#i wish you knew how much i miss you

[peterblushes]

i wrote something beautiful about you once. about how i wanted to explore you like the universe and understand the depth of your mind, how you’re as bright as sirius and even more beautiful than the north star, how i would go out and buy the best telescope so that i could look for you every night. but i deleted the screenshot and that text now floats around somewhere yearning to be seen again by me and possibly you. im sorry i never got to say sorry

#text #im so sorry #i wish you knew how much i miss you

[everyoneisalittlesadalittlehorny]

I wish you were here right now, telling me it’s all going to be okay, that we can fix it all.

I wish you were holding me the way you do, letting me become tiny in the circle of your arms, letting me suck your thumb for comfort.

I’m scared. I’m hurt. I wish you were here to tell me it’s going to be alright. I wish you were here to make me feel safe.

I wish you were here.

#relationship #I’m sorry #i miss you #i wish you knew how much i miss you #i wish you would #i wish you were here #i'm a fool #fuck up #you’re the best

[xjustakay]

✨ put us on ice by xjustakay ✨

“When you think about it, the rink is kind of like our circus.”

in celebration of finally wrapping up put us on ice, i was very lucky to be able to commission the loveliest @cuckooboo to do this incredible cover art piece!! truly the biggest of thank you's to cuckooboo for doing such an amazing job with this art, and all of my love and appreciation to each of you who have shown so much love to this story! it's been so very, very special to me<33

#jegulus #starchaser #sunseeker #james potter #regulus black #jegulus fanart #jegulus fanfic #GONNA THROW UP #CAN'T SEE THROUGH MY TEARS #OBSESSED DOESN'T EVEN COVER IT #THE WAY THEY'RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER AND THE POSE AND JUST ADJFKADLJFK #THE PHOENIXES BANNERS AND THE 'START A CIRCUS WITH ME?' #IT'S THEMMMM #THEM THEM THEM #i wish i knew how to be normal about them (no i don't i love them so so so much) #my precious precious put us on ice babies #gonna miss them so bad #but this has truly been so damn special #thank you to everyone who's loved them with me #fic: put us on ice #kay’s writing #fanart

[cold-neon-ocean]

Posting this by itself because :) I just feel like he should have gotten to wear the mech pilot suit at least once..

(my AU black version and the og green)

#Legend of Korra #Baatar Jr. #LoK #WIP #[ since this is from something silly I wanted to post this bit because he is serving very cunty #even if you know he's talking about accidentally ingesting caustic chemicals lol #this was def self indulgent but also why couldn't he have worn the suit at least once sobs #we had one chance #I don't actually think he uses the mech suit hardly ever even though he has his own personal one #but on rare occasions he does and gets in this outfit and Kuvira are you okay? Are you good? Has anyone checked on her? #I feel like this outfit is what causes her to take a serious sanity hit LOL #she just drags him away by the hood and no one sees them again for like 4 hours #or she's just like “You know what I think he could use my help :)” and proceeds to be everything but helpful #idk how anything in this regime gets done I swear #the most Baatar ever used the mech suits was when they were first being built #idk dude I love a man in a working uniform sobs #I knew someone would recognize the mech pilot suit hehe that made me smile because yeah :))) #it felt good to draw Baatar again sobs I love him so much I've missed him #I do kinda wish this sketch was cleaner but I wanted to at least post it now in case I never did lol #I should to a proper illust of him in the pilot suit one day just for the pure self indulgence of it all #give myself a lill treat you know? ] #Neon Ocean Art

[slushi-chan]

Rest in Peace Bill (May 17, 1955-February 25, 2017), wherever you are I hope you know how loved you are, that you live on in our hearts, and how much you inspired and still inspire so many people (me included)

#bill paxton #we miss you so much #I can’t tell you how much Bill has impacted my life since I got into him and his movies mid to late last year #he and the characters he’s played have inspired me so much #I wish I knew about him earlier I would’ve loved to meet him #you will forever be remembered Bill

[sciderman]

i relate to peter parker because i’ve had six crushes this year alone

damn son save some for the rest of us!!

