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#i was gonna delete this bc it’s mostly just a tag rant but then it got hella rbs for some reason
e77y · 6 hours
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Long but relatively unserious vent/rant below the cut (sorry I added this in bc I realized how long this post is oops)
Being at the center of some kind of internet witchhunt (which ik is kind of buzzwordy but) is literally my biggest fear ohhh my god. Even a small scale one… I think I would Die. Maybe it’s because I had a similar thing happen with my friend group in high school where one of them convinced the others I was like evil and spread all these rumors about me… 😭 He was splitting on me but still. That’s an explanation, not an excuse. And it basically confirmed all of my intrusive thoughts about myself, and my personality completely self-destructed and changed, and I haven’t interacted with any of those people the same way since. I isolated from them for MONTHS and just loathed myself. Bleh
The reason it’s on my mind is bc I’ve seen this happen to friends and mutuals and even just people I’ve followed in small fandoms, where the whole fandom hates them bc of this little drama and like. I KNOW that fandom drama is not the end of the world, but truly I think that would destroy me for months. And I would never be able to set foot in those spaces again :’) Getting a handful of rude comments about a fucking transfem hc I had at like 14 made me stop writing fanfic for YEARS 😭😭😭 sigh. Just bc they said it was ‘out of character for him to want to be a girl’ 🙄 (<- character who canonically felt confident when dressed as a woman btw. initially for a disguise but then she grew to love it. BUT I DIGRESS KNSHFJW)
All this to say I think that’s why I tiptoe around everything I say online… I am SO scared of ruffling feathers, but I know that fandoms are places for like! Having fun! And it’s not a big deal! And it doesn’t affect my real life! But like idk.. I just hate the idea of being hated by anyone. I’m sure that I ANNOY some people, and that’s whatever; I talk a lot and make overly personal posts sometimes (like this lol) but I don’t wanna be HATED yk? And idek if it’s better to be hated and ostracized publicly or resented in secret by people who still interact with you… :( Agh. If you ever have an issue with me, please DM me instead of letting it build up into something worse!
ANYWAY LIKE.. with fandom stuff. Idk. I want to have fun! I want to write and post things on Tumblr and AO3 etc but I am just very scared of peoples’ opinions, especially now that I have a decently popular/well-liked longfic in DnDads. For some reason I have convinced myself that writing bad or self-indulgent NSFW will make everyone hate me lmao. Like girl the POINT of fanfic is to be self-indulgent……….. sigh I need to get out more
^ light-hearted… but also kinda true haha. I stay at home a lot just bc I don’t have many reasons to go out atm and only a handful of close friends to go out with. Hopefully that will change when I move next semester lol. And whenever I get interests, they’re VERY strong and long-lasting, and fanfic writing is one of my main hobbies, so I get REALLY into online communities. And rn that is kind of my little niche fandom Tumblr bubble… which is embarrassing and probably unhealthy but whatever. I just inevitably get a lot of anxiety about things that are important/fun to me (bc OCD), especially bc I’ve never really had mutuals/‘friends’ in a fandom before this, excluding my irls
Anyway this got longer and more vent-y than I intended so I will tag accordingly, and sorry to whoever is reading this lol; I just wanted to get my thoughts written down in a public forum bc idk… Makes me feel less insane when ik other people can see it, too. Helps me not take it too seriously and spiral lol.
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whoviandoodler · 2 years
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On today's episode of 'Wow, you haven't got that parasocial relationship under control, huh buddy?'...
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henriiiii-1001 · 3 months
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NEW BLOG!
hey there! new account because i felt i needed a fresh start. i will keep my old blog up because i'm gonna need it for archival purposes.
im henry/thatcher, im an adult, they/it/he/xe prns. nice to meet you
(NOTE: i am thinking of dropping thatcher, but im keeping it for now bc i like it. however, only using henry to refer to me is ok for now)
im an artist and a writer, mostly focusing on aus and oc stories. i also have an instagram and an ao3 (both henriiiii_1001)
current interests: - internet horror (analog, digital, etc) - ruby ru amenalism (newer series, highly recommend!) - vita carnis - cabin tales - twf - etc... - vocaloid - pjsk (stats) - ocs - murder files/殺人ファイルズ (blog here) - unholy gift (info here) - repurposed fairy tale au (will post info soon)
tag navigation: #posts - general post tag #interview box - answers to asks #tumblr polls - tumblr polls i host/rb #shitpost - as name implies #creative - art tag #almost creative - wip tag (mostly seen on my wip blog) #a bit rambly - ramblings, usually abt au stuff #a2t - meaning "ask to tag", signifies that i'm ok w ppl letting me know if i need to tag smth #upset posts - vent/rant (will more likely be used for rants) #sillies - random posts i find funny or cool or just smth i felt like rbing to my blog #[media name here] - indicates which media i am making a post abt. goes with characters as well #delete later(?) - posts i will (most likely) delete eventually #[insert trigger/warning here] trigger/warning - my trigger tag. is not used for certain things like eye contact and eyestrain. feel free to ask me abt this for clarification tho
askbox usage: please don't use it as grounds for rambling abt your ocs, aus, etc. it is mostly restricted to asking questions about my content (aus, ocs, etc.), myself, and ask games
im a college student now, so i wont post very often. please be patient with me.
