#i wish i could put this thoughts better

[marmastry]

Like a slow-acting poison

#claude von riegen #byleth #few3h #fire emblem three hopes #golden wildfire #gw #highkey wanna bite my entire fist because i wanna add more page to make the last part hit better but alas… social media photo limit u__u #anyway enjoy #few3h spoilers #few3h is just a no fix it route #i love it #byleth stays as an ashen demon while Claude is convinced his methods are sensible #like yeah #for a desperate person i guess #but i think that’s the interesting part of it #his manipulation that comes from a kind place #he deserves to be trusted but everyone has the right to doubt it #like the closer u get the more it feels like you’re a pawn moved across the board kinda deal #i wish i could put this thoughts better #but yeah my brain shrunk the moment i finished this comic hahaha #im so tired #i did this late night for 2 weeks on top of 2 deadlines #please be kind skkdjdjdn #fancomics

[stoopidstapler]

SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #goin insane over him #thers no words to describe how im feelin #i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE #FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED. #ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO??????? #ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P #IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH #SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP. #also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake #which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk #ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help #ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER. #im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help #maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.

[shootingstarpilot]

I see a lot of posts expressing frustration with the fanon idea that certain highly competent characters (yes, this post is about Obi-Wan, but I've seen others) can't take care of themselves and need others to bully them into eating, sleeping, etc.. While I totally get that frustration, I personally very much enjoy that trope. I've been trying to dissect why I enjoyed it since I saw those critiques, and I think I finally managed to put it to words.

(Disclaimer: I live in the United States, so my discussion about healthcare is operating in the framework of the man-eating trash fire that is the American healthcare system.)

I am a busy person outside of fandom. I recently completed a cross-country move. I'm damn good at my job and I love what I do, but it's hard work and a lot of it is on call. I have bills to pay. I have paperwork to fill out. I have messages to send and more messages to reply to. I have a life that is full of things I don't want to do. We all do. It's part of existing in society.

I am also chronically ill.

We live in a system that is actively hostile to putting your own health first. The healthcare system is impossible to navigate even if you are feeling the very pinnacle of health and wellbeing, and good fucking luck trying to do so when you're sick. Good luck trying to go to work and pay your bills and fill your tank. Good luck trying to do your paperwork and cook your meals and clean your apartment. Good luck trying to muster up the energy to respond to the well-meaning communications of friends and family.

But here's the thing- you still have to.

The rest of the world doesn't stop when you're sick. The rest of your life doesn't pause when you need it to. Sometimes you have to sacrifice sleep to make it to a doctor's appointment, or skip breakfast to make it to work on time. Every one of us, to some extent or another, has had to sacrifice what would be best for our health in order to stay functional in this fucked-up, capitalistic, carnivorous society.

So I think my preference for reading and writing fics like the ones I mentioned at the beginning has a certain level of wish fulfillment to it. Someone who is competent and good at their job and has an extraordinary level of responsibility on their shoulders sacrifices their own well-being to keep the rest of the world going-

And someone else makes sure they eat. Someone else makes sure their health gets tended to. Someone else makes sure they sleep, and that the world doesn't fall apart while they do so.

A lot of times, we don't get to make those decisions, or we feel guilty when we do. In reading fics like these, I feel like I get to outsource those decisions- outsourcing self-care, if you will. You don't have to feel guilty about putting your own health first, because you're not making the choice to do so. Someone else is.

It's okay. Get some rest.

#my life is also full of things and people that i love don't worry #it's just interesting to think about this sort of wish fulfillment #if anyone else wants to contribute thoughts please do #i'm sure someone more eloquent than me could put this better #outsourcing self-care #fandom #obi-wan kenobi #ao3 #fanfiction

[leona-florianova]

I sincerely like when just "kind eh OK" show stumbles and face slams into the pavement right at the finishing line... makes it kinda hilarious actually. Aw damn buddy you almost got it. You got the emotional response, but you also lack teeth and failed at what you were supposed to do....

*sigh* why did they reveal one of the core unanswered questions that was supposed to stay unanswered..

