#i—

[wormdebut]

Nightmares

CW: nightmares, sleep paralysis, hurt/comfort

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When Steve has nightmares, they’re loud. He wakes up thrashing, screaming and clawing to fight against veiny fuckers, and nasty demon bats. Often wakes up yelling thinking he’s still pulling hell creatures off his friends, chosen family. Dustin, Robin, Eddie.

Eddie had almost stayed down there. Steve had to carry his near-lifeless body out. But they had heard something, a whisper of a heartbeat.

It was enough.

Steve had refused to leave Eddie’s hospital room. He made sure Robin and Nancy were posted by Max’s. One of them would come back and report, let Steve know her heart was still beating. Steve had felt Eddie’s heart beat, as weak as was, and he needed to stay near him, to make sure it kept beating. He needed to make sure it kept getting stronger.

He still had his nightmares. Always does, always will. They were awful in that hospital room.

He and the girls hadn’t made it in time. No heartbeat. He and the girls hadn’t made it in time. Dustin was gone too. He and the girls hadn’t made it in time. There were too many bats, they get Robin and Nancy too.

Steve still wakes up screaming and clawing. Fighting. The nurses stopped coming in to check, eventually.

Eddie stayed asleep. Stuck in the coma. Steve stayed with Eddie. Eddie’s uncle—Wayne—doesn’t know. Can’t. Not yet.

Hopper had shown up. Like he had risen from the dead. Steve cried in his arms, in the silence of Eddie’s hospital room. The only sounds, beeping of machines and Steve’s broken sobs. Hopper saying “You did good, kid. Everyone’s safe.”

Everyone wasn’t safe. Max and Eddie were still sleeping.

Max wakes up. Eddie doesn’t. Steve still wakes up screaming and thrashing.

The doctors say it should be any day now.

The last time Steve wakes up, screaming in the stupid fucking hospital, Eddie’s awake.

Steve had basically thrown himself out of his chair, screaming at dead things that had fangs and claws, had woken up when he hit linoleum. He had shaken himself off, as he had done every time previous, flicked his eyes over to Eddies hospital bed, and was met with wide brown eyes.

“Oh my god, Eddie.”

The second time Steve cries in that stupid fucking room, draped over the end of a shitty hospital bed, Eddie and Steve keep that secret between them.

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When Eddie has nightmares, they’re all consuming. He had told Steve once, it wasn’t the nightmares that scared him the most. It was waking up frozen in whatever room he had fallen asleep in. Locked in his own body.

Steve couldn’t process that. He can’t imagine not being able to fight. He isn’t sure he would ever wake up if he couldn’t thrash his way out of those dark spaces. He admires Eddie’s strength, his vulnerability.

Eddie had come home with Steve when they had released him from the hospital. He’d been confused, but Steve had insisted—had the extra room.

Eddie had been staying in the guest room, but that only lasted a week. He had kept coming to Steve when he woke up screaming. Comforting him. Eddie had told Steve that he had heard Steve thrashing and fighting, screaming that stupid hospital room from hell, long before he had opened his eyes.

“I figured I was still in that frozen place, the sleep paralysis, but I couldn’t open my eyes.” Eddie had told him, as he wiped at Steve’s wet cheeks. Steve had apologized, face red with embarrassment, and Eddie had told him to never apologize for feeling. It was the first night Eddie stayed with Steve.

Wayne knows now, knows his nephew is alive, breathing. He knows something happened that he can’t be fully privy to—he’d have to know basics since the shady fucking government shoves money at them like it was candy, put the Munsons in an apartment, cleared Eddie’s name. Wayne knows that those of them involved in ‘whatever it was’ cope better together. He doesn’t push Eddie to come to the apartment, he knows he at Steve’s.

Steve think Wayne knows about them—which it’s new to Steve and Eddie as it is, but Wayne definitely knows. Steve doesn’t think he disapproves though. He’s seen the soft smile Wayne’s had as he watched Steve run his hand through his nephews hair, watched them watch each other. Wayne is an observant man.

But he’s not a man of many words. He only ever tells Steve, “Thank you for saving our boy.”

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They watch each other sleep.

When Steve falls asleep curled up in Eddie’s side, he feels strong arms tighten around him like a cocoon. Feels safe. It doesn’t stop the nightmares though. Doesn’t stop the screaming, but when he does tear himself away from certain death Eddie is right there.

“It’s okay, Stevie. It’s over, we won. It’s okay baby.” He whispers, pressing kisses into Steve’s hair. Steve cries. He’s always fucking crying now, but Eddie doesn’t care. He holds him through it, until he can breathe again.

Eddie has a habit of falling asleep on Steve’s chest. Told Steve he likes to hear his heart. It makes Steve blush like a fucking idiot, but that beside the point, he falls asleep listening to Steve’s heart and Steve falls just a little bit further in love with this man, every time.

