#i wanna go back to san diego ahhhh

[aloysiavirgata]

Okay okay now me! How about the old three words prompt format? Potato salad, birthday, camel. Love having you back!

They’re eating potato salad and pulled pork at a picnic table outside of Savannah. The picnic table is behind a garden shed that has been converted to a barbecue shack. Mulder read about it on a message board, said it was worth the forty-five minute detour.

It is. She will never admit this without sodium pentothal.

“Wanna go to the fair later?” Mulder asks around a bite of sandwich. “Saw a sign outside the fire station.”

Scully frowns, poking at her potato salad with a spork. “Mulder. Those rides are set up by meth-addled degenerates with all the engineering expertise of an 8 year old with a Lego set.”

“Ahhhh, come on. We can make out on the Ferris wheel, it’ll be fun.”

She blushes and hates them both for it. “Mulder.”

He pouts. “It’s my birthday.”

“It’s August 3rd.”

“Well,” he concedes, “it’s my birthday next.”

She’s had vague ideas about his birthday, a new lingerie set maybe? But it embarrasses her to consider in any real way. They’ve slept together four times but she’s mortified at the thought of chatting with the leggy sylphs at Victoria’s Secret.

Mulder leans across the table on his elbows to kiss her, outside in the daylight in front of the ghosts of General Sherman and Flannery O’Connor and everybody.

There’s a whoop from a few stoned teenagers across the gravel, eating Kool-Aid pickles.

She tries to look prim and scandalized when he sits back, feels herself fail miserably.

“Fine,” she says. “Let’s ride the Ferris wheel.” She loves the idea of sitting at the top with him, the little frisson that will come as the seat stops and swings. She knows he’ll try to win her a prize at some rigged game.

He looks intolerably smug and she almost reconsiders on principle. He washes down another mouthful of pork with sweet tea.

“And the making out part?” He bats his lashes at her to disarming effect.

She sips her own tea. “Not a Ferris wheel exactly, but my first kiss was on the um…the what do you call it? The sky tram thing at the San Diego Zoo.”

A wolf whistle from Mulder, echoed by the teens. “Minx,” he says.

Scully grins. “We were visiting some friends over summer break and they had a son my age on whom I had a life-threatening crush. His name was Frankie. We somehow ended up alone in the air tram gondola car together after the camel rides and, well…”

“You send him letters on scented stationery all summer?”

She had indeed.

“No.”

“Liar,” he says, chewing on his straw and leering. “So how was it?”

“We both smelled of camel and we both had braces. It was very romantic.” She’d ended up with a cut on her lip that Melissa blackmailed her with.

He laughs. “Ahab ever find out?”

She grimaces. “Thankfully not. We didn’t see each other after that, actually.”

“Poor Frankie.”

They finish their food, return to their hot, stuffy car for the drive back to the motel. They do not touch.

(Later, on the Ferris wheel, they kiss like they invented it. He makes obnoxious remarks while she eats a vanilla soft serve custard; she indulges him shamelessly and holds his eyes while she licks it.

He wins her a monstrous pink bear that she gifts to a small, sticky girl.

They fall into bed for the fifth time and his mouth tastes of lemonade and sex. Above them is the Dog Star. Vega, Arcturus. Scully, who wrote her thesis on Einstein’s twin paradox, knows time travel is impossible. But she is thirteen again, her lips swollen with kisses and the sweet impossibility of being young and stunningly in love in summertime.)

#xf fanfic #xfiles fanfic #msr #my fanfic #fluff #prompts

[ladyelissarose]

‘A Heart With Wings’

Warnings: FLUFF!! Ahhhh!! Ladies and Gents it’s finally over!! What a ride! Thank you for your love and support. I’m very proud of this journey, and I hope you all enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it for y’all!! Thank you!!! 

Epilogue..

‘6 months later...’

 Aviators POV

“Ghosty! Give us a chance for Christ’s sake!! You keep shooting us down and making the number of our pushups increase!!!” 

