#i wasnt going to post this for a while but now i’m in a mood

[chrysanthemumpink]

hey ashley this is awkward to say but i read the leoxpisces tag like when i get chances to and i remember the piece you wrote about maybe you’re staying just to stay

i sent it to my boyfriend and the next day we broke up and idk how you do it- finding someone who stays and i’m terrified that i won’t find someone who’ll just like, at least stay.

this is very impulsive and im sorry if it ruined moods and is probably unnecessary but yeah i’ve been alone for around 4 months while he is already out there with a new girl 10 days after we officially split

how do you keep going?

Honestly, I’ve been thinking about you and watching sister wives. Truth be told, I can’t keep going anymore. I feel like when we first met and Leo x Pisces began, we had to find reasons to be apart. And these days, I’m running out of reasons for us to be together.

He doesn’t actually like me. Yea sure, he’s occasionally infatuated, maybe on some level loved. Even the things he doesn’t like about me, he still craves and misses when it’s gone. It’s hard to explain but the things about us that shouldn’t work are the things that bind us together and what we can’t let go of. As a flame, I find water drowning but also cooling and free. As water, he finds flames warm and beautifully erratic. Mesmerizing, but impossible to touch and staring directly at the sun is blinding. And I’m kind of tired of being with someone who doesn’t actually like me, who doesn’t desire to put any effort into liking me, and whose to scared to say he doesn’t like me because he too scared to deal with any fallout

In real life, not in my bad analogies, it’s situations like now. He’s in a bad mood, but his bad mood lasts for weeks. That’s Pisces for you. But when he’s in a bad mood, he needs a break and silence. But a Pisces doesn’t tell you that. It comes off as being too afraid to hurt you but the truth is that they’re cowards too afraid of both their own emotions and mine.

Anyway, a Pisces doesn’t tell you about the mood, I just see it in how distant he talks and acts. He doesn’t say he needs silence, he just acts really mean. And when Pisces realizes that doesn’t really work on Leo’s, they cave. Withering away. They always come back though. Ngl, a single Instagram post is all it would take to remind him that I could do better.

But I haven’t done that. I haven’t done any of the things I normally do. No blocking, no passive aggressiveness, no excitement over apology begging.

I just can’t stay in something that always feels like an extreme or a passion. These days I want someone who likes me all the time. And I get that it isn’t easy but I feel as if Pisces thinks that love and friendship are a feeling. They just happen naturally and he’s just walking around waiting for an aha moment.

But I don’t think an aha moment will ever happen. I don’t think love and friendship come naturally, you have to try and make it work. I know I’m using star signs to talk about this but tangible relationships take tangible action. If the sun is being too bright, you put on a pair of shades. Not tell it to go away after being a butt for weeks.

Pisces finds me irresistible and I feel the same towards him. It’s a crazy concept but lately I’ve been wondering what it would be like if love to wasnt so compelled? What would it be like if someone actually chose to be around me? And not with me because of some intense force or emotion beyond their control? What if someone was fully in control of who and how they loved and we choose to do that together?

I don’t know if that makes sense OP and I don’t know if it answers your question. But his stuff is packed up. It’s weird because I’ve had this actual box for a while now. I’ve been thinking of doing this for so long and I’ve finally put the stuff in and taped it up. I’ve invited a platonic friend to take his spot on our thanksgiving boat trip. He doesn’t know yet, but we’re not doing thanksgiving this year. I promised his mom pies so I will send them now instead of during the holidays. But keep going? Im not.

It’s really really hard to let go but I mentioned sister wives. I feel like I’ve been mentally and spiritually ending things alone. Like yes he’s being distant now so I have no choice to do it alone. But this isn’t a new feeling and I’ve held it in my mind even when things were going good or even okay.

That being said, OP, exes are sometimes like that. They have a huge rebound period where they b don’t realize how much they miss you until you’re long gone. So maybe time is the answer. Maybe like my Pisces he’s a coward and is running away from the inevitable pain he feel. By then, you’ll be unreachable and it’ll be his turn to deal with it alone.

For now though, imagine he’s hanging over a bowl by a piece of string connected to you. And you cut the string, he falls, a weight Is lifted, and one day, maybe you’ll see him flopping around the bowl you dropped him and laugh because it looks funny

#leo x pisces

[cherub-cafe]

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jerma my comfort cc soft aesthetic stimboard🥺💕 for @sickness-and-stealth 🥺🥺💙💚

#the second i finished this i got terrible diarrhea #and honestly? #it’s deserved #i wasnt going to post this for a while but now i’m in a mood #misbehaving anons got me fired up #joke stimboard #jerma985 #jerma dollhouse #cursed #anti stim #food #fire #35

[akaashisbabygirl]

threesome

a/n: anyways, i added glitter to the image because i was in an “ooo glitter mood” this wasnt this best i could write a i didn’t take days to write it and when i was writing i was really sleepy but i wanted to post something different. i hope you enjoy <3 thank you or 9.2k!!

pairings: akaashi x reader x suna (all characters are aged up)

warnings: NSFW - threesome, high sex, use of weed, alcohol consumption, oral (giving and receiving) anal, double penetration, female and male masturbation, finger sucking, hair pulling, kinda face fucking, degradation, spanking, reader is on birth control

suna’s fingertips held onto the blunt as he brought it back to sit in between his soft pink lips. akaashi’s back rested against the headboard of the bed, his legs spread as your small body rested against his chest, fingers tugging with the ends of your skirt as you waited for suna to pass the blunt to you. 

both suna and akaashi had gotten high, deciding to tease you by passing the blunt back and forth with each other, not handing it once to you. it didn’t help either that both boys were much bigger than you were, and with the way your body rested in akaashi’s arms, you weren’t getting up from your comfortable position to grab the blunt from their hands.

“rinnn, keiii...” you whined, hand slapping akaashi’s thigh softly as he grabbed hold of the blunt from suna. 

“what is it, babygirl? do you want it?” keiji teased, his left hand moving up to your thigh, letting his warm hand sit on your exposed skin.

“want some,” you pouted.

suna chuckled, “c’mon kei, she wants some too.”

akaashi moved the blunt down to your lips, holding it there for you, waiting for you to take a hit.

“i can take it myself you know! i’m not a baby!” you whined.

akaashi chuckled, “sure.”

it was the everyday friday night, where you, your boyfriend akaashi and suna all met up at suna’s apartment to smoke, get high together and possibly have sex. it was something that happened one night, and before the three of you knew it, having sex and getting high had been something the three of you regularly did.

the boys watched as your mind slowly became consumed by the weed. suna smirked, kneeling down onto the bed as akaashi held the blunt to your lips. his hands tugged your skirt down your legs, following with the lace panties you wore. akaashi pulled your thighs to sit over his own, as suna’s tongue met with your dripping folds. he started to move his tongue along your slit, collecting your wetness on his tongue. 

akaashi grabbed the blunt from your hands as moans began to erupt from your lips. his grip tightened around your waist as suna’s hands held your thighs open. he only teased you, licking up your dripping arousal which had leaked down your cunt, not actually giving you what you desperately wanted. 

suna pulled away from your cunt, a whine falling from your lips. akaashi slapped your thigh softly, telling you to shut up.

“let’s play a game!” suna announced.

“what one?” akaashi asked.

“truth or dare, except there’s a twist. akaashi and i take turns to ask y/n truth or dare.” suna smirked, bringing the bottle of alcohol to his lips, letting the cool liquid slide down his throat.

“i like the sound of that!” said akaashi. you also agreed.

“babygirl, truth or dare?” suna asked.

“dare!” you said, sounding confident.

“take a shot of alcohol,” suna said, handing you the bottle, keeping his dares easy for now. 

you took the bottle from his hands, your mouth wrapping around the bottle as you let the alcohol pour down your throat.

“your lips would look so good wrapped around our cocks baby,” akaashi mumbled into your ear. his breath was hot against your skin, a blush spreading across your soft cheeks.

you handed the bottle from suna, waiting for akaashi to ask you.

“truth or dare baby?”

“dare!”

“i dare you to kiss suna, sweetheart,” akaashi commanded.

suna leaned forward, as you tugged on his shirt, pulling him close. your lips sloppily attacked each other’s, as akaashi watched. he couldn’t wait to feel what your lips would feel like around his cock. he loved how gorgeous you looked all high and needy.

you removed your lips from suna’s, your back moving back against akaashi’s chest.

“truth or dare, brat?” suna asked.

“truth!” you said, wanting to change up the game a bit.

“who do you want to fuck you cunt tonight,” suna asked, as akaashi’s fingertips brushed against your hair.

“want keiji in my cunny.”

suna smirked, “go suck keiji’s cock. make him feel good.”

you obeyed, moving yourself onto your knees and crawling in between akaashi’s legs. your hands greedily pulled down his sweat pants, your ass sticking up, feeling suna latch onto your hips, shoving your skirt up so it bunches at your waist.

“can i fuck your ass baby?” suna asked.

“yes!”

your lips wrapped around akaashi’s cock as suna grabbed the bottle of lube from the drawer next to his bed.

akaashi’s hands grabbed onto your hair, his hands holding onto your hair, shoving your head down to take more of him into your mouth. akaashi’s hands in your hair helped you take as much of him into your mouth as you could. akaashi slowly fucked your face, his cock making you choke and moan around his mouth as suna stretched out your other hole. it hadn’t been the first time you had taken both boys at once, it was something the three of you had done before.

your ass tightened around the toy suna had placed to help stretch you out, your head bobbing up and down as you maintained eye contact with akaashi.

“look so fucking beautiful,” akaashi smirked.

you removed your head from around akaashi’s cock, looking up at him into his turquoise coloured eyes. a moan erupted from your lips as suna fucked your ass with the toy.

“keiji, want you, need you, dripping...”

“touch yourself for me baby,” akaashi stated.

akaashi’s hands removed your shirt, your fingers dipping underneath you skirt, rubbing harsh circles on your clit. you threw your head back as you felt like you were going to cum. suna thrusted the toy into your ass, your eyes rolling to the back of your head as you felt your climax approaching. a sharp moan fell from your lips as you came all over your own hand, eyes watching as akaashi pumped his own cock in his hands at the sight of you. quickly, he came all over your chest, his cum dripping down your beautiful tits.

akaashi grabbed onto your hips, setting you down on top of his cock. his cock thrusted into your walls as suna removed the toy from your ass, undressing himself and lining his cock up with your ass. a moan fell from your lips as akaashi bottomed out inside of you, the tip of his cock slightly kissing your cervix.

suna slowly began to fuck your ass, his fingers moving to shove them down your throat, loving how you obediently began sucking on his fingers.

suna waited until you said that you were ready, before he and akaashi started thrusting at the same time. suna removed his fingers from your lips, hearing how your loud moans fell from your lips and started to fill the four corners of the room.

akaashi’s hands moved down to rub against your clit, your head being thrown back as you rode akaashi and suna fucked your ass. his hands pressed your tummy, feeling where he cock sat inside of you while suna slapped your ass. akaashi thrusted his hips up into you, suna grabbing your hair and pulling on it slightly, having you arch your back.

“your so fucking tight baby,” akaashi groaned.

“i bet you like having both your holes filled you fucking slut,” suna muttered, grabbing a new blunt and lighting it, bringing it to his own lips.

