#i’m going through a crisis & im MAD about it

[thrashkink-coven]

okay I don’t love ranting about Christians on this page because I try to keep this space free of religious shenanigans but I need to rant about this because it’s actually SO irritating. This is coming steaming hot right off the top of the dome so excuse my grammar and all caps.

Lately my instagram page (thrashkink_art check me out I’m awesome) has been getting a lot of attention from Christians for some reason, and I’ve been getting dmd by people wanting desperately to debate and/ or convert me. They all come at me with the assumption that I’m either an extreme atheist that’s just super mad at God or a complete dumbass that’s simply never read the first few pages of Genesis. I must either be angry or stupid. There’s no way I could have read the Bible and known the story of Jesus without subscribing to it. Anyone who isn’t Christian must not know the story! “Have you heard about JESUS? DID YOU 🫵 KNOW He died for your sins? 😃” Whatever

The thing that is so frustrating is that, EVERY SINGLE TIME I share some information with them about the Bible or religion that they didn’t know, they immediately BLOCK ME. EVERY TIME. And it’s like??? If you want to have a debate and go bar for bar then I’ll humor you. Hey, who knows! Maybe I’ll even learn something new and convert! I’m always open to new information! I love learning about religion! But apparently it doesn’t go both ways because the second I present information they can’t grapple with, they IMMEDIATELY BLOCK ME. AAAAAA

Some Christian dude: If you read the Bible you’d know that doing witchcraft will land you in Hell!

Me: well if we’re really going based off of the Bible, the entire concept of Hell doesn’t originate in the Isrealite religion. Actually, there’s no mention of a Hell in the OT at all, Hell is a Greek concept and so is Lucifer.

Christian: What? No?? That can’t be true it completely distorts my worldview

Me: You… don’t have to believe me just look into it yourself

*You can no longer message this person*

LIKE WTF.

Some Christian dude: Women are just naturally subordinate to men, if they weren’t then we would have worshipped a female Goddess alongside YHWH.

Me: Well… They did. The Israelites worshiped Asherah alongside YHWH before her worship was abolished

Christian: This is blasphemy *you can no longer message this person*

RRRRRRRRAAAAAAAA. I have countless examples like this! A dude called me evil because I told him Jesus was Jewish. I’ve been called a degenerate for explaining how YHWH originated in Canaan. Im so tired of ignorant Christians shitting my pants because they’re too lazy to do any research on tHEIR OWN RELIGION!! IF YOU NEED TO HAVE AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS BECAUSE YOU JUSG LEARNED ABOUT THE HISTOY OF YOUR RELIGION THEN THATS ON YOU BITCH! DONT GET MAD AT ME BC YOUVE BEEN FED A LIE !!!!!! THATS NOT MY PROBLEM !!!!!!!!!!

There have been so many times when I’ve taken the time to go through all this bullshit with people because I really don’t want to be close minded. But holy shit it’s like they’re allergic to conflicting information. They immediately accuse me of trying to push blasphemy onto them. and when i’m like hey dude don’t take my word for it, please I encourage you to do your own research, they’re immediately so offended and appalled. How dare I tell them something about the Bible that they didn’t know.

Listen bro, I’m fully supportive of your Christianity, live your life, worship your God, I honestly do not care. But if you’re going to try to convert me at least be somewhat prepared for an actual discussion. Don’t block me because you can’t handle the reality of the situation mother fucker.

LIKE LISTEN IM USUALLY NOT SO PRESSED AB SHIT LIKE THIS BUT THE THING THAT DRIVES ME UP THE WALL IS THAT I USUALLY TRY TO IGNORE THESE PEOPLE BUT THEN THEYRE ALL LIKE “Aha! 😌 You don’t want to hear me out because you know I’m right! You’re afraid of the truth!” SO THEN IM LIKE

*SIGGGGGHHHHHHH*

OKAY! Let’s go! Let’s hear it! We can debate because you’re so desperate to change my mind! ILL WASTE THREE HOURS OF MY LIFE GOING THROGH THIS SHIT WITH YOU SO YOU CAN JUST CALL ME A BLASPHEMOUS WHORE AND BLOCK ME. I LOVE WASTING MY TIME I LOVE GOING IN CIRCLES I LOVE POINTLESS DISCUSSIONS I LIVE FOR THEM

DO NOT!!! DM ME IF YOURE A CHRISTIAN !!!!YOU WILL NOT COME OUT THE SAME AFTER HEARING THE THOUGHTS FROM MY EXPANSIVE SEXY SLUTTY BRAIN YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME!!!!

RRRRRAAAAAAAAA

ok. I’m better now. Merry Venus Day! Ave Lucifer! 🔱 💀

#witchcraft #magick #occultism #pagan #paganism #demonology #witch community #witch aesthetic #witchblr #grimoire #lucifer devotee #luciferian witch #lucifer deity #lord lucifer #theistic luciferianism #religion #christianity

[asavakaa]

I have lots to say about Nier automata now that I’ve finished route A along with obtaining a few of the sub-endings lmao (I won’t though till I finish the MAIN endings to go deep into the story, but as a man who loves existentialism and religious undertones, this is one of my favorite gaming stories and I haven’t even finished the main plot 😭)

This game is amazing lmao, I first heard about this game by an old Starbucks friend (he’s gotten me into a few series I would’ve otherwise never touched like FF, Nier, Persona, etc…) and I see why he loved this game so much

The themes of the androids and machines learning about humans, their consciousness and the machines even having existential crisis on who and what they should be when they’re not connected to the system is such an intriguing theme

The gameplay (when you actually play it, cause I ran though the first time I touched this game in 2020 lol) is so satisfying, the exploration is surprisingly fun for such a small map compared to other games but it works exceptionally well, the side missions are always thought provoking, some will surprise you and it shows the many flaws of mankind prior to them going away. The amount of weapons and upgrades are fantastic, I’ve been collecting them all like Pokemon along with fishing lmao

I first played the game on hard, but I highly DONT recommend that, the AI isn’t any smarter they just take more hits to kill and you die in like two hits and it’s not fun 😭😭 (I only played it on hard for the achievement when I had my ps4 lol)

It’s a really fun game idk what else to say and I’m having a fun time now playing as 9S (it’s much harder already and I’m level 33 but it’s still very fun and you can hack shit)

It seems like people see 2B’s and 9S’s relationship as a more romantic kind but I didn’t get that at all, it gives off a more younger brother/older sister vibe imo

Adam and Eve btw are very cool, Adam birthed by the machines who created him using the data they collected in an attempt to rid the androids, and eventually Eve who appeared after a fight with 2B and 9S and the apple lowkey being Adam himself is a bit interesting, after his death Eve goes mad and wants to wipe out the androids

2B and 9S kinda act as the serpent in a sense as because of them killing Adam, eve becomes incredibly violent and blames the androids and goes on a murdering spree. Eve essentially kinda becomes god in a sense? God in the Bible “resets” earth after witnessing the murder and deeming humans as too violent, kinda the same thing here, except Eve doesn’t see the irony of machines and himself also being violent and it only gets worse when Adam dies lol

Also both being men and not the traditional man and woman is interesting thus far and I wanna know more about this so im curious if they go deeper into their existence in the game

Imo this only happens because the machines are afraid of them wiping both androids AND machines as they’re both violent beings as what happened in the Bible though they have no idea that it’s not real (maybe idk) lol

The machines wanting to be more human is also an interesting thing here, created to at first kill and only kill, but eventually learning about humans and “humanity” notching there’s more to life than being a killing machine is such a unique thing here, watching them mimic human traits, trying to understand them and have a “consciousness” of their own is kinda like a child realizing there’s more to life when they start school and experiencing more except machines learnt through data received through networks

The idea that anyone can become human is pretty cool here

I will have much more to say on the plot as I continue the game but I highly recommend playing this if you haven’t already:)

Thanks for coming to my TEDtalk

#nier automata #nier #nier 2b #nier 9s #nier series #autistic rambling #ignore my rambling #but like also I love when games do this shit the philosophy and Religious combo makes me nut straight up #I’m sure there’s typos but that’s ok im doing one take babyyyyyyyyy

[mysicklove-main]

for the hybrid story, are you making alternate endings for each pair? Or is it just one final ending with the endgame couple?

(btw I love this story. And how you write the characters. )

im so glad someone asked this bc i have needed to rant about this somewhere 😭😭 (i will never admit in real life i write fanfiction)

(kinda) spoilers for Your New Pack:

well when i first wrote it just for funsies and to indulge my embarrassing fantasies i was going to do Y/N x all of them. the boys would be more of a platonic “pack mate” type bond so they are extremely close and would be fine with sharing bc they are so close (this will be kinda established with Dabis arc). and i was thinking since keigo is the “leader” or oldest of the pack he would fill in as “your boyfriend” to the public/friends or whatever but in reality you are dating/mated them all. idk, i think the boys (mostly shoto and katsuki) would be a little peeved about it as first but they would eventually realize it makes the most logical sense and it didn’t matter anyways. everyone is happy, we would have to work on shotos possessiveness for a bit, but i think they would all love each other and be happy. cute, but heavily unrealistic.

but now that alot of ppl are following my story it’s kinda hard bc i feel like it might be TOO unrealistic and ppl might think the ending is stupid and unfair to the boys. or i feel as though ppl would think i am executing polyamorous relationships completely wrong (bc i’m not polyamorous i just love me a nice harem of hot men) and get mad at me. not only that, i get a lot of ppl on specifically team keigo and i am afraid they will hate my story bc of that endgame 🥲

with the alternate endings or one couple ending, i don’t know how the hell it wouldn’t be angsty as fuck. bc i wrote it as a hybrid has there meant to be mate, and all of them just happened to be Y/N (yes unrealistic as hell. don’t shit on me lol it’s fun writing bout men simping over u) mate. so how would the boys just give up on her and allow another to love just one of them?? and how could they ever all live happily together if one of them is dating their supposed to be mate? especially keigo who has been waiting like what, 15-20 yrs?? idk it just seems hard for him to not have her in the end. and the traumas the others boys went through, just for them to NOT have their mate in the end? like that just sounds so fucked 😭 like for example, izuku is obviously dealing with some confident issues and craves love, could u imagine rejecting him for another?? like that will destroy that fool LMAO. so that sounds like really sad ending for my fluffy story.

so yeah. i am in a state of crisis. a huge state. maybe i will just have them all confess and then just end the story to leave up to interpretation (i despise these stories). but that seems bad too. idk. this sucks.

every time someone comments like “i hope she ends up with ___” or “i hope they are endgame!” or “___ should not end up with y/n” i’m like 😀😀😀😀😀😀

#chit chats #your new pack #ao3 #very long response lol

[flockofdoves]

i think its important to retain compassion and make sure when i actually talk to her i am open to listening to whatever she has to say. obviously thats important even just on purely a level of wanting communication to go well and for her to be receptive to solutions. but also of course there needs to be space kept for me and my gf to vent our frustration on our own time bc just bc pretty much almost everyone can always have some sort of personal justification for why they did something within their constricted circumstances obviously that doesn't mean people hurt by that dont still have reasons to be upset or resent the situation. and i'm trying to be good and healthy in how i balance these two things. 

i'm not always the best at conversations i can be a bit conflict avoidant and i have given up on talking about any of this for a while after my last half assed attempts at communication about this stuff failed (even if i think to be fair to myself some of it very clearly goes beyond what i'd imagine the scope of any misalignment of expectations from past experiences in different living situations could cause. like sure ok maybe you've used other peoples dishes in the past but i cant imagine it takes communication (which i did w this actually!) to know that if you've then let those dishes mold for a month throwing out that persons dishes after they ask you to wash them after they see them outside is not an acceptable next step) but i’m really trying to expend the effort to be better at communicating

but every time i’ve tried she avoids it somehow. and i keep trying harder in more direct but still not aggressive ways and i’m sure theres still more i could do but its just so so frustrating having it continue on this way. 

