talk to her yet. He didn’t want to hurt her but if he didn’t tell her then it would only cause more pain.

but could he even handle that pain? Could he handle no longer having her in his life? 

“Oh! Morning, Tooru!” 

He was too caught up in his thoughts to realize that he was in the living room. (Y/n) greeted at him with a bright smile and quickly went to end the call with her mother.

Stop it. I don’t want to be sorry anymore. I don’t want to see you being kind anymore. Would you hate me? Goodbye.

Tooru tensed slightly as she ended the call and turned to him once more. She was quick to see his change in body language and tilted her head in concern, “Hey, are you okay?”

That question felt like he was being punched in the gut. He couldn’t stand her caring for him after his unfaithful actions. He couldn’t stand any of the situation anymore. Even though he wanted to wait to have this conversation his guilt was eating him alive. He would rather see her angry and yelling at him than her being so caring after him doing what he did.

“We need to talk” the words quickly left his mouth.

Memories can sometimes wear a smiley mask when the truth isn’t really like that

(Y/n) was quick to agree and sat next to him on the couch. She seemed to notice his off actions. In honesty, He knew she has taken notice the past couple of days. He was avoiding her in the halls when at school. He would only see her in the mornings before class, during lunch, and during practice. Even during those times he wasn’t himself. He wasn’t her Tooru. His usually playfulness was forced. His eyes didn’t match his smile but she never questioned. He knew she wanted to believe everything was fine yet even she knew everything wasn’t fine.

“Let’s break up.” As he said those words, it seemed they both felt as if ice water was dumped on them. It was quiet. (Y/n) stared at him as if searching for reason while Tooru felt his stomach twist knowing her next move.

“Why?”

It was a simple question yet it felt like one of the hardest that Tooru had ever answered in his whole life.

By you, I wish I wasn’t engraved in you mind like a cold you once had. I don’t want be your past.

He felt like he couldn’t answer. He knew that she truly loved him. He knew that this would hurt her deeply. He was someone that was deep into her life, someone that, if they left, would leave a scar on them. He absolutely hated that he was that engraved into her life. 

(Y/n) was his best friend before he became her boyfriend. He didn’t want all that to be done. He truly didn’t want to be just in her past and nothing more than a douchebag boyfriend. He didn’t want her gone from his life but he knew that he deserved to just be someone from her past. That she would move on with her life and he wouldn’t be apart of it. 

Her gaze seemed to refuse to leave his face as she waited for the answer. He hated that he could already see the hurt in her face. It was probably mirrored on his own. Tooru knew the next words to fall from his mouth would sting the both of them, but it had to be said. It needed to be said.

“I don’t love you anymore.”

Silence.

After a moment, a wobbly pained smile made it onto (Y/n)’s face. “I understand.”, She whispered out trying to cover the obvious pain in her voice. Her eyes were slowly filling with tears that she seemed to be fighting off. Tooru felt his throat tighten and his eyes burn with the same tears as hers. He had no right to cry after the harsh words he said to her but he couldn’t help it.

Now, there’s nothing between us. I don’t want you to try hard to bother me, it’ll be harder for me.

“Can we still be friends?” She asked weakly as she stood from her seat, her body no longer facing him. He knew she was crying and trying not to let him see. That action itself was enough to get a few tears to slip from his stinging eyes. A sob was bubbling in his chest but he forced it down.

Could they still be friends? 

He pondered over it before. As much as he wants to still be in her life, he knew he couldn’t. Every time he would look at her, he knew he would feel guilt and the pain of his own actions. Looking at her alone would make him want to hug her and tell her he was sorry hundreds of times, and he knew she would forgive him; but he didn’t deserve forgiveness. He needed to suffer for what he did to someone who deserved nothing but the world. Even if it meant losing an old friend. 

After a long silence, she knew his answer. Once again, she nodded as if she understood and quickly cleared her throat. “Okay then...Goodbye, Tooru....” The sentence died at the end of her throat as if she had one more thing to say but couldn’t bring herself to say it. Tooru got up and walked her to the front door. He refused to meet her eyes as he opened the door for her. 

“I love you” were the only words she said as she swiftly left.

Will I be okay by myself? Will I be okay without you? I’m afraid, but the longer we hold on it’ll be more painful.

That night Oikawa laid in his bed, chest aching, eyes red from tears, and phone in hand .He questioned himself millions of times after what happened. Staring at the picture of the two of them on his home screen kept taunting him with the questions if he would truly be fine without (Y/n) in his life. Someone he considered his best friend. Someone who taught him that it was okay to not be the best. Someone who didn’t judge him if he broke down from the stress of everything.

Deep down he knew that if he never broke it off, (Y/n) would only suffer more. That he would suffer as well but that his suffering was deserved. He was selfish but he couldn’t let someone innocent be in pain because of his infidelity. If he had held onto her, she would no longer be the bright light that others needed.

Slowly, Tooru turned off his phone and closed his eyes finally letting himself sob. Letting himself understand the loss he caused and the pain he gave someone he deeply cared for.

