#i will be honest

[kinos-fortress-2]

i hate painting, i hate backgrounds, i hate pastels, i hate perspective, i hate drawing, i hate buildings, i hate floors, i hate corners, i hate interiors, i hate coloring, i hate rendering, i hate choosing colors by myself, i hate lighting, i hate shadows, i hate art and i hate everything.

#… #this was for an assignment anyways rolls eyes crosses arms #and the worst part is i got the notification for the grade… 85/100 #i hate college too #i will be honest #i spent like 2 hours in this bullshit (plus bc i get distracted) and it looks like shit ofc i will get 85

[baronessblixen]

Could you write a story about that trash scene where Scully isnt completely okay after the fall?

Hurt/comfort for "Nothing Lasts Forever". This is set the night before the scene in the church.

Fictober Day 7 | Tagging @today-in-fic @xffictober2022 | Wc: 1328.

There's No Place Like Home

Scully’s pungent smell may be worrisome for his nose, but it’s not why Mulder keeps shooting concerned glances at his partner after her fall down the trash chute. It’s the way she walks. 20 years of having her walk beside him, towards him, and away from him, but this is new. She’s limping. As much as she’s trying to pretend she’s fine and trying to disguise it by moving slowly, Mulder isn’t blind – even if his eyesight is no longer what it used to be.

“Stop staring at me, Mulder,” she says. “Please.”

“You’re not fine,” he says.

“I’m just a bit sore.”

“You should get checked out at a hospital. I can drive you.”

“No,” she says, picking up speed to prove her point to him. “Look, I’m fine. I just need to walk it off.” He loves her stubbornness. Once, she told him that she fell in love with him because he was stubborn. Well. That was the pot calling the kettle black. No one is as stubborn as his Scully. Any other day, he finds it cute. When she refuses to budge because she knows how things should be done, he admires it. But when she’s hurt, hobbling away from him, holding her side and grimacing, just so she can appear invincible, he can’t accept it.

“Scully,” he says gently, taking her arm. She stops walking but avoids his eyes. “You can’t outhobble me, you know.” His words have the desired effect and she chuckles, only to wince a moment later.

“And you can’t just make words up.”

“Watch me. Where does it hurt?” He asks. “And please be honest,” he adds, searching her face.

“My back,” she admits in a whisper. “My hip, too.”

“That’s it,” Mulder says. “I’m taking you to the hospital.”

“Mulder, wait. It’s not that bad,” she says and he’s ready to protest when she stops him with a hand on his chest. “I don’t need to go to a hospital. Take me home.”

“Home,” he repeats slowly as if he’s just learned the word.

“Yes, home,” she says, taking his hand into hers. They hobble to the car together.

Just like he suspected, Scully falls asleep on the drive home. For just a moment he considers driving to the hospital anyway, just to have her checked out. He can’t help but worry about her. Now, or ever. But he values her trust too much to disrespect her wishes like that. He will be by her side, her best friend, her partner, and her substitute doctor all in one. If anything changes, if her condition worsens, he will drive her to the hospital, no matter what it is.

He glances over at her, smiling softly. How long has he wanted to hear her say these words? Take me home. He wishes it hadn’t been because of her fall, but these days he takes whatever he can get. And after all, he gets to bring her home, where she belongs.

“Scully,” Mulder murmurs, gently touching her hand. “We’re here.”

“Home already?” She opens one eye to squint at him and his heart soars when she gives him a droopy smile. “Hey,” she says.

“Hey,” he replies with a quick laugh. “Want me to carry you?” She seems to consider it, but then she shakes her head.

“Just help me out.”

This, he figures, might just be a taste of their future when they’re old and frail. Well, older and even more fragile. They need twice as long to cover the distance from the car to their house, taking baby steps. Mulder is half carrying Scully, his arm around her waist, but making sure he’s not putting pressure on her sore hip.

“You sure you don’t want me to carry you?”

“I’m sure, Mulder,” she says through gritted teeth. “I can do this.” In the end, they do it together. Step by step and always in sync, they make it inside the house.

“You made it,” Mulder says, kissing her cheek.

“I might need your help with the stairs,” she laments.

“That’s what I’m here for.”

They both know they’d get upstairs faster if only she’d let him carry her. But she refuses. Instead, she grips his hand tightly, his knuckles turning white, and does it herself. Five minutes later they take the last step and Scully leans heavily against him.

“Bed,” he says, leading her into the bedroom.

“I can’t go to bed like this,” she says, following him on slow feet.

“You can wear an old shirt of mine. You haven’t stolen all of them yet.” He winks at her.

“I mean….” She looks up at him, almost shy. “I fell into ten years worth of trash. I need a shower.”

