#i wasnt gonna answer this cause i know that some of the things (like her husband or certain rappers she has songs with) she’s done aren’t am

[miuszn]

Ok i Just found my new fav writer 🤍so i NEED to ask this ( do It only if you want)

What about an ellie x fem!reader where they go out on Patrol ,they run into a lot of zombies of every type , ellie gets bit and reader sees It so now ellie needs to explain the whole immunity thing and reader believes her ,

They go back to Jackson where Joel (lets Say he skipped golf lessons this time) finds out and freaks out and gets mad at ellie cause She wasnt supposed to tell anyone so he wants ellie to break up with reader but ellie doesnt want to so they fight and ellie goes back to reader for comfort

Its up to you if Joel and ellie fix this whole argument thing

(also Sorry if my english Is perfect🤍)

hiii anon <33 first of all i’m so honored u consider me ur fav writer i never expected to get so much love from the community so fast im rlly grateful to all of u hehe <33 . anyway , i rlly love ur idea !! i decided to write a short drabble instead because i’m working on another fic but i still wanna post some stuff while i’m working on that , hope ur fine w that 🥹🩷 ( note : this is an alternate universe where ellie already forgave joel and they were starting to fix their relationship .. also this might be kinda ooc especially joel bc i’ve never written him before eheh )

— 𓆩♥︎𓆪 —

you weren’t sure how it happened. you were only gone for a second, you swore, and somehow ellie got bit. you knew it was a bad idea to leave her in a room full of clickers, but you knew she was strong and should’ve been able to clear them out with ease. the second you saw the small bite mark on her hand, you realized what had happened. your heart sank. in a panic, you burst into tears and kept apologizing over and over for about 15 minutes until ellie was able to calm you down and explained to you that she’s immune, leaving out the details of the whole situation with joel and the fireflies. of course, you didn’t believe her. it seemed ridiculous. how the hell would someone be immune and not be out there in some lab being researched or whatever, like in movies?

it took you a while to believe her, but eventually, you did. you helped wrap her hand with bandages so no one would see the note mark, because the less people knew, the better.

you were distraught for the rest of the day. you felt horrible. she kept telling you there’s no need to keep apologizing, but you still felt the need to. what if that had been someone else? what if ellie wasn’t immune? how the hell was she immune in the first place? so many questions ran through your head.

later that night, you laid awake still thinking about today. you were disappointed with yourself for what you did, yet still so confused.

you heard some knocking on your window, and looked out to see ellie. you opened your window and let her in. she sat on your bed next to you.

“what’re you doing here?” you asked.

“just wanted to check on you,” she replied, “and. uh. joel’s kinda mad.”

you were confused. you wondered how he even found out, but it’s like she read your mind and answered.

“i told him about what happened today. just casually. and he completely lost it.”

— 𓆩♥︎𓆪 —

“i can’t believe that girl let you get bit.” joel wasn’t even looking ellie in the eye. he was extremely disappointed in both of you.

“it wasn’t her fuckin’ fault, joel! i didn’t think anything bad would happen either! if you’re gonna blame anyone, blame me-“

“i’m blamin’ the both of you! what the fuck did you think was gonna happen back there? leaving you in a room full of clickers to fend for yourself? now one more person knows about you bien’ immune and all. god knows if she can even keep a secret.”

“what the fuck makes you think shes just gonna tell everyone? she’s not like that at all. why the hell are you acting like you don’t know that-“

“why the hell are you actin’ like that girl’s any good for you? all she does is get you into trouble.”

ellie went silent. she was shocked at how different he was acting. all this time he had been so nice to you, not once showing a sign of not trusting you or disliking you. she was conflicted, and in the heat of the moment, she just turned around and left, fuming with anger. she was starting to wonder if joel was actually right, but realized that was such a stupid thought. the worst part is, she wasn’t even sure if he meant it. now she didn’t know what to do. just as they were starting to fix things, life threw another curveball at them.

— 𓆩♥︎𓆪 —

you were hurt by what ellie was saying. his words just further fueled the thoughts in the back of your mind saying that this was all your fault. but ellie realized this and tried her best to comfort you. she kept saying it wasn’t your fault, that she fucked up too, that she’s sure he didn’t mean it and he was just angry. while you were hurt by his words, that wasn’t your main concern. you thought about how this incident just further damaged their already broken bond that they’ve been trying to fix these days. you felt like because of you, all that progress was thrown away in less than 24 hours. and it was an ugly feeling. you felt even worse than you did before, and you didn’t know what to do.

“ellie..” you placed your hand on hers, “i’m sorry.” you started to tear up.

“hey..” she pulled you close and hugged you.

“it’s just.. i don’t know what exactly happened with you and joel. you don’t have to tell me. and everything is getting better now and i’m just scared i’ve ruined it and i just-“

“hey,” she interrupted you, “don’t worry about that, okay? it’s not your fault. i’ll.. i’ll figure it out. you don’t have to worry about me and joel. we’ll be fine.”

“are you going to forgive him for it?”

“i’m not sure,” she sighed. “if he didn’t mean it, maybe. but if he did, i doubt i can.”

“i don’t want you to lose progress with him just because of me..”

“we’ll be fine. please.. just.. stop worrying, okay?”

you nodded hesitantly.

while the guilt of possibly extending the process of ellie’s forgiveness of joel would continue to exist within you, at least for as long as it took her to finally reconcile with him, you were grateful to have her by your side. and you were sure to be with her every step of the way.

#arielle’s drabbles ୨୧ #ellie williams x reader #ellie williams #the last of us #ellie x reader #the last of us 2 #tlou #tlou 2 #ellie williams x you #tlou x reader #joel miller #ellie and joel

[belovedstarrs]

do you even care?! part two

• pairing : geto x fem!reader

• tags : mentions of drinking, talks about verbal fighting, (i dont know anymore.)

• a/n : i wanted to finish this tonight (tech. morning) but i got caught up playing valo w a new friend i made. 7am slump hitting hard and i just wanna post this and sleep.

• w/c : 783

you found yourself at utahimes place for the night. you were in her spare bedroom but still couldnt sleep no matter how comfortable you were, you couldnt get that fight off your mind. could you have been more mature about it?

the next morning

you felt like you barely got any sleep. you needed to go back to your house and pick up a fresh uniform from your closet. the only problem was could you face geto? of course not, you didnt wanna be the first to say anything. you decided to still go anyways cause you cant go to jujutsu high wearing some sweats and a t-shirt.

you found yourself walking to you and getos shared apartment and youre pulling out the keys from your pocket. you were absolutely praying geto wasnt in there. when you opened the door you found getos keys & shoes to be gone. you quietly whispered to yourself "yes!" as you close the front door and walk to your shared bedroom.

you quickly showered and grabbed your uniform as you left the house. you were gonna be a little late but youre sure the second-years wouldnt mind you being a couple minutes late, right?

you quickly ran into your class as you apologized for being late. you looked at your schedule and sighed out of relief as you saw it was gonna be a easy day. maki and panda had a mission together, inumaki had a mission, and okkotsu was overseas so he wasnt here. you let everyone leave as you relaxed a little. still thinking about what happened last night.

you left your classroom to go to the teachers lounge to grab a cup of coffee. you seriously need that right now, but as you walked out your classroom you saw him, geto. you had to build up the courage real quick to walk past him. you two shared glances as you bumped shoulders in the hall and once you passed him you felt embarrassment wash over you.

once you grabbed your coffee you sat at the couch in the teachers lounge on your phone scrolling on instagram. god, you felt jealous of all these girls finding happy relationships.

after work

you found yourself walking up to your shared apartment again. youre planning to grab some of your things so you can stay at utahimes place. when you opened the door you found geto sitting at the table and he looked like he was in distress. his face lit up when he saw you.

"y/n, i was hoping you would stop by. may we talk some things over at a nice dinner tonight?" you looked at him confused. where was he getting all this? "pardon?" you said. geto responded with "i dont need to repeat myself, but ill say it anyways. we are going out to dinner tonight to talk things over. i would dress nicely."

you felt confused, but you obliged. you went to your shared bathroom and got yourself ready. you put on a dark green tight dress and dark green heels to match. geto was wearing a dress shirt and a tie with some nicer pants. "why are we dressing so nicely?" you asked. all geto responded with was "cant we dress nice for a nicer restaurant?" you sighed at his answer.

you two arrived at the restaurant and you ordered some red wine. once the waiter left you spoke up first. geto seemed nervous. "so, what do you have to say for yourself. i believe im owed a explanation." geto sighed as he stood up and reached for his pocket then pulled out a ring box.

y/n l/n, will you marry me? "i promise ill explain after." you looked at him with shock, tears threatening to flow from your eyes. did geto truly love you? have you just been overthinking everything? "yes, yes suguru ill marry you!" you crash into his lips passionately and after he puts the ring on your finger. it fits perfectly. how did he ever get your ring size?

"y/n im sorry for anything ive made you feel over the last couple of months.." ive been planning this exact day out for about 3 months and right before it happens you blew up on me. its true, i had been drinking but it mostly was from the stress of planning. i just got overwhelmed was all. it was true though what we both said yesterday. my phone died and i got a new mission, but i finished up and started drinking. im sorry, i shouldve just gone home." tears burst out from your eyes your relived geto does care for you and your relationship.

made by @belovedstarrs do not copy or use in any way without permission

(thanks kal for the idea to make him propose i was very stuck on what to do)

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk anime #jjk geto #geto suguru #getou suguru x y/n #getou suguru x you #suguru geto #jujutsu geto #geto x y/n #geto x you #getou suguru x reader #geto x reader #geto smut #fanfic #writing

[tu-es-gegg]

just like got out of bed to frantically figure this out on paper or in this case a tumblr post

You know at the end of the elq stream, the computer analysing the players and the status bar was only 50% right, the players on the screen were Felps, Etoiles, Foolish, Baghera and ElQ (its not Quackity himself because of the skin, its not his Festa Junina skin even if it has the overalls, note the sleeves and the lack of neck scarf). The most immediate connection is that they all were presidential candidates and a bit more of a connection is that they're all jester-type silly guys. But why these specific guys only, especially when there was another presidential candidate was also particularly a silly guy, like being very well known to be a silly guy (we'll get to him)

(Side note the choice of skins is weird because these all are from early to mid June with Etoiles and Felps' wedding getups but Baghera has on the Festa Junina skin, 'cause they easily couldve used default skins especially skin they already are showing Foolish's default skin in the image though it could just be the skins at that time, foolish as far as I know wasnt wearing his wedding skin until just before the wedding event)

I've been trying for the longest time to figure out what is the codes monsters' deal is now. It's heavily implied from Luzu's computer now destroyed, their appearance changing, to their new tactics, that they're now federation tools. But then the timer dungeon where the code showed up in the freezer and led the players to fix the train. And what of the constant attacks on Etoiles with disguised eggs and literal spawning everywhere? What does it - or rather, what does the Federation hope to achieve by attacking by doing these things? If the answer was to do something like uniting the island together against a common enemy that isn't the Federation (for example making the code monsters be the villains at the election dinner), then it doesn't make sense. People already didn't like the code monster it attacked their kids, if they dangled the clear solution to stop it the players would've done so immediately. But no they took the code monster in to be a tool, but what for if to not hurt the players anymore?

