#i want to simply perish

[bananacockatiel]

Remember when i used to draw aha

Have Sage art that i finally forking finished after literal months of neglecting it

Also don’t look at it too hard ples and fankyew

I miss my cat man,,, miss him so much,,,

#its 2am and im just gonna post it #bahala na #if i find any mistakes then ill simply perish #this has been collecting dust for way too long #tbh i just did not want to even try tackling the armor #speaking of #PLS DONT LOOK AT THE ARMOR TOO HARD PLES #I BEG #tis my first time drawing armor and i just HAD to do some strong lighting #cause i hate myself ofc #anyways how has everyone been #hope the brain worms are still wigglin #cause mine are lowkey being revived #i miss my babes #last legacy #fictif #fictif last legacy #sage lesath #last legacy sage #fictif games #fictif sage #last legacy fictif #last legacy felix #last legacy rime #last legacy anisa

[lavenoon]

Was overcome with the urge to smooch @clxckwork-sun-n-moon So Cries The Wolf Eclipse - only I ran into a slight issue

Namely, they're 10ft tall:

Had to bait them down with chicken nuggets <3

#post let luce #dcamv #so cries the wolf #clxckwork sun n moon #my art #hi limey it seems like i simply have to draw myself smooching your eclipses one way or another #I JUST WANTED TO DRAW THE FOREHEAD SMOOCH BUT THE FJKFDDUCKING HEIGHT COMPARISON #WHY WOULD HE BE DOWN HERE?? IDK NUGGETS APPARENTLY!! #boy is taller than fucking. SJ Eclipse. whom I'm now very accustomed to #BUT SCTW ECLIPSE ALSO HAS FOUR ARMS AAAAHHHHH #screams. perishes. can i bribe them to be my weighted blanket also ill bring dino nuggies

[rocketonthemoon]

applying for apartments is so embarrassing why do they need to see how much I pay for vision

#Status Update #I JUST WANT TO NOT MOVE PLEASE AND THANK YOU #it's not my fault the cost of housing is abysmal uuuggghhhh #I will simply have to perish I guess #send good vibes if you got them I really don't wanna move

[lanternlightss]

looking back at posts and its so fun seeing exactly which two characters in genshin i was hyperfixated on and that even after like three years it has not changed Once 😭

venti and nameless bard have me wrapped around their fingers istg

#SINCE 2021 !!!!!!!!!! #i think about how much they love each other how much venti seems to idolize the bard to the point that he might seem to be on the same #divinity level as ven is #i think about that ven has carefully guided the citizens of mond to the same values that bard and the rest of old mond wanted it to be #i think about ven never changing his form to keep his friends memory alive even after /two millennia/ of seeing the face you can never get #back in the mirror every day #i think about ven holding his own hands together and pretending for a moment that its someone else holding his #i think !!!!!! about what would happen if the bard had ever perished. if ven would be severely protective and i dare you. try to lay a hand #on a single hair. he has gone through so much and i refuse to let anything take away what he deserves to see #i think about the bard catching the wind as easily as breathing simply bc its not truly “caught” #the wind is simply ever so fond of them that they will not go anywhere else for too long #i think about. the bard cradling a wisp so gently every night that even now warmth seeps in through ventis hand if he pretends enough #i think about a ghost bard who never leaves vens side. who had promised always whenever they departed thatd he leave something for venti to #know hes still there #i think about a bard who breaks down ventis walls with a single tap #bc they know each other as well as they do themselves #i think abt a bard who gently relearns a ven he hasn’t met #i think abt a bard who is angry and spiteful and spitting at the world softening around the wisp who shows nothing but kindness #i think about a bard recognizing ven by a small breeze alone #and i #i simply go bonkers over them you see #lantern says stuff

[loosingmoreletters]

slams hand down do it you know you want to do it,,, sugar daddy au and now its just awkward as fuck but they get to Deal with It. bonus points for people laughing at them in the background. i am your inner demon whispering that this is a good idea and you should absolutely write it (no pressure ofc!!! take your time and its fine if you want to!!!)

for ship names. yeah very sad. i havent settled on like. a combination of their names that sound appealing to me so im just. sitting there awkwardly in Yun Taeheon x Shin Junseo. simple but it works. ill bonk my brain for ideas later,, i have cut down on thigns i need to hand in tomorrow im procrastinating because the thing i need to do is so horribly boring

maybe the korean side of the fandom has something going on but that would require me to go on twitter and figure out what korean words to put in the search box and I'm already failing at "go on twitter".

sdkhldfkhg the inner demons are winning. now I'm kinda contemplating how this would even start, which made me realize we know fuck all about Shin Junseo's past??? We only knew that apparently he had a shitty job before he awakened and didn't have any friends and seemingly also has no family.

