#i’m a disappointment

[z0mb1e-sl1me]

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#art #my art #rotz #ghost #cod #mw2 #ghost mw2 #simon ghost riley #mw2 fanart #yippee #i’m turning this in for a grade #i’m a disappointment #but in a good way #ink art #ink

[charliethinks]

the only thing i know how to do is disappoint everyone.

#i’m a disappointment #i hate myself #why am i like this #i’m a horrible person #maybe it’s better if i’m alone

[marvellover-12]

I am part of the LGBTQ+ community.

I am part of this community and due to that I have some issues and fears. I struggle with my identity and I wrote about it because I need an outlet so let me scream into the void since I have no one to tell.

And tonight I realized I am ashamed of who I am. I am a hypocrite. I go to pride, but I am not prideful of who I am. I lie to myself and others. I hang the flag of my identity on the wall and I am ashamed and feel guilty and wrong.

As a child I was told “you can be anything you want” and as an adult you are told about the “American dream” you can be anything and do anything you want and have that freedom in the land of the free. But this is not true. It is not true for women. It is not true for queer people. It is not true for people of color. It is not true for neurodivergent people. It is not true for people with disability. It is not true if you are anything other than the social norm. Fit the mold and hide yourself, or face retaliation and unwanted opinions. Be hated and disrespected. Fear for your life.

“This is the real world”. “The real world is going to hurt when you get there”. But dad I say this is my world. I’ve been living it. But mom I say this is who I am. I hide myself for you. I make myself small and deny myself any truth. How can I live with myself? Maybe this is why I do not want to live with myself.

I will never feel the support and pride I want to feel because you, mom and dad, you are not proud. Not proud of your daughter who is just trying to be her own person. You are not proud of who I am but only of what I accomplish. You are proud of how “smart” I am. You are proud of my grades. You are proud of superficial things. Would you still be proud if I didn’t graduate? Would you be proud of me if I wasn’t “smart”? Would you be proud of your only daughter for anything other than what you approve of? I see you are ashamed of me. You are not proud that I care for people. You are not proud that I feel deeply and that I long for the meaning behind things. You are not proud of my sexuality. You are not proud of my beliefs. You agreed with every part of me that you put together and held together but when it fell apart you could no longer agree. You could no longer be proud. You say you love me unconditionally but how can that be true with these conditions? Maybe you do not know your own meaning of love. Or maybe you try to tell yourself you love me because if the facade breaks, so will you. But dad I say this is my world. I am already here. But mom I say this is who I am. I am me.

- signed marvellover-12

If you made it this far thank you for listening❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

#lgbtqiia+ #lgbtq #lgbtq rights #bi pride #pride 2023 #pride flag #sexuality #bisexual #homophobia #internalized shame #internalized queerphobia #internalized homophobia #mental health #queer identity #identity #i’m a disappointment #I want to be proud

[biggerthanmars]

so u arent into feedist shit anymore?

deep in my heart i will always be, but the passion for it is so lost right now and i don’t see it coming back ngl

#i’m a disappointment

[wolfprincess1229]

Makin brownies

Not weed ones

Still crossed anyway

🖤

#maybe I take another shot #lmao #I’m a disappointment #but they already know that #I don’t care #I do a #little bit #but I don’t feel anythign #now #so nothing matters #lol #much love

[disorentedfae]

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#vent #i cant do anything right can I? #No I can’t #i keep messing up my parents plans and wasting their money #and liking things they don’t #I’m a disappointment #a disgrace

[phantom-does-a-thing]

I’m a disappointment to my guitar teacher btw

#I have so much potential and I don’t even practice #he’s been drilling that I need to get my rhythm down and he wants me to succeed #and he was asking if I’ve ever performed or had friends to play with or any of that #no to all his questions #I’m a disappointment #rambling #phever dreams with phantom #phantom’s lament #disappointment to pretty much everyone tbh wasted gift in school bc I can’t handle the workload of smth hard #I don’t want to do college classes even tho it’ll help me in the long run the work is too much #disappointment to my friends bc I never want to hang out bc my mental health constantly drops #I’m just a walking disappointment I’m just sub par at everything #the only thing I’m good at is writing #everything else is just wasted potential bc I don’t do anything with it #I drop hobbies and come back in bursts #drawing knitting crochet painting sewing school I’m just a disappointment #can’t do anything right #I’m just a waste of a gift on someone with no motivation #vent

[1m1nlust]

I feel so selfish for wanting to end it all— but how else do I get the voice to stop chanting— I’m ashamed to admit that it’s getting bad again…

But you’re not around.

