#i used to play with them a lot haha

[good-beanswrites]

hi! may i request some mikoto + amane (platonic obvs) … anything? they are very dear to me 😭

Yes!!! Thank you so much for the request -- they really are such a good pair ;-; (The thing is, I had so many nice scenes in mind about how they parallel each other, but they wouldn't know or reveal that about each other so I kept restarting...) Anyway, here's something right after Mikoto's first trial/verdict!

Mikoto could pick up on someone’s bad mood from a mile away, though the skill was unnecessary when the other party very clearly and calmly informed him, “I’m in a bad mood.”

After refusing his offer, Amane turned back to a thick textbook she’d been taking notes on. Didn’t kids usually complain that school was already a prison? She must have wanted the full experience. He'd worked nonstop at his studies as well, but this was a new level. Amane often reminded him of his little sister, though she always took the extra step like this. His sister would have jumped at this opportunity to play a few rounds of their favorite card game.

“It’ll be fun!”

He flashed a smile, but it had no effect on her severe expression. “I know you’re just trying to comfort me about our verdicts. I refuse to be pitied.”

“Comfort and pity are two very different things. But anyway, it wasn’t either of those things.” He gave an easy shrug “To be honest, I’m just a little bored. It’s weird not having any work to do during the day.” 

Mikoto couldn’t remember the last time in his life he’d had so many hours to himself. A lot of the others were fun to play games with. A few of the sportier prisoners helped him stay active. He enjoyed smoking breaks with the other men. Still, he was left to his own devices for the majority of his time. It was maddening. He’d recently requested some more art supplies, having used up the last batch, but they had yet to come in. Now with the verdict announcement, he wasn’t sure they’d ever arrive.

“That is your own problem. I already have something to do.” Her eyes lingered on the cards for the briefest of moments before returning to the book. “I told you, I’m not in the mood for it.”

Regardless of her hostility, he took a seat beside her. He leaned his arms out on the table. “We don’t have to play the same game.” The last time they'd played as a big group, several prisoners pulling the tables together to fit everyone. Amane had kept very quiet, eyes darting around at the cards as she tried to keep up with the rules. Not many of the others noticed the frustration clear in her face. Mikoto wasn’t the type to let her win out of pity, though he had begun to mutter the rules and strategies to himself a bit more as the night went on… 

“Is there a game you liked to play at home?”

 “No. There was no time for games in the house.” 

“All work and no play… hah… I know what that’s like.” He slumped his cheek onto his arm, lazily shuffling the cards around. He felt bad for bothering the girl if she truly was upset. He thought it was the bad experience that made her reject him, he hadn’t realized there were also family issues attached. Usually he could read people well; maybe he was losing his touch. He seemed to be losing touch with a lot of things, these days.

He readied a game of solitaire. 

“Mikoto?” Amane kept her face turned away. “There was… one game.”

“Yeah?” Mikoto shuffled the cards back together. He slid them over to her. “You should teach me!” 

She didn’t touch them. “You probably already know it.”

“Nah, I only know a few games. I’m better with tarot cards, though those aren’t really the gaming type. Come on, what is it?”

She told him the name of the game, insisting it wouldn’t be worth playing. She kept her attention on the textbook, but her eyes weren’t reading any of it. 

“Ahh, I’ve heard of that one! We start with four cards, right?” He started dealing them out.

“No, five –” she pointed to the deck, urging him to add two more. 

“Right, right.” He laughed lightly. “And the goal is to get pairs, and put them in a pile, uhh, here.”

Amane shook her head. She shifted her body slightly towards him. “You must be thinking of a different game. There’s actually three piles for pairs. One here, one here, and when it’s your opponent’s turn…” 

Her eyes gleamed as she explained the rules. She pointed to various cards, telling him exact moves and point values. “And to win, you need to –” Her expression shifted. “You… you already knew all this.”

“Of course not!” He put on his most convincing smile. 

She deflated. “You’re not a very good liar.”

“Tch, tell that to the warden.”

His shoulders sagged along with her. If Amane could see right through him, why was the rest of Milgram still coming up with stories about what he did and didn’t do? “Well, I might already know the rules, but it’s been a long time since I’ve played. You can still give me a hand. Plus, if you really are in such a bad mood, it’ll be good to take a break from your studies. You should always take a break when things get too overwhelming, yeah?”

She gave him a withering stare.

“Eh? What’s that face for?”

“Alright, let’s play. You can go first.”