Then of course, comes the disguising a code monster to be Juanaflippa (Codeflippa as we call her). It's unknown at this point what Codeflippa wants from Slime, there isn't much to extrapolate from just that. From the birthday gifts (gillie suit, grappling squck, mines), it's heavily implied he is to be used as a spy, to be surveillance on something or some people. But to do what? What does it hope to gain from spying on people? If it's to figure out how people are gonna try and stop the Federation, they aren't gonna get much since Slime only recently found out that Cellbit's offices existed and he doesn't even understand what is happening at all, he is possibly the most removed from any sort of lore activity, the most the Federation has had a sole unique interaction with Slime himself was Cucurucho telling him his daughter died again as far as I know (mostly because in meta, ccslimecicle is not consistent at logging on, he only ever appears when there is a server-wide event like the elections and the wedding)

Then I kept thinking about the last encounter elq had with Slime, saying he would introduce Slime to some powerful people to which Slime agreed. I feel that was him unknowingly saying "yes" to being a Federation spy. And this question was after elq said there was more to Gegg, that it can't just be the end of Gegg. And now we know elq has at least access to eggs (for testing purpose or for his own amusement either way) So to me it seemed like it was elq's idea to make Codeflippa and have her bait Slime into doing something.

And if that's the case, then it means whatever information Slime has to get, its related to that computer thing in the AB room, with whatever the computer is analysing with on the islanders.

Is it for the frozen people in that noise dungeon? Is it for making copies of the islanders as spies? Litterally what is the code cooking up? I don't know, i guess we have to wait until its 100% done

#qsmp #qsmp theory #txt post #ramble #i need to get this out of my head RIGHT MEOW

[totalfknloser]

can you do zakk romantic and smut headcanons where he sees a girl at a local gig and decides she's his next hookup but accidentally catches feelings upon getting to know her and finding out she's actually pretty cool and insanely into metal and all the things he is ?? thank you i love your headcanons for him so much

YES THIS IS SO CUTE (praying my headcanons don’t start to sound repetitive also it’s almost 5 am LMAO so if this sounds more like a fanfic i’m so sorry) (okay this does in fact sound more like a fanfic because i genuinely can’t at all figure out another way to write this. yep this is def more of a fanfic with hints of headcanons)

.⛧°+.+°⛧.

⛧ Zakk totally was checking you out and he did not try to hide it. it’s depending on the girl but i don’t think he would usually avoid being stealthy with checking a girl out. you were fixated on him from the start of the gig so when you saw him being possibly interested, you almost squealed with joy.

⛧ tbh idk if zakk would straight up “hey, wanna fuck?” or get to know you just to get you to fuck you but then accidentally really like your traits and personality, but for the sake of keeping these not too sexual, we will do for the second.

⛧ Zakk would talk to you a lot, and you’d do the same. you both would ask questions about each other and unlike you, Zakk started showing romantic interest a lot slower than you did, but it was still there and still growing. Zakk would ask you all kinds of music related questions and about your interests and he really started to take a liking to them.

⛧ Zakk’s questions would slowly get more personal as you’d be walking cause he doesn’t wanna end up fucking some freak or get an std or whatever. “you don’t have herpes or some shit, right?” he asked in a bold tone. “nah, what about you?” you didn’t show that much discomfort, you could tell what you were getting into just by the look of the boy. he responded with “No.”

⛧ you both got to his place and he started off pretty quick. Zakk would definitely not be one for much sweet stuff before sex. sure, Zakk would definitely give you occasional kisses and give you all kinds of passionate touches along your body. Zakk would totally touch your tits if you got any and give you a couple hickies and love bites just to show everyone who meets you for the next week that you’re gonna be his.

⛧ Zakk would really try to push his growing romantic feelings back down as you both get more and more intimate with each other and eventually you both fuck each other like bunnies on the last day of earth. Zakk would only whisper small amounts of mixed degradation and praises cause he isn’t really sure if you’d like to be called a slut or whore too much. he very obviously doesn’t want you to leave, at least not yet.

⛧ even for just a one night type of thing, he was good and you were in heaven. after you two were done, he almost contemplated asking you to leave so he can get his romantic feelings to fuck off, even if he’d miss you for a few days. but Zakk was too tired to care and he just fell asleep with you while you were in his arms.

⛧ Zakk has never done much aftercare in his entire life whenever he’s with a chick or two. you weren’t really knowing what you’d expect, either aftercare or not wasnt a problem really.

⛧ when you guys would wake up, you’d sit in awkward silence for a few minutes till you picked things up and ask if he wants to go out sometime.

⛧ the boy is absolutely stunned by your question, but he would answer, and very nervously. “O-Oh, uhm, yeah, sure.”

⛧ after you guys hung out a lot you eventually actually asked if you wanted to date each other and of course he said yeah.

⛧ it would take him a while to get used to caring for a girl for like, ever. Zakk has never really had relationships besides in his mid teens because he wasn’t done with trying for romance back then. you guided Zakk through romance and he really enjoyed it. you two would go on dates, especially dates late at night. you’d also learn to cook or if you already have cooking skills, make food for the both of you because Zakk was incredibly hesitant to go out in public doing all that sweet shit. as i said in the past, he doesn’t wanna be seen as a huge softy.

⛧ you both would love each other blah blah blah and go to shows all the time together and do all that fun shit and grow old together and die together and love each other as cute little ghosts and haunt people for fun.

.⛧°+.+°⛧.

hope this wasn’t too disappointing!!

#deathgasm #zakk deathgasm #smut

[munamania]

so right a couple of my film friends and i met last night to do wine and glee and i left and tried to catch a bus in our gross rainy cold weather and so when it finally comes im just like zoo wee mama my glasses r fogging up and all that shit. but who of course is on the bus but my one friend the main perpetrator of acting like im some flaky cunt (rant city below)

so i guess technically this wouldnt look great on my part bc i was obviously Somewhere and had been ignoring the group chat making plans but oh my GOD whatever who careessssss who Cares. so im like fucking phenomenal ok walk back Omg hi and she moves her shit so i can sit and i get settled and am like hey. and she asks what i was up to and ofc when i say anything bc this is fucking awkward shes just got this stupid smug little smile but i was just sitting there like bitch im not gonna sit here and act embarrassed for seeing my other friends so i was just like So are u guys doing x tn and shes like mhm yep are you coming and i was like well gee i dont know. sarcastic shrug. make conversation about the timing of the place for a second kinda jokin then awk silence

and so then because im a chill normal adult and am aware that shes about to go meet the group of friends and no matter what this interaction is going to be brought up and i had been planning on composing a levelheaded text but i just said Look im sorry that i ghosted you guys (and shes again smug smiling nodding next to me. girl.) i just honestly got tired of feeling like im being singled out and judged when i cant make it to something and she literally is just like Well im sorry you feel that way just u know we do try to come up w different days etc (if u like me are bad at reading between the lines this was a non apology and defense based on uh Nothing) and i was like right well ik last semester wasnt great it's just that sometimes i feel like im being shunned in the group chats when no one answers or reacts to anything i say and the other day when you said like. yk the 'could u commit' thing that felt really sort of condescending

and shes like again well im sorry u felt that way i was just trying to find another day that u could actually make it cause i wanted us all to be there so im not really sure how that came across as condescending but um yeah. and i, jackass that i am (<3) pulled out my phone and pointed and said Well u see we didnt have actual plans and in fact no one answered when i said anything abt it and yk things come up and so for me to have sent this whole nice thing and just get 'do you think youd be able to commit' in response felt a little bit needlessly mean (and i also tried to earnestly say at some point in all this that i genuinely do love and care for them and want to see them but yk this Sucks and was just bad timing)

THEN we somehow spin into her going Well i just had no idea this was even a thing until you brought it up just now i mean i wasnt even thinking abt it ive never really thought that of you etc and so then im sitting here feeling like im being gaslit in real time not to be dramatic and i felt very much like when i was in high school and people manipulated me bc i was a very easy target (its not that real but w/e) and so im like Ok be calm but dont just like let that slide cause girl be serious (prob should have but what ever) so i was like well you know i do apologize if i just couldnt tell your intent over text, but after you guys never answered me about hanging out and then the short responses like maybe u can kind of see where i felt like you were being rude (didnt say it quite that bluntly w/e)

and she pulls out the big card. the. well i just think youre being defensive. oh years and years of being the youngest and punished for um having feelings lmfao slammed me in my chest at that moment. and i calmly said Okay cool i think youre being defensive. and i lit missed my bus stop cause this driver was swerving so then i was just like Well you guys have fun maybe ill see you tonight bye. so. really feeling awesome abt the state of that. in all reality tho it's like i hung out w some friends and then went out to the gay bar w others and danced and etc and i can only imagine how much of a Thing this was for them so. if someone could win it'd be me right

(on another note at some point during this ride sams roommate requested to follow me back <3 which i had been pretending not to think abt for the last couple hours) anyway

this has been a post let me know if im being normalish

#abby talks

[moonjxsung]

Star, got an update and it isn't a good one. It's early, so if there's any typos... Don't mention them please 😭

Girl, gotta sit down for this one, grab yourself some snacks while you're at it. Let's start.

We're gonna go back 4 days ago. When I last talked to you. After some thinking, I was going to ask him on Friday, I told my best friend this because she was the one person I knew I could trust (remember that little detail)

Let's call her hmm.. Charlotte, cause that's her actual name 😋

We've been friends for 15 years, so more than half of my life. I was telling her that I was gonna ask the guy out. Something that I should've caught was when she said he didn't like him at all, and that he was annoying. (She said this the first time I brought him up)

Anyway, when I was telling her I was going to ask him out, she was quiet so I asked "are you okay?" She said yes, but I obviously didn't believe her, but i changed the subject because I know she'll tell me or I'll ask her later when she's ready. Did I have a speculation after that? A little bit. But I thought if she liked him l, she would have brought it up a while ago.

Friday comes the day after, and I'm trying to pump myself up a bit, I texted him asking if he wanted to hangout and he said he was busy atm but he'll be free later. I was like "okay, good! More time to get these nerves under control"

I tried calling char but she didn't answer which I was a bit bummed about cause she's my rock, and I wish I had her support.

2 hours later I was getting antsy because char hadn't called back, and he hadn't texted yet.

I decided to go to my favorite Cafe, because it's a sort of comfort for me when I need it.

So I drive to the place, and walk inside. Guess what I see in the cafe? The guy I like and my best friend. Some might think "oh that's not that bad" and you'd be right except, THEY WERE FUCKING KISSING.

And it's not the fact that she was kissing him that made me mad, it was the fact that she didn't tell me.

So instead of being my comfort Cafe it just ruined my whole day. And instead of confronting her about anything I just left because I'll ask her about it when we're alone later because I think that's the right thing to do.

A couple more hours passed by, my phone dings but it isn't from Charlotte it's from the guy I like. He said that he's free now and that we can hang out. I didn't agree because I wanted to be petty (well..) I agreed because I wanted to know more, how long have they been together? Have I been talking to my best friend about her boyfriend? Is that why she wouldn't tell me?

We meet at a park, and I find him swinging on the swing set. I took the seat next to him and he greeted me. We had some small talk for a little while, I felt so guilty.

That's when I finally asked him the question "how long have you and Char been dating?" When I looked at his face he was confused.