#sci speaks #i think i've only ever had one crush in my life. wilding. i wish i fell in love easier. it feels wonderful. #oh the people with hyperactive hearts... #i wish i had felt this way at some point when i was younger. it kind of felt like my heart wasn't fully developed yet. #holds my heart in my hands. why were you such a late bloomer. why didn't you feel more things earlier on. #i'm kind of sad that i didn't have teenage crushes or anything. i feel like i missed out. #is it because nobody around me was appealing. or is it because i was too busy on my own planet. #i think i wasn't really close with a lot of people when i was younger. i kind of never came out of my shell. #so nobody got close enough to me for me to like them. #not that it's necessarily how it works. but it takes a lot for me to get there with somebody i think. #i think a lot of the relationships i've been in i'm still To This Day not even sure if i actually liked them back in that way. #squeezes my heart in my hand. why are you so fussy. #i wish i had more experiences under my belt. i really do. but also i don't want to be in situations that are uncomfortable either. #and i don't want to just be there for the sake of it. #lies on the floor and stares at the ceiling. i don't know what i want. #is love the answer? #i don't know. sometimes i want it more than anything. but it's such a ball-ache to get. sometimes you think you're better off without it. #i wish i knew what i wanted. i think i just want to be brave enough to find out. #why do i ramble so much in my tags. it's like tumblr is my therapist or something. #i'm feeling weird about myself lately. just kind of a little tired. i don't feel bad. but kind of perpetually low-energy. #like i never have the time to do things that make me happy. and when i do get the time i don't have the energy. #is this what it's like to live in this world. i need like. a year's break from work. i think. #i need like a year-long vacation. i need a gap year. i need a year to live life. #i wonder if it's financially viable. i think i'd eat through everything i have if i did that. but. #you can get money back. you can't get your time back.

[a-swiss-and-a-spaniard]

Roger Federer | 24 hrs with Roger — London: To London, With Love Pt. II

#roger federer #24hrs with roger #side questerer #is it just me and my federer-starved heart or has he gotten dorkier?? #I probably just miss him #I mean the way he points with his finger after he tells a joke is just- aaaaaaaa #yes Rogi we *know* you're cool indeed #I love how he talks with his hands #I wish I knew how to remove the subtitles other than by cropping the image bc you can't appreciate it much like this

[stormyrainyday]

hope ur ok by olivia rodrigo makes me want to dissolve into a puddle its like yes i remember you, old friend, yes i still think about you, yes i remember the things we went through, yes it's been years and i am probably nothing more than a passing thought to you now but i love you i love you i love you and i hope more than anything that you are okay now

#but god i hope that you're happier today #because i love you #and i hope that you're okay #do you KNOW #do you know how fucking much i think about this #because i do i do i do i do i do #i love you i love you i love you #i miss you #i wish i still knew you #and i hope only the best #and i hope sometimes that maybe #you think about me too #olivia rodrigo #sour olivia rodrigo #hope ur ok

[lochlander]

Help, it's almost midnight, and I'm crying about how much I miss the Sims 2 Exchange.

#i don't really need help i don't think #i'm just confronting the passage of time #and realizing how many of the people that defined my early experience in the community aren't here anymore #i miss di and spork and lucy #and toast and doc and candi #and gin and looloo #i don't think i ever even talked to them #i was a kid and i was intimidated #but i loved what they made so much #and i wish i'd said something but i was a kid and i didn't know there would be a time when it was too late #my heart hurts so much holy shit #i started writing because of the exchange #if everyone knew how much strangers loved them the world would be a better place #i'll be fine i'm just sick and i didn't get any sleep last night and i miss a time before crisp screenshots and ceilings #don't get me wrong it definitely had its problems but god #if you could see it when i saw it #just people making things #ai could fucking never

[kn11ves]

emotional support group for autistics who got called condescending and rude as kids just for responding to things directly and still not knowing how they were being mean

