#i wanna scream abt gender rn man what the fuck

[synchlora]

oh green dysphoria jacket we're rly in it now huh

#literally have not taken off this jacket for more than a few minutes (apart from sleep) for. too many days. #oh no #just :( its just. a comforting jacket. #i wanna scream abt gender rn man what the fuck #i should paint my nails w sharpie #how fucking bad is that for you?? i will find out soon #its for gender reasons i swear #i know it sounds random but i sWEAR its Gender #and pls. pls can i get top surgery. somehow w/o telling my parents like god. can i just like not come out and still do that afsnsvgsnsg #my mom thinks theyre purely cosmetic surgeries and that its not worth the danger of getting surgery for it like hm. #like man my mental health would likely be more dangerous to me than a surgery. not finishing that thought. #could potentially get a binder and pretend its just a sports bra or some shit. dont think i could play it off as that tho #definitely cant play off boxers lmao #i am just (: my brain is spinning oh no #trying to figure out loopholes but theres none #they wouldnt likely be violent to me coming out but also it would just be awful bc i know theyd still cling onto having a baby **** and shi #and theyd then know my name/pronouns and misgender me w that. and theyd give a million excuses #anyway. i need to take some time either thinking a lot or shutting my brain off to some music hold on #dumbass thots #vent #vent cw #dysphoria #dysphoria cw

[starry-sunsets]

talking about our ex-friend.

this isnt a callout post, or a "go harass them" post, but more of a "hey man maybe stop this" post.

so. since ik youre going to be seeing this. what the actual fuck? i thought endos and radinclus were supposed to actually... read carrds. not harass people. not weirdly subpost about people where they can clearly see.

so. gonna address the shit youve said abt us. and provide an "apology" or something lol. since you asked for one.

1: you saying were transmed

okay so. this fucking thing. are you actually kidding me? seriously? youve known us for at least two years and now youre gonna act like were transphobic just because we dont support endos? we use neopronouns, we identify with xenogenders, we LITERALLY used to identify as "radinclus" or whatever before we got tired of the community supporting shit like "asiansexual". to call us "transmed" is honestly? just invalidating and transphobic. you can literally look at our blog and our carrd and see that its very obvious that we support xeno*genders*, but not xeno-*origins*. unless you think the two are the same, which they kinda are, lol

2: you leaving us and now blaming us for it

okay, fucking listen. actually fucking LISTEN for once. stop the "they made zero smile, they made zhu smile, i wanna scream at them". THEN FUCKING DM US. INSTEAD OF TOSSING US TO THE SIDE THE SECOND WE STARTING QUESTIONING WE WERE ANTI-ENDO. we cared about you guys, we were friends with you guys, but YOU LEFT US. we did not leave you, YOU left US. we were willing to talk! we were willing to debate! and honestly? if you actually dm us like a normal fucking person, we still are willing to talk to you guys and come to an understanding. are we really fully "anti-endo"? we arent sure! did ezerett make a mistake in deciding for all of us? yes! but you blatantly ignored our trauma and ignored us over and over and if you just keep ignoring us, this isnt going to end pretty. so like. if you just dm us on discord. wed be willing to talk. hell, if you even provided one fucking source for endo arguments like you said you would, we probably wouldnt be in this position. we dont hate your existence. we still care about you a bit. zyrisias, euphy, and zyar especially. maybe if youd actually talked with us and been willing to maybe not block us the second we tried to talk to you, this wouldnt even be happening.

so, for the apology.

im sorry for being shitty at apologizing i guess? we all are. sorry for being nd and most of us having no empathy and being bad at words ig! sorry for being willing to talk to you! sorry for ever wanting to fix our relationship! sorry for being uncomfortable with endos because of endos harming us very badly in the past! sorry for ever even fucking TRYING to be good friends.

so, if you ever wanna talk or actually address this like a normal person, feel free to dm us.

we dont wish any harm on you, and we hope that you find good friends who arent "horrible people".

have a good day.

and to anyone else reading this? thank you for reading (/g), were going through hell mentally rn and could honestly use some support.

if you want to know about what endos did to us, its not really too bad, so were fine with asks or dms about it.

we hope everyone has a good day! this is a bit vent-y/rant-y lol but whatever gets our feelings out, i guess.

#so many people helped write this holy fuck #theres much more that i didnt say but this is long enough #were still mostly anti-endo #especially anti-xenoorigin #since thats blatantly mocking xenogenders #but whatever #hmu in dms bestie #even though weve already pretty much moved on #but its clear yall havent #twice wants to murder his source oh no #protect ur bf ig go off /j #but anyways #we forgive yall #just please stop publicly posting about us #it triggers our paranoia #ty