“No way,” he says. “You barely made it up the stairs. I’m not letting you into the shower, no matter what you smell like.” Her face falls. “But I have an idea.”

Mulder helps her undress, having done it hundreds of times. They don’t speak as she rests her hands on his shoulder so he can take off her pants and underwear. He’s meticulous in his work and Scully lets him do it, following his movements like a marionette.

“Oh Scully,” he says when he sees colorful bruises growing on her beautiful skin. He runs a finger over one that's purple and deep before he kisses it gently.

“Mulder, I stink.”

“No, you don’t.” She raises her eyebrows, giving him a skeptical look. “Fine, you do. But not for long.” Mulder wets a washcloth and puts some of her shower gel on it that she left and that he never had the heart to throw away. He keeps his touches light and delicate as he runs the cloth over her skin, wanting to be thorough but gentle.

“Tell me if I hurt you.”

“You won’t,” she assures him.

By the time he’s done, she’s leaning heavily against the wall with half-lidded eyes, her skin peppered with goosebumps. He’d feel self-conscious about her falling asleep while he’s touching her, but instead, he’s honored. No matter what they are or aren’t at the moment, she trusts him enough to let him take care of her.

Together they get her into an old pair of boxer shorts and one of his shirts. Scully takes a deep breath, a smile playing around her lips.

“What?” Mulder asks her, carefully leading her back into the bedroom.

“Smells like you,” she says. “Smells good.”

“Get into bed,” he says, his voice full of emotion. She crawls in, claiming her side of the bed. Mulder tucks her in and presses a kiss to her forehead. Just as he’s about to get up, she grabs his arm.

“Where are you going?” She asks him.

“The couch,” he says.

“Stay here, please.”

He stares at her, mulling over her words, wondering why she’s doing it now. After their tryst a couple of months ago, he had hope. So much hope. Only to have it crushed again. They keep coming back to this moment, to toeing the line, always falling back on the safe side, where they don’t share a bed or a home.

“I’m not high on painkillers, Mulder,” she says as if reading his mind. “Or in any way compromised. I just want you here with me. If that’s… if that’s what you want to, too.”

“More than anything else in the world, Scully.”

“Then take off your clothes and get into bed.”

“You’re bossy,” he says with a grin, undressing quickly.

“I thought you knew that,” she replies with a yawn. Her eyes are closed when he gets in next to her, but she scoots closer to him like she used to do back when things were different. He barely dares to breathe, worried he might hurt her, worried she might change her mind.

“I missed you so much,” he whispers into the dark, convinced she’s already asleep.

“I missed you more," she mumbles back.

And they sleep.

#fictober2022 #hurt/comfort my beloved #i have a few(?) prompts for this episode #i will be honest #my inbox is a mess #so many prompts #but i'm still trying to answer them #msr #xf fanfic #my writing #my fic

[monochromaticblue]

madea and moriarty are such cool personas!

Medea was an idea from my friend who’s helping with the au!! With Ann’s velvet room being a theatre we wanted to at least have Arsene and Satanael be characters from plays.

There were also a few jokes thrown around about fusions being more Steven universe style than executions

As for Goro, Shido takes over Kamoshidas role, now just an abuser. Goro is entirely compliant when it comes to his father, which is exactly the thing to lead to his awakening. What better persona for someone tired of being nice than the Lord of Crime himself!

Typing this out, it is similar to what Yusukes whole awakening is planned to be. But I think as opposed to Goro just going along with things and not speaking up, Yusuke is more doing what everyone tells him? There’s a difference to me but.

Anyways!! I like to ramble so asks about this au make me very happy

#arcana swap #arcanaswap #p5 swap #ann takamaki #goro akechi #yusuke kitagawa #persona 5 au #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #I will be honest #I haven’t worked on a lot of characters other than Akira. #but I have some vague ideas

[itsybitsybatsyspider]

#dbh #Gavin reed #Tina Chen #i will be honest #this is from my personal photo album and that is someone i know #im not in this video #but they sent it to me and this was all i could think about

[yasu-1234]

do you have plans on writing more virginity loss fics? i really love how you wrote geto and i wanna read one about nanami in your writing style T_T begging not begging

i do but it’s for ino and choso ☺️ im currently writing a nanami fic but with a different trope. very sorry for this but i hope you will like it anyway 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️

here’s a snippet under the cut

#inbox angels #here have some crumbs #i will be honest #im a little bored with writing smut #but i like nanami very much so i am pushing myself to finish this #nanami eats coochie like a man starved but we all know that

[solpuff]

GUYS. I finally beat malenia. I wasn’t even intending to beat her that attempt, i was in shock when i beat her. Complete shock. Could not process it. BUT I DID IT! Yippee!! Now on to farum azula, wish me luck

#elden ring #malenia #malenia blade of miquella #eeeehehehehe #i will be honest #i was using 70 different passive healing spells and somehow was able to do more damage to her than her healing from my mimic tear couldtake #if you get lots of health and use several passive healing spells you can do basically anything even if ur bad at the game #im the one thats bad at the game btw #thats why it was so shocking to me

[vespertinefantasy]

Send asks to keep me company!

