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samijami · 2 months
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I have a problem and can't access my fake account, so I will let you guys know if I need to make a new one
But other than that, the plan seems to be going well and I'm somewhat relieved as of now
My friend irl is 100% going along with and even helping fake evidence to pin blames on the bitch named KJ
Just so you guys can know the full context of that, last week KJ tried to spread a rumour that my bf was cheating on me, so i have a grudge against her and i hate her (she's always been rude and really upset my bf). So this week when my friend irl told on me sending her snapchat messages when I was having a mental breakdown and wanting to die, then proceeding to get high off of painkillers, and I got into all of this shit because of that, she felt really bad because she didn't intend for it to go this far. She was just really really worried about me (but I can't help but be mad at her, but not take it out on her ofc cuz she's bending hell to help me rn)
So even though the counselor and CPS (which the school called) know that my friend reported it and the messages were real, the principal and other staff aren't aware of who reported me..or that there are messages. Although we are pretty sure that with my principal looking into it, he'll find out my friend reported me- so we're lying to say that KJ faked SnapChat messages and told her to concern her and get her to start drama with the office as revenge for me snitching and getting her a Friday school.
But during all of this, my father called the school to know who called CPS, and the principal ended up spilling about me being LGBTQ and having a trans bf, so I need to cover up two huge things here that can fuck me over. My home life would be a living hell and I'd kill myself to not live in the environment where my father knows I'm LGBTQ, and he wouldn't let me attend a vocational school i wanna go to if my bf went to it, so he'd be uining my only hopes of having some form of a future. So it'd be useless
And as of today, I had a talk to the principal where I had to be really transphobic about my bf so I can appeal to his ideologies and get by convincing him I wasn't gay so he'd convey it back to my father. Since I'd previously told him KJ 'started a rumour about me and my friend' (that being the cheating rumour) i decided to utilise that fact to my advantage by saying the rumour was us dating, and that it wasn't true. I had to deadname and misgender my bf the whole time and I felt awful..but he believed me and that's what matters
I told the principal about the 'hunch it was KJ who started this' and she was called to the office at one point. She came back in guitar class and she almost seemed like she was crying?..but the look on her face and the way she stared at me read that..she was pissed. So I started to play 'Ode to Joy' really loudly on my guitar as she walked past, then a smiled when she looked away.
She kept looking over at me, and didn't even play guitar but instead was on her computer the whole class. She always gave me this dirty fucking look.
She kind of did ask me to throw her under twenty buses when she fucked me over before, and she's my only logical blame since it'd make sense for her to do something like this
I got my bf to delete some emails we've sent to each other so our lazy ass principal won't find em (of me comforting him about our relationship over the cheating rumour), and now we can't be out at school (atleast until my father and his chatting chills out). Cuz the principal wants me to stop being so close to him, and will report back to my father with any shit we do together.
So we're tryna get our friend to sit with us in lunch more so it dont look like us watching our show at lunch is a romantic thing
And I lost a part to my wired ear buds we were sharing (and it's kind of awkward with the wire) so since I had a shit ton of money on me today and went out to the mall (and spent 100 fucking dollars), I stopped by another store and bought some wireless earbuds and a case
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So I spent like 130-140$ plus gave my friend 60$ to buy me a phone, which she will give me the change to a 50$ (+tax) phone on Monday.
Also same friend got me a bag where I shoved a lot of my gay and illegal items in so the principal won't see the gay magnets in my locker, nor will CPS find it (since they said they'd report it to my parents), and I definitely don't want CPS finding my illegal shit (vape, cigarettes + lighter, and painkillers I abuse).
So as of right now, the plan is doing fine. I'm not going to speak ahead of time, cuz my room is still going to be looked through and all..but there's a slim chance that CPS will just drop the case and not return. But that's also a call for a miracle. However if CPS were to fuck off, then this whole situation would subside and everything would be fine
I just hope they'll fucking drop it
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jaylaxies · 2 years
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🌙 ANON IS BAAACK (after so many days without interaction omg, m sorry)
sooooo, yeah, listen, I was (trying to) write a oneshot smut to post here on tumblr and It was originally with seventeen mingyu but reading again (cause I'm stuck with creative block), I was just thinking about Jake or Hee while all this and... yeah, there's one part:
“Of years knowing him, you never ever have excogited have the pretty man, on your bed, with his necktie wrapped around his wrists, laying shirtless for you, with big doe and eager eyes waiting for you next move. After a really messy make out session and the command to lay dow, you denied him to cum. He was sobbing, moaning and begging your permission. His beautiful face twitching deliciously always when you rubber your hand palm at his sensitive pit.
“Be a good boy for me and stop moving your hips.” you demanded, starting to get annoyed by his shivering. Again, he didn't listen, bucking his cock on your hand. You stopped totally, catching the boy's cheeks with you other hand “Listen to me, you little brat. If you don't stop moving, I'm going to kick your ass of my room and leave you alone and hard. Do you understand?” you saw little tears left hisglassy eyes, nodding “Words, baby. You have a voice to be heard."
“I got it. I'm sorry.” he didn't convince you not at all. Sliding your hand through his torso, you scratched his right nipple with the long nails, felling his cock twitch on your hand. A grow came from the end of his throat when you pressed your tongue on the sensitive bud, his back arching. It was the edge for you. Wrapping his throat with your fingers, you made he glue on the mattress and, before telling him how you was getting mad at him, he came on your hands. With a loud groan and tears streaming of eyes, he came without any warning. Surprised, you saw the lot of cum dripping all over his torso while his buff chest keep going up and down, trying to catch the breath. You clicked the tongue, mad at him, but mesmerized at the same time.
“You are a fucking wayward baby, hm? So stupid that can't even follow my rules when I said clearly you're just allowed to cum when I said and, oh, look at that mess.” you rubber the sensible pit, faster and with much more pressure “If you wanna cum so hard, I'm going to let you without any drop, you fucking brat.” he gasped loud by the overwhelming pleasure, his back arching with the felling that got his whole body.
“Y-Y/n, please, please, please.” he was breathless. A ironic breathtaking scenario. You knew he was going to cum again, twice by a row, and that's what happened. The hot liquid shortly after dripping everywhere.
“What a mess.” you said fake pouting, catching a little with the fingers, tasting it. His sore begging eyes following a drop of cum running the valley of your boobs “There's so much. We can't waist, right?” catching more, you sat in front of him, legs wild open, giving the Vip view to your dripping pussy “If you close your eyes, I won't let you fuck me.” said, you thrusted the cum covered fingerd inside yourself. The guy opened the mouth, surprised by your action, the dick twitching and hands trying to free himself “Even after cum twice, you still hard, baby? Horny bitch.” he almost closed the eyes and you smiled, observing the boy struggling so much. You untied him. Not because he deserved. Trying your digits at his soft brown and messy hair, you made he look at you cum covered cunt “I want you to clean the mess you made. You will not disappoint me again, right? I know you can be a good boy for once and make me proud.” don't need to repeat. On a snap of fingers, his face was between your leg, moaning while eating you out. The soft muscle pressed against your clit, lowering to the entrance, backing to the top. His big hands squeezing your hip and thighs so dreamily, that made you moan loud his whole name.”
Anything u want to add?? 👉🏼👈🏼
I had to edit cuz of Mingyu's name, but to be honest, I still kinda insecure to post the whole fic cuz english isn't my first language and I'm just not that confident in general
also IM IN LOVE W THE NEW THEME OMG
- the ghost 🌙 anon.
BESTIE OH GOD THIS IS SO AMAZING PLEASE POST IT FULLY AND TAG ME ONCE YOU DO??? i missed you aaa I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE SUCH A GREAT WRITER THIS IS SO SO HOT HELLO??? please don't worry about anything cause whatever you've written is perfect 😭✋🏼
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baekhvuns · 8 months
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It has just been a month and a half since I got into second year........things alr seem tough 😭. NVM about that, my friends's acquaintance apparently came in handy for this job. Yn job?!?!? Nah frr it reminds of those rom coms 😭😭.
NO HES GOTTA MAKE THE MOVE! But I bet he doesn't even know i fancy him cuz of my tremendous behaviour towards the person I like- PRETEND THEY DON'T EXIST! you will never catch me, and i mean NEVER catch me giving them soft eyes or trying to make a good covo, Bcz my brain says if you find someone attractive act cold towards them and then secretly cry in your room for them to notice when you basically give no clues whatsoever 😃
OHMYGOD NELLY FURTADO?!?! Honestly, I could've given out much better songs! I just forget the artists 😩 WEEKEND IN JUST FRIENDS DANG IT I FORGOT ABT HIM! I'm telling you since the whole the idol show launched, I can never listen to the weekend the same.
I scrolled down a lot on your blog, reading the asks and i saw someone made like vision boards for your fics. And i specifically loved the khronus one 🤌 and I kept tht in mind while thinking of the songs but i forgot it was based on moon lovers 🤦‍♀️
Besides that I've been meaning to ask you about your views on anime. I mean do you watch anime if so what'd be your top picks? Bcz...I'm obsessed with it so ....
Nooo I need a new part of just friends 😭 I'm STARVING FOR IT! The idea of hwayoung automatically popped in my brain when I saw this blog praising Shiloh pitt's visuals and people were going crazy over that oh wow she looks so much like her mother, or like mother like daughter. But ong Shiloh is majestic! Like those genes she acquired from Angelina 🤚🙌✨
I've been meaning to watch red, white and royal blue...(I hope that's the right title!) But I won't get the timeee 😭 like today, I'm doing nothing but I wanna dedicate this day to just my silly little videos on YouTube and not a series or a movie. But I'll try to stay strong!!
Ok but like I really wanna make hwa read the ffs 😭 LIKE PLS SIR!! I'm gonna dm KQ ent a pdf of Duke and general and ask them to MALE THIS A DRAMA! I will in this lifetime, SOMEONE HAS TO DO THT FIC JUSTICE!
reminds you? best friend it IS A YN JOB just wait till the holidays and the movie will start 👀
NO BECAUSE I GET U 😭😭 GOTTA ACT NOT INTERESTED AND MYSTERIOUS CANT LET THE COVER FAIL GDKWHDKW
NELLY FURTADO’S EVERY SONG W TIMBALAND IS FOR JUST FRIENDS (waiting for their new collab omg) AND THE WEEKND YEAH FHWJDHKS no ur right ever since the idol’s clips i saw on twt i just 🫠 what the fuck <3 but if we forget that then the songs def work for runways
omg yes i do!!! i grew up watching it but i mostly only watched shoujo and they stopped making shoujo’s for some reason like 5 years back and i only go to watch those but there’s a few new ones out w the same drawing so im watching them atm! my top picks since i only watched shoujo/slice of life’s would be 1. kamichu, 2. k-on, 3. tamako market, 4. ouran high school, 5. maid sama, 6. orange, 7. kamisama kiss, 8. alice academy, 9. yunerio patisserie!!!!!!! 10. pretty rhythm aurora dream (this was my fav as a kid)
a few others i can think from the top of my head is nana, cardcaptor sakura, SPECIAL A, itazura na kiss, my next life as a villainess, natsume’s book of friends, swan lake (2002), kodocha! if u want recs lemme know ive got a whole collection list 😭😭
ILL DEF LOOK INTO SOMETHING LIKE JUST FRIENDS! NO SHILOH IS LIKE THE PERFECT MIXTURE OF HER PARENTS i get it, id want hwa and yn from just friends to have pretty kids, u know they’d be mad tall 😭😭
that movie is so good!!! i wish it was longer bc i wanted to see more of their progression but it’s a good movie nonetheless!!
LMFAOOOO PLS FHWKDHWKHDWK TAKE THE SMUT OUT RIGHT NOW FHWKHFKWFJWK
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dexpairs-blog · 2 years
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The dorm leaders with an italian MC
I've been thinking about making this for a while lol. Also, for reasons MC is from North Italy, but it's barely mentioned so you'll notice if you squint. I'm also gonna do a more accurate version with the first years.
THIS SHIT HAS BEEN WAITING ALMOST A YEAR AMD NOW IT'S DONE LETS GOO
MC USES THEY/THEM PRONOUNS IN ENGLISH AND HE/HIM PRONOUNS IN ITALIAN SINCE THERE'S NO GENDER NEUTRAL PRONOUNS FOR ITALIAN.
