#i’m very frustrated

[mintysneezes]

Oh my god I’m trying to get a job at the town pool but cause I’d be a town government employee I have to do so many background checks and fingerprinting and etc that It’s gonna be weeks before I can actually start

#Nat talks #I’m very frustrated #I’m gonna work like 1.5 months #that’s it

[the-golden-weapons]

I’d like to think Jay and Nya are very funny because they are both mechanics, but in entirely opposite ways:

Nya has all her tools in proper order. In her workshop, there is never any scrap part going unused. Any notes and blueprints since the ripe age of 12 have been carefully stored and saved, no matter how much she cringes when looking back on them. The Samurai X designs and revisions have their own file cabinet as well as digital backups. Her measurements are double and triple checked, even though she probably had it right the first time. Every choice she makes is calculated and buffed out, from the interlocking gears to the paint job. She prides on her work on being practical and aesthetic, thank you very much.

Jay, meanwhile, is the definition of fuck around and find out. Blueprints? Who needs em, anyways? The only thing vaguely resembling “notes” in his work area are scrap pieces of paper with the most round-about mathematics ever (complete with indecipherable short-hand and a stick figure drawing of Jay holding a blowtorch, naturally.) He will change up plans on the fly and casually stick his hands in very sharp moving parts like there is no tomorrow. Safety equipment? He grew up in a junkyard. He had a wrench in his hand before he could walk. Yeah, no, he’s pretty sure he’s fine, thanks.

#what i’m getting at is jay and nya are both Very Smart and help balance each other out #nya is a perfectionist to the point of frustration and jay tends to be lax on things he should probably handle with more caution #the blueprints thing is just funny to me #because it leads nicely into my hc for dragons rising for when jay and sora meet and she eventually asks him to explain a past device #the next morning jay comes out with pretty clean sparkling blueprints with step by step notes explaining his thoughts #and nya just wrings him by the neck when she sees it #she’s like I HAVE BEEN ASKING YOU FOR THE PAST TEN YEARS— #jay walker #jay ninjago #nya jiang #nya ninjago #ninjago #jaya #ninjago jaya #golden writings

[deityofhearts]

a moodboard by yours truly

#deity dialogue #back on my ‘makes specific moodboards about how I feel’ #I’m so frustrated with myself #I’m insufferable and stupid and I’m annoyed #this is all very me @ myswlf btw #it usually is </3 #I’m taking medicine soon #let’s hope it makes me tired so I shut the up fuck #I hope tomorrow I’m less the worst

[shima-draws]

My dad is so fucking awkward when it comes to giving emotional support it’s so funny,,

My mom must have told him I’m having a rough day bc he texted me like 10 minutes after like. Hey are you okay. Come home this weekend if you want to play dominos or something. Like a game of dominos is the magic cure to my spiraling mental health. LMAOOOO

#It’s sweet tho like I do appreciate it genuinely #He is right tho a game of dominos may just fix me. If I WIN that is #(Dominos is very fun and I only ever really get to play it with them lol) #Might just go to my parents for that. AND to see my doggies #Shima speaks #Anyway I love my mom so much and it’s frustrating bc she knows me SO well #She doesn’t try to coddle me. She knows exactly what’s going on and she told me right to my face and I was like #😬😬😬 Okay yeah you don’t gotta call me out like that tho…MAN. #SHE’S RIGHT AND I’M SO MAD. WHY does she have to be right. #SIGHS it’s Friday it’s Friday I can do this. I can make it through

[season1mac]

sometimes i’m like. i think we should all just watch this show the way it was intended to. brains off and laugh. and then they do shit like show mac being burned by his mom for not being quiet and dennis actually trying to be calm and charlie apologizing to his mom and taking care of her when he didn’t do anything and she did it to herself. and i’m just like. oh okay i’ll be insane

#i don’t know like i get very frustrated sometimes bc i just wanna have fun watching this show and sometimes the over analyzing is a lot #like i get it’s all fun logically but my brain can’t understand #which is why i deleted the first time #do u see why i’m in therapy

[saturnvs]

equine therapy starts again today for the first time since … october? nervous 🫠

#debating whether or not i want to continue because so far it’s only given me more anxiety #and i’m not sure the therapist and i … match #i need something softer and she’s not always very soft in her approach #+ she thinks i’m ‘too young’ to occasionally have debilitating back pain #and she also did not believe when i told her i was diagnosed with autism because i ‘don’t look like it’ #🙃 #many parts of the therapy Have been good but i’m not always sure if she even likes me that much? she gets frustrated when i get anxious #i’ll just see how i feel about it today although i’m shaking with anxiety lol #let’s just say it wasn’t entirely what i dreamed of when it began #and i’m still hoping for my old riding school to get back to me #i might need to resend that email..

