#i wish I didn't have a car

[sysig]

Can you please draw Edgar and Johnny stargazing or something like that

Day 8 - Stargazing

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Nny #Edgar #I actually went and looked up what constellations are most visible around this time of year lol #I've never gone looking for Pegasus :0 I wonder how much we can see from here #Gotta be a clear night for it! Chilly #So cold that their noses have gone red haha - they're all bundled up but that car hood has to be freezing #I super didn't want to draw a car so I mostly cheated lol ♪ It's close enough! #I could've drawn them on a late-night picnic I guess but them laying on the hood of the car is just the Most Correct y'know? #They're gonna be frozen solid once they're done lol #Oh no however will they warm up lol #That said they're not even touching while sitting out here haha ♪ Nny doesn't like it! His arm is fully over his waist! #Did Nny have the beanie or did he borrow it? Who's to say #Edgar would have a matching scarf to go with his favourite shirt tho he's a dork like that <3 #Same reason he'd know which constellation Nny's pointing at like that - bookish nerd ♥ #Gosh this one was close to being posted outside of the usual 2:30 time! Hopefully that won't be a theme #Wish me luck ♫

[samwpmarleau]

JAMIE & KEELEY            ↳ 1.03 Trent Crimm, The Independent

#thing keeley misses most: jamie's car #she's driving it in 3 of their 4 episodes #i have many thoughts about how jamie would be legitimately furious at the invasion of privacy #bc like. keeley talks about the shitty headlines but what she says *jamie* would be mad about is the media getting up in their business #i get why we didn't see more of their relationship #we had to see jamie as a dick and superficial at this point #but man do i wish we had #jamiekeeley in every episode #jamie tartt #keeley jones #jamie x keeley #ted lasso #tedlassosource #tedlassoedit #tledit #tl #mine

[juniperleafdelivery]

#my art #trans #side note: following tags are a pretty long thought dump #ugh okay i'm going to be honest #i didn't know anything about predstrogen until she was banned and many people started talking about her #also looked through photomatt's blog very briefly #to me he sounds callous- if that's the right word. he just didn't seem to care about what happened to predstrogen prior to her being banned #also? car with hammers that explodes multiple times feels far from being a serious death threat to me #yes predstrogen explicitly mentioned death wishes #but i don't know. what she said is more cartoonish than serious #also something i noticed from photomatt: where is the evidence that predstrogen threatened other users? #i haven't been looking into all this that deeply #but that photomatt stating that as part of the reason for predstrogen's ban and then not elaborating is. weird. for lack of better words #on a slightly different note: i love tumblr and how i can be my silly queer self and nobody cares #but if we don't stand up for each other — especially those who are constant targets for harrassment and other crappy things #tumblr will eventually die or bear no resemblance to the site i enjoy so much #maybe i'm privileged! being a trans masc guy #or maybe i'm ignorant #but i guess i have a tendency to say a lot. and i hate staying silent when i have the opportunity to speak out #so i'm going to scream #and i hope y'all are going to speak in support of trans women too

[bugsbenefit]

all i'll say about Noah's video is that i think it's weird people are calling it a "bad apology", because it's not even an apology video. the only thing he says is that his opinions have been misconstrued and that he doesn't want people to die, which, yeah, he already said before. there's no sorry, from the video alone you wouldn't even know if he's aware of what he did that made people turn on him so fast in the first place

i know the norm nowadays is to call any response to an issue/a situation an "apology" but sometimes it's just a statement, which is what this is. if he was genuinely "apologizing" he'd have to address the actual things he did, like keep misinformation up, even after it's been disproven and worst of all the "zionism is sexy" thing. what he's doing is just cautious backpeddling by saying everyone got him wrong. just a pretty obvious pr nothing-statement sadly

