#i’m really sad right now

[cloudycleric]

number one coping mechanism is the byler community on tumblr

#byler #byler tumblr #i’m really sad right now

[lokilicious-hiddles]

One day, when I feel okay again, when it’s all over, I will make chocolate chip cookies.

#I hope I can make those cookies #I’m really sad right now #personal #healing #get better #feel better #feel again #feel loved #feel love again #love #relationships #sad #i’m sad

[napping-sapphic]

I really do know that physical appearance isn’t everything but i also really hope that one day i get to experience someone i love looking at me and thinking i’m pretty

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #idk #i just haven’t really had many compliments on my appearance throughout my life #but the few times i have gotten them have been crazy #i end up thinking about it forever #idk i’m just forever excited about the idea of someone just plain old LIKING me #like bells and whistles of falling in love and everything aside #i truthfully deeply really want someone just to like me if that makes sense #also this isn’t like a sad post btw #it’s something im hopeful about and look forward to a lot :) #right now i just have to be a bit wistful about it though lol #im gay and i like sleeping

[romanceyourdemons]

thank you for your service large bowl of white rice

#i’m in such a sad mood right now and a bowl of carbohydrates is really helping me #ryddles

[hiatus-queen72]

Hair cut happened 💇🏻‍♀️✨

#my hair length is now mermaid level and it took me so long to get here I can’t even explain how happy I am #mermaid hair #🤭🥰☺️ #giggling and kicking my legs #me #cute #girl #love #selfie #fashion #photo #brown hair #blue eyes #hot #bleep bloop blop #I want to sparkle just a little #I washed my heated blanket without reading the directions and broke it 😞 #big sad #what Pokémon starter would you give me? #I need to know #Pokémon starter #it’s really funny that my selfie is about to end up on the Pokémon tumblr feed because I’m curious #I’m watching Jaiden’s nuzlocke on YouTube right now #she always makes me laugh I love her channel #anyways #please tell me what starter you’d give me or I’ll be just fine and decide myself but a little bummed about it

[facewithoutheart]

Hi hey so if you didn’t get invited to watch the Barbie movie with friends and dress up and participate in this big cultural moment know that I’d go with you and wear pink and hug you 💕 and buy popcorn and even laugh when we finish the popcorn too fast and maybe I’d even go get us another tub if you promise to catch me up on what I missed when I stepped out.

#it’s making me really sad that I live two hours away from everyone I love and no one thought to invite me #even though my two best friends who I’ve always wanted to be close but never really liked each other went together #and ok my bestie said she’d go again but goddamnit I’m just tired of feeling alone and distant from the people who matter most to me #and if you feel like I feel I am hugging you so tight right now #not just for your sake but also for mine

[airplanefoodblackmarket]

Oh no.

Just got the news that Diane Feinstein died today. It’s an incredibly sad day for this country. The discourse around her has become incredibly poisoned in recent years, and earlier this year especially. But she was an icon of the Senate, serving California and championing good causes for literal decades AND serving as one of the O.G. examples for women and girls aspiring to power and a career in politics.

Regardless of what you may think of her, she was on her way to retirement at the end of this Senate term. It is profoundly sad that she spent not just her last few years in office, but the last few years of her life, hounded by throngs of strident deriders and smeared in the opinion-sphere for the simple crime of not being ready yet to go. I had fervently wished that she would be allowed to retire in grace at the end of her term, and maybe live a few years of peace afterwards. It was the least she deserved. Sadly, neither have gone to pass.

Please, let us reflect on the entirety of her career in the coming days, and try to ignore the throngs of “I told you so”s sure to come from the worst people on the internet. It’s the least we could do. Remember all the good she’s done for this country. It is immense.

#God I’m just so sad #she deserved so much better than she got in the last year of her life #This country really just hates women so much and I can’t stand it sometimes #Also BOY am I glad I’m not Gavin Newsome right now #Diane Feinstein #US Politics #Current Events

[poochyuno]

tw: vent and animal death

#runo.txt #one of my cats sadly died :( #i’m just really not okay right now #ive tried to pretend everything was okay and normal because i didn’t wanna disturb anyone on here #i also have plenty of stuff to do regarding uni and work so #I’ll still try to interact but yknow #I’m just done #and just really sad #ill try my best :’)

[kohakhearts]

theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :( #anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[sapphosboy]

Something I really love about Chetney and Oryms dynamic is that they have both lived life’s before meeting Bells Hells. Orym fell in love, got married, he built a life in Zephrah. We don’t know a ton about Chet’s backstory, but the little bits we do know give us a little peek into a very full life with loss and love. I mean 400 years old, he’s lived a lot. So when they have conversations just the two of them, it’s always so beautiful and tender and it feels like two people who have seen so much finding someone else who has experienced what life has to offer in its entirety. Their conversations are always so open and honest. They care so much for each other. And that’s reflected in all the little things they do. Like Orym learning how to carve and the way Chetney presents Orym to Deanna, with the little vine. It’s so tender and kind.

