#i wish i could just

[hyperfixiation-station]

THOUGHT OF ANOTHER OMEGA!READER ANGST FIC IDEA!

So reader is dragged in for questions and there's not a lot of rules regarding how omega are treat in/by the military so they are very rough with you and you're just a medic who doesn't know anything but they question you anways and Ghost only find out because he can smell your distress from 3 buildings away.

Coem to find out this happens to a lot of omegas, this is just the first time the omega has, for lack of better term, belonged to a high-profile alpha. So Ghost and the rest of the 141 go to lobby for better rules/treatment and yeah. I dunno. I'm tired.

#honestly don't know what i'm doing #why am i like this #i wish i could just #think #these things into existence #cod fanfic #simon ghost riley #cod #ghost fanfiction #ghost x reader #cod x reader #angst #call of duty #omega reader #cod omegaverse #omegaverse #alpha ghost #aaaaaaaaaa #please #i need this

[candyflavoredwishes]

ok for my gelphie fic i’m writing i just thought of an ending quote and i can’t-

GLINDA: You’ve always felt like home to me… ELPHABA: *tearing up and smiling* GLINDA: … and there’s no place like home.

#!!!!! #i wish i could just #write everything that i have planned #gelphie #elphaba #elphaba thropp #glinda #wicked musical #fanfiction #fanfic writing

[v-67]

Do you remember him standing on the ledge after when Johan told him that what would he do if he finds out that no one wants him

And he's standing on the edge of that ledge

With that look in his eyes

Questioning everything

Slowly being pulled into the pit of despair, which ironically he couldn't even feel, or recognise?

He didn't jump off that ledge, he never wanted to die

All he ever wanted, was someone to want him.

To just, lovingly, and warmly, want him.

And then Mr. Grimmer came

And took him off that ledge

And hugged him from behind.

Held him

And told him

That he was born in this world because someone wanted him

And he cries

Holding onto that child.

He cries, and he questions Tenzo 'what is my expression?'

And Kenzo replies

'You're crying.'

Right now, I feel like that child and I feel like Mr. Grimmer. I'm stuck on that ledge, but I don't have Mr. Grimmer.

I wish I could be enveloped into that hug. I wish. I...wish. I really. really. wish.

Edit : got my periods, hormones were all over the place. I'm okay🌻

Not that anyone's really reading but also more of a side note to myself. Tumblr has become more of a personal diary thingy.

#grimmer #wolfgang grimmer #wolfgang #johan monster #monster anime #monster #writeblr #random #tumblr #writerscorner #writer #anime #feelings #heart feels too heavy #wish i could just hug someone #or wish someone pat me on my head and told me everything will be okay #i wish i could just #not exist at all #tenma kenzo

[netheris]

The overwhelming urge to write/draw an entire graphic novel, but the lack of motivation to draw, think of an actual story and plot, and no idea what to actually write.

Oh the humanity!

#i wish i could just #*manifests art* #and boom there's page 1 #also wish my ADHD riddled brain could stitch enough details together to create a full coherant plot line for once in my life #i want to write #i want to draw #but without any of the hard parts which is most of it #graphic novel #writing #writer problems #artists problems

[meimeikyu]

watching a really long video about how someone made their cosplay and GOD is it interesting but also it makes me feel really bad about my cosplays

#this is gonna get kinda venty in the tags be warned #.. #im just so #all of my cosplays are either bought (cheap and like. bad quality) or made out of random shit i had lying around and dont look good #i cant even fucking style wigs properly #i want to be like them so bad #i want my cosplays to be so much better #but im so shit at sewing and i cant style wigs #and its not like i could commission someone to as much as i want to #and i cant even fucking LEARN how because that costs too much money to try #and i dont have enough money to do anything #i just #i love cosplaying but i hate MY cosplays #i cant ask for supplies to cosplay bcs it costs money and even if i say i only want this as a gift id never get it #and i cant ask outside of gift things because of course i cant it costs money #and sure i get some of my own money but i dont know where id fucking start #i really want to open commissions to get more money but i dont think anyone would actually be interested #im just #i wish i had money to do things #i wish i could just #be better #... #vent #personal #ok to interact #actually pleae do intereact if u can idk what im doing rn

[venusundae]

like, i mean this in sexual way i guess, but also entirely and more so in a non sexual way

you know when prepping focaccia dough for baking and ya plop all fingers into it. the oil and the jiggle and the decorating w lil herb and veggie masterpieces.

i need a hoe to treat me like that

#i keep thinking about this i've been thinking about this for days #i wish i could just #be the dough

[bolontiku]

Eat shit.eat shit. Eat shit and smile. Eat some more shit. Wash, rinse, and repeat.

#chaos journal #im so tired #i wish i could just #disappear #nobody would miss me #its one of the bad days

[fairygodcomplex]

Producing your own music (badly) is such a gift and a curse because on the one hand I can appreciate the absurdly good production on the Jonas Brothers’ SOS, but on the other hand I can’t stop appreciating it.