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mebiselfandi · 10 months
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i hope this is not gonna annoy you but i was reading your rant about your writing and i was like😔 because goddd i adore them so much the way you write them characters, dialogues or try to explain how they feel in such situations always make me😞 even when you write smut bc dang do you know how much i reread strawberries and cream (it should be illegal) it just the way you always portray them so beautifully it's crazy (like how did u make c*m eating so sweet i cried and horny everytime i remembered that) also i sent this ask bc i just remember your newest neymessi fic and I'm devastated thinking at the possibility of you deleting that work bc goddd i remember the first time i read it i was crying so hard literally need to weep the tears out so i can read the next paragraph and then after I'm done i was pacinf around my room thinking about the next chapter bc u tagged it as it will be sweeter and how i was just so excited to read that bc if i have to live with the possibility of them just ending like that and not talk it out and have a heavy makeout session after just throw me to the ponds full off crocodiles in florida it would hurts less, you make me so attached to these characters that the possibility of neymar hurting bc leo leaving him after the heart wrenching love confession makes me☹️☹️☹️
i hope you'll find your joy and to not feel pressured to writing again because you have such a talent and i will always be happy to read every works you put, finally just wanted to say so glad to have such a talented writer in this fandom🫶🏼
Hi nonnie👋💕
When I got your ask I was like hm what’s this? Only to be hit straight in the feels with a truckload of bricks. ‘Annoy’ me you say. Something like this could never annoy me. This was legit me reading your ask holding back tears:
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Tbh I was in a massive writing slump since like end of April. Idk what happened. I got a lil sad, then sick, then even more sad, then my birthday came up, then I got burnt out, next thing I knew it was June and my writing skills just switched off. Nothing all of May(except that one fic I barely remember writing while sick and fueled purely by spite). So when I wrote the last Neymessi fic, I was like not doing great at all. But idk I felt like I had to write something and the idea had been swimming in my head. But writing too sad fics when you’re already sad just = feeling shit about your work. Plus I felt so bad about writing, I thought it would be my last fic ever.
But I mean now I’m no longer feeling weird about writing and I can see the fic from an objective pov. I made a ton of typos and used the same words like twice in one sentence and just cringe phrasings. I could’ve done it better. However, I managed to write 4000 words when I thought I couldn’t. So I won’t delete it cause I can be at least proud of that fact. Also I’m not a quitter, if I delete the fic, the knowledge will haunt me forever. But I will be writing the second chap and I have ideas.
Now I feel kinda bad about it cause I know I said chap 2 will be sweeter buuuut I think it might still be sad. But only because I wanna write a 3rd chapter which will be sweeter. However keyword is sweeter…not sweet. Uh it’ll be a bittersweet ending cause either way Leo’s still leaving but I could never bring my heart to be entirely miserable like that. So don’t worry, it’ll end wellness 😌 but chap 2 is mostly just gonna be Leo’s pov and thoughts then chap 3 will be them finally talking after we hear what Leo’s thinking.
Also…about strawberries and cream though I logged into my ao3 for the first time a couple weeks yesterday and I was so shocked? Last I checked it was at 400 now it’s almost doubled😭😭 I’m so shook. But I’m glad you liked strawberries and cream. It’s one of my fave fics I wrote too.
You’re so sweet anon🥹🥹 like not to be like annoying about comments or wtv. But it always helps to know there is someone who likes your story and you aren’t just writing to the air. And to know I made you react so strongly to it is insane to me. But seriously, thank you so much for this, I’m legit gonna think of this message whenever I feel like I can’t write🫶
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unluckyxse7en · 9 months
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Ok so. Long unnecessary rant incoming, just for the sake of ranting and to no one's interest but - I'm gonna be honest. I'm legitimately making plans to leave Tumblr long term, like I'm unfollowing more tags and blogs with each update, and already planning out How or Why I will or won't use tumblr once some of these updates take place.
And here's the thing. I've been parked on this site for Years. I've been a Committed user for nearly a decade, unshaken by Plenty of bad updates. If anything I probably look like that "I can excuse x but draw the line at y (you can excuse x???)" Meme to some.
But this is a final straw because Tumblr's stripping everything that made it stand out and unique, which means I'll leave because I can't excuse x AND y. Y took away the Only thing keeping me going in this case.
And here's why I feel like this is significant - I'm a very archive-oriented person.
I don't just delete things. I don't just ditch things once I'm committed to them. I love to be able to preserve moments in time with trinkets and files and Tumblr has been perfect for that for so long. For archiving art and posts I love even when the blog they came from was deleted or deactivated. Time capsules I could catalogue and fondly look back on. I expanded my tagging systems at my own detriment just so that others could find similar solace in my blog, if they so chose. It was little, but important to me. It felt like a meaningful thing.
But I've hit the point where I'm about ready to just. give up on archiving here.
I'm going to slowly unfollow more people - mostly to avoid new things put on my dash. No more 'doomscrolling', no more new things to add to my long list of stuff to properly 'archive'.
I'm going to start clearing out my likes - by reblogging in honor of the OP in some cases, unliking bc I won't be coming back in others.
I'm probably even going to delete several of my side blogs which. If you knew how many I have and how hard it's been to justify deleting any of them to myself, you'd understand the gravity of this statement.
And - I'm gonna be blunt.
I don't even have anywhere in mind to go.
This isn't me ditching for a better site. I don't think there even is one, for me.
I'm literally leaving just to leave. I have no other options. I am not gonna let that stop me. If I'm going to end up with zero online presence other than Maybe on Discord servers, so be it.
That's essentially where I'm at right now.
So mutuals, if I unfollow, this is just part of the process. It's gradual, I still have posts to reblog or queue up so you'll see me in your notes for a while I'm sure. But basically I'll be pulling away from this site bit by bit going forward I think, unless Tumblr does some hard turnarounds they won't.