i feel like theres no space for me to even healthily balance my frustration with not letting that boil into any actual opportunity to talk because its just like a constant situation of having to hope that she’ll actually not avoid things this time and i need to emotionally prep myself for conversation so that i won’t unproductively just come across as angry (or just like. so shaky i cant talk lol) and because i’m just like fucking constantly having to put myself in that state theres not even a healthy space to even be properly mad during me and my gfs time when shes not around

i’m just so so so sick of this i’m so constantly stressed and sad about all of this this is the worst roommate situation i’ve ever been in even when just like. in fun conversations before she was avoiding us and that i still overhear w her friends i really enjoy my roommate. like thats really saying something when i’ve had a homophobic passive aggressive roommate before and a roommate that always turned the thermostat up to 90 degrees!!! but this is still (even after her wayyyy lowballing the utility bills “at their worst” looking back lmao) like the cheapest place i’ve seen around here with this fucking housing crisis happening around my college and at this point itd literally be too late to find anything good for when this lease ends i don’t know what to fucking do i was panicking about housing this time last year and it felt like it might fall through at like any moment once we did secure this apartment last august and then like so soon after that everything started to gradually get more and more stressful as more things happened with our roommate so its been like a fucking year of housing stress about stuff but we didn’t even start early bc it cost so much to furnish this place so our room wasnt just so deeply stressful to live in with the amount of unpacked boxes for months that we only just finally had all the furniture and storage to actually put away that we kept being like well i’m sure if we just communicate better it can improve because we really want to keep living here and dont want to go through All That with apartment applications and moving again any time soon but also jesus christ what if it just doesnt fucking change im in fucking limbo

#cpost

[nuttersincorporated]

I want to play the stanley parable but im a little worried abt certain triggers. I have mild psychosis abt themes surrounding free will, manipulation of the mind and mind reading. And related subjects. From what ive SEEN of the game, it seems like it might have elements like that. Is that true? And if so, how prevelant/extreme are they? Are they played for laughs or for genuine fright? Or am i totally wrong and it has nothing like that?

Hi Anon!

Yes, The Stanley Parable does deal with mind control, the idea of free will, manipulation, unreality, existential crisis, isolation, losing your mind and suicide. Some of the endings are played for laughs (most of the bucket ones) but some of them are played straight and are really heart wrenching.

There are lots of different ‘endings’. However, the game doesn’t end because once you reach an end, the game resets and you start again.

If you get The Stanley Parable: Ultra Deluxe, you have the option to turn on trigger warnings which will warn you about some of the heavier endings and let you skip them.

I’m going to put the next bit under a keep reading so you can skip it if you want. However, I’ll take about some of the things that might potently be triggering to you in spoilery detail below.

The Freedom Ending (AKA The True Ending)

To get this, you follow all the Narrator’s instructions.

It turns out that Stanley has been under mind control for a long time. He turns off the machine and escapes to freedom. The Narrator informs you that Stanley is now happy, right before the game resets.

The Mariella Ending (AKA The Insanity Ending)

Stanley goes downstairs when the Narrator told him to go up.

Stanley decides he’s dreaming because all his co-workers wouldn’t just disappear plus, why is there a voice narrating everything he’s doing? The Narrator tells him that he isn’t dreaming, he’s gone mad. Stanley tries to wake up but can’t. He has a panic attack and dies.

The Narrator starts describing Mariella, a woman who watched Stanley stumble around the street screaming in fear before dying. Mariella is glad she is sane and gets on with her life.

The Confusion Ending

You go off track, the Narrator tries to get you back on track but ends up showing you a spoiler for later in the freedom ending.

The Narrator resets the game to try again (this is not a true reset). He tries to make you follow the story but things keep going wrong and he keeps resetting.

Eventually, the Narrator finds the Confusion Ending timetable and realises he’s just as trapped as Stanley. He has an existential crisis and tries to stop things. It does not go well and instead his memory is wiped forcing him to forget.

The Zending

You jump off a moving cargo lift onto a platform below. When the Narrator tells you to go through the Red Door you listen.

The Narrator is happy you listened. He thinks you’ll both be happy if you stop following the story and stay somewhere nice together. You go to a room with pretty lights.

There is no way out of that room other than to climb a staircase and repeatedly throw yourself off it. The Narrator begs and begs you to stop but throwing Stanley to his death is the only way – in game – to reach an ending.

Real Person Ending

You unplug a phone, rather than answer it.

The Narrator realises you aren’t Stanley, you are a real person. He thinks you are stuck in the game and the only way to get you out is to follow his story to the end (this is now impossible in this ending).

You eventually get booted out of Stanley’s body and watch from above. The Narrator begs Stanley to move and make a choice but without the Player, he can’t. The Narrator gets sad and desperate. He decides to wait for Stanley to make a decision, even though he never will.

New Ultra Deluxe Ending!

The Memory Zone/ The Skip Button Ending

The Narrator is unimpressed by Ultra Deluxe’s new content. He takes you to the Memory Zone to remember how good the original game was.

He finds some negative reviews and has a crisis about his work. He makes a skip button so you can skip his dialog. You get stuck in a room with the skip button and are forced to keep skipping.

The skips get longer and longer, leaving the Narrator alone again and again. It starts as minutes, then hours, then days and weeks, eventually you leave him alone for millions of years at a time. He goes mad with loneliness.

The Epilogue

The Narrator is long gone but another character just keeps resetting things and keeping the story going forever in the hope you’ll never leave.

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable: ultra deluxe #hope this helped anon!

[jinkicake]

SGDHHD no yehs when I saw Barbatos I was like hehe funny that a god is named after a demon but Venti is literally gluten free catholic like,,, ngl forgot Germany and all of Europe was😭 like someone was saying something weird and SOMEONE REPLIED W A CLOSE UP OF BARBRA AND SHE HAS CROSSES ALL IVER HER AND INSIDE THE CATHEDRAL 💀💀IN GAME LORE BARBATOS HAS NOTHING TO DO W CROSSES😭😭 hoyoverse let me write for this game bc all the plot holes piss me off. Like the entire Liyue arc was a waste of time actually like if we didn’t meet all my fav characters; ESPECIALLY XINYAN happy birthday sis😔💕 I would have Been mad. Bc Zhongli is so DUMB he literally throw not only his nation but all of teyvat into like a economic crisis bc he wanted a vacation 😐 he’s so lucky he’s got bc I was mad asf when I finished it. Bro you did ALL THAT when you could have just said lmao y’all I’m out like Venti did… you caused everyone so much trouble AND DIDNT HELP… if I punch a god is that a ticket straight to hell??? Bc Venti is the best archon out of the strongest 3 and probably all 7! Bc he helped w storm terror like he didn’t rly abandon his people bc they still worship him and think highly of him- even people outside of mondstat for the wind gliders- like no way is the green drunk twink the most responsible…. Im sick of the “ sorry I can’t say I have a contract” stuff too bc if you have the traveler a Glock the game would be 20 mins. Of my boy got his villian arc they would speak up then😤 like he has to run errands for people with nobody really helping to find his twin and dainsleif fine ass jumped into the abyss so we don’t see him no more, and Venti says so much while saying s o little☺️🔪 will talk for 30 mins and you still have no information like if he can’t tell us what’s wrong then tell me who’s holding y’all hostage so I can go beat them up!! Like pls is Venti knows every song past present and future( which I love that timelines ms tuff he shared w obey me barbatos and they’re both green) he definitely knows some important stuff that will help us change fate🙂( Also sorry for brain rot I have SO much to say about these parasites taking up space in my brain)

brain rot is the only thing that gets me through my week LOL i love reading it

VENTI... A GLUTEN FREE CATHOLIC?! PLEASEEEE honestly, i find out new things every day with your brain rots bc as much as i try to be a lore player i read all the dialogue and then forget it the second i finish a quest sigh.... no amount of youtube explanation videos can keep me updated

NO BC I HAVE SOME CHOICE WORDS W ZHONGLI and honestly, its only bc i was pissed he would always make me pay!!!! but i wasnt all that mad bc then childe would give me money #hearteyes ... i get zhongli wanted a break and he so deserved it but i did side eye him at the fake death hes so dramatic..... i love it

venti is the strongest of the three I AGREE..... but i have to say i just know Tsaritsa is going to be the baddest bitch and i am so excited bc shes going to be everything to me like i dont know what she is doing or what she is plotting but ill be on her side through it all!

oh speaking of drunk venti.... i know they make him so soft but I love seeing fanart of him during the catalyst like unhinged venti might have to be my favorite.... even if i do fall asleep during his dialogues im sorry that he talks and talks and talks... his voice is cute tho!

the connections between both barbatos..... theres something there but my brain cant connect the dots.... obey me seven sins equals seven archons confirmed, the end.... but add barbatos take out BEEL >:-)

#sarahandoikawatalkshit

[jjkyaoi]

why does wilbur soot look like that. who fucking. ALLOWED him to look like that. who allowed him to be alive?? & look? so perfect??? he has the perfect package of the fucking!!! EVERYTHING?? motherfucker has the fluffy hair, he has the height, he has the sense of style—whO ALLOWED THIS BITCH TO DRESS WELL?? TO KNOW HOW TO DRESS HIMSELF?? WHO ALLOWED HIM TO HAVE THAT LAUGH???? WHO. allOWED HIM TO BE THAT TALL???? & that HUGGABLE LOOKING? no. i’m done. fuck you. i hate him. i hate wilbur soot. this is a wilbur soot hate page

#/j #but also. not #i’m going through a crisis & im MAD about it #WAS HE SCULPTED BY THE GODS?? THIS IS FUCKING UNFAIR #i hate men #wilbur soot #mcyt #minecraft #can someone kill him?? i’m TIRED of looking at his fuckin. facE /j

[fivefeetfear]

Chp 9

……..

As I predicted the media was having a goddamn field day with the photos. Fucking damn it! I couldn’t be mad at anyone but myself! I should have been more careful! I don’t care if anyone thinks that I slept my way to the top, it’s hell. Everyone sleeps with everyone! That headline will be boring by the morning. I more concerned about Blitz. I’m worried about him. I just know he’s going to want to fight me about this. And I don’t have the energy for that.

I was waiting in my dressing room at Ozzies. Asmedous was able to escape here with his portal. He had body guards all around the building to keep the fans and paparazzis at bay. I was nervously waiting for Blitz to make his way over here.

“Hey toots you doing ok?” Fizzarolli asks his bells jingling softly with his moment. Im sitting on my love seat (quite literally, me and Fizz fucked here constantly) in deep thought.

“I am just nervous…before we started RR. Me and him kind of trauma bonded about you.” I admit. We talked so much shit about Fizzarolli. We were even close enough to making a Fizzarolli hate club with the two of us. Just slandering him every Friday night. Fizzarolli sat quietly next to me, I knew he didn’t know what to say. What could he say?

“I just know he’s going to throw this in my face and I really don’t want to hear it.” I toss a pillow over my face, I wish I could just disappear.

“If ya not in the mood to talk to him why even agree to meet up?” The jester question, I felt him climbing on top of me. He buries his face in my chest. Even in a time of crisis he still thinks with his dick.

“Hello because It’s Blitz! He’s my friend! And if I didn’t he would just break and enter into my home. I do not need that shit right now.” Fizz just groans, he removes the pillow from my face as he looks down at me blankly.