Let’s break up,

Months have passed. Time has moved on, but Oikawa hasn’t. Everything still hurt as fresh as the day he cheated. The day he ruined everything. 

No one noticed though. On the outside, Tooru was still that happy-go-lucky, flirty, confident volleyball captain that girls loved. No one could tell that he was still suffering from his own actions months ago. The only one that was ever able to tell when Tooru was faking was (Y/n) and she has moved on, no longer apart of his life. 

Wondering the halls, He was quickly pulled to stop when he heard a familiar laugh. One that he used to love but now only reminded him of his disgusting actions. He should’ve kept walking but he couldn’t help himself. He wanted to know how she was, if she was happy, if she hated him, he didn’t care. He wanted to just see her once more.

I don’t want to be sorry anymore. I don’t want to see you being kind anymore. Would you hate me?

As his brown eyes made their way towards the sound, he spotted her.

She looked happy and laughing with a friend of hers. His heart felt like it was squeezed when she looked over in his direction. What was going to happen? Would she instantly ignore him? He wouldn’t be hurt if she did.

But it didn’t happened.

(Y/n)’s eye met Tooru’s and she smiled. A smile that held no malice, no pain, no anger. She lifted her hand and gently waved in his direction, the soft smile never leaving her face as she did so and with a small nod in his direction, she walked off with her friend.

Tooru felt sick. He felt confused. Why didn’t she hate him? Why did she still treat him so kindly? Seeing her treat him kindly hurt so much worse than if she hated him. He wished she would hate him. If she hated him, the pain would stop. He did nothing but hurt her; yet here she was still treating him with that warm, bright kindness that brought him to her in the first place.

He stood staring at the spot she once stood and with his heart aching realized that he was finally just someone from her past.

Goodbye

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[frogtanii]

iwaizumi was... overwhelmed, to say the least.

the past few days had been such a whirlwind of change that hajime could barely properly process, much less appropriately react to it all, so he behaved much like a zombie, saying yes when prompted, signing papers when told, and packing up what was his entire life for the past 11 months.

wow. iwaizumi collapsed on his bed as he scanned his now barren bedroom. he’d been here for almost a year and yet, all his belongings were in boxes within a couple of days.

hajime couldn’t keep the disbelieving chuckle from escaping his chest as he leaned back on his bed, dark brown eyes trained on the ceiling.

it felt like he’d spent such a large chunk of his life trapped in this house, under the foot of the woman who he thought he’d marry but in reality, he’d been in little leagues longer than he’d been in love.

iwaizumi scoffed and rolled his eyes. yeah, “in love”. it’d been about a week since his whole life started to unravel and he had hardly seen, let alone spoken to meiko throughout that entire time.

over text, she’d sworn up and down that she loved and cared about him but as she passed by him packing his things a few days ago, she’d barely spared him a second glance.

hajime wasn’t going to lie. it hurt. he’d opened his heart up to her, something he didn’t do easily, and she’d taken his trust and used it to twist him into her weapon.

he always believed he was stronger than this — he’d never forget his mother telling him so when he was younger. he had fallen and scraped his knee yet he refused to cry to keep from upsetting his mom. iwaizumi existed to live up to what his mother thought of him but here he was, completely enveloped in meiko’s shit, doing her dirty work and following her bidding like some mutt.

god, toorū was right. he really was her bitch.

“i could hear you thinking from down the hall, iwa-chan.” speak of the devil...

oikawa stood at his doorway, leaning against the frame with a posture that seemed relaxed at first glance but if you looked a little closer, you’d notice the tenseness in his shoulders and the tightness of his smile.

hajime quickly sat up on his bed before motioning for his old friend to enter. “uh, yeah,” he began, his voice cracking a little from disuse, “i have a lot to think about.”

the light haired brunette let out an understanding hum before wandering into the room, sharp observant eyes darting to look at all the empty walls. “looks like you’re all packed.”

“pretty much,” iwaizumi nodded before the room fell into an awkward silence, the two childhood friends completely avoiding one another’s eyes.

“look, i-“

“iwa-chan, i’m-“

they both paused for a moment before bursting into laughter, the sound carrying into the hall and throughout the house.

hajime wiped a few stray tears from his eyes, shaking his head at their awkwardness. “you first, shittykawa.”

toorū gasped in halfhearted mock offense before quickly sobering up, training iwaizumi with a completely serious look. “i’m sorry and before you go on some bullshit, self sacrificing rant, you’re not the only one to blame for what happened to our friendship.”

he sighed while making his way to iwaizumi’s bed, sitting down gently beside him. “i should’ve known better, okay? i shouldn’t have let my jealousy and insecurities get in between us but i guess i got swept up in the attention, yknow? meiko is actually charming when she wants to be.”

iwaizumi nodded in agreement, knowing all too well how compelling meiko could be. the room fell into a more comfortable silence as both boys escaped into their thoughts, questions about the future of their friendship flitting throughout their minds.