He said "how did you know about that" so I thought I obviously wasnt supposed to know at all. I was a little hurt

I said "I saw you guys together today.." I kind of paused at that moment because it's kind of weird idk. "Kissing.. so" I said

He kind of just laughed so that's when I got confused. I asked him what was so funny and he replied with "today, she asked me today"

When I tell you my heart broke. This whole time I thought they were secretly together but no she knew I liked this boy, and she still went for him, she didn't tell me anything about liking him at all. I felt betrayed.

I just replied with an "oh"

He said " yeah, it was kinda unexpected. We barely talked but I thought she was pretty and wanted to know her more" yeah got to know her mouth good alright.

After that conversation we just went back to small talk, or talking about our childhood.

We said our goodbyes and I went home.

I cried myself to sleep that night not because I lost someone that I liked but because I was betrayed by someone I thought I could trust someone that I loved.

I haven't talked to her for the rest of the weekend she was pulling up my phone but I haven't answered. I don't know what to do. And I have to see them in a few hours 🤗

So... I came here, cause I know my shooting star never does me wrong 🫶

-💍

Me:

HUHHHHHHH???:!:!/!/!.!.!/!/!/!/!:!:! HELLO?????? DID I ACTUALLY READ THIS CORRECTLY????? Aur naur….. bestie……. Charlotte is cancelled. Like…… 15 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP and she couldn’t just be upfront about it?? Huh?????????? AND THE FUCKING GUY LYING ABOUT IT????? Literally what even was his plan like…. He was just going to go out w you WHILE he’s with charlotte?? Hello????? Why are men sooo….. the way that they are 😟

First I am literally beyond sorry that this happened to you, trust me I’ve had my fair of being two-timed and LIED TO by men and what I’ve learned coming out of it is that the fact it happened is a blessing in disguise because you don’t deserve to be with someone that shitty in the first place!!!! Like you fr dodged a bullet with this guy, if he’s going to lie about it all while FRESHLY going into a relationship w Char then he should just stay with her and you should live with your peace. I personally would give it a few days before talking to Charlotte again just to make sure you’re in the right headspace and it’s totally up to you if you even want to keep the friendship, but also don’t let some stupid man get in the way of what you have established with her. She’s a victim of his lying too if he wasn’t honest with you and she’ll learn in due time that he’s not a great guy either :( someone better will come along and you’ll know they’re better bc they won’t LIE about who they’re with!!! Chin up and keep doing you my angel, there are plenty of other fish in the sea (it’s me I’m the fish)

I love you !!!!! Take care of yourself and let yourself be angry about it but remember this is just a small bump in the road the universe gave you to avoid ending up w a shitty dude. Better things are coming 🫶💘💞💖💕💞💓 and in the meanwhile we are still married ‼️‼️

#💍 anon #ask

[antvnger]

Soooooooo since I was only around in the movie for like 30 minutes or so, I missed loads of like actual important information that would’ve been nice to know beforehand.

The short answer rant is this: What. A. Shit show.

Like…like hell, I don’t even know where to start with all of this. It gave me a headache.

Brace yourselves, gang, I’m not holding back.

First of all, apparently sitting down and having an actual conversation about the Accords was a little too much to do for them? Like they started to but nothing came out of it. A stand still. I would think something that big would make them sort through it all until they came to some kind of collective agreement, but I guess not? 🤷🏻‍♂️

Secondly, both sides made mistakes. Big time. Both thought they were doing right, and I definitely get that, but both sides could’ve done better at what they were doing. I guess retrospect’s 20/20 but yeah.

Also, I really can’t stand Ross. Not the clean shaven Ross but the one with the mustache and the high and mighty, sourpuss attitude. Like what a creep.

The real bad guys here? The government.

How the hell did the Avengers just learn about the Accords 3 days before they’re supposed to be ratified? Shouldn’t that have been like breaking news from the moment somebody breathed about it?

And Ross being like “you’ll retire” if the Avengers decide to go against the Accords? As if he could actually do anything about it. I mean, who the hell does this guy think he is? Thanos?

Also what is it with baseball caps and sunglasses as disguises? I know I pulled the same stunt but it wasn’t my idea. I said no and got outvoted.

And look, I think Wanda’s great, but she wasn’t a kid at the time this all went down. I appreciate Cap wanting to protect her since she was like the newbie, but she messed up. That was really bad. I don’t know what she could’ve done to fix it, but maybe at the very least the Avengers could have issued a public apology.

I think Steve has serious Bucky issues and I genuinely don’t understand.

And Vision saying the whole world started having more enhanced since/because Tony said he’s Iron Man is bullshit. Last I checked, and Ant Mun backed me up here, all the big bads that have shown up in our world happened because of things NOT related to Tony! What, just because they called the move Captain America Civil War, they’re gonna make Tony the bad guy or something? Bullshit.

ALSO! When T’Challa was fighting Bucky and the UN chopper just started shooting at them both, thank goodness T’Challa was wearing Vibranium or that would have caused a plethora of other problems. Funny how the Avengers get fingers pointed at them over collateral damage for the sake of the mission when that chopper was literally doing THE SAME THING.

WHY DIDNT STEVE JUST EXPLAIN TO TONY TEN MINUTES INTO THE MOVIE THAT BUCKY WASNT BUCKY AND HAD NO CONTROL WHEN THE WINTER SOLDIER SHIT HAPPENED?!

Oh don’t worry. I’m getting to Siberia, hold your horses.

I’m not really sure on the timeframe here, but I’m think the Accords weren’t actually ratified yet when the whole airport fight happened soooooooo I don’t think Creepy Ross had any real power yet to tell Tony what to do.

I’m not going to touch on the lady who lost her son because I can’t even fathom that kind of grief. And I don’t want to. Ever. And I know grief makes you do things so I don’t know. My heart just hurts for her. I hate Tony got the brunt of that but still.

Speaking of grief making you do things? Zemo. I know who he is now, and I really can’t stand the guy. I hate he lost loved ones, and I hurt for him in that department. But when he decided to go all batshit psycho over it, some sympathy’s lost. Like he went through some hella trouble to make the Avengers unravel.

Siberia…*sigh* Siberia was really hard to watch. Like it was painful. It was…frightening. I almost wish I didn’t watch it. I had an idea what was going to happen because of what Tony shared but to see it for myself…

*sigh* This whole movie is a testament to honesty, trust, and open communication. Or rather what could happen with a lack there of. Ya know, me hearing about the Avengers before I joined them and seeing them on tv for interviews and stuff, I thought they were tight. An actual, close knit team. Maybe a found-family. But sooooooo much could’ve been avoided if they had just acted like that.

If they’d just sat down and talked it over. They could have an arguing match over it all if necessary, hell friends and families do that. If they had really trusted each other and let each other in on things instead of keeping each other out and building up secrets and agendas. Too many bosses and not enough coworkers.

It hurt, Iron Mun. It hurt to watch. Those are my friends and…there were times it felt like I didn’t even recognize them.

And then watching me show up felt so surreal. They got that whole interaction with the rest of “Team Cap” down to a T. I remember being so excited to be called up by one of the OG Avengers, one of my heroes, feeling honored and ready to do more and help people and do what’s right. Make a bigger difference than I already was. But God, I had no idea. I had no fricking clue.

In the end, Civil War was just like any other war. A mess. Both sides made mistakes, everything could’ve been done better, and nobody came out unscathed. In fact, everything ended up worse because of it.

@stxrksarc

#it took this long to answer because Scott didn’t want to answer at first #he had to think about it #and it took time to write #but he collected his thoughts and got it all out there #it makes him sad and angry to think about #ask scott lang #scott lang #ant-man #stxrksarc #iron mun #captain america civil war #civil war #ant man #antman

[montys-mortuary]

Blasphemy (Thomas Hewitt x F!Reader)

A/N: so I feel compelled to write my first fic for our big gentle giant. I'm...not a good writer, but I'm gonna try because im self indulgent as HELL.

Also, I kiiiinda want to make this a Multi-part one, so lemme know if I should continue it on :)

TW: Blood, cursing, broken bones, Hoyt being yucky

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The hot Texas heat beating down on your shining skin slick with sweat was talking its toll on you. You had no idea just how long you'd been walking for, but you cursed under your breath as your feet ached with a low, dull pain. You had stopped your car at a gas station, trudging inside to escape the heat and ask for directions. You had been on a long, cross-state trip to see your family, hoping to make it there within the next few days.

You entered the shoddy looking shack, to find an older woman sitting behind the counter, smoke from her cigarette dancing upwards and clouding the already stale air with a ripe smell of niccotine.

"Eh...hey there..." you began hesitently.

"Do you know how far out I am from Arizona? I feel like im lost..."

She peered at you from behind her thick glasses, a scoff escaping her lips. The ash from her cigarette falls absent mindedly onto the dusty counter.

"Bout' a ways out from here." She said, speaking in a mono-toned, southern accent.

You waited for a more elaborated response, possibly containing an answer to your question, but nothing else came. You scoffed, rolling your eyes at the lack of help and turned towards the door. Pushing past it, it let out a cringing creak, signifying the age and unkempt state of it.

Just as you had made your way outside, your eyes widened. There was a man sitting in the front seat of your car. Scruffy, sunburnt, and unkempt. He glanced over towards you, displaying a smile with absent teeth before crashing his foot down on the gas, speeding away from the station. In YOUR car.

You darted after him, nearly choking on the dry dirt that kicked up at the back of the wheels, waving your arms at him. You reached a few feet down the road when you stopped in the middle, watching hopelessly as your only means of transportation, your water, food, wallet, phone, money, and clothes were whisked away down the old texan dirt road.

Anger filled you and your blood boiled. You couldn't think of what to do.

"Hey, you fucking asshole!" You shrieked into the wind before your hands fell at your side and you stood there, the heat of the sun beating down on you. You had no other choice but to turn and stare in the way you were headed, and continue on foot. There was no way you could take a taxi out this far. You had no money and no phone. There wasnt much else you COULD do.

So here you were, exhausted, dehydrating, hungry. You felt dizzy and nauseous from the heat, and just when you felt like collapsing, the sudden whirr of a siren sounded behind you. You turned to see a Sherrifs car, and smiled weakly. The gods had answered your prayers. Surely the law enforcement around here would, at the very least, take you to the next town.

The sherrif opened the aged, rusted out door of the car, his feet slowly lifting him out. His boots made contact with the ground, causing the pieces of gravel under them to crunch. He stood by the car for a moment, hands on his belt, looking you up and down before spitting out a deep-brown coloured glob of spit onto the dirt. He walked over to you slowly, hands remining where they are.

"Whats a pretty young thing like yourself doing out here?" He said, chewing on tobacco like a cow chews cud.

You hesitated, then explained your situation. "I-I was at that gas station back there, and some...fucking maniac car-jacked me!" The frustration in your voice was apparent.

He nodded along with your words, looking you up and down one final time before smiling slightly.

"Well girly, if you need a lift to the next town over, I'd be happy to oblige." He grinned, tipping his tan hat towards you. You sighed in relief, thanking him profusely while walking over to the passenger door.

