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todayisafridaynight · 8 days

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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saeshiraw · 8 months

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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

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comfortstars · 5 months

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#so. do you guys remeber stickers guy #the pretty person that asked me for stickers once and i could barely respond bc i found him so attractive i was panicking. Well #we're friends now! we've been friends for like three months? he came to my birthday party and everything!#and i still. find him really attractive #and i didnt try anything w him beforehand bc he had just gotten out of a relationship and I was in a sort-of-situationship with someone else #(which ended in nothing btw )#but now he's over his ex.... and said today to ME 'im open to everything. pretty guy i see pretty guy i like' he said as a joke but also #like in 'im open to relationships again' way #and i really wanna make a move #but i don't know if it's a good idea??? like im godawful at flirting. i have almost zero experience in this area man #and idk if he only sees me as a friend yknow #but if it doesn't work it's not the end of the world either in the sense that i still like him as a friend a lot and like woukd be okay with #staying friends #but i just don't want things to be AWKWARD you know??? i wanna keep being his friend #and AAGHHHHH idk if i should just explode actually #lennie.personal #don't reblog

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silenthillbunni · 1 month

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#i hate myself real bad today.... like it's this constant gnawing feeling in my stomach nd chest #i am such a fucking burden. i am deadweight weighing everyone around me down. im such a fkn pathetic failure #our living situation is rlly bad nd unhealthy nd toxic. im the only one who can disconnect nd shove it all down nd wanna pretend like nothin #but my sister nd my mom are going insane like they cannot stand it anymore. nd they're also getting super depressed so im worried #my mom's been trying to apply for appartments bc she's been on waiting lists for several years so she can actually maybe get one #so they were thinking that my mom nd my sister can move nd me nd my sister can live here #she even found an apartment close by that she would actually get!! so they could move!!#however...... you're not allowed to put more ppl on this contract so if my mom moves me nd my sister can stay here :/// so she cant move....#cant** stay here #she cant move at all unless my sister nd i have our own places...#my sister has a job nd is an actual responsible adult. so she wont be long until she fixes that #but me???? im 25yrs old... never had a job. cant even graduate highschool even if i try. i have no fkn idea how to survive on my own!!!!!#im just a fkn burden on my mom. i keep her down. i chain her down nd keep her feom being free #im such an awful daughter. im such a bad person. im so worthless. i hate myself for hurting her #i hate seeing her so sad nd depressed bc she wants to get out of this situation so bad #and *im* the one keeping her here. im the reason she cant feel better. bc im a pathetic fkn 25yr old who lives off of her mom like a parasit #ooof i ... i hate myself more deeply than i ever have. how can i do this to my own mom???? why am i so useless????#idk what to do. idk how to move out!! where to?? how do u get a place to live??!?#atp i'd even take living with someone else. like renting a room or smth. just to free my mom of the curse that is me #but idk how to find anything like that bc im completely and utterly incapable nd useless #i feel so bad for my mom.... i know she doesnt want this but it makes me wanna kms even more #if im dead i cant weigh her down i cant ruin her life!!!! if im dead she'll be free of me. im nothing but a parasite she deserves to be free

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#ay ay ay. i dont wanna do my job so bad. it makes me so unhappy also i fucked up a thing by letting someone take part of a culture when i #shouldnt have. it happened so many months ago that i fucking forgot abt it and then the person emailed me abt when we received the stain and #i thought it was someone from another project so i cc'd my boss who was like. wait. what the fuck is this? and now its like oops sorry but #like wtf am i supposed to do abt it now? she askrd me to take some when i was rushing out of someone else's lab and i was like what? sure.#whatever i dont give a fuck i feel like im dying every second i stand in this room. i didnt even think to ask to share it which is what i #should have done. oops. cant do anything abt it now other than feel abt abt causing drama between labs. ugh.#i just wanna cut all ties with my old work. theres no joy there. only pain and anger. which makes it hard to work with it but the sooner i #do. the sooner i dont have to fucking deal with it anymore. ugh. also i really need to find a therapist but my insurance changes in like 18 #days so i might as well wait for the semester to start. ugh. like i can feel the pull of my bad habits trying to drag me down and i dont kno #how to stop them. like its weird. i noticed while my parents were here. they can just do things and enjoy stuff. and everytime i do #something i feel like im holding my breath the entrie time waiting for it to be over and for what? its not like i had other stuff to do #i just needed to kno when things were gonna end and i dont deal well with flexible situations. which makes it hard to do things. so its #like do i succumb to my control freak lil bubble of not doing anything and being miserable or do things outside my comfort zone and be #miserable? one of those things is way easier. plus i dont even kno anyone here so its like wtf do i do?#try to make friends with my sometimes roommate maybe. i just need to corner her and be like hey i need to establish a dialog with u so i can #tell u that if i seem like a weird hermit im not trying to b standoffish i just dont kno how to do human interaction well. can we b friends?#id like to b friends but if i dont talk now then ill get stuck not talking ever. which is whats happened with past roommates... god my 1st #roommate must have thought i was so fucking weird. ugh. point is. these bad habits must stop. and i really need to get work done so i can #never think abt that shit ever again. at least now that ive moved i can run up the side of a mountain when im frustrated #unrelated