@poketalefan1993 COME GET YO FOOD
No proof read, cringe(it's old and for some reason reading fanfics in my own lenguage cringes me out lol)
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Riddle Rosehearts
Would be very interested in your culture, especially the history.
If you talk about your world's literature he'll listen to you like a kid listening to his grandparent telling him a story.
PLEASE MAKE HIM READ DANTE'S INFERNO I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT HE'LL DIG THAT SHIT UP IN A COUPLE OF HOURS.
Is a bit startled by how much you gesticulate but eventually he'll find himself doing some of those as well-
If you have a potty mouth like me, i don't raccomend teaching him anything in italian cause he can and WILL lecture you about not using such inapt words.
If you call him petnames in italian he'll blush like crazy.
If you do teach him stuff in italian he'll whisper words like "i love you".
His favourite italian pet name is "amore mio"!
Leona Kingscholar
Doesn't care💀
Literally, he won't exactly give a fuck until you stubbed your toe against a piece of furniture in his room and made every possible saint fall from the sky.
This mf laughed at you-
Then you started calling him names too.
"oOH MA CHE CAZZO TI RIDI PEZZO DI ME-" (what the fuck are you laughing at you piece of shi-).
"what the fuck was that MC-"
"italian?"
"oh, ok."
I don't really see him taking all that much interest in where you're from??
But if you do wanna tell him he'll actually listen to you very carefully.
Sometimes would like to whack you in the head with how loud you can be, but doesn't because he loves you😝.
He particulary likes when you whisper words in your first lenguage while he's laying in your lap, he finds it really soothing.
Loves and hates how touchy are. You should be touchy only with him.
Azul Ashengrotto
(also, Sorry for my rusty dialect 😭 i barely speak it cuz my mom doesn't want me to but i can understand well. Also dialects are not the same in all Italy keep that in mind).
Dumping you with my headcanon that he lives in the twisted wonderland version of Italy.
He already knows the lenguage honey.
Doesn't really say anything at first, well, until FLOYD forces asks you to teach him dialect.
He was going to check on the lounge when he heard a familiar voice speaking a dialect that he seems to recall.
" "crocai" means seagulls, Floyd. Leave me alone!" You replied trying to distance yourself as much as you could from Floyd, when you suddenly heard a smooth voice from behind.
"Ah, MC. Non sapevo parlassi anche tu dialetto!" ("Ah MC, i didn't know you spoke dialect as well!")
"ti che casso vostu?" ("What the fuck do you want?")
"Floyd, please leave my starfish alone. you can go entertain yourself with the other guests." He told him, earning a grunt and a pout from the taller male who eventually left.
"quanto a noi... Perché non mi hai mai detto che parlavi una seconda lingua, tesoro?" (As for us... Why did you never tell me you spoke a second lenguage, sweetheart?")
Not really mad about it, just a bit surprised.
Having convos with him in italian is actually pretty nice.
I'm sorry but his italian accent is beautiful, it's Canon cause i'm Disney.
Kalim Al-Asim
Baby boy is super excited when he finds out! :)
You would be in Scarabia chatting and you keeping an eye on him for Jamil.
At some point the lenguage topic drops and you excitedly tell him about your first lenguage.
At some point you tell him that "porco dio" means "you're beautiful" and he excitedly runs off to tell Jamil. Jamil can't be bothered with your bullshit.
Please make him something he loves Ur cooking.
He'll call you nicknames in his first lenguage if you call him nicknames in yours <3
Vil Schoenheit
Why are you so damn loud.
Why do you move your hands like that.
Why are you so blunt.
WHY DO YOU NOT TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUSLY.
No don't touch him calm down jfc.
You're gonna give him a headache.
Very much thrown off by your vibe, he comes to appreciate it tho.
Still thinks you should start caring more.
Please don't teach Epel cuss words in italian. Don't. He's begging you.
Idia Shroud
You're literally his worst nightmare. STOP IT.
Jk you don't .
He learns to appreciate how laidback you are and that you know how to have fun.
He still cannot handle phisical affection though.
Do the cheek kiss greeting and he's dead.
He secretly wants to see jojo's part 5 because you said it takes place in your home country.
Idk how to write idia despite the fact i kin this MF i'm sorry.
Malleus Draconia
VERY MUCH INVESTED IN YOUR CULTURE.
Yes child of man tell him more about Reinassance.
PLEASE HE'D BE OBSESSED WITH THE ARTS OF ITALY.
WDYM LEONARDO DA VINCI INVENTED A MACHINE THAT CAN FLY!?😦 humans are so interesting.
ARE YOU SERIOUSLY TELLING ME D'ANNUNZIO ACTUALLY DID *THAT*!??(not explaining this one, if you know you know.)
TELL HIM ABOUT ROMEO AND JULIET PLEASE DO. (i am very much away it's written by a brit, bit in Italy you can visit Juliet's house so ya.)
Is actively looking for a way for y'all to to back to your world so he can take you on a date in Verona.
Also not a fan of how touchy you are with others, but LOVES how affectionate and romantic you are❤️
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the-faceless-bride · 3 years
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Older Y/n story
[  ] Chapter 1
The little promises with you~
Shu
I walked into the manner closing my parasol and gently placing it down. When I heard little foot patters down the stairs. Then I felt a little hand grab mine. "Y/n look!" He held up a little cassette tape, "I made a new song list for us to listen to today!" He held the tape to my face waving it around. "How fun, lets you go upstairs, lay down, and listen." He nodded his head and tugged me up the stairs. I rush up with him pulling my skirt up a little so I dont trip.
We get to his room and he sat me on his bed crawling into my lap. He put the tape in the player and clicked play. I lay back lightly stroking his hair. Right as the music was at its climax he mumbled to me in his sleepy state, "Will you always be here for me?" He looked at me with lazy eyes "Of course, I always will where is this coming from?" He didn't answer me, "I just wanna lay here and listen to our music forever Y/n... I love you..." I smiled softly and kissed his forehead "I love you more"
Reiji
Just like the last time I walked to the manner. But when I walked in and closed my parasol Reiji stood at the door he took my parasol and placed it down for me. "Let's go to the library." He put his arm out for you to take. You took it and be walked with you.
Once we sat at a desk he took out the book we have been reading together but then he took out a little notebook. "What is that Reiji?" He looked up small dust of pink "well, I have started to write myself." He lightly tapped the cover of the book "I dont think you would like it..I... Tried to create a fairytale, it's out of my element but I wanted ti to try." He said as he pushed up his glasses "im sure with your experience and knowledge in reading im sure it's exceptional" he froze for a moment before sliding the book to you. As I read I quickly picked up on how this was short stories about things I and Reiji have done together with imagination I found it adorable. "This is the best book of short stories I have ever read."  He smiled softly at that it's nice to see him smile even if it's only a little one. But then he looked down and his smile completely fell. "Do you love me?" He asked out of the blue, I looked at him my eyes slightly wide. "Of course I love you. Why wouldn't I?" He looked over his shoulder before looking down "well... My mother has never said that to me. So you saying that makes me... Happy." He slides his hand across the table lightly playing with your fingers. "One day let's write an amazing story together... Ok," I pushed put his glasses for him booping his nose. "I will gladly write a story with you"
Ayato
Today I wanted to spend time with Ayato but he wasn't around his manner so I went looking for him. I finally found him after almost an hour of looking for him at the lake by his home. He was just staring at the water. "Ayato?" He yelped and spun around to look at me. "Oh hi n/n," he says in a sad tone of voice. "Why so blue Ayato? Penny for your thoughts?" I pulled a little penny out of my dress pocket.
He looks at me and takes the coin "well my mother is mad at me again." He said looking back to the water,  "why? What did you do?" I ask walking closer "i- I can't swim," he says his voice no more than a whisper. I sit there quietly thinking, he seems to notice that. And he turns to me "penny for your thoughts?" He says questioningly as he holds out the penny I gave him "would you like me to teach you how to swim?" He looks somewhat shocked at first. He looks back to the water "ok.." He said.
He turns around as I start to take some of my dress of until I was in my corset stalkings and white undershirt. I set into the water letting him know he can look now. He just takes his white shirt off and waddles in kinda scared. I held my arms out and he found his way into them.
He gripped tightly onto me like a koala. After some time and effort of I placed my hands under him as he made the movements of his limbs. I secretly let him go slowly arms hovering under him but not touching him. "You're doing it." I smile at him, at first he didn't get it but then he realized he couldn't feel my arms under him anymore. "I- IM DOING IT!" he shouted happily as he puppy paddled in circles around me. when he was tired of this he clung to my body again. "Thank you n/n, now I won't be stuck at the bottom of the lake forever! Please stay with me forever okay n/n!" He puffed his cheeks out "All okay Ayato I'll stay" that he smiled with his chubby cheeks and kissed my cheek.
Kanato
We sat under the little gazebo together with our tea tray. Kanato happily ate the pudding I had made beforehand. I, Kanato, and Teddy were having a tea party. I was wearing the pink and purple dress Kanato loved so much.
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This but the red is pink and the black is purple
He was sitting next to me and Teddy was next to him.  "Kanato, slow down you'll choke if you dont." I giggle as I use a napkin to wipe some pudding off his cheeks. "I want to eat as much of it as I can, you always make the best pudding and sweets." I ruffled his hair and gave him a caring smile I got up to get us more tea but was stopped by a little hand tugging on my skirt.
I turn around questioningly "do you think im odd?" He asked with doll eyes. "What? No, what brought this on?" He lets out a little sigh before answering "well, mother says that the way I speak and act is strange and my relationship with Teddy is odd." This made my blood boil the nerve of this woman! "You're not odd Kanato, I think the way you talk and act makes you special and I love you for it," I say as I cup and pat his cheeks giving his face a little squeeze.
His hands grip my skirt harder and he shoves his face into it his words somewhat muffed "thank you y/n, this is why you will be the only one I will EVER love." I stroked his hair smiling "say Kanato, would you like to keep this tea set?" He perked up looking at me "k-keep it? Really?" He asked eyes holding a little shine in them. "Of course, and we can have tea parties more whenever you wish." He only grew more excited by his hopping up and down "Yay!"
Laito
I walked looking for Laito when I spotted him oh on... He was with his mother she had her hand on his shoulder close to his neck playing with the hair at the base of his neck. Without thinking I power walked over to them, whether I was angry, discussed or both was beyond me. How dare she put her hands on him the way she does! I know about the little affairs with her son and how she turned their relationship incestuous. She is a disgusting sex-based woman.  I was close when she spotted me letting Laito go and waving him away as she held her hand out to me. "Y/n! My dearest" I played into her game taking her hand and taking it close to my lips and kissing her pale knuckle.
"What brings you here love~," she says leaning back more opening her legs ever so slightly in hopes of tempting me. "Im here for Laito" her complexion faded, she sat up and crossed her legs "he's over in the roses over there," she said bored. Without another word, I walk to him.
"Hello y/n," he said as he brought me a single red rose. "Hello, Laito would you like to go inside with me and some water to put this in for now?" He smiles nodding his head yes.
After putting the rose in a small vase and sitting down he crawled into my lap his head in the crook of my neck snuggling into me. "She keeps doing that..." He said into my neck "who keeps Doing what?" I inquired "mother. She keeps talking with this other man but says she only shows her love to me" I felt small wet drops on my neck he was crying "oh Laito, that isn't love, what she does to you isnt love it's lust. There are other ways to show the love you know." He sniffled looking up at me "there is?" He questioned, "yes, like spending time with each other, listening to music reading a book, or just sitting enjoying each other presents it doesn't have to be physical, especially like that." His eyes shifted down in thought before looking up at me again. "So like us? We spend time together and enjoy being together so is that love? Love is what we are?" He inquired "then I love you y/n," he said arms around my neck I giggled and smiled softly "yes, I love you most laito. You deserve the world." I kissed the side of his head and patted his back. "Good to know," he said his voice below a whisper.
Subaru
I sat with Subaru in my lap making a flower crown as he drew in his little book with his doodles. We sat in silence I knew it was almost my time to go. I couldn't die due to my immortality but I knew I would have to let go of these boys soon. They... Didn't need me anymore. 
Shu never talked and pestered his brother.
Reiji was more like an adult than ever, too wrapped up in his work to bother writing short stories with me anymore.
Ayato went out with his friends from school.
Kanato had shut everyone out and stayed in his room most of the time.
And Laito talked with girls he didn't even give me a single rose anymore.