“I mean it, what was that look? Aw, come on…”

#milgram #mikoto kayano #amane momose #see - the thing is they both had crimes about 'protecting themself' but both would deny it was for that reason #they both seem to have some family trauma but would never admit it #theyre both used to putting on their best behavior and being 'good' for others but hardly realize that themselves #they are both in denial all the time !!!!! #so i tried to show them getting along for their own perceived reasons -- mikoto thinks he likes her because she reminds him of his sister #and amane thinks she likes him because hes being kind about their verdicts #and while both are right theyre Also drawn to each other because they are very similar at their core #and both have skills with reading people/picking up on cues making it tough to lie to one another #that forced honesty makes for a solid friendship haha! #i also remember a comment from yamanaka that amane would be the worst at card games because shed have trouble with the rules #she seems old enough to handle complex games but she probably never got to play a lot at home ;---; and mikoto probably learns a lot of #types of games (and tarot) so can connect with even more people #i thought long and hard on whether mikoto would let someone else win but he doesnt seem the type (plus amane would notice) #once again i know amane starts speaking in the plural but this comes a bit before that #yaay thank you so much for the request! this was really fun to do - i hope you enjoy! #ive thought a lot about amane and john but less on her and mikoto lol so this was nice :D #drabbles

[selenealwayscries]

fuck you *puts your wizard scar in hanfu*

#mcyt #last life #last life smp #trafficblr #goodtimeswithscar #gtwscar #one funny thing bout this is that this fit isnt like an actual fit you can get #i actually looked up concept art from the p2w mmo i used to play religiously and just put him in it #... while also taking certain details out because if i do include them my hands will try to put a hit on me #i actually struggled a lot with the belt . the amount of time i spent redoing it over and over again is truly ungodly #had to take out some of My personal design preferences but its fine since i like it better like this #miss the mourning veil tho . its a banger idea #anyways more hanfu propaganda amirite haha #i wanna do hanfu designs for like . 1 or 2 characters from each last life faction #idk if i should do the southlanders or team best first . depends on which one i can find outfits for sooner ig #maybe send me some in my asks . make my life easier /j #anyways esona vc time gotta go binge insane football with my besties goodbye #catgirl supreme

[9hels-a]

Went with druid tiefling! and I'm having a lot of fun with it, especially in the druid gove. It's fun watching kagha and zevlor panic when they see her.

#thanks for sharing your fav class 👍�� #druid won it for me haha #still getting use to no mods and the controls but its not a biggie #im enjoying this pt a lot with them! #here is to hoping i finally finish the game 😅 so i can play gales origins #* delete soon

[sysig]

A bit more Defeated, and thinking about this post (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #But actually starting with chibi Maxes because cutes!! He's the cutest!! #I was looking through some old doodles of my own and my chibi style from 2019 was so flippin' cute ugh #That Zedaph in cold weather clothing? Honestly still a fave of mine Zed is So soft in all my doodles of him lol #Figured it'd be nice to float some cute loves Max's way :) And I was right! Though I am out of practice lol #Was still fun to do tho haha #And then since I'd reread Defeated poor ZEX got a chibi as well! I'm sure he appreciates it poor lad haha ouq #Didn't even use my white ink to put a shine in his eye for that one haha :'D #And then a bit more with Dex </3 I had these ideas on the first reading (or so - in the same time period anyhow) but only got to them later #Dex speaks so.....patronizingly about ''Max's'' attachment to Caleb :) It's interesting to me :) #For a lot of it he's very understanding and gentle with him but it really seems like Caleb is something of a sore spot for him huh #Still ♪ I wonder if he'd consciously acknowledge it - and what his reaction would be at himself if he did hmm #He's no help to Max if he's caught in his own feelings! That doesn't make them not meaningful or important tho #And then to a bit of silliness ♪ No subtlety with the guard dog comparisons pffft #I will not apologize - if ZEX gets to play with a collar and leash with the Captain then let Max have just a little! As a treat! #Besides we all know the Real Dynamics here lol #Max and Dex do stupid couple's costumes for Halloween - who doesn't love a callback lol - and Dex is Not Amused lol #Hey I mean if the shoe fits! #And then the last one is just silly lol I may be misinterpreting the intended message but I couldn't not give it to them lol #And also Max in a ponytail for funsies :D Cute lad ♥

[airbenderedacted]

So who’s your favorite character in Wander Over Yonder? And what’s your fav ship(s)?

Oh, I love playing this guessing game!! ♡ ～('▽^人) ✨

Favorite character? Well...

[🎨📺]

As for ships, I wouldn't exactlyy say I ship anything in this show tbch, but I'd say I'm especially fond of Sylava, in a strictly fanon kinda way.