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stillcominback · 9 months

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#what i wouldn't give if someone could perhaps hook me up with base icons of jonah hauer-king from the little mermaid #( and/or anything else but mainly that! )#i'm still kinda on hiatus from tumblr until i get moved/settled ( hopefully by sometime in october ) BUT #i could fiddle with icons or something in the meantime aklsdfjdksf i just don't have time / energy to ✨write✨#but i'm still on my little mermaid shit and cannot find like any resources for him *sobs*#... off topic but i also really wanna go see barbie again sdlkgjadsf #ANYWHO! same old same old stuff: stressed / overwhelmed with work and moving stuff #miss all of you lots and am available on mobile via IMs and discord if anyone wants to chat / plot or write off tumblr!#hope you're all having a great day / week! love youuuu!!#OH and the p*rn blogs have still not left me alone dalksfjdsf they feel so unhinged lately like wtf tumblr pls just function #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

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arolesbianism · 8 months

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Dude istg if the colab doesn't add one of cotl's actually cool bosses I'm gonna cry

#rat rambles #I get that they very much Have to be inherently lamer just due to dont starve's lack of movement options #but I just want Something I can give a proper shit abt yknow? someone Id want to fight because its cool even if the fight is kinda eh #cotl could just do whatever with adding bosses if they decide to rly theyd probably go more ham than in the original #but Im gonna be honest I doubt that cotl is gonna add any new bosses #mostly because cotl is a much more liniar game and finding a place to fit new bosses would be tricky #like unless they rly wanna commit That hard and add like a whole new area for donr starve bosses but again. I doubt it.#I coulddddd see a sort of pergatory miniboss rush tho if theyre feeling spicy?#like idk maybe there can be a purgatory branch that includes a handful of dont starve bosses and/or enemies where you unlock follower skins #again I just genuinely dont know how this colab is gonna look on the cotl side of things #at worst this rly could just be a skin exchange and nothing else tbh fjdkhskdu #cotl gets a few new follower forms dst gets a few item skins and both parties move on with their lives #I sincierly hope that doesnt happen but it is possible especially considering the very quiet announcements from both parties #idk Im chosing to trust that theyre going to at least add one or two new items #idealy we get a boss or two along with said items but we'll see #my main concern rly is just that the dst animation team would look at cotl bosses and go yeah no thanks #not that cotl bosses are all too complicated or anything but for a colab event it might be a bit much of a workload #but if I had to pick a most likely cotl boss to get to dst Id say barbados probably #not for any real reason it just feels like the most iconic mini boss to me #plus itd probably be easier to impliment into dst gameplay wise #other options could be the very first guy but that would be boring and maybe a witness but that would also be boring #I do think a witness is more likely of the two tho and would be a good potential canidate for a second boss #mostly because I doubt anyone cares enough abt the witnesses that theyd be upset if they completely changed its attacks lol #I hate the witness fight btw I would be the number one dst witness is better truther no matter how lame the fight was #as for dst bosses in cotl deerclopse is an obvious one but I could see them going with dragonfly tbh #mostly because I just feel like shed fit nicer in the cotl artstyle and also could fit easily into several cotl common boss gimics #if I were to go morw unrealistic tho the pugalist would fit wonderfully in cotl tbh #both design and gameplay wise it wouldnt even need to be adjusted that much tbh just throw a few more projectiles on that bitch and ur good #I could also 100% see them doing toadstool honestly thatd be my number 1 pick as far as dst exclusive bosses go I think #like toadstool rly is just so cotl boss coded tbh again just throw a few moee projectiles on that bitch and your good