Subaru was the only one that needed me and once he doesn't it will be my time to leave.
By the time I finished with my thoughts I was finished with the flower crown. I gently placed it on his head and he closed his sketchbook. "Am I scary?" He asked as he looked to the floor. "huh? No, you're not. Who said that?" He let out a harsh breath "some kids at school said that no one likes me cuz' im scary and mad all the time."
"Well, for what it's worth I like you." He looked at me skeptical "you- you do?" His eyebrow raised "yes, in fact, I would even say I love you" his eyes went wide before he let out a little laugh "I love you too."
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deathincarnation · 2 years
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What kind of friend they would be
Kim Namjoon
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-Dimples.
-Dragon Eyes
-The sweet soul
-The supportive man that's hard to find these days
-Deep conversations
-Don't ask him the meaning of life if you don't wanna listen to 8747 theories about it
-He believes in black holes for some reason
-And reincarnation
-PLS foolproof the house before letting him in
-Banned from the kitchen and from going anywhere near your vases
-Note to self: DO NOT LET HIM DRIVE IF YOU WANT TO LIVE
-Overall, he reminds me of a very supportive, very nice and empathetic friend
Kim Seokjin
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-Gives the mom friend vibe
-10/10 will slap you if you're being self deprecating
-All jokes aside he knows how to make you happy
-The kind of friend I need in my life
-His laugh makes you crack up
-His food cannot be beaten
-His confidence is something you want and he wants to instill in you
-He gets shy when you compliment him a lot
-Note to self: DON'T FORGET TO EAT IF YOU DON'T WANT RAPPER JIN TO COME OUT
Min Yoongi
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-Totally supportive
-He want's both of you to be rocks in the next life
-If you're upset he won't ask questions just comfort you
-Low-key will maybe seem uninterested but don't judge he's definitely listening and rooting for you
-You can keep all secrets safe with him until the end of time itself
-He knows your little tells so don't fake around him
-Very good listener
-I feel like he'd give very good advice
-Note to self: DO NOT TRY TO WAKE HIM UP BY PUSHING HIM OF THE BED
Jung Hoseok
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-His smile will automatically make you smile
-Will do crazy dances to make you smile
-He knows which one is your real smile and which one isn't
-Don't say he's happy all the time he's gone through struggles
-Sneaking out and vlogging at 4 am
-Constant Dance Battles and he always wins
-Reassuring
-This man will literally read romance books with you and then proceed to cry
-Will come to you at 4 am if you're not feeling the best
-Note to self: DO NOT DEPRECIATE INFRONT OF HIM. HE'S SCARY WHEN HE'S MAD
Park Jimin
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-Don't let his smile fool you
-Total flirt but he knows his boundaries
-10/10 the guy that will help you in a situation where you are being harrased by pretending to be your friend
-Movies all the time
-Book recs are always shared between you 2
-He short
-But he precious
Note to self: DO NOT READ THE BOOKS HE RECOMMENDED INFRONT OF HIM
Kim Taehyung
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-His voice
-It's everything you need
-He is either a baby or a man
-No in-between
-10/10 will do Tata mic voice for you
-Cuddles all the time and you can't complain cuz he's just so soft and warm
-Will cheer you up
-Play fights all the time
-Watch a series with him, preferably romance comedy
-Note to self: DO NOT CHALLENGE HIM TO A PLAY FIGHT YOU KNOW YOU'LL LOSE IN. HONEY IT'S BETTER IF YOU DON'T COME OUT IN A WHEELCHAIR
Jeon Jungkook
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-Food
-Food bonding time is a must
-Will force feed you
-Will also steal your food with no remorse
-But god forbid if you steal his
-Shy at first but slowly gets out of his shell
-He's not shy anymore
-Total crackhead
-Serious when needed(but don't expect it to last)
-Why is he so good at everything?
-Note to self: NEVER PLAY UNO WITH THIS TRAITOR EVER AGAIN
-Will coerce you to get tattoos or even a piercing
-Note to self: DO NOT FALL FOR HIS DOE EYES AND POUT AGAIN. NO. YOU CAN'T. HE CAN'T GET ANOTHER PIERCING
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(lovely anon) i'm so happy to finally be answering this oh my goodness hi gorgeous human being i feel that it has been too long 🥲 SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE THE LAST TIME I'VE WRITTEN ONE OF THESE HOW HAVE YOU BEEN
to answer the things you have said most recently- i'm so mad that spring break is over bc now i have to go back to life??? like dancing and school and shit that feels so unnessacry 😭 and like i can't just do nothing anymore? i was so used to it and now...... ugh. i STILL haven't played sims (i think it's because ✨depression✨ be hitting sometimes) lol but MWAHAH IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUR NEIGHBOR!AU AND THAT THEY HAD LITTLE BABY LEO!! i feel the name thing.. i just come up with something that sounds nice? i think leo is a nice name, it makes me think about lea michele and the fact that her son's name is Ever Leo but anyway. i don't name my sims after what i want to name my children irl either... idk why though. (i don't know why i'm telling you this but for boy names i love Liam🥰 and if i had twin boys i think i would do Liam and Peter though i am not married to the name Peter.... anywho)
LMAOOO the therpaist coming made me laugh thank you :)) i hope it's helpful? this may be tmi but i've only really had negative thoughts recently and not many healthy outlets so i'm hoping crossing one thing off this sad list will make me feel better :') i think during spring break my anxiety and my depression really spiked? idk, it comes in episodes but yeah THIS GOT REALLY SAD
i think a lot of things when i read your posts but i never say them hahaha so imma say it now: i googled what bon appetit meant ( i also just had to google how to spell it ) but ur right, i feel like bone apple tea makes more sense than bone apple teeth.. the "th" is throwing me off bc how i say it bone appa (like app-a) teet (like you're saying tit but teet lol) so bone apple tea makes more sense to me lol
i never know really know the time difference for anything lmao but est to germany (that's not gmt is it?) is like 6 hours wOAH so it's like 9pm while it’s 3pm here? wowee
i feel mega weird after watching this show called hollywood (darren criss is in it, so is laura harrier and a bunch of other people) but i don't like it💀 i feel really icky rn and idk why but reading your last response to my ask (?) always makes me feel better :')
i am doing what you said btw, i'm typing this on my computer first then gonna transfer it to my phone's tumblr lol but when you said a digital detox, it's interesting cuz i feel like i've been having one since tom's new project was announced? gOD i don't wanna get into it bc i get so triggered but i've been off of instagram since then bc instagram stans literally stand by tom through whatever even when something ain't right- i’m just gonna leave it there bc i’ll continue the rant, but yeah so i took a break lol
also heard abt your driving lesson thing (?) was it that bad? i can't find the old post but someone asked if you hooked up with your lesson person and i was sOOO CONFUSED LMAOO LIKE OK ARIA GET SOME BUT UHH HUH?
now to address the actual response HAHA the way you touch my heart :') by :') bringing :') up :') halle :') being ariel :') (i honest to God don't remember if i brought this up first, forgive me if i did, it's been a minute lmao) i'm always talking about it and i'm pretty sure my family is so tired of me talking about it lmao, but YEAH when i found out they weren't twins i was so surprised but idk why i always thought they were twins? but YOU ARE SPEAKING MY LANGUAGE WITH THE DISNEY TALK- everyone is always like "tiana is my favorite princess" and yea she's strong and stuff but...... she was a frog. for almost the whole time. it's about time we got another one!! i do agree with some people on the fact that disney should just make another black princess but halle is adorable and i was ariel on stage so it's already really special to me :')
yeah lol there are good times with my brothers but they make me mad for a good portion of the time (there's the 12yo vincent and the 7yo daniel but vincent??? psshhh he is a piece of work and i'm not sure how much longer i can put up with him HAJAH AND YES VINCENT IS THE ONE WHO WAS 👁👄👁WHEN I CRIED AND THE ONE WHO DOESN'T LISTEN TO MUSIC- writing this now makes it sound like vincent is awful. which he isn't... we're working on him ig. not to add to the awfulness but no, he listens to obnoxious loud VIDEO GAME MUSIC and won't stop when we ask him to stop... he gets beat up a lot) anyway i imagine being an only child is really calming.. like you have time to yourself and its just you and your parents 😌
yeah let me know if you end up watching it (wandavision)! i think it's great but if you like it lmk!! tfatws is sooo good like PHEW i am honestly loving it. sidenote: j*hn w*lker makes me wanna jump through the screen and choke him to the ground. i was thinking right, and the falcon and the winter soldier (THATS SO MUCH EASIER FAJHKDAH) would techinally be like a 10 hour movie right? because every episode is an hour long and there'll be 10 episodes? like wow. i get what you mean though, abt the racism in the show etc, like looking forward to it but not like..... no i get what you mean i will not try and give another example lol but you make me wanna learn more languages like really badly (bc of what you said about the german to american translation) & if you end up watching hamilton PLEASE LMK ABT THAT TOO HAHAHA i love it so much, same thing with lion king lmaoo
speaking of germany, i was at lunch on saturday with my mom and her friend and we were talking about my schooling and like-- she planted this idea in my head lol like what if i just got my GED and went around the world (to england probably) to get a theatre experience??? and i think it sounds so cool but no where near practical lol, it's just..... the dream haha and i would then try and learn a language 😉
uh yes we absolutely should order basically a resturant meal at a cinema, how about burgers, chips (fries), and a large drink? any time next week works for me, should i pick you up?
also about cherry (which i still haven't watched yet lol) i got the timestamps from tumblr😌 i couldn't find them anywhere else, but i agree, i probably wouldn't even look twice at cherry if tom wasn't in it? like i liked tdatt a lot, but it's not a movie i would be itching to see ya know?
HAHAHAHA THE 24 HOUR NOTIFICATION- i think i have around 1030 hours on sims? but i've had it since 2019 lmao (reading the screenshots, yes u are 100% a genuis, i take screenshots too but on anon you can't upload them so i just read them and retype what i wrote lmao) i think the university experience in the game is fun, but time consuming and it's all work imo. idk why i do it so often tho 😭😭😭
and agreed!! when you're making good money in the game you have to find other ways to make it interesting. my cousins who play it just continously do "motherlode" and i'm like.... then what do you do in your game?? it just sounds boring to me... my current sims household, i had a famous comedian sim, her name was dylan, aND SORRY IM LAUGHING SO HARD WHILE WRITING THIS BC ITS A GREAT EXAMPLE OF THE UNI THING UNLESS IM JUST DUMB, she went to college for communications when i wanted her to be a comedian and when she graduated i realized that degree did nothing for the career 🥲 so yeah, i think i'm just dumb. but she had a kid in college, guy didn't stick around and she was pretty broke HA but then she got married to this (great) guy named steve, made good bank, had 5 more kids (two sets of twins and one more lol) but then she passed. uhm... yeah that's still an open wound . lol i'm kidding, but when you get rich like that, you have to find a way to make the game interesting and i chose a million kids.
(this was one giant paragraph until i broke it up uhh yeah) i seriously don't pay attention to the sims prices and just end up spending way too much money and not being able to finish the rest of the house😭 but then again, i'm so used to having sims live in apartments... if i end up building a house FIRST OF ALL it'll look like what you explained before lmao but i'll tell you if i actually end up building a house HAHA & planning out your sims game is so fun to me lol, did enisa and michael take in his daughter yet? i may be thinking too far ahead lol and i love that they fucked woohooed (i say woo woo lol) in celebration HAHA but when i was playing with this one couple i had them woo woo every night hoping the dude would have horrible pull out game and they would concieve, but one night they were too tired and i was like why? get back in there man. if i was in college and lived with my partner we would be fucking every night homie. be grateful. i have been talking a lot about sims, and like you said: enough 💀 i just love this game a lot 😭😭
SORRY LAST THING i think the sims romantic and sexual stuff is so nice bc its what i want?? LMAO IDK like the whole hot tub thing you're talking about- puh lease ITS JUST NICE TO SEE OKAY
i'm reading the german section over again and i said aloud "my german friend is so cool" lol (i was saying that to my brothers & i know they don't care LMAO) (& i'm glad the uni zoom call went well!!) so on a form, in german, it could possibily say Einführungsveranstaltungsteilnehmer because you would be a participant to an introductory event? i swear german sounds so cool 😌 but i love reading your german lessons!! it's really interesting, most of the time my brain can't comprehend it tho?? like that word makes sense to you, but i need a translation. like to be able to look at that and know what it says.... its just appealing and seems so cool lol i kinda wanna write something out in german but i feel that google translate will fail me. während googeln "google übersetzen" mein Computer war so verdammt langsam und es fühlte sich einfach wie etwas Gutes auf Deutsch zu sagen. ich bin nicht sicher, welches Wort ist "fucking", aber ich mag es lmao (did it fail me like i thought it would??)