#Wander Over Yonder #Lord Dominator #woy is funny bc the core four are all so shippable but nothing rlly does it for me. i think nearly all possible pairs there have some charm #when considering *all five* of the mains not a whole lot changes bc dominator's a lesbian and sylvia is the only other main who isn't a dud #(i'm not a pr.o.shi.pper so bigoted type stuff grosses me out when it comes to shipping. we don't go there eugyhgfghhs) #tbcch i'm of the firm belief that lord dominator shouldnt be shipped with anyone in a srs sense. like as far as staying true to canon goes #she's made it extremely clear that she's not into that kinda stuff *and* that she's wAy too horrible for any kinda relationships anyway #but when it comes to lighthearted silly fanon stuff (or any degree of au stuff where *GASP* D isn't a demon & they Work) sylava makea me :) #(in whatever way ppl wanna imagine them. i'm partial to ''yes homo no romo'' qpr type goodness w/ them but i love seeing Everyone's takes!! #partially bc it's nice to see people actually. care. about what dom is and is not about (sexuality-wise). which is THE BARE MINIMUM but wel #a lot of people Do Not do that! sadly sexism and homophobia exist and it seeps into a lotta things in a lotta small ways and *sobs* #SO YEAH IT'S NICE TO SEE. NOT THAT. it's nice to see as a light shining through the darkness that is the internet & 2010s show fandoms sks #ah & partially bc sylava is like. literally the only ship ever kinda-sorta-teased in the show in a way that wasn't just played for jokes #which i think gives us neat things to work with when it comes to the whole ''what if'' kinda stuff- so!!! yea i just think it's neat :] #in both an ''in another life...'' not-so-hypothetical chemistry kinda way AND in an 'im a real stickler for Canon Goodness' kinda way too #haha #as for other ships i'm especially partial to... mmmmm.. 🤔 #deathglare in the context of hater learning to cherish & appreciate peepers and treat him RIGHT makes me happy. i like that :) #and skeleton dance is always fun!!!! a real delight both on and off the screen hehah #most everything else makes me go ''oh cool. yea that's cute.'' 👍 #ships involving minor characters are pretty take it or leave it. i dont think there's any i have any strong feelings about #except ig that it was pretty sweet when people were shipping lord hater & ripov. tbh i like how many ships people came up with w/ her #that was really swag. she was a fun character!!

[adelle-ein]

every year spotify wrapped just confuses the hell out of me. what is "pov: indie" (why not just indie????) what is "alt z." what the fuck is "hopebeat," is it like "indie poptimism." and where is provo

#i'm always surprised by tswift's ability to worm her way up there esp since i find midnights soooo blah #but she does have a lot of music and i've listened to a lot of it over the years so i guess it adds up in my liked playlist #also surprised by goose house bc like. they broke up like five fucking years ago lmao. how #johnny still uses the label but he's not putting anything new on spotify under the label... #i loved tessa violet's new album and played the shit out of it so her making it up there is not a shock #and revo and maisie peters remain unstoppable every year #top 1% maisie peters fan lol. what does that say about me (i like catchy breakup bops and she sings in my key?) #also griff clawing vertigo up there despite it only releasing in last couple months damn #i did love vertigo though. i did. and i always love fast car #plus i get national parks and jukebox the ghost mixed up allll the time so them being grouped together is funny #anyway yeah i don't know anything about artists genuinely #i just listen to what i like and do whatever #my extended relative has a family spotify plan they put me on as a present since they had a free slot... so it's free for me haha #txt

[goldennika]

spent the day looking up flights and hotels again bc i rly might just fly out from osaka instead of tokyo so i could see tubatu perform in july 🥹

#my family is oddly v supportive of me and my biggest obsession aka txt #even if they don't know much about txt aside from the fact that they're a kpop group and i'm a huge fan of theirs 🥹 #my brother knows some songs since i used to play them a lot when we were working from home together haha #might pull the birthday card on them and see if they could cover my other expenses since i'll need to book new flights for this 🙈 #thank goodness i have miles saved up so my flight home will be a fraction of the cost and i can book it pretty much anytime!! #if not for those miles i wouldn't be doing this 🥹 #manifesting tickets to act: promise in osaka!! ✨ #manifesting ✨ #rambles

[jacquiarno]

Happy Trans Day of Visibility my trans darlings, especially trans gamers! 💖

Whether you have decided to come out or not, you matter, you are loved, and there will always be support for you, especially from this cis lady. 🌈

#the colour scheme with my profile picture and nameplate colour was a happy accident in genshin #yae miko and kaeya are both my favourite characters #i know the genshin community can be quite toxic but i've been playing this game since launch #so if anyone can gatekeep it's me against these toxic people haha #but seriously if you need a safe space to come to any of my socials are a place you can come to #i keep my genshin id hidden here but if anyone from the trans community or the lgbtqia community ever need help pop me a message #i play on the us server #the ff14 has a fairly decent community even if a big name in the streaming scene has come out as a toxic person #but you can message me about that as well although i'm not great at the game haha and i'm on the oceanic servers #i've been a gamer since the 90s and i've loved games since #the fact so many in gaming circles are toxic is a damn disgrace #gaming spaces are meant to be a place where we all come together and accept others and treat them how we want to be treated #but some of these gamers and especially streamers seem stunted in their growth #a lot still act like they have the mindset of teenagers despite most being 30+ #bratty teenagers i should say as not all teenagers act immature #trans rights are human rights #lgbtqia #if you're wondering where i fit in the rainbow community it's the i love people regardless of gender #not sure if bi or pan but i just go with bi #ffxiv #Final Fantasy XIV #ff14 #final fantasy 14 #genshin impact #jacquiarno's screenshots #jacquiarno