“gonna fucking cum... oh fuck fuck gonna cum,” you moaned.

your vision went white as you climaxed, your cunt clenching and ass tightening. a cry of their names fell from your lips as both boys desperately picked up their pace in need to cum.

akaashi released his load with a loud moan of your name, his seed filling your cunt and painting your insides white.

suna climaxed next inside your ass, his hands grabbing onto your tits as he did so.

both boys pulled out, watching how their cum leaked from your body. your eyes were tired and you began to feel sleepy. suna grabbed a spare shirt for you as akaashi got some wet towels, ready to clean you up.

“it’s late baby, go to sleep,” akaashi stroked your cheek softly, pressing a kiss to your forehead as you fell asleep while suna was dressing you.

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#haikyuu smut #suna smut #akaashi smut #nsfw—🎟

[rotshop]

hiii welcome to I Just Fucking Remembered I'm Allowed To Just Write Hcs

today i bring you a meal (it is not poisoned you can trust me /threat)

anywayyy dogboy sheriff / catperson s/o hcs fuck yeahhahahahefffvhrefvg

-You two get on each other's nerves all the time, like you've just been like this for forever now. At first it was just like a little occasional jab and now u both are constantly challenging each other to stupid little things and having to haul the other's ass around after they get their shit kicked in (usually its you dragging sheriff around but shhh)

-admittedly though he was curious abt u the first time he saw you but he just. didn't say anything because he didn't really?? know how to properly do so???

-you two are both stubborn as shit you will be like. curled up on the couch and then you'll see him walk over to come sit down so you'll stretch and just. take up all the space just to spite him. "Is something wrong????? is there an issue??? what do you want." (9/10 it ends with him either dragging you up off the couch -which has led to you accidentally shredding it before because you dug your claws in to fight back- or him just sitting on your legs)

-DESPITE THAT THO,,,he's almost always hanging around you, he isn't sure why he just likes being around you. you'll be working on something or reading and he'll just walk over and rest his head on your shoulder while he watches / reads along with you. (you've pushed his head away several times and told him to stop drooling all over you -for the record, he wasnt- which lead to him licking the side of your face just to spite you which lead to you two roughhousing. dw he's still careful though it's just playfighting)

-because of your feline nature you can be a little more affectionate whenever you're in the mood to be. typically you'll just either kind of. grab his hand and sort of make him pet you or if he's in his room you'll go find him and lay down with him. (at first he was confused but over time he really enjoys it. it's just kind of a reflex of his now to pet you whenever you come in and curl up against him. also you started like. kneading on him or a blanket one time and he almost cried. thinks its cute as hell but he wont say it)

-he kind of does the same thing to you but most times it's because he wants you to talk to him or something. he'll just walk in and either just kind of. awkwardly stand or sit around or he'll lay his head on your lap or something. keeps sighing really loudly until you pay attention to him lmao

-you try and knock shit over but he's always too fast to catch it. also leads to you two either playfighting or challenging the other to something to see who has faster reflexes or something

-whenever you two get together he just holds your hand a lot, its SO obvious he's liked you for like. forever though since EVERY TIME someone mentions your name or he sees you his tail starts wagging and he visibly perks up, also there was one specific time you had to leave for a mission that ended up taking forever and he was like dead weight the entire time you were gone. that r/ambien post that's just 'my wwwiwfie wife is visiting her mom and i miss her' post but its him abt u. when you got back he literally ran up to yu and picked you up, did not put you down (unless you ask him to)

-he barked at you one time because you snuck up on him late at night and you never let him live it down. he's SO mad he can't retaliate because whenever you meow at him or purr he just thinks its cute so he cant make fun of you for it >:/

#the sheriff x reader #sheriff x reader #madness combat imagines #madness combat x reader #madcom x reader #madcom imagines #sheriff my beloved (throws him at the ground) #rot writes

[jjyusmile]

to feel free [social media au] - four

your converse shuffled lazily against the tile of your apartment hall, wrist clasped in juyeon’s palm as he dragged you toward your front door. drowsy, your eyes fluttered open and closed as your head lulled from side to side.

a low chuckle came from juyeon’s direction as you stopped in front of your apartment door. strands of hair had fallen over your eyes, softly blowing up toward your forehead wasnt enough to fend them off. delicate fingers grazed against your forehead to tuck your hair behind your ears; he didn’t miss the way his heart clenched as the sight of your eyelashes fluttering against your cheeks.

“I guess this is what I get for dragging you around the city all day,” he murmured, his fingers punching in your passcode into the keypad - 980115. you thought it would be funny to make it his birthday... something you’d never forget. a shy smile fell on his lips each time... someone you’d never forget.

once the door was open, you barged passed him dramatically to fall onto the sofa. your arms flailed above your head with an exasperated sigh; sinking lower into the plushness, you were interrupted by juyeon lifting your feet up so he could sit beneath you. your feet dropped into his lap and his thumb rubbed your ankle absentmindedly after taking off your shoes.

“what do you wanna do?” you hummed in response, sleep threatening to take you away from quality best friend time.

he shook your feet, playfully. he received a groan in response. “how about... we order... noodles?”

a bellow escape his chest as you shot up immediately at the sound of your best friend offering to get noodles delivered. his hand clutches his stomach as his head fell against the back of the sofa. it was certainly a sight for sore eyes.

“okay... how about you order and i’ll go take my make up off?” you grinned cheekily, a wave shot his way without giving him time to argue.

inspecting through the mirror, you rubbed the cleanser in small circles onto your face, humming along to the tune juyeon was playing from the living room. his favourite song that could only ever be sung loudly and obnoxiously.

and i just wanna be your favourite booooooy! I wanna be the one that makes your day, the one you think about as you lie awake~

his voice like velvet as his echoed through the apartment. even when he was joking around, his voice melted your fingertips as you continued to clean your face. his voice was getting closer-

let me tell you how it feels to be fucking great.. i feel greaaaaattt

his eyes crinkled in a smile as popped around the corner of the bathroom door. you only saw his reflection, but his carefree aura radiated as he leaned against the doorframe.

You better trust me when I tell you

There ain't no one else more beautiful in this damn world

he raised his eyebrow at you as you sang along~ you’re gonna wanna be my best friend, baby.

“you’ve never called me baby before,” he questioned, eyes glistening in the playful mood he was in. your face covered in fluffy suds still made his heart race in his chest.

“who said I was talking to you?” you quipped in response. a giggle escaping as his fingers came to tickle your sides. “juyeon! ahh- my eyes, there’s soap in my eyes!!”

he laughed dramatically, taking the damp cloth out of your hands to your face as he wiped your eyes. his hand cradled the back of your neck to keep you still, your pout never shifting.

a soft boop to your nose told you he was done. “i’m still your best friend, though.”

“i guess so,” you sighed, dramatically. leaning down, you pulled a face mask out of your cabinet drawer.

“ooh! i want one- give me one!!” beaming, he was like an puppy, like a golden retriever or samoyed... whichever one bounced the most when excited.

he was already taking the sheet mask out of the pack by the time you had found another. he took it out of your hands and placed it on the side. “face me.”

your eyebrow twitched into a questioning expression but you did as he said. a cooling sensation met your skin as his fingers delicately smoothed out the edges. the rose essence calmed your mood immediately while he traced your features with his fingertips, lightly brushing out the bubbles on the edges. an abrupt absence caused you to take a peak at him, to find him waiting expectantly with the pack already open.

he was at least 6 inches taller than you, your forehead just tall enough to reach his nose. with his eyes drifted closed, the mask went on smoothly; there was barely any need to brush out the edges. but you couldn’t help it. his honey skin was too inviting, even if your mind was screaming at you that you’re being weird. he didn’t seem to mind. his eyebrows relaxed under your touch as your finger brushed against his upper lip, lightly tracing his prominent cupid’s bow; you fought back the strange urge to blow on it as a pout formed against his lips. don’t be weird, it’s juyeon...

like he sensed your inner conflict, his eyes fluttered open and poured into your own. it felt like minutes had passed before you had the confidence to look away, afraid of admitting that the tiniest ball of mush had formed in the pit of your stomach. it couldn’t be that.

you reached into his back pocket to retrieve his phone, which now barely whispered a song you recognised by frank ocean. your finger print automatically unlocked it and you searched for the camera.

“smile!” your reflection posing in the mirror, a soft but genuine smile greeting your lips; juyeon turned his body slightly and shifted to move a bit closer to you. his fringe fell on top of the mask as he leaned over your shoulder to get closer to the camera. you on the other hand... it was like blood rushing to your head, you could barely hear anything except his breath that blew gently against your jawline. does he know he‘s doing that?

your finger hit the capture button a few times, juyeon’s head tilting closer to yours each time you took each picture. his nose rested by your jawline as a candid smile formed against his lips, it was unlike anything you’d ever seen before.

lowering the phone, your head turned slowly to get a closer look. you weren’t expecting juyeon to already be gazing down at you; so when he eyes immediately poured into yours, it was like your breath was stolen for a millisecond. it happened so quickly that you questioned its sincerity. luckily for you, the doorbell rang for the food delivery.

his eyes crinkling again, he lingered for a moment, just watching your expression shift from joy to an intense look of questioning before he pecked the small tip of your nose that peaked from under the mask and ran toward the door.

what was that?

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text?! helloooooo there~ something a little different but my favourite thing to do :’)

pairing: best friend!juyeon x reader

summary: what happens when your idea of soulmates is corrupted and the fear of losing your soul places walls around your heart?

warning: none

updates: every thursday and sunday at 6pm GMT (or sooner if I feel like it)

taglist: @yeolsbubbles @localjisung @cgv-kayy ✨

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#deobiwritersnet #tbznetwork #kpopscape #to feel free #to feel free au #the boyz #tbz #tbz fluff #the boyz fluff #the boyz au #the boyz scenario #tbz juyeon fluff #juyeon au #tbz juyeon #the boyz juyeon

[bridgyrose]

Could we have more Veiled AU please?

Weiss growled in frustration, slamming the door to her dorm. “She was so rude!” 

“You did insist on trying to find her.” 

“Because I wanted to figure out what was going on and why I have two soulmates!” Weiss sighed and sat down next to Penny, leaning against her. “Maybe figure out why my vision keeps fading in and out even when I’m with you.” 

“Maybe I can talk to her.” Penny adjusted herself to pull Weiss closer. “If she’s not ready to talk soulmates with someone yet, then I could go up to her as a friend.” 

Weiss hesitated for a moment, getting a bit nervous about the idea. “Okay but… what if she figures out that… well… you know…” 

“So what if she does? You were accepting of it. No one else here seems to care.” 

“Does anyone else know besides me?” 

Penny thought for a moment. “Actually… you have a point there. Then I wont-” 

Weiss sighed and pressed into Penny. “No, if you want to talk to her, go for it. I’m just worried about you is all. You’ve told me things in confidence that if anyone else here finds out, it could make your life that much harder.” 

“I can handle myself. Besides, you’ve been supportive of me ever since.” Penny smiled and looked at a few of the pictures she had posted along her computer, a few showing her clearly as a boy when she first met Weiss. “I’m glad you were. I never would’ve made it this far without you. The least I can do is talk to this girl and see if maybe we can figure things out.” 

Weiss smiled a bit and kissed Penny. “What did I do to deserve you?” 

Penny giggled a bit. “Had an asshole of a father that wanted to marry you off for fortune.” 

“Dont remind me.” 

An alarm went off on Penny’s scroll, causing her to groan. “Right… almost forgot about that today.” 

“Your appointment, right?” 

Penny nodded and slowly got up. “I’ll see if I can talk to this Ruby girl after it. Maybe see if I can be friends with her.” 

“Alright.” Weiss slowly stood up and helped Penny up. “And please be safe on your way out.” 