“You know you really shouldn’t let that bastard fuck with you like this.”

“Funny I was about to say the same shit.” Blitz voice cuts in. Fizz and I sat up to see Blitz at the door. I quickly shove the clown off me as I stand up.

“Blitz please don’t give me any shit right now. I don’t wanna fight.”

“Oh no I didn’t come to give you shit. I came to give HIM shit.” He shouts as he whips out his gun aiming it to Fizzarolli. The clown growls at Blitz action ready for a fight.

“WHOA WHOA B!” I shout standing in front for Fizzarolli.

“N/N I’m trying to fucking help you. I’m not going to let these fuckos prostitute you around here! I know this is some fucking sick deal the clowny ass fucker and his pimp made!” Blitz hisses still having his gun drawn. He slowly walks to the side to find any opening.

“Ya don’t know what the fuck your talking about Blitzo. But what do I expect from a shit drain failure like yourself.” I reach back and yank Fizzarolli hat down over his head.

“That’s not fucking helping you idiot!” I scorn.

“Keep talking you little bitch. I can’t wait to blow that smug ass smile off your cheap ass face!” Blitz yells as he cocks his gun. Fuck!

“I like to see you fucking try!”

“ENOUGH! Both of you just shut the fuck up!” I holler finally get them to be quiet.

“Blitz put the goddamn gun away! This isn’t some prostitution ring that’s happening. Me and Fizzarolli are working on things, ok!” I admit to him trying to avoid a fight. The red imp eyes widen in shock as he slowly lowers his weapon in disbelief.

“What?” Oh Satan this is going to be hard. With a heavy breath I began to explain the truth.

“We are trying to work on things B. I know this isn’t what you want to hear but after me and him talked, We thought we give it another shot.” Blitz rolls his eyes as he rubs his hands down his face in frustration.

“Oh give me a goddamn break Y/N.” He mutters to himself.

“You’re seriously going to give this jackass another chance? Hello! Don’t you remember the bullshit he’s put you through! Well let me give you a refresher. He lie to you, he stole from you, he CHEATED on you.” With each reason I felt like it was shot to the heart. The pain of betrayal began to boiling in my gut. But I kept a brave face as I defend my situation.

“I told you we’ve talked it out! He explain his side!” I argue trying to not let my past trauma reawaken.

“OH! What did he say sorry! HA! How many times did that dumb fuck said sorry to you and fucking meant it!”

Voices of Fizzarolli apologizing rang in my head. Each sorry echoing from the past from different situations. I shook the voices out not needing to relive those painful moments.

It was becoming overwhelming to listen to Blitz talk anymore. I wanted to move on! I wanted to fill the hole in my heart and be happy! Why couldn’t he just be happy for me!

“I just helped you write a song about how he fucked you over! And all the while you were fucking him! Why would you ever forgive someone like him!?”

“Like you are any different!” I shout back at him finally snapping.

“EVERY fucking relationship you had you blew it up! You did shitty things to unsuspecting people who truly cared for you! Maybe if you offered an apology and changed behavior you wouldn’t be in same fucking situations all the fucking time!” I spat at him seeing the imp shrink back. I walk closer to him and he only walk back until He.presses himself against the door as I tower over him furiously.

I saw Fizzarolli slowly steps forward, a look of concern resting upon his features

“Hey doll -“

“Shut the fuck up Fizzarolli.” Fizz nods as he slowly walks backwards not wanting to face my wrath.

“Don’t you forget, I forgave you. You were shitty to me too! So why am I allowed to forgive you but not him!?” I question. My heart was beating out rapidly in my chest and my breaths are heavy. We just stare each other down as the room grew quiet. I know we are both hurt, but we can’t keep doing this! We can’t allow pain and hatred to dictate our relationships or our future! But this wasn’t the way to have this conversation.

I took a few breaths as I closed my eyes to calm myself. Me screaming at him isn’t helping the situation. I slowly kneel down before my friend, I could see tears in the corner of his eyes. Ah fuck. I really didn’t want this. I reach out to comfort him but he easily ducks under my arm and away from me.

“Whatever. It’s seems like you made up your fucking mind. I was trying to protect you but it seems like you don’t need me. Have a great love affair and don’t say I didn’t fucking warn you.” The imp mumbles as he reach for the door knob. I lean forward and grabs his hand stopping him from leaving. I didn’t want things to end this way. This past month have been truly confusing but Blitz had been there helping me. He gave a pep talk when I needed it, he made me laugh and just all around makes my day a lot brighter. I’ve missed him and I don’t want to lose him again. I didn’t want to lose him or Fizzarolli. Why couldn’t we just go back to when we were younger. When the only thing we fought about was which Tv show to watch. Blitz looks up at me with a harsh scowl as he stood still waiting for me to talk. I made my last plead without even thinking.

“Please Blitz, I love him.” He sighs as he yanks his hand out of mines.

“And what good did that do you before?” Ouch. Blitz opens the door and closes it behind him. With a heavy sigh a lean back on the floor. My vision blurs up as silent tears fell. They slide down the sides my temples and into the my hair line. Fuck, fuck, fuck, FUCK!! Why couldn’t things just go right!? I know I am in hell but for fuck sakes was it a crime to be happy here!?

I could hear the mechanical whirling of Fizzarolli’s limb enhancers as he stretches over to me. He looks down at me with sad eyes as he lifts my head and places it gently on his lap.

“that was intense.” He mutters I sniffle loudly as I wiped my tears away.

“Yeah shit got a little too real.” Fizz lips flattens to a line as he strokes my hair. The energy in the room began to settle as we sat quietly. I allow myself relax under his touch as I took a moment to recollect myself.

“Soooooo you love me?” And relaxing time is over. I slowly peek open my eyes to see a smiling Fizzarolli. His sharp teeth is on full display as his as his pink eyes shine brightly. I could see his tail wagging behind him. Oh Satan he so adorable.

“I don’t know what you are talking about.” I say playing dumb.

“Oh you know exactly what I’m talking about! You said you love me!” He gushes happily poking my cheeks. I giggle at his excitement. He was basically bursting with joy. I reach up and poke his “nose” offering the sweetest smile I could manage.

“I never stopped dummy.” This sends the jester into a awe-ing fit as he wiggles in his spot. Oh jeez. Fizz leans forward and press a gentle kiss upon my lips. For a quick second I forgot about the aching in my heart from the fight. But when the kiss was done I was pulled into reality. With Blitz gone I didn’t want to go to the gluttony ring. I didn’t want to be alone. Not this time at least.

“I don’t want to go to the show tonight.” I mumble under my breath. Fizz bells jingles as he tilts his head to the side.

“Why? Because of Blitzo? Fuck that guy! You should still go! I can go with you.” The jester offers as he scoops me up in his arms with ease.

“No. I couldn’t ask you to come.”

“Why not?” He asks making his way to the couch. I fiddle with a strand of my hair as I loll my head back not wanting to look at him.

“Because the song I will be singing is about our break up. And I couldn’t ask you to sit there and suffer through that.” I explain not wanting to make him uncomfortable. The imp ohs softly to himself as he sat on the couch with me in his lap.

“Listen, Me listening to you sing for three minutes about how shittty I am is a lot fucking easier compare to what I put you through. Just Let me go so I can be there to support you.” This sweet motherfucker. He is about to make my heart melt. I couldn’t help the smile that grew on my face as I lean my head against his shoulder.

“Ok.” I answer.

………….

Asmedous allow me to get dress in his office. A few of the dancers help me with my hair and makeup which I appreciate! I was so nervous! I wanted to puke and roll over and die!! No matter how much I perform I could never shake the stage fright.

“Kitten you will be splendid tonight! I just wish I could see you perform.” Asmedous pouts as he held me in his palms.

“I know Momo I’m sorry. This was so last minute! Next time you will!” I promise. We were waiting for Ollie. He wanted to change his look to match me.

“Next time we are going in style! All of us in matching outfits!” The large demon muses thinking about our debate as a trouple. He’s so cute!

“I vote cowboy lingerie.” Fizz rough voice spoke as he enter the room looking dashingly ever. He wore a black and white jester outfit. The hearts and accents on his hat and top are a beautiful gold color paired with matted black heels. Whoa he look so fucking good! The clown easily stretches into Asmedous hands and wraps his arms around my hips.

“How do we look babe?” He asks the demon of lust. Asmedous just smiles happily as he plants a loving kiss to Fizzarolli lips.

“Like the devil himself Fizzy! Ok you two have fun! And keep our kitten safe.” Momo says to Fizzarolli as he adjusts his hat on his head and he moves on to me tucking a strand of hair behind my ear/horn.

“Good luck! I’ll see you two later!” Momo leans down and gave me a gentle kiss. I return his affection happily. How did I get so lucky with these two? Asmedous open a portal that led us directly into the Gluttony ring. When we walk through we were bombard with flashing lights from the paparazzi. They were shouting questions at us left and right as me and Fizz walked the small red carpet to the Self loathe Theater.

“Obscure and Fizzarolli are you making this debate as an actual couple!?”

“Fizz how does Asmedous feel about your side relationship?”

“Obscure who is better in bed?”

I roll my eyes as we walk past the annoying piranhas allowing the other guest to walk by in hopes we will be ignored. Once inside the grand theater I took a deep breath mentality preparing myself for whats to come. I just want to sing and leave that is the plan.

“You ok there doll?” Fizz ask as he held my hand. I feel like he’s been asking that a lot lately, which fair I’ve been better. With a deep breath from the nose I release all the nerves and tension.

“Yeah just… if you get uncomfortable and want to leave during it. I’ll understand.” Fizz groans loudly as he leans back nearly touching the ground.

“That this again. Ok you need to seriously stop. I am here for you, ok? So you better get fuckin use to it sweet heart.” With a sharp tug of my wrist Fizzarolli pulls me into his arms for a deep loving kiss. I instantly melt as I close my eyes and kiss him back. His hands travel down my back to my ass. With a hard squeeze he lifts me off my feet. I squeak softly as I broke the kiss.

“Ollie.” I whine wrapping my arms around him not wanting to fall out of his arms. The clown only gave me a sly smirk as he pins me against the wall.

“I can’t wait to take this frilly shit off ya and fuck your pretty lil pussy.~” oh fuck that was hot. my face flashes red as I swat his shoulder.

“FIZZ! Behave!” I order creating some space between us. More his protection they way he was looking at me. Like he wants to devour me. I love the sharp glint in his eyes. It always got me going. Fizzarolli just cackles as he places me down on the floor.

“Sorry hot stuff. I just get carried away some times~ I’ll keep it PG13.” He promise as he offer me his elbow.

“Come on babe, you have a bunch of uptight sons of bitches to impress.”

…….

Fizzarolli escort me to the back where I was preparing to open the show before He went to find his seat in the nose bleeds. I was a little anxious to sing this specific song with him here. It was something me and Blitz created to help release some pent up emotions. It was very difficult to write it knowing I was still seeing him. Now there this added pressure knowing he is here to hear it. I just hope it doesn’t change things between us.

“Hello Obscure. I am big fan!” The host greets me. He took my hand a plants a few kisses on my knuckles. Ok? This is uncomfortable.

“Oh that’s….nice. I’ve seen some of your work. You are pretty good too.” I say awkwardly slowly taking back my hand.

“Oh That’s high praise coming from you listen after the show I would love to take you for dinner or drinks?” Oh no, he’s asking me on a date.

“Oh wow. That’s sweet but I’m sure you heard I’m seeing a couple of people right now.” I answer rocking on my toes and heels not knowing what to do with myself.