#seen some people say to watch his 'apology' and just... why are you calling it that #he only doubles down on not wanting anyone to die which is something he's already said before #i didn't expect him to actually reflect and do a 180 in a few months so i'm not surprised #if he ever does change his mind i'd expect it to take a few years at least #but well... just seems like a damage control press statement he's making because of ST production starting up again #my opinion on it in case you're curious #but also obligatory holy shit it's tiring to see people immediately jump to wishing death and disgusting things on him and his family #unproductive as hell #posting online about how much you want a celebrity with a shit moral complex to get hit by a car or something is Still not activism #shockingly #so nothing's changed essentially #that 1 minute video really did nothing who would have thought

[woniiwasp]

charon driving only the best vehicles that r/shitty_car_mods has to offer

#limbus company #charon lcb #artists on tumblr #i wish that shittycarmodsdaily didn't get deleted CHANGE YOUR URL was my favorite running joke #no i have not read leviathan. i do not know what charon's deal is. however i fully support her running over pedestrians #my art #i have no idea if charon lcb is another tag for another chara but i see lcb for limbus a lot so SORRY IF IT'S NOT A LIMBUS CHARA TAG #actually no i'm not sorry you get to see these beautiful beasts #i would not be annoyed to see shitty cars in a tag i track even if it's fully unrelated to the tag i track

[chenziee]

Me: *is tired, overwhelmed, with like 10 things I need to write, including 5 lawlus*

Also me: I want to write some lawlu...

#i just have no energy this week 😭 #or you know.. this year #so tired #so very tired #i need a three month long (at least) paid vacation #also wish shit would stop happening #the expenses keep piling up.. #no i still haven't taken my laptop for repair and no i still don't have a new chair #i wish my workplace didn't move i have to spend so much more on gas than i paid for my yearly transport pass... #but it's a fucking murder going *there* by public transport it takes an hour by bus-bus-train while it's 15-20 miutes by car.... #i seriously need the fucking chair tho my back is killing me... #anyway #somebody pay me to write lawlu? ahaha #jk #unless? #katie thinks she's relevant #delete later

[itwoodbeprefect]

bingewatching youtube videos from mostly us americans and canadians about dutch road and city design with my jaw on the floor. oh dear god. oh dear GOD there's a lot of stuff i take for granted

#i went into this being like. it would really suck not to have bike lanes! i would hate having to drive a car to get places! #and then i watched all of this footage showing direct comparisons of roads in different countries and different cities #and uh. hmmmmm. #currently i think i'm at. ARE there people in north america who HAVEN'T been hit by a car??? ARE YOU OKAY #i know the answer to that last bit is no. i know you already wish it were different. i'm not trying to tell you Did You Know- #i'm just saying that uh. i think i thought i knew!! and now i think i mostly really didn't!! #(if a car hits a person you blame the person for WALKING THERE? cars hit BUILDINGS ALL THE TIME??? and this is NORMAL???) #and also. i wish safe walkable bikable cities upon all of you. and also public transit and trees. many many trees right in the city center #(and smart traffic lights and speed bumps and continuous sidewalks and sane zoning regulations and no potholes and-) #*

[born-to-lose]

"No more giving my number out to random people who flirt with me at work" I say as if I'm not going into the next shift with a pen and tissues in my pocket

#sunday i woke up to four messages from different people and half of them i don't even remember giving my number lmao #i wish i had given it to that drunk girl who kissed me in the bathroom 💔 i hope i'll see her again she was so cute #and another dude was parallel flirting with me immediately after she left #sadly i didn't get to/forgot to/was too shy to give them to the two funniest guys but the dj is there every week so there's still a chance #fingers crossed the one who flirted with me who funnily enough has the same name as my ex comes back soon when i'm working #it's so much fun tho!! i have the two security guards hitting on me in a lighthearted way #one of them always insists on walking me to the car in the morning and i'm still waiting for that dance he promised me on a busy night #4th edition of living my best life on saturday 10pm 💅🏻 #jack daniel's birthday party with go go dancers is gonna be wild i'm so excited!! #said guy also dramatically sang along to the chorus of münchener freiheit's ohne dich when he ordered a drink #but i told him we're not serving anything after 4:45 and he kept begging but i still said no bc it's the boss' order #n i don't have the power to make exceptions but it was so funny n kinda sweet i would've given him a lil drink if security wasn't watching #mel talks #i think i need to make a separate tag for bar gushing #the bartender chronicles