“You know I will be.” 

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Ruby sighed as she walked with her cane, a bit upset her vision didnt last as long as she thought it would after finding her soulmate and knowing who it was this time. Of course it had to be one of the entitled rich brats around here. The sounds of her scroll ringing echoed through the empty halls, snapping her out of her thoughts as she answered. “Hello?” 

“Hey Rubes, how’s your first week?”

Ruby smiled a bit after hearing her sister’s familiar voice. “It’s going fine Yang. Found my dorm and classes, started working on my project again. You know, the usual stuff.” 

“Make any new friends yet?” 

“Not… exactly.” Ruby sighed and put her headphones in so she didnt have to keep her scroll in her hands the whole time. “I’ve been keeping to myself mostly.” 

“You know mom isnt going to be happy to hear that,” Yang’s voice started to sound slightly disappointed. “Will you please try to humor her and meet new people? You cant keep going through all of life without getting to know people.” 

“And I’ve told her I’m not ready to find out who my soulmate is yet.” While that wasnt a complete lie, she did happen to know who her soulmate was now. “We know that’s why mom sent me here. She’s hoping I’ll find my soulmate and be happy like she is with dad.” 

Yang was silent for a moment. “Guess you did catch onto that rather quickly, didnt you?” 

“It’s… not hard to figure out. Sending me to a “safe school” was a pretty good cover though. I almost was fooled.” 

“Just give it a chance Rubes. Mom cares about you.” 

“I know she does. But I just want to focus on myself right now. I know she thinks what I’m going through is just a phase but… I’m not sure I really want to be in a relationship with anyone right now. Coming to a new school is hard enough on me, I dont want to force myself to be with someone I’m not even sure I can be with.” 

“She could be right though. It might be a phase-” 

“Right, because you liking girls was just a phase, me not liking anyone has to be a phase too, doesnt it?” 

Yang winced a bit. “That’s… not the same. And you know it. Besides, who cares if what you’re going through ends up being a phase? That’s how we figure things out, isnt it? I thought I liked girls, dated Nora for a few months and figure out that I dont. Just give it a chance. No one is forcing you to go out and try to date the first person you meet. We just dont want to see you push everyone away and end up alone because you think you cant love anyone.” 

“I’m not in the mood for this. I’ll talk to you later. I have an appointment I need to get to anyway.” Ruby hung up on the call, still frustrated at her sister. Of everyone she had come out to, she thought Yang would be the one to understand her-

Ruby was pulled out of her thoughts after running right into someone, suddenly finding herself on the ground and staring up at the ceiling. “I’m so sorry-” 

“It’s not your fault. I was running down the halls and didnt see you there.” Penny stood up and extended her hand towards Ruby to help her up. “Do you need any help getting up?” 

“No thanks, I think I’ve got it.” Ruby picked herself up and looked at the girl with orange hair. She hesitated for a moment once she realized she was seeing again. 

Penny looked at her curiously. “Something wrong?” 

“N-no… well.. Yes… maybe?” Ruby sighed and shook her head, grabbing her cane and feigning that she still couldnt see for the moment. “Nevermind, it’s nothing. Although I think I’m going to be late for an appointment. Think you could help me find the Polendina Clinic?” 

“I’m actually headed that direction myself.” Penny hesitated for a moment before reaching for Ruby’s hand. “Would it be okay if I take your hand while guiding you? I dont want you getting lost.” 

Ruby nodded and put her cane away for a moment. “Sure. Just dont try anything funny.” 

Penny smiled a bit and took Ruby’s hand. “Dont worry, I wont. My name’s Penny by the way.” 

“Ruby. It’s nice to meet you.” Ruby smiled a bit. Maybe Yang was right and she really did just need to make a few friends.

#ruby rose #rwby ruby rose #weiss schnee #penny polendina #yang xiao long #veiled soulmate au #shippy drabbles #rwby #frosen steel #and now Ruby has confirmation on two soulmates #what kind of trouble will she get into now with this? #frostbyte #weiss x penny

[sage-nebula]

hi im sorry if someones talked abt this before but i saw ur twewy posts and like i SUPER agree and wanted to add that like. idk if fret is coded to have depression or im just projecting but i think like. once the whole Kanon Deal went down i was like... 'oh you are a RLLY big mood'... like i think canon wise its definetley grief that hes dealing with, and maybe something else idk. but i think its intresting how that was handled too— it wasnt similar to media where theyre always [1/2]

always like... dunno how to say but the way media characters tend to carry grief is similar to how rindo does in the game— which makes sense, because the wound is fresh and such. but the wound isn't fresh for fret anymore, it's more like a scar. and it's! idk where i was going with this i forgot but i think fret's writing is neat too, even though i wish it was done a bit better {which, is my take of most of ntwewy but. i like what we got tbh!!! not saying its bad like. it just could be better2/2

I see where you're coming from and I think I agree for the most part. The only tiny adjustment I'd make is that I wouldn't say Fret is suffering from depression so much as he's dealing with trauma.

Losing a loved one, especially in the way Fret did (wherein the loved one committed suicide and the one who still lives carries a certain amount of survivor's guilt over it—which Fret does, because he mentions having not been able to "do enough" despite giving all he had) is traumatizing. We often think of trauma occurring as a result of things that were done to us, such as abuse or an accident or a prisoner of war situation. But trauma can also come about as a result of losing someone very dear to you. Their deaths, especially if it's sudden and not expected, can be traumatic and can fundamentally affect you as a person. To be honest, we see this in the original game: Neku's behavior throughout the original game is a result of trauma stemming from his survivor's guilt at the death of his friend. His act of aggressively pushing other people away and shutting them out is a defense mechanism stemming from said trauma. While he and Fret handle it in different ways (Neku gets aggressive and, at times, violent, while Fret stepford smiles), both reactions are a result of grief and achieve the same end result: no one can really get close, therefore, the trauma survivor can't be hurt again.

All that said, I also really agree with you that Fret could have been handled better—namely, that we should have seen his issues come up much sooner than the back half of week 3. But there's nothing much we can do about that now, and I'm just happy that he got an arc at all, unlike some less fortunate characters. (RIP Nagi.)

#neo: the world ends with you #furesawa tosai #ntwewy spoilers #neo twewy spoilers #ntwewy #neo twewy

[idorkish]

4 AM Cuddles

A/n: Alright, this is something I wrote back in 2016 on my original idorkish blog. I couldnt find it in the mess of posts from that, so Im posting from scratch. There were only ever 2 parts written, with a 3rd in works, but there wasnt much want for that. I'll post the 2nd part up tomorrow.

Warnings: Cursing, Mentions of cheating - don't cheat peeps! if you're unhappy with your partner, talk and end things!

Prompts: • “You come to my room at 4am, to cuddle?” • “If you walk out of that door, don’t even think about coming back” • “I’m tired of being your dirty little secret”

The tower had never felt so empty and lonely. Most of the team were out on their own missions. The only ones left were you, Tony, Wanda, and Vision. The latter two were probably out on a date again. Getting up from your bed, you walked over to the window, staring out at the glittering city before you. It had been a hard night. No matter how cold you made your room, sweat stuck to your skin, forcing your hair down and sticking to your face. With a sigh, you stared back at your bed. The sheets were crumpled at the edge, half of them on the floor. The pillows were nowhere in sight – probably under the bed by now. It looked too large for you. How did your safe place come to feel like a prison?

Pushing your back against the cool window, you slumped down to the floor. The cold glass felt good against your skin. You weren’t sure how long you stayed like that before your eyelids became heavy. Knock. Knock.

Your eyes strained to open and you were still on the floor. “Come in,” you croaked out. Your throat felt dry as you tried to swallow down the small amount of saliva that formed in your mouth. A figure stood in the doorway to your room. The light from the hall cascaded across the floor, causing your arm to shoot up to cover your eyes as you hissed. “What are you doing on the floor?” the figure called out softly, slowly taking a few steps forward. “I couldn’t sleep Tony. What do you want?” Tony had a habit of checking on you in the middle of the night. His insomnia always got the better of him and he sought refuge in your room. Over the past few months, the two of you had become close. The friendship took many turns for you both. It wasn’t long before you were sneaking around behind the team’s back. No one knew. They couldn’t. Tony was still with Pepper after all. And you? Well you were still considered the newbie. You didn’t feel you had a real place yet. “C’mon kid. To the bed. We’ll… cuddle.” Tony held out his hand to you, that damn smirk on his face that you knew all too well. “You come to my room, at 4am, to cuddle?” you scoffed, ignoring his hand as you made your way back to your feet. How long could this keep going on? Yes, the sex was great. Yes, you enjoyed every moment you shared with this man. But it was hard to go on pretending that it all meant nothing. “Why are you really here Tony?” Your voice was small and unsure. Tony shuffled and gave a small shrug. “FRIDAY informed me about your trouble sleeping. Figured I would off some…assistance,” his voice drifting. “Seriously? Is that all I’m good for with you? What are we even doing Tony? You have Pepper!” What were you doing and how did you ever let it get this far? Tony had always been charming. When you started working with the Avengers, the two of you would constantly flirt. It was harmless. You flirted with everyone on the team. Everything was moving along smoothly and you were finding your place on the team. Everything was normal until a particularly hard mission. It was supposed to be easy – gather intel. Nothing is ever easy. You had infiltrated the base but found a small child in one of the labs. You went against your orders and turned this into a rescue mission. You had barely made it out with the child in your arms. Tony had to drag you both into the quinjet, but you had done it. You got the intel and the child was safe. Once back, the whole team laid into you about your decision. No matter how many times you tried to explain yourself, it seemed no one was happy. You saved a child – they only saw disobedience. Tony was the only one to back you up, and for that you were grateful. After the debriefing, Tony helped you back to your room and out of your armor. Tony stayed with you until you were done showering and redressed. Tucking you under your sheets, he promised to throw a party to take your mind off the latest mission and to get everyone in a better mood. You awoke late the next day. Everything was still normal. The team was gathered in the common area, paper balls and jokes being thrown around while everyone laughed.

#tony stark x reader #avengers imagine #tony stark #hank mccoy x reader #xmen imagine #4am cuddles

[likeadevils]

uh well there’s gansey (?) and adam (I am only certain about this bc of this post and I’m pretty sure gansey and adam are from the same series) and blue? blue might be from that book with blue in the name though. there’s another boy with a very british name though (willam or something) cause I think it’s like four dudes and one girl.

yes! 4 dudes + 1 girl. gansey, adam, blue are all there, but blue is in all 4 books, it's just the 3rd book that has the word blue in its name. and it's kinda blue-centric so you got the vibe! the 3rd boy is ronan (so irish) and the 4th boy is noah!

and uhhhh I get it mixed up with foxhole court a lot??

soo valid because get this: the 4th book in trc is called "the raven king" which is also the name of the 2nd book in "all for the game" (book #1 is "foxhole court").