“Oh I didn’t take those photos seriously. I thought it was like a fun business relationship kind of deal.” My smile then drops instantly as I slowly back away.

“No, I’m currently seeing them. It’s nothing official yet, but it will get there.” I want to leave. The host laughs as he shrugs his shoulders coolly.

“Ok, but I wouldn’t keep my hopes up. They are Notorious for having flings here and there. I’m sure you’re no different.” Ok I’m done with this conversation. I place my hands in front of me as I began to walk away.

“Ok this conversation is over. Don’t take to me again asshat.”

“Ohhh I’m like them feisty.” He shouts to my retreating figure. I growl at him as I walked away and wait for me to be called onto stage. After a while pencil dick went on stage to start the show. It wasn’t nearly as entertaining as Fizzarolli.

“Ok ladies and gentlemen coming to the stage is OBSCURE HEART!” And there was my que. I lift my head as I walk to the stage. The audience welcome me with a few lazy claps. How warming.

“YAY OBSCURE! FUCK IT UP!!!” Fizz shouts as he leans over the railing without a care in the world. I shook my head as a giggle escape my lips. Once in the middle of the stage The room went dark and a soft white spot light shines down on me. With a deep breath I straighten myself up and was ready. The sound of a piano began to fill the empty spaces in the theater with a mournful tune.

I am done

Smoking gun

We've lost it all

The love is gone

She has won

Now its no fun

We've lost it all

The love is gone

My voice carrier throughout the building gracefully. This song is more personal than the others I sang. It was intended to help close that chapter in my life. But now as I sing it I felt like a fraud. I was lying to my younger self that was in need of closure. My voice shook a couple of times as I tried to find a spot to focuses my eyes so I may drown these past feelings out. But I kept darting my eyes around in hopes of seeing Blitz.

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected,

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our life's been changed

Babe, you lost me

I was doing my best to keep my tears from falling. I didn’t expect to get emotional but everything I have gone through in the past because of Fizzarolli was raising back up. It was so painful to not look at him. I couldn’t stop the voices in my head from blaming him. It is his fault for these hurtful memories.

And though we tried

Oh how we cried

We lost ourselves

The love has died

And though we tried

You can't deny

We're left as shells

We lost the fight

And we had magic

And this is tragic

As I lost myself into the music I shifted my gazes up to the nose bleeds and easily spotting a Fizzarolli. The express on his face was heart wrenching. The large smile that he always dawn is no where to be found and his eyes held so much remorse. A part of me is happy that he seems to actually regret what he had done, that he feels the heavy burden I have carried all these years. And the other half is proud That he grown enough to acknowledges it and wants to do better. He isn’t blaming his past mistakes on anyone else but himself. But Even so, I couldn’t stop the one memory that shatter my heart from coming to forefront of my mind. I remember it so clearly. Fizz had went to an after party and I was up waiting for him to get home. Then an unknown number had sent me a photo of him naked in bed with another girl. She had taken a photo of a sleeping Fizz on her large breast. She smiled happily to the camera with a simple message.

He’s all mine sweetie~

And when I confronted him he played dumb. It was until I showed him the photo that he admitted. I cried so hard. I cried and cried. Even when I knew he was destroying me. I couldn’t bring myself to break up with him, my stupid heart wanted to fix it! It didn’t matter what he said or did! I was madly in love with him. The thought of him leaving me almost about killed me! How fucking pathetic is that!

All these new and old feelings sent me into a spiral. My mind was running a mile a minute as my breathing nearly stops. My whole body began to tense up, my throat about ready to close up. It took every fiber in my body to not sob on stage. I had to push through. I had to keep it the fuck together. Allowing a few tears to escape my eyes I belt out the next line as I gaze up at Fizzarolli releasing my sorrows.

You couldn’t keep your hands to yourself

Oh, I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our life's been changed

'Cause babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry

And we were sweet

But you chose lust when you deceived me

And you'll regret it, but it's too late

How can I ever trust you again?

I couldn’t contain my emotions. This song was supposed to be soft, graceful performance. But instead it was emotional, passionate one as I unleashed my pain through my powerful vocals. Reaching notes I never touch. I was clenching my dress close to me, my eyes red while mascara tears run down my face. I am just letting everything all out.

I feel like our world's been infected,

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our life's been changed

Oh babe, you lost me

When the quiet room roars with applause. I was gasping softly to catch my breath. It’s over, I did it. Flowers of all kind were being thrown on stage as the cheers kept coming. The audience got on their feet for me making my chest warm up with gratitude. I wipe the tears away as I took my bows feeling overwhelmingly proud of myself. Before I made my exit off the stage, I cast my eyes over to the nose bleed to see Fizzarolli reaction, but he was gone.

……

Oohhhh that’s a heavy one!! I hope you guys like it! @rigby-raffish I hope this clears things up….or does it.

You Lost me by Christina Aguilera

So for the mistakes

#asmodeus x fizzarolli #fizzarolli helluva boss #fizzarolli reader #fizzarolli love story #fizzarolli x reader #fizzarolli #helluvaboss #helluva boss story #fizzarollixreaderxasmodeus

[stanknotstark]

Commanding Loki (just kind of happens)

Summary: You’re not really sure how it happens but you begin commanding Loki, the God of Mischief, around. To everyone’s shock, he happily obliges to your commands. 

The first time you do it in front of the Avengers they all kind of stop in shock.

"Loki, get me a soda before you sit down." You told rather than asked the God.

You were too busy looking at a tablet Tony had lent you to see him stop in his tracks. He glared at the Avengers looking at him, ready to attack him as if he was thinking about attacking you for giving him an order. They weren't wrong but only because you did it in front of everyone. Probably.

He got you a soda and sits next to you, rolling his eyes at your nonchalant thanks. 

The next time it happened was kind of a life or death situation.

"Loki, leave the room right now and calm yourself," You checked Thor's pulse through the gushing blood which made him slippery as an eel, "You either calm yourself and I’ll let you back in or you can sit out there like a petulant child. Go."

Natasha looked at you as if you were crazy, her hands pressing a t-shirt to Thor’s wound tightly. Loki heeded her no mind though and did as you told him.

He was welcomed back within 15 minutes.

Next, you do it more to push boundaries because Natasha had a conversation with you after Thor's fiasco. She's finds it quite funny that he obeys you like it's second nature but if anyone else dared do it he wouldn't hesitate to threaten their life. Trust me, Tony had wanted to test his boundaries and tried to do it too. Needless to say, Tony wouldn't be doing it again any time soon, he was still pissy some very expensive pieces of furniture got destroyed.

So one day while you and Loki are hanging out with Natasha, like you all consistently do because you three enjoy silence but companionship at the same time. You look across at Nat and grin, making sure Loki doesn't see it and commence your plan.

"Loki," Loki looks up from his book on midguardian foods newly introduced from 1996 to 2010, a questioning frown on his face, "Pass me the remote."

It's simple enough, nothing too strenuous. Yet.

"You have two perfectly functioning arms." Loki mutters but grabs the remote and gives it to you. You give him a genuine smile and you can see he has gone soft in the eyes before he looks at his book again. 

You glance at Nat with raised brows, she looks away with a smirk as you turn on the TV. Flicking through channels you finally settle on reruns of Stranger Things. Natasha gets interested and you kind of watch but mostly you're thinking about commanding Loki to do something else but what? Loki keeps looking at his book but you see him glancing up often to watch the show too.

"Hey, Cowboy," Loki growls at the name, it had come up when Thor told you he used to call him a cow for his horns, "Don’t sit like that you'll get scoliosis....if a God can get that." Loki who had slouched forwards blinked at you and sat up straight in shock from the bad posture. When you see him glower at the TV you smile, he's probably cursing midguardians for ruining his good posture.

"Thanks." You whisper.

Loki hums carelessly and puts his book down to instead watch the show. Natasha coughs into her hand (a hidden laugh, you knew Nat too well), Loki eyes her suspiciously, looks at you, then focuses back on the TV. You force yourself, with great resolve might you add, to not laugh. You let things settle again before you try the ultimate command.

"Ugh." You start, rolling your right shoulder around and poking at it as if it hurts. You're literally about to tell Loki to massage it for you but you’re struck by paralyzing shock. Loki had noticed your 'discomfort' and moved closer to you. Lifting his hands towards your shoulder he stopped and looked at you with a tilted brow, asking consent. 

Aww how sweet.

You nodded and shifted so he had better access to your back. One hand landed between your shoulders on your back and the other pinching the area where your shoulder met your arm and began massaging.

Shocked you let him staring at the TV but not knowing what is going on on the show. Loki and you had touched before so it's not so out in the left field that you're concerned but he was massaging you in front of Natasha. Your thoughts turned to mush as he pushes and pulls your body so he could access all of your back and starts massaging your entire back. You couldn't help the little whimpers and soft moans of delight. Not only was this man a God but he was literally gifted God like hands, unfair!

After letting out another whimper Loki stopped. You felt him shift back to his original spot and so you did too. Glancing at him you saw a hint of flushed cheeks as he stared at the TV distantly. Natasha was outright staring at him with both eyebrows raised to her hairline, it looked like.

Loki cleared his throat and left with an offhand excuse.

Once Loki left the area Natasha's eyes fell onto you. She smirked lecherously but said nothing about what had just happened. Turning her attention back to the show when you shrugged your shoulders, completely flustered. 

She asks, "So like, I don’t doubt Will is going to be found but does Barbara make it?"

You smile and settle into the couch, "You'll find out in a few episodes."

Natasha groans and you laugh. You know she hates not knowing but if she's truly desperate she can look it up on Google or ask Jarvis.

The next time you command him it's another crisis. 

In short, Thor and Loki are arguing, both clearly in a ferocious rage in the kitchen. All the team is there to experience it this time too.

"No, Thor, I cannot simply understand why you would defend those inept idiots you call friends. If you think they're in the right you’re more brainless than I thought!" Loki yells at Thor who now looks like a kicked puppy and your motherly instincts kick in.

"Hey!" Loki looks at you shocked, this is the highest he's ever heard your voice, and probably the angriest too because you just don’t get mad. You have the patience of a Buddha God, Tony likes to say. 

"You apologize to him right now, then you will listen to what your brother has say, and if you interrupt him I will show you just how minuscule a God can be to a non believer."

The entire kitchen is silent. Tony looks like he wants to flee the area, he's been on your angry side once before. Steve is practically engraving the table with his eyes. Natasha shrugs and continues eating her meal, the utensils clipping the plate the only noise in the room.

Loki looks at Thor and raises a brow. Thor, still looking at you, swallows and begins to talk, focusing on his brother again. 

"Im trying to learn but I don’t know how to stay neutral between your feelings and my friend's-"

Loki opens his mouth but slams it shut when you snap your fingers.

"-i do not want to offend anyone but every choice i make I offend you and I’m sorry brother, I truly am. What can I do to amend things between us?"

Loki glances at you to see if he may talk now. At your nod he says, "Start by supporting your brother sometimes. I don't ask that you stand behind every argument between your friends and I but you never fail to support them, it seems. You can't please everybody Thor, and you can't stay neutral forever, at some point you have to realize that you have to pick a side and who's side."

Thor has lost to kicked puppy look but he now frowns and nods, staring at the floor with guilt. Loki's hand comes up, hesitates, then he places it on Thor's arm for a second and swiftly leaves.

When no one moves for a few seconds you clear your throat and they all go back to whatever they were doing before the argument escalated out of proportion, you included.

You realize you may have tiptoed the line of being fair with that last command so you let it rest for awhile, give Loki some space. He of course notices your avoidance because Tony had asked you what was up between you both, stating that the God had asked him if anything was bothering you. Usually Loki came to you with his concerns, not being the type of person to talk behind someone’s back. 