You never are.

Not anymore

#we’re strangers #i want to diiieeee #I want this to stop #the voices are loud #it’s getting bad again #i can’t control it #I’ve let you down #i’m a disgrace #I’m a disappointment #i’m sorry #i’m worthless

[anna-scribbles]

last one i promise(<—lie)

#let’s as a society think more about why adrien wanted to go to school #and what. perhaps. he thought school was #i think the way chloe describes it she really is just a beautiful rich girl with too much time on her hands #and no one at school is treating her accordingly. #abby got so mad at me today because she thinks it’s too cringe that i keep taking about adrien liking ohshc #which is like. how are you gonna know me my whole life and then be disappointed when i’m cringe. #i’ve never hidden who i am. it’s cringe all the way down #anyway #ml #my art #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #chloe bourgeois #ohshc #wait i am gonna tag this thirteen actually. just go with me #thirteen

[the-writing-bre]

Literally the 2nd time ever posting on here, but I’m just dumbfounded by the many different avenues they could’ve actually taken before coming to this!

#watcher #watcher entertainment #ryan bergara #shane madej #steven lim #youtube #bad idea #just why #I’m mad and disappointed

[h0rsegirlpercy]

Us when the Lotus Casino episode drops

#IF I DONT SEE A THOUSAND GRAINY ZOOMED IN IMAGES IN THE TAG AFTER THAT EPISODE DROPS IM GONNA BE VERY DISAPPOINTED #I’m straight up gonna watch that one and then watch it again for the sole purpose of searching for Nico in the background #percy jackson #nico di angelo #heroes of olympus #hoo #mine #pjato #pjo #rick riordan #rrverse #percy jackson and the olympians #1k #5k

[almabears]

Feel a lot like a sad and lonely gengar

#if u know me in irl please don’t read past this. lately been having some really strong suicidal ideations I’ll never do anything of course #but I just idk I feel so disconnected from everything and everyone and I feel like this would be better if I just disappeared #I think everyone’s lives around me would be better if I just disappeared. I’m annoying and mean #when did I ever get so mean? and I’m so lonely to the point of it feeling unbareable #I just want everything to stop hurting so much and I want to stop being such a massive disappointment to everyone around me #i’m a disappointment #to everyone and myself I hate myself

[brunettebardot]

hitting up both my parents for money on pay day cause i blew all my money on booze last night whoops

#i’m a disappointment

[mo-mode]

Echidna essentially saying “You killed my children, now they’re going to kill you” is so wild because the trio’s response is like “bitch we’re ALSO children????” meanwhile, Athena immediately went “NOT IF I KILL THEM FIRST” and that’s so fucked up but also so funny

#I’m sorry I laughed #no I’m not #echidna is a loving mother who shows it in her own monstrous way #Athena is a monster by showing her disappointment instead of being a loving mother #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo tv show #percy jackson tv show #percy jackson the lightning thief #pjo spoilers #pjo series #echidna #athena

[m-r-nicely]

Saw a spider casually crawling along my wall. THE AUDACITY! So I, deciding to be brave, stood up to do something about it.

It stopped moving when I looked at it.

It dropped down behind my dresser as soon as I stood up.

The sound I made sounded like a FUCKING LOONEY TOONS CHARACTER!!!

I don’t know when it’s going to come back out but I have left my room with enough paper to keep myself occupied until I, hopefully, outlive it.

#i’m such a baby #it owns everything in the room now #please send help #i’m a disappointment

[cliopadra]

Aw man…

#even with Izzy dead and my love for gentlebeard basically gone after their S2 characterisation I still wanted a S3 for the crew #i’m so disappointed #I want more revenge crew content 🥲