#i wanna either be beaten up and left bloody n bruised or held and pet and told its fine

[seraphimsinful]

I also just feel stupid and ridiculous rn

#i cant play things competitively without it destroying my mood if i do poorlu #i cant do anything right #i play a game and loose and feel awful. i try a new skill and when im noy immediately good at it i want to kms #i hate feeling this way #its so annoying and i know it doesny matter i know things r hust a game but sometimes i feel so so fucking small and fragile and like if i #dont prove my worth somehow then im useless. #idkkkk idk im tired and just :( #i wanna either be beaten up and left bloody n bruised or held and pet and told its fine #either way i need to be compressed and tucked away #but at the same time laying under my covers and crying about this does Nothing