You sigh and tell Tony you’re fine, that you’ll talk to him. So you head out from Tony’s lab and search for Loki. He isn’t in the living room, kitchen, or even his own bedroom. You remember him once stating that he likes read on the roof sometimes, Tony had build Loki a garden up on the roof at one point since Loki clearly missed the garden from home, Asgard. A small gesture but a true turning point for both Tony and Loki’s relationship you think. 

Walking out on the roof you don’t see Loki in the garden so you murmur a few expletives and make your way back to the door when a voice calls out your name. You follow the sound and find Loki hidden on a corner of the roof, sitting on the edge of the building. 

Walking up behind him you ask, “Can we talk?”

“You’ve never asked before, don’t see why you’d start now.” Loki says, no contempt in his voice though, it’s just very...neutral. 

You force out a small laugh, hearing your own tenseness in it, “Ya, about that..”

You sit next to Loki letting your legs dangle over the ledge like Loki does now. His legs kick every once in awhile giving him an almost childlike appearance. 

“First off, I’m sorry.”

“For what?” Loki looks at you.

“I was out of line the other day with you and Thor. Not just then I’ve been, well, commanding you to do things for me and that’s...it’s not...right?” You finish lamely, your face a big grimace but you look Loki in the eyes when you apologize.

“That’s why you’ve been avoiding me?” Loki says with mirth lingering in his words. 

“Well, ya, is there some other reason I should have?” You squint at him suspiciously.

“No.”

Loki looks at you with an innocent look on his face, which you know is pure bullshit, but you let it slide. Shaking your head with a smile you then look out across the open skyline below you. 

“Apology accepted.” Loki says after some time has past. Your shoulders, which had tensed involuntarily, now relax. 

You don’t react, well more like force yourself not to, when you feel Loki’s hand come to rest atop yours which had been supporting you on the ledge. Loki lets his hand rest there before he gets more confident and intertwines both of your fingers. You smile, finally looking at Loki who is already staring at you brazenly. 

“Kiss me.” 

“What?”

“Did I fucking stutter?”

Loki smirks then leans in, his left hand coming to cradle your head at your jaw and kisses you. At first softly, as if testing the waters, then begins to put more passion behind it as you lean into him. His tongue gently swipes across your bottom lip and you open your mouth to let him explore. 

If you thought this man had God like hands....

When you’re both breathless you part but keep your faces close together. Your eyes roam over his face, noting how young he looks right now, how vulnerable, and bite your lip. Loki’s eyes drop to your lips and uses a thumb to pull your lip from your teeth lest you bruise them more. “Don’t bite them, it is my job to bruise them.” Loki says breathlessly. 

Much later, when it’s dark out, you both come back into the tower and make your way to the living room. The first person you see is Natasha who, legit, smiles at the look of you two. Tony who notices Nat smiling looks where she’s looking and whistles at the two of you who decide to share a love seat. 

“Shut up.” You command the two of them. 

You were sure the both of you made a pretty funny picture. Your hair was most likely tousled, too much so to just be from the wind, and Loki’s lips were nearly purple with bruising so no doubt yours were any less. Not to mention the both of you were too incredibly happy, which ya you being happy is normal but it was almost an alarming amount of giddiness and Loki doesn’t normally show his emotions so openly like this. 

Tony smirks, raises a brow and points the remote at the TV. “Stranger Things?” 

You, very much flustered, clear your throat and say yes. 

#loki x reader #loki odinson #loki #reader insert #one shot #avengers #tony stark #natasha romanov #my writing #dudes i literally had this thought pop in my head while out eating dinner with my family for mothers day #and i was constantly picking up and putting down my phone to write it all in my notes #like i always have the best ideas while out doing something or when people need my attention gdi #but enjoy #commanding loki (just kinda happens)

[teddybearty]

Hey um

Thank you for your most recent post

Im sorry if this this sounds weird or is too much but I genuinely desperately needed somebody else to also agree to ignore this abhorrent piece of shit of a game. I've like genuinely been in mental health crisis over hifumi since yesterday. Like i wanted to just ignore the game too because originally i was literally not even going to play it or consume any content for it but then I found out about Hifumi and. i was scared that ignoring the entire gross ass game wasnt valid and that people were gonna get mad at me and think that i support the horrible shit "hifumi" said in s or something. Seeing the tags on your pinned post made me feel a lot better. I literally am starting to cry. Thank you so much.

Hey it’s no problem...

To be completely honest, I was just as upset as you are. I was completely heartbroken when I saw what he said...

This boy is my HIGHEST KIN and BIGGEST COMFORT and I felt broken and devastated. I tried drawing other things (you know non-Danganronpa) and I was enjoy myself but the passion wasn’t there. That stupid shitty game was all I could think about, I didn’t know what to do for a few days.

I was still feeling miserable until I read your ask and I nearly cried waiting for my ride home from work. 

I’m still struggling with drawing Hifumi. It used to come so easy to me before and since then, it’s been kinda hard ngl. It’s so hard now, it has never been this hard but I’m going to fight through it because what “he” said isn’t canon. 

DRS isn’t canon.

So I’m gonna just pretend that it never existed (apart from SOME of the swimsuit designs because some of them are cute)

#hifumi yamada #danganronpa #drthh #danganronpa s #anonymous #teddy talks #drs #slight vent #teddy’s art #teddy’s artwork #digital art #i plan on replaying thh #just to rid the filth that is drs out of my mind #i also have more things to complain about drs #so i can fully get it off my chest #teddy hates danganronpa s #new tag for this shit bc i'm probably gonna talk about it a lot

[gingerthesimp]

Heartless monster

Nate Jacobs x Reader

Warnings: kinda toxic relationship, slight cursing, mention of rape, drug use, violence and some smut at the end

Summary: Nate and y/n have been dating for a few months. She´s the complete opposite of every other girl her boyfriend has dated before. And when she wants to make it public he doesn’t approve, so she decides to make him jealous. Seems like her plan worked...  

Nate <3: im a mckays right now. i will pick u up a bit later.

“Fucking idiot!”, I muttered under my breath after taking a hit from my mango flavored puff bar. A million thoughts coursed through my head, “Is he really at McKay’s? What does later mean? IS HE TALKING TO OTHER GIRLS?” This is the real me. Insecure, nervous and possessive. I’m not the cocky bitch everyone sees in me.

 I tried to call Nate a few times but of course he had other things to do. After lying on my bed and waiting for him to call for another 20 minutes I decided to get up and go to Fez’ shop since he is one of my best friends. I was sure at least he would be happy to see me. 

 “Mom? I’m meeting a friend of mine. See you later.”, I shouted after putting on my shoes. My mother was currently in a little midlife crisis and didn’t want to communicate with anyone and I respect that. 

 The walk to Fezco’s shop didn’t take long and I honestly really enjoy walking in the dark, even if I was risking getting raped or even worse. 

 “y/n! What are you doing here?”, Fez exclaimed after I opened the door to the little gas station and before coming up to hug me. “Oh you know Fezzie, I was bored again.”

 Fezzie. He absolutely despises that name but still lets me call him like that. 

”Well, feel free to stay here if you want then.“, he invited me. We then shared a little blunt and talked about random shit like always. After what seemed like an hour or so we saw a white truck pulling up in the driveway.

 “Wait....that’s Nate‘s car!“, I remembered. He picks me up sometimes with it so of course I would remember. But I didn’t say anything.

Instead one of the maybe dumbest but also greatest ideas came into my mind. I started kissing Fez on the neck. "Please, just make out with me. I know it`s weird but I need your help right now.“, I pleaded. The ginger haired boy looked like he wanted to say something but then decided to just play along. Fezco put his arms around my waist and started shoving his tongue inside my mouth. 

Suddenly I heard the door open. “Y/N WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING!” , Nate Jacobs shouted while looking likes he’s about to explode. His jaw clenched and his fists balled. Me and Fezco stopped kissing and I turned to Nate, smiling innocently, “Why are you so furious? It’s not like I have a boyfriend or anything, right?” “Oh y/n, you are going to regret this very soon!”, he stated angry. And now Fez decided to speak up, “Calm down man, it’s not like she owes you anything.” “Don’t tell me what to do! Nobody asked for your opinion anyways.”, Nate exclaimed before punching my friend right in the face.

 I decided to step in before it could get worse, “NATE STOP! IT WAS MY FAULT! HE DIDNT DO ANYTHING!” Nate chuckled a bit before answering: “Well sweetheart, looks like you should`ve thought about that before practically fucking him in front of me.” Now I got really mad. FUCK HIM? We weren`t even close to doing that. Just as he wanted to hit Fezco another time I grabbed his arm. “Please stop hurting him. Do it for me, if you really love me.” Seems like my words made him realize he’s doing a mistake so he left Fez alone. Instead Nate grabbed my wrist harshly and I could only shout a quick, “I’m so sorry, I will explain later” to Fezco before getting dragged out of the shop.

 “Why did you make such a scene?”, I asked irritated. Nate just huffed clearly annoyed and didn’t speak to me until we reached his truck. “Get in.“, he ordered while opening the door for me.

 After a while he finally spoke up, “Why?“. “I don’t want to hide anymore, Nate. Why can’t you just tell the truth? Tell everyone that we´re in love?” I asked on the verge of tears and looking at my boyfriend for the first time today. “I do love you, y/n. I really love you. But I just can`t. We’re very different, you’re not like the other girls I’ve dated before.” “You can`t? Or are you just a fucking pussy? Scared of what daddy´s gonna think of you when it turns out you´re dating an outcast? Fuck you, Nate. I don`t need you anymore. You´re a stupid little spoiled boy who knows nothing about life.”, I screamed and when I tried to slap him he pinned my arms above my head with one hand and started choking me with his other one. “If I was you I would be careful with my words. I invented you. Nobody knew your name before me, so don´t be a ungrateful whore.”, my boyfriend whispered in my ear and just as I couldn´t breathe anymore he pulled his hands away.

 I pushed the passenger door open and exited the vehicle. “You´re a heartless monster, Jacobs!”, I cried with tears streaming down my face.

Then I ran home. 

-time skip 30 minutes-

I was scrolling through Twitter when I suddenly got a facetime call from Kat. I´m pretty close with her but she doesn´t know I´m dating Nate. 

When I accepted it I saw that she was filming my boyfriend, they were at McKay´s party and he was standing in the middle of the livingroom, talking about me. “I wanted to tell you all that me and y/n are dating.”, he shouted and clearly everyone in the room was as shocked as me when I heard what he said. “And we´re truly in love. y/n is an amazing girl and none of us actually deserve her. So if you can´t accept the fact that we are happy together you better shut up!, and with that Nate exited the room. 

Kat flipped the camera and looked more then surprised, “What the actual frick y/n? When did you plan on telling me that?”

I explained everything to her as fast as I could and then got up and ran to McKay´s house.

I felt the need to apologize to Nate for everything I did tonight. I was a real cunt.

-time skip 3 minutes-

When I got there I just saw him getting into his truck, “Nate wait!” He turned around and looked at me surprised, but I could see the little smirk that formed in the corner of his mouth. 

When I got to him I kissed my lover hard on the lips and he kissed me back. It was a long, passionate kiss. “I´ve been waiting to do that the whole day.”, he admitted and we got in his car. 

On the way to my house Nate put his hand on my thigh as always. But suddenly I felt it moving closer and closer to my clothed core and a moan escaped my lips. “You like that?”, he asked, giving me a playful wink. I could only nod when he put his large hand under my miniskirt and pulled down my red lace panties. 

