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my-20s-arent-roaring · 2 years

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I want to talk to you so fucking badly. I want any reason to fucking text you. I need it. But at the same time, I don’t want to rip the wound open again for the both of us. Run me over with a fucking truck.

#kill me #i wish i could talk to you #love #love life

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oars · 7 months

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#i feel like tge fact im apprehensive about posting this is kinda proving my point #the way everyone talks about both weight gain and weight loss is just horrendous #like idek if i could fit all i wanna say in here especially while im at work but #i so badly wish people could be normal about weight gain and talking about it #its like if youre not in some constant state of wanting to lose weight people want to kill you #god forbid you want to put on weight to feel more comfortable in your body outside of muscles and a butt #fatphobia is a given thats a whole other few paragraphs #im grateful i have mutuals and friends who are normal but ill have or hear these convos and go #ok i feel sick. why do i feel this way why do you feel that way.#anyways i think fatphobia is one of the worst things to ever happen

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obsessedwithstuffff · 4 months

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your memes SUCK.

your music SUCKS.

your big dark doll eyes SUCK.

:'(

#I wish I could talk to you

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violenttbabe · 4 months

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i can never catch a break

these days i don’t even know who to talk to

#violenttbabe #i wish I could talk to you

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sinne-skada · 5 months

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I'm sorry about everything, genuinely. I understand what you mean, I still refuse to delete a lot of the stuff I kept for you, I actually just reread ready player one because i got to hear your thoughts again in the margins but I know that's kinda dumb.

#personal #if it means anything im sorry that i lied to you bevause i wanted you to move on because i know im kinda a lost cause #i should not be even posting this but i still think about you constantly #i wish i could talk to you #i wish i was better so i could make things better accross the board genuinely #sorry for making your thing about me i guess

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chromaticax · 8 months

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I miss you so much. It feels so wrong nit speaking to you

I wish life was different 💫

#i miss you #love #mood #alone #i wish i could talk to you #its not the same

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visforvii · 8 months

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#i wish we could talk #i wish i could talk to you #but i wont #i will not be a burden #i will not be a problem #dont worry #ive made my decision #i wish you the best #i miss you #i will miss you #maybe this is cruel #but it is for the best #i do not belong #and i am not needed

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canidaezy · 15 days

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how do transmascs not want to kill themselves all the time honestly

#i experience transphobia and hardship in my daily life #and then i go home and go on my computer and learn that i dont experience any of that actually #im just pretending. and i shouldnt talk about it because im just a fake trans #who wishes his experiences could even measure up to a crumb of what real trans people (women) have to go through #ok cool.#testosterone is a controlled substance did you know that. my state is actively making it harder for people my age to access hrt #but i guess since im transmasc i dont actually have to worry about any of that! im fine!#i didnt have a 3 month time limit before it would be illegal for me to access hrt! im transmasc im too privileged to worry about that!#transphobia #transandrophobia

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sphiexoxo · 1 year

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To Michael:

Things I want to tell you but never will.

#love #in the past #i don’t miss you #i wish i could talk to you #better as friends #it gets better #michael

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the-great-dumpster-fire · 1 year

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I'm not sure why I was expecting anything other disappointment, I guess I was just hoping she would be able to save herself. I forgot how Erica drags others down with her when she self destructs. All she has is Erica, I had my grandmother and my aunts to fill the space a mom should be. I never even felt like there was a hole. When ever someone is hurt, and starts hurting others or themselves because of it I try so hard to help them. I get my hopes up because all I want is to see them get better. But every set back is like a punch to the gut, it feels like I failed. I know my love can't magically fix decades of trauma neglect and abuse, but by gods I wish it could. It hurt finding out my sister still willing interacts with Erica, it hurt even more to see Michael dragged into this. Erica's fucked him up enough already. Erica fucks up the lives of nearly everyone she encounters. As much damage as she's done I can't help but feel bad for her, Erica's only like this because of the trauma she's suffered from, but that doesn't mean she isn't at fault. There were a thousand other choices she could have made, ones that wouldn't wouldn't've ruined the lives of those around her, one's that didn't involve all of her lies, manipulation, and outright abuse. Erica's trauma isn't her fault, but Michael's certainly is. She refused to heal, she not only held on to her own pain and misery, but she made sure everyone around her felt the same.