*sigh*

If i wasnt mainly fo1 fo2 n fonv fan i might have liked it..kinda..like.. its ok show.. The pacing is bad and the characters get progressively dumber..but it has some aspects that I enjoyed. The gore.. The ghouls...the set design..They also picked really good and interesting actors for main AND support cast (many character actors that I always enjoy seeing no matter where!!!)...

Also also many moments that reminded me of original fallouts and that tbh makes me sadder more than anything else...sadder kinda fondly kinda sourly...ill get back to replaying those fosils because of that.

n speaking of the old games..There were Many retcons I dont agree with... and the possibility that the show lore is canon over the game lore is absurd. Fortunately if true, it doesnt really bother me because I differentiate between the different games lores to begin with.. Its just a bummer...

I expected much much worse and I prepared for way much WORSE.. and it was... eh ok

tho...funnily enough as of writing this I am forgetting what even happened on the show...

oh well

#wishing i could put my thoughts together better #but i really dont have the capacity nor do I actually want to think about it more #soooooo maaannyyyyy gripes #will not bother with that #fallout show #fallout spoilers #fallout amazon

[roseworth]

steph as the third robin is a much more interesting story than tim as the third robin but y’all aren’t ready for that conversation

bruce saying “i’ll never have another partner again” but then steph is a child vigilante all on her own to stop her dad, and batman keeps trying to tell her that it’s dangerous but she won’t listen and keeps going out every night. but she reminds bruce of jason and she’s doing the vigilante thing anyway, so shit he has no choice but to train this child so she won’t get hurt or killed and so he takes in another robin because he realizes that it was about helping them find an outlet and steph is going to be doing this with or without him and he would much prefer she do it with him rather than go headfirst into danger alone

#posting this in the middle of the night bc i am scared people will be bitter about it #but i’m right #i just wish i could put my thoughts into words better #i’m trying so hard but my brain has so many feelings about this :( #stephanie brown #dc

[gazkamurocho]

Will we ever get more high school AU I've become obsessed with it 😍

Oh definitely yes! I'm glad you're enjoying the School AU as much as I am, dear anonymous! 💕

A few days ago I was even sketching how some other characters may look in the School AU like, Daigo, Ryuji, Akiyama and Hana lol

And It's also funny because last night I was remembering the camping trips from my school days for some reason, and then I started thinking how a camping trip with Kiryu, Majima and other Yakuza characters (their classmates) from the School AU would go xD The bus trip, forest hiking, flag hunting, cooking, playing soccer, treasure hunting in the dark, the boys and girls' cabins, bonfire,... Ohh the possibilities are endless! So much chaos would ensue sjkdsdfskhsd Imagine Kiryu's anxiety, anticipating of living with Majima in an isolated place for 3 whole days? xD And Majima would never go on a school camping trip willingly, but the thought of being able to get more chances to provoke Kiryu-chan and maybe spend some alone time with him in the woods changed his mind on the spot jhdfjksdhfds

Anyway, I don't have any concrete idea for the school AU for now but I'll let those thoughts cook and something eventually will come up! I also always accept suggestions from you guys because two or more people brainroting together are better than one, am I right?

#sometimes I wish I was good with writing because then I could write a fanfic about that camping trip #but my way of thinking and planning stories is very messy and I can't put all my thoughts into words #that's why I love to do comics because I'm better at expressing my ideas visually #like in the characters' body or facial expressions #also English is not my first language so another extra challenge for writing xD #school!au #daigo dojima #ryuji goda #akiyama shun #hana chan #tumblr ask #ask

[aphsillyos]

his default recall is so cool..........