#what did i do #i got constantly told by my mother and step father (and his family) that i always talked like i knew better than they did or that i was #just as mature. i was just fuckjng talking what the hell did you want me to do #why do you feel attacked when a 10 year old speaks to you as an adult????? literally what #i dont know on that note sometimes its just like i dont even feel like ive aged at all #sure i have a giant explosion of time in my head just Gone from my memory because i was getting abused but like i dont feel like ive aged #or really matured ive felt like ive alwats felt #i cant relate when epople are like me when i feel all my ages or i wish i could go back to being x age or being x age everything felt so #different..like no it didnt. or im missing something? #i have never in my life felt like anything has changed. ive always been this old. there is no ''inner child'' and ive never had childhood #innocence or a nostalgia or childhood to go back to. i have no idea what any of you are talking about ever👍 #ugh jst rmemebred skmething that happened with my white step dad's mother #we visited her house and she literally fucking didnt let me go (not physically) until i replied to her with Correct Granmar. what was i #doing? i was reaponding to her by saying ''yeah'' and she kept repeating ''yes'' like telling me to say yes instead of yeah and i didnt #Fucking Get It because guess what you old white cracker i barely fucking speak english and you are just saying things in an aggressive tone #like thats gonna make me get it. and i Didnt i just kept replying yrah to her yes's and then she got tired of it and we left out the door #and theeeeen i got yelled at in the car by being called disrespectful and rude by my parents. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO????????? #those crackers never liked me LOL i literally know they didnt #ugh i rmemeber this one time my step dads father was like trying to show me some dumb boxing or karate or something punching move and he #told my mother that i was good at it because he felt i had a lot of aggression and then NY MOTHER YELLED AT ME IN THE CAR FOR IT?????? #oh fucking wonder why te kid being abused mighthave aggression but she didnt Know (apart from what She was doing to me) like why would it #be my fucking fault if he thought i had aggression in me HOW IS THAT MY FAULT WHAT DIDBI DO I WAS JUST TRYING TO DO THE MOVE BECAUSE WELL #I WAS TRYING TO GET ALONG BECAUSE THATS WHAT THEY WANTED ME TO DO #she was like do you know how much that embarassed me and WHAT THE HELL HE SAID IT I DIDNT I WAS LIKE #8??? OR SOMETHING???? I DONT FUCKING KNOW!!! I DIDNT KNOW WOMAN WHAT DID YOU WANT FROM ME #mothers when they mother👍

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

[thefunniestguy]

Ougjh yeah?? "I cannot reject the story we lived together" huh? What story? Gay romance ? You cannot reject all the homosexual feelings the two of you had??? Yea that's what I thought

#IM COPING....... #i miss tjese sillies :(((( #this scene is SO GOOD i wish i knew how to put my feelings into words regarding it #just . no matter how desperately leo misses elliot . the fact that he wojldnt change the past bc . 1) elliot would HATE IT but . leo is #familiar w being on elliots bad side . #2) in a way its like . rejecting everytbing about them . about elliot #they lived their lives together . they loved each other so much even if it was simply the love you feel for a true genuine friend #elliot fought and fought and died alone and in a selfless way #even if it was the kind of death elliot hated it was undeniably so ELLIOT of a death - his stubbornness and pride still played a key role. #pandora hearts

[enrapture]

Laying in the dark in my bed catching myself smiling about moments we shared together, all the times we were intertwined and the lil moments of laughter and blushing, all the texts we used to send to one another to even the bad moments - the highs and lows and things not going at all as planned or as wanted up to now how things are so different….i miss how things were before.

#I always sit back and think of us fondly despite the departure and distance created between us #i probably would’ve kissed you a little longer and held onto a lil more if i had known what I know now #or rather what I knew back then #I miss the way you’d grip my hips and tease me and make me laugh I miss the playful flirting and banter we’d have with one another #I miss our friendship #such is life i guess #how gross feelings are I wish I didn’t feel so much so easily so fluidly so impactfully #I wish I were those that didn’t feel much at all

[thegirlwholied]

Charmed (1998) rewatch but only seasons 1-3 and then treating the season 4 premiere as an open-ended finale 🤷🏻‍♀️