But I’m pretty sure the raven cycle is modern day? it might be about immortals? or gods? this the one about resurrecting some king? I’ve been told it’s among the heroes of olympus school of like, good characters but badly thought out plot.

yes, modern day is right! and yes, it's about finding and waking up a dead welsh king. i'm kinda biased about the plot because while i agree that it's not very Structured i really vibe with it so i personally would not call it Bad. but also i'm mostly into the characters, themes and writing style hehe

I think people ship adam with gansey. i am certain that whoever they ship adam with, the fandom is invested in their relationship more than the main character, who I’m pretty sure is blue. that might be because the boys just have more character to invest in but it might just be misogyny, I truly have no idea.

i think most people ardently ship adam with ronan, they have a whole r-ship going on, but gansey x adam is a very popular ship too, but usually simultaneously going with ronan x adam. blue is technically the main character but in the sense that it's an ensemble cast, pretty much equal focus on the gangsey (yes that's the fandom name for it), with their families and other characters being supporting. the best ppl in the fandom are those who know ships are pointless because they are literally all 1 big queer polycule 👍 they're all very much in love with each other it's a running theme in the books!!

im pretty sure it came out like 2015-2018, it’s part of that post dystopian ya craze that focused on fantasy and morally gray main characters. i think the boys are homeless or at least low class. Idk

came out in 2012-2016 and idk about that second part bc i wasnt around in that time but that makes a lot of sense! no they're not homeless (except adam for some time) or low class (except adam and blue) because the other 3 are all Very Rich... trust fund rich so yes balances them out lol (the class differences informs a lot of the dynamics too, esp b/w adam and gansey)

I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF NOAH IN MY LIFE also im so sorry for calling an irish person british I will make up for it by ronan being my favorite character now (unless i really don’t like him)

thats literally so funny of the authors there’s already so much The Animal Fantasy Title books and I feel like this is an snl skitch in real life

I have literally only pieced together this plot through aesthetic mood boards I am very excited to have something about it conformed and also now I feel like reading it

the literal first thing I thought when you brought up the second ship was like. oh this is some good poly material. love a good everyone just loves and supports each other in different ways vibe

the only reason I thought there was a homeless plot line is because most of the mood boards had like, abandoned buildings and people walking places and a general wanderlust-but-sad-about-it vibes. also bro you really know how to sell me on a book

#asks* #poetrusic #thank you so much for taking the time to do this holy shit

[angelic-jeonghan1004]

Golden Child Reaction To Their S/O Being More Clingy Than Usual || PT.1

This was requested :) I have many Golden Child Requests I'm getting to, so @ my Goldenness please be excited :)) also the Jangjun one is so long I don't know what came over me but my inner Jangjun love came out, some of these aren't always the best at doing the more clingy than usual vibe like I kinda used that as a guide and went with it or just used the word clingy and go with it since I previously have done this with Onewe and I don't want to repeat the same story's for ppl💖 as I post this I'm working on the part two so expect that very soon !! (Probably next few days)

Genre: Fluff

Gif credits to rightful owners 💫

Daeyeol

Okay so Daeyeol big friendly giant boyfriend and I think he'd be absolutely whipped for you

He'd always be the one to start any form of affection

You both where sitting on the couch and he was telling you about something Jangjun did to prank him

But you really wanted to kiss him since he kept pouting jokingly when explaining the situation to be extra

So when you stopping him from completing his sentence by asking if you could kiss him

He'd just go blank

It's not like you haven't kissed before but he always was the one to initiate it so your boldness caught him by surprise

He'd nod

But truly Daeyeol.exe has a network malfunction right there

After planting a quick kiss to his lips he would not stop smiling, completely forgetting what he was talking about

He adjusted how he was sitting on the couch

More so in a laying down position rather than sitting

You took it as a opportunity to cuddle

Daeyeol was not ready for the amount of times his heart was just going to do backflips from the simplest of actions

You don't know what came over you in this burst of affection and neither did Daeyeol but he wanted it to continue for as long as possible

Sungyoon

Bunny boyYYYYy I love YouUuUUU

I 100% believe he loves giving you kisses

Just planting so many all over your face

Since he just wants to shower his bb with all the love ??

Because of this you wanted to try a counter attack

You like initiating skinship but initiating kisses? Now that has you intimidated

Which is why Sungyoon will plant many kisses on your face and initiate kisses since if he doesn't there non existent

Now back to your counter attack

He was doing his usual of kissing your face starting from your forhead to the tip of your nose

when he got to your cheek, you quickly turned so you would plant a sweet kiss to his lips

Woop, woop we have another boy who's now not working since Sungyoon.exe is out of order and that's on your sudden affection

Once he'd processed it his smile would be so big his nose scrunched :))

Taking this as another opportunity you planted a kiss to his cheek and he'd be living for it

It's not usual to get kisses from you so he'd be incredibly dazed with love

"you know I love you, can I have another kiss?" He'd say looking at you with hopeful eyes

Cupping his face you kissed him

Very nice and sweet moment you wouldn't trade for the world

"I love you too"

God forbid me of living he's so precious

Jangjun

Okay now this crackhead loves affection and especially your affection

You make a act that you hate it but you truly love it

But Jangjun doesn't know that

He just thinks you aren't that affectionate but he special since he's the bf (( ꈍᴗꈍ))

You could tell he thought that way too

And you wondered how long you could keep that going

Since who doesn't love a little acting challenge game?

He'd always do aegyo till you agreed to hold his hand, kiss him, cuddle, anything

Earning a eye roll from you on occasions but always giving in which he loved

Since he thought even if you don't like affection you'll always accept his

Even if he has to fight for it a little you'll always give it to him which has him happiest boy ( ＾ω＾)

Going good for a while until the upcoming day

You got caught on being the affectionate person you are because of your soft spot for Joochan

Joochan wanted to go to the convenient store to fill the dorms kitchen with snacks since they where running low but didn't want to go alone

But everyone wasnt in the mood so you stepped up to the plate and did so

causing a smile on Jangjun's face to see you care for his members

But then he caught you red handed when you not Joochan, but you put out your hand for Joochan to hold as you both speed out the door laughing

He was taken aback

He thought he was the special bf that was the one to only get your affection even if he had to fight for it (｡•́︿•̀｡)

See when you got back you where not ready for the dramatic self that is Jangjun

"So you like holding hands with Joochan but not me" he said lifting his chin looking in the opposite direction of you

You couldn't help but burst into laughter

"Hey! It's not funny, I have to do aegyo and be cute to get you to hold my hand which you eye roll at just the aegyo but he gets a full on free pass? This doesn't add up since I am your LOVELY AND AFFECTIONATE boyfriend."

At this point you where wheezing

After collecting yourself you walked up to Jangjun and he gave you a sigh waiting for a good explanation

Since why??? was his non affectionate s/o letting Joochan hold their hand with no effort??? but he gotta do his little cute blinking repeatedly while pouting for it???

But you just wrapped your arms around his waist catching him by surprise

"I really like your affection Jangjun."

With that Jangjun heart has gone all mushy even if he wants to keep going about being extra he cannot anymore

You made him so soft :((

He is just (｡ŏ﹏ŏ) ready to give you the world asap

You looked up at him and smiled

"hey look at me." You said with a little laugh he quickly looked down and realized the small space between the two of your faces

You planted a quick peck to his lips and boy was his heart all yours

Now knowing your affectionate he's not gonna let that go btw since now he knows you love his affection just as much as he loves yours

Youngtaek

Beep beep another big cuddly giant boyfriend again

He's just a big dork and will give the world to hold you in his arms

You usually would decline his efforts to cuddle you or show skin ship

But then he'd give you those big puppy eyes and look so sad

Not even meaning too he just loves showering you in affection

It's not that you didn't like it you just got shy

Wether that be scared if he'd like it

which he totally would like it since why would he be giving you such doe eyes and requesting for it if not

You'd get especially shy if it was near the boys since pda just had you scared of judgement

Or for him to have to be in a uncomfortable position cuddling/have the everyone tease him

But with the look he had you didn't care about any judgement others had so you'd always go along with the display of affection

Other than his trys of affection you won't be caught initiating it ever

Even if you wanted to your small fears held you back

But then today happened

He decided to sleep at your house instead of the dorms since he missed your presence

You'd never tell him this but you love kissing him

He has such plush lips how could you not?

Pampering his face with kisses is something you always wanted to do since he's just so precious

You woke up before him and turned to see him sound asleep

Since you wouldn't have to face embarrassment

You leaned over planting may small kisses to his face

He wasn't ready but was very happy to wakeup to you kissed every square inch of his face

He'd keep his eyes close pretending to be asleep but would purposefully wrap his arm around your waist and pull you closer

"why don't you do this all the time, I'd sell everything for your affection why are you giving me all the kisses I could ask for and more when I'm asleeeeep do it when I'm awakeeee" whine evident in his voice

Your face would be incredibly red but you'd laugh

Planting one more kiss to his nose you settled back down and barrier your face in his chest

"I'll try but don't expect too much of me." Maybe you could get over your inner fears for him

"Promise me?" Of course he'd have to give you his puppy dog eyes

"okay I'll promise to" nuzzling your face into his chest even more from pure embarrassment

This is notably probably Youngtaek's favorite day now

Since who wouldn't love waking up to kisses from the love of your life?

Seungmin

Seungmin was having a rough day

Trying to keep up with everything was just a hassle and it just really wasn't his day

He texted you to see if you'd be willing to come to the dorms which thankfully you where free so you said yes

When you arrived you could tell something was off in his mood

Usually not being a affectionate person you put that to the side

You'd be willing to cuddle or hold hands anytime it just wasn't your priority do Seungmin would have to push for it usually

You walked up to Seungmin who was being mopy sitting up on his bed

You crawled to be right next to him and into his arms in which you kissed his cheek before asking what was wrong

Seungmin couldn't help the smile that came to his face from your signs of affection since he knows you don't go out and do it

So when you took the time to get into his arms and kiss him

He couldn't help but have his mood become better

After explain it was just a off day you snuggled farther into him

He didn't know that such a precious person could exist and that he was dating them

You'd fallen asleep like that and he said a small thank you for being affectionate with him even if its not your usual

He said while you where asleep since he felt a little shy to thank you when awake and you'd brush it off anyway just saying it's the best thing to do

Which you aren't wrong

Part 2

#golden child x reader #golden child imagines #golden child #golden child scenarios #gncd scenarios #gncd #daeyeol x reader #golden child daeyeol #sungyoon x reader #goldenchild sungyoon #golden child jangjun #jangjun x reader #Youngtaek x reader #golden child tag #seungmin x reader #golden child seungmin #Seungmin scenarios #Youngtaek scenarios #daeyeol scenarios #sungyoon scenarios #jangjun scenarios #daeyeol imagine #sungyoon imagine #jangjun imagine #Seungmin imagine #Youngtaek imagine #joochan x reader #jaehyun x reader #Jibeom x reader #bomin x reader

[olde-scratch]

So I watched LUCIDS 1-4 without any prior knowledge...

and here were my thoughts. I didn’t watch any backstory or anything so enjoy my suffering.

PART 1

“So what happens when the people inside of their dreams go to sleep?” They die

“What happens when we wake up? Do they go on living while we’re not there?” THEY DIE-

“Who are they anyway?” they’re faces that our brain catalogs and stores for later use, although it’s also arguable that every time we dream we go to an alternate reality and inhabit the body of another version of ourselves. Now, were you in a car accident and trapped underwater or-

Are they twins?

(Me tuning out to do something)

“-the squirrel in spongebob was your soulmate, making you a Sandy simp-”

Me, snapping back to the video: hold up-

[missed the part about the worksheet, realized it when i rewatched 10 mins later to make this post]

yall speakin gibberish idk what youre saying-

“I’m gonna go to bed.” bro it literally looks like morning-

“You should get some sleep you look terrible.” i get six hours of sleep a night minimum and i look worse than him shut up bro-

“jump into someone else’s dream” ah i know this con-

why they all got the same face-

haha funni meme

“--an interruptiion can create feedback and tear them apart.” Death. I long for thee.

Is that Karl Jacob’s jacket?