[scattered-winter]

last grief vent post lads

#i wish there was someone to blame. i mean there Is but it wasnt really her fault so i cant blame her really. #a driver had dementia and somehow slipped away from her caretakers and got on the road with her car and now my friend is dead #and there's nobody to blame for it. shit happens. she didnt know what she was doing. i know that she didn't mean to. #but the fact is that she got in her car that day when she shouldnt have and now a 20 year old girl with her whole life ahead of her is dead #and i am not gonna lie guys. im fucking pissed. #its unfair. its so fucking unfair. #but its also unfair for me to point fingers when it wasnt really that driver's fault. #she doesnt even remember causing the accident. she doesnt know where her injuries came from. #and i KNOW what dementia is i KNOW that thats part of it and it isnt her fault at all #but im really angry. not even necessarily specifically at the driver tbh just . angry #but. the funeral is over. so i think ill be ok from now on. #there was a beautiful sunset while i was driving home today. it was pink and orange #pink sunsets were her favorite. it was beautiful to see one today. #winter speaks #grief tag #tw death #tw car accident

[fawnnbinary]

rate this geralt I did after drinking

#miles.art #geralt #fan art #he's on my mind and so is jask and so is icarus and so is fallon and I am just #I am JUST #yeah :) #my brightness is down so I can't actually see how this looks bc I;m chilling in the back seat of my car skdjfhskdjgh #I am having such an amazing night guys you would not believe #we had a party!!! for 3 years post top surgery for the bestie I lobe him so much!!!!!!!!!!! #and there were lots of guests and they were so cool and I had such a good time and I wish I could have stayed in the house longer #but it was getting to be too overwhelming and I didn't wanna be overwhelmed so I'm in our garage and god it's been such an amazing day #I'm really really glad we did it at the house and on bestie day (tuesday) and yeah :) I'm just so happy to know him #and to be living with him and AAAAAAAAAAA he is my best friend and my favorite person and I'n so so so glad he's come so far #on his gender jurney and everything and I love him hi bestie you are so great and handsome and doing so good at being you #miles.drinkin ig sldkjhfsldgh

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present) #multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way. #combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells. #this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing. #then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on. #my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?) #me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting. #Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism* #still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something) #me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room. #i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that. #the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk. #can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

#4 different people have left me on read today; 1 cancelled our plans 4 hours before we were due to meet #I've been sitting home alone for 2 days going insane. looking forward to One (1) coffee date & that fell through #idk why I'm taking it so hard this time I'm usually fine!! but I find myself wishing I didn't have the day off I wish I did have work :( #like it's tiring yeah but it beats sitting here not knowing what to do w myself #& I'm working all weekend & only leaving the house to see the doctor. oh joy #I've been productive ironing writing fixing the car. that's not the problem #I had 4 social plans this month. that's it #that's like seeing each friend once a month!! I can't keep this up!! #is this the norm for adulthood? :( #& on one level I don't want to bother people or be clingy #but on another level I'm baffled that they don't get lonely too #the news has not shut up abt the Loneliness Epidemic since 2021 #but if it's true why do so many people take so long to reply when I reach out? if they reply at all #I'm not going anywhere w this. idk #just one of those days #everything so fuck everybody suck :( #boomers got it right w the whole showing up unannounced at people's houses for a social call with a pound cake #now I have to go through 5 layers of bureaucratic bullshit to see a friend #assuming they don't cancel the day of ofc (((((: #I just wanna be like hello knock knock I am here. tell me abt yr life today & listen to mine & eat this cake #& the worst is when people are like 'I'm cancelling bc I'm tired xx' #OK A) u knew we had these plans for two weeks #but B) I'm tired too! I still love u ur still my friend! let us be tired together! #'I won't be social today I'm tired' my love we could watch movies in silence we could knit we could ball yr socks. idc #'I have to do the big shop today sorry' so do I!!! let us do the groceries together!!! #every time I've pushed someone to come out when they felt depressed or to let me accompany them when they were doing chores #they were like u know what I'm so glad u did this. thank u. this is way better than how I had planned this night to go #& I'm like any time!! I love u!! #& then it just happens all over again next time oh sorry I'm cancelling I'm busy I'm tired #like did u forget what a nice time we had last time? what changed? :(