  Fanboy whined to Ghosty as she replied with a cheeky smile,

 “Hey Fanboy, it’s not my fault that you and Payback made a bet on me that was way out of your league! You know I’m a Striker kiddo!”

 “Ahhh Ghosty!! Just one break please, let us win just one time!”

Throwing her head back in laughter at Payback begging her to give them a chance she finally agreed,

 “Fiiiine... just one time ok!?”

 Rooster’s voice then came through as he was flying under Ghosty with Bob and Phoenix next to him, 

“Ok so we’re starting the game all over then? Cause if we are, you gotta give us a head start this time to fly away and get some good distance at least.”

 Bob agreed with Rooster as he kindly asked,

 “Will you do that for us Ghosty? Please?”

 Another of Ghosty’s weak spots was hearing Bob be so sweet and polite. So of course she said yes,

 “Alrighty then, you all get a good five minute head start, let’s see if y’all are fast enough to get a good distance.”

 Hangman fist pumped the air as he flew above Ghosty while saying,

 “Thank you!! Though you only said yes because it’s Little Robert, the baby of the team-“

Phoenix was quick to defend Bob as she came for Hangman,

  “Hey hey Bagman, leave my Bob alone, he’s just sweeter and so cute, very polite too.”

 Bob blushed happily in the back of his seat as he heard Phoenix come to his rescue. Ghosty awed in appreciation of Phoenix’s words for Bob as she played along,

  “Phoenix is right Hangs... only because he’s sweeter I say yes to only him all the time.”

 Giggling Hangman bit back with a snarky comment,

 “Oh is that so? Cause that’s not what you said the other night-“

 Coyote was immediately fake gagging as he nearly screamed,

 “NUH UH! Not here Hangman!! You do that stuff in your guys’ room!! HELL NO!!”

 Everyone around either laughed or fake gagged, and Ghosty knew Hangman was going to pull such a comment at some point, though he was right in the end, but she cut him to the chase as she threatened,

  “Alright Hangs you asked for it, just know that you’re going to be the first one down!!!”

 “Wanna bet?! Ha! Come and get me sweet cheeks!! On three we all go!! Count with me fellas!!”

  “”1... 2... 3!!!””

Mavericks POV 

 Maverick stood outside basking in the San Diego sun as he looked around, listening to the radio as he heard his aviators play along in the skies like kids. Though as always, Cyclone came trying to ruin the fun as he approached Maverick while asking,

 “Captain Mitchell, What is this?”

Not sparing Cyclone a glance, Maverick simply replied,

  “They’re playing a game, sir.”

Looking around at the empty field of Jets Cyclone questioned,

  “I don’t see them here playing.. dogfight football? Is that what you called it?”

 Nodding Maverick replied

 “Yeah, it’s called dogfight football, but no. That’s not what they’re playing today, their playing dogfight tag, but in their jets in the sky, sir.”

  Forgetting the fact that the aviators were playing a game with the jets, Cyclone was more curious about ‘dogfight tag’ as he asked,

  “Dogfight tag? What the hell is that?”

Explaining simply Maverick put forth,

 “So basically, they all kinda like the fact of Ghosty being a Striker, so they play tag, though Ghosty is always ‘it’. They fly around each other using their Need For Speed or Danger Zone skills to try and get away from their Striker, and I’ve seen an improvement sense they’ve been playing. They’ll use special skills and ways to get away from her, I made up the game and now they won’t stop playing it during flight maneuvers.”

 Huffing a short laugh of approval, which was super weird coming from Cyclone, he then questioned,

  “And what’s happens to the loser, how do they lose?”

 “First one caught loses, and the last one to be caught picks a number of pushups they loser has to do, along with the loser has a shorter time to have a head start the next time they play.”

  “Seems fair to me... oh! looks like they’re making their way back now.”