[prettyiwa]

Every so often I see anons in mutuals’ inboxes not understanding the deal against empty blogs even if there’s an age, or about blogs that don’t reblog and it just reminds me of how quickly we forget and how quickly we cycle through toxic phases in this community. It's partially because it’s ever-growing with people from Reddit and Twitter and Wattpad writers and everyone else not listed.

It comes and goes in fucking waves so it’s easy to miss if you aren’t here for it, but every handful of months there’s some mass post going around where a writer has been informed of or found their writing (and others') stolen and reposted on another site (9 times out of 10 it’s Wattpad) with the poster taking credit. So often that account and plagiarizer is traced back to an empty blog that’s following all the blogs it stole from. Sometimes they’ll even leave a like that serves as a bookmark so they can come back and steal those words for fake internet points.

Like. For people who have been subjected to that kind of theft, there’s anxiety and distrust that remains. For people who watched it happen (especially time and again because it’s multiple times a year), there’s that voice in the back of their mind when they see someone with a blog that has a header of “Kayleigh (19) Just Reading!!” and nothing else.

And so either these anons who don’t understand why they can’t “lurk in peace” genuinely do not know about the cycle that happens here or they do not care for the people writing the stories and HCs and drabbles they passively enjoy.

Regardless, it only contributes to that growing feeling of being yet another source of quick and convenient consumption and not an actual person sharing their passion with people who might like it.

#sorry I’m salty #idek if this is halfway coherent but yeah #It’s very frustrating watching history repeat itself especially on a site like this when history is easily forgotten and the cycle is much #much shorter #almost like it’s also tied to fiscal quarters #“it's my choice to have my name/age/reblogs on my account!” that is very much true. it is your choice. i respect your choice. #now it's your turn to respect the choice of the writer for which that is a boundary. #you expect us to respect your choices that are indicative of your humanity but you won't offer the same? get the fuck out of here

[leopardom]

genuinely struggling to feel any excitement about the jo gigs i’m attending thanks to the insane fans who choose to queue even since midnight at the day of the gig

#idek why i thought the ee tickets would kinda solve the situation #but it only pushed people with ga to queue even more #not to talk about some people with ee who show up at fuck o clock on the queue too like hello you bought that ticket to avoid queueing for #an insane amount of hours #i don’t talk about the people with ee who show up in the morning i mean everyone who may be arriving before 8am like huh? #and like i have ee for Milan but now i’m scared #it’s not even about getting barricade i’ve dealt with the idea i’ll never have barricade at a jo gig and i don’t care #but this is stressful af yk #sorry i’m just very frustrated and want to rant but i also feel like i have no right to rant or what and AAAAAAAAAAA #this is emma speaking

[puppyeared]

I made a lmk oc

#they’re supposed to be some sort of experiment to see if people could recreate Sun Wukongs stone egg. the goal was to make a more controlled #and tame version using carved wood and cultivation. but eventually they got worried about it becoming too powerful and scrapped it #eventually they come to life and live in the abandoned temple they were built in #their bottom half is made of wood because when they came to life their creator/s left them unfinished when they scrapped the project #they had to carve the rest of their body out of hunger and frustration because they couldn’t eat or move much by crawling on their top half #this is also why they spite their creators and hate irresponsible creation. because of abandonment issues and feeling like they have no #purpose or direction in life #their power is also very limited to due being man made since they were originally a wood carving #meo gave me the idea but one reason would be because they’re half finished. the sculpture was still half stump so it was completely untouche #that half can channel power in its raw form but the other half cannot once it’s been carved by man #so technically they could have the same level or potential for power as the stone but that was dampened #the other thing is how they were created to be a duplicate or recreation of a stone monkey and a celestial looked at that and was like #‘we’re not doing that again’ LMAO #i think the case of them carving their own legs doesn’t take away their power though. that balance was made #before they came to life so carving the legs or not can’t affect it anymore. like making a cake and slicing it #their energy levels are also naturally low because of that so their movements are sluggish and they aren’t very active overall #constantly lying in the sun to charge their batteries and get some stuff done. just like me fr #I actually don’t know what I’m gonna do with this character besides Put Them In Situations with other ppls ocs.. so if you have #a lmk oc you have been warned /lh /j #I wanna make some backstory art for them though.. maybe even the animatic treatment if I can get through dear wormwood which is 25 #SECONDS OUT OF 3 MIN BTW #doodles #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk oc #monkie kid oc #myart #my art #xin ya

[transmechanicus]

Opening google like “Ways to capture the morose vibes of drinking alone to drown emotional difficulties without resorting to alcohol or hard drugs”

#my stuff #i’m sooooo fcukin disappointed in them i want to drink my frustration away #but also i hate alcohol based on taste and hangovers suuuuck #currently sitting at my kitchen table taking slugs of very cold milk so i get brainfreee #genuine hard boiled tgirl here can you tell?