When he stuck one of his calloused fingers in my tight hole and started rubbing my clit with the other ones I reached for Nate´s soft brown hair and gripped it as hard as I could. He quickly parked on the nearest free space and let`s just say it was a very long night.

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omg guys! that`s the first fanfic i`ve ever written. i know it´s not the best but i still hope you enjoyed reading it as much as i enjoyed writing it! anyways, feel free to send me requests on what i should write next. :)

-nicole

#euphoria #fanfic #fanfics #fanfiction #x reader #nate jacobs #jacob elordi #euphoria fanfic #fezco x reader #euphoria smut #couple #couple goals #imagine #euphoria imagine #nate jacobs imagine #nate x reader

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6x13: The Gauntlet

Two enjoyable episodes back-to-back? I'm shook! Obviously 6x13 lacks the serious messaging and emotional weight of last week's episode but the silliness of it was actually entertaining. My thoughts:

- opening scene is a supercorp hug. christ y'all need to warn people! i was not ready. the way kara's face lit up when she saw lena, the way lena smiled back at her. the way they hugged fully pressed. my heart is full.

- kara n lena immediately whisking away to the fortress right after that for some alone time. i love where your head is at kara 😏

- look at dansen being all cute and shit! who gave them the right honestly?

- glad they continued with kelly still processing the stuff from last episode. and alex is really trying to do better. dansen is the example to follow when it comes to healthy adult relationships. i really didn't think this show was capable.

- it's getting harder and harder to like andrea

- i actually forgot willy was shot last season. and they worked through his trauma off screen. what was the point of showing him getting a blast of courage if we weren't going to see him face his fears and shit. y'all really don't like deep topics huh.

- andrea: where's the journalist i hired?

apparently crisis changed him from a stalkery dickhead to the nice baking guy he is now. sorry girl. valid question tho

- can i just say that everyone was looking exceptionally hot in this episode? like lena, kelly and nxyly in particular jesus help me.

- i haven't enjoyed j'onn this much in so long. he was hilarious. letting that mad scientist lady plummel him in the chest, saying "hold that thought", not moving away from the dragon fire.

- brainy possessed by veeta you could tell jesse was told to just have fun with it

- also did this kryptonian witch just say 'ya mon'?

- lena looking all smol and shit with her little white sneakers and soft clothes and her waterfall hair. kara! kiss this woman already!

- kara in the suit talking privately with lena. honestly never thought i'd see the day

- kara: you really don't believe in magic?

lena: i believe in you

NO ONE TOUCH ME!!!

- this seriously tho this is such a true statement. they both have believed in each other from minute one, when they had no reason to. and yea lena tried to hate kara for a little while but even then, she never stopped believing in kara's compassion and optimism and kara never stopped believing in lena's goodness and brilliance. just say the words 'i love you' explicitly please.

- interesting that kara's test of courage takes place during her rescuing alex's plane and not idk...all the times she was too scared to tell lena. she thinks it's that one random dude she didn't save and not the times with lena (something she admits terrified her). the only thing i can think of for this moment they chose is because yes kara embraced her powers that night but she didn't step out into the public eye as herself, as the last daughter of krypton. she wasn't vulnerable in that respect. because she was scared to be discovered. because she grew up with that fear and need to fit in (she talks about that in later S1). but i will only accept this IF the show ends with kara stepping out into the world fully and no longer having to hide or deny parts of herself. but i also don't see how you make the courage test about telling lena and not have that end with kara admitting she's in love with her so. that might be why.

- nxyly's courage test was actually very sad. i feel for her truly it's not fair what happened. but her being vulnerable about her feelings is interesting because kara still hasn't learned how to do that

- lena having some convenient device to contain the totem just cuz kara needs it. we love handy and resourceful girlfriends

- what was the point of having lena at the museum if she wasn't gonna be affected? y'all copped out!

- that device that was harnessing lightning also somehow made lightning? is that how it works?

- i ASCENDED when i saw alex and lena being the only ones at kara's bedside. like straight out of fanfiction wtf. how many more times are they going to establish that the two most important people in kara's life is alex (her sister and ride or die) and lena (her best friend and perfect partner). how many times before you make this shit canon?!?!

- 'a reluctant earth witch' it's a very interesting way to pronounce lena luthor

- but also, y'all are telling me that a human witch can tap into imp magic? reality warping magic? all-powerful magic? fuck, lena is really on her way to becoming the most powerful being on the planet

- kelly showing up because lena called. im gonna go ahead and assume this indicates that lena and kelly have also spoken about lena ignoring her message. and that they had a meaningful discussion about it and what happened at the ormfell. because as much as i love lena, she deserved to be dragged just as much (if not more) as the superfriends.

- kelly shielding alex was a good visual. kinda stupid but nice.

- dansen couch scene i stopped breathing cuz i swore kelly was about to propose. i love them so much

- supercorp couch scene is where i died because it came at me without warning. kara sans glasses in her civilian clothes. not performing as kara danvers or supergirl. here she's just kara, an alien refugee chilling with her best friend. which is all she ever wanted and she deserves it!

- kara handing lena her plate. stop it!

- but also lena is in the same clothes all episode. which means they left the tower together. and headed straight to kara's apartment. lena definitely slept over in kara's pjs. I'M NOT OKAY!

- this is the first couch scene we got since alex n kara in 6x08. where Kara admits she doesn't want to be alone anymore. and now she isn't because lena is back. god i actually can't.

- kara's face when lena tells her about being a witch. she's so smitten! they're in love your honour

- lena saying that kara is the epitome of courageous with such seriousness and intensity. even though kara tries to brush it off cuz she can't really agree right now, lena means it 100%

- lena's sad face when kara wanted to stay connected to nxyly even though she could get hurt. worried wife energy we love to see it

- poor nxyly must be confused asf

- but also it's canon that kara feels hopeful and happy around lena and no one can take that from me. and it's not just words. kara's behavior is different, she's smiling more, she's opening up. acting choices melissa explain yourself!

not bad at all. we were fed lots of supercorp after months of nothing. they better keep up this momentum. it was lighter episode in terms of emotions and what have you compare to pervious ones. seems like the season is officially kicking off now that lena is back. probably going to have a totem of the week kinda deal but hopefully they include kelly's storyline with the heights cuz i wanna see the conclusion of that.

#supergirl #supercorp #dansen #kara danvers #lena luthor #kelly olsen #alex danvers #brainy #nia nal #6x13 spoilers

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enhypen as baristas

maknae line x gn!reader (comedy, fluff, mild angst)

~1.2k words ea (headcanons)

warnings: cursing

a/n: i just wrote this for funsies, please be mindful that there is heavy swearing in these headcanons (particularly in ni-ki’s part), so if that isn’t your taste, perhaps skip this one! other than that, the rest of this is pretty chill, so i hope you enjoy my shitposting. oh, and lmk if you like this enough to want part two with the hyung line 👀 just maybe i’ll do it

sunoo

was only recently employed as an afternoon shift employee and was both shocked and distressed after discovering the cafe didnt have an instagram

“what do you MEAN you dont have instagram??? how do we post selfies???” “sunoo we sell coffee” “NO ONE WANTS COFFEE JUNGWON THEY WANT CUTE BARISTAS”

starts an instagram for the cafe and takes aesthetic pictures of his latte art

his selfies get way more likes though

speaking of his latte art, he masters the skill like a week in and everyone else is incredibly jealous

their jealousy wears off when jungwon tells him that he has to start training the new apprentices

pretends he forgot how to do it for like a week but it hurts his pride so he begrudgingly agrees to train the apprentices instead

in his free time he can be found snapping pictures around the shop, eventually expanding to taking pictures of the others too

“sunghoon stop moving you look cute and i need to take a photo” “sunoo im holding hot milk” “does it look like i care beauty is pain sweetie”

other than that, he sometimes sits in the booths to snack on muffins and do his homework since he only comes in to the shop for about an hour during his school lunch break and on the weekends

you meet sunoo after applying for an apprenticeship, wanting to get a job before you finish high school and start college

seen as though jungwon looks like the boss, you approach him, nervous for your first shift

“i’m here for the apprenticeship program?” “oh yeah! one second!”

he trots off to the back room, leaving you standing awkwardly in the middle of the cafe

“SUNOO GET OFF JAY YOU HAVE AN APPRENTICE TO TRAIN” “*gasp* YOU MADE ME SMUDGE HIS LIPSTICK I'M QUITTING” “NO YOURE NOT GET OUT THERE RIGHT NOW”

the yelling pauses before who you presume is sunoo stomps through the back room door, a scowl on his face

he spots you, groaning loudly “are you the apprentice?”

“yes” you say meekly, guilty for seeming to ruin his shift

he gestures you to follow him behind the counter, pulling an apron out from under the sink and shoving it to your chest

its clear that hes pissed, yanking his tools out from the cupboards as you tie your apron behind your back quietly

“have you made coffee before?” “only instant coffee” “oh fantastic”

he seems to be getting more irritated by the minute before he takes a deep breath and starts directing you around the machines

“to do the art, you angle the mug like this and draw with the milk, but it wont show until it reaches the top so dont go crazy”

as if its nothing, he demonstrates by drawing a perfect swan in the milk, setting the latte down and dusting his hands off

“wow… thats amazing” “i know right? no one here appreciates me enough” “they should! this is the best i’ve ever seen”

he grins at your compliment, nodding with satisfaction and sending a wave of relief over you as you notice he looks less angry with you now

“um… im sorry if i interrupted whatever you were doing before” “oh, that? i was just doing jay’s makeup” “you like makeup? me too! i’ve never seen a boy interested in it though, thats really cool” you smile genuinely at him as he blinks in surprise

“really? you think its cool?” “definitely!”

you watch the gears turn in his head before he smiles widely, seeming to have come to some kind of revelation as he nods

“i like you.”

your cheeks heat up immediately, but before you can say anything in return, he starts calling out for jungwon, leaning over the counter

“JUNGWOOON, CAN WE HAVE THIS ONE?”

“well thats up to them” he looks up from the table hes wiping down, adjusting his apron as he walks over to the counter

“so youre all finished with the course? i hope sunoo wasnt too much for you”

“i wasnt! anyways, youre employed, okay?” “sunoo stop theyre just an apprentice”

he groans loudly, irritated once more as he whips his head to you

“you have to work here, ok? i said so, so come back and apply or i’ll be mad!”

you laugh at his antics and smile “i’ll see what i can do”

after jungwon pries sunoo off of your arm, you return your apron and leave the shop with a wave

“YOU BETTER COME BACK!” is the last thing you hear as you step out onto the street, the bell ringing to signal your exit

a week later, you return to the shop, slightly anxious that your new friend(?) might have forgotten about you

but this is quickly washed away when you hear a high pitched squeal from the counter

“JUNGWON! HURRY THE FUCK UP AND GET THE FORMS THEYRE HERE”

you laugh as you approach the counter, a teasing tone on your voice

“are you supposed to be talking to your boss like that?” “whats he gonna do? fire me? im the only one who can make coffee in this place” “true”

soon enough, jungwon comes out of his hiding place, his hands clasped together

“im really sorry to ask this but please, you have to work here, sunoo hasnt shut up about you all week and i dont know if i can stand him anymore, i’ll even pay you extra please dear god”

you give sunoo a look, only receiving an innocent smile and puppy eyes back

“sure, i’ll take the job!”

jungwon sighs in relief as sunoo begins jumping up and down, yelling something about having his own little baby to take care around the shop as you groan, covering your blushing face

once you have your hours established (sunoo made you take the same as all of his, but you did the nights instead of the afternoons on the weekends, to his displeasure), you get straight to working

… well, sort of

it was hard to get work done with sunoo pestering you around the clock

“you think im cute right?” “yes sunoo” “even though i have bags under my eyes? “yes sunoo” “you promise?” “yes sunoo” “good”

admittedly he is slightly of help when it comes to the more fiddly parts of making coffee, but every other second of the day he seems to be flirting nonstop

“can i kiss you?” “no” “why not” “sunoo we’ve been over this” “BEING AT WORK ISNT A VALID EXCUSE”

worn down after his incessant yelling all day, you find yourself snapping faster than usual

“we’re not even dating, sunoo! why would i kiss you!? just stop playing with my feelings already!”

for the first time since you’ve known him, sunoo goes quiet

“why not?”