 It the distance you could see them all coming in for a landing, so Maverick and Cyclone moved out of the way as they began to watch them all come in one by one. The wind brushed hard against them as they came by in quick speed, but they were in perfect formation and sync, as their wheels touched the ground. Maverick smiled proudly at the team he had, they were all like his family, special and unique in their own ways, he had aviators to call his own. Cyclone patted Maverick on the shoulders before walking away saying,

  “You got a great team Maverick... Iceman would be proud of you.”

 Maverick sent him a nod of appreciation as he watched Cyclone walk away. He was grateful that over time he had gotten on Cyclones good side. Soon his attention was turned towards his aviators that came walking towards him with goofy smiles and laughing amongst one another,  Phoenix had her arm thrown over Rooster’s and Bob’s shoulders, Fanboy and Payback were next to each other almost tripping over one another as they nudge each other’s ribs quite harshly but over all playfully, Coyote looked like the only drained one as he barely moved his feet acting like if he had ran a 300 meter race, and lastly, the lovebirds, Hangman had Ghosty on his back as he gave her a piggy back ride, he had a toothy grin on his face as she subtly gave him sweet kisses on his neck and head. Maverick embraced the moment as he closed the gap between them all as he asked,

  “So who’s doing push-ups today?”

Coyote took a deep breath before breathing out,

  “No one is sir, Ghosty’s time to catch us ran out, meaning we all won, she couldn’t get us.”

 Maverick’s jaw dropped at that new record as he saw Ghosty jump off of Hangman’s back as she wink at him admitting,

  “I only did that because if any one had to do pushups, we’d be here all afternoon, and I want drinks. Who’s up for Hard Deck?”

 Letting out whines and sighs of happiness and agreement they all said,

  “”I’m in!!!!””

Though Rooster didn’t let Ghosty slip up as he said,

  “Hey hey so you mean you actually let us win? Just so we can get drinks?”

 Pointing her finger on his chest Ghosty put forth,

  “Rooster if I had played fairly, you’d all be doing pushups. Now let’s go shower before we go. And don’t get used to this, next time I’ll beat you all.”

 Hangman laughed at Rooster who was rolling his eyes and pouting, he then wrapped his arm around Ghosty while giving her head a kiss,

  “Oh you setting us up for a big challenge huh?”

 Holding onto his hand that rested on her hip Ghosty smirked,

  “Indeed I am Hangs..”

Penny’s POV

Especially today the Hard Deck seemed pretty quiet, very few customers here and there, and Penny kinda missed Maverick and his wing buddies today. They usually lit up the place with their loud laughters and teasing, they all kept her on her toes, and she liked that more than anything. She even thought of closing it early, sense no one else seemed to be coming around anytime soon, that was u to she heard the door swing open and a loud voice holler out,

  “The Calvary has arrived!!! Rooster go sit your ass down and play us some music, I feel like dancin’!!”

 Of course, the one and only Hangman who sported an orange Henley with dark jeans and cowboy boots would be the crazy one shouting such just upon walking into Hard Deck. Penny’s face lit up as she came around the other side of the bar and received the hugs that were given to her by every aviator. And lastly she hugged Maverick and squeezed him extra tight as she said in his ear,

  “I really missed you guys, I’m happy you came.”

 Giving her a kiss on the cheek Maverick smiled back,

 “I missed you too Penny.”

She then saw how most of the aviators had taken a seat and ran back to her favorite spot as she shouted happily,

  “Alright let’s start serving some drinks! What are we having today, cause it’s on the house!”

 They all dropped their jaws in surprise before cheering like kids at a pizza party, they then one by one politely asked for their drinks and soon were happy drinking away while chit-chatting and playing their favorite hobby, 9-ball.

  Hangman’s POV 

 Hangman had left the pool table to go get a new drink for himself and Ghosty, he insisted that he’d get it for her, so she can stay seated prettily while talking with Phoenix were his words. What made Hangman call her pretty this time was Ghosty who wore his button down shirt as a coat over her white tank top that was tucked into her Jean shorts, so wearing that just made Hangman’s heart soar even higher for her. Upon arriving at the bar he sent Penny some dreamy eyes as he asked sweetly,

  “Penny my dear, can we get a refill please?”