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jaeyunverse · 2 years
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announcement regarding lovin’ it!
hi! i’m gonna try to make this quick bc i have a rly bad headache right now and i don’t think anyone would want to read a whole rant LOL
i’m discontinuing lovin’ it!
why? well, reason number one is that i’m starting to think the plot would fit a written fic better. am i going to write the fic though? no. to be very honest, i’m over the entire thing. i came across a prompt and remember being very excited to make smth based on it. so i started planning the smau. this was the start of october. i made the tweets and messages on and off for about a month before stuff came up, and i had to quit. bc i still liked the premise, i began making the smau again in december when i had time, and posted a masterlist on my old blog. then i deactivated. that makes it two times i tried making the smau and quit. still, i tried to go forward w it on my new blog and i was still fairly excited when i pre-wrote all the chapters in march within two days but now ,, i just don’t care LOL i barely remember to post and only do so when i happen to come across someone in the notifs and see them liking a chapter and go “oh fuck i have a smau i should probs update” 👎 plus the plot doesn’t seem that good either now. it actually seems rly lame like WHAT was i thinking to make a smau based on it 💀 i don’t like to discontinue stuff bc it feels like i’ve failed ppl but it’s been 8 months since i began the smau and my commitment issues say i’m DONE. i don’t wanna have smth incomplete and that i’m not particularly proud of anymore on my blog so i will be deleting the masterlist and all the chapters soon (mostly tomorrow itself).
thank you to everyone who supported the smau! i’m rly sorry for disappointing and failing you guys ☹️ maybe in the future i’ll make a different smau w a plot that i don’t get sick of and actually manage to complete 🥲
sorry for tagging everyone in the taglist but announcement things 💔
@notbeforelong @w3bqrl @hysique @acciomylove @msxflower @rikiflowers @saucytaehyung @abdiitcryy @iuwon @corosetadpole @mochisnlix @kamiwazhere @nyanggk @lachimolalah @allorysayshi @yeonjunthinkr @hyukaas @hiqhkey @clarakyunisageek @seonushine @va1ry @kyleeanne @angel-hyuckie @markleeisdabestdrug @sunoope @j4kesworld @ilandsghost @sunoosbestie @ninishimura @gyusteez @timetoten @vantxx95 @outrologist @mavlogist @sweetjaemss @itzzmidzy @90sni-ki @ahnneyong @iwonzzi @sunshine-skz @baekhyunstruly @sushiriki @ily-cuz-i @kimjiho1 @ja4hyvn @seungstarss @rae-blogging @enhacolor
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demons-i-get · 10 months
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Hello, hello, my darlings!
You can call me Spencer or Dean! Pronouns are They/He please!
I am a writer and would LOVE to take requests!
First things first tho, some Dos and Don'ts:
Look, I'm not gonna bite your head off if you're into wincest bc let's be real there's just no escaping it in this fandom and I actually don't care bc they're fictional characters. However, I personally prefer to avoid it so please don't send any requests for it pls and thx ❤️
Anything else I think should be okay, and I will amend this post if I find anything else that's a hard no <3
Gore and violence and blood are perfectly fine <3 however Dean is my blorbo and specialist little guy and comfort character and I tend to prefer to whump on him so while other characters are of course welcome and I will gladly whump or h/c or fluff or whatever them for you, I can't promise that I'll get them in character or that I won't accidentally end up making it all about Dean 😅
PLEASE DO NOT request anything ✨️spicey ✨️ I am sex-repulsed asexual and would really rather not read or write anything explicit. Occasionally, I might imply/reference off-screen sex but mostly I avoid it.
I am not a big fan of reading or writing x reader or 2nd person narration, so please don't request that because I will not do it and I will feel very bad about telling you no even though my boundaries are listed here 😅
Be as specific or as vague as you like! Ramble and rant and word vomit at me or just send in a short prompt and a character, I don't care! I just want us all to have fun here ❤️
If you're ever not sure about something you want to request, you can always send in an ask (on or off anon) or message me and I'll be happy to let you know further details/specifics of about what I'd be willing to write for you! ❤️
Other Things to Know!
I'm a Dean simp first and a human being second 😘
I have seen every episode of Supernatural 💪
Destiel shipper!!!
I am not afraid of the block button and I will not answer hate, it will be deleted. If I can't tell if you're being rude or mean, I will answer merely expressing my confusion (privately if you're off anon for asks) and I will do my best not to jump to conclusions!
I like to think I'm a pretty chill person, so please don't be afraid to talk to me! I would love to interact with y'all ^-^
I do have a nasty potty mouth, but I'm pretty sure most of us in this fandom are the same way lmao
THIS IS A SIDE BLOG!!!!! My main is @invalid-author and you can check that out for non-spn related stuff! I also have Percy Jackson (@water-you-doing-bro) and Criminal Minds (@pretty-boy-baby-girl) specific side-blogs as well so feel free to check them out!
All my writing (including hcs) can be found under the tag #dean writes
All asks with be tagged #dean answers
Any requests made off anon with be @ -ed in the post once I've written it up and requests made on anon will include a link back to the ask once posted!
Any writing done for a request will be tagged #fulfilling a request alongside #dean writes
Can't think of anything else at the moment, but if I do I'll update this post!
All the tags mentioned above will be added in the tags of this post so you can find them easily!
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gnflorida · 3 years
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a suggestion for you all, if i may: delete twitter
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mbat · 4 years
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okay so this post is going to be a bit long, personal, and rambly so feel free to scroll past if you dont want to read about my weird problems
so yesterday im scrolling tumblr as usual, all is good, and then i see that a blog i follow had reblogged some VT fanart, all good and funky, its their blog and it was some good art!
but man it got me thinking
the VT fandom, honestly, brought me a lot of direct and indirect pain. not only were people i didnt know in the fandom some genuinely rotten and crappy people, but there was a group of people i had actually befriended that put me through a lot of pain, whether they meant to or not. gladly im no longer associated with them. (i am still friends with some other people from that fandom who are absolutely lovely and wonderful and never hurt me though (if anything i hurt them a few times....whether they remember those times or not, i still feel so bad and really hope they know im sorry,))
and tbh, even the creators of that channel, though fun and strange, and probably good, sweet people irl, rub me the wrong way sometimes, or at least, they did when i still paid attention to their content.
but man, that art yesterday, looking at it brought me genuine joy. those characters still bring me genuine joy. they were so weird and funky and fun and i loved drawing them and writing about them and making stupid headcanons and theories about them
and even with the people who brought me pain, i had genuine fun times with relating to those bizarre characters.
those characters dont bring me pain even though pretty much everything else in that fandom did
so i just feel. conflicted tbh. i want to still feel joy about those characters and still make content about them, but i refuse to put myself back in a position where im anywhere near that fandom or its anything emotionally.
i hope i worded this coherently? i feel like theres more i want to say but i cant think of it. i already wrote this post once but tumblr and bad internet connection ate it and i actually feel like i worded it better this time.
