#i’m confused if i’m sad or

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: pregnancy, kids (you guys have a daughter together), fwb’s, angst with a bit of a hopeful ending, refers to you as ‘girl’ once

Friends with benefits Bakugou who never really got over his ego to fully commit to you. You’re a little ashamed to admit it, but when you fell pregnant, you thought that things would change. That the whole “no feelings” aspect would’ve been dropped, that he would’ve embraced you fully.

But he just…didn’t? If anything, he distanced himself away from you, became so formal like you were another coworker he would address. It was heartbreaking, going through your first pregnancy feeling so, so alone, but having to grin and bear it the whole way through.

He supported you though in every way that he could. He never missed an appointment, would trek to your house during late nights whenever you craved something. He even moved you in to his own apartment during your last trimester, but a couple months after your baby was born, you went back home. You never felt unwelcome, but you couldn’t pretend to be a happy family when he slept in the guest room every night.

So now, you coparent quite easily. At least, it seems easy to Bakugou, but really, it’s all a facade.

In all honesty? He thinks he’s a fuck up. An idiot. The stupidest, shittiest person who’s ever existed.

He thought what he was doing was enough, that the words he didn’t say carried across oceans, formulated into titles that he never verbalized. So when you told him you would be happy to coparent, his world felt upended suddenly, as he holds his tiny little baby girl in his arms.

Coparent? How could a couple coparent? Where did he go wrong? (He only slept in the guest room to give you and baby space, only moved you in late because you lived so far away and you were getting so big. He never said I love you because he was too embarrassed to say it out loud. He didn’t know he had to say it out loud to solidify it. He thought you just knew.)

So it’s why his heart breaks when he catches a glimpse of curly blond hair and red eyes in the grocery store. He tries to duck behind an aisle, but his baby would recognize him anywhere. (It’s true; you’ve sent many videos of her recognizing him on billboards and tv commercials and magazines.)

“Bakugou?” You call, ducking around the corner to catch a glimpse of him. He tries to act nonchalant like he’s looking at cans of soup, tries not to cringe at your formal name. He turns when you come into view, eyes drinking in your attire. His heart breaks a little when he recognizes the shirt you took in your second trimester, still has the pic you sent him of you grinning as you show off what you stole.

“Hey.” Bakugou greets gruffly, mouth pulled tight, but it cracks into a grin when his daughter starts squealing. She’s in the front part of the shopping cart, twisting her little chunky body to get out and get to him. She damn near screams when he sets his basket down to pick her up, rubbing his nose to hers.

“How ya doing, squirt?” He asks quietly, pecking at her chubby cheeks as she instantly starts babbling to him. He holds her close to his chest, eyes full of pure love for his baby girl, and it makes your heart squeeze so tight you think it might burst.

“This isn’t your neck of the woods.” You mutter, head tilting to the side as you take in your daughters excited face to see her father. Bakugou’s eyes snap to your own, letting his daughter play with his fingers in the meanwhile. He looks embarrassed, cheeks a dusty pink as he grumbles and looks away.

“I was just picking up some stuff to drop off for her. Was gonna text you and see if you were home,” he replies, and something tells you that it’s a lie. But you don’t pester him about it, just nod a few times, taking in the sight.

He looks so good like that, in his compression shirt and sweats, his hair mussed from your daughters incessant pulling. He’s grinning at her, but looks so bashful when he turns to you, like he’s thinking about things he knows he shouldn’t, like he has a boatload to say but can’t cough up.

And if you were a mind reader, you’d be so fucking right. He can’t help but reminisce on before you got pregnant, the nights spent with you. The day you told him you were having a girl, the tears you cried when you delivered her. He thinks, filled with so much guilt the entire time, that he wants another one. With you.

“‘S it okay if I walk my favorite girls home?” He asks you gruffly, nibbling on your daughters cheeks to hear her giggle again, uncaring of the drool she leaves on his hand. You feel your eyes widen at his term for you, face suddenly flushing. Favorite? You, his favorite?