#I will be honest #anons are welcome #mine #send asks #anons #nsft asks

[mrfandomwars]

Got frustrated with Ahsoka today so have two things I would do to make her more interesting, feel free to take them an make fics and aus as long as credit is given:

Darksider Ahsoka - Consider that the whole warning during the Mortis arc is actually used and Ahsoka Falls, and she becomes a Terrifying opponent because she was trained by Vader, even if in his Anakin's era.

[More under cut]

She is a Menace as a Darksider, maybe keeping in the shadows and making every New Republic secret network Unsafe because she helped set them up as Fulcrum. Worried about the Sequels? No problem! Secret Darksider Ahsoka! Everyone top level of the New Republic knows and is trying to Stop Her but Ahsoka was the Fulcrum, which meant Spying and staying undetected, she could totally do that to the New Republic where they can't do Anything to stop her You could even bring Original Trilogy Group (Han Solo, Lando Clarissian, Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Chewbacca) back to act as the main heroes! Want the Rebels back too? Have them as one of the people that Ahsoka is Playing and them slowly learning it and joining sides with the OT Group! Also way to fix the live action lekku problem - too long would be impratical? Ahsoka VS Luke lightsaber fight, Luke LOSING Badly and someone grabs a saber - maybe Luke lost his or something - and cuts off Ahsoka's lekku's - saving Luke and resolving the problem. You can have her Come Back to the light side but haver her Choices haunt her after Mando contacts her because he needs help from a Jedi and he lost Luke's Number? She gives him Luke's number because She Can't help him, she doesn't consider herself a jedi even more and the republic won't allow her into any more battles in fear she will turn on them AGAIN

Maybe she is in fucking jail or Can't be put in a jail for whatever reason (maybe she came out as a Jedi survivor and explained everything she did to help the Rebellion to trap the New Republic Even More so they couldn't Act against her in public) so she is watched 24/7 - maybe by the Rebel Crew or Sabine for some reason (hence giving Sabine a reason to be with her and a whole nother stress for finding Ezra! because Ahsoka Can Not Leave Republic Space Or Enter Battles) and is trying to get back to being a Jedi, to clinging to the Lighside/Balance and trying to remember every single Jedi Philosophy she was taught

And also come to turns that Anakin wasn't the best Master for her, that he taught her somethings wrong that she will have to unlearn Alone and try to figure out how the Jedi taught it, what was the correct way to learn.

Because there are no more Prequel Jedi around to help her

Semi-Immortal Ahsoka - we all know that Star Wars media won't let people age - main example being the whole mess with Bo-Katan - and we know Filoni won't let Ahsoka die.

So! Since we know that, how about we take it and run with it?

Ahsoka who became semi-immortal because of being brought back by the Daughter so now she ages MUCH slower and will outlive EVERYONE SHE HAS LEFT THAT SHE CARES ABOUT, who will live to millions

If she doesn't die again that is

Because I'm thinking of like. A timer. That resets every time she dies

(you can take this further and say that she ends up back to the age of when the Daughter rescued her every time shed dies and maybe or not it takes longer every time for her to age past that age)

Ahsoka who learned the hard way how to be The Fulcrum via A Lot Of Deaths that earned her the rumour that she fakes her death A Lot to avoid taxes/jk

Ahsoka who grows afraid of getting the same attachment (as George Lucas Defined Attachment, not the common misconception you fools) problems as Anakin and adding in the fact that no matter what she does she will outlive people so she Stays Away from everyone even more because she doesn't want to go through the pain of losing people

so why get close in the first place?