TL;DR the VT fandom directly and indirectly brought me a lot of pain in the year and a half i was super into it, so i want to avoid it, but the characters themselves still bring me joy, so im conflicted.
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ladyvesuvia · 3 years
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✧˖°࿐ 🍾 okay ves, this is not exactly a crush but rather a good friend of mine who I thought I liked for a little while (and may have, but not anymore), but circumstances and bad timing have made it clear that nothing will happen (and he has too... rip 🤟). but i was telling the story in the tags of my last post & i need to tell someone! he's a very funny guy and we're bickering all. the. time. like we genuinely barely talk in any way that's not back-and-forth banter to the point that our mutual friends changed his discord name to 'clara's lover' because of how much of an old couple we seem lmfao. but we do have heartfelt conversations when we're kinda... smashed at parties lol and it's like 4am and everyone is passed out and we're quietly talking and i've come to find out he's genuinely dedicated. like i didn't expect it from him but he's very sweet and attentive in his own ways - he's the only one who noticed i was Feeling Bad and checked on me, went to all the lengths possible to care for a friend of ours when she fell and hit her head... just an all-around surprisingly sweet and dedicated guy? and one time we were outside, it was 3am, i had stepped out to look at the stars cause they're my happy place when i'm down and i was feeling like shit lowkey. and he came outside with a few friends and i just started rambling about the stars and planets and constellations and how much i love them, and i was like, "i'm being so boring rn omg" but he just said that it was so cool i knew all of this? and that he didn't find it boring at all but rather loved it? space is super important to me so i was like <3 i feel Loved and Validated right this instant. later on we all laid on deckchairs and we were talking (with 2 other friends, we were 4 in total) and i remember drifting off to sleep in the middle of the conversation (at that point it must've been 4-4:30am) so it's all very hazy but they thought i was asleep and when it was time to get back inside he said, "i could carry her to her room" and i was like DO I PRETEND I'M ASLEEP SO HE DOES,,, and i was this close but they shook me a bit and so i woke up for real lol but it was one of the sweetest nights in my life and the moment i felt the most closure to all my friends and him in particular. rereading this it sounds like i am whipped for the guy but i'm really not, he's a sincerely good friend and we wouldn't work together romantically anyway so i backed down and i prefer it this way. but yeah this was my hot girl summer little romance daydream ♡ THIS WAS SO LONG SORRY AND IM GONNA HIDE BC WHAT IF SOMEONE I KNOW IRL SEES THIS
OMFG BABE I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW THIS I NEEDED TO HEAR THIS TODAY BECAUSE I’M IN KINDA THE SAME PLACE
he sounds so amazing!!! 😔 the clara’s lover is just so sweet and made me blush wtf ma’am you’re y/n right now- this felt so fun to read istg and him validating what you’re passionate about??? I LOVE HIM ALREADY AAAAAAAAA
HE’S JUST- AGH READING THIS GAVE ME BUTTERFLIES IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE!!! the late night talks- 🤧✋🏻 i want this omg a book based on this would be perfect xx
THE I COULD CARRY HER TO HER ROOM OMFG MA’AM I’D SAY MARRY HIM BUT- HSCNFJJRIWA IDK WHAT TO SAY EVEN JUST HE SOUNDS SO GREAT HE SOUNDS FICTIONAL BUT LIKE IN THE BEST WAY like he’s that one fictional character you want to come to life???? agh i have so many questions like do you guys still talk? are you still friends? is his discord nick still clara’s lover? does he like you? did- I JUST HAVE SO MANY PLS DON’T FEEL SHY TO KEEP SENDING THESE IN BECAUSE I’M NOSY AND THIS IS SO ENTHUSIASTICALLY THRILLING TO ME I GET SO EXCITED BUT WHY NOT ANYMORE :<<<
YOU SHOULD HAVE PRETENDED YOU WERE ASLEEP OMFG I KNOW I WOULD HAVE DONE SO AHAHAHAHAJAJJAWJ wym hot girl summer bESTIE THAT’S MAIN GIRL COMING OF AGE AESTHETIC LOVE STORY THAT DESERVES A HAPPILY EVER AFTER
don’t hide bb this made me want to rant about my similar one omfg u don’t have to read this i just saw a lot of parallels to this and i couldn’t help but sjhdejiw because you saying the “we wouldn’t work out romantically” literally broke me because i feel the same way 😔
i know i say i love angst a lot but damn it why can’t things just be easy and always have a happily ever after?2!/&2@ i told him about writing and he literally said that it’s cool and that i’m good at what i do omfg this guy!!:!:&2 AND WE ALSO HAVE LATE NIGHT TALKS like mostly 12am to 4am just laughing and stuff he’s just someone i feel comfortable with but just imagining what we’d be romantically sounds too unorthodox? idk i mean i do like him and i am in fact head over heels for him but the minute i think about us in the same place that the couples my friends are in, IT FEELS SO STRANGER-Y???
