Yea I admit it, I am extremely jealous of rich people, especially those who were born rich. Who are able to follow their passions and not worry about money because their parents bought them a car and a penthouse apartment in LA and they can stream on twitch and get thousands of followers cause they have top of the line equipment and studio set up and the TIME that is essential to creating and keeping a community engaged. It's very rare that a person who makes enough money to support themselves on twitch started out poor. I'm not saying it doesn't happen, but being able to stay home and stream all day and afford expensive equipment (including a gaming pc or laptop that can handle streaming video, let alone streaming both video and a graphics heavy game) will always have a HUGE advantage over someone who has to work all day for a living. And don't get me started on vtubers who drop 5k+ on a model and branding kit and instantly get hundreds of thousands of followers.
I wish I could stream more and do more streams oriented towards environmental science and conservation but my pc keeps breaking and most of my spoons go towards my job. I don't even really want to be a huge streamer? I just want enough people to hang out with so I'm not lonely while playing farming games
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I have been walking the fine line between "Bad Time" and "Crisis" for a couple days now. I've been waking up in panics, multiple times through the night. I'm not sure how to help myself and even thinking about a hospital trip makes me want to throw up, so I guess I'm cursed to suffer for now ._.
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I want to cry at work and it's probably the hormones and the fact I've been so so so bad at taking my meds. But also like. The discount didn't fully work and it sucks and I'm mad, but more importantly I'm terrified people will come to hate me because of who I am. I feel like I'm walking around at all times with a comical cartoon piano dangling over my head by a string, and one day it's going to break. It's going to snap and then I'll be alone and everyone will hate me and be glad I'm dead, crushed under a cartoon piano.
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i just cried after doing the dishes because of my paws being in pain and because I feel like I'm being a terrible host because I'm kinda tired of my guests. I love spending time with them, but having to go to work, do my house chores, keep them entertained and fed, is just too much. And I feel like being overwhelmed makes me a horrible host. I didnt tell them anything, I'm trying to seem like I'm not that tired, but just because in my head I'm getting tired of all that, I'm bad. And yes I know that my thoughts don't make me bad, but that doesn't matter because while I know that I still feel like absolute piece of garbage. Because like, how could I even think of that. I'm supposed to be happy about them being here, and I am happy, but I am also constantly in pain and have to do everything around the house and it's just too much
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why would heteronormativity be the norm on a monogender planet. which btw is also a thing i hate that all the women come from caminus cus girls come from veeeenus boys come from maaaars and theyre sooooo different and alien to each otheeeer
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