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mycological-mariner · 1 year

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Shoutout to the 6 year old kid outside my door who, while her baby sibling is wailing and the mom’s trying to calm it down, just said very authoritatively “I have a very smart brain.”

#I’m tired I just got home from a very long week #and as soon as I heard that I couldn’t stop laughing #YES small human! you own that smart brain!#im crying I love kids #I wish I had that kind of confidence #I wish I had a smart brain lmao

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harrypotterfuryroad · 9 days

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#god i wish i had this kind of unearned unfounded confidence #i'd be unstoppable

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thewatercolours · 1 month

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Podfic: "Captive Crown" by GerbilofTriumph

A shabby narration of GerbilofTriumph's excellent King's Quest fanfiction, "Captive Crown," complete with outrageous attempts at accents and enough bloopers to start a drinking game (with um, raisin juice. There are too many goofs for the real stuff.) This wonderful fiction, full of courage, nightmares, and healing, is gratefully recorded and shared with permission of the author, @gerbiloftriumph. Go check out her awesome creative blog.

All seven chapters are available at the link above, but if you just feel like listening to the first chapter while you scroll, voila:

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#podfic #king's quest #king graham #I learned a couple of things about Audible in the process but you're still getting the unedited version because I'm not confident enough to #implement all I've learned. :-)#As usual the thing that frustrates me most is that I cannot for the life of me do a good Graham impression. I mean - none of my impressions #are ever going to land me an act in Vegas - but at least with the others I can kind of hide behind the fact that they're all very zany #voices. Graham's more normal and so it feels like I ought to be able to give a better impression of the music of Josh Keaton's speech #and in my head I do a slightly better job at it then when I hear it played back. But it's all for fun anyway - I just wish my voice #was magic.#But regardless of quality I had a ton of fun and am very thankful to my good pal Gerbil for letting me do this!#I mean I'm preaching to the very small choir here but this really is one of the best KQ fics online and it was a joy to narrate.#if there's any tech flaws please let me know - I should preview the whole thing before I post but I'm too chicken to listen to my voice for #long. ;-)

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ziptiesnfries · 2 years

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me in my short story class: *writing something that comes off as more emotionally whumpy so i don’t freak out my classmates*

my critique partner for this week: *writing straight up gore*

#damn i wish i had that kind of confidence #maybe for the next one!#ziptalks #whump meta

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rivalsilveryuri · 1 month

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let’s him walk around on my palm

ruby and sapphire

#VOICEMAIL #funny 2 me that viz just. made his reoccuring...........bathroom joke into him pourign a can off of rooftops. but everyone else is still #reacting like he's killing someone while he's likr 'i love recycling :)' and emptying a can of pepsi or somethign #sorry that its what first comes 2 mind with him.#but i DO like emerald.... he's kinda the only hoenn dexholder i ... like??????????????? not in the way i DONT like the other 2 i just don't #have much 2 say on them. but also because reading rs may actually trigger my ptsd i think. a little. ummm. so i dont remember basically any #of rubys half.. i remember saphs just fine thoguh. but yeah what was i on about. umm. oohhh yeah i like emerald thr best #kinda makes me mad how people just infantilise him and look over. basically everythign about him. like his sibling relationship with crys #+ his backstory + the shit under the surface for the way he acts..#+the interaction they have as a trio because i find it kind of fascinating but its honestly the shortest amount of time 2gether a trios had #idk. it feels likr 2. people out there are actually interested in *emerald* himself #and everyone else just likrs. ............how everyone else sees him in universe.... and the rest see him how emerald wants to be seen. idk #always shy about character analysis cause i always worry im pulling at nothign and cooking nothing but i feel decently confident that-#-thats the whole point of emeralds character and his childhood and behaviour n etc.#i have NOT read oras though. umm. heard mixed things about it but who knows. itll take me 50 years 2 get there n e ways...#also emerald and wally. wish they interacted at LEAST cmon. unless ive brain fogged it but whateva........#how did me talking about piss jokes turn into character analysis

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princealberich · 22 days

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HrrrRRm (minecraft villager noise)

#zchat #hi i wanted to Delve into my thoughts on smth without it being an actual post #so tags it is #(this isnt a vent or anything its moreso just a little retrospective Thinking)#friends being playfully mean to each other is great and cool and i defs do it but Also #i think it goes too far sometimes #and loathe be me to like...idk. i dont ever wanna ASK people to stop #bc if thats how they express friendship then i dont wanna make them uncomfortable or be a bother #but it Definitely affects my self perception #i do see myself as kind of a punching bag and isolated and stuff bc of it #and half of that is my own fault for. uh. hm. idk why. but i know it IS for playing into the role #but delving further into THAT its bc as a little autistic kid that was the only reason people would have me as a friend yk #so i suppose nowadays i still have the mindset of 'if i dont let people be mean to me then i Wont Be Kept Around'#idk . i wish i had the confidence in that area to ask ppl to hold back on being overly mean yk. but how to Do That