i mean he liked me since 2019 but has been incosistent and he confessed to me on the 31st of december, 2019 BUT I DIDN’T SEE IT OK I WAS JUS TRYNNA REPLY TO PEOPLE HAPPY NEW YEAR and i only saw it like just this june 26 where i replied to it and i said “whatthefuck HAHAHAHA” and he freaked out and said DELETE THAT DELETE THAT hdhdueie idk rlly he’s just so great but i don’t wanna ruin our friendship
PLS THIS FEELS LIKE MIDDLE SCHOOL ALL OVER AGAIN IDK WHY I’M KINDA ENJOYING IT
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goyurim · 3 years
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I was tagged by @its-chelisey-stuff @koreandragon @leedongsik @gimme-a-chocolate @what-breaks-my-heart and @wullu woah woah wooahh slow down there people i get i’m famous but one at a time please 🤚🏽
1. Why did you choose your url?
do i need to go off on a rant about how much i’m obsessed with this lil sunflower, the literal sun, i revolve around him everyday, he gives me light, the brightest star in my universe, or are y’all sick and tired of me already
2. Any sideblogs?
nope
3. How long have you been on Tumblr?
wow uh... i don’t remember... 2013 maybe? i made this blog last year in august though
4. Do you have a queue tag?
i don’t have a tag, in fact i don’t tag most of my stuff bc i’m lazy, but my blog almost always runs on queue. once in a blue moon i obsessively post about my hyperfixations but i try not to torture my followers too much
5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?
i made it to talk to people about flower of evil and intended to delete it afterwards but then i decided to explore photoshop and practice my editing skills too so... i’m still here
6. Why did you choose your avatar?
tak dong kyung is the cutest liddol bean i love that girlie so much. my avatars are just my favourite characters of shows i’m currently watching/not over yet
7. Why did you choose your header?
Because I love Beyond Evil and that scene is everything. - that’s mel’s answer and i’m stealing it bc both our headers are from the same scene and she’s right
8. What’s your post with the most notes?
*sighs* yaa’s. boat. post. it’s gonna haunt me forever isn’t it. no i’m not linking it he already did in his post and that’s enough
9. How many mutuals do you have?
you can check that?? how???
10. How many followers do you have?
491
11. How many blogs do you follow?
144
12. Have you ever made a shitpost?
yeah. mostly whenever i’m ranting about my personal life that no one probably cares or wants to know about
13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?
once? i’m online almost every day unless i have exams or assignments due then i take a couple weeks off. my blog still runs on queue while i’m gone so y’all can feel my presence on your dashes uwu 💞
14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?
lmao i’m too cowardly to fight people. i do disagree with people on drama opinions mostly but the conversations are always civil
15. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?
they’re guilt-trippy and make me feel bad about myself so i scroll past them real fast usually. no need to make this site a bad experience for me that’s not what this place is for
16. Do you like tag games?
always! they’re so much fun i love doing them and i love getting tagged my response is always ‘oh! this moot remembers me?! thank you for acknowledging my existence! i love you so much!!’ the reason i’m so slow at doing them is bc i need to be in the right headspace i don’t wanna just skim over them and i’m always scared of tagging ppl bc i feel like i’m bothering them lmao
17. Do you like ask games?
yes!! tag games, ask games, i love them all!!! getting attention feels great!!!!
18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?
Idk they are all famous to me 😘 - stealing mel’s answer again bc yes. you’re all famous in my heart 🥰
19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?
i am a little bit in love with all of my mutuals. we have this strange unyielding bond that ascends beyond time and space and i hope i have made all of my mutuals feel it in one way or another at some point during my time here. any love i made you feel is yours to keep 💓
20. Tags?
i feel like everyone’s done this already so anyone who feels like doing it can say i tagged you!! <3
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greenbriar-j · 4 years
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So to summarize the last few posts I made which will mostly be deleted by the time this one goes up - and because I seem to work best in bullet points:
I finished Touch of Light. Officially. Yaaay!
So here’s the next wip:
I have characters (sort of) and a general vibe/dynamic (sort of)
I’m probably going to do a drabble a day to get used to their characters and their problems etc etc before I even start thinking about a draft. These will likely be posted as they get written, but don’t take them as cannon quite yet
I’m thinking of staying in universe and still having Muses and Arts but taking it outside of Seure into a more Asian-based town. Want to see if I can add my heritage a little more obviously this time than last time.
Here’s our two main leads, as far as I’m concerned (conceptual names are Hoàng Thanh Yến and Nguyễn Hữu Kiên, may change in the near future and bc these names are last-middle-first, you’ll likely just be seeing them referred to as Yen Hoang and Kien Nguyen).
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These kids probably have a romance thinly veiled as rivalry. A crime fighting couple, if you will. One will have an Art and one will not.
They probably have a deep-rooted family rivalry too. Dunno, feels right.
Speaking of family, I might try to sneak an Emerson cameo as one of their cousins or a family friend but that might be stretching it.
Maybe something about body guards? Something about mafia? This point is still being debated.
So anyway, yeah I’m gonna give it a shot and see if writing tiny excerpts a day will let me get a hold of this wip
Btw I will still have TOL Thursdays for a while bc... Just because. I might start Wip Wednesday to rant about my unnamed wip in the same manner tho. I might be too tired to follow through on this bullet point in particular. Idk. I’ve never had a wip up here other than TOL how do??