#I will be honest #the last one is more out of irritation than anything #ahsoka tano #ahsoka #star wars ahsoka #mr talks #star wars #aus #ideas #mr ideas

[newfullcresc]

I hope I am not just a friend to you, but also a man and also a concept and also a dog

#this is me #korean artist #trans artist #gender is stored in the dog bone necklace #I smoked a joint for the first time the other night #I will be honest #the experience falls just under the time I ate a 100mg edible #on the rankings of: least favorable weed experiences to most favorable #but I’ve had a lot of weed experiences so it’s not particularly easy to rank them #sorry for the rambling in tags I haven’t been medicated in over half a year now

[stellamancer]

all my intent to write and brain has gone out the window cuz nier: rein dropped the new grind skin for my favorite boy

#niku plays gacha games #i didn't think he'd be next like wowie #but man sucks that no more english vo support #i will be honest #the last grind skin i did was for a character that shares the same english va as gojo

[navajja]

hold up- lemme enhance on the 6th panel of the 4th part of ur erasermic comic- is that a binder on aizawa??? is aizawa trans in this au???😱😱😱💕

WELL, if he is, it is definitely t4t.

#i will be honest #t4t is how i think them most of the time #but usually that kinda stuff swifts back and forth in my head so sometimes i don't really choose something but i usually leave the space #for people to make this kinda assumptions #t4t erasermic is my favorite #but this comic ain't about that specifically #and yeah Aizawa would definitely run around wearing a binder for months thinking it is ok #and mic got his chest done after school bc his moms payed for that #nava answers

[arathergrimreaper]

Some of us need to go back to kindergarten rules like 'keep your hands to yourself' and 'treat others the way you want to be treated'.

#anya says shit #i will be honest #the keep your hands to yourself one always sounded weird when i was little #just the way they phrased it my young autistic brain pictured hugging my unattached hands to me and not letting anyone have them??? #anyone else have that problem? #it made a lot more sense when adults would say 'don't touch this' or 'put your hands on the cart' #'keep your hands to yourself' required some gymnastics from me idk why

[weird-bookworm]

soonyoung's going crazy and i don't know if i should join in in the chain reaction of carats going crazy or if i should just be me and not care about lol

#i'm the weird category of fan #who doesn't go crazy seeing a hot pic 😅 #like #veins? #fine #abs? #i'm an indian. actors are practically roaming around shirtless here #pecs? #ok they do be hot #on a different note #i will literally melt seeing a remotely cute pic though #so i guess it cancels out lmao #i will be honest #svt is a completely new species #because i have found myself going a little delulu seeing hot pics #it's a new feeling #EITHER WAY #good night #sky's thoughts <3 #svt #seventeen #hoshi

[zelda7999]

cracks knuckles* Okay, so first of all I want to say New Horizons is Sweethearts the fic! Neon and Eclipse are just so cute together and it made me smile how quickly they clicked. Like they just Got each other. The fact that they have such similar interests helps a lot of course and it's so cute how they have found in each other someone that allows them to get excited and build on each other's energies!

They're also very observant of what the other needs, even if trying always not to overstep. When it comes to each other at least XD The complete disregard of the agencies secrecy rules made me laugh out loud, but I guess it doesn't make as much sense to worry about that when they are working in a lab where it's unlikely there will be external dangers haha.

Which is also hilarious taking into account the Accidentally Undercover storyline, since Sun and Moon are pining their hearts away, wondering how they could ever get close to their coworker/landlord while Eclipse just looks at them casually fidgeting with something and going: What? Like it's hard? XD

I also like how you have established the kind of affection that is so compatible between them. Eclipse especially caught my attention because his actions speak so loudly, and what they are saying is simple: stay. Eclipse pays so much close attention to neon. What they need to fidget with, what they need to keep them in top shape, and what will make them comfortable, especially in his apartment. And it makes sense! Since a lot of his insecurities are rooted in what happened with his brothers, thinking he wasn't wanted, that he was too close and that they needed space away from him, his way of showing affection would be to make it clear someone is welcomed in HIS personal space. No pushing away. (which must be hard because he does need to ask for space when he knows he might get a crash soon, but he doesn't want anyone to feel like he did when he was pushed away). And Neon's preferred way to get affection compliments it really well! Because they like contact, and closeness! And Eclipse can see that and feel welcomed as well. Especially when it's clear Neon WANTS him around, wants him in their space and sharing what makes them happy with him. And then they match his efforts to welcome him and it must have been such a big deal to him!! Even if the last chapter was a bit sadder, he was reassured he WAS wanted!

So in conclusion, good fic, wholesome times make me smile, and two goofs finding and complimenting each other feels me with fuzzy feelings! Awesome work with the characterizations all around

Oh and as a sidenote I love reading about the inventions as well! Very interesting!

OKAY SO I AM ACTUALLY WRITING THIS ANSWER TO YOU ON ANOTHER DOC SO I CAN ACTUALLY MAKE COHERENT THOUGHTS. CAUSE THIS HAS ME SO EXCITED I AM SHAKING.

