gentle reminder that i really need rn- your friends are okay. that was a joke, and you do not need to worry so bad it makes you sick. nothing is wrong, nothing is going to happen, you are doing enough. you’re okay, they’re okay. be gentle to yourself, sweet thing.
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this is your semi-annual reminder that you can post whatever the fuck you want on your blog. it doesn’t have to be related. it’s yours.
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Lost Luster
Maybe it's better to stay silent
It's exhilarating when for the first few days I'm silent
Faces pulled taught peer down at me
Pleading with their pitiful eyes for an answer
Why oh why have you gone away?
Maybe when the shock wears off it's lonely
When once I stood out in a crowd
My boisterous voice echoing off of the halls
An indicator I'm alive and breathing
Laughing and full of joy
My eyes bounce from thing to thing
Finding joy and beauty in everything possible
I'm me
Now I've gone quiet
My vocal chords on a well deserved break
Something my busy mind will never get
While my voice is absent my mind is never
The fog clears enough for my mind to whirl
The wind picking up traction
My thoughts race
Splitting my head with their jumbledness
My eyes begin to leak from the pressure
My chest drops as if I'm on the tallest roller coaster
But no one cares
I've been shoved aside
My chin tucked into my chest
My shoulders hunched
Some sort of amour
The bright whiteness of my airpods peaks out from my mop of hair
Stark contrast between the dark hair I adorn
That's faded from a lively Auburn into a shameful dull brown
My lovely cerulean eyes have lost their sparkle
From a bright blue they've faded
The yellow resembling a lions mane dimmed
As if they were weathered by the sun
Now a dull blue
More gray than the sky colour
The lions lost its roar
A copper penny colour they possess
I've lost my luster
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ANOTHHER POST WOOOO
I feel a bit silly continuing to post with no interaction but that's okay !!
I hope that you can enjoy my poetry in some way
This poems more about how my mental health drops sometimes and I become a shell of my self
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You’re giving yourself too much of a hard time
You think? 😅
Thank you, anon. I wish I could stop but I have no idea how.
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but what's the loni/chongyue ship name. i gotta know.....i can offer......💳
Not the credit card 😭
I feel a little tentative about having a ship name. Would you believe that this came up with my professor rather recently? LOL
My classmate ended up telling her about shipnames and stuff so we kind of talked about it, and she just went "Well. How fortunate that you guys have your names form Chinese class. If you ever fall in love with a man with a Chinese name, you'll be able to mix and match your names to write them in your notebooks with hearts around them"
Had to hold back from telling her that it would end up being used for a fictional man. Alas. Idk. I don't want to be disrespectful? Or go about it the wrong way? 🖤
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Anyone else making brews in the dark because they don't want to infringe on other night people with light pollution?
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so i had a thought(s)
whilst writing semi-embarrassing fanfiction for like the umpteenth time, i get this freezing feeling mostly akin to incompetence. there's so many versions of this canon, i can't fit all of this backstory into one, oh that was such a good idea, i'll never be able to format this intelligibly, yadda yadda...
and then there was this little voice that popped up in my head - a good one for once - and it says something to me which i hear get thrown around a lot in many different ways but really stuck with me for this particular situation: "write for yourself, because the readers can't write for you"
and it's just like. if i keep worrying about what everybody (which won't be too many people so idek what im worrying abt) will think of my stuff they will literally not ever read it. which is a sadder future for my little word pile that being hauled into the tip that is my google docs!
so yeah ive decided to continue to work on the fanfic. i will let the void of l'internet know when i decide to make public the first bit of the thing. byebye for now :)
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