Gonna add my taglist so you know what’s going down, sorry for the huge post: @abbystardis @acrimoneous @aelenko @astrowriting @asoftplxcetoland @corav1a @halleiswriting @jess---writes @mastery-in-procrastination @nightmares-and-fireflies @semblanche @softly--sinking @theoldcity @vhum @waterfallwritings
Important: I’m not going to tag this Taglist going forward bc Ik a lot of people on it have had new life developments since I put trueness on the Taglist and tumblr isn’t their main concern anymore and I feel bad for flooding their notifs for some reason. That said, hmu if you want to be on this new taglist going forward! :)
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patrickbrewerisgay · 5 years
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re: rpf drama again!!! 🤮
(tw for mention of suicide in regards to an anon message)
i was not going to post about this again because i said exactly what i wanted to say & got it all off my chest & felt much better about it after. actually i haven’t even THOUGHT about the whole thing since my little “rant” that i guess everyone loved (save one or two bad takes that i deleted, bc i was mad & then realized they were unproductive). i blocked everyone involved right away so i could be Done & move on & get back to the show & fandom that i really do love. but i’ve gotten a couple messages about things i didnt know about & i was just looking at wildxwired’s blog for the first time since the whole thing & i feel the need to comment on some stuff to clear things up.
(hopefully these cut things still function on this hellsite, though i don’t think they do anything on mobile)
1. i’ve never sent any “anon hate.” i feel like i’ve made it pretty clear that i am not a person who’s afraid of attaching my name to what i want to say. all i see on wxw’s blog is 2 messages (including the original that prompted her disgusting response, which i also DID NOT SEND) & then like a billion messages of “support” about the “hate,” so idk if there was more that she deleted. but i would NEVER tell someone to kill themselves?? i just want people to stop being gross, not die. also as a person who suffers from mental illness & has been suicidal in the past, & has also been on tumblr for a billion years & Seen Some Shit, i just. wouldn’t say that. you know only what people are posting about (which in this case is a very specific thing), you don’t know what else is going on in their lives & to prey on their mental health or deliberately try to trigger them is straight up vile & against every moral i hold. also in regards to anons, i am in constant contact with my group of friends who run other blogs on here & NONE of that is coming from us, or else i would know. we’ve moved on from you guys.
2. i don’t like rpf, but if you’re gonna do it, wildxwired actually did it the right way. she put it in a separate tag. she didn’t include any significant others. she even mentioned it was a sort of au. still don’t like it, but if you HAVE to do that, that’s a good example of how to help people avoid it, & also follows the compromise others & i suggested of keeping it out of the main tag. i also don’t care about your silly weird tentacle fics lol which i’ve already said don’t bug me bc they’re clearly ridiculous & in jest.
3. what i was specifically objecting to was wxw’s response to that anon, as well as those 4 drinkingstarsfic fics involving clare that everyone is supportive of, even if they didn’t write them. my main issue has ALWAYS been the involvement of real life significant others. i think it crosses a major boundary & i will continue to stand by that. idc as much about the other stuff, i obvs dont like it but it doesn’t horrify me in the same way. i still maintain that it’s non-consensual sexual content, even if it’s “only” written & even if the subject doesn’t know about it (even more non-consensual). how’d you like that stuff written about your sister, or even you? it’s violating. that’s MY stance that i stick by.
4. this has always applied to a very very small & specific group of people in this fandom that i can’t roll with. the vast majority of people i’ve met through sc have been AMAZING & honestly changed my life. i love this fandom so much & i (mostly) feel really safe here. i am getting everything i want out of my sc fandom experience & more.
5. y’all are like..... really misusing dan’s philosophy on love lol. he’s never meant “let anyone get away with anything & don’t speak out against things that you believe are wrong.” or else he wouldn’t have called out the reviewer who called him fey. or else he would just include homophobes in the show & show everyone loving them. he clearly has moral boundaries that he doesn’t believe people should cross, & he is vocal on speaking out against them. i admire that in him so much. also like he’s not a messiah, he’s not the boss of me & i’m not gonna follow all his personal philosophies like some kind of religious law lol.
6. censorship doesn’t mean telling someone on the internet your opinion about what they’re doing & how you BELIEVE they should take it down. censorship is FORCED. i’m not the government. i don’t even know HOW to report things on ao3 or if you even can. i don’t know their rules.
7. that one reply that was like “imagine being against rpf but loving your favorite actors so much that you know their anniversary” was so funny bc noah LITERALLY made an insta post about it yesterday. imagine loving your favorite actors so much that you follow them on social media.
8. for a bunch of women in their 30s, i’m like. appalled at how immaturely you all behave. get a life. stop deliberately goading people. stop harassing actual children on the internet. spend some time making a tangible difference in the world.
9. all the opinions i’ve expressed are mine & mine alone, & i do not claim to speak for anyone else, nor have i ever. so don’t take this out on others. if you have problems with me, address those problems directly to me. or get a proxy if you’re blocked. let’s behave like adults & communicate. OR let’s behave like adults & stop communicating when we can’t come to an agreement & it no longer is productive.