#charmed #charmed 1998 #charmed wb #i remember what comes next all too well #honestly I am sorry to miss out on some of the phoebe/cole scenes of early s4 when they were still fun #but i don't think i can take the s4 plotlines again let alone the reminder of s5 looming #going back as an adult is fascinating though #1 - so much of the fashion is back in #season one especially #also wow preteen/early teen me was really oblivious to fashion though i did wind up thinking leather pants = cool from what i absorbed then #2 - i can absolutely see the change from the original showrunner and really wish i knew what constance m burge intended next #3 - the inconsistencies. the inconsistencies #not just the mythology they were making up on the fly #(how long are you a ghost v moving on to next life since past lives are a thing but also visitors from the afterlife etc etc) #but the timeline #how old was phoebe when victor left (thank god they recast victor absolute glow-up) #why did leo have a past life in the 20s when he should have been already growing up #cole refers to 'mornings waking up next to you' about his ADA apartment when it's very pointed that he & phoebe only hook up there once #4- fascinating how sex is treated in the early seasons v the latter #(it went over my head back in the day but) they very much make clear which boyfriends they're sleeping with v which they *aren't* #(i.e. they spell out that prue only sleeps with andy once & never with jack & that piper never sleeps with Josh etc) #5 - biggest mistake the reboot made was doing the half-sister storyline in episode 1 #it gave them no wiggle room when a sister DID leave the show but #more importantly you lose the original grew-up-together-push-each-others-buttons dynamic that is so good #not many siblings shows on that level (supernatural is the only comparison coming to mind) #6 - I'm so Team Cole still #talk about dropping the ball on character - his half-demon backstory motivated by saving his father's soul is great actually AND DROPPED #still about phoebe/cole but the prue and cole dynamic makes more sense knowing they were dating IRL #and shoehorning in paige out of the blue distrusting cole mid s4 as replacement for that dynamic just will never work for me #anyway as my sister is now my roommate in the old house we rent Charmed (early seasons) hits different and holds up better than i expected!

[violetnaps]

i hate when old friends have memorable birthdays

#i miss them and neither of us are the same people we used to be and we will never ever get along how we used to #and sometimes i think if i had done things differently we wouldnt have gotten to this point. we couldve been there with each other growing #together instead of apart #and every year their birthday rolls around and i miss them and i miss me and i hate the me that lost them #but most importantly i love them and i wish i could still tell them that without making things awkward for both of us #happy birthday. hope you have an amazing day. you deserve it and so much more. i miss you. i love you. im so glad i knew you. #even if i hardly know you anymore. #txt

[godsfavoritescientist]

you’ll always be my favorite ghost - Big God, by Florence + The Machine

[Image description: Lineless digital painting of Ford kneeling in front of the stone statue of Bill, hugging it and crying. He is in the woods, surrounded by birch trees, with beams yellow light streaming down from the treetops. The grass around Ford is shaded to be reminiscent of the shape of the portal.]

#original art #billford #god I havent drawn in ages let alone lineless art #i dont know how to draw tears or anatomy at All #I looked up 'man hugging dog' to find a good hugging-while-kneeling reference image. #sometimes you gotta say fuck it and draw the thing before the idea of it eats you alive #i'm writing a fic about ford confronting the statue. the feelings are just so Complicated #he is so angry and relieved and exhausted. #angry at everything bill did. angry that hes gone forever. angry at himself for spending any energy on thinking about bill #most of all angry at himself for missing bill. he doesnt even Miss Bill #he just misses the version of bill that he thought he knew pre-betrayal. but that doesnt make the complicated feelings any less real #i imagine he would avoid the statue for a long long time and then one day accidentally walk past it #and feel a ton of repressed feelings bubbling to the surface #and he would want to kick the statue or run away or yell at it but all of those feel so silly to do to a statue. basically a gravestone #so he ends up hugging it and feeling like an idiot for hugging it but he just has to sob for a little while #sometimes you gotta cling to the tombstone of your horrible toxic ex and sob about how much you miss them #and sob about how bitter and angry and lost and Tired you feel. there will Never be any Resolution. he's just. Gone Forever #i can picture him laughing through the sobs and muttering 'we'll meet again huh. as if.' #'i never want to see you again you asshole. and having the chance to meet again would be too good to be true.' #he's just So Heartbroken about it all. and he wishes he could get some kind of closure or something. but there IS none. #even if bill came back what would he say? nothing new. He would keep feeling no remorse about any of it. he would keep being horrible. #ford is kinda mourning the final tiny little irrational ray of hope in him that got crushed when bill died. #the irrational hope that maybe bill Could end up regretting what he did and become better and then he could have his best friend back. #the irrational hope that the betrayal was all just a bad dream and any second now he will wake up and bill will be benevolent and good #none of these feelings are things that ford can admit to himself. not even all these decades later. #but it Does Something To You to see your ex-closest-friend's tombstone!! #regardless of how deep and terrible the betrayal was. #ford so badly wishes he could stop having any kind of feelings about bill anymore. especially the lingering remains of fond feelings #but i dont know if those feelings even Can be completely gotten rid of. hes stuck with the knowledge that he feels upset about bills death. #and he hates it. he hates feeling upset about the death of an evil dream demon who tried to destroy his family and his dimension.