#i was fcking 16 then i didn't do a g*ddamn thing wrong

[ohmyshownu]

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#personal #when your abuser brings up that period of time #and acts like it wasn't all their fault #i was fcking 16 then i didn't do a g*ddamn thing wrong #except for act like a normal fcking teen #10 years later and i still deal with that fcking trauma every day. #i feel like i don't have a voice #i'm doing everything i can to get back on my feet right now #it's only been a month since i threw away everything i've known for the last 7 years #to start again #give me some fcking TIME #it's not like i've just been sitting on my ass the whole time #(which he thinks is what i'm doing) #he has no clue what i did for 10 years #yet he has the gall to say i've been a lazy shit and just sat around #fck you #i'm so pissed and upset and i just want to cry #a month's worth of healing crumbled just like that #and of course if i tell anyone they will just protect him #and say it's my fault #that i should listen to him because he is wise and has lived 3x longer than i have #i want to call my sister but she's at work #and i don't want to be having a meltdown while trying to teach #.....gonna go find something that will calm me down #sorry for ranting on here but #my sns is watched everywhere else so