#i wanna die fml

[velaraffricate]

so I've been working on my latest conlang, irkan osla (or just osla for short), for a bit now and would like to showcase its writing system in this post! osla has a syllabic alphabet, not too dissimilar to korean hangul, where letters are stacked according to certain rules to make syllable blocks.

osla's syllable structure is (C)(C)V(V)(C), here's how the stacks work for each type of syllable:

all letters have small, wide, and tall forms depending on their position in the syllable. here are all the letters with their IPA value and romanization:

and here's an example text! i translated parts of the minecraft end poem into osla. maybe i'll make another post just focusing on the grammar when it's more developed. the poem says in english:

What did this player dream? This player dreamed of sunlight and trees. Of fire and water. It dreamed it created. And it dreamed it destroyed. It dreamed it hunted, and was hunted. It dreamed of shelter.

Does it know that we love it? That the universe is kind? Sometimes, through the noise of its thoughts, it hears the universe, yes.

this post is getting long, so under the cut you'll find a "sans-serif" version as well as the poem in osla and its gloss if you're also a linguistics nerd and wanna know what's going on under the hood (the roman numerals stand for the 3 noun classes)! thanks for reading!

The way regular people would write something quickly on a piece of paper with a regular pen is an aspect of creating neographies that I feel is often overlooked, so I developed this sans-serif version that people would probably be more likely to use when writing their shopping lists or diary entries:

And, finally, here's the poem translation:

pak oṇḍul phan wimbakis?

DET.I.SG.PROX play-AGN what dream-PST.3SG.I?

pak oṇḍul lümaṇiuṣerothi han buloni an wimbakis. kaṣkhaothi han nilothi an. wimbakis, run sëmamkis. wimbakis, run xokthakis, han bumxokthakis. zöga an wimbakis.

DET.I.SG.PROX play-AGN sunlight-II.SG.DAT and tree-II.PL.DAT of dream-PST.3SG.I. Fire-II.SG.DAT and water-II.SG.DAT of. dream-PST.3SG.I, that create-PST.3SG.I. dream-PST.3SG.I, that hunt-PST.3SG.I, and PASS-hunt-PST.3SG.I. shelter of dream-PST.3SG.I.

ṭauraka, run kaak samare? run glutsüna flia?

know-NP.3SG.I, that 3SG.I.ABS love-NP.1PL? that universe kind?

imba ethamo, khaṣiŋli an ka’am hu’aŋni pitë, glutsüna ṣaraka, ti.

some time-NOM.III.PL, noise-ACC.II.SG of 3SG.I.GEN thought-NOM.III.PL through, universe hear-NP.3SG.I, yes.

#i hope the quality of the images isnt too unbearable :') #if you wanna write something with this script go for it and tag me!! but pls dont take it for your own projects and all that #i actually didnt notice its similarity to hangul until after i was done lol #id actually developed a completely different alphabet first but thought it was too boring #and like ngl i am literally so happy with how this came out lmao its so pretty and fun to write #definitely my 2nd if not most fave writing system ive ever developed for my clongs #(also btw technically not all small versions of consonants would actually be used #only those that appear in clusters. but i put them there anyways #like theoretically you could forgo all the wide and tall letters and block structure and just write the small letters in a line #like a more traditional alphabet. but this is more fun) #also hi if david peterson reads this i will literally die thx ily #i just realized universe in the last sentence is supposed to be accusative fml!!!!!!!!!!! always gotta doublecheck my cases man ah man whyy #conlang #conlangs #my conlangs #irkan osla #neography #conscript

[jacksonthereaper]

TW// Suicidal thoughts, mental exhaustion, lack of self worth

Doubt anyone's gonna see this but fuck it i might as well drop this in here

I'm so tired

I'm 15 years old male in 10th grade and i'm just so tired of everything. Tired of doing so much and putting in all the effort i can only to be criticized at the slightest mistake, tired of always trying so hard to be nice to others yet only being noticed when i'm rude or doing something bad or embarrassing, tired of this garbage world filled with wars, pollution, genocide, hunger, poverty, discrimination, disease, etc.