Something tells you that you shouldn’t fall down the rabbit hole that is Bakugou Katsuki and his suppressed emotions and shitty ego. But there’s another something that tells you to trust it this time, to let things happen organically and without expectation. So you do.

“I’m sure she would love to show her daddy the new toy her grandma just brought her.” You tell him, giggling when he rolls his eyes at the mention of his mother. But he walks with you the entire time you finish up your grocery order, holding your daughter the whole time and pays for your groceries despite repeatedly telling him that he doesn’t have to.

He pushes her in the stroller stored underneath the shopping cart on the way home, making small conversation. And when you’re halfway home, does he reach for your hand. Only to cross the cross walk though, he tells himself, only for your protection. But he doesn’t let go until you’re in your own place, and even then, he’s close by the entire time. He helps you put away groceries, remembers where everything is like he lives here.

And for some reason, the familiarity makes your heart ache a little more than you would like it to.

#full of sadness tonight srry #but I’m obsessed with this idea actually #I wanna expand on it even more in a fic #I don’t like to write angst for him but this idea is just :( #he’s so shitty at communicating his feelings and you hate assuming things #so many things are just left unsaid for so long that you just force yourself to get over it and move on #and he’s so confused and so angry that you could leave him like that #but he never had you in the first place now did he? #ohh it makes me wanna sob #obviously in the end you get back together and have 98 more kids 🙄 #but the journey along the way is RUFF #okay I’m done writing my wrist hurts lol #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dad bkg

[desperatehoney]

I deserve to have a tail I can wag and cute floppy ears and

#puppy posting #trans nsft #t4t nsft #trans guy nsft #ftm nsft #t4t ns/fw #nsft trans #nsft bottom #ftm mlm #ftm bottom #puppy pl@y #puppy pl4y #puppyposting #before I even realized I’m puppy I did that head tilt thing dogs do when they’re confused #anyways feeling puppy rn sad whimper noises

[loveyourownsmiilee]

Funny?! And poignant?? Hmmm 🤔

#max gao #buddie #Ryan Guzman #I’m intrigued #funny and sad??? #we know it’s about Shannon #I’m confusion

[cherriiramen]

I finally watched Brokeback mountain yesterday. I know I said ‘yesterday’, but I’m still fucking unwelL-

#no because I heard it was sad but #i DIDNT EXPECT IT TO ACTUALLY MAKE ME SOB?? #the way my face immediately fell when I saw the [D E C E A S E D] stamp #THE HORROR I FELT #I WAS LIKE ‘No… you’re joking’ #AND THE WAY HE HUNG THE BLOODSTAINED SHIRT AND THE POSTCARD #AS A MEMORY #that movie was beautiful #horrifying #and disgustingly sad you can’t do this to me #brokeback mountain #jack twist #ennis del mar #movies #*grips the carpet and screams at the top of my lungs #cherrii.txt #I’m #not okay I’m not okay #HOW DO PEOPLE TAKE THIS MOVIE FOR A JOKE #IM SO CONFUSED

[midnight-moth]

Mushy May will heal ghumblr. I know it will. I believe in it. I’m manifesting it.

#raindrop month was so… disappointing #and it’s maybe a little my fault #but not entirely #I get it everyone is busy #I’m a little sad about it though #I am just so confused as to how fandoms for shows that were done like a decade ago are going strong #but we all fall apart while waiting for the next album #I would like to say I’ll just hop skip jump to something more active #but I simply do not want to #how the fuck would I deal with all that canon lore anyway #making it all up is what’s fun #some of you are keeping ghumblr alive daily with chest compressions and epi #using the defibrillator and doing mouth to mouth #no body call it tho it’s not dead yet or something

[hyunjining]

#genuine question #i for one am tired and confused and downright empty inside #which is a feeling that has been around for years but idk now it’s the worst it’s ever been #i literally feel crazy thinking about the spot of hope and joy from early 2022 turning into this so fast #anyway it’s 2 am and i’m sad idk