[doodlingfoolishness]

Crosshair’s hands closed round Tech’s goggles, fingers brushing over the cracks in the lenses. They were an unfamiliar weight; he’d never had reason to touch them before. He bowed his head, breathing heavily.

For a moment, he allowed himself to remember —

But his hand spasmed, and he grimaced, trying to keep it still.

He couldn’t even do this.

#the bad batch #the bad batch crosshair #tbb crosshair #tbb tech #tech tbb #crosshair tbb #the bad batch spoilers #for some reason exporting it as a gif lightens it horribly #i got myself real frustrated doing this so I’m giving up #why do i ever try animation???? even just a few frames fully colored is absolute frigging torture! #but that’s what a new fandom does to me #it makes me try very stupid things

[communistkenobi]

sometimes people are just posting on their blog doing their own thing talking to their followers and then their post blows up so like obviously I don’t expect those to be super polished or anything, but if you’re posting with the explicit intent to educate an audience then like I would appreciate if you supplied links and sources for the shit you’re talking about lol

#I’m guilty of this too so like not a huge high horse but it does get annoying #and people tend to treat requests for sources as like a form of skepticism or contrarianism which I find very frustrating

[whitmore]

really actually kind of enjoy how the big lore moments are sort of quiet on a singular stream (or a small group!) instead of the events solely being the lore; i think there would be this hesitation to develop anything solo if the server reinforced this idea that Big Lore could only happen during scheduled events and days. instead the more narrative-progressing moments (take the baghera hybrid experiments revelation or the philza birdnapping for recent example) are very low-key and almost unhyped up— there’s no expectation for that kind of lore necessarily at the time which makes it more rewarding to experience as a viewer. big fan of how they do the events as player bonding time rather than serious narrative progression because it allows all the players (especially the ones who don’t engage in the rp side that much) to participate and get to know each another more; it’s very neat it’s really smart it’s nicely executed

#eleanor.txt #qsmp #tag expansion time get ready for the nuance #do i think that the events could be executed better in terms of like. coding / design. yes on occasion #i’ve seen some frustration that some players don’t take the events seriously enough and that it’s frustrating as a viewer #which i understand and empathize with i think there’s definitely A solution somewhere but i’m not sure exactly what it is tbh #i try not to criticize what i cannot personally solve i think they’re doing their best with what they’ve got #i also do believe that like the Expectation for Big Lore almost always backfires #it’s something u cannot win i think . the expectation will always in some way let you down #(especially re: character involvement seriousness of the stream amount progressed narratively contribution to general plot etc etc #there’s so many variables when you expect ‘lore’ and what that means to people) #i think there’s always some disappointed group when Big Lore starts to be hyped up & teased #whereas i see a lot less general complaints when it’s an unexpected moment (other than people upset they missed it— #arguably unavoidable whether you advertise the stream as lore focused or not) #there’s still Lore during the events things still occur information is still exchanged #but it’s not structured on lore. lore isn’t the foundation for the event it just occurs by implication #anyway. very good job qsmp impressive stuff very enjoyable

[mossy-aro]

kinda frustrating how so much aspec content (esp stuff published in like mainstream outlets) is literally just made for allos. like it’s always some article that’s just going over aspec 101 terminology and explaining various concepts and words aimed at a clearly allo audience.

i’m not saying those aren’t important because part of the issue aspecs face is how invisibilised we are and yes! it’s super important to raise awareness and let people know we exist! but it’s also kind of frustrating how it feels like 99% of not only our time but also all wider coverage about us is spent explaining our identities and giving ted talks to allos instead of like . discussing aspec issues and identity with any sort of depth or nuance.