[crest-of-gautier]

got the badges for gone fission evp 400 + evp 600 yesterday! .52 gal, l-3 nozzlenose, dread wringer, and squiffer make for quite the synergistic team!

my peak was EVP 810 (appx 300-310% HL). my high score of 151 eggs was obtained somewhere in evp 300...? i'm pretty satisfied with how it went, even if i didn't get HLM or 9s.

some thoughts/reflections on good freelancing teams/traits to develop when trying to rank up in evp under the cut:

i think grinding this rotation was pretty fun- all of the weapons have excellent mobility and i think they cover for each other really well! the l-3 was not my favorite weapon going into it but i think i really enjoyed the accuracy and mobility of it, so it's a bit more favorable for me now :)

i ended up reaching a skill wall in EVP 760-780 where i could not get past wave 2 or 3 (usually for quota related reasons, the quota is BRUTAL! we'd miss it by like 4-5 ish... ofc this partially relates to how well bosses are handled).

the grind for evp was a mix of freelance and grouping up (freelance for 230 -> 440s, grouping up for 440 - 750~, and then testing myself in freelance for that last bit).

i enjoyed the bits of freelance i did, and from my playtime i think these were some of the key traits/practices that indicate "good salmon run skills" to me:

players that know their weapons role(s) and target the appropriate salmonid (but also being willing to break that when priority targets haven't been taken care of)

knowing when a teammate needs help (with a boss or being revived) or when the teammate has a situation under control (e.g. someone's already on the fishstick, you can do something else)

proactive use of specials when problem targets appear, preferably with no overlap (e.g. tri-strike and inkjet activated on the same flyfishes is not the best)

using specials like booyah bomb, triple splashdown, and reefslider to clear basket area in the last 30 seconds to help eggs get in (especially important past evp 600)

teams that paint the walls first thing (especially whoever had the dread wringer). all interior walls for fission can be painted within the first 10 seconds imo

forwarding eggs closer to the basket after splatting static bosses (throwing one egg, and then swimming up with one)

players with good judgment; knowing when to lure (mostly for initial boss spawns), and knowing when to leave the big shot cannon

being able to figure out which directions snatchers come from and what eggs they can help you collect

i think these practices all stem from having good awareness and being able to collect information about the shift. it helps with making snappy quick-fire decisions, and it just gets more important the higher up in EVP you go. camera positioning/control is essential for this (you can't figure out where bosses/teammates are if your back is turned to them).

for me, every 7-10 seconds, i like to rotate my camera around to the opposite side of where i'm currently looking to make sure there isn't any bosses i'm missing. i'm hardly in one place longer than 5-10 seconds and i try to always be on the move. the spawn direction where salmonids come from are always changing, so it's essential to rotate around the map proactively rather than reactively. i think this also helps a lot with shotcalling in groups too (since you can be someone else's pair of eyes).

other than boss spawns/teammate locations (for revives), i think it's also important to notice when certain bosses haven't been taken care of for prolonged periods of time too, so that a special can be popped. to me it's usually a sign that someone whose ill equipped to deal with that boss has been forced to deal with them because the people with the "right" weapon are focused on something else... (no fault to them, of course, everyone has different priorities and you can't always communicate clearly in freelance)

in situations where squiffers were chased by a pack of scrappers, perhaps a booyah bomb or splashdown can be popped to help if you don't have the time to stun and splat them manually. maybe the fish sticks were left unattended by the shooters, so a triple inkstrike or a crab/inkjet shot can help clear them out.

awareness also extends to meeting quota, which imo involves paying attention to the timer + where eggs are located. i find that it's nice to check in with the timer/quota at 50s and 30s respectively so that you can start forwarding eggs closer to basket. and when everyone's going crazy about quota not being met i try to make sure i'm not overstepping anyone else's egg pile so that no one goes "wait no thats the egg that i wanted to pick up fuck i have to go back and get a different one."

i think this is why sometimes playing in groups is easier. if you have more sets of eyes that you can communicate with, it alleviates the need to have awareness of "everything" (provided that you can comms effectively). someone can be attuned to different things (e.g. my friend always tells us where snatchers come from and if they're good, i'm personally attuned to where people need to be revived, etc.). you also know what specials you have access to, unlike in freelance where you're not sure what others have until they use them.

the other part of completing shifts successfully (to me) is being mechanically sound with your movement, mostly in regards to how you use the terrain (walls) to get around the map and escape situations. the more you play a map the more you'll figure out how you can move around on it.

some examples, using the location callouts from salmonrun.ink: there were a few times i'd go on the harbor but i could escape any salmonids in the bridge area by climbing the walls there and squidrolling out as needed. sometimes on high tide i would swim from the perch to the left plat.

sub-strafing is also good to know too, especially when you want to rapidly collect the basket eggs at the end. i still need to integrate it into other parts of my gameplay, but it's helpful!

uh. this was way longer than intended because i have WAY too many thoughts about salmon run. TL;DR: The key to succeeding your shifts is having good awareness which comes from good information collecting practices, and having the mechanical skill to act on that awareness without hesitation.