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crowrelli · 8 months

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my gf finally saw a piece of your old it au and was in love with how you drew them and the whole concept but was so mad to hear that people were awful to you about things in it. i still think about your art of that little group all the time too and it still breaks my heart that the whole thing is so upsetting for you. you deserved so much more. you really did. even if you dont answer this due to it being related to that (which is understandable bc of how much it deeply upset and hurt you), please know it was my favorite au of them all and i'll forever hold it in such high respect.

im literally sobbing anon oh my god!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭not to get poetic or anything but it really shakes me to my core sometimes to think about how much i loved that story and how many people enjoyed it given it was my first real big project. (did u know theres people out there with custom superloser tattoos?? its insane!!!) and to know that it still hangs around in peoples minds and lives brings me unimaginable joy and pride in spite of all the people who tried to wreck the beautiful experience.

i like to think that the stuff I went through, the stuff artists like I went through back then, to push for more open trans headcanons and representation, only to get a wave of hatred and hurt from people who just couldnt handle others being proud of themselves, opened the door for so much growth to happen in fandom AND lgbtq spaces.

It was horrible, and i wont lie and say it didnt almost take me from this world, but I think Im a better person for it!! I learned to straighten my shoulders, meet their eyes and tell the angry, nasty, bitter people out there that I wouldnt be shaken by them anymore.

and all i ever wanted was at least one young queer person to see me and learned to stand a little straighter, a little stronger, and a little braver at the end of the day <3 and who knows! maybe somewhere in the future, ill want to pick it back up!! until then i can rely on the messages like yours to keep me confident in the impact and community i made for a silly little story about a bunch of losers <3

#i met so many kind and amazing people during that time - hell i met my fiance!!#in the years ive had to reflect on that time ive taken a long step back and observed fandom and the trans community as a whole and #as it grew and changed from a place where a man is violently threatened for drawing a trans man not binding to now most characters are #headcannoned as trans as a sign of love!! care!! compassion!! freedom!! expression!! trans joy is so big and bright it outshines most hate #i can very confidently say that things are better now. /people/ are better now.#and i hope that the makeshift leader of everything i went through knows i wish them healing and happiness despite it all and never ever #has to experience someone elses misguided misdirected pain.#<3

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cithaerons · 9 months

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this book is making me INSANE

#i wish i had true confidence of this author!!! imagine just saying things with zero factual support #*the confidence #the kind of thing i would forgive if it was published 70+ years ago but this was . a decade ago

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gurorori · 3 months

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idk why i'm a little scared to even talk about this like it's a crazy thing to say. i think i am right lol

#even i don't get to talk about all things trans since the only Hormone experience i have is being forcibly put on them cuz we started #puberty way too early and it was THE WRONG PUBERTY!!!!#slash funny #YET. YET. mark my word this year will be my year. it will #i don't go arnd pretending i know things i don't. i wish i had these ppls confidence i rly rly do #there is definitely a fair share of ppl misgendering this kind of people and That is pretty shit. i don't think their identity is any less #real however i do think they could benefit from actually surrounding themselves w capital T trans people in their lives and also shutting up

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void-botanist · 4 months

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Okay I wanna ask you Blorbo wrapped questions back lmao. I'm also curious about who you thought was coolest, who you rotated in your head the most and who was most fun to write. But also, did you have anyone that was kinda driving you up a wall but then something clicked and you really figured out how to write them? If not, who's still driving you up a wall?

Kendrick! I think you saw that I got too excited and answered my own questions over here but who has been driving me up a wall is an excellent question, lol. There are a few who aren't actively driving me up a wall (what's up with Aza huh) but the people who I still haven't got a hold on are Declan, Horatio, and Sid.

I'm almost hesitant to say Declan because I don't think I have a hard time writing him but I also feel like I haven't fully keyed into the fact that he's an autism creature of a man (and also making it clear that the way the rest of the crew does things behind his back is not them infantilizing him because of it but more complicated than that. They do think he's fragile but that's because of how he's handled his grief). Also like. He literally trusts his crew with his life. But he is so so bad at talking to them and I haven't totally figured out how that all works out.

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Horatio got a character lift in this version. He's always been a sweetheart but that evolved out of him having A Sense Of Justice while also being generally pathetic and wet and soft. Now he has the Standing family deviousness that goes along with it and I don't know how to write that. Because also he looks completely different to Sid, who knows him very well and who he's open with, than he does to Avis, who hates him somewhat for the circumstances of his birth (she tries not to because it's not his fault) but extremely much for being sun-coded in the "cheerful" and "unavoidable and intense" ways. So like, what is he plotting (especially about getting Sorian and Avis back together) and how is he plotting it and how does this dovetail with the happy-go-lucky florist which is equally as much who he is?

Sid on the other hand is challenging in the sense that writing him feels fine. He's a real everyman if you will. Except I don't get his character and I think that's a major stumbling block for AOM as a whole. Yeah, on some level he has to be the sad traumatized guy but like. How does he handle his parents trying to run his life once he takes a massive step outside of their frame of reference? How does this work with Avis's story? (Can I successfully shove these two stories into one thing that is a whole? They have so many themes in common help) In his earliest iterations he was the devil-may-care I'm-doing-my-best guy who mildly tormented Horatio Sense Of Justice and I guess they've sort of flipped? Except Sid is always the Doing My Best guy.