“what are you talking about now sunoo?” “why arent we dating”

now its your turn to go quiet

“do you not like me?” “what? no, sunoo-” before you can reason with him, you watch him quickly rush away from you around the counter, slamming the break room door behind him with tears in his eyes

cursing to yourself, you ensure there are no customers to serve before quickly darting after him

after looking around a bit, you hear sniffling from the supply closet and knock on the door quietly

“sunoo?” “leave me alone!”

you sigh, taking a step back and turning on your heel to face the opposite direction, running a hand through your hair as you think

you spot a dog bed at your feet, suddenly remembering that jake usually keeps his dog supplies covered in dog hair in the closet

“sunoo arent you allergic to dogs?”

“... *sniffle* y-yeah”

after you persuade him to come out by mentioning that his face is going to get all puffy, he steps out, eyes glued to the floor as he looks away from you in shame

placing a hand on his shoulder, you speak to him softly

“sunoo, look at me”

he does, hesitantly, his eyes red and watery and, as you said, puffy and inflamed

despite this, you smile

“i do like you back”

his eyes start watering again, your heart skipping a beat in fear that you had said something wrong

“e-even if my face is all puffy and gross?” his voice wobbles, the tears filling his eyes giving him a sense of vulnerability as you sigh

“yes, even if your face is all puffy and gross”

he smiles at that, shutting his eyes cutely as you press a kiss to his cheek

“and theres your kiss”

he whines “i was supposed to do that!”

“you can do it after we finish work, okay?” “WORK STILL ISNT A VALID EXCUSE…. but maybe today just because i need to ice my face” “yeah you really should, can you even see?” “no not at all” “great”

jungwon

the previous manager left suddenly and jungwon was given a semi-forced promotion as he was the only employee with at least half of a brain cell

poor boy is stressed 24/7

doesnt get paid enough for this

“hey jungwon we ran out out of coffee bea-” “I ORDERED NEW ONES FOUR HOURS AGO NOW SHUT UP IM TRYING TO MAKE SURE THE BOSS DOESNT FIND JAKE’S DOG SHELTER IN THE SUPPLY CLOSET”

goes through hell every day just to make sure the others dont burn the cafe down

is supposed to be on the morning shift but he stays until the afternoon

in his rare moments of downtime, he likes to go around and water the hanging plants around the shop

is that one vine where the mom listens to nicki minaj for the first time and screams “no” over and over whenever ni-ki gets control of the cafe music

“RIKI NISHIMURA WHAT IS THAT ON THE SPEAKERS” “ITS OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR ARIANA GRANDE” “TURN IT OFF THIS IS NOT PG13” “SHUT THE FUCK UP GRANDPA”

is only 16 but acts like a 32-year-old father going through a midlife crisis

lifts boxes of supplies all day yet his joints are famously brittle

“hey jungwon did you hear glass shattering too?” “sorry jay that was my back” “you need to invest in physical therapy” “maybe if i wasnt paying for property damage every other week 😊”

you meet jungwon when you drop into the cafe for a croissant and a coffee before your class starts

usually you come at night maybe an hour before closing so you had never seen him before, but here you were watching this cute but clearly stressed boy scramble around the shop carrying boxes of supplies to the back

trying not to be creepy, you sigh, turning back to your phone after watching him for a solid five minutes straight

as you do, you hear a crash coming from what you assume is the supply closet followed by a disgruntled groan

pausing, looking around at the other customers typing away at their laptops and waiting for another staff member to go check on the boy, you stand up as you discern that he must be the only one working and hesitantly go to see if he’s okay

“hello? are you okay?” you peer through the door, your eyes widening at the sight of him rubbing his head with a wince on his features, supplies strewn around him at his feet and a box knocked over beside him

“ah… um, yes, i’m okay, sorry if i disturbed you with that noise…” he smiles bashfully, pulling himself back onto his feet

“do you need help with all of that stuff?”

he opens his mouth to protest, not wanting to have to ask for help from a customer, but after seeing the amount of crap off of the shelves, he realises that there is no way in hell he’s going to be able to clean all of it up alone before his shift ends

“um… is that okay?” his cheeks flush with embarrassment as you smile

“sure!”

over the next couple of hours you two establish a little system of bagging the spilt supplies and passes them to eachother to put in boxes, chatting never ceasing as you discover that you actually have a lot of things in common

“since you work here, what’s your favourite kind of coffee?” “i like lattes… i cant stand bitter things” “me too! my friend drinks espressos though” “ditch them”

you also find out that he started being homeschooled after becoming the manager as he doesnt have time to attend normal school

the both of you find yourselves laughing nonstop, having fun in eachother’s company

so much so that you end up late for school

“oh shit! i completely missed my first class”

guilty for making you late, he offers to take you

“i can take you?” “you drive?” “well….. not exactly”

once sunoo and ni-ki arrive to care for the shop, he takes you out to the car park, pulling a spare helmet out of his backpack and securing it on your head before giving your head a pat as he gets onto his scooter

“you look cute” “i look like a bug” “a cute bug”

once you get to school, face red after having to hold onto him the entire time, you hop off and pass him the helmet with a shy smile

“thanks for driving me” you mutter, brushing off imaginary dirt from your shirt as you do your best to avoid eye contact, your face still flushed and heart racing

is it possible to develop a crush on someone this quickly???

jungwon is so cute that he makes it possible, you surmise

“of course” he mirrors your nervous smile, a blush finding its way to his own cheeks

as you bow and spin on your heel to start walking inside, he stops you

“wait!”

“what is it?” you turn to him, your heart still thundering against your ribcage at the fond expression he has plastered on his features

“actually… can i pick you up? after school?”

when you pause, your face growing hotter and hotter, he begins to sputter

“i-i’m really sorry, its fine if not! that was way too forward, i just really like you and- oh god that was even more forward- um-” “okay” “yeah i’m sorry that was a stupid questio- wait, what?”

before he can say anything else, your smile widens

“i’ll see you later, okay? don’t be late!” you wave, skipping into the building with a fluffy feeling in your chest

with an awkward wave, jungwon watches you leave, his mouth wide open in shock before a grin replaces his expression

getting back into his seat, the lovestruck smile never leaving his face as he drives off, he begins to count down the minutes until he gets to see you again

ni-ki

works the afternoon shift

technically an apprentice but he gets paid and has been there forever so basically an employee at this point

or he would be if he ever actually made coffee

he sits with the work phone all morning and chooses the music

perpetually dancing to 7 rings by ariana grande (look up his cover. youre welcome in advance)

jungwon and jay scream at him to at least do the mopping to which he complies, but not without performing a whole ass concert with it

once they saw him twirl and dip the mop

eventually they just told him to go back to curating the music because he was scaring customers away and they were losing business

he was horrible at cleaning anyway

“hey jungwon i think i got window cleaner in your plant” “im firing you” “i dont even go here” “STOP QUOTING MEAN GIRLS AND FIX THE DAMAGE YOUVE CAUSED”

you meet ni-ki while youre drinking your coffee at a booth and he plays your favourite obscure indie song so you have to compliment his taste and get to talking

he plays your favourite songs whenever youre in the shop and audibly hisses at anyone who tries to change it

makes choreography to said songs at home and tries to impress you by casually belting it out by your booth

when you compliment his dancing and ask how long hes been practicing that choreography hes all like “oh hahaha it was just casual freestyle super easy peasy”

(hes been practicing for two weeks)

thought he was being super obvious by doing these things but apparently nOT because you have not caught the hint at all and hes getting impatient

asks for advice from the others begrudgingly

“give them flowers” “jay thats so boring” “do you want to use one of my dogs? everyone loves dogs” “wtf jake since when have you had more than one dog” “make them latte art with a heart on it” “sunoo ive literally never made a coffee in my life” “why dont you just ask them out like a normal perso-” “shut the fuck up grandpa thats so weird no one does that”

eventually he settles on sunoo’s idea of making you latte art and he embarks on his journey to make his first coffee

rather than focusing on the actual taste, sunoo tells him to just do whatever so that he can show him how to do the art

“why is it green ni-ki” “you said to do whatever” “and your first idea was to make poison? idk if this is the best idea if youre trying to ask this person out” “shut up and pass me the milk”

burns his hands on the steaming milk jug at least fifteen times and ends up with so many bandaids on his fingers

despite how stiff the bandages are on his hands, he eventually manages to make a sort-of legible heart

“it looks like africa” “have you ever had steamed milk poured on your eyes sunoo?”

poor ni-ki waits for you all day, his heart leaping every time the bell on the door rings only to roll his eyes when it isnt you

he even stays past his shift so youd better let him take you on a date or hes quitting

when you finally arrive he trips over the bucket at his feet he was using to clean and spills dirty water all over his pants

“omg ni-ki are you okay what happened” *five octaves higher* “NOTHING I'M COMPLETELY FINE WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT”

by the time he’s finished cleaning himself up (and by that i mean fixing his hair in the mirror for twenty minutes) he takes a deep breath and walks over to you, somewhat cold latte in hand

“um,” he clears his throat, his face growing red as he slides the mug towards you “i made this for you”

“aw thanks ni-ki! why is it green” “........its matcha?”

youre slightly suspicious but you look back to the mug and slowly realise that the “drawing” slightly resembles a heart, smiling a little bit to yourself

when you look back to him, youre a little confused as to why hes just standing there

“is something wrong?” you press the mug to your lips, taking a sip

“o-uh uh actually, i wanted to ask if… if you would uh maybe sort of go on a date with me”

you can only smile

“yes, but…”

his heart starts beating faster, watching you anxiously

you stand up, taking the notepad and pen from his apron pocket and scribbling your phone number

“only if you promise to learn how to make actual coffee” you wink, handing him the notepad and sauntering out of the shop

hes stood there dumbstruck, stars in his eyes at the slip of paper in his hand

but then he realises: he has a new mission

rushing to the back room, he slams the door open

“grandpa, i need you to teach me how to make coffee right now” “literally why do i pay you”

with your promise in mind, the others see him work more diligently at the counter than they ever have before

“wow youre actually working today?” “shut up i need to figure out how to do this butterfly before i pry my eyes out with a fork” “haha funny joke ni-” “did i stutter”

at the end of the week, he forces heeseung (the cafe’s best coffee maker) and sunoo (the cafe’s best latte artist) to judge his latte

“this is… surprisingly good” heeseung peers into the mug, smiling at the swan ni-ki created with the latte foam as sunoo grumbles “dont tell me im gonna have to start competing with this kid, it probably tastes gross” “it tastes amazing too” “im quitting”

with his coworkers’ notes in mind, he finally works up the nerve to send you a quick message telling you to come into the shop

when you arrive the next day, ni-ki greets you and immediately gets to work, making sure to stand as close as humanly possible to your booth so he can show off his newly acquired coffee making skills

with you only inches away, he does make a mistake and spill milk on his shirt after looking at you and not his hands for a second too long, but you decide to give him the benefit of the doubt when he sets the mug in front of you

“wow! this heart is perfect!”

you smile, looking up to him “did you seriously learn how to do latte art just so you could take me on a date?” “… y-yeah, and?”

you can only chuckle as you press the mug to your lips, readying yourself to drink liquid dirt…

“this is… really good!” you grin, taking another sip and putting the mug down on its saucer

“i think you’ve definitely earned yourself a date… or two”

at this news, ni-ki’s face lights up, shoving the urge to scream down his throat before nodding stiffly to try and contain his excitement with a strained “cool” escaping his lips

“are you okay ni-ki?” “yes just give me one second”

he quickly scrambles to the break room, a moment of silence wafting through the store before a shrill scream fills the air

eyes wide, you turn to jay, who had been manning the till, after hearing him burst into laughter

“what is he doing?”