#not me arts tag #ive never used his default skin so i didnt even know what it looked like until now....ough #i wish u could mix and match sounds or recalls with skins................ #i honestly forget half the time hes supposed to be like. Cool and Suave and a Competent Badass #because my brain is always like. god hes so small and floppy and will die if you breathe on him wrong #also hes always crying and breathing heavily in my ear so im just like. poor guy #he should be at the bed taking a nap not fighting....... who made him fight.... stop that he doesnt belong on the battle field #he might be a badass hitman or smth but my brain is like #this is just a sad theatre kid who took gymnastics #''aphelios how is your assassin training going'' aphelios who has only been reading the acrobatics textbook: my what #is there anyone still reading these tags. hi there #i have a lot of thoughts on him. im very obsessed with his animations #like he has a laugh animation for every weapon....... #all the various weapon animations... #maybe the real reason we wont have a legendary for 10 more years is all the animating they have to do #i mean his base animations are so good id honest be like OK if they reused them #cant rly do much better than already Top Tier animations #unless we get an alune legendary..... #hope alune is super awesome and badass and all the aphelios voicelines are a really shy awkward guy or smth #like you look so cool and awesome fighting and the whole world doesnt know ur listening to a lil guy in your brain the whole game #the contrast would be very funny methinks #if anyones still reading this. yes i know riot made up some reason about budget or whatever for voices #but i choose to believe aphelios is head empty no thoughts and thats why he doesnt talk to alune #(STILL GOOFY OF A REASON... lots of VAs can do both genders of voices.... like. what about kindred and kayn....) #then again wouldnt be surprised if they were overbudget on the animations but still smh my head into oblivion #can relate to a guy who simply doesnt wanna talk #(said after 10000 tags of talking to myself) #i should really put my thoughts onto a separate post or blog or something #anyways have i mentioned i think hes really cute

[shleemies]

2015->2023

It gets better

#was looking at old photos and put these side by side. wow #in the first pic i was miserable malnourished and so depressed i didnt think id make it to 2016 #the second pic was a few months ago in too lazy to take w newer one today lol #im still depressed but not like i was. ive come so far and its so hard to see it from day to day sometimes #i never thought id live long enough to go on hrt. top surgery felt completely impossible #but i got to live #i got to transition #i wish i could go back and show that scared kid how far we've come #idk these pics just had me feeling really sappy #maybe one day ill make a more intentional transition timeline post #but these photos really show a lot #transgender love transgender peace transgender joy #it gets better i promise #sounds fake and shallow but it's so fucking true

[capcavan]

I don't think I ever wrote this but riko is not attractive

Like he is not shaped to follow beauty standards he has chubby round face he can't slim out with diet . He does not fit western fetishistic standards of how pretty Asian person should look like and even then he is just average and normal.

He is a normal looking person who does not even care all he cares about are his exy skills often he forgets this is not how normal people judge others on first sight

He does not think of himself as good looking but it does not bother him because he sees himself as amazing striker this is worth more to him.

He does not second guesses his partners attraction to himself because he is riko and riko is great at exy. They are attracted to him because of his character and because he is devoted and obsessed with them and because he gives it all on the court.

#i am willing to pay teal world money for somone to write me commission about riko having to deal with people in normal setting being #racist to him i feel like this would happen a lot outside of nest #i also feel like he is not equipped to deal with it #especialy not equipped to deal with people who fo not appreciate the effort he put into exy #and instead judge him by his looks #but i have no experience with those topics i would greatelly apreciate other peoples thoughts about it #riko moriyama #aftg #all for the game #hinestly i wish we could have more nromal looking characters #or even bad looking characters #persons worth is not connected to their looks and i enjoy characters who arent conventionally pretty #i love him all ghe same even with his chubby cheeks and upturned nose he is pretty 4 me #i need to learn tk draw better to show it better

[ericcartmn]

Cartman going to Kenny to help with his idea is really what did it for me. Love that.

#sp spoilers #kenman #wish i could just!!!! explain how i feel without it being so difficult!!!! #i am waiting for the analysis ppl jn this fandom to get to it!! (lovingly no pressure i am just excited and need to see my thoughts put- #- into better words) #need the eric analysis #and the kenny analysis #and the butters analysis #but also the buttman kenman bunny bunnyman analysis #u feel me

[081314]

『願いよ響け』 - Lyrics & Translation

『願いよ響け』 is the name of the song that Malleus, Idia, and Azul perform together at the end of the Glorious Masquerade event. (The song title can be translated as "Let my wish resound!", but I've seen people in the EN side of the fandom have also been calling it "Make a Wish", so call it what you may.)