 Happy to tend to one of her favorite customers Penny replied cheekily while handing him two new beers,

  “Of course sweetie, here you go.”

“Thank you ma’am, much appreciated.”

Hangman happily walked back to Ghosty who was now sitting by herself as Phoenix had gone to be with Rooster who was playing the piano with soft tunes. He placed a kiss on her cheek as he sat down next her while handing her her drink,

  “Here you go gorgeous, cheers?”

Hangman waited for Ghosty to reply but it never came, her eyes and mind were on someone else, and soon his eyes found who, it was Catherine Jeffries who was standing in the distance. Hangman looked back at Ghosty who was now tense and cowering into her seat, and he understood how Ghosty felt, Jeffries had hurt him too. But instead of shying away, Hangman brought out his usual boosted ego and pride, and grabbed her hand to get her attention on him, which she did when her eyes found his as she realized he had caught her, but before she could say anything Hangman said,

  “Don’t do that... don’t hide. You be happy and be here, present, no matter who’s around ok? You’re mine, and I’m yours.. and there’s no shame in that.”

 Ghosty nodded as she mirrored Hangman’s cute smile, then Hangman pulled her up as he said,

  “C’mere baby girl, sit here.”

Pulling her onto his lap and making her rest her back against his chest, Hangman cuddled Ghosty and began to tickle her neck with kisses, wanting to hear her laughter that he had grown addicted to. He was successful when it came out so freely and beautifully, as Ghosty held onto the arms that wrapped around her so securely. 

  Ghosty’s POV

 Ghosty sunk into Hangman’s arms as he held her tightly, and could only feel so happy to have him in her life, because together they had both learned to love one another more and cherish life, embrace their differences and grow. And the moment she knew that she had to spend the rest of her life with him, was when Hangman whispered in her ear lovingly,

  “I’ll always keep you safe, and be your wings for you so you can soar high, above everything that wants to hurt you ok? I love you so much, and I’m grateful that you’ve saved me, loved me.. and taken a chance on me.”

  Moving her head to give him a warm kiss on the lips, Ghosty then replied,

  Hangman’s POV 

Hangman didn’t realize that the next words Ghosty said, was going to be one of the main reasons of why he was sure, that he was going to spend the rest of his life with her,

  “And I love you too Jake...so much. And I’ll mend your wings and help you hold them up forever as we fly together. As much as you’re the wings to my heart, I will be for yours... forever. Because you saved me too.”

#jake hangman seresin #jake seresin imagine #jake seresin #jake seresin x you #jake seresin x y/n #jake seresin x reader #jake seresin x oc #hangman seresin x reader #hangman headcanons #hangman blurb #hangman x reader #hangman x you #hangman x y/n #hangman fluff #jake seresin fluff #top gun hangman #top gun x reader #top gun x oc

[69shadesofgray]

i hooked up with a guy last month and like

i know we’re not a good match i don’t want to be his girlfriend but i still have the BIGGEST CRUSH. he’s so chill and go with the flow and happy and always down to have a good time. he’s intoxicating 😂

#i wanna go back to san diego ahhhh #for the beach and for him #this post is brought to you by the fact that he just sent a meme to me on insta #thought of me and we weren’t even talking #lol send HELP i am INFATUATED #also he’s a libra idk if that gives anyone more context but yeah 😅 #personal

[sammysfics]

Can we just slow dance?

ahhhh I can't wait to write this ff 

Pairing: Corpse Husband and Reader (gender neutral) in this story you live in LA (Corpse lives in San Diego that's about a 2 hour drive)

All my work uses They/Them pronouns 

Corpse uwu:

“Whaddup baby you wanna play a round of Among Us with the group?”it was your monthly 6 hour stream when you got a text from your boyfriend Corpse. You were on your 5th hour on stream and you had already gotten bored of just talking to chat about how you were feeling or your plans later that stream when your friends were on and willing to play with you. 

Y/N:

“REALLY WHAT'S THE CODE!!!!!”