So like? Local man signs up on an app bc honestly at this point being a sugar baby would not be worse than another horrible shift at whatever minimum wage job he has to pay the bills?

And cool, he hits it off with Yun Taeheon, something something business man. It's a lot less hollywood-pretty-woman than he expected, more nice dinners with genuinely entertaining discussions, and sure getting laid is nice too, and then, well, the world goes to shit for a hot second and well, the contract written before runs out, isn't renewed and Shin Junseo has a moment between picking up a shitty job again and awakening where he comfortably lives on his savings while his,,, ex? well, no, ex would be implying they dated. boss is also not quite the term, his previous situationship, made himself a guild master.

whatever.

and then the world goes even more to shit and he drags corpses and the memories of a world annihilated out of a dungeon. He makes his plan, keeps his head down and then fucking Yun Taeheon is standing in front of him again.

#ask #anon #weapon creator #btw i need you to know that i think YTH would be the one who is most awkward about it #like oh no that's the guy he was paying to spend time with bc he's a loser who can't find someone he'd like to date like a normal person #side note: i think yth is the kinda guy who'd text you at 1am like 'what flowers do i bring to meet your mom for the 1st time' #and while i think sjs was 100% telling himself all the time this is Just Business given how apparently starved for human connections he was #yth was probably genuinely going 'should i talk about just. being in a relationship with him?????' a couple months in #step 1 of being a sugar daddy FAILED #ANYWAY and he probably thinks 'okay i can play this cool' #and then sjs takes a look at the first contract he drew up #and says sth like 'oh wow you'd pay me more now' and yth would simply perish #sjs meanwhile is just awkward bc he suddenly has a lot more 'power' and is specifically wanted #god im so obsessed with how the only thing sjs wanted was to be useful and a friend #insane trauma to toss into the start of a story #dlfghdlfjkh anyway i am so sorry im just rambling

[squeakyclamart]

you know what. fuck you *catifies your objects*

i'm unwell

None of these designs are finalized (though I'm pretty happy with Airy as is lol), these are mostly jus concepts because I'm being really normal . The Remainder gang really needs touch-ups especially Scenty/Amelia she looks AWFUL!!!!! but u know how it is

design notes include

accidentally implying Bryce is trans by making him a calico-esque cat. I think this is a win for me tho so fuck it *transes your soda bottle

Bryce's collar is supposed to resemble the design of his .Uhh. Soda paper wrapping thing? u know what I mean. With the cap represented by the tag

subway seat has no back legs. that's not visible in the image but I promise that's how I sketched him,

atom looks exactly the same. "where's their grass hat" i forgor

Heights from tallest to shortest: Subway Seat, Tray, Airy, Bryce, Charlotte, Liam, Whippy Creamy, Amelia, (Texty), Atom

I didn't draw a full Texty but they exist I prommy. they're like a lil robot cat lookin thang

I was originally going to give all of them dark feets/legs to resemble their canon limbs but decided it looks kinda Bad on some designs so that kinda fell through. I should've taken that off of Amelia but forgor

#clamart #Sorry. sorry. i'm normal I promise #hfjone #hfjone spoilers #I don't want to tag every character I simply am too lazy. so perish #ummmmm should i make a tag for this #yea sure #catifiedobjects #<- to the point. succinct. amazing #anyway. i have an af attack to do and I have not done that

[inaconstantstateofchange]

how to find fandom friends who have the same anti-blorbos and Secret Evils as you, asking for a friend

#is there like a questionnaire i missed or- #yes this is about bg3 #fandom #bg3 #the problem is i simply care about the forgotten realms and the characters and the lore so much #and i want to have actual discussions - even debates - about those things #but i have the Wrong Opinions^TM so instead i just perish #the hyper-simplified versions of the characters i see so often is actively demoralizing #i thought about being cagey but actually fuck it this is my blog #i don't like gale - partially for personal reasons and partially because i don't find his character compelling #and a secret third partially because i really loathe the way his ardent fans are determined to round off every sharp edge he has #you'll notice a trend here #i have other thoughts about other characters but that's the “worst” of them so #my stuff #baldur's gate 3 #you're welcome to submit an ask or dm me if you'd like to swap evils

[seknots-izumimir]

vani!!! how are u bestie i missed u..