peace out losers ✌️
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7-deadlysins · 5 years
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renjun — bf headcanon [instagram edition]
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• first thing is first: part of the aesthetic club (which includes him, jungwoo, kun, doyoung, johnny—has a dark theme going on & yuta—has a winwin theme. duh) but even out of all of them, renjun is the most dedicated & neat (spends HOURS editing at times)
• edit GOD. he even edits your pics for you (everyone always asks him what apps he uses but he lies and says "i just fool around on vsco or whatever" homeboy just doesn't wanna share his secrets)
• vScO oR whAtEvr stfu renjun bought a whole photo-editing tool kit app
• extremely selective of who he follows, who follows him, what he posts, what he likes and what he comments under
• has not accepted haechan's follow request yet (🐍🐍)
• RAREly comments, usually only likes posts. but if the boys ask him to "comment under my pic" he's the smartass that will comment "under my pic" 😐
• on the rare occasions that he does comment, it's always a roast, and the boys are like: renjun at least like the pic if ur gonna roast me
• comments under ur pics religiously tho (sometimes it's sweet, sometimes it's roasts)
• never responds to any memes you tag him under
• but expects you to respond to every single wtffunfact post he tags you under (tags you under about 20 a day)
• follows a handful of life & philosphy accounts, judges which ones to follow based on their feed
• but only follows abt 7 of the other members, has not followed back the rest (doesn't even want to accept haechan's)
• always ends up spilling tea/ exposing them in the comments and the other boys are actually tired of his shit
• although his posts are neat, his ig story is a MESS (usually it's using your face as a meme 99.9% of the time)
• sometimes rants/ shares personal anecdotes then deletes the post an hour later. HE's so annoying
• if someone dms him, disregarding and not being considerate to the fact that he's dating you, he will pretty much send them a handful of savage memes and end their social media life
• HATES when his friends tag him in badly edited group photos (he will untag himself. thank u, next)
• loooooves taking off guard pics of you. sometimes he gets a little philosophical and grateful while doing so, bc he notices little but more detailed things abt you, like the color of your eyes changing in the sun
• these moments will actually have him weak in the knees. dont call him out, he will die of embarassment and attacc you
• kinda uses his "passion for photography" as an excuse to look at you (through the camera screen) for a long time without having to look away or be embarassed
• sometimes takes too long trying to get the perfect shot of the food & ends up annoying you a little
• but bc of his need for aesthetics & his hobby of taking pics, he's introduced you to amazing places: museums, gardens, parks, libraries, cafés
• will do everything to get a good shot of you. once he laid on the concrete, one hand tryna take the pic, the other carrying a flashlight, trying to get the perfect shot (T^T)
• bc of that, everyone asks him to take pics of them (expecting it to come out the way ur pics do)
• but renjun takes blurry pics of everyone else. everyone gets mad, he laughs like a devil and that's about it
• you're his muse and honestly it feels good to have a bf that hypes you up, and supports you rather than one that doesn't !! yas embrace it.
• overall, he's actually so creative and one of the most supportive, funny, loving and WHIPPED bf of the century
• his ig consists of mostly you, books and museum paintings more than himself
• if i haven't said it before:
• WHIPPED culture
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King of New York rant
A piece of advice: do not write a very long rant on Tumblr, save it in your drafts, and expect it to be there when you return bc it will not. I had at least half of this written out, saved it so I could go to another room and it deleted the whole dang thing and I had to start over. Grr.
Tag list: @lcevinolusola @marvelmerlinao3 @duhke
So in a lot of rants (that I agree with except for the KoNY bits) on how Newsies handled disabilities - Crutchie’s disability in particular - the song King of New York is often brought up. These posts make it out that King of New York is a  chipper brush-over of the horrible things that happened in the previous scene(s). I believe one of them said something along the lines of ‘our friend got dragged away to hell-on-earth, let's sing and tap-dance because we’re in a newspaper that no one’s selling!’ I, however, would like to argue that King of New York is actually a song that the newsies use to cover up just how bad they’re hurting at the loss of their friends.
Before the song, as the lights come up to signal the beginning of Act 2, we see the newsies lying around Jacobi’s, all sporting various injuries. They’re all sad, despondent, and clearly hurting both emotionally as well as physically. After all, no teenage boy (especially ones raised in a society that praised the ‘emotionless manly-man’ stereotype even more than today’s culture does) is going to be that upset over injuries like that. Would they be that upset over losing a fight as important as the one they just lost? Maybe. But I think that mostly they’re sad, and more importantly scared, for what’s going to happen next, especially what’s going to happen to Crutchie. After all, it is made abundantly clear in the first Act (especially during Carrying the Banner) that Crutchie is very close to all of the newsies.
He laughs when they poke fun at his leg (“Do you wanna bust up your other leg?” “No, I wanna go down.” “Hey, Crutchie, what’s ya leg sayin’? Gonna rain?” “No, no rain-- ho HO. Party cloudy, clear by evening.”). He playfully fights with them (punching Jack and Romeo during Carrying the Banner and receives a few playful punches of his own). And when they get into fights with the Delancey’s he cheers them on by waving his fist in encouragement as Albert carries him offstage. Heck, he’s even part of the backwards cap crew, which is a very exclusive club. Everyone feels his absence very keenly.
Perhaps, the one who feels it most is Race. Although never explicitly stated, we can tell from the dynamics that Race and Crutchie are probably pretty high up in the chain of command (I think that they probably share the title of ‘second-in-command’ with Crutchie dealing more with the home base and Race interacting more with the other boroughs. Aaaaaand guess who has another headcanon I need to flesh out *sigh*). Race is feeling more than a little lost without Jack or Crutchie there to help, and everyone is looking to him to make decisions. Even though Jack’s disappearances are implied to be a common occurrence, he at least had Crutchie to help him keep things going when Jack went MIA. But this time it’s just him. And as I mentioned earlier, Race is a never-ending optimist. He isn’t used to being sad. Most of the newsies aren’t used to being sad, but especially not Race. He doesn’t like this. Even Katherine is thrown off by the gloom in the room (“Would you get a look at these glum mugs?”). So she tries to make them feel better by showing them the paper. And here’s the crux of my argument.
Race gets excited. Too excited. If Jack and Crutchie had been there, they would’ve celebrated, sure, but not like they did here. There wouldn’t’ve been such a big deal made out of it, I doubt it would’ve even been a whole song. They would’ve brushed it over in the span of a few lines and immediately started planning their next step. Instead, the newsies grab at it like a lifeline.
They’ve just had someone who means the world to them ripped away, lost a huge fight, possibly lost their jobs, and like Jack said, they aren’t there ‘on playtime.’ They’re starving, and there is a very real possibility that they could die because of this. They feel hopeless. Then Katherine offers them a spot of hope and they jump up to grab it.