“Oh and I miss you <3🌼💖″ You and your boyfriend lived only a few hours away from each other so you saw each other every weekend but you both couldn't help but miss each other every day. Lucky for you guys today was Friday!!!!

Corpse uwu:

“The code is *******”

“I miss you too cutie I can't wait to see you soon 🖤” Ahh there he goes again making your heart beat so much faster. “Okay chat looks like we gonna be playing some Among Us with some friends!!!!” you almost yell at your chat being so excited to finally do something besides reacting to some videos they would send. You put Among Us on and cover the code with yourself making sure the code was right, you were finally in with some of your friends and played about 9 rounds before having to go (btw you were making out with Corpse at the snowman for all 9 rounds lol) “Bye chat I’ll miss you, remember if you wanna talk my DM’s are ALWAYS open love you all.” 

Y/N:

“I’m on my way to your house! I’ll be there soon!”

Corpse uwu:

“Okay I’ll be waiting 🤡”

“WRONG EMOJI 💀”

You start getting some of your things ready and head to your car wanting to just see your boyfriend so badly. When you were getting out of your car you made sure to text him again letting him know that you were coming up right now.

After coming up to his floor and finding his door you were so tired from driving and just wanted to go to sleep in his arms and maybe watch some movies before actually falling asleep. You knocked on his door and almost within seconds he was right in front of you with his eyes turning into half moons and his arms wide open making you just fall into them. You both did not speak for a few minutes just swaying side to side in the comfortable silence, you started to try to pull away when you felt him pull you closer “Can we just slow dance here for a bit longer?” he said looking you in eyes making you as red as a cherry “wait we’re we slow dancing?”  “Just answer yes or no?” “yeah I would like that” you said to him putting yourself back into his chest wanting this to never end <3 

Thank you so much for reading I hope you enjoyed reading as much as enjoyed writing this story!!

Love you all,

Sammy <3 

#corpse simp #corpse x y/n #corpse husband #corpse fic #corpse smut #corpse husband x you #corpse husband x reader #corpse fluff #corpse angst #corpse imagines #corpse husband x female reader #corpse husband x sykkuno #corpse husband x male reader #corpse husband x nonbinary reader

[starkerforlife6969]

Replying to anon messages in one long post so as not to spam you guys! as always, no prompts filled here and i’m sorry for the wait x 

1. Hello 👋. I just found your blog and it’s absolutely amazing. You write so beautifully it’s so fluid and graceful almost. I was wondering if you were going to do a second part on the Secretary Peter, Boss Tony fic. Or literally any of them. I’m pretty sure I’ve read through most of your blog just to marvel at the writing. And then a second time for the starker.

Oh my goodness you are the sweetest thing ever. There will be a part 2 to that fic, I promise! It’s just taking me forever hahaha, you are such a darling. Honestly, you’re the sweetest thing ever, thank you so much!

2. @tina8009 “I hope that you will continue with updating archive of our own because after the new update on Tumblr I can no longer Use it because of my eye sickness and I am really love your stories. ❤️”

girl!!! don’t you worry, i promise i will! that sucks :( x but you are so sweet

3. I already loveeeeee that step Brothers au, do you plan on continuing it at any time?

it is on the list gorgeous! It might take me a while, but a lengthier series of instalments is coming! of course, if anyone else would like to go for it in the meantime, i’d be happy to see what they came up with! the more the merrier!

4. Are you going to continue Super Size Me by any chance??? I had about ten nose bleeds the whole way through the four chapters ((especially the fourth chapter)). Totally chill if not, I just loved it

hahahahah, you’re so sweet and oh goodness!!! this question comes every time i answer questions and i feel so terrible- i promise, i will update it!!! a break from classes is coming soon and then i shall be able to get back on track! I’m so sorry, thank you for being so lovely, you stunner!