#I wish I could just #enjoy music #without you know #enjoying music THAT way #am I doomed to intellectualize the one thing that used to mystify me #deep thoughts for a reaction to the fucking Jonas Brothers

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

i fucking hate when soooo omany little tiny useless things go wrong in a day and it just builds up and it makes you want to kill everything because if ONE thing after all that goes wrong U JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE IT SUCKS SO MUCH. like today has sucked so much and nothings even HAPPENED. its just everythings been very slightly wrong !!!!!/ and i hate it so much. EVEN MY FUCKING COMFORT JUMPER IS WRONG this sucks so much i am genuinely so angry

ok i took the jumper off now im cold but its better than feeling too many texture MY FUCKING HEADPHONES wire. ok. i just. everything today has been SO bad because theres been so many small things. i want to scream. like i literally couldnt even play tetris because the moment i started doing badly i just. fuck. today has been full of minor inconveniences and i HATE it. and this WHOLEEE website is all like wow autism is so sexy and great BUT I HATE IT. LIKE if i could just NOT. feel like ANYTHING EXISTING.  was fucking PAINFUL.  THAT WOULD BE GREAT. BUT NOW EVERY SOUND I HEAR IS THE WORST SOUND TO EVER HAVE EXISTED. and everythings Wrong. i hateeeee this. cant even DO anything about it BECAUSE everyhthing is guaranteed to have SOEMTHING go wrong WHICHLL MAKE IT WORSE. fuck

#day thoughts #vent #i just #i wish i could just #only have to deal with the big problems #because these tiny proble #ms #are actually WORSE #because i cant even DO anything #like #UGH #FUCK

[ohdudehesflirting]

hey yalllll.... did yall missme iswear im gonna post but life has been imposible (i should be studying rn😭) but yeah i made a side blog which is my brain in a nutshell so if ur intrested its @chenlessimp 😋😋😋 love yall

#auri babbles #i love yall sm #i wish i could just #*smooch* #i love YALL😽😽😽

[sillyblog2004]

girl physically, this rabbit mentally 🌙

#pinterest #whisper girl #pinterest girl #whisper #girlblogger #girlblogging #coquette aesthetic #coquette #i wish i could just #blog post #that girl 2023 #lets get this bread

[toshidou]

btw to the amazing beautiful people that are still interacting with me, thank you 🥹🥹 i can't reply to you on any posts because tumblr nerfed me but honestly it makes my day 🥹💗💖

#seriously #i wish i could just #reply to posts #but alas #ANYWAY #you're all amazing and i cherish you dearly <33

[v-67]

Sometimes i feel this panic rise within me.

The panic of the future, the panic of being in a relationship which is toxic and not appreciated and the most further from love, the panic of being pressured into the workaholic culture when I clearly am not into that

I want a life where I finally am with the person i really love, i want a life where I'm away from the stupid toxic customs and traditions, I want a life where my family is with me and I'm working a job which doesn't eat away my living hours. I want a life where I'm appreciated and asked about simple things : did you eat? Are you okay? I love you, be safe, ...

I want a life which is like that, but everything i want cannot coexist together.

And that part sucks.

I've been through shit, but that shit isn't even the shit when I look at other people's lives.

But i remind myself always, to not compare.

That the things I've been through are valid and if they made me suffer, then they did. It has nothing to do with being strong or weak.

It is only about ( i don't know what is it about)

But sometimes i wish i could just go back to the past and warn myself about the things that shouldn't have happened. The things that definitely shouldn't have happened. I wish i could go back and give myself a boost, i wish i could go back and hug myself and tell her that it's okay, it's all gonna be okay. I wish I could help her get out of her comfort zone and I wish I could tell her so many more things.

Would i have turned out differently if i could have?

But I can't. And so, I will keep telling the current me all of these things. I love who i am, and i love the version of myself I'm becoming, there have been hard times, times I never thought I'll return from, but I did. I did return. And so I will live, and i will live the way I want to. Except ofcourse i need to keep my family happy so there's a little adjustment over there.

Sometimes it gets difficult, too difficult. The mind becomes a violent battlefield, gnawing away at my heart, cutting all around my soul, making it a little hollowish, or making it ache. The pain tho, is always better than the hollowish part.

But we'll get through the difficult part, with our weird coping mechanisms. We will get through them. But make sure your coping mechanisms aren't causing you harm.

So hey, it'll be okay.

And we'll be fine.

And we will live.

And we will. We really will.

#writeblr #random #tumblr #writerscorner #writer #thoughts #life #writersnetwork #writergram #encouragement #we will live #I'm really worried #and i just want to be held #i want to be hugged by someone and to be told that everything will be okay #but i don't want to be a bother #its just really something #i wish i could just #i hope everything goes well #have a beautiful day #have a beautiful day everyone #byeee <3

[actualsunflower]

wow Jay and Nick are kissing and cuddling with the adorable sweet talk inside my brain and it's so incredible. Wish I could draw or write or something

#im gonna cry btwwww #i love them so much #i wish i could just #put it into words and/or lines. how this is and feels #sigh.

[heirofnepeta]

Gotta love how my artstyle is ever-changing and never consistant.

#i wish i could just #have a style #but I'll see another thing #that someone made #and accidentally integrate it into my art #and now #my art looks like shit bc its a mishmash of like 87 other art styles #:(

[campfire-collective]

sometimes i wish i could just...show trauma symptoms.

#mine #mod hearth #read a description of a panic attack where everyone noticed #and like #holy shit #i wish i could just #panic in a way that other people knew i was distressed