there's definitely a lot that goes on in sensory overload the game™, so it will take time to build these muscles and reaction times. i think while at every rank of salmon run you may face a wall of "i'm overwhelmed by the bosses," the exact fix needed to get past it usually varies, so it's important to figure out what information you were missing or what actions you could've taken (more efficient movement or special usage, usually).

or if you're struggling with quota, try to practice forwarding eggs or take a look where snatchers come from (even if people splat them, it's still a good practice 2 develop for later evp. source: i don't fucking do it and it's biting me in the ass)

and most importantly, recognize when you're in the midst of a loss streak/skill wall, so that you can take a break and focus on other things that energize you! even if there's a certain goal you want to meet, grinding for higher levels of EVP and getting better at the game can be a very exhausting process. you can always come back to the grind later, whether if it's after a 30 minute break, or just a different rotation!

#splatoon 3 #lizz.jpg #lizz.txt #i did like 93 jobs of this rotation if anyone is curious. average waves cleared 2.2. point card was 31315p #im so normal about salmon run this is my favorite mode in the game that even though i have 2x the hours of my friend she's higher leveled- #in the pvp multiplayer than i am (but also she uses exp tickets and i dont because im a money enjoyer) #honestly i do wonder what i could've done differently with evp 740ish bc i could NOT stick around with a group WHICH IS SO FAIR #though it is a little disorienting to go between 300 to 320 HL with every new group of people HAHA #i do think it's the snatchers i gotta pay more attention to but damn idk when they spawn lol #and maybe my specials could get more value for them. i never go a shift without using them but idk #i think there's also been a lot of dying in general. like 3-5 deaths for everyone so it's def a movement/not keeping up with boss issue #in some form...? so maybe if i get to the point where my specials are back to proactive use and not 'for surviving this first wave' #i'll be golden and good to go for 9s... still very valuable learning experience though! #it would have definitely been easier to get to 9s if i reached certain evp ranks earlier to play with more experienced people but #where is the learning in that? LOL. i just feel like you're really forced 2 confront what you suck at when all the 'good people' are- #already at 9s or some higher VP y'know. and then when you get booted down to a lower VP for the next roto. it feels so much easier #and its like wait! maybe i'm okay at this game actually #anyway i don't think i'll be playing salmon for extended period of time for the next week otherwise im gonna be tetris effect'd LOL

[lucifer-the-fetus-eater]

i think the soldier tf2 would listen to five finger death punch

#rambling #tf2 #hello it's me again sharing my visceral thoughts #i mean tbf i am making a soldier tf2 playlist and decided you know what i think belongs on here? 5fdp. that's what. #ok everything after THIS tag is unrelated rambling dont mind me #i used to listen to them a lot in middleschool #like all of their songs #because i only decide an artist is my favorite if i listened to all their songs at least once and i MUST like the majority of their songs #i literally gatekeep myself #cuz im afraid to call myself a fan or say their my favorite and someone be like “oh have you heard this” and i havent listened to it then #mainly because im afraid of social interaction that puts me on the spot #cuz then id have to be like “err... no...” and then in my head theyd never see me the same again #but that's just me i overthink literally everything #and ive gotten severely distracted cuz i was gonna play around in sfm but now im rambling in the tags of a post with a single sentence #but these tags like like a fucking journal entry am i right haha #really i should journal but i dont like rambling into google docs it's not as fun and it gets existential real fast

[clanoffelidae]

Always been a little bit confused by the whole ‘our ocs are often inadvertent reflections of our personal traumas haha’ like i mean yeah in a ‘horoscopes are so generic they can apply to anyone’ kind of way

Idk my characters have their own stories

‘Oh so none of your characters are at all personal reflections?’ No, it’s often clear they’re written by a singular person with core values that show up in them too in some ways, but there’s not really any of that ‘oh i struggled with an abusive family growing up and oops all my characters have abusive childhoods’ kind of stuff that I see people talking about a lot

Like I’ve got a couple of characters that are expressions of personal struggles but they’re few in number, I know who they are, and I know this because I designed them that way intentionally, everyone else is doing their own thing man idk

Seeing that topic go around always feels kinda like what being ace feels like in that I can see that there’s something I’m just not getting but everyone says it and I can kind of see how that could happen so I smile and laugh along despite that not really ‘getting the joke’