EDEN!!!!!! hai bestie im Fucken Sleeby wbu

#i do not want to have classes today ! nor TWO meetings tomorrow :`) #what if i simply Perish

[enavant]

saw the quote ‘you don’t have to help everyone just because no one helped you’ n thinking about isu n how hard this hits because they are very much like that they decided they will be the one to help others because they know how it feels to be lost and alone with no one to come to their aid all their life

#[ i’m sorry for always spamming dash with my dumb thoughts i simply have no one to tell these silly things to n i need to write them #or i perhaps may perish i feel so sad about her again lmao ] #[ dead weak for the themes of no one’s going to save me so i become my own hero n just someone needs to stand up for those who can’t stand #for themselves n it’s a big part of her character she doesn’t want anyone to go through what she did even if eorzea is actually an awful #place i think that gets glossed over a lot honestly ] #━━ ❥ headcanons » #[ she’s so strong with the ‘people can do bad and still change’ themes because she wasn’t great before she’s kind now but god she didn’t #used to be n just she changed if someone has the potential she will protect them n give them chances ] #[ thinking sm about this all n making me emotional ]

[chiropteracupola]

oh how I love actual descriptions of outfits so that I can go draw them all nice

#em draws stuff #the flight of the heron #ewen cameron #alison grant #this took me a MONTH to draw ow ow ow #although admittedly about half was not wanting to ruin it while inking and just looking at it and falling over #also I'm never drawing the grant tartan again sorry. I can't even tell if I'm drawing the right one and it is Too Complicated #also it is teal and Does Not Go With Anything and Aaugh I Shall Simply Perish #and yes that's a swing hold instead of anything period-appropriate. I have been learning swing and it has been weighing on my mind #thanks also to tgarnsl for providing me with the photos that I have mangled into some semblance of a background #fairly sure that I had more things to comment upon for this one but I am Tired and all my relatives are texting me #to tell me that my mustard count is incorrect and they're not being particularly polite about it #enough rambling I'm going to go lie down for 34 years

[starved-vyka]

Making a Kahoot to help me memorize the sexual orientations, genders, disabilities, and mental illnesses of all of my mutuals

#maybe some flash cards too #but fr it’s so much to keep track of #like i don’t want to mention someone’s bpd and them being like #what i don’t have that #i would simply perish 😭

[jynersq]

if i don’t finish this paper discussion today im going to go stark raving mad. gonna go absolutely bananarama

#i hate this fucking paper if i never see it again it’ll be too soon #im only built to write fanfiction that’s IT #publish or perish more like publishing makes me want to perish #i hate you academia and the horse you rode in on #the horse was probably a graduate student getting paid 20h/week for permanent head damage #i just want to do my little science i want to put on my little gloves #is it not simply enough to tweet my western blogs one by one……….

[patorucho]

my delusional ass wants mar on qsmp

#vindixtxt #kian hell momence #please i will simply perish in happiness and go 🫵 I KNOW THAT GUY #i am very delusional <- has been wanting this since the beginning

[bloodcritic]

English classes make me so evil. I'll be in a perfectly amicable discussion where the other 2 participants are saying how they interpret the poem and in my head I'm like. How the FUCK are you STUPID enough to think that's the VOLTA? It's not ENJAMBMENT mid-volta because thats NOT THE VOLTA. Like mad af while knowing this shit does not matter at all

#normally id tell you idec about this shit so why when ppl try to explain it to me do i become a villian #the thing is there are so many ways to interpret shit. it's when it's like. oh. that's just not a possible explanation. the author simply #did not say that. when steam comes out my ears #I'm nice to ppl to be clear. i was politely like oh I believe that for the english form the volta is typically before the final couplet. #so i think it means [blahblah] but if we want to argue that it could be mid sonnet we should be ready to say how we interpret why he - #changed the form. #and theyre like. well the experts say that the volta is after the 8th line. I'm like. die. perish. the 8th line is mid thought.