#tw abuse #tw childhood trauma #intergenerational trauma #family troubles #personal stuff #stream of conscience #this has been on my mind since Thanksgiving #Evelyn #if you're reading this I hope you're okay #i wish i could talk to you #but I can't as long as you're still talking to Erica #long post

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my-20s-arent-roaring · 2 years

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I’m constantly torn between hoping you’re thinking about me too, and not wanting you to hurt because of me anymore.

#love #i wish i could talk to you #i’d do anything

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aroaceleovaldez · 7 months

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reminder that the only reason the "ADHD is actually demigod BATTLE STRATEGIES" and "dyslexia is DEMIGOD BRAINS HARDWIRED FOR ANCIENT GREEK" things exist in the PJO universe is because it's a very direct reference to early 2000s teaching/parenting techniques for neurodiverse and disabled children, which aimed to frame childrens' disabilities and hardships as a "superpower" or strength so that the children would feel more positively about their disabilities or situations. This technique has fallen out of favor since then for the most part since more often than not it just results in kids feeling as though their struggles are not being seen or taken seriously.

Yes, demigods are adhd/dyslexic (and sometimes autistic-coded) in the series. This is extremely important and trying to remove it or not acknowledge it makes the entire series fall apart because it is such a core concept. Yes, canon claims that their adhd/dyslexia is tied to some innate abilities, which is based on an outdated methodology. It's important to acknowledge that and understand where it comes from! But please stop trying to apply it to other pantheons in the series like "oh, the romans have dyscalculia because of roman numerals!" or "the norse demigods have dysgraphia for reasons!" - it's distasteful at best.

A better option is to acknowledge the meta inspiration for why that exists in the series, such as explaining potentially that Chiron was utilizing that same teaching methodology to try and help demigods feel more comfortable with their disabilities and they aren't literal powers. In fact, especially given Frank, there's implication that being adhd/dyslexic isn't a guaranteed demigod trait, which means it's more likely to be normally inherited from their godly parent/divine ancestor as a general trait, not a power, and further supports the whole "ADHD is battle strategy" thing being non-literal. It also implies the entire greco-roman pantheon in their universe is canonically adhd/dyslexic - and that actually fits very well with the themes of the first series. The entire central conflict of the first series fits perfectly as an allegory about neurodiverse/disabled children and their relationships with their undiagnosed neurodiverse/disabled parents and trying to find solutions together with their shared disability/disabilities that the kid inherited instead of becoming distant from each other (and this makes claiming equivalent to getting a diagnosis which is a fascinating allegory! not to mention the symbolism of demigods inheriting legacies and legends and powers from their parents and everything that comes with that being equivalent to inheriting traits, neurodiversity, and disabilities from your parents).

anyways neurodiversity and disability and the contexts in which the series utilizes representation of those experiences particularly during the 2000s symbolically within the narrative is incredibly important to the first series and the understanding of what themes it means to represent. also if i see one more "the romans have dyscalculia instead of dyslexia" post in 2023 i'm gonna walk into the ocean.

#pjo #riordanverse #percy jackson #analysis #meta #adhd #dyslexia #also this symbolism recontextualizes the relationship between demigods and their godly parents so much #particularly Percy and Poseidon and the whole ''I'm sorry you were born thing'' like DAMN that's an ENTIRE DIFFERENT IMPLICATION #honestly in general the first series' meta analogy of being a demigod as symbolism for being neurodiverse/disabled ROCKS SO HARD #that's SO COOL and im SO SAD NOBODY EVER TALKS ABOUT IT #i could write a whole essay on that alone like COME ON GUYS #can we PLEASE ACKNOWLEDGE THIS I WANNA TALK ABOUT THE COOL DISABILITY METAPHORS....#anyways i didnt proofread this cause. re: dyslexia so if it doesnt make sense dont worry about it #i can try to explain further in supplementary posts if people so wish

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gunstellations · 3 months

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