#i’ve been kinda sick lately and just really tired so i’ve been copying assignments and stuff and as an Overachiever thats been weighing onme

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ok yeah i’m just gonna rant in the tags

#maybe this is quarantine but i’ve just been so unmotivated lately #it feels like i’m barely scraping by and that makes no sense because on paper everything is great. and i have so much to be thankful for!! #but i’m just not getting that rewarding feeling anymore?? #like school for instance my lowest grade in a class is a b+ but it feels like i’m failing everything #and i know this is because i procrastinate and get anxious and whatnot but i just don’t really know what to do with this feeling #i’ve been kinda sick lately and just really tired so i’ve been copying assignments and stuff and as an Overachiever thats been weighing onme #like i hate not understanding the material and not earning success it makes me feel gross but #i always feel so sick during class i can’t focus #and idk we’ll figure out what’s going on as in why my physical health is so shit but i’m just so stressed right now my chest hurts a lil #like it’ll all be fine this will pass but god it feels like every day is the same and my joys are short lasting #and i’m trying my best but my best pales in comparison to who i used to be #i need to stop romanticizing the past and work on my toxic habits #but god life is just... mundane and difficult but i’m living one day at a time and that’s all i can ask for ig #if anyone has advice or anything... i’d appreciate it a lot #just wanted to rant #shut up annie #god if i could stop procrastinating and wasting time and shit i could actually have time to enjoy myself. half of this boils down #to time management like JESUS GO TO SLEEP YOU WILL FEEL BETTER #but it’s so hard to change your lifestyle. i’m overwhelmed and it’s all in my mind but it’s :))))))) #it’s like there’s a blue tinge underneath everything. light blue ish gray but not in a pretty way it’s just dull and cold #idk yeehaw sorry if this brings you down :/ #rant