Race grabs the newspaper, his optimistic spirit returning. Since he’s the leader, the others follow. They all jump on the paper, talking to each other about how this is a good thing (“Would ya look it, that’s me!” “I won’t be last in line for the tub tonight!” “Wait until my fadda sees this!”). But then Katherine asks Specs and Albert about serious subjects, she gets an answer, and Race overhears.
“Could ya stop with all the seriosity long enough to just drink in the moment?” He doesn’t want to think about it. They’re teenage boys who run off optimism and the charity of nuns, of course they want to ignore the things that hurt. That’s how they manage to get out of bed every day.
They’re singing the song not because they don’t care about Jack missing or Crutchie being in the Refuge, they’re singing because they do care, and caring hurts. They’re dying inside knowing that their friends aren’t safe. So like someone who is overwhelmed by hurt, they grab for something that’ll make it better. They grab for the balm that heals, at least momentarily.
In Carrying the Banner, they frequently mention all the bad things that are happening (”Curdled coffee” - “Just give me half a cup!”, “Summer stinks and winters freezing, when you works outdoors.” “Start out sweatin, end up sneezin', in between it pours!”) but they acknowledge these things. Even in Letter to the Refuge Crutchie mentions all the bad things going on, even though he’s trying to remain optimistic to reassure Jack. In King of New York, they don’t mention a single bad thing. They’re trying to have a smile on their face, even if its a fake one.
Really, it makes me think of this quote from Doctor Who; “Every time you see them happy you remember how sad they're going to be. And it breaks your heart. Because what's the point in them being happy now if they're going to be sad later? The answer is, of course, because they are going to be sad later.” They all know that the sadness will crash in again soon enough, so they cling to the happiness of that moment.
The song isn’t happy in the way that Carrying the Banner is, it’s the happiness that comes from people who are trying too hard to be happy to escape sadness. King of New York may sound like a happy little mid-show ditty, but it is actually a song of desperate children trying not to think about the world collapsing around them.
(And it is furthermore shown that they do care. Specs visits Crutchie in the Refuge and delivers a letter to Jack. During the scene change for Watch What Happens (Reprise) the newsies are shown wandering around New York looking for Jack. They care, a lot. Like Crutchie said, “New York’s got us, and we’re family.” They love each other to death, and the absence of one of their ranks is heartbreaking.)
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ierogenvy · 6 years
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about me
i’ve had this blog for four and a half years and im just now getting my shit together and making and about me page… rip
i never thought i’d have to say this but here we go. i do not and will not ever support incest, pedophilia, or any other similar thing. if you disagree with me, please unfollow and block me. do not message me to try to change my mind or to tell me that you personally arent a bad person because you use these unthinkable things to cope with your past.     for the full story, go to https://shpevrythng.tumblr.com/tagged/incest-anon
also: https://belovedfemme.tumblr.com/post/175700387182/oh-by-the-way-pls-dont-follow-if-u-supportlike
why i won’t support fantastic beasts: http://priceforrottenjudgement.tumblr.com/post/167568761185/so-before-any-of-you-even-try-to-defend-depp-bc
hi guys, i’m sarah, i’m 20, and i have a basket ball game tomorrow !! im a lesbian with a scorpio sun and capricorn moon. la croix is delicious and so is pineapple on pizza. u can’t change my mind.
if u don’t wanna see any of my rants bout various topics, just blacklist “dont mind me”
my interests are varied, but mostly i blog about one direction, 5 seconds of summer, memes, It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia (filter/blacklist s13 or s13 spoilers if you want; i’ll tag till the whole season has been on hulu for a month), One Day At A Time, Queer Eye (netflix), and aesthetics. i have side blogs for my other interests out of respect (when i get a new interest it turns into spam,,, then i make a new blog, reblog from myself, then delete the evidence from shpevrythng). they are: @harrysdogfather (harry potter) @harryistherarestpepe (literally a blog about “harry is a frog” memes)  @queliott  (the magicians)  @iamgrandr (les mis) @itsnuwanda (dead poets society) @philipshea (eyewitness) @omgericplease (check please) and @ytbrtrsh (youtube)
i’m gonna start posting about the netflix show the haunting of hill house and i’m gonna tag it “haunting of hill house” for potential spoilers and in case y’all don’t like scary stuff. (i have finished it so all eps are free game but will be tagged so) NOTE: if you need something tagged that i’ve posted in relation to the show (flashing gifs, jumpscares, ghosts, blood etc) PLEASE do not hesitate to let me know !!!! i will always tag anything u need no questions asked !!!
my snacpchat is sarahc.13 - i dont post much but i’ll probably ask to start a streak w u and you’ll get daily pics of my dog so that’s something, right ?
my twitter is shpevrythng - mostly retweets so dont get too exicted. and also i tweeted jenna marbles once and im still getting likes ,,, i love being popular but pls,, stop,, my phone is dying
my spotify is shpevrythng - any and all new music i listen to is going to be there. even if i find something from apple music or youtube, i make sure to update my spotify. (but here’s my apple music too if u want )
you can ask me literally anything, my ask is always open. i give pretty good advice, and im always up for hearing a new pun, so dont be shy !! i also have anonymous turned on, and it remain as such until i get a bad anon.
if something happens and someone becomes problematic (or it’s discovered that they r problematic) pls let me know so i can not talk/post about them anymore, and educate myself before i look dumb.
if you want me to see something, just tag #shpevrythng. i wont see it immediately, bc i only check my tag like once a week; if you want me to see smth asap just PM me or @ me :)
ps. im always up to make friends and if u are nervous about talking to me just know that i’ll be just as nervous to respond. half of my responses to my tumblr friends (and irl friends tbh) are just “dbnuafibja lmao” so dont be worried !!!!
i think that’s it ??
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