#critical role #I really really miss them #They’re one of my favorite critical role friendships #And I’m really sad that they’ve been separated #I need Fearne Chetney and Orym to all be in the same group because they individually have my favorite dynamics with each other #chetney pock o'pea #orym of the air ashari #like I’m really emotional about the two of them right now

[try-set-me-on-fire]

Tagged by @devirnis and @rewritetheending for wip Wednesday! Buck’s still going to die

"Do you think this is the last time we'll all hang out together like this?" Buck asks, in Bobby's backyard, at the party celebrating Hen passing her practical. He gets indulgent smiles in response, honest reassurances, and he can’t clarify that he doesn’t think any of them will leave him but that he is a man with a timer he can’t see the numbers on. He smiles back, and lets Eddie squeeze his hand in comfort, and hugs Hen tight, and helps Bobby clean up sort of to be helpful but also, mostly, just to be close to him.

And then he is reminded that he is not the only person who can die. He’s not the one helping Karen and her coworker, busy knocking down the surrounding flames so they can get out, and it’s smoky and all a disaster in there anyway so he doesn’t get a good look at her until he’s escorting her out of the building. It takes several increasingly desperate are you sures after he’s asked if she’s feeling okay to discover the shrapnel, but he gets her onto a stretcher before things can get any worse than a chunk of metal embedded several inches into her side. He watches as Hen, the strongest person he has ever, ever met, crumples when she sees her wife injured. He watches her be strong anyway, climbing into the ambulance to do anything up to and including throttle the universe itself to keep her alive until she gets to the hospital. He holds her in the waiting room as she weeps gratitude into his shoulder and he looks across the room at Eddie looking back at him and thinks he was wrong, he was wrong entirely. It’s not going to be easier if they aren’t married yet. He dies and Eddie is destroyed. It’s too late to pull away because they were both in this from the start. He imagines someone else holding Eddie like this, as he’s off in surgery or some colder, more final room, and his knees almost buckle.

Karen is okay, will be home soon. Hen comes back to work.

Tagging @jeeyuns @wildlife4life @alyxmastershipper @forthewolves @bigfootsmom @rogerzsteven <3

#posting this clip made me realize the conversation I’m writing right now is redundant and I can cut it #great for me because i wasn’t really liking it #i can salvage the bits i do like for the fight fic maybe #or some other place #anyway #sorry buck youre just extremely sad and frightened I’m sorry im doing this to you #wip wednesday #tag games

[goldeneclipsee]

I’ve become afraid of death. which is actually improvement for someone who was suicidal but also. scary :(

this is all your faults /pos /pos /pos-

#seriously guys. y’all really have just helped everything. #Mostly north and L I love yall #But I’ve kinda felt sad cuz. If I died people would actually be sad?? #And gosh I’m scared of how everyone would react if one day I just stop responding to rps. If I stopped messaging them and stopped making ar #You guys have just really fixed everything. I love all of you more than you can imagine xxx #thanks for everything #and also know that it’s right back at ya #If you died I’d care. If you died I’d cry for days #Please. You’ve done all this for me and made me feel valid so I want you guys to feel the same #If you ever need help I’m here #Just know I will always love you #This is a more serious post but uh. The feelings have been very weird lately #And you guys are all I have #And I think I really appreciate that now. I think I’ve realized how much I need you guys #You were here for me. I’m always here for you #love yall sm #anyways it’s a bit of a ramble here in the tags lol #Anyways byee I love you mwah mwah mwah #tw sui attempt #maybe?? I mean I’ve tried to before but #Idk I dont wanna trigger yall-

[katebeckets]

I really hate how hard it is to enjoy these things right now. I want to be able to feel how I used to but it just feels so ridiculous to be focused on all this new album stuff when there is a literal genocide happening in front of our eyes.

#and before y’all get mad it’s not about people not having a right to enjoy things #but she has to be aware of how much influence she has #there’s no way she isn’t #she’s focused so much of the world’s attention on her instead of what really matters right now #I want new music but it just doesn’t need to happen right now #and it’s not easy feeling these things having been a fan since 2006. it’s hard to extricate myself #but I’m just so sad at how temporary the matter of right and wrong/right side of history stuff was

[araindropshallfall]

“At least we didn’t end the series with Ed crying”

no but now we’re ending the series with me crying so

#ofmd #our flag means death #god I wanna be a “happy it happened” person so badly and will eventually #but right now I’m just so goddamn sad #like all I can think is “this is really sad”