LMAOOO THANK YOU FOR BRINGING UP JUSTIN BC WHILE AT THE RESTURANT THEY PLAYED A JUSTIN SONG AND I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU AND THIS STORY😭 lol i was thinking it's depending on your age but not even that either... i really don't know.... but tom's fans are hollanders💀 i would consider myself one? he's the only person i'm really into like that (like a lot lol) so idk lmao (directioners 💔💔the pain is real)
LMAOOO (both of these paragraphs started off with “lmaooo” smh) "i like my men when they look like they are on the brink of death" PLEASE, i don't like pete's blonde hair... i just don't. i'm not sure if i wasn't watching the most recent snls but yea. my mom thinks he looks like trash, but i think he's okay? like he said staten island people just look like trash LMAO and I STILL HAVEN'T SEEN KING OF STATEN ISLAND GIRL I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THAT!! now i'm gonna make plans to watch it lmao, & yes agreed i find pete hot, don't ask why i really couldn't explain it to someone he's just .
my favorite songs from rex are from pony oh my goodness 🥺 anywho i'm gonna go eat cereal (i ended up eating bun and cheese instead) and listen to the Stormzy songs you recommended... aria. aria aria aria. i would like to thank you for introducing me to stormzy i- i don't have any words or any emojis to express HOW GOOD STORMZY IS. i hope he's popular in germany/the uk because i haven't heard of him but GURLLLL
one second - delicious i love it. it's really good. it’s not my favorite from the album, but its great.
superheroes - at first i played the non-explicit one (on accident) and wondered why the words weren't playing but i was reading them in the lyrics??? THIS ONE THOUGH??? IS THE BEST SONG I THINK I'VE EVER HEARD. i am so SO SO into black people empowering songs (like brown skin girl by beyonce) and this song???? PHEW I CRYYYYY ITS SO GOOD.... i was gonna quote some lyrics BUT THERS TOO MANY I LOVE, "i am young, black, beautiful, and brave" "black queen, you're immaculate, it's coming at the world, they ain't ready for your magic yet, and that was never your fault" THAT WAS NEVER YOUR FAULT- I ALMOST CRIED THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL (i played it twice lol)
lessons is another beautiful one, like its slow and it feels intimate and nurturing and just OO chefs kiss, beautiful . like you can feel the apology and the regret... it’s so good
own it - OWN IT OWN IT OWN IT IS AMAZING!! swear you would catch me dancing to this song, this song is so fucking good i cannot comprehend like this one might be my favorite for real... "it's the way you wind up your waist, i'm so in awe, you never have to worry abt nothing, you know its yours, you know you own it" 🥲 i played it two or three times honestly
rachael's little brother - YES I DID LISTEN TO IT LMAO AND YES I LIKE IT, its a very complex song and it's very layered in terms of emotions i think and i really like that about it. i probably won't listen to it that often, but its really good. i would recommend this song to my "older brother" bc he would just absolutely love this
shut up - i was taking this song seriously (also very good) until i heard him say shu-T up LMAO, this one is good, i probably wouldn't listen to it 24/7 like rachael's little brother but honestly its still fire
before listening to blinded by your grace and vossi bop, i know you brought up the religion bit, i definitely don't mind that, especially because i'm Christian lol and i actually liked that he brought up God in some of his songs like idk i just like it🥰🥰
(i then went to bed after that lol but first thing in the morning i listened to superheroes and... that song is probably my favorite tbh, i was gonna write MORE quotes that i loved from it but, yeah no there's too many. if you want i'll tell you lmao but this is already so long i would just be quoting the whole friggin song)
VOSSI BOP IS A BOP (lol) I CANT EVEN LIE, i love a song that hypes up a dude's girl so the line- i love that my phone decided to fail to load the lyrics, lemme google it, okay the lyric "looking at my girl like what a goddess" i was like AYEEE its honestly just really good. and no one in america says "sauce" like "i've got the sauce" but now i do (thanks to love island and Nas from last season) and now stormzy so (also im gonna watch the music video for superheroes bc it looks great so 😛)
(because this is already so long i feel like i shouldn't finish the rest but . no i'm gonna do it)
now for blinded by your grace pt2 idk why i’m nervous lmaoo PAUSE I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH THE SONG GIRL THIS SONG IS *chefs kiss* no words, speechless PHEW y'all gon make me start jumping around. why did i not know about stormzy before, he is amazing i- ok yeah i finished the song, all i have to say is that Stormzy is immaclucate. period. i am literally sending his music to all my friends he is..... amazing
you want my song recommendations 🥺🥺 hmm uh okay lol i listen to a lot of old music, whitney houston, marvin gaye, queen, celine dion, i love "more than words" by extreme uhmm okay, but for actual music i listen to on the daily? (this is a lot of different music like.... they do not go together lmao so be prepared) a song about being sad by rex orange county, betty by taylor swift and lover by taylor swift and... most of that album lol, treasure by bruno mars lmao, OOOO and versace on the floor by bruno as well, lazybaby by dove cameron, creep by tlc has been on repeat lol, deja vu by olivia rodrigo (i saw what you said about drivers license and AGREED LMAO but i like deja vu a lot more haha) and two albums that i listen to in general, rare by selena gomez and ungodly hour by chloe x halle 🥰 you don't have to listen to all of them or any of them lol but that's a sense of what i'm into :) so basically everything haha, i'm into literally every single kind of music really so i wasn't too surprised that i enjoyed stormzy :’)
HAHASBSJHAHA your h20 story cracked me up,, like "wow these actors are so dedicated, learning german just for us" 😭 the beauty of overdubbing
once again, math and maths, in my mind maths makes sense because its mathmatics, but saying maths doesn't feel right to me lol, like if i said maths i feel like everyone would look at me like ??? and yea i was taught it as math so its just more natural for me. but yes math/maths is disgusting, easily one of my least favorite subjects so .
mkay. i- the first time i read this i could not contain my laughter when you said the only pollen you know is sex pollen LMAOKOOSHBABJFAJF STOPPP I'M EVEN LAUGHING WRITING THIS,, anyway. wow! that's interesting, my dad (<<< mostly anything else) gets migraines from the sun and the heat and stuff, yesterday (sunday, i was outside for like hours watching my brothers play football, the american kind lol) i was in the sun for like ever and i got a headache😔
summer clothes🥲 i need to go shopping fr fr. for my birthday my mom and dad got me a giftcard like dedicated to a shopping spree and we've yet to go so..... i should bring it up to my mom lol, but!! i went bra shopping (ended up returning literally all of them cuz they honestly didn't work for day to day work? its a long story) and if i could i would walk around in this new "summer bra" i got, i would. it's so fricking cute and its really light fabric (which isn't perfect for my nipples but still) so i don't get hot in it, but that bra and some shorts would be perfect. its the closest thing to being naked so
IS THE BIRD STILL BOTHERING U ARIA, TELL ME NOW ISTG, i laughed really hard that the bird isn't stupid and is really trying to torture you LMAOO like i was rolling, it wants you to suffer, badly
when you said "mensus" it was still close to mens!!! latin speaking queen 😌😌
okay STORYTIME i was reading back your response and started (fake) crying bc i love you lol and my youngest brother (daniel) gon say "oh man, catherine's crying about something we don't care about, again" I--- i swear when i tell you about them they sound awful, but they aren't that bad, just the stuff i say about them is sounds really mean LMAO
but the thing you said about being kind, same, what i always say is: don't be the person that makes people say "i hate people" ya know? like there's no reason to be a jerk or anything.... but its true 🥺🥺🥺🥺 you are really kind and every time i talk to you i would like to personally fly to germany and give you a hug 💖💕💞💗💓💝💖💘
& i'm gonna show my stretch marks some love bc of you 🥺😭 i really hate how men have basically everyone conditioned that you can't love your own body </3 fuck them, y'all beautiful :')
also thanks for what you said :')) you literally are the kindest, sweetest person i think i've ever spoken to and i love you 🥰🥺🥲💓💗
READING YOUR TAGS HAHAHHAHA the spelling errors makes everything so much funnier. once again, i like your german lessons & yea!! i'm gonna play sims after writing this hahah
#catherine's tags are back #i don't think i've told you my name before?? #anyway it's catherine🥰🥰🥰 #i'm typing this on my computer (without emojis) and if i didn't edit this you would be reading shit shite like #heartface and pout and cry LMAO #yeah abt the tattoos #some stuff with my parents i'm like deal with it??? lol #my mom tells me "if there's something you enjoy or you like but i don't have the same opinion on it... why would my (my mom's) opinion matter? #and i love that #like i'm not gonna go and do whatever i want #but if my mom doesn't like that i swear (which isn't true just an example) #its like okay.... #but whatever #and your tattoo ideas sound really cute!! #and yeah @ your parents, i mean you aren't getting something wild #and the tattoo album>>> #i'm gonna look up ariana's butterfly tattoos just so i know what you mean lol #but i'm guessing you don't want something so incredibily simple, but not super like over the top? #correct me if i'm wrong lol #LMAO the tags were in order don't worry ! #and yeah lol ily2 <33 #and once again, again, sorry for this post JSHJS ITS A MESS AND LONG AS HELL #and you don't need to go in order of my post its literally longer than your german compound words #u're fine #also !!! while writing this the birds were chirping outside and i was like 😳 #and one of your fics (i’ve read all of them, i don’t remember lol) that valentine’s day one where y/n had lingerie on (the pancake one lol) #inspired me to buy lingerie #like when i look back on me “growing up” #that fic & basically you lol really helped with that #that made no sense and i don’t know how to make it make sense... but... yeah. like ily
hiiiiiiiiiii <3333
Dear catherine, 😌
(you have said your name before, but it wasn‘t like an introduction or anything i think you were talking about .... was it possibly the incident at the cinema??? And you said something like ‘calm down catherine‘ like you were telling yourself to calm down idkd dkdkkdkd anyway i didn‘t mention it cause i wasn‘t sure if it was an accident or not dkdjd but now i know 😌❤️ Catherine is such a cute and lovely name btw omg and so are your brothers‘s names 🥰
Sorry that I‘m answering this so late, it‘s been an emotional rollercoaster for me since last week but i‘ll get to that in a second lol
Sksklssk girl i haven‘t played sims in like 2 weeks now ekejdkdlldld ok that‘s not that long at all actually but i keep wanting to play but then i end up not playing for whatever reason, so no news about my sims game 😔 but i love the names Liam and Peter and for twins!!! That sounds really nice actually
okay i‘m trying to answer your ask in chronological answer even though i wanted to wait for the depressing stuff and write it at the end or something OKAY so. i thought that i‘d feel so good when i start uni and that i‘ll like... have a purpose in life again and just be happy (cause in the last year i didn‘t do much and i was depressed like half of the time lol).... anyway i kind of feel even worse now? 😭 i think it‘s because in my brain it‘s like: university!!! that means your life will change and it‘ll all be so exciting. and don‘t get me wrong it is exciting butttt..... idk the online thing is so weird cause you‘re not meeting any new people (i‘m introverted anyway but still lol) and it doesn‘t feel like you‘re listening to/talking to actual people cause it feels the same as just watching a video?
also i thought i‘d be busy again but i only have one lecture (90mins) a day and theres one day where i dont have any lectures at all and just one day where i have 3 hours but.... idk i mean i shouldn‘t complain about having so much free time but i just don‘t know what to do all day and in a pandemic there really is nothing to do but i also can‘t relax bc it‘s like during the week and i know i have uni the next day and .... yeah.