"Where was it you're headed?" He asked from behind. You turned to answer him, only for you to be able to shriek once as an old rusted hammer he had hidden connects with your left shoulder. You collapse to the ground, gripping your fresh wound, gritting your teeth. You looked up at him, shocked at the sudden attack. He stood over you, a dark, menacing grin on his face. He spins the weapon in his hand so that the back of the hammer faces you. He brings it down and it cracks into the back of your calf, fresh, chrimson blood pouring from the gaping wound. You scream out as he pounds down on your calf a few more times, hearing the sickening crack of bone with the last blow.

You attempt to crawl away from him, a thick trail of blood following you. He chuckles darkly, crouching over your crumpled form.

"Nothing personal, sweetheart, but a family's gotta eat!"

You turned back to him, holding your hand up weakly in defence as one final blow of the blunt end of the hammer comes crashing down on your head, allowing darkness to envelop you.

#thomas brown hewitt x reader #tommy hewitt #the texas chainsaw massacre the beginning #slasher #leatherface #thomas hewitt x reader #thomas hewitt #slasher smut #slow burn #haha what is writing #part 2 tho?

[robinismywifee]

Back to the Old House Act One:

June 6th, 2033

Raines age: 15 years, 4 months

Ellies age: 14 years, 1 month

Masterlist

Raines POV:

I ran in circles around the gymnasium, my boyfriend, Trevor, on my right and my friend Bethany, on my left.

Trevor was talking to me, something about us hanging out later to 'chill'

I knew he just meant so we could makeout out, and in his mind, fuck, after all we are dating and have been for over 2 months, and i still dont let him do anything more then kiss. I can tell hes starting to get annoyed with me. I dont even like to kiss him, he taste gross and is super touchy. But if I wanna keep up my ego and stay liked, im gonna have to do more.

"Yeah, of course babe" I answered with my fake smile, im beginning to master it.

He went to talk but we both stopped to look at Bethany, since we heard her yelling.

She stood there, infront of Ellie Williams, pointing her finger in her face, both stopped.

Ellie Williams.

When I first got to the QZ a year ago, she was the first person to catch my eye. When I first saw her, she was walking down the hallway with another girl, holding a small book and laughing. I caught a glance of the book and it was a pun book. I also caught the way she hung her head back while laughing, smiling bright. She was the only thing on my mind for weeks after that.

I later found out her name and the name of the girl she walked with. Riley. They were best friends and roomates, and apparently Ellies only friend.

My roomate was named Bethany, she was popular. I made my goal of staying at the QZ to be liked. I didn't really like Bethany, but she was nice to me, saying the boys would be all over me, so we became friends. It wasnt until a week of staying and being Bethany's friend that I realized she was a bully. I almost thought her, Ellie, and Riley were friends, since I had never heard their conversations, only seeing them talk from afar. But once Bethany dragged me with her once she saw Ellie and Riley, there was a pang in my heart once she slurred out insults at them.

And I didn't do anything. I just stood there. In fact, once Bethany turned around for my reaction, finding it funny to bully them, I laughed with her.

It was like that for months. Just so I could fit in. I even got a boyfriend by the third week of being there. His name was Daniel, I didn't care for him one bit, so when I found him only two weeks after dating, making out with some other girl, I had to hold back an eye roll to act sad.

Then almost a year of being at the QZ, dating a new boy named Trevor, still laughing and watching Ellie and Riley get bullied, Riley left.

Nobody really knew where she went, she just kind of vanished.

"What? You aren't gonna speak back now that your fucking girlfriend is gone?" Bethany said to Ellie.

"Just give my shit back" Ellie said, you could see how tired she was from getting bullied in her eyes.

I looked down to see Bethany holding Ellies walkman and headphones. Bethany turned to me and scoffed, bumping her elbow to me. "Look how fucking pathetic she is, Raine"

I normally wouldnt have said anything, just nodded, but I needed to start doing more stuff for Bethany to stay my friend and Trevor to stay my boyfriend.

"I know, she must cry herself to sleep now that her dyke relationship is gone"

I looked to the ground as I spoke, not being able to look Ellie in the eye. Bethany laughed. "Totally, her only friend is dead and she has nobod-"

I wasn't expecting it, even though this has happened countless of times, but Ellie swung a punch to Bethany's face. Bethany stumbled back, and the walkman and headphones she had flew out of her hands.

I took a step back, watching as Ellie swung another punch, causing Bethany to trip and to fall on her back. Ellie got ontop of Bethany and continued punching.

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#the last of us #ellie williams #ellie williams tlou #ellie williams tlou2 #ellie williams x female reader #ellie williams x oc #ellie williams x reader #ellie williams x you #back to the old house #the last of us part 2 #ellie williams fanfic #ellie williams fanfiction #ellie william series

[genderkoolaid]

Are we sharing examples or transandrophobia? I want to share especially as an autistic trans man and how that intersect. Tw for like mentions of r@pe but no detail. These specific incidents actually run through my mind almost constantly. I came out for the FIRST time when I was 16: -people refused to use the name I had chosen despite me pointing out that's stupid because out cis male friend had changed his name just because he didn't like it and all I was doing was dropping one letter

-my best friend told me that if I slept with a girl who thought I was a "real" man and after she found out I was trans I would have been a rapist for consensually going down on a girl who "thought I was a real man"

-I had a random girl in my class "ask if my ex bf knew I really had a dick" when I said I was trans

-my parents said "no matter what, you'll always be our little girl"

So, I went back into the closet for the most part. I went by She/They and was always like "im not a girl" but people pretty much brushed me off and I didn't pursue transition bc I was afraid of how people would treat me. I came out AGAIN at 21, this time really putting my foot down that I AM MALE.

-My aunt started to refer to my info dumping as "mansplaining" so I stopped sharing my interests with her

-People began to actively misgender me, whereas before some people would at least try to use they as well as she, I only get called she now and never they

-I started to get harassed in public for holding my partner's hand even tho we're both trans

-People really go out of their way to gender me now. "When I was a girl" nobody ever ma'amed me. NEVER, ever.

-People like to assume I'm mentally ill for being trans or that someone must have pushed me to be trans. Their pea brains implode when I say actually I really struggled to come out in the face of everyone telling me not to and I'm trans because I realized I'd die from trying to harm myself if I didn't accept who I already am

-I got sent a lot of death threats and rape threats. A lot. Mostly online, of course, but it really took me aback the negative reaction I had from the WLW spaces I was in when I said I was leaving because, well, I'm not a woman. Crypto terfs, man.

-My uncle said to me, and I quote "Keep this trans shit away from your grandmother, she has enough to deal with" I asked him what he expected me to do when I grew facial hair and muscles and lost my tits. He didn't answer, he probably didn't care.

-My aunt, who claimed to be the most accepting, still misgenders me and acts personally offended when I tell her she's not progressive for doing the bare minimum to show me respect, and not even consistently.

-My aunt ALSO told me I was the reason SHE wasnt getting HRT for her early menopause because "T is gonna make you angry and I don't want to be around that" (T made me calmer and less likely to EXPRESS my anger, actually. I have to find different ways to let it out now bc I kinda just CANT feel angry or sad the same way anymore)

-None of my family has called me to ask me how I'm doing since i came out. They all kinda avoid talking to me, but won't say it, I've noticed though.

-My partner's mom told me she wanted me to go to therapy. I said I'd go for my PTSD as it was causing problems between her and I, she said "No, I want you to go for 'this'" Meaning, she wanted me to go to therapy for being trans. My partner got upset at this and said that absolutely would not be happening because being trans isnt a mental illness

-cis people look at me in TERROR when they misgender me, like they're waiting for me to freak out at them or physically assault them. It actually really hurts my feelings tbh, out of everything those moments sting the most. People I don't even know very well assuming the worst of me for being trans.

Idk just the pure hatred people have towards transmascs and then for people withing our own communities to act like these things don't happen on the daily and don't drive us to have among the highest suicide rates out of any other demographic... It hurts. It really hurts, I want to cry over it and then still this little voice in my head, the voice THEY put there, says to me "Boys don't cry. if you show the slightest sign that these things hurt you, they won't take you seriously"

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

#m. #ask box #experiences with transandrophobia #rape tw

[am-i-sans]

dnd adventures 22

i wasnt here last session check moss's blog for what happaned

uh frog died cause they fought a dragon and undyne activated mom mode to bring them back lol dans is in for a surprise also tori lighting bolted dess lol.

dans cam and inferno pop out of eeby deeby! everyones in an inn. dess is still in the woods i guess? undyne tells us about what happaned. dans and cam dont handle it very well. (tori took frog out of the room) undyne begins beating the shit out of inferno for calling frog dying a skill issue. cam asks undyne not to cause frog will be sad but shes in mom mode lol.

dans and cam find frog eating with tori and suzy. dans and cam are very worried. dans hands are shaking and he looks at tori all misty eyed. dans asks frog if he can hug them. hug trapped by cam and dans lol awwwww. undyne finally finds us lol. dans lets go and pats cam on the head. hes emotionally exhausted. cam is distressed.

cam tells frog they shouldnt be comforting them since their the one that needs comforting. dans plays with tori's hand and puts a feather in her hand to help her stay grounded. cam says feather gifting is romantic lol. dans tells cam hes gonna make them hold eggs lol. frog giggles awww. dans walks over and takes the scarf back, balls it up, and puts it in their hand. then he goes back to playing with tori's hand. cam holds undynes hand lol.

undyne isnt good at comforting frog but shes trying dammit. cam and frog are giggling at how gay cam is lol. frog is trying to heal inferno. cam walks over to dans with the scarf. he wraps it around cam and tell them to consider it theirs. undyne makes inferno lay down so frog can heal them. inferno goes back to stealing lol. dess is also in the cafe.

inferno sees dess is talking to an older man. the man is dressed like a cleric and you cant see his face. dess looks uncomfy. (inferno and dess havent mess) undyne notices and points out dess. (cam teaches dans what thank you is in bird) undyne goes up to dess. the man stops speaking.

the man apologizes to undyne for dess's behavior (its fuckin charity gaster i wanna fuckin stab him grrr) (dans and cam are teaching each other how to swear lol) dans notices undyne was gone a while and goes to find her. (cam tries to repeat fuck you in dwarven) notgaster says he promises that dess will behave.

dans walks in. hes uncomfy and doesnt know why. hes shorter and can see his face. some sort of elf with facial cracks. dans feels like the wind was knocked out of him and he takes a step back. undyne notices but dans cant really answer her right now. (inferno went eeby deeby)

he says something to dess we cant hear and he hands dans a stone card. dans reacts on instinct and slaps the card away. he says that they should leave. undyne says she has questions to ask this dude so dans refuses to leave. the man says its his job to know things. he takes the card back and addresses undyne by name and goes to leave. undyne uses divine sense on him. yep hes evil. she pulls dans behind her. (cam goes eeby deeby) the stone card fell out of his pocket. undyne inspects it. its hard to read and has a face on it. dans and undyne look at dess like wtf. dess cant tell us. she also cant tell us what the card says. undyne keeps it.

we go back to the group. undyne remembers were supposed to look for info on how to end the curse. dans is told to talk to steve since dess borked it. undyne senses evil on steve :( she takes everyone away and tells them yeah hes evil.

we try and charm steve using tori's spells. failed. dans just says fuck it and goes in. he tries to talk to steve and get him to explain whats happening. undyne cast zone of truth. he admits hes been following us and then realizes hes telling the truth and is sus. he shuts up.

dans calls undyne to break a bone. moss CHEATS and doesnt let him be intimidated. dans tells undyne to start with the fingers. he just starts laughing? asshole. undyne breaks a toe but he doesnt react. dans is watching closely. dans starts looking for clues but steve says we wont find anything. steve says he has a 'personal interest' in our adventures. he needs us dead. hes being a smug asshole. he wont tell us why. he did not put the curse on us though.

undyne offers to finish him off and he just laughs. dex saving throws?! he casts fireball! i only got 4 damage cause i am resistant and i rolled high too lol. undyne fucking does 62 pure radiant damage. hes radiant resistant but that still hurts! he transforms! black armored plate from his skin, claws, horns, skull head. tori walks into this with dess. tori trapped suzy and frog behind a wall lol.