Below is my take at translating the lyrics! And I've also put some notes in my tags.

夜明けに怯えて 幾度と願う

ひとりぼっちの空に別れと

愛の救いを

Fearing the dawn to come, I make my wish again and again

One wish to bid farewell to that lonely sky

And another for the salvation of love

祈りは遠く

紅蓮を照らして

My prayers, so far away

Shine down on that distant blaze of crimson

鐘よ響け 僕の願いを運んで

今日も温かな夢 高く手を伸ばして

Let the bells resound!

Let their echoes carry with them my heart's desires

Today, as well, I had that same warm dream

And now I lift up my hands, reaching out so high above

ああ もし許されるのなら

喜び 悲しみ 共に生きよう

Ahh, and if it's truly alright

Then let us go through life together, in joy and in sorrow

輝く人の声 満ちている笑顔

どうか僕に 光よ導け

The voices of the people shine, their faces brimming with smiles

I ask of you, O Light! Please, guide them to me!

焦がれてた素晴らしい朝へ

目覚めたら歩き出そう

僕の夢とともに

Once I awake, let us set forth together

Hand in hand with my dreams

Towards that glorious morning I’ve so longed for

鐘よ響け 僕の願いを運んで

今日も華やぐ街に 胸を踊らせてる

Let the bells resound!

Let their echoes carry with them my heart's desires

Today, as well, my heart leaps for joy

Here in this radiant city

ああ いま 美しく咲いた

喜び 悲しみ 皆で歌おう

Ah, and now it has bloomed so beautifully

In joy and in sorrow, let us all sing together

眩しく夢に見た 分かち合う愛を

どうか僕に 光よ導け

未来(あした)へ

O Light! Please, bring my love to me!

Oh, how it shone in my dreams, the love that we shared

And now onwards, to tomorrow

#my tl #twst #twisted wonderland #glorious masquerade #malleus draconia #azul ashengrotto #idia shroud #i've swapped the order of some of the lines to make them flow better in english just an fyi #i left 紅蓮 as crimson (well “blaze of crimson” so it makes sense in english) cause i dont think he's directly mentioning the flowers #rollo said the true identity of the calamity was lost to time and no one knows anymore what it was #they just know the town was “dyed bright red” #so i dont think the singer is directly saying crimson flowers or else that would kind of go against what we were told in game... #紅蓮 by itself means “bright red” or “crimson lotus” and the flowers in the game are referred to as 紅蓮の花 “crimson flowers” #it can also be used with reference to fire like 紅蓮の炎 #so i choose to keep that line vague bc whatever he's talking about he seems to only be alluding to it rather than saying it by name #also in the 鐘よ響け 僕の願いを運んで lines i put “heart's desires” instead of “wish” to make it sound less awkward with the repeating w's #i asked my jp penpal what she thought the いま 美しく咲いた was in reference to but she also wasnt sure #she said he could be talking about the city or his wish or the joys and sorrows. so i left it vague but i lean towards it being the city #cause in the line before he says the city is 華やぐ which is like full of life/cheerful/brilliant #and 華 can often have a connotation that describes something that is flowerlike. something that is beautiful/graceful like a flower #so i think he's connecting bloom to 華やぐ and saying the city is radiant (like a flower) and now it's blooming #i went back and forth a lot over 喜び 悲しみ 共に生きよう. he could mean live together with our joys and sorrows #or we go through life together in joy and in sorrow #deuce said in mal's vignette the song was about the singer's hope of being able to meet a lot of people #and in the previous line ああ もし許されるのなら he's like if im permitted/allowed to do this so its something he thinks he needs permission to do #and considering quasi's story i felt it was more likely he's asking to walk through life alongside the people through good times and bad #cause in the movie a big part of his story is that frollo drills into quasi that he's not WORTHY of the people's attention and affection #so thats why i went with that interpretation #喜び 悲しみ 皆で歌おう is also unclear. could be sing of our joys and sorrows or sing in joy and sorrow #this is a typical jp song that omits a lot of particles verbs and prepositions so we fans just gotta make our best guesses unfortunately

[quicktimeeventfull]

unironically though. i think every day of what a north american adaptation of death note could be like if they didn’t make the baffling choice to whitewash it, and i think light getting death threats every tenth time he goes outside but also receiving the model minority treatment at his school and workplace would lend a different and useful weight to his decision to use the death note. same with matsuda and light’s conversation about kira protecting the weak and afraid. idk!! i think it could be good and complicated and interesting. it could engage really usefully with both the existant themes of death note and the divergent context of the new setting.