“oh!” oikawa was pulled out of his own head at hajime’s exclamation, his eyes moving to observe his friend dig through his pockets to procure a thick white envelope. “here. i’d like you to give this yn.”

all toorū could do was nod, his brain short circuiting at the sight of iwaizumi’s apparent kindness to the woman he tormented for so long. “uh, what’s in it?” he ventured to ask, his soft hands toying with the sealed envelope flap.

a soft chuckle came from across the bed. “don’t be so nosy toorū, just give it to her, yeah?” oikawa rolled his eyes but obliged, the bed creaking as he stood to his feet.

“so... this is it, huh?” it was like the reality of the situation was just now sinking in — they hadn’t been close in a while but iwaizumi was still his best friend and he wasn’t quite ready to let him go.

they’d been through so much together, practically growing up together and now, they’d only see each other on holidays, if even then, and then he’d never be invited to hajime’s wedding as his best man as they’d planned and he also wouldn’t be the coolest uncle/godfather of iwa’s children and—

“fuck no,” hajime scoffed with a bright grin on his face. “thought you were gonna annoy me til the end of time shittykawa. don’t tell me you’re quitting your job now.”

the hidden meaning behind iwaizumi’s words brought tears to oikawa’s eyes and before he could stop himself, he launched his body into iwa’s arms. hajime hesitated, his hands stuttering at toorū’s sides as though he’d forgotten how to hug but the feeling passed, his arms winding around his friend’s lithe waist.

“‘m gonna miss you hajime,” oikawa’s voice came out as a broken whimper, his arms tightening around his shoulders.

iwaizumi hummed instead of responding, too afraid of his voice cracking under the weight of his emotions. they stood there for a moment but the honk of the moving truck outside signaled the both of them of their limited time.

hurriedly, oikawa wiped the tears off his cheeks before waving awkwardly at iwaizumi as he left the room with a friendly, “don’t be a stranger.”

and then he was gone.

toorū finally allowed himself to collapse into sobs on his best friends empty bed, his palms pressing into his eyes as he sat there and just let himself feel.

apparently, he wasn’t crying very quietly because it took only a few moments for you to find him, your soft footsteps alerting him to your presence. oikawa scrambled to wipe away what he knew was an unattractive mixture of tears and snot as you got closer.

you were one of the last people he wanted to see him like this.

“hey,” you whispered, standing a few feet away from him. “um, i know this is probably a bad time but i just wanted to thank you for apologizing? back at the awards show?”

toorū sniffed as he looked up at you with confusion written on his face. “what? you shouldn’t thank me for apologizing. ‘s common courtesy.”

you laughed softly, nodding in agreement. “well, not always. so, thank you.” finished with your piece and not too keen on lingering where you weren’t wanted, you moved towards the door but were swiftly stopped before you got there.

“um, here. it’s from iwa-chan.” you gaped at the thick envelope oikawa was handing you before taking it and opening it, a low curse falling from your lips.

inside the package was a dense wad of cash, more money than you’d seen in months. accompanied with it was a letter, written in beautifully loopy handwriting.

you shut it quickly before oikawa could see, stuffing the envelope deep within your pocket where you could access it alone in the depths of your room.

“do you wanna come eat? last i heard, bokuto and tsumu were doing a cooking competition and i’m sure it’ll be fun to watch.” you were severely thrown off by the money and letter but you were determined to show toorū that you’d accepted his apology and were on your way to making amends.

he gave you a shy nod and trailed behind you to the kitchen, the loud sounds of fire and screaming coming from down the hall. you wanted to focus on the fun and merriment but the envelope was practically burning a hole in your pocket.

later that night, you finally got the chance to open the letter and read it, your former manager’s words bringing tears to your eyes.

dear yn,

i’m probably the last person you expected to hear from. you probably didn’t want to hear from me at all if i’m being honest and i don’t blame you. i know there is nothing i can say that could make up for what i’ve done to you but i’d like to try.

i’m sorry. those words don’t nearly express in and of themselves how truly remorseful i am but they needed to be said. there’s no excuse for how i treated you — not meiko, not my stress, absolutely nothing.

you deserved my common decency and respect and i didn’t give that to you. instead, i abused my position and made your life hell. i’ll never forgive myself for that.

uh, i bet you’re wondering what the money is? i promise i’m not trying to pay you off, it’s just all the money i’ve denied you since you moved here. i have a lot of wrongs to right and this is one of them.

sorry, i’m not very good with words but i just wanted you to know that i’m very sorry for everything that i’ve done. and i’m in no place to make demands or anything but i just wanted to ask if you’d keep an eye on oikawa for me.

he’s strong but he’s also vulnerable. he might be a pain in my ass but he’s my best friend and since i can’t keep him from drowning, i was wondering if you’d do that - not for me but for him.

anyways, this letter is shit but i suppose you get the gist. use the money for whatever you want and if you’re as unselfish as i’ve heard, you don’t owe me anything. you don’t owe me money, kindness, or forgiveness.

take care of yourself,

iwaizumi hajime

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