“a second grader” makes me think this is a different school system. [i was wrong? i think?]

“[get him to] eat your apple”

[in the dream sequence] weird dream, but ive had weirder. now, Why Pamper’s-

why does he suddenly have a knife-

“You put a filter on the Dreamscape feed?”

“Technically, you are seven years old.”

???????????

the second hand embarrassment is UGGGHHH

[reading the description] you mean like the guy who was knocked out for 2 minutes on a football field and woke to find he’d dreamt 17 years of his life? oh this shall be Fun

PART 2

[I check the description] “jasper cult” what the fu-

how many camp camp references can i make during this

Is the apple a reference to religion or does the creator just really ilke apples?

“meal.”

“meal?”

meal????

Wait why couldn’t that guy eat the apple? If he wanted it in the fruit bowl, wouldn’t there be a chance of the guy eating it anyways?? Why can’t the guy who brought the apple eat it?

well he’s Dead

[debating if I should read the backstory}

n a h h h h h -

Was he gonna feed the dead guy the apple or something? Why is he upset about the apple in this scene???

oooo the grownups are fightinnnngggg

Is he an antagonist?

HE WROTE A BOOK???

oh now i want food

ESTABLISH JUSTICE ENSURE DOMESTIC TRANQUILITYYYYYYYYYYYYY

“I watched all those aforementioned shows” what shows did i miss something what-

man why you gotta hate on her jane austen fanfic let her live bro

string theory! i can get behind that! sorta-

o no he found the memes-

BOY GOT KNOCKED OUT-

kim there’s people that are dying-

is SHE an antagonist?

quinn? calling himself jasper? u sure hes not just nonbinary? is this just a metaphor for transphobic parenting?

“He died... but somewhere, he grew up.” So is your plan to take a Quinn from a different universe and make him your own, thereby robbing another version of yourself from happiness? When does this ever go well?

Yknow most people, when they lose a kid,,,, kinda,,,,,,, dont go on a ceaseless quest to find another version of their kid that grew up without knowing that another version of his mother was invading other peoples’ dreams to find and kidnap him,,,,,,,, like aint u got a therapist-

“Once you get past the point of not knowing what’s real anymore, you realize it doesn’t matter.” Well, I Got Called Out-

PART 3

“you’re real, oliver.”

aRe yOu sUrE aBoUt tHaT-

“you’ve been infected by the anti-love parasite of Mandadon” the amatonormativity is strong

so anyways ive been infected since birth hbu-

“James Jasperson, creator of Japple” did you mean to Fancy Well-Educated Man in a Black Turtleneck? cause the only FWEMBT i allow near me is prof. hidgens

“are you winning?” says the capitalist

why did you rewind to see his face?? you have the same face????? is this just bc the creator doesnt like working with other people cause in that case same but???????

“it’s a bad idea. i’m not gonna do it.” we’ve all been there. and we’ve all done it.

looks like me trying to study. (i say, a person who has studied a total of five minutes throughout their entire life.)

your “Spartan trial” looks like a bunch of guys standing on a hill pretending to be something they’re not. Let The Man Bring His Snacks.

eat the apple.

is this your first existential crisis or something what a loser lets all point and laugh

“One of you should be spared, the other shall’nt.” did you mean shant or was that a choice-

yall gonna get called out for talking shut UP

“sorry if this is too personal, btw. are you okay?”

me, confused and half understanding what’s going on and also needing to sleep cause its almost one in the morning but wanting to finish what i can find of lucids which i only starting watching cause i saw an animatic of ranboo and dream w audio from it: i don’t know anymore

“i just want my life back... i was gonna get married-” AREN’T YOU LIKE SEVEN-

ay man if this is a sacrificial cult yall gotta get daniel-

UPDATE: I  H A V E  N O T  F O U N D  I T -

“oliver”

I  F O U N D   I  T -

WHICH ONE IS QUINN?? WHO’S JASPER???? WHICH ONE IS BENJAMIN???? I THOUGH BENJAMIN WAS SEVEN BUT I THOUGHT HE WAS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED WHAT-

oliver. eat the apple.

“Can you still have memories even when you’re dreaming?” One time I woke up to my alarm and fell back asleep and in my dream I remembered that I had class in a few minutes and my dream self woke my real self up so fast I thought I was gonna get whiplash. Anyways, I was late to class bc of my computer but that doesn’t matter.

NOPE I FOUND IT. HERE’S THE AUDIO. THE ANIMATIC ONE. FINALLY.

im thinking car crash. but also maybe murder. but also maybe both? is it raining or was he drowning? is he in a coma? hmmmmmm?

wait olivers the one with the apple does that mean he’s the one dreaming? is the ending gonna be him and jasper (quinn? idk) fighting against ben and mrs hills about jasper eating the apple to save oliver from the dream? hmmmmmmmmmm-

waitwaitwait i thought oliver was 7 how is benjamin 7 years younger than him if they look the same age what what what explain america explain what you mean arkansaw-

are the cuts on his nose plot-relevant or

“What if you hadn’t been driving?” So I was right about the car accident but Mrs. Hills still said he was seven so did i mishear her say that BENJAMIN was seven? but even then oliver would be 14 and that would still be illegal-

“How are you feeling?”

“Like you’re a pretty bad therapist.”

mood

“--it makes it all bearable to have power over the stories we write in our heads” that’s why i write fanfiction

HE’S GOT THE NOTEBOOK HE’S GONNA WRITE SOMETHING ONE OF US ONE OF US ONE OF US

WHAT YOU MEAN AN EXPERIMENT THAT’S HIS NAME-

[upon reading the description] so i was right.

wait was that supposed to be the twist in part 2 about the apple in his pocket is that what the existential crisis was about i thought it was because he was introduced to the multiple worlds theory-

PART 4

wait wasnt the other one january 2018 why we going back to 2017-

appol

“--the future and the past all already exist” mhm yep figured this out long ago

there was simultaneously a point in time in which i hadn’t known about this, had been looking it up, had been watching it, and had been writing an ending to this post, and had been posting it the next morning before class. that time is both now and not now. Welcome To The Multiverse Theory or whatever its called-

“--my favorite scene of the movie is waking up next to you.” Mine is eating fast food as I listen to AJJ and play Minecraft. We are not the same.

Now I’m hungry but it’s 1 in the morning and i already put my retainer in god fu-

[reading description] what do you mean previously??? she did that in the first episode????????

[still on description] WHAT DO YOU MEAN WILL QUINN BITE THE APPLE AND GO TO BENJAMINS REALITY ISNT THIS OLIVERS REALITY AND HE HAS TO GET BEN TO BITE THE APPLE WHY IS APPLE CAPITALIZED IS THIS THE DOING OF THE FWEMBT

i should have watched the backstory i should have watched the backstory i should have watched the backstory i should have wa-

[description] oh ive been spelling quinn right the whole time nice

i hope she rejects you /j

WAIT BENJAMIN WAS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED TO ISABELLE

ISNT HE IN SECOND GRADE-

HE IS SEVEN YEARS OLD HOW IS HE GETTING MARRIED ARE THERE TWO BENJAMINS THAT WE’RE FOCUSING ON-

bro get out of the road ull get hit

how do you knOW WHICH ONE IS QUINN THEY ARE THE SAME PERSON-

so

wait

hills wants ben to feed quinn the apple bc in his mind, that will give hills and quinn a happy ending and she doesnt want ben to see the apple bc thats gonna mean ben will know that his reality isnt reality at all. so then oliver has to,,,, not let anyone eat his apple? he just has to wake up?

IS HILLS THE VILLAIN AFTER ALL ORRRRR

wait but if ben sees the apple wont he realize that his reality is wrong and his reality will change, making it so that hills doesnt get her son? or is there some time-based rule that says they’re only transported to the reality that the person believes at that moment? or is this another stab at the multiverse thing where an infinite amount of hills gets their happy endings while an infinite amount of hills doesnt and etc etc?

i should have watched the ba-

oooo dramatique

they’re in a time loop?

nope thats a new powerpoint

wait so theyre,,,, no-

wait-

nvm-

IS THE BEN WE KNOW AN ADULT GETTING MARRIED TO ISABELLE OR NOT-

“they were actually pretty nice” didnt they throw someone off a cliff-

oh so it got confusing THEN??? NOT BEFORE?????

“it all seemed so real.” is that Not the point of vivid REM sleep hallucinations-

is oliver gonna show ben the apple and ruin hills’ whole operation

WHO ARE ALEX AND RYAN-

“what’s 25-8″ bro dont do this to me-

yep hes gonna show the apple

ayyy the guy who stole karl jacobs jacket it back

the second hand embarrassment is back and I Hate It

all that happens in episode ONE??? bro get some better writers that is bad pacing

“it’s the best!” wait until season eight. no show has a good season eight.

quinn knows about the apple thing w the dreams and multiverse and realities dont he

YOU KILLED HIM

NOT KARL JACOBS NOOOOO HES ALREADY DIED ONCE

oliver is v relatable

wHaT iN tArNaTiOn-

lemme hear that explanaton again-

is bill cipher gonna show up? i hope bill cipher shows up. i miss gravity falls

“ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!” moooooooood

did hills murder quinn

is your family the jasper cult

TOXXIICCCCCC get that lady out of your life quinn that is so toxic

“ ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!  ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!” mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT’S THE END NO WHAT WHY NO

The Adventures of Benjamin and Oliver

he is Not Good

ope-

wait so ben is equal parts an adult AND a child?? okay that clears a lot up

I MEAN HE WAS RIGHT THO BEN U CAN’T REALLY ARGUE ON THAT-

ew get off the floor

butterfly effect, multiverse theory, memory decay, and your imagination ALL exist yall gonna ignore that cause you wanna be famous?

“We already know what the future looks like!”

aRe yOu sUrE aBoUt tHaT-

to add to the list of bad things: Cats (2019)

YA BOI THINKS IT’S NOT ALREADY FIFTY YEARS TOO LATE TO START FIGHTING CLIMATE CHANGE FFFFF

BINGO BABYYYY

get what what

what mapped-

awwwww he thinks THEY’RE creating the multiverse

you gonna dismiss the multiverse theory bc of something you created in your current reality? loooserrrrrr

ABUSE YOUR GODLIKE POWERS

she draggin that seven year old

a lot makes sense now why didnt i do this first-

Jasper

the food shortages-

bro that calculators like 90 bucks at walmart

imagine meeting a stranger and they know Everything about your life like that’s gotta be so weird

what’s even weirder is them telling you you’re the deity of a cult that sacrifices animals

THAT FOURTH WALL BREAK WAS-

KARL JACOBS IS DEAD NOOOOOO

ooohhh there’s context for that

OOOOHHHH THERE’S CONTEXT FOR THIS TOOOO

w h a t -

w  h  a  t  -

W   H   A   T   -

Conclusion:

it’s 2 in the morning and i need sleep but hOOOOO MY GODS THAT WAS GOOD IS IT OVER OR NOT IDK ANYMORE IM TIRED THAT WAS CRAZY I HOPE QUINN AND JASPER GO ON TO BE VERY GOOD FRIENDS, AND I HOPE BENJAMIN AND OLIVER STAY VERY GOOD FRIENDS AND I HOPE HILLS FINDS A THERAPIST WAS A LITTLE CONFUSING BUT I ENJOYED IT

if i dream about apples im suing /j /lh

#lucids #nicholas podany #there's a metaphor in there somewhere #but im not gonna be the one to find it #i dont think i dreamed about apples #youre safe for now podany #for now #EDIT #I PUT 'something their not' #WRONG THERE #I HAVE NO EXCUSE #IM SORRY

[fallout-drabbles-n-stuff]

how about companions (+sturges) reacting to a sole who gets injured? :))

(Love that you requested to add sturges, hope you enjoy!)