#like let’s see the untouched are LITERALLY intended to be metaphors for neurodivergency #and auru is an rp character who has mental health struggles as one of his defining characteristics #and has endeared himself to quite a few people because of it actually lol #he’s the mental health issues projection boy and turns out a lot of people i’ve played with relate 🤣 #but everyone else just kinda. has their own stuff going on. idk. #so basically i have one projection character and then a group of characters #that are INTENTIONALLY DESIGNED to be metaphors for neurodivergency #haha eldritch horrors being baffled by our world and not getting things that seem obvious to us #and so being called monsters because its OBVIOUS so they MUST know what theyre doing #which means they MUST be doing it INTENTIONALLY so they MUST be TRYING to hurt people #meanwhile the untouched have absolutely no idea what’s going on because no. no it’s not obvious. not to them. #they’re beings that exist outside of time they dont have an intrinsic understanding of what things are ‘right and wrong’ by us #and when they say theyre confused and don’t understand everyone just gets angrier at them and insists theyre lying and they MUST be #doing it on purpose - and are just trying to be manipulative #and the untouched just keep crying that they don’t understand what theyve done wrong or how to not do it again #and no one will answer them #theyre just deemed monsters #because well #its OBVIOUS - isnt it? #so saying theyre confused must be a lie #and they MUST be doing it on purpose to hurt us #even as they cry and cry that they don’t understand why we’re so angry with them and don’t know what they’ve done wrong #but again they were made that way intentionally lol #everyone else is like ‘oh beni was a feral child who lost his parents when he was young’ #my parents are alive and well and raised me quite caringly thank you lol

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

sometimes my friends are like “hey you’re doing this to cope with things but it’s not a good idea” and im like “no but it’s harmless and fine!” only to realise they’re completely right and that i regret it

#fucked up my hair so bad and genuinely i don’t know why #well i do know why actually. i was overstimulated by an earlier event and my hair was on my neck and making it worse and instead of being #rational and deciding to style it or put it up i just decided to cut it #and im kicking myself because its so uneven now and its the stupidest fucking decision i could have made and im playing it off as #‘haha funny’ but my hair means a lot to me and now i just wanna cry because it was fine before and now it’s completely fucked up and i dont #know when i can get it fixed. #it’s also similar enough to a worse coping mechanism i used to have and i think i was partly substituting for that too even though i haven’t #done it in years. four years actually which i never thought would happen #but anyway. im just pissed at myself for being a fucking idiot and not thinking about things before i did them #I don’t want anyone responding to this with ‘im sure its fine’ or ‘its a learning curve’ or some shit. just fucking don’t #if i can’t get in this weekend then i’ll probably try to fix it myself just. rationally this time. slower and with help #vent tw

[dustandordinaryhatreds]

I guess it makes sense that Martians are supposed to have that post-anorexia decades-long coke bloat that only photoshop can fix, broooooooo

I wonder if her parents are proud that she's making sexually themed psychological terror weapons for children lol. (Because I know that my parents are/would be capable of understanding that I'm simply a victim of continuous terrorism and harassment, and if they aren't... then I genuinely just don't care what happens to them anymore. I know that MY DAD is capable of understanding that, and that my presently surviving grandma is not.. so) Or that she has multiple necessary CRISPR experiments with a disgusting morbidly obese hunchback bald leather face pedophile serial rapist terrorist fraud who hasn't married her yet, has multiple children with other women, and spends all of his time being a sex-trafficking pedophile who invests in his childhood sci-fi/murderous terrorist day dreams and paying other women to be the actual mothers to his children while Grimes spends her time getting wasted off of hard drugs with her party friends and using her baby daddy's resources to help her create the illusion that she's actually an active participant in A.I. development instead of just an influencer who lends her heavily engineered voice to A.I. projects that other people develop. Natascha Bassett would NEVER -- just like it seems like Natascha Bassett would NEVER choose to marry or have children with someone as vile as Elon Musk when there are plenty of other rich guys for her to choose from that are actually attractive and are actually capable of pleasing a woman with more than their bank account. Nothing screams "I deserve to win the custody battle/child support payment lawsuit over my children" like creating products for children that act as a weapon of psychological terror for the rape and murders you commit against civilians, the elderly, and children. Like, idk, a CAR COMPANY is disturbing and terroristic enough, but children's products? That's just on a completely different level of "I'm a psychotic sex offender who shouldn't have custody over my children or be allowed to DJ other people's copyrighted material in spaces where children are present," especially for someone who claims to be a mother. THANK GOODNESS FOR THIS MONSTER'S NANNIES, like seriously, it's so sad that those kids don't have a proper mother figure. Imagine how betrayed her poor daughter is going to feel when she's old enough to understand the deliberate choices her ova donor made toward children. Is this the kind of intel that your baby daddy is "cherry picking" from your nannies AKA the ACTUAL WOMEN who take care of your kids for you while you flood your bloodstream with hard drugs and devote your life to terrorism?

Like seriously Natascha Bassett would never, ever in a million years do something like that lol. Maybe that's because she was born beautiful and doesn't have a hideous personality disorder to match her all natural mug. Natascha Bassett is also younger than Grimes and looks a lot younger, and she doesn't HAVE to wear baggy clothes and use photoshop to hide her grotesque figure the way Grimes does. I almost feel bad for Elon Musk for being stuck in such an abusive and sexually unfulfilling relationship.