There‘s also this one assignment i had to do that took me AT LEAST SIX HOURS AND IM NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING????? so that was the only thing i‘ve been doing besides “going to“ lectures. for this one course we have to read two (really really long) texts (like it literally took me 3 hours to read them) and we‘re supposed to post it on this website that all the professors in our uni use. So after 5 days of anxiety (✌🏼) i posted mine this morning bc last night i realised that i didn‘t even know why i was having anxiety so i just posted mine today. The deadline is tomorrow at 12 and no one except me has posted theirs yet........ so i have anxiety again 🥰 cause idk if i‘m the only one who did it or if i even did it correctly
Edit while i‘m rereading this: my anxiety about uni is a lot better and i‘m not as d*pressed anymore maybe it was just hormones? idk but i‘m better so that‘s good
(I started writing this like 5 hours ago and then i randomly completely forgot lol)
I‘m in a better mood now though so let‘s move on from that (oh wait also, i think i‘m gonna see if i can find a psychiatrist bc with my anxiety symptoms (long story) i need to go to a psychiatrist, and so far i‘ve only gone to like psycholgists and it didn‘t help but i think that‘s just bc i was meant to go to a psychiatrist and not a psychologist so dldjdjsj
n e ways but yes you‘re not alone, ily, things will get better and yes i love you (i‘m not good at this type of thing🥲 but i‘d hug you right now if i could <3)
Yess i think the time difference between est and me is 6hours but gmt is uk time i believe? i think mine is called.... cet? For central european time? I could be completely wrong though lmao
Oof i completely forgot about hollywood, i remember when laura kept posting about it on instagram but i never actually watched it and i definitely won‘t now lmaodkdksjsn
Okay my driving lesson LEBDJDKDK I DID NOT HOOK UP WITH ANYONE AKSJSKSMMLM especially not my 40 or 50 year old driving instructor lol i like her but NOT LIKE THAT, the lesson was really really really good actually and i think i‘ll have my driving test soon, but i don‘t even remember why the anon would have thought that??? Oh wait now i remember okay KEKSKDLDL so during the lesson my instructor was like do you mind if i turn on some music? AND THIS WOMAN TURNED ON ONE DIRECTION I LOVE HER so i made a post about it and i said something about the song up all night and i guess i phrased it in a .... idk in a dumb way 💀 so the anon made a joke that i stayed up with my driving instructor all night and NO. No.
Wait did i read that right? YOU WERE ARIEL ON STAGE? SIALDBDJDKSLMSBDKDMDMDKDJSLSMDJFJJEDMBFEKLEFBJDLDVSIDLESKSKWKDKDJDOWNYUEKWNDUWLNSUFLWVSUDLEHDOENSIDBEISBEHENJELBSIEMWUDNRIW KB WOBE JO ON SBEUU HIII S HWS LV W ICH US KB okay this keyboard smash is getting out of hand but uh please do elaborate on that 💘😌???? Like you can‘t just drop that information and not say more??? I forgot if you‘re in like your school‘s drama group (is that a thing? lol idk anything about acting) or in an independent group? Either way - ARIEL that is so fucking cool
Your brothers loooooool, no i get it though obviously you love them and stuff but esp at their age children are so annoying so good luck with them 😭😭😭lmao
Yeah “anyway i imagine being an only child is really calming.. like you have time to yourself and its just you and your parents 😌“ yeah just me and my parents who constantly fight 🥰 lmao no i like being an only child, like i cannot imagine having siblings but i feel like if i had siblings i would be saying that i can‘t imagine being an only child so? but i do think it‘s quite different like i‘m trying to imagine having siblings and WHAT that‘s just so different omg i‘ve never really thought about it like properly ???
I saw a tik tok the other day that was like “sometimes i forget that my siblings have a life of their own. like i see them as side characters in my life“ and even though i can‘t relate obviously i felt that. lol, like i can really imagine how it feels idk what i‘m talking about like shut the fuck up, daria
(also my actual name is daria not aria but i dont like it, and also i wanted to be more anonymous on tumblr so now i‘m aria lmao. pls don‘t mention it though cause no one knows except for you and mel (peterbenjiparker) dkdkdkdnkdnd. but i‘m starting to identify with the name cause everyone keeps calling me that looool😭😭😭 (but i like the name, more than daria anyway? well it also depends on the accent, cause the way germans say daria is okay. the was Americans say it is also okay, but some of my family in England are from the north of england and i don‘t like how they say my name 💀 no offence to them(?) but yeah pls don‘t mention the name in your ask cause the chance of people seeing it is higher then (or if you want to say something about it just send a separate ask and i just won‘t post it (IDK what you‘d want to say about my name but yeah just in case slsldlldmsndnsns)
I‘m loving falcon and winter soldier so much but when i was watching an episode the week before last week (?) my laptop broke😭😭😭😭 during the scene where the dora milaje came at the end my laptop just shut down? And it had these lines all over the screen and i had to bring it to the shop where i bought it and they said it‘ll take 6-8 weeks to repair 💔💔💔 but at least it‘ll be for free, cause if i brought it back to apple it would cost like 400€ (i think that‘s nearly 500$) so yeah. but it sucks cause now i‘m “going to uni“ on a really old rusty laptop and on my phone which kinda sucks. oh yeah and also i can‘t watch anything on there 😭 i definitely want to watch wandavision but it‘ll have to wait🤧
Yessss you should def get your GED! I googled and I‘m still not entirely sure what it is dldks but from how you described it- YES!!!!!!
Idk if you know this? Like no idea if I‘ve told you this already (hmmm wait i feel like we talked about it actually?) anyway i was originally gonna go study in England, but for loads of reasons I ended up staying in Germany and I‘m def happy with my decision, but I definitely want to go to England sometime even if it‘s just for six months or maybe for my masters or something? And (obviously everyone is different) but i think everyone should go abroad and live in a different country once in their life, no matter if it‘s for school or what, and even if it‘s just for a few weeks. But i think that‘s something that you‘d never ever forget! And combining that with your acting/theatre??? You really would be living the dream 💘💘😌
how about burgers, chips (fries), and a large drink? any time next week works for me, should i pick you up?— sounds good see you soon 🥰🥰🥰
i used to be one of the people who‘d just do motherlode motherlode motherlode and just... what did i do? Why did i do that??? But not anymore lol. Like I said i haven‘t played sims in a few weeks but i‘ve been watching a few legacy challenge let‘s plays and usually i play with the aging off. So my sims just don‘t age 💀 but i could (should) turn aging on so that it stays exciting and i have limited time and everything. and once i get bored with my current sims i can just make them have kids and continue playing as their children when they get older- like recently i remembered that i haven‘t played the acting career in ages? and i haven‘t had a shop in ages? and i think you can even become a vet right??? like those are definitely some things i want to do in the next weeks!!! Also yes sksksjs i have a few hundred hours on sims as well (if not thousands 😭) it was just that one household that i‘d been playing with for 24hrs
AND GIRL SSKSKJD THE UNIVERSITY THING HAPPENED TO ME TOO, it was a while ago so i don‘t remember what degree and what job it was about but i made my sim study something for aaaaaages so she‘d get a better job from the beginning (you know what i mean like get in at a higher level)...... and i apparently studied the wrong thing cause i didn‘t get any benefits from studying and still had to start at level 1 and shit 🥴🥲
Oh also (this was like 2 weeks ago) Enisa and Michael did take in Michael‘s daughter and i think Enisa currently even has a higher/better relationship with the daughter than Michael but um💀💀💀 also i was hoping (since michael and enisa married (in their back yard i think lol) that the daughter (i forget what her name is😭) would have enisa as her step mom? Like you know how you can see the relationship and it says daughter or son or sister.. and i was hoping that it would say step mom but it doesn‘t say anything 🥲 but in my mind (and if the sims had proper family relations) she is her step mom😌 also Leo is a teenager now???? I mean I aged him up lol dkdk he was being too annoying as a toddler but i don‘t like children so i aged him up twice in one day and now he‘s a teen, but that means he can look after his half sister when she becomes a toddler which is good (the game recognises them as siblings tho even if they‘re just half siblings? why can‘t they have step family members in the sims🥲) okay i‘ve annoyed you enough with sims ✋🏼
I‘ve been a bit sick these past few days and now i‘m getting a headache so i have to finish this response tomorrow 😭😭😭 </3
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It‘s not tomorrow, it‘s 3 hours later but i‘m better lol
oooff when sims are ungrateful and won‘t woo woo (lol i like that) cause they‘re too tired like?? Be grateful that you‘re not living with your parents anymore 🙄 no okay dkdkdkdl idk if you play with mods (i don‘t) but i know there is a mod (or it‘s part of a mod idk maybe wicked whims?) where you can adjust the percentage of how risky a normal woo woo is, like you still click woo woo (3dksksks okay i‘ll say woohoo again— wait is that what’s it called? 😭) but there‘s like a 25% chance that your sim can still get pregnant just like in real life there‘s always a chance of getting pregnant even if you‘re using protection (just not 25% lmao) but yeah i personally don‘t play with mods sksk and you can always just click try for baby but it would be cool if you could add stuff like risky woohoo to the game without mods (i have no idea how to download mods and i play sims on a really really old laptop and sims is literally tje only thing that works on it anyway so—) i repeat my words from earlier: okay i‘ve annoyed you enough with sims ✋🏼
okay i‘m so sorry i‘m gonna watch fast & furious 1 now cause i need to watch f&f 1-5 until the 30th of april cause they‘re only on netflix til then (i mean i could watch them somewhere else but the quality is never as good) so i will finish this tomorrow after all😭
it is now 1 am, i finished the film, can feel a new obsession coming up again (i always have these f&f obsessions for six months before and after a new film comes out)
THE GOOGLE TRANSLATE wkekdjdj tbh it sounds like someone is speaking with some kind of foreign accent i guess that‘s probably because it just is a direct translation and so anyway slsjsj i don‘t know if you asked me what the word fucking is in german? like idk cause the translation is a bit weird but in case you asked lol sidjsjs theres not really a good translation like we just say fuck for fuck lmao, i don‘t know if you typed in fucking in google translate and it came out as verdammt? cause that means damn (or damned sksjjs) ummm yeah idek if/what you asked so imma move on🤧
I‘m not gonna comment on what you said about every stormzy song cause you already said all the important things but SKSKSJSJSKNSNDBDUDOENWBSLSKKHSULSLSKSBSJSKSK I WAS SMILING SO HARD WHEN I READ YOUR RESPONSE FOR THE FIRST TIME BECAUSE AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH finally i know someone who loves him as much as i do 💘💘💘 also since you brought it up, i‘m pretty sure he‘s considered the most successful UK rapper or if not then at least top 3 so he‘s defffffffffinitely big in the uk, in germany more and more people are listening to uk rap too but not as much stormzy cause theyre dumb apparently 🙄 but anywY i‘m sooooo sooo happy that you like him. i think hith came out end of 2019 (i could be wrong but i think it came out on the 13th of december so (in a european way) you‘d write the date: 13.12 and obviously i don‘t KNOW this but i can definitely imagine that he chose that date because ACAB and yes, Michael. Yes. But he hasn‘t made too much music since then so i hope he‘s working on some new stuff 🤞🏼
Also i ordered the stormzy poster😌 also a nicki minaj one bc i decided i‘m gonna have one wall with red-ish posters (i already have two kinda red ones) and one with blue/green-ish posters (already have two) and i can add stormzy to the blue one and nicki to the red one, but i think that‘s it cause if my walls are tooo full it could look cluttered? I‘m not sure how that type of thing works lmao but my room is generally untidy so i don‘t want the walls to look unorganised too so i think that‘s it for now
I really want to finish this now but my brain is getting kinda slow and i need to sleep soon so this will have to wait till later after all 🥺🥴 (not that it makes and difference to you bc you‘ll see this whenever i post it buttttt i wanted you to know that i want to talk to you again but with my slow brain i‘m just taking too long to do it in one day😭😭😭 and i‘m so busy tomorrow hmm but i‘m sure i‘ll have 30 minutes to finish this then <3)
Okay wait I‘m so dumb I didn‘t realise I‘d nearly answered everything i could have posted this yesterday 😭😭
Oooohh that summer bra sounds so nice like if i was confident enough i literally would just wear a top that resembles a bra (or really is a bra lol) cause my tiddies always be looking amazing i‘m just insecure about my stomach sometimes 🙄🙄🙄 but recently i‘ve been loving myself more and more tbh 😌
also i hope you can go shopping for some nice clothes soon ✨😌
I‘ll be honest I haven‘t listened to your song recs YET but only because i wanna take my time with them and i‘ve been so busy and slso AJ tracey‘s album came out last week and I haven‘t listened to that one yet either so ekdkdj (he‘s also a uk rapper like quite popular and successful as well, but i feel like i‘m not gonna like his album cause whenever i‘m looking forward to an album it ends up being really bad and the albums where you weren‘t expecting it turn out to be bangers.... so yeah but i‘ll let you know when i listen to your songs!!!! :)
Omg i keep having to scroll up all the way to see the next thing you said so sorry if I completely miss some of the things you said😭😭
So when you sent this the bird was still bothering me oh my FUCK DKDLDMMDMDMD but now i‘ve been going to bed at like 1-2am so the bird is probably still asleep lool
Okay and for the rest of your ask my response is: 💘💖❣️💚❣️💛❣️💛💕💞❤️💓💟💞💕💕💖💘💝💟💟🧡❤️🧡💞💛💚💓💚💚💚❣️🧡💖💘🧡💝🧡💕💘🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥰🥺🥺💘💘💘💘💘 (okay that looked cuter in my head i don‘t really like the green hearts dldkkdksndnd)
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So after reading yesterday's oneshot I coincidentally came across a song I love that fit the H8 during the final minutes of the apocalypse. I know Five wasn't technically a part of them at the time but essentially it fits all of the younger group and their final thoughts and feelings. Also Five and Reader are together at the end and the rest of the group are together at the end so none of them are alone and I figured it felt flitting for how each would see the end based on their experiences. The song is Forever Young by Boy in Space: https://youtu.be/PpL0P_s6Fe8 and I just had to do a lyric analysis too cuz of course! It just fit so perfectly.