UNDYNE IS DROPPED TO 1 HP WTF she survives, we buff and heal her and she calls soupnik! SUZY SCALED THE WALL SHES IN THE GAME TOO! also hes immune to necrotic damage so my spells suck

UNDYNE IS DOWN. dans keeps getting crits cause hes so fuckin mad wtf. he wants to kill undyne. dans tells soupnik to save undyne and take her away and they get away. since were attached to undyne by the curse, we can be teleported away. we just need to survive long enough for that to happen.

dess tries to teleport away. dans uses dimension door on him and suzy (its what tori would want) steve begins regenerating since undyne is like gone lol. dess is trying to help frog escape the wall.

finally god has mercy and teleports everyone to dans. dans supports up undyne and has frog help heal her. dans has to tell undyne she almost died. and we have to tell frog that steve is super evil. frog is in disbelief that undyne LOST.

suzy yells at tori for locking her in a wall. we did infact almost kill him we got from over 400 hp to almost 100. so we get exp cause fuck. we get on soupnik cause steve might follow us so we gotta go. dans sets up camp when we land cause everyones fuckin tired.

#dans #dnd #dnd adventures

[freshlybakedspiderbread]

hi! im gonna say seiga or miko for the ask game!

seiga was just done over here but she's about to come up soon :P ! so that toyosatomimi...

General opinion/How much I care about them: i love miko... 🎧 i mentioned before about coming to love the td crew as a whole over a long time of reading doujins featuring them and Miko is obviously a big part of that too. she and her crew are such a fun addition to gensokyo's worldbuilding and Miko herself is amazing. zun's historical rpf version of prince shotoku who became a hot girl wizard and wants to take over the world and is super charismatic about it? that's unmatched.

...that said, kind of a tangent here, her premise and deliberately kinda nationalistic motifs are only fun in touhou because she's contrasted with a bunch of similarly ambitious reglious leaders and their own groups, and that you know none of them would ever actually ever 'succeed'. They'll probably always be competition and waning in powers, but that consistent conflict is sort of its own kind of peace since gensokyo can always accomodate them.

A ship I love: hey guess what im not done talking about seiga because its seimiko time. just like seiyoshi i also have a really specific headcanon backstory in mind for them which i cant really get into all of it right now, but to try and sum up: Even if Miko knew Seiga's desires were only self-serving, she admired/respected/idolised/loved Seiga who appeared before her to answer all of Miko's greatest desires, and at some point decide it wasnt enough to just learn how to not die from her, but to also become a beautiful hermit who challenges the fate the world bestows them.

And it mustve been unexpected for Seiga to meet someone who managed to see her for everything she is (which includes defiling corpses and generally making an enemy of heaven every day), and not only not really care but also Gets Her.

thaaaaat all being said, in present day Miko knows Seiga has a Reputation and gets up to Antics that doesn't exactly paint hermits in the greatest light, so she's like always bouncing between two ends of a meter where she's begging her dear teacher to reign things in, or she's trying to explain to others why digging up corpses is actually not as bad as it looks 😰🥰

A non-romantic relationship that I love: it doesnt come up in my head often but her shared parenting of Kokoro along with Byakuren and Mamizou is both sweet and extremely funny. Miko taking it upon herself as a matter of pride to guide the menreiki thanks to her role in their creation is really good, and its also really funny that despite that connection she still basically has to compete with others over her, and she probably loses to the tanuki more often than not??

also does 'ex-romantic' count because i absolutely adhere to belief that in her and okina's former lives, they absolutely were a thing, bonded over a shared love of art and beauty, created a whole bunch of noh masks together... But then Miko started caring about all that a whole lot less when a certain hermit hailing from China entered the picture, and the rest was history 😌

The NOTP: call me miss no fun but it might be miko/byakuren. i do actually really love the rivalry between miko and byakuren, the back and forths, the varying hypocrisy, the thematic parallels, and the ways they do manage to work together for a common cause! I just. have yet to see a way to turn it romantic that works for me.

also on that note if you're gonna do miko/saki (which will always just be for jokes to me and never anything i sincerely consider), saki has to be the one putting a saddle on miko 🤠

My biggest headcanon about them: everything above was kinda it 😆 maybe more will come to my mind in the future...

An idea for a fanfiction I would like to write/read about them: she'd be in the seiga backstory fic too since their first meeting is kinda vital to both characters. but as for another idea... Adventure Game type story where to earn points with the people, she susses out some random people's desires and goes to find the most quick and expedient way to fulfill them n_n

Something that makes me think of them: one time in pokemon xy i thought of naming an espurr after her because i knew meowstic kinda reminded me of her 🐱

#the next one of these i do is likely the last! #toyosatomimi no miko #touhoupawject

[x3kristax3]

Part 8

Next morning at the house we all wake up together and sit arounx the table. I pull the file out from my purse and open it. One by one we go through everything making notes its a quiet morning in the house as we just gasp and drink coffee.

There are a few things missing from the case file. I give Alan a call and he informs me that information was never given to them. I hang up since I don't want him knowing we are all working on it.

We trade notes and match up the important ones and not important and Jake and I pull them all together and go over them.

"Okay so we know this case is just like Hannahs. But she wasnt found in time enough due to lack of information to the police. So the missing information we need to look into and find it out. We know with ours it was Richy." I say

"So we should look into her friends" says Jake

"Yeah but most of them don't live in Duskwood anymore" says Dan. 

"I remember hearing about this case but it never dawned on me cause I was so little" say Richy

"So you didn't copy?" I say

"No, I swear. Also they never mentioned the legend of the man without a face on the news" he says

"Okay so like us that was something the police hid" I say jotting that down.

"Like with hannah she was found in the mines too" says Jessy

"Richy while you were down there did you ever see anything?" I ask

"Nothing that stood out to me." He says

I sigh " and now we can't go down there to look cause of the fire" I stand up and walk outside

Jake follows me "we will figure this out" 

"I know I could if I didn't have the deadline this is something i feel might take longer"

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It's been 2 weeks and so far no FBI but Jake and I are heading to the police station to give up the last bit of information we found on who the kidnapper and killer is in this cold case

"I'm here for Alan" I say walking into the office

"I saw you coming in and called him he's on his way up" she says

"Thanks" I say as I stand waiting

"Krista follow me." Says Alan and I follow him into the room with everything on the wall and give him the last few pieces of the puzzle.

"How did we never realize it was him?"

"I have no idea but no one expected Richy with us. So it makes sense you didn't expect this friend. But am I good to go?"

"Yeah thanks for all your help on this" as he walks me out. As he walks me to the front office the FBI walks in

"Alan Bloomgate?" One of them say

"Yes just give me one moment" he says then looks at me "thank you for finally coming in and answering some questions" I shake my head and walk out.

I get in Jake's vehicle "lets go" I say as he drives to Aurora cause we agreed to all meet there

"Krista" says Jessy

We walk up to the booth…

"So now that is finished just in time… question for all of you. Do you want me to still stay in Duskwood?" I ask as Phil hands me a drink

"Well I was about to ask where you actually call home" says Jake

I smile "where I lived isn't home to me. Yeah I have some friends, a place to sleep but it's definitely not home. Here i feel more home."

"Then that answers your question" says Dan

"Yeah but do you all want me to stay?"

"YES!" shouts everyone

I guess that means its time for me to fly back and pack up.

"Want me to come?" Ask Jake

I was actually gonna ask you, Jessy, and Dan if in 2 weeks if you could fly out and make that trip with me as I have a vechile plus ill have a moving truck

"Yeah I can do that" says Jessy

"Sure" says Dan

"Yeah" says Jake as he hugs me

"So I guess i'll be buying my ticket back to the city even though I dont want too"

"Yeah but you'll be back in 2 weeks" says Richy

"Well a bit more then 2 weeks its a hefty drive"

"I think we all need to take you to the airport" says Cloe

"Works for me tomorrow today I want to have some more fun now that everything is dealt with"

They all agree and we enjoy a night having blast singing and dancing.

#duskwood #fanfic #duskwood fanfiction #duskwoodlover

[yanderelovlies]

To give you a short while to relax, let me tell you a story on how I got into the deep deep deep rabbit hole of fucked up romantic fiction 😀

So I loved to read story books when I was around 4-5th grade. I was good with my english for a country that doesn't speak it much (philippines) and joined several writing and reading contests and spelling bees.

But all the books I read with thin and colorful and had pictures, I wanted something large and thick(lmao) and tons of complicated words to practice with. And my grandma at the time had her own little library in her house and she would give me access on tons of books, she didn't say anything about me reading murder mysteries and horror genres... But what intrigued me, was this one book.

I forgot what the title was but it had a mature warning in it with sexual and horror themes. I was so fucking innoncent at that time cause i didnt know what the word sexual meant and at this age my mind could visualize shit better than other kids *cough* maladaptive daydreaming *cough*

The plotline was about a female detective in the 1950s and when solving for a case she always senses someone was following her and thinks it was the suspect of the crime she was trying to find answers to. It wasn't the suspect unfortunately, but a stalker who yanks his meat whenever he hears the detectives voice on the radio.

And OH MY GOD. Something horrible sparked in me. It was two things, one, gay awakening cause the detective was a total girlboss, and second, my obsession with problematic men. I couldnt understand the hanky panky scenes BUT THE WHISPERING AND THE TENSION BETWEEN THESE TWO OUTSIDE THE HANKY PANKY MY GOD

I read that for two years until I discovered yanderes, otome sims, fanfiction.net, wattpad and ao3 but durring those years i had forgotten about the book's title.

And i wanted to find it but unfortunately grandma passed away due to old age in 2020 and her house was in a custody battle between my dad and aunt because grandma never put who would inherit the house in her will. Just divided some fortune between children and grandchildren.

It was also in the will that I would get all of her books (and her amoire that I used to play dress up in and various handbags which was very slay because she had taste 💅) but it wasnt all of the books.

I knew because she had more than two boxes worth of it. She had a bigger collection than any of her friends and coworkers back in the 1960s, her mini library was filled to the brim with books, not a shelf with a single crevice,but all I recieved were 57 books. Her murder mysteries and erotic novels but I never found the one that got me into the rabbit hole..