5. The kitten story was so cute!!!!!!!!! Everything you write is so so cute!!!!

YOU ARE SO CUTE

6. Wow Peter found Tony in New York and took him all the way to MIT in Massachusetts, the dedication to finding a kitten is strong

dude hahahaha i laughed so hard i almost replied to this message when i got it! sorry, i am not american :( and maybe that doesn’t excuse my awful geography but i have no idea where MIT is so let’s just say Peter was on a school trip…yeah…that makes sense. Cats are amazing and it makes perfect sense!

7. I would kill or die for a sequel to hades Stark 😭😍❤️ you’re so amazing

YOU ARE SO SWEET MORE WILL COME I PROMISE! do you have any ideas for it ;)

8. Oh my godddd!!!!! I read your Flash and Peter fluff story, and now i'm soft. I love this underrated ship, we need more content like this!!!!! Keep doing what your doing!

you are so sweet thank you so much! it’s the first flash/peter i’ve ever written and i wasn’t even sure how much i liked it but i think i’m sold ;) you are such a darling!!! More to come, I promise!

9. @psychology-fanatic Oh my gosh!! Please please PLEASE give me some more of the Hades stark that stuff is right down my alley I loved it!!

MORE WILL COME YOU GORGEOUS BEAUTY

10. Omg omg omg I just read your Slytherin!Tony and Hufflepuff!Peter dribbles and I love them so much! I hope to see more in the future. You’re such a great writer, being able to flesh out a world in a couple short paragraphs, much love :)

AHHHH WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS OH MY GOSH YOU ARE SO SWEET. and i love harry potter so yes any chance to write more and i will take it

11. Your peter/flash fic was so good. It was so fuckin CUTE

NO YOU’RE CUTE thank you sm darling

12. Pleaseee if you can will you write a sequel to the short shorts drabble

YES IT IS COMING! I’m sorry i’m so slow :( but i love that au and it is in the works!

13. @that-tiny-dumb-artist HOW DO YOU WRITE SO GOOD ?????? I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING L O V E YOUR WRITING

I LOVE YOU SO WE’RE EQUAL! you are far too kind honestly you’re such a doll i don’t deserve you!

14. dont call yourself mama, it really just turned me on

I laughed so hard when i saw this, thank you so much for blessing me. MAMA LOVES IT.

15. hey hun! do you take dark prompts? i'd love to send in some kinda fucked-up shit but i don't want to trigger you or make you feel uncomfortable. x

I AM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO RESPOND TO YOU GORGEOUS! I SHOUDL HAVE DONE IT WHEN I FIRST SAW THIS BUT IM AWFUL. and um yes i do, nothing triggers me so go as crazy as you’d like ;) iM EXCITED XXX and you’re so sweet to ask mwah x

16. hello i just want to say that i really love your writing and hakfhksla it took me a few weeks to gather up the courage to message you :'))) bUT I JUST WANNA SAY EVERY AU YOU POSTED MAKES MY HEART GO WOAH AND IM SO HAPPY WHENEVER I SEE YOUR USERNAME ON MY TIME LINE phew and also i love you and pls take care of yourself <3

UM YOU ARE THE CUTEST THING EVER HELLO! I am so glad you came to say hi because this message made my day, my week, my month and i do not deserve you! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF HUN’ I LOVE YOU

17. @godlovesmcu hi !! i'm kinda new and i just posted my first drabble to go along with one of my moodboards ! it would be super cool if you checked it out (but you totally don't have to !)

the san-diego thing was AMAZING but i have to say i am just blown away by your moodboards honestly, just w ow

18. Your omegaverse aus (especially the one with starker on college and the one in which Steve finds homeless Peter) are my guilty. How you write omegas on those fics is so intriguing (and a little bit of creepy to me). I love them. Keep on writing!

THEYRE MY GUILTY TOO IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THEM. hahahah the creepyness is definitely me, im so thrilled you like them *blushing* more coming, i promise!

19. Do you know any starker where tony is dealing with internalised homophobia? He doesn't like that he's attracted to Peter, or when Peter comes out to him, tony isn't supportive ?

oohh! im afraid i don’t though the concept is intriguing, it sounds like there should definitely be fics out there and i’ll keep an eye out! there are many other starker blogs more knowledgable than me though, so ask around lovely, someone will be able to help you on your quest!