Angela Chen (who wrote a book on asexuality) talked about thinking about aro/ace-ness not just as an identity but also a viewpoint or a ‘lens’ to examine issues through which i thought was interesting! like how does aro/ace identity intersect with our ideas of feminism, or of race? how does aromanticism inform our critique of the nuclear family and the institution of marriage?? how does asexuality play into our view of sexual politics? how does lovelessness deconstruct our ideas of ‘humanity’? there is so much to get into and so much ground that has never been covered but we are stuck!! on giving definitions!!

idk i don’t really have a solution here! because i know that on the one hand we need these kinds of articles that give streams of ‘aspec 101’ definitions because any visibility helps, but also i am so tired of having to dumb everything down instead of having actual discussions about aspec identities and what they can tell us. like hopefully we’ll get to a point eventually where we don’t have to do this but i’m still just. kinda tired :/

#aro #aromantic #aroace #asexual #ace #aspec #amatonormativity #leftist #sorry for this ranty post #also #this isn’t a slam on those articles btw !!! they’re important and absolutely have their place #im just tired of every single one being for allos and ONLY discussing the most basic concepts possible lol #it ends up leaving people with a very surface level understanding of a very complex community #and doesn’t really inform people about the issues that tangibly affect our lives #like compulsory sexuality and the pervasiveness of amatonormativity. #like if ur gonna talk about aros talk about amatonormativity. talk about relationship anarchy and qprs #talk about loveless aros + alloaros and not just aroaces and alloaces! #idk if I’m being 100% coherent and clear here sorry #tldr what im saying is that it’s frustrating how most discussion abt us is so surface level and doesn’t really get into anything beyond that #bc the aspec community has infinitely more to offer and is also infinitely more complex than presented in these articles

[shima-draws]

Actually curious as to what people’s general opinion of Ozbert is in this year of 2023. Does shipping them equate to getting hashtag cancelled? Are they still The OTP of the series?? Or are they strictly Platonic Besties For Life. I do not know

It’s weird tho bc obviously if you’ve read the manga you KNOW their situation is very Complicated™️. When they were both the same age it was fine but then Oz got yeeted into the Abyss and time jumped 10 years forward while he was in there for like 3 days and suddenly Gil’s like. 9 years older than him. But then Uncle Oscar still classifies Oz as being 25 even tho he’s physically 15. And then we find out that Oz’s body isn’t even HIS it belongs to Jack so that’s messed up. AND we find out Gil’s actually not just 24 he’s OVER 100 years old bc Baskerville shit. And THEN we find out Oz is actually the true B Rabbit so that makes it so he’s probably even older than Gil is. When we get to the end of the series they’re both canonically confirmed to be hundred(s) of years old so I’m sitting here like. Well,

ALSO looking at these manga panels and official artworks and stuff from the anime I’m like

Well, there’s definitely SOMETHING going on there, that’s for sure,

#And don’t even get me STARTED on the omakes. Holy shit #Shima speaks #Anyway either way they are a wonderful duo. #Gil’s always been SO ride or die for Oz and I respect that #I just see them together and I’m like 🥰 There they are. My boys #Pandora Hearts spoilers #Pandora Hearts #Ozbert #Oz Vessalius #Gilbert Nightray #They’re not straight. I know THAT for a fact. LOL #And see there’s the appealing thing. The absolute ANGST involved #Gil who grew up harboring feelings for Oz but knowing it was wrong and that he could never ever act upon them #And by the time he’s an adult he still has some sort of feelings for Oz. It’s very complex #And then out pops Oz from the Abyss!! And he doesn’t look ANY different from the last time Gil saw him #Meanwhile Oz who was still figuring things out but who was almost sure he liked Gil That Way #And then it hits HARD when he’s in the Abyss not even knowing if Gil is alive #And when he finds out Gil’s all grown up. #I mean YEAH I’d develop a massive crush too are you KIDDING #It’d be frustrating tho bc Oz is still technically a teenager. #But then he figures out oh hey I’m actually? A being that’s existed for a LONG long time. And one that isn’t even human #So I can totally see him whole heartedly chasing after Gil once he realizes that #Anyway. Rant over sorry LOL #Either way. Again. They’re so so close in canon there is SOMETHING going on between them #(Not to mention the fact the anime really loved that and tried hinting at it super obviously)

[remus-poopin]

In a modern muggle au James and Sirius would be one of those left leaning debate bro-esque streamers who spend their time yelling at bigots online but then says some real off the wall shit after talking incessantly for a couple of hours during a stream because they don’t want to actually investigate/interrogate their own prejudices and learned biases/behaviors because they think just because they identify as progressives they therefore can do no wrong.

#🚨 PROJECTION ALERT 🚨 #also #Remus-poopin: queen of run on sentences #is it clear that I’m making a half baked comparison with fictional characters because I’m frustrated with certain streamers? #I feel like that’s clear #but honestly I could see them doing this so I remain justified in my stance! #kinda #im actually just being annoying #and ​no i will not be naming names but I think you know what dudes I’m referring to #Sirius is very blank coded.. #Sirius I’m sorry :( #you know the drill I’m tagging this as anti even tho I’m NOT #anti sirius black #anti james potter #anti marauders #let me get this off my chest!