And the end. Hope you enjoyed :) tell me if you want a vague description of the book cause I read most of it and some lines definately be fic material 👀

Sincerely- Murder Mystery (MM) Anon, a follower since your first work

First off, I love how your grandma nutured your love for reading. My mom did the same for awhile until I had books like fucking everywhere in my room. Though I find a little odd, she would let you read a book like that 👀 or maybe she didn't know, and that's why you didn't get it as an adult?? I kinda wanna know now lol

Also, I didn't get into creepy stuff till I was in my teens (I'm calling myself out and saying creepypasta oop). Like legit when I was younger, my mom put on 1968 Night of the Living Dead movie on me and my brothers request claiming "we were old enough." I stayed up all night that night watching outside my widow cause I knew for SURE zombies were gonna rise at any moment. I also could not listen to any metal music....I was a very scared kid....

I didn't get into erotic literature until I was sixteen or so. I can't think of an incident that stands out because, really, I didn't know anything and just read basic shit. If it had extra tags of kinks and shit I didn't read it.

I thought I would share a bit of myself since you were nice enough to share about yourself, but I would like to hear about this book! Maybe it will give me some inspiration 💕

Oh! And that last bit about your being around since my first fic astounds (in a good way!) me but makes me happy. Thank you, love 💕💕💕

#vivi talks #Murder mystery anon #MM anon

[tearstoshed4ever]

"Please, love. Calm yourself. Remember your vow....Things will get better in time." Widow said, trying to console her.

iv tried but al its gotten me is this

emily sniffled

getinering to her arm again

she wiped her tears on the hem of her mothers dress

todays is a very hard day for me

id be 19 today

but inseed im stuck at 18 forever

which in itself wouldnt be so bad

but on top of everthing esle i aslo miss my family

mommy

daddy

lydia

but i never see any of them anymore

im fucking sick of being dead

i want to be alive again

surly there must be some way

Jul 1, 2021 11:47 PM

to revrese this mistake

and let me go back home to my family

she turned back to maggot and widow

maggot was hurt and ready to cry at the of her leaving

widow was alos hurt but maily cause emily spoke like she didnt think they were a good enough family

oh maggot dont u start crying again

i just manged to stop

to

and widow dont look at me that way

if i hurt your feelings im sorry

u know i think of u as my family

and that i love both more then anything in the world

but i dont belong here

i belonge upstaires

and i think my vow was a mistake

i know i said i would wait as long as it takes but im tired of waiting

i dont want to be patent anymore

iv tried to be happy here but its not working

please tell me is there even the sightst chance i can live again

if so ill anything

Jul 2, 2021 4:47 AM

Maggot and widow looked at each other, trying to come up with an answer. "There's not a way we know dear, not until a human caused a fuss by raising his cousin from the tomb. But that was ages ago." Widow said sadly. "Elder goodnicht might know. But I doubt he would help," maggot suggested

(whars the raising the dead thing from

emilys black eyes lit up and she smiled for the fisrt time that day

"Oh, what a fantastic idea!

she squealed jumping up

ill go see him right now

maggot u stay here with widow

we dont need a repete of last year

(from what?)

(it was from the bible. Jesus raising Lazarus.)

"Gladly. Just make sure she doesn't go petting all those smelly old crows!" Maggot said back.

emily just rolled her eyes that was excaty why she told him to stay

ill be back later

and with that she left the ally

u know u just set her up for dissappment

widow said

shes gonna end up getting her poor little heart crushed

hey i was just trying to help

maggot protested

i know and thats very kind of u

and your one to talk widow your the one whos always trying to keep her hopes up

Jul 2, 2021 7:09 PM

"well somebody has to! Tge poor girl is devastated!" Widow snapped

why are u pissed at me what the hell did i do now

maggot snapped back

Jul 2, 2021 9:36 PM

"I'm not pissed I'm just...I'm afraid for Emily. I didn't mean to take it out on you, love. You're just so darn candid." Widow said

im scared for her to i thought she was over this bullshit

uptill today she seemed fine

no nightmares

no crying

she was eating and talking to people

she wasnt even crying in her sleep anmore

and id know if she was cause i live in her head now

but now shes right back where she stared from

she hasnt left her room all day

she looks like shit

she hasnt eaten

shes crying again

and now shes hurting herself

and wants to leave

i dont think shed even want us as parents

and i know u feel the same cause i saw the look on your face

Jul 2, 2021 11:35 PM

hi! I'm back😊) "We just have to keep trying, maggot. She's got to accept the reality of it all. We have to help her, even if she doesn't want our help. We can't let her become a lost soul, forever longing for life and trapped between two worlds." Widow said softly. Maggot was right. What Emily said, how she reacted had broken her heart. But she couldn't abandon Emily.

crawling over to the pillow she curled up and began to wepp softly

holy shit i havent seen u cry since the furnel last year

wiggling over to her

Jul 5, 2021 4:27 PM

his own hurt feelings resufecing

(Emily or widow is crying?)

widow

emily already left

(

"I can cry! I have feelings just like anyone else in this family!" Widow so bed

*sobbed

well at least tell me why

your crying

maggot asked hesently storking her head with his tail

he was used to emily crying but not widow

shed always been the strong put though one

Jul 5, 2021 6:46 PM

Smartass as he was

And and as hardass as he tried to act

Deep down he was as emotional and kindhearted as both of his girls were

And knowing the women he loved more then life itself were in pain brought tears to his eyes

Jul 6, 2021 6:01 AM

"oh stop with all that nonsense! You're not failing you're mother. Nobody's pissed at you for leaving. They're all drunk and having a bloody good time. Do they wish you were there, yes? Do they understand why you left, yes? Don't worry about it!" Widow said

and that was enough to finally get though to her

she smiled

your right

im done moping

done crying

and done being depressed

"I'm going to take action! I'll find a husband and finally get out of here!" Emily declared

and u and maggot are coming with me

when i leave

she added

Jun 26, 2021 11:51 PM

She kissed her finger pressed it to widows head then stood up

Come on widow let’s go back to the party and have some fun

Jun 27, 2021 5:48 AM

"As you wish, dearie." Widow smiled. She was happy Emily was trying to move on. Even if she wasn't entirely happy yet, she could be way less sad.

Jun 27, 2021 11:37 AM

and with that they rejoined the party

the end

Jun 27, 2021 4:53 PM

Yay! Are you happy with how it turned out?

yes very

now we gotta do the other prequel

the bday one

Jun 27, 2021 8:27 PM

The birthday one? I've forgotten about that, what was that one about?

its gonna be a follow up to this one

its one year into her death

Oh right, I remember now.

this is where the things hinted at in the last one come in

we start with her alone in her room once again

the ally virabtes with tiny sobs

and sniffls

she sits on the stepsa buring candle in her lap

cold tears streaking down her pale blue cheeks

shes a mess

her beauful blue hair is a scarggly clumpy tangled mess

her mascura caked in the hollows of her eyes

making her look like a very pretty raccon

Jun 28, 2021 12:46 AM

Depressed, the only light she sees is the flame of the candle. She'd never notice how alive fire was. It made her jealous. "I could snuff you out right now, if I wanted." Emily tells it, her fingers coming close to the flame. But the fire is unafraid. It flickers in, as if she doesn't exist

Snilffing she boldly sticks one finger into the dancing flame

She expects to be burned, to feel any type of pain. But there's nothing. It all just feels cold. She's completely numb, everywhere but in the inside

If I touch a burning candle I can no pain

She whimpered

She try’s again with all the fingers of her right hand

Jun 28, 2021 3:55 PM

but just gets the same reselt

scwoling she looks at her left arm

though tearfilled eyes

and and hand

the skin has startd to dry and flake

from always having it sticking out of the ground

the thing her best friends warned her about has happened

"Horrid. Positively horrid." She sighs, looking forlorn. She wants to be sad about it but somehow she knows it's just how it is. There's no use crying over it

shed begain to rot

she drys her eyes with the backs of her hands then picking up the candle pours some hot wax into her open plam

"Nothing. No pain at all" she sighed, not realizing her guardians were approaching

she wanted to get the knife from under her pillow and slash her wrists

still not noticeing them she puts down the candle gets up and goes to her bed

drawing out the knife

to lost inher own mirsty

to notice

she puts the sharp blad to her left wrist and pulls it arcross

black tarlike blood ozzes from the the cut

bringing froth the smell of rot

but once again she feels no pain

if u cut me with a knife its still the same she sniffles and begins to sob again

her tears salting the wound

Jun 28, 2021 6:49 PM

hey what the hell do u think your doing

maggot yells

starling her and making her drope the knife

Jun 28, 2021 9:49 PM

hi

Jun 29, 2021 8:03 PM

so this is what happens if im not in your head all the time

u go and do something stupid like this

malating your pretty skin

and getting blood blood on your dress

sloppy carless stupid little goose

maggot snerred trying to hide how worryed he is

hurt embrassed and deprssed emily flopps sidways on the matresss and weeps into her pillow her bedgallged hair falling over her face

Jun 30, 2021 4:38 AM

(hi, sorry I was gone yesterday. I had a rough day at work and then just went straight to sleep when I got home.) "oh maggot, that's not the way! You're being too rough on the girl!" Widow chides. Quickly she runs over to Emily, creating a web with her spindly legs and putting it on Emily's wound like a bandage. "Rough!? I'm rough! If she wasn't already dead, she would have killed herself! We can't let her harm herself like that or she'll turn to dust before we know it!" Maggot bristled.

the thought of turning to dust made emily cry even harder

Jun 30, 2021 5:03 PM

"Shh! maggot! See what you did!" Widow snaps before turning to comfort Emily. "Don't listen to him Emmy, that won't happen. You'll have to be older than an Egyptian mummy before that happens. You'll never see that far because you're going to find a nice young man before then."

i dont see how now that im fucking rotting emily sobbed sitting up

look at me she wailes thrusting her [ealing arm at them

pealing

the cut had ripped off a chuck of skin eposing the bone under nethg

Jun 30, 2021 7:22 PM

more tears spill down her cheeks

Jul 1, 2021 1:15 AM

and her bottom lip quakes

"oh...oh dear, now don't cry! Uhm...perhaps the fancy ladies have something to cover it up! Perhaps needle and thread can do the trick." Widow suggested

well what about this emily whimpered getering to her stab wound that had now decayed to the point that her ribs showed

"I...I'm afraid it's too late for that, dear. But maybe the other spiders and I can repair the dress so it doesn't show?" Widow proposed. "What's the point! It would only get ruined again!" Emily wailed.

this is the wosrt fucking brithday ever she howled bursting into deep gurtter sobs

guttler

Jul 1, 2021 5:19 PM

chocking on her own tears

Jul 1, 2021 7:23 PM

"Please, love. Calm yourself. Remember your vow....Things will get better in time." Widow said, trying to console her.

iv tried but al its gotten me is this

emily sniffled

getinering to her arm again

she wiped her tears on the hem of her mothers dress

todays is a very hard day for me

id be 19 today

but inseed im stuck at 18 forever

which in itself wouldnt be so bad

but on top of everthing esle i aslo miss my family

mommy

daddy

lydia

but i never see any of them anymore

im fucking sick of being dead

i want to be alive again

surly there must be some way

Jul 1, 2021 11:47 PM

to revrese this mistake

and let me go back home to my family

she turned back to maggot and widow

maggot was hurt and ready to cry at the of her leaving

widow was alos hurt but maily cause emily spoke like she didnt think they were a good enough family

oh maggot dont u start crying again

i just manged to stop

to

and widow dont look at me that way

if i hurt your feelings im sorry

u know i think of u as my family

and that i love both more then anything in the world

but i dont belong here

i belonge upstaires

and i think my vow was a mistake

i know i said i would wait as long as it takes but im tired of waiting

i dont want to be patent anymore

iv tried to be happy here but its not working

please tell me is there even the sightst chance i can live again

if so ill anything

Jul 2, 2021 4:47 AM

Maggot and widow looked at each other, trying to come up with an answer. "There's not a way we know dear, not until a human caused a fuss by raising his cousin from the tomb. But that was ages ago." Widow said sadly. "Elder goodnicht might know. But I doubt he would help," maggot suggested

(whars the raising the dead thing from

emilys black eyes lit up and she smiled for the fisrt time that day

"Oh, what a fantastic idea!

she squealed jumping up

ill go see him right now

maggot u stay here with widow

we dont need a repete of last year

(from what?)