The H7:
"Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while. Heaven can wait, we're only watchin' the skies. Hopin' for the best, but expectin' the worst. Are you gonna drop the bomb or not? Ah"
This is obviously all of them together, trying to ignore the impending apocalypse. Dancing away the fear but they're also watching the skies and wondering if whatever is causing the apocalypse is gonna cause it or not. I feel like these lyrics paint the picture of them simultaneously trying to ignore the apocalypse while also waiting for it to happen so well!
Five:
"Let us die young or let us live forever. We don't have the power, but we never say never. Sittin' in a sandpit, life is a short trip. The music's for the sad man, ah"
Five literally experienced life in a sandpit of the world's ruins but even after getting back he didn't have enough time to live or even accomplish what he set out to do so hence his life being a "short trip". He knows he has very little power to stop the apocalypse and the commision has a lot but he keeps fighting for a better world anyway. And he wishes the commission would have let him die early in the apocalypse because technically he's lived a lot by seeing how it played out. If he dies then he'll have died young but also really old and despite how much he had fought, he feels his life is short anyway cuz he never had enough time to accomplish his goal which was to save his family and the Reader. Also the last line makes me think of Five seeing his favorite sibling on stage and Vanya's playing music which would always make him happy in their miserable home as a child but she's bringing the apocalypse with it this time and I feel like the line is a very good way to describe how the music is for a "sad man" cuz he was that sad man who had to live alone for decades.
Reader:
"Can you imagine when this race is won? Turn our golden faces into the sun. Praising our leaders, we're gettin' in tune. The music's played by the, the mad man"
This stanza for the Reader because she keeps hoping that they can win somehow. She wants to believe she has more time with the H7 and the UA and her beloved Five. And she wants to believe they can pat each other on the back for a job well done and she wants to believe she can be proud of the UA for getting their shit together to solve the apocalypse but then she also knows that they're damaged by the madman AKA Reggie who played their strings to a point where they will never be able to work together and they won't get in tune together in time to save the world.
Reader:
"Some are like water, some are like the heat. Some are the melody and some are the beat. Sooner or later, they all will be gone. Why don't they stay young? Ah"
I feel like this is Reader describing the Hargreeves personalities (Klaus and Ben are water, Luther and Diego are Heat, Vanya is a melancholy melody, Allison is a beat). She's wondering why the Hargreeves had to grow up and leave and why she had to time-travel and find them gone. She wonders why everything happened the way it did. Maybe if they never left the mansion and worked it out after she came to their time then things would have been different?
Five:
"It's so hard to get old without a cause. I don't want to perish like a fadin' horse. Youth's like diamonds in the sun. And diamonds are forever"
Five wanting to die in the apocalypse. To perish like everyone else but also not wanting to die without reason or meaning. He gives himself a cause to grow old and fight for cuz otherwise he has no reason to. And his youth and love and intelligence is like a diamond cuz even tho he travels back in time, he looks the same and his intelligence is the same and his love for his family is the same. It's forever. He doesn't want to fade away into oblivion without at least trying to do something to save the ones he loves.
The H7:
"So many adventures given up today. So many songs we forgot to play. So many dreams swingin' out of the blue. Oh let it come true"
The moment the H7 give up their normal lives to start fighting crime they give up their free time and energy willingly to fight and their ability to be normal children but at the end they have dreams they still wish they could fulfill. Being a younger UA was their dream and they fulfilled that. It came true. But the rest of their dreams coming true becomes difficult cuz of the apocalypse so they're wishing they all had more time.
All:
"Forever young. I wanna be forever young. Do you really wanna live forever? Forever and ever. Forever young. I wanna be forever young. Do you really wanna live forever? Forever young"
This part is the chorus and I feel is just for all of them. They're all so young in different ways. They don't want to live forever but they don't want to die so soon either without getting a chance to really live the life they each wanted. And also since they've all experienced so much in so little time, especially Five and Reader, I feel like it's also a way of saying they wish they were all mentally young as well. Even the H7 grew up faster to fight crime. So they all just want to enjoy youth without responsibility but will never get to. Five will never get to experience normal life the way he should have and Reader will never get to spend the rest of her youth with Five and her friends either.
It's just a tragedy all around as they all wish they could have had more time before it all ends cuz they are still young and have so much left to live for. And in a way they'd be eternally young then even after death cuz they never got to grow old.
Anyway, I'm really excited to hear your thoughts on this! I just loved how the song fit perfectly. I didn't even realize it myself at first but when I did I knew I had to share it because it just has this ethereal melancholy to it that I can see the H8 all feeling, individually and grouped together, as the apocalypse happens.
First of all I just want to say that I love the song forever young ever since I heard one direction sing and I haven’t grown out of my love for that song because of them. (Unrelated but I bet you can’t guess which one direction member is my favorite)
Anyway, I love your interpretation and I can definitely see all of this based on the side story I posted and just the story in general!
For the one line of “Sooner or later, they all will be gone. Why don’t they stay young?” I think it could also be applied to Reader’s thoughts about the H7, especially when they’re struggling to stop Vanya from causing the apocalypse. She didn’t know if they would stop Vanya and if she would see her friends again. She didn’t even know back at the bowling alley if that would be the last time she was with them. Reader knows that someday they’ll be gone but is coming to terms with the fact that it’s probably sooner than later due to Vanya’s apocalypse. And the question of why don’t they stay young is less so of pain like losing the UA but more so trying to comfort herself in the case the apocalypse does happen. They’re young and together and so why not be young?
Also I like to think of the lyrics “Let's dance in style, Let's dance for a while, Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies, Hoping for the best but expecting the worst” in terms of Five and Reader as well. As a common theme throughout the story the two of them enjoy dancing together as it distracts them from the reality of what is going on. I like to think of these lines as Five coping with the impending 2019 apocalypse. He’s trying to enjoy being back in reader’s life again and distracting himself with her presence but he knows what happens after the world ends. Time is ticking towards doomsday and although he’s hoping he can stop it the closer it gets the more he expects the worse.
Anyway those are some of my thoughts but I love all that you presented and of course I love you too♥️
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dream-of-kpop · 4 years
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SKZ But They Have Drama on Instagram
Note: All misspellings are done on purpose
insta @'s if you get confused:
yungblood: Jisung
spear_b10: Changbin
xjx_inx: Jeongin
Read left to right & Zoom in if you need to see better!
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[November 4th, 2019]
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[Hyunjin thought Minho was joking, but after he gave him the cold shoulder at lunch, he knew he was being serious]
[The next day]
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[2 weeks later]
[Minho unfollows Hyunjin because he's that petty]
[Either way, the guys just go about their business on Insta]
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[December]
[At lunch]
Chan: "Hyunjin, why don't you and Min-"
Hyunjin: *picks up chopsticks* "Chan stay out of my business."
Chan: "I miss Minho tho...It's bad enough Woojin le-"
Hyunjin: *voice crack* "iT's nOt mY fauLt miNho gOt upSet oUt oF noWhere."
Changbin: "He's mad cuz you accused him of reporting your post that's why."
Hyunjin: "Who else would report my post then??"
*all the guys shrug*
Hyunjin: "Exactly."
Jeongin: *looks at the time* "Guys I gotta go or imma be late for class again." *leaves*
Everyone: "Byeeeeee."
Chan: "Aren't you gonna be late for your class Jisung?"
Jisung: "Nah, the teacher doesn't care."
Chan: "Well, back to what I was saying-"
Hyunjin: "Bang Chan *places his hand on Chan's* me and Minho aren't friends anymore. We unfollowed each other."
Seungmin: "You're just throwing away 4 years of pure friendship over this petty drama?"
Hyunjin: "Sure."
*the lunch bell rings*
Hyunjin: "I gotta go-"
Felix: "Yeah, I'm off to fail my precalc test...maybe Seonghwa will let me copy off of him again."
Chan: "All right, bye guys..."
Chan: *thinks at the table* "It's none of my business but...I can't sit and do nothing..."
Jisung: "Hey are you gonna eat your chicken nuggets?"
[Later that night]
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[The next day]
Hyunjin: *sits down at the table upset* "Chan I told you to stay out of it."
Chan: "Hey he's my friend too-"
*they stop talking as they see Minho standing there with his tray of food*
Felix: "YOOOoooo lEe miNho waSSup."
Minho: "..."
Minho: "Hyunjin I saw what you said on Insta last night."
Hyunjin: "My post or my live?"
Minho: "Does it really matter?"
Hyunjin: "Yea."
Minho: "Your post..."
Hyunjin: "Ew, I bet you stalk my page."
Minho: "...You were talking shit about me so...let's go."
Hyunjin: "Really? You wanna fight?"
Jisung: "GUYS IT'S NOT THAT DEEP, STOP."
*Felix and Seungmin laugh together quietly*
Hyunjin: *stands up* "Come on." *pushes Minho*
*Minho sets his tray down, takes off his jacket and they start fighting*
*a crowd forms around them as they chant "WORLDSTARRRRRR"*
[Hyunjin and Minho both get suspended for 10 days]
[Since someone recorded the video, it blew up on Insta] *the school didn't know someone recorded it*
[Minho & Hyunjin's pages got tons of followers too]
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[After a few days, Minho & Hyunjin finally log back onto Instagram]
[Then winter vacation starts]
[Despite the drama, Minho, Seungmin, Jeongin, Felix, and Woojin still go on a trip to NYC]
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[They returned back to school in January but the drama didn't end]
*everyone sits at the lunch table without Hyunjin and Minho*
Jisung: "Guys I got this candy Xanax, y'all wanna try it?"
Felix: "I swear ever since Hyunjin and Minho's pages got followers they have the weirdest IG lives..."
Changbin: *slurps noodle* "Cuz they're desperate for clout."
Seungmin: *turns phone off* "I'm tired of this Instagram shit. Hyunjin is still mad over that NYC post like wtf..."
Chan: "I'm staying out of this, people are already dragging me in comments and threatening my fam..."
Jisung: "Ok wait I have an idea-"
Seungmin: "No one wants to buy your candy Xanax Ji."
Jisung: "NO NOT THAT, like, what if we spam Hyunjin and Minho with old pictures? Us being friends in since freshman year..."
Jeongin: "Hahahahah their initials are H&M."
Everyone: "..."
Jeongin: *looks at plate* "Sorry, continue."
Felix: "Yo that's a good idea, nostalgia will bring them together."
Changbin: "Lit, I'll text Woojin the plan."
Chan: "I thought that Xanax would've destroyed your braincells, but that's a good idea."
Jisung: "Um thanks."
Jeongin: "I won't be able to post tonight tho. I gotta work."
Seungmin: "Well then, everyone else will post."
Chan: *chuckles* "I'm gonna get dragged again. Watch."
[That same night the group spams Insta with old pictures of them as friends]
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[Incase if you can't see too well, the posts are all January 7th]
[The guys sit at the table the next day]
Chan: "Damn they still aren't here?"
Felix: "Nope."
