#i’ve been picking at them again

[adhdandcomics]

one of those mornings

#BUT I FINALLY HAVE MY NORMAL MEDS AGAIN AFTER …. 2 MONTHS???? #picked them up TODAY #maybe i can actually.. work again… consistently… and pick out socks #comic #adhd #comics #executive dysfunction #can you tell i’ve been reading allie brosh’s stuff again

[sassycordy]

somehow these are the two guys in charge of the military & science divisions lmfao

audio credits: stereoaudios

#sassy cordy edits #welcome tooooooo my unofficial mcshep month ahha #i basically just pick a month & make all of the mcshep edits i’ve been wanting to make the entire year #and first up we got !!!! silly mcshep !!!! #it feels so nice to edit them again <3 #stargate atlantis #sga #mcshep #mcshep month #john sheppard #rodney mckay #stargate edit

[skimpilydressedwithanaxe]

Another day another post about characters that would not fucking say that™

#my right as a citizen to use the blorbification beam whenever I want #im two drawings away in that style to pick up flipaclip and make animation memes again #it’s either that or I learn to use capcut to make them eyestrain edits #oh btw I’ve been studying the possibility of making keychain of these guys #like some ppl suggested nd if I potentially were to make them #what style/character would you rather ? #rick and morty #miami morty #rick prime #scenemo #three headed snake

[voidscreamns]

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#i dont think i’ve talked my nonverbal!Diluc hc on here yet #but i keep seeing posts abt disability/chronjcally ill/neurodivergent hcs for genshin characters so here’s one from me #idk i feel like after That Night™️ and being on the run from the Fatui/working with a secret organization #diluc not just learns the ‘value’ of keeping secrets and staying quiet but also internalizes his guilt and trauma of saying smth that could #hurt people #it started with him telling Kaeya that he’s not a Ragnvindr anymore and then is exacerbated by his 3-4 Year Fatui Murder Rampage thru Teyvat #and with all ghat trauma and self-deprecation and paranoia he just. stops talking. #he picks up sign language in Fontaine and still writes but at some point he just stops talking and never speaks again #when he comes back to Mondstadt it was hard to adjust to for both him and the people around him #Kaeya initially assumes that Diluc just refuses to talk to him until he later hears gossip abt how no one has ever heard him speak since he #came back. he goes to Adelinde and/or Elzer abt it and they tell him that they neve even hear Diluc so much as hum or grunt #afterwards everyone changes up real fast— Kaeya and Venti drinking at the bar and seemingly just talking at Diluc but they’re always #observing his reactions and body language even when they’re drunk #Jean tries her best to be patient but she has a hard time reading him bc he’s changed so much in the time he’s been gone #Adelinde & Elzer and the winery staff are the most communicative he’s with— Diluc is far more likely to write with them to communicate #at some point Diluc has a business meeting with some rich dude from Fontaine or smth #Kaeya walks in bc he has an actual important mission thinf to discuss and he sees Diluc and this Fontaine dude and the dude’s wife #moving their hands so fast and with all kinds of gestured and stuff #and it’s the first time Kaeya sees Diluc look so EXPRESSIVE— he’s frowning and raising his eyebrows and mouthing words and all this #and Kaeya just goes ‘what’ #turns out the Fontainian dude is deaf and both him and his hearing wife know sign; she helps interpret this to kaeya for the dude and Diluc #and Kaeya is like ‘oh okay’ and goes to the kitchen like ‘i’ll just wait here till yall are finished’ #and he sees Adelinde and Elzer there with stoic faces and they just. stand there in quiet for so long. #Kaeya finally says ‘…..so. sign language huh’ and Adelinde and Elzer have the most pained looks on their faces #later that week Diluc finds like everyone around suddenly doing basic signs with him #he later learns that the winery has ordered a shitton of signing books from Fontaine and are trying to learn #+ Kaeya and Jean too with help from Lisa bc like dont you know learning several languages is a requirement for graduation from the Akademiya #soon the use of sign starts spreading in Mondstadt— there might be some small communities where they have their own native sign but it’s not #as standardized nor widely known as it is in Fontaine #this is getting really long so I’ll stop here but yeah. nonverbal Diluc who signs fjskdjs

[notebooknonbinary]

Post canon: since hunting is Obviously out (for Multiple reasons), I imagine the Dad Trips Hopper takes with El, Will, and Jonathan are fishing trips.

Will and Jon are pretty terrible at it, but El catches on quick and it becomes her and Hop’s favorite Dad-Daughter trip. And she gets one of those funny hats so she doesn’t get sunburned:

Anyway,, Will and Jon pick other activities to hang out with Hop because they do love their stepdad—they just really fucking hate fishing.