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seraphim-soulmate · 1 year

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everything is simultaneously breaking in my shitty shitty house. excellent. i have water infiltration in my bedroom & mold in the walls, the water heater is making a terrible noise, the washing machine apparently just broke, the toilet seat got broken today and is now replaced with one where the seat doesn't hold in the upwards position so hopefully every guy in my house pees sitting down ! live laugh love get me out of heeeereeeeee

#personal #housing #looking for housing is SO anxiety inducing bcs theres so many options and all of them fucking suck in different ways #i could find the ideal colocation and get rejected #i could find a decent colocation. get accepted and it turns out they're all shitheads.#i could pay a fuckton of money to live alone but then im responsible for everything #aaaaaaahhhhh girl help !!!!#cant move to a cheaper city bcs I'll never see my friends and i need to access medical care #plus of course being disabled means I need to have accomodations VERY close by #the big grocery store near me is striking which like. good for them! i can't get food without paying a fuckton now though.#should i ask my dad for more money? can i maintain the price of an apartment when/if i receive disability ?#i dont want to live alone and go insane bcs of isolation #but i also dont want to live with people who are constantly triggering #and for any of these apartments I'll find I have to make the decision VERY quickly #bcs if i dont say YES the day i see it then it goes to someone else #i dont wanna keep going thru thiiiisssssss #hard to not be filled with regret of not taking my grandmas apartment bro. i wish i could rewind time.

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thetentacleking · 2 years

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If I ever had any doubts about being a trans man, today has obliterated all of them

Had to get a Pap smear done for the first time this morning and felt physically ill from dysphoria after it was done

Gotta love those moments of reassurance right? /s

#trans man #ftm #trans ftm #trans health #transguy #shut up cillie no one cares #cillie's babble #it was over quick as my doc was good with talking through each step before she did them #but fuck dude #I wanted to say something so bad before hand about being trans but she’s also my mom’s doc so #don’t wanna have to deal with my mom finding out from someone else #not until I’m moved out and able to come out to her again and this time make it stick

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vanillabat99 · 2 years

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I've been keeping my plants on my window bench for like a year or two now and I finally got around to removing the dead ones today!! However, my window bench is a storage compartment, and I fear for the well-being of the things I've been keeping inside it. As in: every stuffed animal I've ever had. Including my pristinely white Hello Kitty Build-A-Bear. I can't check on my stuffed animals since I have a heavy shelf unit sitting on top that I can't lift on my own. It's been stressing me out every since I set up my plants there and it's really starting to get to me :(

#i already took out all the garbage and dead plants so i cant do anything else today. im in pain.#i also NEED to do laundry #and if i wanna check my stuffed animals id have to clean up my art supplies as well and ask someone to help me move things #im just so worried #like ive had some spills while tending to my plants. im pretty sure ive stained whoever is on the top of the pile in there.#if i think about it too much im gonna cry #i desperately need to deep clean my room and like get new sheets and repaint the walls #unrelated but theres also the looming stress of losing my entire insurance coverage in like january unless i can find any classes to take.#im. nervous.#batty blogging #text #i think hello kitty is on the top of the pile and i get intrusive thoughts about her being covered in stains from my careless gardening 😭

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transvampireboyfriend · 1 year

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trans people should be able to communicate telepathically with each other at least within a 15 mile radius

#that's like 25 km I had to search it #trans #i wanna have trans friends but I don't want to move to the city and it's so hard to find us in small towns 😭😭😭😭😭😭z #I'm SICK of this #my best friend from hs sent me a transphobic tiktok thinking I'd laugh and instead I cried for like 5 min #and i don't fucking care really he can be as ignorant as he likes sorry if that makes me a bad person or whatever but I don't wanna explain #it to him #i just want someone else #idk i guess i sound ignorant and selfish and like a hermit idk and idc honestly #whatever #negative #.#microblogging

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29121996 · 2 months

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