20. KSKSKSK BEAUTY AND THE BEAST AU PART THREE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

THERE WILL BE YOU GORGEOUS HUMAN.

#asks

[wildflower-daydreamer]

Chapter 9 - Dancing With Our Hands Tied

Dancing With Our Hands Tied by Taylor Swift

I, I loved you in secret / First sight, yeah, we love without reason / Oh, twenty-five years old / Oh, how were you to know, and / My, my love had been frozen / Deep blue, but you painted me golden / Oh, and you held me close / Oh, how was I to know 

I could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets / Picture of your face in an invisible locket / You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it / I had a bad feeling / And darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis / People started talking, putting us through our paces / I knew there was no one in the world who could take it / I had a bad feeling

But we were dancing / Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied / Yeah, we were dancing / Like it was the first time, first time / Yeah, we were dancing / Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied / Yeah, we were dancing / And I had a bad feeling / But we were dancing

I, I loved you in spite of / Deep fears that the world would divide us / So, baby, can we dance / Oh, through an avalanche? / And say, say that we got it / I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted / Oh, 'cause it's gravity / Oh, keeping you with me

I could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets / Picture of your face in an invisible locket / You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it / I had a bad feeling

But we were dancing / Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied / Yeah, we were dancing / Like it was the first time, first time / Yeah, we were dancing / Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied / Yeah, we were dancing / And I had a bad feeling / But we were dancing

I'd kiss you as the lights went out / Swaying as the room burned down / I'd hold you as the water rushes in / If I could dance with you again / I'd kiss you as the lights went out / Swaying as the room burned down / I'd hold you as the water rushes in / If I could dance with you again

Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied / Yeah, we were dancing / Like it was the first time, first time / Yeah, we were dancing / Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied / Yeah, we were dancing / And I had a bad feeling / But we were dancing / Hands tied, hands tied

Sansa - July 2017

Jon. Sansa woke up from a dream, the sunlight hitting her face. 

She felt lighter these days, standing tall with more confidence. Her past was now behind her. She felt that the Petyr Baelish drama helped. It was like she got rid of the last piece of trash that made up her awful past. She agreed to a few blind dates her coworkers wanted to set her up with. She no longer feared hurting a guy by her running away. But they never went past the first dates. They weren’t bad guys, a few may have even had some potential. But Sansa just didn’t feel it. She didn’t feel what she instantly had with Jon when they reunited at Robb’s engagement party. But she wanted to be fair to herself and give other guys a chance.

Lately though, she had been having dreams about Jon. Sometimes it was like reliving a day or night of theirs, like it was a movie playing in her mind. Sometimes, like today’s dream, it was just little snippets of him. His grey eyes, dark curly hair. The smile that once seemed so rare on him but became frequent when he was happy with her. 

She was missing him more and more. They had no contact since she said goodbye to him almost a year ago. She would wonder what he was up to and if he’d moved on with someone who could give him what he wanted. She refrained from asking her family about him though, for her sake as she worked on herself. But Jon had been creeping into her mind more often now.

She opened up Instagram, wishing Jon had it so she could see what he was up to. She spotted a picture Arya posted of her and Gendry kissing, which seemed very unlike her. She decided to call her sister and find out how things were going back home.

“Hey, Sis!“ Arya exclaimed as she picked up her phone.

“Soooooo, how are you and Gendry?“ Sansa asked immediately.

“Ugh, stop it!“

“Seriously, Ar, how are you guys? You two look so in love in your picture.“

“We’re good. Great actually. I didn’t think I was cut out for this sappy love shit, but it turns out I’m quite comfortable with it,“ Arya laughed.

“Good. I’m happy for you. When’s the wedding?“ Sansa teased.

“Slow your roll, lady, that’s not happening yet!“

“Ahhhh, ‘yet’?“

“Shut up. Have I told you how proud I am of you for taking Baelish down?” 