Also when it comes to Anni and Zel, Anni is so easy to write with all the technical stuff and much more challenging with the romance stuff and I don't want it to be that way aaaaaaa

As for who did click, I think I'm getting there with Patience (even though I haven't worked on TFA in a while), Rodney worked better when I just let him be soft, working out Fay's whole divorce history helped make her easier to write (she's not pretending to be the good suburban mom. she just is sometimes and other times she sucks), the fact that Wylie hates himself cracked his whole character wide open, and lately I've realized that a critical part of post-divorce Sorian is that he's tired. He's tired of Avis needling him, always being there but never being there for him. He's not even sure he deserves for her to be. But he kinda wishes she would just leave and move on so he can too.

#'but your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone'#every iteration I get closer with Anni & Zel. I promise they have chemistry. I just don't feel confident in my ability to bring it out #which is probably the real problem. I think I'm gonna just write a ton of them outside of TFA until I get it #also when I start writing Binna again I think she's going to be kind of tough but we'll get there #original Old Canon Sid was a fucking trip (highly affectionate). I think he was dead? and trapped in the time stream?#so he could just go through time and dimensions however he pleased to annoy everybody equally #he and horatio had this unexplored 'menaces to lovers' potential #his methods were questionable but he really was trying to do the right thing. I wish I had written seven million more pages of him #I originally solved Sid vs. his parents with what was essentially a heist plot crafted to convince them he was a lost cause #which was delightful but. I don't think that's how I want to do things this time #it was great catharsis while I was really going through it tho #also throwback to when I mentally got through finals in the spring by just taking a break to write Vy x Wylie smut #thinking about Sorian and mentally going 'aw my baby' and laughing about who I have/would call my baby #anyone is fair game but I usually say it about Dez (cute) - Tirias (fun) - Mirilde (darling) - Sorian (sad) - Fabian (loser)#c: Sid #c: Declan #c: Horatio #c: Sorian #c: Fay #c: Wylie #c: Rodney #c: Patience #rose meta #rose brambles

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earl-grey-love · 7 months

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😳 Let me tell you my feelings for Barbs are next level. I woke up suddenly possessed with inspiration and spent 5 uninterrupted hours writing a 5.3k word fic about him and my s/i before I even had coffee. I didn't even PLAN to write that much. Good grief.

#it's such a great outlet for my passion #he's so beautiful I can't help but write vivid descriptions of him and his personality and little details #I honestly feel kind of embarrassed about it but also I don't because I love without shame #I wish I had the confidence to post my fics but I don't #not that I doubt my writing skills or anything its more because its so personal #god forbid anyone understand why I feel the way I do about him #anyways I got no energy left I poured it all into writing about Barbs #ship: anything for you dear #yes they said that to each other in my fic too you best believe it #also I think thats like 25k words in total Ive written for Barbs now woweee #sunny speaks

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mxalexwhat · 10 months

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The absolute audacity that some men have to wave their hands in front of my face until I take off my headphones, just so they can ask me for my phone number, and I say, "No, thank you." And then ask again, and I say, "Buddy, now is not a good time." And then keep talking to me, and I say, "Bruh, I want to kill myself right now. No."

And even step it up a notch by claiming I'm possessed by the DEVIL and the only way to save me it is to give him my phone number.

#when I say I wish I had the kind of confidence that men have #get fucked asshole #men #street harassment #suicide mention

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wizardnuke · 1 year

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i do really fucking love not living in the town i went to high school in. there's only one goddamn person in that town i still like and i drive the hour it takes to visit him pretty regularly and i get to hear all the stupid drama that's going on with people and then i get to leave again. it's amazing

#HAND TO GOD I NEVER EVER STARTED SHIT ON PURPOSE IN THAT PLACE #Some People just really hated me for being semi confident and cringe and unbothered by them #I was always so nice. idek what I did. makes me a little sad I never wanted to piss ppl off but whatever! heehoo I got out and they didn't!#okay there was one girl I absolutely hated and did not hide it at all but she was the worst u have to believe me.#there r some people I wish I had stayed in contact with but at the same time. what can u do ig. life goes on #(Some People didn't like that I did better in the band-theater sector than they did. despite the fact they were a grade lower #and had all the chances I did to do the same as I did at the same pace as me. without overlapping. incredible behavior)#it bothered me I wanted to be his friend :(#to be frank I also was just kind of better than him and much more casual abt it but I DIGRESS. wanted to be his friend is all #ACTUALLY there r multiple ppl I still stay in contact w I just don't see them nearly as much/see those two w simon (bestie I visit)#hahshdjjdb this one girl I'm still friends with. okay so I was a little terrible to people and I was mean to her in middle school bc she #annoyed me but actually she's great and I tell her that regularly.. girl I adore u I'm so sorry 13y/o me was a bitch she was going thru it #...girl gender neutral. girl with nongirl traits. girl affectionate girl all pronouns with a she/her default

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fluffypotatey · 1 year

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*thinking about the wasted potential/missed opportunities of Gwen being Queen*

I'm totally normal about this, I'm totally normal, I'm absolutely normal, I'm