Like honestly I'm 5'2" and weigh close to 100 pounds and have like no resources at my disposal lol. THAT is the person that Grimes and Elon Musk are deliberately terrorizing... for simply listening to music, making a tweet, having a blog, and working odd jobs with the hopes of eventually finishing my education in Psychology and Criminal Justice and becoming a prison psychologist so I can work with inmates who are going to be released and sent back home to their families/children. My sister is an orphan and has been a CNA for her whole life and is a nurse and her husband is an electrician on the railroad and they have 4 kids. My dad is a veteran who won an art award in high school for a sculpture he made of two humans praying with their backs to each other who broke every bone in his body in a hit and run when he was 10, worked his entire life to help support his family, left home when he was 17 after breaking his father's ribs for beating on his mom (whom Elon Musk and Grimes murdered on October 15th, after murdering the mother of his only child on film on his birthday and then stalking/grooming/torturing/sex-trafficking his only daughter throughout her entire life both on her college campus and in every single workplace she entered), joined the Navy, and got a job as an engineer on the railroad despite how hard it was for him to work a job like that due to his injuries, only had one kid because that's all he could reasonably accomodate on his own, and did everything he could to be as good of a dad as he knew how to be and provide for me financially so I could get an education... only for it to be thrown away by Elon Musk and Grimes' terrorism and sex trafficking. THOSE are the people that Elon Musk and Grimes are deliberately and persistently terrorizing.

I would've been somewhere around 10 - 14 years old when this picture of Grimes was taken professionally by an entire team of people that her parents' connections helped her get deals with just FYI.

Also, just... is it really an ethical best-practice to allow someone with a speech impediment to be the voice for interactive children's toys? If you're trying to create an educational product to help with childhood development, wouldn't it be optimal to use the voice of someone that doesn't have a speech impediment? I understand that her voice is HEAVILY engineered in order to make it sound childlike or alluring or nice to listen to, but like... she has a speech impediment. Does she even care about the children or childhood development, or is this just another vanity project aimed at trying to disguise her true nature and beg for her baby daddy's attention? Like, idk, I get it or whatever, she wants to do the whole "DD/LG" thing with him, but.... she's making the conscious choice to bring ACTUAL toddler-aged children into her kinks and terrorism, effectively using ACTUAL children as props in both a terror campaign and a sexual game. And like... idk lol, that video she released of herself playing with the A.I. toy wasn't even sexy OR cute like she was wanting it to be lol. She just makes these awkward jerking motions and weird contorted faces while trying to look innocent and sweet as a nearly 40 year old woman of average height and weight for her body type and *sniff sniff* lifestyle, tearing her gross, boney fingers through some ratty weave she's trying to make look like hair that's as naturally and virtually effortlessly curly and beautiful as mine is.

She truly is as disgusting on the inside as she was naturally made to look on the outside... and which all of the plastic surgery and photoshop in the world has really not been able to save her from. (I feel that I should clarify that I'm not knocking plastic surgery and photoshop. I'm just making a contextual argument.)

#help me my mom's a crown prosecutor and my dad's a biotech banker but i'm so scared of having sex with the guy i chased for my whole life #and who platforms my entire career and funds my whole life #and who i willingly had several children with haha probably more than i even know about #but no i don't need to know #brooooooo #i'm A LOT younger and smaller than grimes and i know that's really what's behind her vehement abuse #you should probably just see if your baby daddy will finally marry you girl #i hope for your kids' sake that you can stay sober for long enough to protect those crispr cuties when ur bd's enemies start calling them #or hell maybe just his friends if they get drunk enough #r ur parents proud of the jokes u like to make while ur bd plays elden ring all night #and you can claim that you're a registered trademark all you want lmfao #you're still a copyright infringing fascist terrorist #i don't want your brand lmfao #you've literally spent the last several years terrorizing me so you can steal projects i was working on #like you force other people to sign NDA's so you can take writing credits for their work and have other people mix #the horribly engineered music that you still can't perform live for you #and your bd may have kept your copyright fiasco out of US news #but your fav country Japan remembers #how are you going to call yourself a world princess when you can't even honor the customs in a country you claim to love #or claim that you only supported a presidential candidate because you were in a vacuum lmfao #how are you protected from terrorism and protected from liability from your terrorism and aided by nannies and assistants AND in a vacuum #what say you of the natural state of the metis princess of mars ye olde phrenologists and eugenicists #'no consent' lol is he not paying for it? #and platforming you? #like really how involved were you in ANY of this A.I. business before you got knocked up? #you're really going to claim that the guy who didn't terrorize you at all and instead funds and platforms your career #has sex with you without your consent? #like honestly the only way you could get me to agree to having sex with you would be if i could almost snap your neck #rosa rosa republic of south africa where is my heart #oh i guess it's right here in these sexually themed psychological terror weapons i market to young children during my child custody battle

[sysig]

The Sleepy Parable (Patreon)