I feel like i'm losing more and more motivation with each and every single day that passes, beit for doing things i like, things i don't like, things i have to do, etc. I'm not particularly angry or sad or scared or frustrated, i guess i'm a little melancholic but overall i'm just exhausted, numb, and, most of all, bitter.

I still feel some amount of joy, but it feels so vain and empty. I eat something delicious, i listen to some music, i watch something funny on YouTube, on TV, etc., then i go right back to my misery. I just want someone to hear me calling for help. I just want to feel like someone actually gives a flying fuck about what i have to say, or wants me to feel better, or even just cares about my existence at all.

I don't even know anymore man. I'm just running out of options. I'm probably just experiencing burnout, which coupled with the fact i live in what is essentially a small village in the middle of nowhere, really just makes me feel hopeless.

Fuck this shit, man.

#tw sui ideation #vent post #tw vent #tw mental health #mental exhaustion #i'm so tired #i'm so done #sad post #idk what to do anymore #mental health #lack of motivation #self worth #or lack thereof #i feel alone #i just wanna die #nothing makes sense #fml #ugh

[emobitch14]

I just want my brain to fucking shut the fuck up already.

#mentally unstable #over this shit #ready to kms #i wanna die #i hate this #lol fml #i hate it here

[heraldofcrow]

Midterm Stress-Induced Crow Doodle or something.

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Inspired by this.

#ONLY ONE MORE PAPER TO GO!! #and then it’s five weeks of build-up for finals #fml #i’m gonna die #at least i have this crow freak for mental support #i really need to draw Eileen more but i’m scared of drawing her mask #i wanna get it perfect #bloody crow of cainhurst #luther the bloody crow #bloodborne #CrowSketch

[toucansafari]

my gamedev project is giving me mad anxiety to the point of nausea and sleeplessness ;;A;;

you may or may not know but i am in the process of making a game with a team in chile. there's a big language and timezone barrier with only 2 people on the team comfortable speaking in english.

the issue is that i am supposed to be the art director on the project and while i did make a lot of important art decisions at the start, now i have almost 0 control over the art. the artist in the team almost exclusively makes the art and does whatever she feels is right and i am only informed about what's going on later.

i understand that since she doesnt speak english, it's hard for her to discuss things with me, plus timezone diff is a bitch.

there's a difference in power between me and my mentor (who's the head of this team)because obv while this is my game and vision (that i've been developing for 3 years alone), it's HER team thats helping me realise it (for free)

i feel so uncomfortable because i am indebted to her for this opportunity but also like, i dont like the direction where it's headed (aesthetically)

this thing has been sapping my mental energy for weeks now and i feel so detached from this project at times (even thought it's my baby). i know i should speak to my mentor but i am so afraid of sounding ungrateful, jealous or entitled, esp because the artist is close friends with her.

i did ask my mentor if we could have a talk sometime this week (without going into details) and she said we'll see, so if she doesnt set up a meeting my tomorrow, i will have to tell her everything over chat which i dont wanna do (since it may be misinterpreted)

anyway, i am writing all this just to get it off my chest. at times i feel i should just let the project finish without interfering and then make something else thats closer to my heart but i also feel like it's wrong if i dont fight for my vision. idk

i feel constantly on the verge of tears because of this because i know they're not doing this maliciously which makes it harder for me to speak up and i am just terrified of sounding unprofessional or bratty

#fml i wanna die #personal stuff

[todostoast]

i dont know why i j dont have any motivation to do anything rn. its like ik one day im gonna regret not doing anything but atm im j gonna sit here and waste away for eternity. time is going by too fast. thinking about the future makes me wanna die. life is so ass to the point where ive cut myself sm that im not sure cutting more will even make me feel anything.