“we told him the freezer was sound proof”

#grumbles i guess i will tag #enhypen #enhypen x reader #enhypen headcanons #kim sunoo #yang jungwon #nishimura riki #kim sunoo x reader #yang jungwon x reader #nishimura riki x reader

[shortprince-cos]

The Woes Of An Emo

Summary: Virgil wants at least one rehearsal to not go wrong. Also, he's a simp. Also, I apologize in advance.

Warnings: Angst, mental breakdown, anxiety, swearing, miscommunication. Tell me if I need to ask anything else!

Note: Happy Asides day!!!! (hopefully it is, this was written in advance) Remember to tag your spoilers for a week and to respect everyone's opinions!!!!

{Masterlist} {Previous}

Chapter 7: Typical Day?

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By next Monday, everyone knew that Patton and Logan were dating. They kept holding hands in the hallway, walking each other to class, and even flirting in front of everyone.

Virgil was a little jealous, though he didn't want to admit it. They were just so cute doing those couple-y things, and Virgil wanted to do that with someone. Well, not just someone, Princey and/or Roman.

Right. Roman. Virgil almost forgot about his crisis for a minute. He has confirmed that yes, he does apparently have a crush on Roman. Great. The guy he just rejected. Wonderful. The guy who probably didn't want anything the do with Virgil at the moment. Perfect.

How could he not, though? Roman, who got almost every lead in the musicals. Roman, who called teachers out on their unfairness. Roman, who's eyes lit up whenever he talked about Disney or musicals. Who could fight someone for hours if he had the motivation. Who, when he flirted, could drop his voice so unbearably low it sent shivers down Virgil's spine.

And oh goodness, Princey. Princey is amazing. He talks like he'll run out of time. Types like Virgil's the most important thing in the world. He also loves Disney and musicals and talks about them like theres no tomorrow. He just cares so much about Virgil, letting him vent about his anxieties, and even tells Virgil all of his deepest secrets and insecurities.

Oh, heh, guess we've been rambling, huh?

Needless to say, Virgil was not doing that good. The amount of stress was driving him mad. Everything was just too much; waiting for Princey to be better, trying to not get overwhelmed by Patton's friendliness, trying not to make everyone mad or disappointed with him, finding out he actually does have a crush on Roman, hoping Roman isn't mad at him, being the prop master for the musical, and even just schoolwork. It was exhausting.

By next Friday his dads wanted him to stay home and take a 'mental health day', but Virgil couldn't miss rehearsal or he'd probably get kicked from the show.

Speaking of the show, Virgil was currently sweeping up the auditorium seats when he heard a familiar voice.

"Virgil!" Gabi the stage manager called. "Please clean up the prop room, the actors messed up the organization."

"Yeah, sure. I'll lock up too, if you want?"

Gabi handed Virgil the keys. "You're a lifesaver, Virge. If we were getting paid, you'd get a raise."

"It's no problem." Virgil said bashfully.

"Thank you anyway!" Gabi said as she walked out of the auditorium.

So Virgil made his way over to the prop room, and started cleaning up the fiasco that the actors left behind.

It wasn't until fifteen minutes later when his phone buzzed, alerting him of a message.

He quickly looked at his phone to find a message from Princey! Virgil hasn't heard from him for awhile, so he was getting a little worried, but apparently he was doing a little better if he was talking to him again!

princeofyourdreams: call me please

Or not?

That was...not a normal message. Virgil's anxiety immediately spiked at the thought of calling Princey.

onthevirgeofananxietyattack: princey, u know how i feel about random calls

princeofyourdreams: i know im sorry but please

Virgil hesitated. Princey sounded not ok and obviously Virgil had to do something, but the idea of calling him was a lot to handle, especially when Virgil was, as his username said, on the verge of an anxiety attack because of everything going on at the moment, and one more bad thing could probably break him.

He hit call anyway.

"P-Princey?" Virgil asked nervously.

"Hey anx." Princey was obviously crying, and Virgil's heart shattered. But...something was familiar.

"Are you ok? What's wrong?"

"Everything. Everything's wrong. It has been for so long and I tried so hard to be ok but now I'm really not ok." Princey was full on sobbing now, and Virgil didn't know what he could do to help.

"Hey, hey. It's ok, just focus on my voice ok?"

Roman just sobbed more in response, and Virgil swore he heard an echo from somewhere.

It must be his imagination.

Virgil softened his voice. "Hey, Princey, it's going to be ok, whatever's wrong right now will be ok in the end, I promise."

"How-" He choked "How can you say that when-when you don't even know what's happening."

"Just tell me and I can help." Virgil wandered out of the prop room to pace while talking.

"If I tell you, you-you won't care. I'm surprised you don't not care already." He gasped for some more air as Virgil heard something shifting in the men's dressing room.

"Princey breathe." Virgil turned to the dressing room door. "I care about you. I promise. I won't stop caring about you for something like this."

Princey took a big breath. "THEN WHY ARE YOU PLAYING ME?!" He screamed, and so did the dressing room door.

Suddenly everything was silent except for the heavy breathing over the phone and through the door.

What did that mean? Was he mad at Virgil? What did Virgil do? And, oh yeah, was Princey actually behind that door?

Well, screw anxiety, theres only one way to find out.

He knocked on the door, and heard the knock through the phone.

"P-Princey?"

"Y-Yeah?"

Virgil took a deep breath and opened the door.

"...Hey, Virgil."

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{Next}

HAHAHAHAHAHA THAT'S RIGHT! IT'S A CLIFFHANGER! Y'all knew the angst was gonna spill out at sometime, I'm just surprised that it took this long! Sorry this one is really short, I didn't really know what to do to get to this point. So I just wrote Virgil simping for two paragraphs lol

@irritating-lady-knight I hope you liked your small cameo! Surprise!

Thanks to @thefingergunsgirl (Emma! Ily!) for beta reading this chapter! It was a big help!!!!!

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omg i loved that!! please continue with their story!

I’m sorry if this is so crummy … was kinda stuck with where to go with the story. Feel free to send concepts of what you’d like.

Part 2

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Arriving home was the usual process of waiting around exiting the plane, collecting baggage heading through customs, I then prayed no media was around just family waiting.

I walked through the international exit I had a quickly scanning the area around thankfully no immediate crazy paparazzi or media waiting around, that I could see. My mum stood there with a big welcome home sign my brother by her side huge smiles on their faces.

As we left the airport I opened my messages to see numerous messages from Grayson and my friends demanding to know what was going on. I immediately called Grayson to let him know I had arrived safely and was on the way home. He apologised profusely for the paparazzi and article hoping it had not effected my arrival home and to be honest it hadn’t really in the sense everything was fine as far as I knew but I also knew I would have to respond to my friends and let them know what was going on. I’d decided once I got home and had a chance to shower, relax and catch a breath I would explain everything to my friends but it was too late as our car pulled up into the drive way I was bombarded with my two best friends waiting at my door. Unbeknown to me there was also a car across the street with a man and his wide lens camera, capturing my arrival home the chaos my best friends were unleashing and my mum snd brother struggling with my luggage, before heading home and promising to be back the following day.

“Welcome home bitch!! What the fuck!” “Yes!!! What clauds said. We’re you not going to say anything? You’re literally all over the explore page on instagram!!”

Yes that’s how you want to be greeted home after a 14 hour flight full of crippling anxiety. But these are my best friends Claudia and Olivia 18 years of friendship between us so I kinda expected it considering my big secret.

“I know, I’m sorry you both have questions and I promise you I have answers but not out here, I need to shower.” I pleaded pulling them into the house. Before noticing the silver Toyota driving off.

“Ok fine we’ll allow it, but you’re insane we hope you know that. Do you know what kind of gossip storm is already brewing on our socials! People we haven’t even spoken to in like 10 years are resharing the photos! Like EMILY!!”

“I figured, I’m sure there will be more too. Did either of you see the silver car across the road when you got here?”

“Mmm no, just your neighbours, why?”

“Nothing never mind. I’ll be back in 10 Im not washing my hair but I need to freshen up, make yourselves at home, as always”

With that I was off to the shower messaging Grayson to let him know I believed someone had already found my house and let him know my girl friends were with me so you weren’t alone. He sent a soppy message in response about how much he missed and loves you. Also that sledge hadn’t stopped whining since he’d come home from the airport, he also reminded not to worry as his people were dealing with it all and that probably laying low for the next couple day until he arrived would be for the best.

As I walked out of the bathroom to the laundry i could hear both girls in the kitchen scavenging for food and complaining at the lack of options you had to offer them in such a crisis.

“You both know I haven’t been here for months clearly I’m not going to have many options to eat” you laughed watching them check all your cupboards.

“Well that’s not good enough in this crisis, we’re ubering Chinese and wine so get talking” Claudia sassed

“Well what do you want to know?” I knew this was going to be a lot for them to take in and weren’t sure you were prepared for their reactions when you eventually revealed what was going on.

“You know me I’m going to keep it simple and Claudia is going to interrogate. Firstly before the interrogation is it serious?”

“I know and I’m ready, but I don’t know if you’re both ready so can we sit in the lounge so we can all be comfortable for my interrogation” I responded before collapsing onto the couch.

“Yes it’s very serious” saying it out aloud made the necklace feel even heavier around your neck.

“Okay so how did you meet him?”

“Tinder, and yes I know I said I would never but everyone was in relationships I was on my own as always and I knew you were both over me complaining so I bit the bullet signed up and found him. To be honest I did initially think he was a catfish but he wasn’t and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been”

“So this has been going on a while then?”

“Well yeah we started talking a year and 2 months ago. We’ve been official for at least 11 months.”

“When you went to America for 2 weeks that was what”

“It was us meeting for the first time and him convincing me I shouldn’t end what we had because we live long distance, he made it official then.” Trying to hide your smile remembering the two weeks of bliss shared was so hard.

“Has he been to Australia in that time?”

“No he’s coming this week so everyone can meet him, well mum and marcus have already met him ‘cos as you know they were in LA for a couple weeks with me”

“So the fams in on it too, I see… What are their thoughts…” this was it, I took my necklace off held the ring in my hand and continued.

“They both love him and his family, given their blessing. They all get along so well, I can’t wait for you both to meet him. Especially because we’re going to have to enact our maid of honour pact.” A pact we made as 16 year olds dreaming of our perfect weddings only to realise we could only have one maid of honour so we made a pact. I would be Claudia’s, Claudia would be Olivia’s and Olivia would be my maid of honour.

In the midst of their screams of horror, happiness, emotion and commotion the door bell saved me for a moment to catch my breath getting our food and wine before, re-entering the madness.

“You’re getting married!!” “Where’s the ring?” “Is it going to be here?” “Holy fuck. This isn’t real!” “Is it?” I just put out my hand ring heavy on my finger tears in my eyes. Thats it. It is actually real. I’m going to be marrying Grayson Dolan.

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