#i want them to be besties :(((( i just dont think romantically it firs but tsylor was SO happy im so sad

[bucktommysupremacy]

hm. you are standing in your kitchen and it's dark outside. you are standing in your kitchen you are tidying up because you like it neat and there is a mess in your head. you are listening to a voice like an angel telling you 'i love you.' and you want it. or you want to want it. and you are turning around and saying 'good.' because you must want it. isn't that what you've been asking for ?

love me anyway.

and you wish you could hear the twinkling of stars like those three words are magic.

you are standing in your kitchen and the tile has never felt so cold and you are doing your duty because you asked for this. this is your doing. and you are loyal and you refuse to let someone feel unloved. and yet-- and yet--

you refuse to deny her this.

you pull her into a kiss, her cheeks are pink her hair is pink her lips are pink her shirt is pink and you love the color pink. you let her wash over you like a sun shower and you are happy. you are happy. you are happy for you. you should buy yourself a card that says 'congratulations!' because she loves you.

you wanted her to love you.

you wake up wrapped in the sheets. you wake up wrapped in pink. you wake up wrapped in red. you wake up and you feel like you're 26.

you're 26 and you're looking for something and you haven't found it. you can't put your finger on it. if this is growth you want to wilt. if it's all to bring you back to the same place you started then what was it for. what was it for if to be unchanged. you are same, always same.

you are in your kitchen, you love her. you say you love her. you want to love her.

do you love her?

#buck #mmmm making bucktaylor tragic :((((( #911 fox #i want them to be besties :(((( i just dont think romantically it firs but tsylor was SO happy im so sad #buck studies #taylor #bucktaylor #and i dont think anyone will take it as such but ill tag #anti bucktaylor #just in case to be safe if people dont want to see sad buck taylor on the dash #buddie #adjacent #911 spoilers #911 5x09