“Trying to change the subject, huh? And you’ve told me about hundred times, crazy,“ Sansa said with a laugh. Arya had been ecstatic with how Sansa had handled the whole situation.

“Well, I can’t say it enough. You’ve done me proud. As soon as I found out, I realized we’re actually blood related. That was some Arya-style spy-assassin shit!”

“You’re such a dork. But I am proud of myself too.” 

“How are things over there? When are you coming back home. We haven’t seen you in ages.“

“Everything’s going swimmingly over here actually. But I am missing home. It’ll be a year next month and they like me here. They’re gonna give me an option to sign on here and stay. Or I can come back home.“

“Please tell me you’re coming back home.“

“Haven’t quite decided yet. As much as I like it here, I am leaning towards home though. I miss it. I miss you guys. Margaery’s gonna have the baby soon and I wanna be around to be his favorite auntie.“

“Absolutely not, that’s my job! So does that mean you’re thinking about coming home-home. Not San Diego-home?“ Arya asked hopefully.

“Possibly. I never thought I’d witness you wanting me to be around,“ Sansa said with a laugh.

“Well you’re bad ass now, you’re on my level. And you know I miss you so shut up.“ Arya laughed and then paused. “You know you can ask me about him, right?“

“I didn’t want to make it awkward for anyone since you all are so close to him.“ Sansa said sheepishly. “How is he?”

“He’s good. He came back home from San Diego a week after you left. I don’t think he was able to stick around there with you being gone. For a while I’d see him from time to time but he didn’t really come by the house very often. His smiles went back to being rarely seen. But he’s been doing better now. We see him more often, especially after Robb and Marg announced they were having a baby. He wants to be a good uncle.“

“I’m glad he’s doing better. He deserves to be happy. Has - has he found anyone?“

“He’s pretty private about that stuff so I’m not too sure. Robb had mentioned to me that Jon met up with Ygritte while she was in town.“

“Oh.“ Sansa tried to hide her disappointment.

“I don’t think they’re back together or anything, she went back home to Alaska,“ Arya hurriedly said.

“I just want him to be happy.“

“He is, Sansa, don’t worry about him. How are you?“ Arya asked, placing care in her voice.

“I’m good. I’m happy. I think I’m better again actually.“

They talked for a long time, catching up on their lives. When they hung up, Sansa felt so happy, she finally felt close to her sister. But it made her miss home even more.

Later that night, she let her mind wander back to Jon. She thought of how they liked each other secretly since reuniting at the engagement party. How he had even liked her since they were young. She thought of herself spilling out her past to him and yet, instead of finding her damaged and flawed, he saw through that and saw her strength. He held her that night and it was like he unfroze her. Funny. Someone with the last name of Snow unfroze me, she thought with a smile. She remembered how he would often put his hands in her back pockets of her jeans, pulling her closer to his body, or sliding one hand into her back pocket as they walked side by side. I could spend forever like that. She thought of how she could stay in bed with him all day and night. Her bed in San Diego and at the La Jolla house turned into magical places for her. She didn’t know it could be so good.

She thought of how he told her nothing would stop him from wanting her. But her bad feelings got in the way. She thought she could get past them with Jon by her side, he made her happy and she went on like nothing was wrong. Even in the end, she was a mess but she was a mess that he wanted.

She thought of how she had hurt him and the pain in his eyes. She made herself feel better for what she did, telling herself that yes, she could have stayed with him, wrapped in his arms as her past eventually burned everything around them. But it wouldn’t have been right, she had to let him go before it got too serious. 

She thought of their last night together, dancing at that bar. He spun her around, kissed the top of her head. She knew he hated dancing but it seemed like he didn’t want it to end. During the last song, she felt a stab in her heart. She had realized it was love mixed with her pain and dread. The thought that she loved him made a tear fall from her eye but she hurriedly brushed it away so he wouldn’t see. She had to be strong for herself and him that night.

But If only I could dance with him again. 

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