[elendsessor]

how both the rg and ug interact with one another has always been strange to an extent. in-universe people have always acknowledged that there is something going on, particularly in the first twewy with the existence of reaper creeper at least reflecting how urban myths have popped up as a result + scanned npc dialogue often times referring to “strange happenings” such as seeing people with wings. however, despite there being limitations with how much players and reapers can interact with the ug, the rules as to what can be brought back in neo is particularly weird.

aside from how confusing the plot point of nearly every wicked twister being not actually dead yet managing to interact with the ug and what i’m assuming to be certain people in the rg in beat’s case, but shoka the iguana has always puzzled me.

most animals shown within the games are noise, and as far as i’m aware (unless secret reports have clarified this and i forgot) dead animals can’t enter the reaper’s game. of course reapers have a bit more freedom, such as 777 being able to start a popular band with little consequence, so it leads me to question if shoka the iguana either was bought and taken into the ug or somehow died alongside ayano and got a free pass in (and she changed its name/finally gave it one upon making friends with shoka, but this is incredibly unlikely altogether).

it doesn’t ruin anything but it’s just a little odd and also makes me wonder if, were there to be a third game or even something like the extra stuff added to the first game’s rereleases, we could potentially see some exploration of the rg and ug’s relationship.

#also i thought ayano’s noise form would be an iguana as a result and i’m still sad it wasn’t :( #it’s literally just a fucking flower which also confuses me #so can noise forms be shaped like any living thing??? #probably overthinking #shantien rambles #twewy #neo twewy #ntwewy spoilers

[thenerdyalchemist]

Just a little sketch I did in between episodes when we had a screenshot of Disa holding a little mole rat…. Um episode came out and uh he was food so… anyway enjoy a little Disa and Elrond

#hi yes I’m still sad the mole rat is dead #I don’t wanna talk about it #I just thought Elrond would be confused on what the heck it was #and Disa had a pet #IT COULD HAVE BEEN CUTE #trop #lotr trop #the rings of power #rings of power art #elrond half elven #disa

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

”neon genesis evangelion is confusing” is actually a statistical error. most people have basic media literacy and understand what the show literally fucking spells out to you. no media literacy georg, who cannot understand basic storytelling tools, is an outlier adm should not have been counted.

#like. I’m baffled people think neon genesis Evangelion is confusing. surreal? absolutely. but not confusing #it’s like. ??? guys it literally tells you the meaning and it also goes hey all that other lore stuff is cool but don’t het too caught up i #trying to understand that shit to the point you miss the obvious #it’s about love and choosing to love yourself and wanting to live #on that note it’s like. not got a sad ending??? like??? it’s definitely bittersweet but the kids r better off than they were before by far #shinji wants to live and has. sort of learnt boundaries. like he still attacked asuka but he did choose the boundary option. #asuka has learnt she’s loved! she’s always been loved! and she’s able to show affection freely for the first time. #rei and kaworu are chilling being gods and also the same being #and the nonce gets fucking bit in two #(surprising how many ppl don’t pick up on That with rei and gendo either like. after end of eva? with a literal sa scene?)

[loverboy1717]

#ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #spoilers #I can’t participate in the discourse rn cus I need to process and cry #but I’ll be here in the morning #for now here are my live thoughts #a girl is confused #I am thrilled and sad and elated and turned on #y’all better not be fuckos about anything #I have NO notes #I’m sure I’ll have notes later #but rn? #none notes #ofmd #our flag means death #edward teach #stede bonnet #blackbonnet #izzy hands #the revenge #my babies

[whovianderson]

KILLING EVE FANDOM, VILLANELLE IS ALIVE CONFIRMED!!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!!!

Jodie did an interview for Happy Sad Confused and:

I AM HEALED.