#no motivation #wtf do i do #im tired #fml #vent blog #tw depressing thoughts #i wanna kms #mentally unstable #i hate everything #depressing shit #vent post #i wanna die #sh cvt #cvtaddict #tw sh related #self h@rm

[yakultstanreblog]

not only did my parents traumatise me by banning me from football bc I was supposedly a girl and better than my brother they also cockblocked 14yro me from attending the historic never to be repeated event of Miley’s Bangerz tour leaving me only able to watch it repeatedly on dvd for the next 10 years

#my biggest regret in life #and it wasn’t even in my control #actually makes me wanna die #this is what I wish my trauma was HAHAHA #NO Actually this is trauma lol #I was alive for such an event and unable to experience it in person fml

[lostlegendaerie]

I need WebMD but for autistic spectrum feelings, and not the "you feel like shit" website (though it's good) I'm talking about "why did I eat three full sized meals in 8 hours, have a mildly elevated heart rate while also feeling sleepy, and have spent all day wanting to run laps around the neighborhood?"

#this is a genuine question #what is. fucking. happening to me right now #FML I wanna nickname this LOCUST MODE: EAT SCREAM FLY DIE

[thegirlwholivesin-delusion]

Oh god give me strength

#fml #whenever I decide I'm gonna do something better for myself something has to come along and ruin it #this shit sucks #I wish I was a year younger smh #I cannot even blame anyone cuz this is my fault #should've known better from when I cannot even remember anything #I barely have any memories from last year #but I know they are bad #had decided I would stop the thoughts of dying. #guess it's not time yet #UGH #I don't want to go there alone wtf #those people are scary af #I maybe overthinking this but god what if they hate me #I really don't want to after all that has went down #why is my mother so fixated on that goddamn #fuck my life #wanna die so bad rn #cannot even cry cuz I have to study #i hate everything #not queued

[silenthillbunni]

i love having tooth ache but not being able to afford going to the dentist <3 def doesnt make me wanna kms ^-^

#dental care is crazy expensive it's like no way i can afford that #if only i had a job w minimum wage i'd just pay it and have a rough month #but i dont even have that amount on my account rn T-T #wanna die i hate tooth pain just bc of this!!!! #w anything else i know i can just go to the doctor or ER but not with dental issues :((( fml

[fuzz-onyx]

Feeling a little sick to the stomach atm.

I gained the courage to say that I don't need to be part of a thing after a whole year of technically not needing that thing. And during the part where I say I don't need the thing anymore I say that I felt bad cause i felt like I was taking advantage of said thing.

In response to that sentence, the person helping to run the thing said "yeah, true."

And now I feel horrible.

#don't mind me #feel free to ignore #random ramble #vent #the thing was job support #but it was supposed to help me find and adjust to the job #now i feel sick #ugh #fml #wanna die again

[xinheartswakeex]

When someone tries to love me, I unintentionally push them away. Why tf am I like that?

#so toxic #i hate my life #fml #personal #push them away #push people away #the struggle is real #don't want to be hurt again #bipolar #depression #borderline #literally borderline #bpd #adhd #mental illness #i wanna die

[indagonightmare]

That haha silly moment when your insurance that you pay for for your car that you own says they have to call your mommy for permission to get your car fixed

#fml #i told the insurance lady we're no contact #but theyre doing it anyways #fmlfmlfml #i wanna die

[rayneysblog]

I was doing so good until my mom got fried zucchini, so freaking good. Anyways I binged, not a crazy amount of cals but still binged. 😀🔫

Kill me now

#ana trigger #anarecik #bingepurge #pro4ana #pro4n4 #pro a4a #literally fml #i wanna be thinner #i wanna die #i wanna be bones

[goblindrool]

I wish humans had a happiness meter that just killed you if you got too depressed. Bc I’m too much of a pussy to do it

#sorry for being depressing #fml #hating this #i wanna die #thanks #I’ll see myself out

[black-cat-burning]

i hate myself ^^

so yesterday night my tv was acting weird, it said there was no wifi but i was on my laptop at the same time so i knew it was wrong so i un-plug it, reset it the whole nine yards or whatever and then i go to sleep cuz it was just not working. today when i got home i went to see if it was working and it wasnt so then i see that my laptop was using another wifi so i put the info for that wifi into the tv things and it doesnt work so then i factory resest my tv and now i cant use it bc i need wifi to use it 😄😄

#i wanna die #im sobbing #fml honestly #ima kms