(it was from the bible. Jesus raising Lazarus.)

"Gladly. Just make sure she doesn't go petting all those smelly old crows!" Maggot said back.

(cool

emily just rolled her eyes that was excaty why she told him to stay

ill be back later

and with that she left the ally

u know u just set her up for dissappment

widow said

shes gonna end up getting her poor little heart crushed

hey i was just trying to help

maggot protested

i know and thats very kind of u

and your one to talk widow your the one whos always trying to keep her hopes up

Jul 2, 2021 7:09 PM

"well somebody has to! Tge poor girl is devastated!" Widow snapped

why are u pissed at me what the hell did i do now

maggot snapped back

Jul 2, 2021 9:36 PM

"I'm not pissed I'm just...I'm afraid for Emily. I didn't mean to take it out on you, love. You're just so darn candid." Widow said

im scared for her to i thought she was over this bullshit

uptill today she seemed fine

no nightmares

no crying

she was eating and talking to people

she wasnt even crying in her sleep anmore

and id know if she was cause i live in her head now

but now shes right back where she stared from

she hasnt left her room all day

she looks like shit

she hasnt eaten

shes crying again

and now shes hurting herself

and wants to leave

i dont think shed even want us as parents

and i know u feel the same cause i saw the look on your face

Jul 2, 2021 11:35 PM

hi

Jul 3, 2021 4:07 PM

(sorry gone on family vacation tty on monday!)

ok

Jul 4, 2021 6:35 PM

(hi! I'm back😊) "We just have to keep trying, maggot. She's got to accept the reality of it all. We have to help her, even if she doesn't want our help. We can't let her become a lost soul, forever longing for life and trapped between two worlds." Widow said softly. Maggot was right. What Emily said, how she reacted had broken her heart. But she couldn't abandon Emily.

crawling over to the pillow she curled up and began to wepp softly

holy shit i havent seen u cry since the furnel last year

wiggling over to her

Jul 5, 2021 4:27 PM

his own hurt feelings resufecing

(Emily or widow is crying?)

widow

emily already left

(

"I can cry! I have feelings just like anyone else in this family!" Widow so bed

*sobbed

well at least tell me why

your crying

maggot asked hesently storking her head with his tail

he was used to emily crying but not widow

shed always been the strong put though one

Jul 5, 2021 6:46 PM

Smartass as he was

And and as hardass as he tried to act

Deep down he was as emotional and kindhearted as both of his girls were

And knowing the women he loved more then life itself were in pain brought tears to his eyes

Jul 6, 2021 6:01 AM

hi

Jul 6, 2021 4:40 PM

(hi sorry I had a rough day) "Why do you think, Maggot? I keep trying and trying to keep this family together, but nothing I do is working. Emily is kind, but we're not really her family." Widow sobbed.

maggot was shocked at how much she sounded like him

right now

he wanted to tell her she was wrong but he could

not

so he jusy layed down next to her hugged her tight

and let the tears ran down his cheeks

i guess this means wer not gonna apot her after all are we

he whimperd

Jul 6, 2021 7:31 PM

"No...no maggot. We are. It's just...it's just going to be harder than we thought." Widow sbiffled

*sniffled

he nodded

as she wrapped her eight legs around him

then the two of them just lay there and cried their broken little hearts out

[away-ward]

wow, i read your alex's character analysis and i got some anon response to it. Disclaimer, i respect your opinion, just wanna share my thoughts, and also go off a total different tangent about how i see some scenes differently. Thank you for posting so much contents for dn, are you gonna do more of this with other characters?

now going back to the main point of this ask:

i think i know why i feel kinda tired about nightfall if i read it in your perspective: i feel like the way you read it is like you're emory before she met aydin, and i'm emory after she met aydin. The Feeling of dead and alive. Like in corrupt, michael said something: if you don't own it, it will own you, and i think the reason why emory doesnt mind much about anything anymore at that point of life and keep going forward despite the hurt and all that were caused by everyone around her, were because

1. She's so tired of waiting, she was trying to take more control of her life now, instead of just decaying, at least in the romantic and sexual aspect of her life,

2. she doesnt care about the specifics about who is hurting who anymore, because there's only so much to blame and expect from the things or people around her to fall into place like you / readers would expect them, but she can just do whatever things best she thought she could do at that time,

3. She wanted someone to guide her and be patient with her, which not even will was patient enough to learn how to love life with emmy, he only complained complained complained, and i hated how weak his character was, because he had everything, and she had nothing. All talk, but no action. Will was never patient with emmy, so i dont understand where did will's audacity was coming from? (This was a rhetorical question, no need to answer, i understood his pov, i was just voicing my thoughts when i read his words and actions). these charactrs (especially emory aydin will alex) were all very prideful people, so something has to give. They can't be like that forever, right? Something big has to happen to breakthrough these dramatic and extreme people. It's unfortunate it was aydin that we had to see emmy bonding with like this, or it was alex that she trusted and wanted to be in a sexual intimate situation with in fornt of everyone, instead of will and damon in the locker room, but it's just what it is, the timing wasnt right for emory will and dmaon + the horsemen were never really close to her either, so that train scene was more like how she was opening herself up and accepting their poly situation from there onwards. It wasn't just a show of trust, it's a show that her lifestyle was the same iwth them, and she wasn't ashamed of herself or them. That's why i guess it's easier for michael to help her later and talk a bit with her when they catch martin because her relationship now is beyond "just will's girl", but she is truly family. She accepted them, they accepted her. That's why rika had no doubt when she said "thank you for being my family". Emory might not have understood what that meant at that time, or even the readers, especially the ones who only read nightfall and not the books before, but rika expected emmy to show up from now on and fight for and with them like family just like how they would for her. (Side note, Unfortunately for us willemmy stans, even willemmy is poly-coded, we cannot get away from pd's sharing and poly dynamics' clutches). Do i think they look like clowns who take themselve sto seriously? Yes. But does emmy like this? Yes, 😭 unfortunately.

In this situation, as i read it (like emory) emory was the one owning them, and letting them join, not always the other way around. She is not being passive or expecting perfect detailed things from imperfect people to happen anymore, she can only deal with imperfect situations by owning who she is and go for it, even if it sounds stupidly unfair to us or she kept on hurting again (which is not true because we saw the moment she gave in, thinsg were chaning, sides were switched, and she got more allies instead of being isolated again). She was perfect for will and everyone when she just be herself and be what she wants or when she let herself be, instead of being someone she was not, even though it took her nearly a decade to admit (understandably because of her situation). By the time they got married, i believe that's why there were no resentment anymore from hee to the world or towards anyone really, for her part. A part of her that was hurting and self-destructive was finally growing up, and that where she wants to let herself be was still like a child in neverland. She never left thinder bay, she just grew up and accepted it. l feel very similar with her though, if i was her, after 10 years of disappointment by will and everyone around me including myself, i'd be so fucking tired of this self-destructive guy grayson and everything else too, but then i still wanna be with him and the past was not just one night, so i must have figured out that i really had to initiate things and have to do something to breakthough this shit, because unlike michael, kai and damon who were dominant and more outgoing with their pursuit of their S/Os, will was more submissive and tolerant, and coupled up with him being weak from ptsd and self-worth/confidence, they became his deadly passive combos, so willemmy's relationship would be at a stale point if emmy didnt do something. Unfortunate, by sigh what do you expect from a weak character/ love interest like will? That's why i like damon' line in the pool with kill switch when will threatened to hurt damon if he hurts winter, and damon replied "you dont have what it takes to be me" or something like that because as much a si hate damon, i agree. At leats damon worked for what he wanted despite how disgusting and cruel he was, will was only sitting on his high horse, coast through his life and expect things to fall into perfect place for him. And when it failed, he complaint complaint complaint. Like, will, how about you shut the fuck up sometimes?

4. since she felt like a dead leaf before aydin, always waiting, and never fighting for some of the things she wanted so much in life: like will (as opposed to her grandma's rights to heathcare and her own access career and education, that she fought for everyday, which was the opposite of banks. Banks fought for damon and kai, so she got damon and kai, but she was never as independent as emory or fought for her own things or demand education or other basic needs from anyone even though she grew similar to emory. She could even fought for these basic needs and beleive she didnt deserve to be happy to have them like emory, until emory apologized to will and resolved her (underdeserved) guilt, but banks never did. I was waiting for a breakthrough from banks like emory, but it never came. Even though emmy's wrap was hushed, it was there, but banks' never came.

We saw Emory had limits to what she can deal with, and while she would take a beating (only while she was still in the haze of abuse feeling like love, and when she still couldnt be fully financially independent from martin), emmy wouldnt let anyone take her basic rights to education, healthcare and safety away from her. These are things that i found very interesting about her, because if you ever have had to survive in the real world, even not to the extend of how emory had to, you'd know how hard it is to even do 10% the things she did without any support from anyone. Out of everyone in the series, emory scott will always get my utmost respect for this. Emmy had to be independent even though it was very scary, and had to lose so much if she chose these rights more than she chose will. This was why, even though i love nikova second from this series, i will always love emory more than her. It's just a personal preference tbh.

5. now, finally coming back to the main topic from my long tangent, Instead of letting things happen to her again and again and again, EMORY is happening to people. EMORY is taking the spotlight. And idk, i feel like a lot of your meta about alex in general gave too much expectation and unecessary light to alex, and it counter whatever things that emory was trying to do, if that makes sense? Idk, that's why i said we had very different way of looking at these scenes and prioritising which meaning we chose best how to see it, so it affects the way we saw them. Even after writing this long ask, i still agree with a lot of your points in your alex meta, but i guess i'm more delusional than i thought so even after reading your post, i still don't put too much emphasis on it. Idk, i feel like emory might have the same amount of delusion like me, that's why we move on easily? 😭😂

Granted, i still believe, it's pd who didnt write ir right, and fucked up their story, but like you said, i understand where you came from and i respect that, i'm just responding because you ask for opinions. Maybe i'm just a self-centred person so i never saw it like you? A but tired and self-propelled delusion like aydin and emory after blackchurch? Idk, but this is so interesting to me. What i know is, i feel everything, from jealousy, to envy, to sadness, to grief, to joy, yo happiness, to love, to list, to desire, and to all the weird feelings that i spcannot describe about this series. I hate it, but i kinda like it? Idk. But i do know emory hates to love it, lmao!