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

🌊

#I am. so tired tonight. #today has been a long day #9-hr shift at work followed by coming home and having a meltdown all over my family about how aimless I feel right now #and how much I am Not Enjoying this current phase of my life #it all just feels like living in a liminal space but temporarily. and I simply cannot enjoy it. #I cannot feel at peace or at rest in a place that is comprised of anticipation. #I wanted to be at college by this point and I’m disappointed that that didn’t work out… but tbh I’m not so sure it’s college specifically #that I’m craving so badly right now. #I just feel empty and lifeless lately despite the fact that I’m moving at 100 miles an hour all the time. #purposeless perhaps. ‘where there is no vision the people perish’ and I truly feel as though I am perishing. #anyway. I already unloaded all of this on my mom and siblings (bless them all). I won’t do the same to my beloved mutuals here. #but if y’all think about it—prayers for deep and peaceful sleep tonight would be appreciated. I’m going to have another long day tomorrow #and I need energy to get me through my shift at work. #mobile #personal #do not reblog #delete later #*(that should’ve been ‘temporally’ and not ‘temporarily’)

[katyspersonal]

Some personal? post (yeah I know I am bi)

Also guys, I am well aware that as a bi woman, I at times might interact with users who have questionable things to say about either women or bi people (or LGBT+ people in general). Or maybe both. There is no need to short-circuit to try and understand my reasoning because it's actually very simple.

First, I do not associate myself with any "community". I do not believe in 'betraying' or 'screwing up' other queer people by effect just because I do not mock or at least avoid those with certain opinions. It is not like LGBT+ is a covenant with certain dogmas and laws that everyone is obligated to follow! In fact, it is queer people believing that this IS the case what causes them to constantly go at each others throats and accuse each other for "harming the cOmMuNiTy uwu". Some infights I've seen were genuinely disgusting and pathetic, as if people see being LGBT+ as a religious/ideological commitment and not as simply 'human beings who are not het or cis or even none of either of these'.

Nor I see myself as a soldier in the army that "fights the same fight" against men. Every other bad thing men say about women I've seen women say about men too, every other bad thing men do to women I've seen women do to men too. Perpetuating the illusion that for men being bad is a rule but for women it is an exception is a terrible practice, and it is for this reason I can 'forgive' most of sexist remarks. Because I consistently let women be like 'men, amiright :/' (unless I am having a petty fandom debate, I do not touch more personal and humane matters) - so men should be allowed to be like 'women, amiright :/' too.

Second, the 'but are not your shooting your own leg?' doesn't work with me because I do not get harmed by people expressing opinions and observations in the internet. The worst that can happen is that I end up yelling at this person and insulting them, if something they say about women or queers just drains me out of patience; and even then, it is mostly my male friends who faced my wrath on the matter at least once, because having heated conflict with a well-familiar person is just more... appropriate?

In any case I do not see the personal gain in avoiding everyone who can say cringe things about my gender or sexuality. It is not something I impose on others because in the internet everyone can curate their own experiences; naturally if I talk with some guys and reblog things from them that I do agree with it doesn't mean all five of my readers should do the same ok? But my great internet space would be being hit with fresh and various opinions every other time.

#internets #politics #humanities #personal #??? sort of #i mean it concerns some things #but also i am speaking as an individual and share my point #rather than say 'this is how everyone else should behave' #still i think that 'communities' based on genders or sexualities are a TERRIBLE idea to begin with #so far they've proven to do two things: #1) grind majority of [identity] into brainlets that are too scared to question the dogmas imposed on them over their identity and #2) spawn ostracized and hostile outcasts that won't connect with either queers nor with cishets so they just... hate everyone. #or they perish. #all because people wanted to find those with similar experiences hahaha! #no but the worst thing about this mindset is how cruel it is to those that didn't fit within it #they can declare a person of the same identity as a faker or a traitor over just questioning their 'internal rules' #which is not a far cry from declaring anyone questioning internal church's dogmas a 'heretic' #but like... even detransistors can't simply return to prev identity. they will still have dysphoria and need to be accepted #like yes technically they're back to being cis but some things don't heal. especially dysphoria. #as for LGB side? they can't just go and suddenly feel comfortable being straight #grinding factories that cast away the gears that spin the wrong side thats what they are. #i actually keep meeting bi people that say they wish they were straight and it is not because of cishet bigots #it is because of how LGBT+ community treats them and what it subscribes them to #naturally it only occurs in western communities (I am in a country where people are still revoltingly concervative and behind the progress) #but still it is very sad :/