#jim hopper #el hopper #byers hopper family #will byers #I’m not really used to drawing El but I had to get this image out on my head #stranger things #vee art #I don’t know what will and Jon pick as their activities bc fishing was my family’s lolol #anyway #Joyce Hates fishing bc she gets motion sick on boats. but she’s happy for them to bring home fish:D #also: when hop figures out Will and Mike are dating he takes them all out fishing again. will is expecting Mike to hate it but— #—Mike actually really ends up enjoying it a lot. it’s good bonding for him and hop. #father &future son in law bonding😌 #I’ve been drawing So Much bc of bylerweek I’ve got so many sketches that I kinda want to post a sketch dump but don’t know if I should

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

I miss reblogging things :(

#I don’t have access to the computer at the moment so unfortunately I cannot do a reblog session (I have way too many likes to scroll through #so I just keep a tumblr tab open on the computer so I can pick up a reblog session right where I left off #without scrolling endlessly lol) #I miss sorting things and tagging things and rambling about things #I may look through Ghostbur posts I’ve already reblogged and just… reblog them again #it’s been a bit since I’ve done a Ghostbur reblog session :) #every once in a while I simply Must do a Ghostbur reblog session #it’s good for the economy (me) #or I may look through my 500+ tumblr drafts and post those lollllll #my post

[mifhortunach]

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#i’m a little drunk so forgive me please but #idk if it’s like.. bc i’ve been kinda down/moody anyway recently or if it’s bc i was gone for a week or bc i’ve finally picked up on it or #what - but i feel like legit kinda isolated now in work.. not in like some awful everyone deffo hates me way but in that bs olivia laing way #like it’s taken me way too long to notice that i’m not doing a good enough job making fuckn work-friends or whatever the fuck #& it’s so hard to say if that’s like. a me issue or if that’s bc fuckin almost all the people i work w are guys so i’m not a real person t #*to them!! probs fuckin both lbr - but it’s rly not helping shit yk #bc as soon as u go in knowing that ppl are talking 2 u for politeness then ur quieter so u look worse so there’s less talking etc etc etc #great fuckin stuff - ANYWAY remembered what i actually wanted to say #which was that i went to get some drinks w a friend earlier this week and god i wish i could like. this week just do ANYTHING #get properly pissed! see people & shit properly again; i miss having a proper social life and i’ve litch never had one #this is best left to be forgotten #so let’s not tag it lol - but anyway; anyone know how to make proper friends as an adult as a compulsive nonsharer & someone w/o interests!

[ringneckedpheasant]

i’ve been reading a book that’s an edited down version of decades worth of journals that some lady inherited from her gay uncle when he died in the late 80s (early 90s?) & in the foreword she talked about how he kept ridiculously meticulous records of like 60 years of his life that she had to sift through and I am just. having fun thinking about inflicting that on one of my sister’s kids when I eventually kick the bucket

#this guy was kind of reclusive and had debilitating anxiety for most of his life & that’s why he journaled so much #& I am just. I’m already a hermit I might as well be doing something in my spare time #& I also have a really bad memory & it bothers me how much of my life has been lost to time #& also this book is such a cool primary source text Because he was so weirdly meticulous #like records of every place he went to in dc and tons of stuff about the layout of the city #& it makes the past feel very close #marc.txt #sorry i just got back into journaling in february after like a 6 year hiatus #all my journals from ≈14–18 got such severe mold damage at the last place I lived that I had to throw all of them away #& it broke me of the habit & made me lose my motivation for a very long time #i’ve tried a couple times to pick it up again since then but this is the only time it’s really stuck

[sacredpit]

people are starting to read the jinhwoa fic i wrote in 2021 again

#/ tbd #i don’t blame them the tag dry as hell lol #but i’ve been noticing it picking up again with t8 out now & even if i haven’t played yet #i am devouring all of this delicious food #and it’s not a bad fic by any means i reread it myself sometimes but my writing style has shifted a lot since i wrote it #so if i wrote it nowadays it would be like completely different wkwhjwgwjsgejgewqs #but i’m glad ppl r still enjoying it almost 3 years later 😭 i’ve read jinhwoa fics from like 2007 so KAHSNSGNSGSND I GET IT

[ramblings-into-the-void]

I’ve not slept and even tho it’s already 8:30am, I will not tough it out and I will in fact go to sleep after spending the night writing a story that I will end up being turned into a lesbian scarian fic, transferring my favorite fics to my kindle (kiribaku and scarian mainly) and then deciding to also put a couple new fics for me to read (all of them being jean/armin), and then reading one of the jearmin fics (which has kept me entertained and then when the sun came up and my ma asked for my help with our dogs, I decided that I should eat after forgetting to eat dinner (this has become my dinner), and now I haven’t even been awake 24 hours, not even 20 yet, but I am sleepy and rambling now and I’ve lost the point of this but also maybe scarian fic will be posted in Like a month if I keep my motivation up (it’s going to be widely out of character but I don’t care because it’s silly to me and I don’t hate what I’m writing for the first time in a while and thinking of it as scarian made me laugh so) okay now I sleep we’ll see if I even tag this I’m