#Doodles #The Stanley Parable #TSP #Inspired by a play session I had while I was Very sleepy haha #I forget if it was late or early but it was definitely Tired out while I was doing some replaying so I was a little lethargic #Lots of crouching and looking at the floor and not much looking around just waiting as the Narrator talked over elevator rides haha #And that got me thinking about - what if Stanley was Actually the sleepy one? How much of the player's intention carries over into Stanley? #Obviously Stanley can't Literally get tired - he can slow down or speed up depending on where he is and you can make him crawl around #But a lot of Stanley is also left up to interpretation ♪ So why not a Sleepy Stanley <3 #And sleepy means pajamas! Haha #Was this all just my master plan to draw Stanley in a nightcap? Maybe :3c #I really was sleepy while playing but you know how it is with thoughts lol #I do like the idea of the Narrator being extremely callous and uncaring for certain things - like Sinister's arm for example #But is Stanley hydrated? Need to use the restroom? Well rested? #Oddly I don't think he'd care that much about food?? Lol I can just see Sin's blood sugar bottoming out and the Narrator like ''Ah'' #The way the Narrator plays the Sims: Keeps all motives except Comfort and Fun maxed out at all time and gets annoyed with the sims complain #Also! Let Stanley into his bed in the apartment! Either of them! With no buckets pls just let him rest For Once #The last one is of him enjoying(?) a cup of coffee since there's just so many options of mug around the office lol #That's certainly one way to stay awake

[caramelmochacrow]

i am a guy/dude. (<- they have no feelings abt saying this whatsoever)

*uses he/him in some shape or form* (<- he is happy af to the point that his stomach is churning and he feels giddy)

#crow talks #might try using he/him when talking abt myself more #if i cant do it irl might as well do it online #doesnt mean i hate they/them tho i like that one a lot #they/them is. for if u dont know me very well. #they/them is like my comfort zone. me likey. #but he/him is like the forbidden fruit #i have been denied of such a thing until i gave into my selfish desires #but it could just be me but it doesnt feel selfish. just a desire in general. #maybe the reason i like he/him is bc ive always been told that if i like “boy” stuff im a “boy” ever since i remember #EVEN LIKE. JUST. COLORS?? #like i say i like blue and suddenly im a man? #ty for the free testosterone color blue??? #also. oh no u like. like BEYBLADES??? u. ur one of the guys now!!!! oh the despair!!!! (sarcasm) #beyblades are fucking cool ok? i only played it three times in my life bc of fucked up gender shit #also i lost friends bc of it in my last school #we kept hanging out together during school and did normal friend shit yk? #then people started saying one of them liked me and at first it was just 'haha ok lol we're just friends' #then after a year it became fucking 'oooh yeah sorry we're not going to hang out w u anymore' to the point we lost touch #sick of it. #befriending people who were the same gender as me also messes me up bc i had nothing in common w them at school. #i did not know what the fuck they were saying when they talked abt popular/anything relating to social media #they talk abt a new show and say something and im just going ???? #im still dealing w this rn but less stressful and confusing bc i know some slang now #but i still have no clue what the fuck is happening sometimes

[astrxealis]

man i wanted ffxv comrades for the longest time. fun fact but like. it's been less ever since i got into ffxiv but i've always been super into games w character customization (bcs ocs or self-insert stuff lol) !! so all mmos i've gotten into (most on mobile bcs i never really was a pc gamer </3 or played online games on ps until xiv) are bcs of the character customization actually. even ffxiv (but also esp bcs i love final fantasy). man i hope i can get ffxiv comrades sometime ??

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #either character customization or bcs of friends btw! uh i've played like. black desert (mobile only </3) and there was toram online #man i trolled people on there with my friend who is now famous on tiktok (sorry it's just really funny /pos to me) #does dragon raja count. ALSO i want to play lost ark sometime and other mmos (esp pso2) hehehe. #but yeah! character customization <3 but i think i can also say i'm definitely into mmos HGSJBHBEGHB #ffxiv actually i heard of a long time ago... bcs of my dad actually GOD i love my dad sm #he once showed us a trailer for. idk whether 1.0 or 2.0 but yeah but then 'oops nvm it's online' BUT HAHA IRONIC NOW LMFAO #dad. i want to get him into ffxiv! dude has played like wow and diablo apparently so <3 (i want to play those too sometime) #also i miss playing shooter gamesss i only ever played a lot of those games on mobile + some cod games i have on xbox #and then apex for. one day on ps LMFAO but i want to get into others too ^___^ but i don't want to support blizzard at all yuck #but i want to at least have the experience so. yeah! #BUT YEAH after that trailer i think a few years later ofc super interested in character customization games #so there was ffxv comrades which was great bcs then we were suuuper into ffxv. and then we also got more interested in xiv bcs of ^^ #wow... memories are so interesting. i wonder how i remembered a long time after that our dad showed us ffxiv a long long time ago #i rmbr around that time i still had my angsty emo comfort ocs :)) LMFAO. but then it slowly developed into the sort of #found family i kinda made for myself. they're still in my head i love them a lot so very much! #idk what i'm talking about anymore oh well but yeah that's how i got into ffxiv bcs of ffxv and character customization #and my history with mmos and shooter games it seems. #i still want ffxv comrades btw. one day! i really just love ff(xv) okay