Cait:

"Ya just had to go off and act the fool eh? What did I tell ye about that? Did you want to become super mutant puppy chow?"

Though she may sound rough at first, it comes from a place of true concern. Damn those green skinned freaks, especially their hounds. Had you just been a second quicker with your trigger finger, maybe you wouldn’t have the perfect outline of a mutant hound’s teeth imprinted into your thigh. It didn’t matter now though, no, what mattered to her now was making sure to get you some place safe enough for her to pour out her trusty flask of whisky onto your wounds and duct tape it up.

It would have to do for now..

Curie:

"Oh mon dieu..well, at least this is what I specialize in madame/monsieur."

Honestly this is best case scenario! She is equipped with a vast medical knowledge and proper instruments so..be it a simple scrape or broken bones, she’ll have you feeling like new!

Danse:

"Listen to me soldier, I need you to remain perfectly still for me. I know it hurts but just..stay calm."

In your line of work, getting messed up was well..let’s just say it’s an occupational hazard. Danse knew this quite well, but it still didn’t stop him from paling when he realized just how beat up you were after a straggler ghoul threw itself at you.

Once the firefight was done and he could properly asses you, he’d suck in a sharp breath, hesitantly stripping any necessary layers before doing his next to put into action what little field medicine he could remember from boot camp.

Probably not as good as going to a doctor...but he made it to where you wouldn’t bleed out.

Deacon:

"Oh..does your arm usually resemble jelly? I'm ju- just playing, oh..oh god."

Like always, deacon would use his humor as his go to..even when he felt like he was going to throw up when he heard the sick “crack” of your arm as you fell right down on it.

Whenever you got back to hq, he’d be certain to bug Carrington and Tinker Tom until you were feeling better.

Gage:

"I'll give ya a reason to cry if you don't shush it boss...now, do you need me to carry you back?"

Running around in Dry Rock Gulch probably wasnt the best idea you ever had, especially becoming apparent when you took a hard fall after tripping over one of the cut out props. No big deal right? Wrong. The minute you tried to stand you found yourself yelping in pain as a hot stinging sensation seized your ankle.

Rolling his eyes, Gage initially thought you were just being over dramatic but he soon realized he was wrong when he saw how much your ankle began to swell. He’d feel pretty bad for being so rough with you but he’d make up for it, making good on his word by literally carrying you piggy back style to properly address your injuries within the comfort of your “home” in fizztop.

Hancock:

"Now that doesn't look too good. Uh..here just sit down right there and wait. Mmh, now would you like to hit that jet I was offering? Too soon? Sorry..."

Fights and the resulting injuries were not something he ever backed down from. Lord knows he isn’t the squeamish type. That’s probably why you were just as surprised as him when his eyes went wide and he had to take a couple steps back..that is until you looked down and saw the rather deep gash into your mid section..heh, must be the shock keeping you from feeling it.

Regardless he would actually be flipping out, trying to play it cool by offering the chems when really he was having a meltdown on the inside.

Macready:

"Just hold still boss and..try not to look?"

He physically grimaced when he heard your body “plop” forcefully into the wall, the raider responsible for the force soon finding themselves without a jaw as you pulled the trigger against their chin with your own pained scream.

However it was when you helplessly whimpered, your arm hanging unnaturally at your side..he knew he had to help. As such, he’s seen this before thankfully, so he’d put you up against the wall before roughly putting your shoulder back in it’s place....desperately trying to not flinch when he heard your cries.

Damn.

Maxson:

"Sentinel? Oh..oh crap...Well don't just stand there, Knight! Someone go get Captain Cade immediately!"

Everything has seemed just fine. For purely official reasons, you were giving him a run down report of the recent mission, ignoring the less than subtle way his eyes lingered on the blossoming purple hue on your head during the entire time. The vertibird ride back up to the prydwen was awful..during the fight with the “muties” you lead your team through, one managed to hit you hard enough to shatter the glass visor on your helmet. Sure it hurt, there wasn’t anyway it wouldn’t..expect this injury was unique because well...for one you heard church bells in your head and could barely form an intelligible sentence without saying “uuuhhh” or pausing.

However even Arthur couldn’t help but break his professional exterior when his precious high ranking officer crumpled down to their knees right in front of him, your team hurriedly scrambling to get you up to the bay clinic, Elder Maxson right there beside you.

Nick:

"Wow..um, this would be a whole lot easier if you were made of steel and bolts. Never mind that, just hold tight, I'll have Ellie send for doctor Sun."

True to his word, he’d send his nice secretary out to fetch the doctor, taking matters into his own hands when he deemed it was taking too long. With a soft sigh he’d try to hide what little annoyance he felt..damnit he told you to be more careful..no matter what though he couldn’t stay too mad. So with a concentrated gaze, he’d carefully tend to your wounds- making Doctor Sun quite pissed when he finally reached the agency.

Old Longfellow:

"Told ya so....seriously though, you've got to be more careful cap'n. Now, bottoms up."

Had you done anything else he might’ve felt a little bad for laughing as hard as he did. He told you to be careful, you swinging that hammer around so carelessly. Just like he expected, you may have gotten a little too overzealous when you nailed down the board’s frame together, not moving your thumb out of the way before BAM!

With a pouty scoff you’d admit that yes, he was right, and after a smug smirk he’d pour you a nice stiff drink to full the pain.

Piper:

"Oh damnit, you uh..you're looking a little weird there. Hey, why don't we just sit down hm?"

If anyone would’ve gotten word of it, they would’ve thought it was hilarious. “The big, bad, fearsome sole survivor! Faints from stubbing their toe.” That would be one hell of an article, people around the commonwealth would eat it up. She wouldn’t dare do that to you though..no matter how silly it was. I mean, she’s seen you get shot and not break so much as a sweat but....you literally crumpled when you stubbed your baby toe?

After she got over the shameful laughter she tried desperately to keep in, she’d scramble to go pick you back up-leaving you to wonder why and how you ended up in piper’s bed back at the “publick occurrence”.

Preston:

"General, I mean, (y/n)..is there anything I can do for you? Name it and I'll do it."

He knew something was terrible wrong when you can stumbling back to the castle, your right arm clutching the left with a terrible pained expression on your face. After further investigation and your sheepish confession of just what had happened..he felt god awful.

If only he had been there to help you.

Nonetheless he’d make up for it now. His first mode of action was to personally escort you to get you looked at, after that he’d be there at your every beck and call.

Sturges:

"This is sorta what I meant when I told you people weren't as easy to fix...heh, not funny. Don't worry, I'll make sure to take care of ya."

It was a miracle you were even able to make it back to Sanctuary..well, it was a miracle and Preston’s assistance to be exact. As much as it pissed you off, instead of such a grave injury being because of some grand battle, you stupid power armor malfunctioned. One minute you were walking around, testing out the new modifications you made to the leg structures until next thing you know, your left leg’s frame failed and seized up. Usually such a thing wouldn’t have been a problem but, you were still walking when it did

With a sickening *snap* you felt such great pain that the ground beneath you began to sway, suddenly finding yourself unable to move without screaming.

Just as you felt you were going to lose all consciousness, Preston himself pried you from your armor and carried you back home where you were immediately posted up with a certain someone at your side.

Sturges, oh sweet, sweet Sturges.

Despite what many would assume, he’s pretty damn good at catering to you. Even if you practically shooed him away at times, he’d be right there to do his best to help you rewrap your bandages and lighten the mood some. Heck, he’ll even find someway to fix you up some crutches and a wheelchair for easier transportation.

X6-88:

"Just relax ma'am/sir, I'll be certain to have you properly tended to shortly."

In the wasteland it was painfully common to end up being shot. Matter of fact, it’s somewhat of a “christening” of the commonwealth. Well maybe not, either way it was just a way of life at this point.

So it wasn’t exactly shock inducing whenever X6 saw your bleeding shoulder, however he was still damn concerned. As such, he ever so calmly removed your jacket while you weren’t paying attention- receiving a startled gasp in return..as well as a pained grimace that made him flinch. With a sigh he’d shake his head, reassuring you before looking up and requesting teleportation back to the institue where he’d personally escort you to the nearest medical personnel.

#fallout 4 #paladin danse #sturges #elder maxson #cait #piper wright #gage #poter gage #curie #old longfellow #preston #x688 #hancock #deacon #macready #nick valentine

[cbloodmarch]

This is my first post, and its a rant post. I hope if anybody sees this they can relate to it and no feel alone, or maybe offer advice.

I just started college. Not only was that a big milestone but I just moved to a new state. Im a girl from a small town (and I mean small, I graduated with 40 people) in California. I moved across the country without looking behind. Goodbye family and goodbye friends. Going to college is overwhelming as it is, but its only welcome week and I've seemed to have cried every day.

I've never felt so alone until now. I wasnt even well liked at my high school and only had one friend, so its not too different here starting with knowing no one. All I wanted growing up was to move from that small town in the middle of the mountains. But now that I have id do anything to go back. Whenever someone brings up where I'm from I almost immediately get thrown into a panic and I just miss it so much and I havent even been here for a week.

Having a roomate isn't helping much. She's from here and im not. She has all her friends that graduated with her, her home is here while mine is in California. Being in an extremely small room with someone else I dont really know makes it all feel worse. She doesn't want to know me, she doesn't want me to know her. It all makes this huge campus seem a lot bigger, like id never see the other side.

I long so much for people to like me. I meet people and hang out with them at events, exchange numbers etc. But they don't feel like friends. These appearant new friends that im making have forgotten about me. I've been left to walk to my dorm at night, to be catcalled on the way when all I want to do is sit down and cry. Everyone already has their group of friends. They came with people they've known since they were kids, they sat next to them at graduation, they've eaten at the same table together. I know no one here. Funny thing though, when I tell people im from California they get real mean after. In my desperation for belonging and a family, people I can love, I decided to rush for a sorority. Its a very weird thing to do, especially for me. I'm the stereotypical goth girl trying to be in something thats so stereotypical of the opposite of me. I think I've been doing well. The girls are nice so far, but I haven't clicked with anyone. When looking at the houses on greek row im the only one not talking with someone.

I'm scared, im confused, and im alone.

I tried telling someone this, putting it lighter and saying I was homesick but they just put it off as stupid. Im a little more than homesick. My experience so far has only led me to question why im here. Should I have stayed in california? Should I have gone to UCLA or USC? I got into both but I just fell in love with this campus I couldn't just walk away from it. Am I being overdramatic? Should I not pursue to dream career? It's all getting so much harder to cope.

I just want to go home, but I can't. I am stuck here in a state that is so different from my own. In a state that holds none of my family, none of my friends, nor does it hold the pets I grew up with who ha e gone through everything with me.