*both Minho and Hyunjin walk up to the table at the same time*
*they stare at eachother*
Minho: *mumbles while looking down at the ground* "I'm sorry for being such a bitch."
Hyunjin: "It's ok. I'm sorry I accused you of reporting my pic on Instagram."
Minho: "So are we still cool?"
Hyunjin: *starts to cry* "yEs."
Minho: *tears up* "I gotta text Woojin later and tell him we're chill."
Changbin: "Wow, Jisung your plan actually worked."
Jisung: "I always tell y'all I'm smart."
Seungmin: "Yet you posted me half naked on Instagram..."
Jisung: "IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MEANT AS A JOKE."
Minho: *sits down with Hyunjin* "I was certainly laughing."
Seungmin: "..."
Hyunjin: "Did y'all see our fight video? It has like over 100k views now..."
Jeongin: "Oh yeah I showed it to my mom. She laughed."
Chan: "Haha, my dad said Minho won."
Hyunjin: "Pfft did you see my punch? My dad taught me that."
Minho: "That punch was nothing, what do you mean?"
*the guys look at each other concerningly*
Hyunjin: "I was dragging you on the floor bro. Look at the vid." *pulls out phone*
Minho: "I don't need to see the vid I was there headass."
Changbin: *whispers to the rest of the group* "They're gonna argue about it on Insta tonight. Bet."
[Later that night]
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even tho idk how imessages work...i tried my best dammit ._.
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sniffuwu-blog · 5 years
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what do I do? I'm in love with my best friend...
everything I say here, right now, is my personal opinion on a personal problem. this is all from my own point of view on what's going on in this chapter of my life.
I'm in love with my best friend. I don't know when it all started; when I fell in love with him I mean. but please allow me to tell you what's on my mind. and you don't have to read it all I know most of you won't but if you do, thankyou and please let me know what you think.
[October 2018]
I had a crush on this boy from my church for a while and one day we exchanged numbers so I could get the evite for the Christmas party. my best friend to be and I stared talking. we talked all day and all night and I was suprised to see we had a lot in common. He would message me a lot and he seemed somewhat flirty but I looked past it because I thought it was just the fact I had a crush on him that I thought this. but after a while of talking and getting to know him I realized it was way more that just a crush. I liked-liked him. That's how I first fell for him. Near the end of the 2nd month of talking and getting to know eachother, he messages me a long paragraph... he was apologizing and I wasn't sure why until I continued reading. he had been using me as a rebound because he was going through "a form of a break up". he said I wasn't the only one he rebounded on but he did indeed end up getting feelings for me and that he just needed time to heal and find himself in the Lord. I gave him his space and I wasn't upset at all. I was hurt but not suprised or mad, I'm used to being a rebound and second choice. After a while we stared talking again and got closer. he was my bestfriend and I still liked him a lot. we talked every day and night like the old days. it was nice (:
[fast forward to summer of 2019]
I went to his house for his brothers 15th birthday party. I was sick so I didn't go into the pool so he say with me and we told jokes and I was nearly dying. as we sat next to the pool watching them all play and swim around he says to me "hey I need to ask you somethin', cuz why not, it's summer... wait give me a sec." he takes a deep breath and with those beautiful brown eyes he looks at me and says "I like-like you. and I have prayed about this and talked to my parents about it and I think...I wanna date you. but I don't date people just to date, I wanna know we're going to go somewhere." my heart skipped a beat and I was happy. I told him that I was talking to a guy, a friend, but he hadn't been treating me right and he was a bad influence on me so I was planning on ending it with that dude. (I did indeed end things with that other guy and told my bestfriend that I choose him) we talked the rest of the night and looked at the stars and played hangman.
[two weeks later]
he wanted to talk to me in private and I said okay. we meet up and he tells me how he wants to grow closer in his relationship with the Lord before he got into a relationship. he wanted to make sure he loved himself before he could be with anyone. I was fine with that because I did too, so we stayed friends. we talked all the time but flirted here and there. we went to the beach and looked at the night sky as we layed there, close to eachother. we kissed that night.
things escalated from there. and I was happy. we were still just best friends but best friends that liked eachother, a lot.
after a while I felt that I was spiritually and mentally ready, and I was waiting for him. then he was ready but school had stared and he said he wanted to see how his classes were and how much work there is to them. he told me over and over again that he was sure we were going to date and that it would happen soon "maybe in October." so I kept my hopes up high because e=I had fallen for him again but harder because this time I thought he would catch me.
But I was wrong.
[Sunday, September 15th 2019]
he told me that he wanted to focus on school. he didn't have time for a girlfriend but he still liked me. he didn't want things to be awkward of different. he still wanted to be bestfriends until he's ready. but he said I should keep my hope up too high because "...what if you meet another guy or I meet another girl? I wan't you to feel free to go on dates with other guys."
[now]
I was committed to waiting for him for so long and he just dropped me like that. but if someone really cares about you, they'll make an effort to make time for you. he doesn't talk to me much anymore because hes either asleep, driving, at the gym, or school. we talk about our day for 2 minutes then text goodnight. I told him what my mom said. that if someone really likes you they'll at least try and they'll keep you in the center of what they do and still work hard so they can provide for you and treat you like a princess till they can make you into a Queen. But now, he won't text me back. I'm trying to move on from him because I'm tired of being a second choice. it's the second time I've fallen for him and he let me fall.
But I can't I think of him all day every day and I'm in love with him. he's my best friend.
my question is: should I move on? should I wait for the smallest chance we do end up becoming a thing?
-{I know this was long but to those who read it all please, I would like your opinions. thankyou.}-
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Drew & Carly
Drew: where u at??? Drew: gonna come find ya Carly: im out w ali Carly: she doesnt want you here Drew: i know Drew: seen the pics Drew: whateves she loves me Drew: her boy can come too Carly: nah Carly: its girls night Drew: boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Drew: why Drew: lame Carly: cuz shes mad at you Carly: you kno what you did boy Drew: i'll make it up to her Carly: she doesnt want that Carly: she wants you to stay away Drew: don't believe you Drew: anyway Drew: can't stop me Carly: ask her yourself Carly: k im not trying to Carly: idc what you do Drew: yeah Drew: 💔 Carly: that it cuz im trying to have fun like Drew: me too Drew: so let me Carly: wtf do you think im gonna let you do Drew: just come party Drew: that's it Carly: nah Carly: cant stop you but dont mean i want you Carly: & ali doesnt either so why bother Drew: cos i want you Drew: don't that count for something Carly: no you dont Drew: yeah i do Carly: on the coach you played me Drew: that was then Drew: this is now Carly: tell it to leesha Carly: shes your now Drew: nah Drew: she kicked me out too Carly: aw poor baby Carly: she beat me up i dont feel bad for you Drew: when Drew: i don't remember Drew: this trip Drew: gets about Carly: i kno you dont Carly: you kno what a bitch she is Drew: alright Drew: not my girlfriend Drew: ain't got one now Carly: me either but im not starting a club Drew: don't matter Drew: u could still get some Carly: yea Carly: plenty of fit lads in here Drew: not who i'm talking about Carly: k Drew: i kno u wanna Carly: nah Drew: ur blind then and i will Carly: yea? Carly: i dont think so Drew: gotta be in it to win it carls Carly: i gotta be in people that are into me Carly: but you do you boy Drew: gotta give em the chance to be into you Carly: i have Carly: you didnt take it Drew: last chance? Drew: pft Drew: alright Carly: giving up that easy Carly: told you you dont want me Drew: nah Drew: just saying, cut the crap Drew: we know its gonna happen Carly: youre the one full of it Drew: u want me to sweet talk you now Drew: never had to before Carly: that was then Carly: where we heard that before Drew: fuck sake Drew: why u all so bloody difficult Carly: why the fuck should i make anything easy for you Drew: cos then we can both have fun Drew: everyone saying i've ruined everything  but i'm the only one out here trying to have fun Drew: god Carly: you havent been fun all trip Carly: boring & now wtf this is Drew: not with u yet Drew: i'm sayin Drew: your turn if you want it as much as u said Carly: said Carly: im not saying i want you rn Carly: why would i wanna go after her nah Drew: i'll take a shower damn Drew: fussy Carly: dont bother Carly: im not coming near you Carly: nothing in it for me Drew: dont act like u forgot Carly: I remember you're not that good Carly: not like you think you are Drew: fuck off Drew: yea i am Carly: you came to me Carly: you fuck off Drew: bleh no Drew: i'm bored Carly: do something about it Drew: trying Drew: you're cockblocking Carly: thats your bad not mine Carly: if you want me you can prove it Drew: how Carly: im not making it that easy Carly: think on Drew: cba Drew: too drunk Drew: still got the photo haha Carly: idc Carly: keep it Carly: its all youre getting Drew: plenty of bitches in the sea babe Carly: go find them Carly: if you cba like Drew: ✌ on it, they won't all be fucking prickteases like u Drew: dont beg other way rouhnd Carly: im not Carly: not my bad if youre so turned on by me chatting to you Drew: blah blah blahe Drew: tell ali she looks hot Drew: bye Carly: already have Drew: always hustlin Drew: thanks Carly: k bye Drew: u gonns tell on me Carly: & say what Carly: you tried to put some shit moves on Carly: who cares Drew: nah that ii wanna fuck ali too Drew: probably read it already Drew: hi!! Carly: i dont need to tell her that Carly: she kno Carly: you arent subtle babe Drew: Caleb dont Carly: & you dont care Carly: so why mention him to me Drew: i do Drew: don't be a bitch Carly: dont be a prick Carly: youd be fuckable if you werent Drew: i know i am regardless Drew: cant take that away from me Carly: ha Carly: not trying to come for the only thing youve got Drew: fuck you Drew: fucking bitch Carly: nah you cant tonight babe im busy Carly: dont cry tho Drew: i wouldnt go anywhere near u Drew: skank Carly: yea i am Carly: & you wanted me so bad before so think on what that makes you Drew: dont flatter yourself sweetheart Carly: im not its here written down babe Drew: so you think Drew: read bewteen the lines Drew: u could be anyone Drew: aint about u Carly: ali isnt gonna fuck you again Carly: move on Drew: you too princess Carly: ha
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3/27/14
G: try them on and send me pics and I'll pix my fav :)
A: Lol you wishhhh
G: yes..yes I did
A: Did? Lol
G: it just seems really obvious you don't see me In a sexual way so I'm jut going to stop. like you never wanna talk about it or you just push aside anytime I say anything. i mean is there someone else? I know we just started this so if there is I wouldn't be mad I just want to know.
A: I have absolutely no idea how you think it's obvious I don't see you sexually. We talked a few nights ago about it and last night I was mentioning it. Idk why you'd think there's someone else.
G: idk. I guess it just seems that way and my friends agree that could be it. idk. it's hard to know what to think. you're a hard person to read..
A: You've talked to your friends about this? There is no one else whatsoever. If you think I'm hard to read, you're 40x worse.
G: I mean I just told then what was going on and how I felt. we agree that you're far away and maybe it could be cuz there's somine else.. idkkk. I just feel like I'm the only one who is attracted to the other.
A: You don't even tell me how you feel and what's going on so I don't know where I stand with you at all. Your friends also barely know me, if they even know me at all. I have barely met any guys here so that's not at all it. I have no guys in my life. & I am attracted to you. Seeing as the only thing we ever do when we see each other is have sex.
G: okay. wow. I try to talk to you about something that's bothering you and this happens. please just forget I said anything and I won't bring it up again. I promise
A: What are you talking about? I'm not being any sort of way, I'm telling you how I see it.
G: no. you aren't being short. you're being mean
A: How am I being mean? I was stating what I was feeling
A: I'm not mad so I'm not being mean.
G: please let's just drop it. I need to work on how I see you. I knew I shouldn't of said anything.
A: No I'm not dropping it.
A: You brought it up so there's clearly an issue
G: idk what to say then. there's no issue. I'm fine
A: Ok
G: okay
A: I'll text you later.
G: what's wrong..
A: You're shutting me out so I'm not just gonna bother.
G: we'll okay
A: Glad you care. Later.
G: I care but idk what you want me to do. I said what I feel and then you got mad at me
A: I don't know what you don't understand when I said I wasn't mad.
G: you're a lot harder to talk to then you think
A: Ok. I'll just go since I'm so hard to talk to.