I guess when i'm reading nightfall, i was just reading it with a lot more positivity and delulu than you (?) and i didnt get caught up in these perfect details so much (like emory), but i feel like if people kept on reading nightfall like you, i can see why they would hate it so much. Pd already did a bad job with alex's character, especially in regards to her relationship with will and why the fuck cant they just say theyre only bffs who fucked a few times and never had anything more to emory?? And they always had to rub the fact they hooked up so many times in front of her too? All those time that will can put himself to care more about emory and starts to give a fuck more about what she needs. He had time to fuck alex and build a friendship and trust with alex, but no time to call emory? Nah, will grayson can die in a fucking ditch, not a real man to me. When aydin called him out in the shower, i fucking cheered. Cant believe will's dick even got limp when alex was moaning his name, willalex was so fucking embarrassing. Like willalex so fucking stupid, cant even do shit, two brains, but no single braincells spotted, they made me root for aydinemory instead, especially everytime willalex was fucking shit to emory. Like how can emory come to a point where she thought she was laying in a bed with will's gf alex? Why the fuck cant will just said he didnt feel the same for alex like he felt for emory? He only pined for her in his head! What, he though she was a mind reader or something? Stupid as fuck, god im such a will grayson hater honestly, i hate alex, but i will always hate will more, because he was the on who promised her the world, not alex, even though she was em's friend. Will was the one who owed her something 🙄 Serve them right when they were jealous af of her and aydin. Idgaf at that point if it just guves whatever aydin wants, but like a said, it's the matter of perspectives, i guess if you're delusional enough, it's not always about aydin. It's one of those "let women do whatever they want and let them define what they need instead of telling them how they feel".

at this point, idk anymore, what do you think? Just call me 😶‍🌫️

Hey! No worries about having a different take. I totally get that I come at this from an odd standpoint and do my best to respect and listen to other’s opinions. Thanks so much for taking the time to write such a long comment.

are you gonna do more of this with other characters?

Probably not. As you mention later on, I feel PD sort of messed up in writing Alex, specifically in Nightfall.

Throughout the entire series, the readers are reminded that Alex is beautiful and special and different. She’s warm, everyone's sister and mother. She’s a sexy vixen, but with a heart of gold, who’s experienced the worst life can throw at her, but managed to walk through the fire – in heels! And everyone between Rika and Emory says they can’t resist her charms. So why is it that whenever she opens her mouth in Nightfall, I hate her more? What are the characters seeing that I’m not seeing?

This seems like a conflict between the writer and the character, so I wanted to analyze Alex’s character scene by scene, to determine exactly why it is that I’m so dissatisfied with her, when, based on what is written, I am supposed to love her. At the same time, I’ve been asked previously if I could change any storyline what would it be, or what could have made certain aspects of Nightfall better. While I was spending the time analyzing, I figured now would be a good time to add in what I would have preferred. In this scenario, I would prefer if Alex had a clear motive for showing herself to Emory and actually followed through. When I read the scene, focusing on her instead of Emory, I found that I was irritated with her being dodgy and secretive. It also felt like Alex didn’t really want Emory there when they went into the passageways. So, then, what was the point of revealing herself?

Anyway. I don’t have a reason to do it for the rest of the characters, because I don’t feel the same conflict with them as a reader.

Reading farther into your comment, I agree with just about everything you’ve said regarding Emory, or at least, I’ve heard those opinions/interpretations before and see them as completely valid! There’s not a lot for me to reply to because I’m mostly nodding and agreeing as I read. Still, I’ll try to pull out some bits that I find interesting.

she was opening herself up and accepting their poly situation from there onwards. It wasn't just a show of trust, it's a show that her lifestyle was the same iwth them, and she wasn't ashamed of herself or them. That's why i guess it's easier for michael to help her later and talk a bit with her when they catch martin because her relationship now is beyond "just will's girl", but she is truly family. She accepted them, they accepted her.

As far as Emory being accepted into the family, I’ve always felt that they were meant to be close. I was just frustrated that we never got to see it. I’ve also always thought that all the couples shared each other sexually, but I would love some more Willemmy moments because they’re my favorite and I thought some of the opportunity for them were given to less important scenes.

However, I was surprised to find out that the “sharing” began again so much later? According to PD, Michael, Rika, Kai, and Banks don’t engage in this activity until the ten-year later mark. I mean, what?

will was more submissive and tolerant, and coupled up with him being weak from ptsd and self-worth/confidence, they became his deadly passive combos, so willemmy's relationship would be at a stale point if emmy didnt do something.

I think this is an excellent point. Many times, we’re reminded that Will doesn’t act on his own, and he likes it when Emmy is the aggressor and is forced to admit that she wants him too. Additionally, in Nightfall, he’s at the peak of his weakness, which causes him to be even more passive than usual. He also feels that he has a valid reason to hate her, so he's even more resistant to moving forward with her. Emmy did need to make the moves that drove the plot forward.

What I meant in my Alex post when I said they were at a standstill, was just that. I could see how, if Alex hadn’t come in, Emmy and Will would have continued to circle each other, making a little progress and then taking two steps back because they’re both too prideful and confused at the moment. Aydin would continue to pull their strings, never satisfied, because, as it would turn out, revenge isn’t actually what he wanted. And I know that, because throughout the entire series, revenge has never been what these guys truly wanted.

They wanted the girl.

Aydin wanted Alex. Making Will suffer was just his way of feeling better in the meantime. Even Aydin was surprised to see Alex at Blackchurch, so he wasn’t expecting her to come for Will. What was happening between Aydin and Emory was never about helping Emory, even if she did benefit from the things that he said and did. It was about making Will hurt.

Without Alex coming out of hiding, I think the story would have dragged. I just wish she was brought out of hiding with an actual plan/motive, instead of forced out by the author to move the plot along. That was my interpretation of the scene.

Banks fought for damon and kai, so she got damon and kai, but she was never as independent as emory

I thought this was interesting commentary on Banks. So often, Banks is herald as a queen of toughness and independence, especially since she inherited Gabriel’s fortune. I’m not saying she isn’t tough or independent, there’s something about how she’s never had to go out on her own; she never tried, even when Damon was in prison. She went from her mom’s to Gabriel’s under Damon’s care to Kai’s. And when Damon wasn’t there, Banks was still watched over and cared for by Gabriel’s staff.

I’m not going to try and compare Martin to Gabriel, but I can feel for Emory not having even a single person looking out for her, and I think it speaks volumes about Emory’s strength that she made it through so much.

you'd know how hard it is to even do 10% the things she did without any support from anyone. Out of everyone in the series, emory scott will always get my utmost respect for this. Emmy had to be independent even though it was very scary, and had to lose so much if she chose these rights more than she chose will. This was why, even though i love nikova second from this series, i will always love emory more than her. It's just a personal preference tbh.

I absolutely agree with this statement. Emory deserves all the recognition for what she managed to accomplish without support. As I’ve said before, Emory is the most accomplished, talented and skilled of all the girls, and she gets the least amount of acknowledgement for it. I will never be moved from that opinion.

i feel like a lot of your meta about alex in general gave too much expectation and unecessary light to alex, and it counter whatever things that emory was trying to do, if that makes sense?

I’m not quite sure what you mean.

As I mentioned earlier, my whole purpose with analyzing that scene the way I did was to figure out specifically why Alex was annoying me personally. It’s one thing to say she’s being annoying, but what is she actually doing that’s irritating. Characters can be irritating, and for reasons that make sense. Sometimes that's the case. In this situation, I don't think her actions make sense and not in a way that the character is just making decisions that are different from what I would want, but that... her presence in the scene doesn't make sense.

Emory in that scene is fine. She handles everything the way I’d expect someone in her situation to do, even if she is a lot more tolerant than I would be, and I wasn’t bothered by her at all – except for the moment she starts to talk about how wonderful Alex is because I’m so tired of being told how wonderful Alex is without understanding why Alex is so wonderful.

i was just reading it with a lot more positivity and delulu than you (?) and i didnt get caught up in these perfect details so much (like emory), but i feel like if people kept on reading nightfall like you, i can see why they would hate it so much.  

If this is one of the few things you’ve read from me, I can understand why you’d think that, but truthfully, I approach Nightfall with so much hope and positivity. I usually try to talk about the potential that is there; how much I love Thunder Bay, and the world, how the characters (in my idealistic and delulu world) could be a great example of a chosen family. There’s so much here to build on, and I find that it’s enjoyable and fun to joke about if people can get over how much they hate one or two aspects of it.

You went on a little Will rant, which is fine. I've heard it all before 😂

I'll circle back to Aydin, because I think there might be a misunderstanding about why I dislike Aydin, though I’ve touched on it a few times.

I fully understand that Emory needed guidance, and someone who cared about her and validated the decisions she made. Emory put herself first for once in her life, and she carried a lot of guilt for the consequences of it. She never wanted to hurt anyone. Aydin told her what she needed to hear to finally move on from that misplaced guilt, so that she can start to fight more for herself instead of just letting things happen around her.

The part that I get stuck on is that Aydin gets the credit for making Emory feel better. People celebrate him for validating her, and taking her side when Will "never did." Which I also don't understand what that means, but that's for another time.

The way I see it, nothing that happened between Aydin and Emory was because Aydin wanted to build Emory up. She was a pawn to him. As a review: Aydin had Emory drugged, kidnapped, and put on an island inhabited by criminals, because he wanted to hurt Will. Emory is forced into a terrible situation because of something Alex and Will have done, but nobody blames Aydin for thinking this was a way to deal with his jealousy.

Another thing that bothers me is how Aydin knew about Emory in the first place. Will wasn't being vocal about his feelings for Emory. As many people like to point out, he didn't call or reach out, or do anything to involve himself in her life. For five years, he spent his time drunk, high, and buried in women, most often Alex.

Nine years since he'd seen or spoken to Emory. Will's feelings for her would not be so obvious to people on the outside. At that point, there should have been only two things that connected them.

One was Will burning her gazebo. That could be written off as Devil's Night antics.

The other was the video of Will assaulting Martin. However, Martin and Will had issues outside of Emory, with the way Martin had constantly been pursuing him because he was the "stupid" one.

To even get to Emory being Will's weakness, someone would have to dig deep. Because of how deep they'd have to go, I am not convinced that Aydin wasn’t at least somewhat aware of Emory’s abuse. Even if there isn’t a record of it, Martin was obviously a dirty cop. Emory taking her college money to take care of her grandmother while she’s in school, and figuring that out on her own, never returning home or acknowledging Martin in any way, would be a clear indication that something wasn’t right with the Scott family. Aydin is intelligent, manipulative, and has experience with men like Martin. He’d know the signs.

Aydin used her history of abuse to manipulate her. Just because some of the things he said made her feel better, and she was able to improve her mental and emotional state, doesn’t erase what his motive was.

Emory benefited, and that’s great. But she only benefited, because of the way she looked at the situation – not because it was Aydin’s goal to help her. He wanted to get into her head and be her reasoning, so that he could hurt Will, because of Will’s relationship with Alex.

I won’t give him credit because Emory improved her condition. I put him on the same level as Alex and Will in the way they did Emory wrong. The reason I give Will any slack is that he apologized for what he did, and tried to make amends. Aydin and Alex never did; Emory gave them her acceptance because she's genuinely a kind person, despite everything that's been done to her.

But that’s my unpopular opinion for the day. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! I really enjoyed the ask and hope you didn’t mind my rambling as well.

-KO

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