AND THIS IS ALL GOING UNDER A READ MORE CAUSE OH GOSH THIS IS LONG KJSLHADFKJHFKJ

OKAY OKAY FIRST!! Yes!! Eclipse and Neon click immensely well! They both got their jobs ‘cause they’re good at what they do, and it definitely helps they both have a flare for doing things dramatically.  N because they’re both lil nerds in the same/similar fields, them being able to talk to someone who has the same flare AND interests? INSTANT SPARK N GOOD ENERGY! Once these two get going, they will NOT stop!~

Second!!! Yesssss they’re very observant! ‘Cause to them the first step to a good relationship (romantic or not) is to know what the other likes/is comfortable with. It’s also why during the very first chapter Neon jokingly thinks “is this love?” or hints at it several times. ‘Cause Eclipse just naturally started watching them n analyzing them. (remember, he is naturally curious about everything after all! If he can be a possibility, anything can. So everything is worth paying attention to!) Like how he notices Neon struggling with something on the top shelf but they don’t ask for help, so he just gets it for them. They were struggling > He waited > They didn’t ask > He helped.

AND YES, THEY JUST THROW AWAY THE AGENCY’S RULES. CAUSE WHY START NOW WHEN THEY NEVER LISTENED TO BEGIN WITH??? Hehehhe Luce made a comment once in the tags and it was legit this: Sun/Moon: Whoa is us, we’ll never get close to our crushes :( Eclipse: What? Like it’s hard? and I have been thinking about it ever since KJLHSDKFJL every chapter it springs to mind.

THIRD!!! my first reaction when reading the analysis of their love languages was: “Woah, even I didn’t think of that. I was just writing” But after thinking a bit I also realized; It was mostly based off the info we have about Eclipse. (and Neon is just me with a funny hat on, but we don’t need to talk about that… haha)

Tho I legit did not realize how I was writing Eclipse was giving the impression of “stay” ‘cause while I was kind of aiming for it I didn’t realize I was doing it. I didn’t realize his actions spoke, and dear lord have they been speaking. (I suppose I now understand why Daye always says I write them naturally. It just, HAPPENS) I have stared a lot at all the Eclipse poses from Luce, enough so I have a whole folder bookmarked of just posts with him for when I do writing. He has a lot of trauma from the two people in his life leaving, and then not showing him that they care. Sun and Moon SUCK at showing him they actually care about him. He needs to know they want him there, and yet they hardly talk to him. It’s hard to invite people back into your life when they already left, and even harder to bring people in when you’re scared they’ll leave. So I’m glad I managed to get across that he really really just wants Neon to stay. ‘Cause I think of his trauma, but I don’t… I guess actively think of how I am writing it. I just do it.

As for Neon… Neon was easy. As I mentioned, just me with a funny hat. This fic is very very self indulgent, I love the mans! So I just threw myself in there along with my love languages. So Neon loves physical touch, even if it’s as simple as sitting close enough to have contact. They will always invite someone into their personal space because they want them there.

I didn’t originally mean for them to mesh this well, but it worked out very well in the end! We have two love struck puppies who just want each other in their lives <3

Also thank you for reading!! I’m so glad you enjoyed it so much!! Sorry if my thoughts/reply isn’t coherent! Unlike you I do not analyze things well, nor do I formulate good replies. This is why I scream when I like something XDD AAAAAAAAAAA is easier than this is!

#Ask Zelda #chaotikanvas asks #New Horizons #Accidentally Undercover #Accidentally Undercover Fanwork #HOOOOOOOOLY SHIT #YOU REALLY THOUGHT THIS THROUGH #I will be honest #I do not think when I write #I just... do it? #Once I have a good understanding of the character #I just go ham #brain empty no thoughts #So when i read all of this #I was like #whoa! I did that?? Me??? I provoked this thought???? #cause I didn't even know it was there LMAO #But if I think longer it makes sense #cause it's in the back of my mind #ANYWAYS I AM RAMBLING #ENJOY THE REPLY #I HOPE I WAS COHERENT

[greenfiredragonfly]

...I can't help it. at a very deep, fundamental level, I can't help but think of myself as anything other than...well...a lousy person. I can't not think of myself that way. I keep trying, but...

#personal #:/ #it does make it quite difficult to have hope for my own future #i will be honest

[kate66s]

More of the small writing I did today

I think I know why I enjoy looking into your eyes.....you have these beautiful ocean eyes....yes....I see the ocean in your eyes......deep grey blues, riddled with sorrows and joys only the world could ever wonder.....filled to the brim with emotion and mystery that it causes you to dive into their gaze....and hoping you never have to come back up for air.....for to leave that beautiful gaze....is to make your soul weep for longingness to be back in that gaze once more

#writing #my writing #i will be honest #I was simping for a character #while I was writing stuff