I stare out into the blackening sky knowing that my dad, my grandma, or anyone else I know is also under it. I really hope it gets better from here, cause I don't want to feel like this for the rest of my time here

To anyone that may read this, im sorry its all over the place I'm writing this at night while in a mood :/

#rant #college #i feel lonely #i fucking hate it here

[wcamino-confessions]

the goop-pyro situation explained

[ hii, mod. ii hope youre ok. ] [ ii = i ] ii deciided to make a post telliing how ii see thiings wiith the goop-pyro siituatiion and attemptiing to make iit easy to access / understand to those who dont want to read 400+ notes. iive read all the notes on goops vent/callout ask and pyros screenshots as the tiime beiing (8:23 brt); and ii wiill try to not take any siides for now. but, you can read my opiiniion too iif you wiish. iill place iit here too.

notes: ii use he/hiim and zey/zem/zeiir/zemself, iif you want to refer to me on the notes. goop = monster/M0N.STERR = liin, uses he/hiim. pyro uses he/hiim willyoucomewithme uses they/them iif thiis people use any other pronouns, ii apologiize for not liistiing them, and iill ensure to use them on the future. my poiint of viiew can be iidentiifiied when ii use my typiing style, and iit wiil also be placed [liike thiis].

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1. goops callout post "hi yall! today, i got my feelings invalidated by the one and only PYRO!! the one who leads the tam chats!! he and some of his mods decided to create troll accounts to raid TAM!! he didn't tell some mods from what i saw, and made a mod deal with their bullshit!! they also tried to sell stolen art!! then, i left the casual chat because one of the mods admitted to trolling (they tried to say it wasn't them earlier, they also only admitted to it because some more people knew what they were doing), and i was uncomfortable!! then, pyro pms me!! and i tell him that i was uncomfortable being in the chat because one of the mods were talking abt the situation!! and i tell him what they did was wrong!! then, he says that everyone is fine with it except for me, and says that i'm exaggerating!! yay!!"

pyro quickly came in and said that there was a lot to unpack about the situation; and that lin was lying. according to him, he and the mod team of tam would test the helpers by simulating a troll attack on the public chat. goop felt uncomfortable with that, and left the casual chat. some mods were confused/worried[?] and contacted pyro. pyro pm'd goop to talk about iit. the screenshots he(pyro) posted are cropped, [so iit iis questiionable iif there was anythiing else that wasn't mentioned, or iif pyro purposefully

goop pov: - pyro invalidated his feelings - pyro didn't tell some of the mods about the troll raid [proved wrong, questiionable] - the mods tried selling stolen art [ii don't have proof about thiis rn, so questiionable] - he told pyro what was making him uncomfortable - was told that he was overreacting [hiinted at, not with those exact words. siince the screenshots were cropped, can't be confiirmed.] - "@pyro778 i think saying “everyone else was fine with it except you and _____” was hinting that you thought i was exaggerating 😐" (copypaste, goop's words)

pyro pov: - he politely asked goop if he wanted to talk about what was happening - lin refused to tell what was making him uncomfortable [proved wrong later on.]; and was acting rudely. - the majority of the mods agreed with the troll training - there was one offliine person who diidn't reply to the troll training? [should have waiited for them] - lin was purposefully lying to cancel him. [wrong, iimo. goop wasnt lyiing. he diidn't seem to make any attempt to cancel pyro at all, he diidnt mentiion iit on the notes] - lin was lying about the mod team [questiionable.] - "that’s exactly what we were trying to do. Lin is making up lies in an attempt to cancel me or somethin" (pyro's words, copypaste)

part 2 . the "leaving the chat" discussion pyro told goop that he shouldn't leave the chat, as he was a mod. in reality, goop is a helper. [even so, ii beliieve that thiis shouldn't have happened. even iif goop iis a mod, he has all the riight to leave the chat iif he feels uncomfortable. attemptiing to make him come back "because hes a mod" iisnt any professiional.] "@willyoucomewithme so let’s say a mod sees a situation going on, starts to handle it, and then leaves the chat. Now what? Do you see how that wouldn’t work? We can’t just have mods leaving the chats without any sort of warning or explanation" (pyro's words, copypaste) [thiis iisnt the case. as far as iim aware, liin diidnt leave duriing a siituatiion, so thiis example iisnt really valiid. and, agaiin, goop iis completely free to do what he wiishes. iif goop felt uncomfortable, he diidn't have to *iimediiately* giive a notiice. thiis also iinvaliidates goops feeliings.] "Lin stretched the truth and just straight up lied in this post" (copypaste, pyro's words) [ii dont agree, but thats a personal opiiniion, and iid rather not drag iit as iit may affect thiis post.]

3. "please grow up" [ii thiink that, at thiis poiint, thiings started to go down.] pyro told goop to grow up [as ii understand, drop the subject? forgiive and forget? not clear to me.], to which goop replied "grow up?? no, i won’t let some person who people look up to invalidate my feelings." (copypaste, goop's words)

he also stated that making a callout post was petty and immature.

according to pyro, if you cant handle stressful ideas, it isnt a good idea to stay as a mod. [agaiin, liin iis a helper. and to be honest, thiis comment speciifiically has me wonderiing some thiings. as someone who has already served as mod to diiscord servers and some amiinos, and saw many dramas and confliicts, thats wrong. some mods cant handle stressful iideas because iit harms them. iit doesnt mean that they arent capable of working as a mod.] willyoucomewithme also stated that they were a mod for some years (almost 5) and that they recognized pyros behaviour as unprofessional. goop commented that "you said if people are uncomfortable, we’ll make an apology wheres the apology? i’m uncomfortable." [ii dont know much about that, no proof was giiven about iit, so ii cant confiirm]

3. off-topic [iimo one of the worse parts.] slowly, the topic started to drift away from the discussion, and passed to some off-topic conversation between some users, counting pyro and a user named astolfosextraribbon. [pretty diisrespectful. just moviing on liike that and sayiing random thiings to eachother diidnt really show any concern to how goop felt, and mostly made iit seem liike a joke that could be iignored.] apparently, goop went by a panic attack because of that things and because of the off-topic chit-chatting. [ii already had paniic attacks before and ii already saw users go by one. by how goop started typiing, ii know that iit iis true, and ii hope hes ok.] some people apologized, recognizing how the situation was affecting goop, but pyro and astol didnt. pyro claimed that lin did the post, so it wasnt his fault, and that they were just trying to lighten the mood. [wrong. iit iis pyros fault for treatiing iit like a joke and just moviing on, chattiing casually. they could have just moved on to a group chat, as was suggested multiiple tiimes iin the notes. iidk iif they diid that, tho.]

4. misgendering this part mostly involves willyoucomewithme (who ill refer to as wy) and astol (astolfosextraribbon). wy and astol engaged in an argument because of the off-topic chatting. [astol kept takiing the siituatiion as a joke, apparently, iif taken onto consiideratiion theiir behaviiour on the notes] "yeah im laughing cause yall insulting me when i CLEARLY havent done the same👩❤️💋👩" (copypaste, astol's words) wy then asked astol to stop referring to them as a girl/sis/female names and pet names, as they didnt like that. [astol diidnt seem to take iit seriiously at fiirst, referiing to them as guy/diick.] yet, once they stated that they were nonbinary, they apologized. even so, it seemed to trigger wys gd [and tbh, ii hope youre doiing well, wy.]. they stated that they were doubting their own gender. no one apologized for that for a while, the topic drifted to random again, until astol referred to lin(?) and wy as "furries", which triggered wys traumas. aikoindieinside told them to "chillax", astol accused them of guilt-tripping. wy did seem to point that they had an episode because of it, tho not confirmed.

5. conclusion.

that was my post, iig. ii triied my best to iinform everythiing, but iif ii left any iinfo out, please tell me. iim on computer rn and siince tumblr iis trash, ii miightve miissed smth.

#submission

[uncloseted]

i related to effy an unhealthy amount when i was only 13 when i first watched it, but at the time i wasnt doing drugs, homewrecking, doing anything that young lol. however i was extremely mentally ill but undiagnosed, and so confused but i found solace in effys character because of how similar i felt to her. flashforward to being 20 now and im a nic addict/borderline drug and alcohol addict that forgets to take my prescribed antidepressants and antipsychotics. i cant tell you how many events of effys life have mirrored mine now 7 years later, both the pretty but mostly the ugly. it all feels like a joke to me, and the thing is of course it wasnt effy the fictional character that did this to me, it was the fact that i was genetically and epically set up to do this to me for as long as i existed and i saw myself in her too young. everyone ive ever met and started to befriend has fallen in love with me, has found me beautiful, and then seen my flaws and hated me even if they didnt tell me to my face. ive been a horrible friend and partner and im flighty and unreliable and destructive. i never saw effy, or a person like effy, find a happy ending and im afraid even when im at my manic highs i will never find a lasting happiness and will always accidentally self sabotage until i die. what im trying to ask is, how can i save me? i know its dumb to ask a random tumblr user but ive been following this blog since i was 13-14 and since you know effy through and through, you might know a little about me. its a long shot. (i’d also like to say this isnt a cry for help and im safe/not actively suicidal so i dont want you to feel like theres any pressure like that, but i did use this ask box as a free therapy session.)

I'm a bit biased, but I don't think there's anything wrong with asking a random Tumblr user at all. I'm happy to be a free therapy session when you need one, and I'm really touched that you've trusted me with your thoughts and feelings for so long. Hopefully I've been some help over the years 😆

Coping with mental illness can be really, really hard, but the good news is that with the right tools and support system, you can absolutely recover. It sounds like you already have a psychiatrist in your life, which is a great start. If you've having trouble remembering to take your medication, it might help to set calendar reminders on your phone, set up text prompts to remind you to take your pills, to link taking your pills with something else you do every day (like brushing your teeth or eating breakfast), or to reward yourself for taking your medication (for example, putting a piece of candy in your pill box that you can eat after taking your pill).

If you don't have one already, a therapist might also be a good idea. It can take a while to find the right therapist for you, so schedule a few appointments and see which therapist you "click" with. A therapist can help you work through any reluctance you might have towards taking you medications, as well as helping you come up with day to day strategies that help you achieve your goals and helping you work through the beliefs that you hold about yourself and the world that may be holding you back.

Moving on to talking about addiction for a bit. I strongly believe that addiction doesn't come from some type of inherent lack of willpower or moral failing, or even really the drug itself. It's the need to escape reality. And that's actually supported by scientific literature; most famously, the Rat Park experiment by Bruce K Alexander. Practically, we've seen that same thing in the aftermath of Portugal's decision to decriminalize all drugs. They took the money they were using to keep drug users in prison, and instead invested that money into reconnecting people who struggle with addiction to society. Their goal was to make sure that every person who struggles with addiction has a reason to get up in the morning and has a support system within the wider society. And it actually worked- injection drug use is down 50%, overdoses and HIV infections have massively decreased, and rates of addiction decreased as well. It's much easier to quit when you have something motivating you to keep going.

Why am I telling you all of this? I guess what I'm trying to get at is in order to recover from addiction, I think first people need to understand what the reality is that they're trying to escape. What can be done about those issues? Who's in your corner trying to support you, even if they're not doing the best job at it? Where else can you get the social support you might need? What are you passionate about? What would make it feel worth it to get up in the morning? I think instead of focusing on the drugs, or the alcohol, or the cigarettes, maybe we should focus on solving the root problems that make those attractive options. That's one of the reasons a therapist is a really good idea; they can help you figure out what those root problems are, and provide resources and tools to help you fix those problems.

In terms of practical, do it yourself advice for dealing with addiction, there are a couple things you might try. I did a whole post on evidence-based ways to set goals and follow through on them here, so I won't rehash it in this post, but basically:

Try to set goals that are specific, measurable, achievable, relevant, and time bound. For you, this might be something like "My goal is to have only one drink a day (measurable and achievable) for week (time bound) so that I can be more reliable for my friends (relevant)".