G: I don't wanna fight with you
A: I don't know what I have to do to get through to you. I'm apparently not sexually attracted to you, but we've talked about sex quite a bit the last few days. You think I'm with another guy, when a few weeks ago I told you I was in love with you & would be with you for basically forever. If showing that I'm sexually attractive means sending you pictures then fine. If it means talking about sex 24/7 then I will. I have no idea why you think this because I'm pretty straight forward with everything. If anything, YOURE the one who shuts me out completely emotionally.
A: If you need my friends to tell you how much I talk about you,I can do that if that's what it takes.
G: no we don't have to talk about it 24/7. it's just idk. I want you to want to. it's fine though. really
A: It's just what
G: what?
A: Idk nothing.
G: okay..
A: I'm drinking and am trying to deal w Emily and I can't deal w everything at one time
G: what's wrong with Emily?
A: Zach has no money to come home and Emily said she'd take out a loan to get him here
G: wow. that's nuts. she should not do that.
A: Yeah I know
G: well if you're busy I can let you deal with that.
A: What?
G: Emily. I thought you were saying you needed to go
A: No
G: oh okay
A: Okay
G: okay..sooo
A: Idk
G: talk about something :)
A: I dk if I can
G: why..
A: I've been drinking
G: ohhh. I see. having fun?
A: Yes I
A: Am
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Carly & Ali
Carly: last nite was good of you Carly: saying thanks cuz i read my text from last nite & it was Carly: I cudnt read it k thats facts Ali: nah, don't mention it, no bitch left behind Ali: plus, I know the cunt doing the ditching, been there, like Ali: was trying to translate but yeah, you were pretty fucked 😂 Ali: how you feeling this am? 💚 Carly: yea? hes not that bad Carly: im a slag like he said tbh Carly: feeling like i had a decent nite all things considered Carly: you? Ali: Gurl, yes he is and no you ain't! Ali: Probably Ali: Who cares if you are, he is, and the rest Ali: I dated him for a bit, so there's no shady, tryna steal your man on the sly going on, don't worry Ali: much the same, my head feels like someone took my eyes out and shoved 'em up my arse, you know? Ali: standard sunday vibes Carly: aw you're sweet but it's no diss on me Carly: like ive cheated on him a few times Carly: but he does it too you're right w that Carly: hes a good fuck when he's not too wasted tho which you kno if you got it too Carly: you're single now tho? Carly: can have him back if you want Ali: Fair play Ali: why not call it open and call it a day? Ali: Probs 'cos he likes fighting as much as he likes fucking Ali: Meh, yeah, was passable, gotta have some reason to keep him around, like Ali: Nah, going out with the girl that drove us back Ali: Remember? Dark hair, angry Carly: yea Carly: you know Carly: shit my bad Carly: she was scary is what i've got in my head Carly: idk my head is sketch cant trust it Ali: That's a fair assessment, I reckon Ali: She wouldn't hate it either so you good 😉 Carly: pretty tho Carly: call it a trade up Ali: Yeah, she's cute Ali: you need any more of the night filling in lemme know, I'll do my best Ali: it was pretty standard though, nothing too wild Carly: no faking it w her cuz shes too drunk Carly: designated driver be like Carly: last i see i was getting with his friend lowkey and he went off about it im blank from then Ali: its a fucking gay crime to ever fake it, no matter what Ali: I can get behind that one tho, not got the time or energy tbh Ali: yeah i think him and his friend then got in a scrap and then they left Ali: bros before hoes mentality hardcore, like idk, have fun jerking each other off then, if that's ur vibe boys Carly: k that sounds legit from what i caught on his socials Carly: didnt upload the circle jerk bless Carly: gay crimes must of been committed Ali: sad face Ali: coulda spat on his back Ali: protip Carly: ill let him know when he texts me later Carly: how did you kno where i live? state of me Carly: sorry to drag you this way Ali: plottwist, i'm a massive stalker with bad intentions Ali: I truly don't know, but I'll tell Lene she should be a cabbie 'cos she managed and I don't think we got any puke in her car Carly: k big lesbian crush on me yea Carly: ioher lots Carly: stealing her girl and wrecking her car in one Ali: Naturally, you cute Ali: I'll give you her number if you like, or just pass along the thanks and soz Carly: awh you're cuter Carly: probs still drunk tho Carly: giving me those kind words Carly: you handle the now ex if you love me Ali: Hahaha, he'd LOVE that Ali: ghosts of gf past Ali: Let me and I'll love you forever Carly: go for it Ali: let's see if I've still got his number Ali: this contact list is a minefield of mistakes but the real embarrassment would be getting them muddled up, fo'shame! Carly: i can give it Carly: used it more recently than you Carly: up there at my top Ali: won't be tellin' him that Ali: don't need the ego boost Ali: but tah Carly: makes it more fun to fuck him over if you praise him first Carly: but maybe thats me Ali: like a shit sandwich Ali: I get it Carly: hungry for anything but that rn Carly: [Sends the number tho] Ali: wanna come for brunch Ali: now you are newly gay Ali: that's what they do, fucking sex in the city up in dis bitch Carly: yea? weird Carly: not what i thought Carly: awh first date tho Ali: forreal, even the butch ones, don't let 'em fool you, its all fancy fucking eggs and screwdrivers by 11am Ali: you call 'em mimosas tho, gotta pretend you're being classy Carly: wtf is a screwdriver Ali: Babe! Ali: Vodka and orange juice Carly: i call it that Carly: gays and their labels Ali: save it for the rant sesh honey Ali: love you talking about how men ain't shit as well Carly: thats the ones i fuck Carly: cant be bringing no poshos to a caravan Ali: Posh boys are only good for the money anyway, I'm sure Ali: not finding any in 24 like regardless Carly: not gonna find out if they do drive by now im a lesbian wife Carly: sorry lads Ali: they had their chance Ali: unlucky boys Carly: should prob tell me your name again if im taking it Ali: Ruins the mystery a bit but alright Ali: Its Ali Ali: Ali McKenna if we're being formal Carly: k you've got the hot brothers Carly: makes sense Ali: 🤔 Ali: I think you're thinking of someone else, babe Carly: not trying to have our first fight but you coulda told me before we got hitched, bitch Carly: you're still hot tho don't be sad Ali: so you could run off with one of my brothers? i think not Ali: unless you meant Tommy 'cos he's very single but that's unlikely because he's never here Ali: stuck with me for now, hoe 😘 Carly: a slag like me could do worse Carly: has Ali: bitch, same Ali: we can compare notes, see how many regrets we got in common Carly: yea Carly: doing it Ali: Good, save it for brunch 'cos I'm coming forreal Ali: we don't have to deal with a gaggle of gossiping gays tho, bring you a maccies breakfast? Carly: k Carly: be fun Carly: you are from what i remember Ali: I like that Ali: No bullshit Ali: Imma start all interactions like be fun please or I'm out Ali: ✌ bringing the fun and the bacon babe Carly: you're not bringing your gf are you Ali: Nah, how awkward, meet the missus, honey Carly: like there's usually a lad in my trio sorry Carly: still learning this lesbian life Ali: oh, are you bi legit? Ali: she's way too jealous for threesomes, you're good Carly: nah i just know what lads want Ali: Oh gurl Ali: that's why Lene ain't coming Ali: the lecture you're avoiding Carly: idc Carly: youre my wife now bitch Ali: 💍💍 Ali: Productive morning, if I do say so myself Ali: and we're hanging, fuck with us Carly: good influence of you cuz i havent done fuck all this week Ali: Hard work being a bi icon, babe Ali: wait 'til I get you on the yoga hype Carly: wtf Carly: is that a joke Ali: nah, I've already done half an hour this morning Carly: bitch i had my fingers crossed you mistyped yogurt Carly: i love you but its a no Ali: 😂 lets be really into yogurt, not fancy stuff, like fucking froobs Carly: phallic Carly: slurping on my dick shaped yogurt Ali: exactly Ali: what do men love more than a representation of their genitals shoved in your mouth? nothing, is the answer, bar the real thing Ali: so seductive Carly: they don't like food in bed tho, but maybe thats my technique Carly: thinking you could use whatever Carly: k just gonna dump this curry out yea bear with Ali: spicy Ali: imagine the yeast infection you'd get from a fromage frais Carly: like sorry but if i can handle cum in my eye you can deal with some saag aloo boy Carly: googling those symptoms would be a laff tho Ali: ugh, now i want indian Carly: date 2, babe Ali: 😍 Ali: this is all moving so fast Ali: 'bout it Carly: thats all i kno about lesbians k Ali: Its so true Ali: Can confirm Carly: is your gf gonna be mad that im flirting with you Carly: cuz im scrappy but she's scary Ali: 😂 Ali: Probably but when I tell her you're straight she'll have to chill Ali: yeah, we're married BUT SHE'S STRAIGHT, BABE Carly: can't tell her how many girls ive fucked cuz i dont remember Carly: convenient Ali: Best keep that on the DL, yeah Ali: like your blatant gay feelings for me Carly: k Carly: been a secret before no big Ali: Awh babe, ain't nothing dirty about this Ali: I shall tell the world Carly: you're sweet Ali: Probably not if you still wanna be getting that D but you know, noblest intentions, like Carly: im over it Carly: go off Ali: when your pussy's the cure Ali: how can I be humble now? 😏 Carly: dont be Carly: proud slags who fucking love froobs Carly: its a mood Ali: that is a whole ass mood Ali: put it on a t-shirt, babe Carly: earn some bread for my table Ali: solid business plan Ali: we can't be the only ones Carly: independent women who don't need no dick Carly: anymore Ali: hell yeah! Ali: unless that dick wanna pay the bills, in which case we'll let 'em Ali: so we can get more froobs Carly: point Ali: oh no, someone put a pic of Molly Briggs vomming on Insta Ali: 1. gross 2. who hasn't been there, poor bitch Carly: sad Carly: hope she's alright Ali: I'd ask but don't really know her and her phone must already be blowing up Ali: plus she threw a netball right in my face once and I don't forget, bitch Ali: jk, I'll just report the pic 😂 Carly: they all call me a whore cba to keep track of which mollys or other bitches Ali: She is a bit of a bitch, ain't gonna sugarcoat it so probably Ali: not saying Karmas real but posted on that friggin' TallaghtSlags page so 🤷 Ali: grab a froob, darling Carly: her name makes me wanna party with her dad but thats as far as im fucking with that family Carly: or mum i dont know who picked it like Ali: Init, proper old skool ravers, obvs Ali: think I'm out of eccies, sadly Ali: last night depleted me Carly: Watch me call my son Bennie cos I got anxiety, baby Ali: Cute tho, whole medicine cabinet of babies Carly: why not im married now Ali: We'll get on that, date 3, like Carly: where you taking me? Ali: up the wheyyyyyyyyyy Ali: well, we had brunch, indian, obvs we're fat bitches Ali: get on that chinese buffet life Carly: you can get on your yoga mat tho Carly: im fucked Carly: letting myself go so soon my bad Ali: Please, you're perfect Ali: I'll have all the kids if you want Carly: blushing is what i am Carly: how many you want? Ali: how many people names are there for drugs? molly bennie mandy charlie umm Ali: and our preachy child, frank Carly: ha Carly: tina that's one Ali: Ooh, yes, a gay icon Carly: billy, bud our weak child, cosmic kelly who's gonna have to style that out Ali: oh kelly, I hope you have the personality to match or we've really fucked you over there, soz babe Carly: can't forget dimitri, lucy or mandy Carly: sweet sweet mary joy Ali: My fanny hurts just thinking about it Carly: christine and tina are obvs twins thats a relief Carly: how manys that? Ali: 13 Ali: Unlucky for some but my actual lucky number! Ali: Fated Carly: ha Carly: it's love and keeps being proven Ali: can't fight what's clearly so right Carly: true Ali: you want a milkshake Ali: i'm having one Carly: yea Carly: strawberry Ali: 'cos u so sweet 💚 Carly: awww Ali: I shall be right there, with brunch fit for a pair of proud slags Carly: k Carly: my parents arent here no need to break the news of wedded bliss Ali: Would be a weird first impression but I could rock it Ali: new fave in-law? I think so Carly: yea Carly: cant fight fate like Carly: been said Ali: forreal, catch me outside if you got something to say, lads Ali: alone time with the bae is always good tho Carly: you kno Carly: love you bitch Ali: love ya 😘
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