You have fully convinced me that I am forever unlovable.
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Why am I always left on 'read'?
Why am I always second best?
Why am I always ignored?
These questions run through my head on a daily basis. New friends, Old friends. They all ghost me. They all ignore me.
But, I never know what I did wrong. Or what I do wrong?
I know I am weird, and strange and a bit different. But they liked me before?
Truth is, they seemed to like me more before I got sick.
Before I got Type One Diabetes. EPI, Diabetic Retinopathy, Nerve pain.
They seemed more ok with me then. But now they don't. And I have no clue why.
My life hasn't changed that drastically for them. For me it has, because it has too, but for them, I still speak to them, I still see them, but not much has changed.
I don't even know what I did. And I can't ask them, because if I do, I either will get a fake "oh no im sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel that way." Or I will get a confrontational response.
I'm going to go low contact with them, I can't do this anymore. I can't always be second best again, I can't always be ignored, I can't always be left on read.
i always message first and I can't do this anymore because that's the only time I will get a fucking response out of these people.
I'M DONE!
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I can't love you the way that you want
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I'm wondering if I'll always remember those 10 numbers.
Isn't it strange and terrible?
Or deliciously tangible?
That's the edge I teeter on.
Could've been greater than this.
That's how I feel when I see myself in a window, in a mirror.
Your words hang on me.
I'm a coat rack in the desert, and you've just swept in from Chicago, mid-January.
I'd like to think you're coming back.
But the more I swelter, under wool and mink, the more I know what it means to be loved.
To be hated.
All things, all ways.
If it's true that nothing is everything, and it's all for not, then let's eat cake for breakfast while our hearts still beat.
Let's dance through the woods like kids again.
I'd do anything to know how to be less analytical.
I don't see a building. I see a blueprint.
There's a problem with breaking things down, and never building them back up again.
I surrender to that.
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texted and saw you read it
lately I’m so pathetic
dinner at 7-11
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But it's a little too late
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I love you, I miss you, I wish I never met you,
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I hope the memory of me still haunts you the night while you're trying to fall asleep
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Hey guys!! Got broken up with about three weeks ago!! Still suffering since this was a two year relationship!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help me please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW DO I RECOVER FROM THIS I WANT TO FEEL NORMAL.
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I will excel in everything you ever wanted because you didn’t want it enough. I will surpass you and show you how weak you really are. I hope you keep yourself in this hole forever. I don’t wish you the best anymore, I’ve allowed you to damage me for the stupidest shit ever and I hope karma hits you like a fucking nova.
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Nothing hurts like being blindsided by love / Nothing hurts like thinking I'm not good enough
and then this gem that is the bridge!!!
I cry like a river / Fist fight with the mirror / I guess life ain't all glitter / I wish I never met you / It takes time to get bigger / Shine bright, find a rhythm / And I’ll try not be bitter
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I like to think you’re miserable without me, that you spend your days regretting what you did. It’s easier to believe you’re suffering like me, like I actually mattered.
“& if he’s happy?”
I think that’d kill me.
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i wish i never met you - babygirl / the Kiss of the Sphinx/ Two People: The Lonely Ones
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Whiskey, sex,mountains and winters is all I need right now and forever!
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