More of a personal post. Feel free to skip this one, guys.
Kennedy try not to drop out of university challenge *nightmare mode*
I genuinely don’t know if I can stay here much longer. It’s not even just the homesickness. I am fully aware that I am eating significantly less.
I tried to eat leftover pasta tonight but I really just couldn’t. My sensory issues wouldn’t allow it. I wanted to gag. I’m currently sitting in my bathroom waiting until I know for sure that no one is in the kitchen so I can clear my plate and cook something else. Literally all I’ve had today is two slices of toast and half a tube of Pringles. (I have a history with eating disorders for context)
I’m significantly limited in the amount of food I can even hold in my kitchen at one time. I share a kitchen with 7 other people. I share a fridge with 2 other people. All I have is one overhead cupboard and a box of cereal doesn’t even fit in there properly. Any snacks I buy have to stay in my room, meaning they just sit on my desk.
Speaking of things sitting on my desk. Fucking laundry. Doing the washing itself isn’t the problem. It’s the fact that I am forbidden from hanging my wet laundry in my room (most of it isn’t dryer-safe). I can’t have a clothes airer in my room. I am forced to hang it on my radiator and my shower. My window won’t open either for some reason and I’m too nervous to go to the front desk and ask for help because I technically should have said something when I first got here because “fire safety” and all that crap. I also haven’t tidied my room properly because I just either forget or I try to avoid it. I’m perfectly capable of doing it, but things aren’t like the way they are at home and it’s just harder to live?? Idk if that makes sense.
I feel significant anxiety just heading into town for things. I have put things off for about an hour because I’m not comfortable walking around a new city just yet. At one point I was scared of going into town to buy toilet paper. FUCKING TOILET PAPER.
Also my fucking course timetable hasn’t been given to me. I only have 2/4 classes given to me, and I haven’t been assigned a reading group. They promised it would definitely be fixed by Friday but that hasn’t happened. So now I have to go there first thing tomorrow.
I really don’t know what to do. I don’t want to drop out because I really want to do my degree in history, but I also just can’t keep living like this. My mum is trying to move down here but I don’t think that’ll be possible before Christmas.
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smiling serenely as i plan the design and UI elements of a personal interactive website while only thinking of how it operates and looks when navigated and presented on a PC/laptop browsers, and if how i like it on PC/laptop browsers manifests as a total mess on mobile, then it's a total mess on mobile and i do not care, for so many reasons,
the spectrum of which ranges from "4D chess moves in my mind, don't ask, we'll get there, in the meantime, i'm an enigma" to "abstract principles about the nature of medium, and navigation both mechanical and psychological in mediums, especially in this hyperconsumptive Content™ *gag noise* Era" to
" s p i t e "
with oh so many secret spicy skittles in between
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Hiii welcome to The Thing I’ve Been Working On For Far Too Long !!!! This is an edited map of my WoF Headworld!! This map fallows my personal lore / story for what happens post-books! There are far more ideas I have regarding new structures, how the land changes, etc. , but this was just generally for labeling major locations within each territory! My hope was to wrap this up before the Felid Guide drops so I can compare my map to the canon reveal of locations but I didn’t quite get there and there are still a lot of loose ends. Unfortunately I don’t have much time to work on this anymore and will probably chip away at it privately in pieces , but for now I wanted to share this bit publicly!
The info for the labels on the map are all written out below, but I have primarily complied information in a Google Doc for easier viewing and navigation!
Link to the Google Doc !
Under construction !! Im so sorry I’m stuck on mobile and Tumblrs post editor on mobile is actual shit. the formatting is terrible I’m going bonkers in here. Also it’s stuck sideways for some reason like girl pleaseee turn the other way!!! I will rb this again once I’m able to format it properly.
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