#VILLANELLE LIVES #FUCK LAURA NEAL #i don’t think you understand #i’m so emotional #thank you jodie #highly recommend checking the other content from the interview #she’s so fucking cute #jodie comer #happy sad confused #killing eve #villanelle #oksana astankova #villaneve

[chrisbitchtree]

I’m usually pretty good at shrugging things off, but I just read a fic on AO3, left a comment and then closed out of the tab and went on my way. A couple minutes later, mid round of Tetris, I realized I hadn’t hit kudos on the fic. I took the time to pause the game, go back to the web browser, to my history and reopen the fic, only to get a pop-up when I hit kudos saying that the writer had blocked me, which I wasn’t even aware was something you can do on AO3. What did I do to upset you, writer??? In less than five minute??? (Note: This wasn’t a Harringrove fic. My lovelies would never.)

#i’m just confused #and a little sad #because I was just trying to be nice and interact and that’s the thanks I get #chrisbitchtree talks #personal

[jorvikzelda]

today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

#z talks #like the misidentifying as ace was Inevitable i think. that was due to repression that realising i didnt like men would not have fixed #(context: id’d as bi ace like. i wanna say 2016/17-2021/22 sometime and then went into ace and Questioning) #remember the time i really solidly settled on being aro because ‘romance has never not felt like a chore and putting on a facade’ #babe no thats because your most recent and also singular long term relationship was with a Man #and thats the only one youre looking back on #its so funny how i dated a guy and it was so thoroughly Meh that i just didnt feel like pursuing anything romantic for a very long time #(A REACTION I HAD NOT HAD AFTER MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS) #And DIDN’T somehow consider that maybe I just Didn’t Like Guys #its nothing i grieve or feel sad about dw its honestly mostly funny to look back on #no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted #(…which is also a weird word to apply because at the time i identified and was out to my friends as a trans guy Binary. #This Was Also Wrong.) #was a weird time man. a truly weird time #anyway. all is well i have now been on 2 dates with a really cute girl and she gave me tulips <3 #as part of a Care Delivery bc i had a Migraine and No Painkillers Or Snacks #get well flowers <333333 #and now i dream of kissing her under the moonlight #With the uh. Hornetposting lately it May seem unlikely but yes I DO interact with real women! Romantically! #They coexist Wonderfully <3 #Anyway. I’m gonna go to bed #Realising that im a lesbian solved all my identity problems including my fucking gender which is just fantastic #I am very happy and whenever I think of being a lesbian it grounds me to reality a little bit stronger and i go yeah. Yeah.

[praxeus-13]

On the one hand, I am so excited for today’s episode. It looks like it’s going to be amazing and so much fun! We’ll get more 13 content, more Yaz content, more Thasmin, more Dhawan!Master - not to mention Kate, Ace, Tegan and Vinder!! On the other hand I don’t want this episode to air, I don’t want this era to end :(

#I wish this could go on forever #I’m not ready to let them go yet! #I’m so sad and so happy and it’s very confusing #13th doctor #doctor who #thasmin #dhawan!master #thirteenth doctor #the power of the doctor #doctor who centenary special #tpotd

[skyleathero]

🕊✨❤️

#dbz #akira toriyama #goku #rest in peace #my artwork #edit: ok this is starting to hit me now. it’s just so hard to believe he’s actually dead #the fact that he died so recently made me so confused #and during 6am I started questioning myself and death and that’s when I started crying as soon as my thought when to toriyama #god I feel so guilty for not feeling anything before. it just happened so sudden that I just didn’t know how to feel about all of this #he genuinely is the reason why I’m happier than I am and that I got a lot better in art. he really inspired me to keep going with my art #career. it’s just sad that he’s now gone. the fact that March 1 was his last breath also made me realize that death can happen at any time #at any moment to anyone. i hope he’s made it to heaven 🕊

[guckies]

The night before March 1st on qsmp..

#I’m so behind on everything i just know im sad mad and confused #qsmp