#this is a real thought its not me semiironically wishing death on the Scary Nazi Men #to be clear #please take this as an actual like. Literary Opinion Statement not a personal one thank u #also i know light is like …… middle class? upper middle class? but i personally wish to put him in a somewhat more dogshit area so this #could work #i say this having like. lived in both very nice areas and very dogshit areas #the Threat Is There even if u live somewhere nice im not even remotely saying it isn’t #theres no amount of $$ which will insulate u from racism im sorry its true you cannot buy yourself into whiteness #but this specific double-life energy i think would work better in like a rougher area #like i want this fear of Things That Are Literally Not Crimes to be happening consistently for him in like. the way they happen when u live #somewhere crime is expected rather than notable u know #i want the model minority half to be the thing that feels like a fever dream #anyway #thats my pitch

[bugdogg]

uhhh something something learn to love yourself dummy

(this is mostly a doodle, i wanted to draw Zuki w their past self for a while now so yayyyy)

#oc #my art #doodles #yeahhhh #i daydream a lot of angst when i listen to music #cause daydreaming slow things w music is hard #i feel like drawing this would help ease some anxiety for me #cause id finally get an idea i had for mizuki out there #the hard part w them as my s/i rn is that they arent improving w me #im trying to get better but their flaws sorta stay #which makes it harder for me to connect sometimes and occasionally harder to move foward #cause i gotta keep overriding self deprecating thoughts w good #and writing mizuki stuff sorta puts me back into square 1 (does that make sense idkkkkk) #and i could write them to improve w me but it also means acknoledging my constant changing fave and opinions on stuff #wahh its hard i wish i had consistency but im also happy to be as wild as i am #i just wanted to word my feelings a bit im not upset this is just a challenge im figuring out #anyway thanks if u read this ik its late but im happy if someone hears my weird thoughtsss #i appreciate ittt<3

[centipede-legs]

i NEED to talk about some of lae’zel’s exploration banter in the mountain pass or i’ll DIE…anywayyyyy

so, post-quarrel shadowheart and lae’zel in the party, shadowheart asks lae’zel if they can finally “bury the hatchet”, which is a phrase that lae’zel doesn’t understand, right? but i think this moment, this phrase is such an underrated and overlooked part of lae’zel’s personality and character and her way of demonstrating that she does actually care whether she knows it or not

but lae’zel replies with things like “why would we bury a weapon? is it broken?” and after shadowheart tries to explain it, lae’zel says “i do not understand this metaphor of yours, but if you need help digging up a weapon, i can find a shovel”, and RAAAGHAGAGHHHHH i’m so normal about this interaction

burying a hatchet is meaningless to her, but retrieving one for a friend/ally is so important to her

she would wield and retrieve a weapon for someone she cares about and respects so that they can defend themselves and prove their battle prowess (another thing that is extremely important to her)

like yes, lae’zel’s a bit rough around the edges, she is a cunning, ruthless warrior who believes she has a heart of stone, but in that moment, she is offering aid and care in the one way she knows how to someone she thought to be her enemy

i think it pairs EXCELLENTLY with when lae’zel confesses that she misjudged the player character and that they have now gained her respect (and horniness), and when you talk to her later, you can ask like if she respects you, then why is she so rude

and her answer is simple- she has to be

ALSO her whole “i don’t pay compliments- i make observations”

okays sorry i’m just so normal i’m covered in blood thinking about her

#bg3 lae'zel #bg3 shadowheart #i’m so normal #baldur’s gate 3 #i’ve been thinking about this for DAYS #i wish i could put my thoughts into works better #but she makes me so normal (insane) #lae’zel #i need to run around in circles for a few hours