Instead of trying to quit something, replace it with something else. For example, "when I feel like smoking, I'm going to do ten minutes of learning Korean instead". Learning something new is easier and more exciting, and so new habits are easier to maintain that breaking old ones. Find a new hobby that you've always wanted to do or that's exciting to you, and try to focus your energies on that to distract yourself.

Identify any obstacles (such as environmental triggers) that you might run into, and develop contingency plans for working around them. This might be something like, "when I drink coffee in the morning, I want to smoke, so I'm going to switch to tea instead." If you can, get rid of all environmental triggers that might remind you of your addiction or trigger a craving.

Get someone else involved. Tell a friend about your goal and have them check up on you. Your fear of disappointing them will help you stay on track.

Put money on the line. Give money to a friend with the understanding that you'll get it back at a set date if you've achieved the goal you set. Tell your friend that if you fail, they should donate the money to a group or cause you really hate.

Write down the reasons you want to quit, and put them somewhere you know you'll see them. Whenever you want to engage in an addiction behavior, read through that list first.

For bonus points, add to that list your contingency plan for when you want to engage in an addiction behavior. These may include ways to redirect your attention or distract yourself until the craving passes.

76% of people who wrote down their goals, actions and provided weekly progress to a friend successfully achieved their goals.

You might also try an addiction recovery app, such as these, or doing Cognitive Behavioral Therapy worksheets on your own if you can't access a therapist right now.

There are also some things you can try in order to improve your mood. As much as I hate that this is true, consistent exercise has a huge impact on mood. If you can, try taking a 20 minute walk outside, 3 times a week. Other (boring) things, like making sure you're getting 7-9 hours of sleep a night and eating regularly, can also make a big difference in mood. Some of you might know that I'm a little bit obsessed with the free Coursera class "The Science of Well-Being". It has a lot of great evidence-based tips and tricks for how to build happiness, and I highly recommend it if you're trying to live a happier life. These include things like journaling, meditating, noting things that you're grateful for, helping other people, and having regular social interactions.

Finally, a few philosophical thoughts. One of the Four Noble Truths in Buddhism is dukkha. Basically, this is the idea that suffering is an innate characteristic of existence in our world. When I was younger, I never liked this concept, but I think now I kind of get it. It's impossible to be happy 100% of the time, and that shouldn't be our goal. Suffering is the comparison by which our lives gain meaning. But we can do our best to minimize our suffering and the suffering of others, and ride the wave of suffering when it does come. And each time we ride that wave, we can learn techniques to manage it a little bit better, and to make it easier the next time. We will sometimes sabotage ourselves out of fear, but we can learn how to do it less frequently and for the consequences to be less dire. We can learn how to forgive ourselves for our flaws and what we've done in the past, and learn from those mistakes so we don't do them again in the future. It's also okay to backslide, to struggle even after you've made progress. You're never back where you started, because you've always learned more and experienced more.

I know I've thrown kind of a lot at you in this post, and I don't expect you to try all of it or for all of it to work, but hopefully something in there is helpful to you. You can get through this. You can save yourself, but please, also remember to let others help save you. You don't need to do this on your own. And just like I have been since you were 13, I'm always here to give a free therapy session and to lend my support ❤️❤️❤️

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I’m in a Christmasy mood. How about a “it’s a wonderful life” inspired au?

This one is a bit longer, so its going to have a read more so Im not making a huge ass post on everyone's tumblr

Ruby sighed as she looked out to Atlas, the city burning as grimm flooded the streets, reminding her of what happened at Beacon. She got up and started walking back to her friends, their plan to take down the whale not going as planned. Everything had gone wrong. Her trying to use her eyes, Winter taking the bomb into the creature, Yang going off alone to find Oscar… the whole thing was a mess. She tended to the wounds of her friends, shaking slightly. “None of this would’ve happened if I wasnt a silver eyed warrior…”

“Is that what you really think?”

Ruby quickly drew her scythe, looking around. “Who said that?” 

A woman with brown hair appeared in front of her, smiling. “Do you really think your life would be better without your silver eyes?” 

“Who are you?” 

The woman walked closer. “My name is Amber. And I’m here to show you what would’ve happened had you not had your silver eyes.” 

Ruby put her scythe away. “And how, exactly, are you going to show that to me?” 

Amber approached Ruby and put a hand on her shoulder, using a gift of the gods to show Ruby what could’ve been. 

Ruby felt a bit disoriented as everything shifted around them, the city of Atlas changing to Vale, back to the dust robbery she stopped. She looked around, hesitating for a moment. “Why are we here? I stopped this from happening.” 

“You did, when you had silver eyes. Instead, now that you dont…”

Ruby watched as her own visage was tossed through a window, struggling to keep hold of her own weapon as a few thugs all jumped her. 

“Your uncle didnt teach you how to fight. Your father tried to keep you from being a huntress. But you still wanted to be one, teaching yourself and trying to prove yourself. You ended up here one night and once the robbery started, you tried to teach them a lesson, instead learning one yourself.” Amber waved her hand, forwarding to the aftermath of the fight. 

Ruby watched as her old home appeared, watching herself struggle to get inside, wheelchair bound with a broken leg and arm. “So I didnt get into Beacon. That still doesnt change much-”

“But it changed everything.” 

Ruby watched as clouds of mist swirled around them, bringing them to Beacon. She watched as Yang, Blake, and Weiss were still on a team together, along with Jaune. 

Amber sighed. “This team was never functional without you. Weiss ended up being the leader, mocking faunus for who they were. Blake will eventually get tired of it and run away. Jaune and Yang will try to get Weiss to go find her, but she’ll insist they’re better off without her.” She waved her hand again, forwarding through the events until they saw the docks. “When Blake ran to try to prove her own innocence, things took a turn for the worse. Without you meeting Penny and making friends with her, the White Fang outnumbered her and Sun.” 

Ruby watched helplessly as Blake and Sun were beat and left for dead by the sheer numbers of White Fang. As the cops arrived, they took Blake and Sun into custody, arresting them for trying to steal dust. “But they were innocent. Why dont they see that?” 

“Without you, Penny, Weiss and Yang showing up, many of the White Fang got away, helping those that couldnt and leaving Blake and Sun to take the blame for the gunfire and the missing dust.”

“But then… that means they would get expelled, right?”

“They’ll get lucky and Ozpin will vouch for them being hunters in training. But this breaks Blake. She will never learn to trust her team, going after the White Fang alone and ultimately putting herself in danger.” 

Ruby sighed and looked away. “O-okay, so things dont end up going well for Blake. What about Weiss? I’m sure she’s happier without me.” 

Amber moved them along to the Fall of Beacon. “Through the school year, Weiss stays bitter and angry, blaming Blake for everything that happened. Including when Beacon fell.”

Ruby watched her school burn again, but this time, things were different. More students laid dead from the grimm that started overwhelming them. More grimm poured through Vale, the Breach never happened, allowing grimm to pour in right into the heart of Vale, destroying everything and rushing up to the school. The wyvern grimm could be seen flying high above, raining more goo down and creating more grimm. 

Amber started walking forward, showing Ruby Weiss. “When the fall of Beacon happened, Weiss stayed for as long as she could to defend the school Right up until her father dragged her home.” She waved her hand again, showing Weiss in her bedroom at home, bottles of wine laying near her. “She did her best to try to keep her father from getting under her skin, doing what it took for her to be the best heiress she could be for her company. Unfortunately, it wasnt enough for her. Without anyone to lean on, without friends who cared about her that she could think about, the stress became too much. It didnt take long for her to start following in her mother’s footsteps.” 

Ruby slowly walked up to Weiss, watching her. “But.. she had her team-” 

“She never did.” 

Ruby hesitated for a moment. “But Yang and Jaune. They would’ve tried to help her, right? They could’ve kept her from going down this path.” 

Amber slowly shook her head. “They tried. And they failed.”

“She could’ve gone to Atlas Academy. That was always an option for her.” 

“And her father wouldnt hear it. Even Ironwood’s influence couldnt help her.” 

Ruby sighed. “O-okay, what about JNPR. T-they were better off, right?” 

Amber smirked a bit and showed Shade Academy to Ruby. 

Ruby hesitated for a moment, trying to put the pieces together. “I… I dont understand. Why would they come here?”

“Without you, they didnt have the conviction to go after Cinder. They stuck around Beacon for a while, trying to help with the clean up. Once it became clear what they were doing wasnt making a difference, they made their way to Shade with CFVY. Which reminds me…” The visage of Shade disappeared, showing the ruins of Haven. 

Ruby stood there, eyes wide at what she was seeing. “Haven… it’s all gone... “ 

“Since you never brought anyone to Haven, the White Fang succeeded in destroying it.” 

Ruby thought for a moment. “But Blake came around last time with other faunus from Menagerie. What happened to them?”

Amber sighed. “A-are you sure you really want to see this?” 

“I have to know what prevented Blake! That cant be my fault!” 

Amber waved her hand once more, showing Blake with Adam, donning the White Fang gear again. “As I said before, she learned not to trust humans. When she went off on her own to try to stop the white fang, things didnt go as they did before. Adam threatened her family and gave her a choice: join him again, or watch her family suffer because of her. With no one else to turn to, she chose to join up with Adam once more, being with the White Fang again. She led the White Fang’s assault on Haven, making sure nothing was left standing.” 

Ruby took a few deep breaths, taking everything. “So… without me… Weiss and Blake both fell back into their old lives? But… I couldn’t have made that much of a difference on them. What about Yang? Surely things ended up differently with her.”

Amber made one last gesture, taking Ruby to the Branwen tribe. 

Ruby walked around, looking for Yang, stopping when she found her. “No…” 

“I’m afraid so.” Amber walked up behind Ruby. “Raven told her about everything that was going to happen during the fall of Beacon. Yang didnt believe her at first. But after everything happened, after losing her team and believing Blake to be dead, she went off to find Raven to join her tribe.” 

Ruby sighed and sat down. “All of my friends, my team…”

Amber put a hand on Ruby’s shoulder. “And now for one last thing for you to see.” 

Ruby was about to ask until her vision went black. When she opened her eyes, she saw her own reflection staring back at her in the mirror. She hesitated for a moment once she saw blue eyes staring back at her. She took a moment to walk around the dark house, hearing her dad down stairs. She rushed down to him, stopping for a moment. “D-dad?”

Tai turned to look at her, clearly broken up about Yang leaving. “Oh, Ruby… it’s just you.” 

Ruby slowly walked to him and hugged him. “Are you okay?”

Tai hugged her back. “I’m fine sweetie. I was thinking about Yang and hoping she was okay.” 

“W-we could go after her-” 

“No. You’re going to stay right here. I’m not going to lose you too. I’ve already lost your mother, Yang, and Raven. I refuse to let you go.”

Ruby hesitated. “I… I can fight-”

“I said no. If anything, go take Zwei for a walk. But stay close. With the grimm crawling all around Vale, I cant risk you getting hurt too.” 

Ruby sighed and went to find Zwei, not believing what she was seeing. Everything just seemed… wrong. She went outside and looked up to the sky. “Okay Amber. I… I see your point. I… I want to go back now. Please.” 

Amber appeared before Ruby one last time. “Now do you see why you having silver eyes was never a bad thing? Ozpin may have only allowed you to join Beacon early because of them, but without that, you never would’ve made the impact on others as you have now.” 

“I’m… understanding that now.”

Amber smiled a bit as a flash of light appeared behind her. 

Ruby covered her eyes, feeling like she was blinded. Once the light died down, she looked around at her friends again, sighing in relief. She gently started changing Weiss’s bandages, thankful to have her team back. 

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