[musical-chick-13]

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#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but #not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about. #that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends #that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even #considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF... #like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy) #but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car #crash or fix me soup when I'm sick. #like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad #and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship #right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go #if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through #the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!! #and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after #she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think #anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore #but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst #Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that #this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me #WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!! #*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today #and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore! #In the Vents #GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS

[running-in-the-dark]

okay I love Fast Car, just like everyone else, but I just heard For My Lover for the first time and now I'm so mad I didn't buy this album on vinyl that one time I almost bought it (I had it in my hands!! I'm so stupid) 😫 oh my god.

#like. I mean fast car is GREAT. though tbh I actually prefer the christian kane cover of it 😬😬😬 #but for my lover is. god it's doing things to my brain #I didn't want to listen to the rest of the album until I buy the record annnd then I stopped buying records so I just tried to ignore 6 #*it #but this song just came up on shuffle and fuck. #I want the record so bad now. I'm still not gonna listen to the rest until then! because I'm stupid that's why! #I wish it wasn't so expensive but fuck it I'd pay that much just for this song. #might even call the closest record store tomorrow to see if they have it. need. need need need it. #okay back to not writing any actual words for my thesis ugh #personal #(and I'm like 99% sure I've already heard most of the album already buuut. not on purpose so it doesn't count) #(and okay they're just. both perfect. but this one is new to me right now so it's extra awesome lol)

[fragmentedblade]

Argenti is actually pretty Lancelotcoded, he is deranged and even suicidal. I adore him

#I didn't expect to like him this much considering what I had seen in leaks and trailers #but he is actually not just a cringe fail man with a flare (which is also good) #he is also a wet sad man trying desperately to get close enough to something dead that he'd get a glimpse of it and its light again #He can have a piece of my heart for this after all #However‚ yet again‚ why am I like this lol #He started talking about how getting as close to death as possible is the way he has to get the shadow of the shadow #of the probable hallucination of the echo of Idrila‚ and that's the path he must walk because seeing them even if it's not real is his wish #and I could feel myself grow fonder with every word. Awww of course I'll let you try to die in the pursue of your wish. Of course #What's with me and borderline when not straight up suicidal characters what the hell #Anyway... Get in the car. I'll take you and Blade get some cookies or popcorn‚ or whatever you want. Blade's already in the car just hop in #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #I honestly was expecting him to lean more towards Galah.ad or Perziva.l perhaps. That he has the Lancelo.t air has won me over for sure #I'm sorry call me basic but Lancelo.t is my favourite

[forlornmelody]

Today's List of Nice Things:

One of my classmates gave me a ride home from class, which saved me like an hour.

Also, the busses were free today for some reason? Not sure what was going on.

The Doctor and Donna repeatedly saying they're not together, they're not married--*acting like an old married couple*

My church is only a half hour commute by bus from my place.

MY EX WASN'T AT CHURCH TODAY.

Got rough drafts written of both my cover letter and resume. Just gotta find time tomorrow to polish them and send them in before the deadline.

#i'm still sent from David Tennant smearing paint on himself in Much Ado #it is taking every fiber of willpower to NOT drop all the Very Important Things I Need To Do Right NOW and just watch it all the way throug #who is forlornmelody? #brain hygiene #i wish I didn't have to go through the whole Process of buying a car #can't I just magic one out of thin air?