Steve watches as Eddie sleeps. He feels it when Eddie’s limbs lock up, thinks this is part of the ‘freeze’. He listens to the whimpers Eddie lets out, feels powerless to it. Runs his fingers through hair and whispers that he’s here, he’s right here and Eddie’s safe. He does it every time, and watches as Eddie pulls himself out of the paralysis, watches as Eddie’s eyes snap open and he heaves in a deep watery breath, buries his head in Steve’s chest and cries. Steve just does holds him tighter, lets Eddie cry and lets Eddie find his steady breaths, again.

It gets a little easier. They actually start to fall asleep together, instead of letting the other rest. They still struggle through most nights, but they do it together. Kiss away each other’s tears and fears of what they went through.

When Steve has nightmares, they’re loud.

When Eddie has nightmares, they’re all consuming.

But they have each other, and they get through it, together, every time.

#steddie #worm brain #I— #i have really bad sleep paralysis and I was just thinking about how these two deal with the aftermath of #everything ™ #and well…here #my words? are they returning from war? #steddie fanfic #steddie ficlet #steven harrington #eddie munson

[radioactive-cloud]

excuse you??

source: x

#nace almost lying on bojan and bojan being all disheveled and with his shirt open #i— #okay #whatever #see if i care #nace jordan #bojan cvjetićanin #joker out

[watmalik]

I’m no math person, but like—how does two people fit in this teenie tiny shower 😅

#chenford #the rookie #it’s a one person shower and like Tim is no regular size dude #I— #the math ain’t mathing #I don’t think tv math ain’t mathing either

[oneeyedleaf]

Artists are gatekeeping art.

#did this after I saw discourse on the bird app #I just #I— #bruh #meme

[whydoifeelthisquiet]

Nobody speak to me .

#abby doesnt shut up #I— #taylor swift #riley keough #daisy jones and the six #Daisy jones

[killthefuhkinglights]

dogboys doing arts n crafts

find original post here

#that’s literally #crowded around working on one shirt and tucker is just working on his own #frank just pointing #is he trying to explain how to do the poppy #i— #ls dunes #travis stever #tucker rule #tim payne #frank iero #anthony green

[ap-kinda-lit]

This. This scene right here.

Perfectly represents why I love Goku and Chichi and shows that Goku is a good husband and father.

Look at them! How can you see this and not just melt? 😭

#they’re so gd cute #I— #Goku is a good hubby who loves his wife #and a good dad who adores his kiddos #i will die on this hill #excuse while I go cry #gochi #goku x chichi #son goku #Goku #chichi #video #dragon ball z

[frnkiebby]

happy day nineteen of halloween~🎃

#i— #he is a whole ass problem #why is frank covered in ‘blood’ fucking hot?? #like??? #hot hot hot #currently ceasing to exist #frnkiebby #mcr #mcr5 #mcrmy #frank iero #frnkiero #frnkie #my chemical romance #my chem

[elen-aranel]

Something something the children of Sarek and starting or not starting wars with the Klingons something

#the feels! #I— #star trek strange new worlds #strange new worlds #snw #musings of the girl from outer space #snw spoilers #strange new worlds spoilers #Star Trek strange new worlds spoilers

[vole-mon-amour]

Tonight before sleep I'm thinking about Johnny lying about his age to get into the military at around 12-15 years old and that decision ruining his life completely.

The horrors that he experienced there. Witnessing war and death at such a young age. The cyberpsychos as the result of his prosthetic and being experimented on like a lab rat, which probably included some brain chemistry tweaking.

Thinking about that devastates me, but it's also impossible to stop.

#johnny silverhand #cyberpunk 2077 #i— #johnny deserves better couldn't possibly cover it #my goodness #that poor kid #cb2077

[nani-nonny]

“I did a bad thing, I don’t regret the thing I did”

Jokes aside I may have accidentally extended ch.2’s length by a couple words

Okay, a couple hundreds… maybe a thousand. Oops

#I only wanted to fix the second half #how did I extend the 2k to 3.4K #i— #hmm #I expect 2k word chapters they said #it should be a short story they said #I’m a habitual liar /hj #(accidentally) played American football with my newborn #rottmnt fanfiction

[roseofcards90]

Nothing could’ve prepared me for reading dungeon meshi and just seeing a full on close up panel of Minotaur tit udders 😭

#I— #my posts #dunmeshi spoilers

[reyesstrand]

TRACY CHAPMAN?

#i— #THEE TRACY CHAPMAN #screamed

[comphyjost]

guess who’s gonna be at the avs game in ball arena on jan 2nd…🧍🏼‍♀️

#i— #avs live in person? in denver? at home? hell yeah #personal

[byelair]

“stop treating me like everyone else. like there’s something wrong with me.” and then will lists everyone that treats him that way and mike isnt on that list . because as we know from what he says in season 4 mike makes him feel like he isn’t a mistake at all

#🥲 #byelair rewatches #<- tag so u can mute it #byler #im . like i need to make some gifsets for a parallel bc the phrasing of what he says here. vs #the phrasing of the van scene #i—