#do I tag those ships? #I guess?? #uhh #kiribaku #scarian #well that one makes most sense since I’m talking about writing a fic for that #jearmin #I think that’s the ship name for jean and armin #dudes it’s been a while since I read a fic of them and I think the last one was a college au where they were grad students and I didn’t #I didn’t finish it #I remember loving it #I think the reason I didn’t finish it was cause I had gotten the scarian brainrot #and it just wasn’t meant to be #but I think I’ll actually be able to pick that one up again #after I read this fake dating one that’s so??? #I’ve been laughing so much #it’s so sillt #I’m sleepy

[catastrxblues]

good morning it is now 4 am and i have just finished watching atonement good night

#atonement #next tags are just going to be personal rants ignore that #i couldn’t sleep at all so i tried reading s&b and then fanfics and then the bell jar but it just didn’t hit #so then i tried writing but i just kept crying so i thought i’d watch a romance movie because yes #should’ve gone for four weddings and a funeral or pride and prejudice because what the hell is this #i didn’t know anything about this movie i just remember having it on my watchlist and saw ONE clip so i picked that help #and yes i ended up crying and the tears are still here but i’m also starting to think that that’s not entirely because of the movie at all #i stripped my bed off its sheets because the bright color annoyed me and it was already peeling off anyway and i was too lazy to put it rig #and when i pulled back from the screen after the movie finished and just look at how bare my bed is and how i’m in the middle of them #i just started crying again #and my legs are aching and i hate myself and i think i want to take a shower but maybe i’ll wait later on #i don’t think i’ll sleep at all honestly i’m not sleepy anymore #besides i’m thinking of going outside today just at the park i don’t know doing something #i always sleep really really late lately because my parents are out of country right now and no one is keeping me checked and i apparently #still can’t take care of myself. cried about that too it was something. why am the eldest daughter i’m so not fit for it #and then i always wake up at like 9 am and it’s already too late by then that i just never do anything productive #and it’s like i’ve been living in a simulation and i’m kinda going crazy and insane but it’s okay because today is going to be better #i hope because i’m not getting any sleep and i can finally go outside at 7 in the morning instead when it’s already way too hot #damn this is supposed to be one of the best years of my life??????? fuck off #also i can hear the azan subuh from the mosque by the neighborhood and i miss praying honestly #it’s so funny because i was happy to get my period because that meant i wouldn’t have to wake up so very early on in the morning #but i miss it now #hopefully my period will end soon #nadirants

[milo-is-rambling]

Omg yesterday at my moms therapy I said how well I had been doing and feeling like I can actually handle life and my mom was immediately like “that’s because you’ve been taking your meds regularly again” and like completely brushed off any progress I had actually made and I had to be like yeah totally that’s it that’s why exactly when I haven’t taken my meds for a week straight in idk how long

#I was like yup totally that sure is why I’ve been feeling good totally #not at all that I’ve been spending time to do things I like and journal and process my feelings in healthy ways or that I am consciously #making strides towards regular person sanity #and she fucking brought up adhd meds again like FUCK OFFFFFFF HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY I DONT WANT TO TAKE THEM BEFORE IT CLICKS #I. DONT. WANT. TO. TAKE. THEM. they are a tool in MY mental health toolbox bitch back off my toolbox I know you fucking live adhd meds and #won’t shut up about them but I am happy now and I don’t like my brain on adhd meds and the only reason you want me on them is because you #like me more when I’m doing stereotypically productive tasks so you’d rather have me cleaning the house and not doing the shit I love than #you would have me not taking my meds and making art and writing poetry #like god #she just doesn’t fucking get it #I cannot create when I take adhd meds. that part of my brain just like dissolves. #the way I work is that constantly I have a million projects on the back burner in my mind and when I get inspired I make one #when I take my adhd meds I can’t just pick up a fun project I don’t get those ideas I can’t write poetry I can’t make art it’s like it sever #severs the line between my creative mind and my regular mind and I have nothing in my life that I need to be THAT focused on right now #but I have my perscruption still! like if I ever need it it’s there but that’s not your fucking decision that’s mine and you need to back #off my brain because it is a delicate fucking ecosystem up there in my head and I’m not going to fuck with anything until I have to #god. sorry. went on a bit of a rant. I am just so sick of arguing over my mom wanting to control the way I medicate myself. I am an adult #and she is not inside my brain so she needs to listen when I tell her how things affect me #she takes adhd meds like twice every day and hates the feeling of not being on them but I just don’t like them and she won’t fucking drop it #okay I am getting mad about adhd meds and my mother right before I have to be in the car with her all morning i need to relax #we’re going to psychic we’re gonna have fun #we’re not going to argue about this again.

[garoujo]

emmie has booked into finally get my brows laminated again! i’m so excite ໒꒰ྀི *´﹀`* ꒱ྀིა

#ʚ・◞📎 — em entry. #i’ve been meaning to get them done again for so long! #i’m so excited! i totes cant wait :3 imma pick up my patch test at my next nail appt

[fantasykiri5]

I’ve been a c!Joel drummer truther for MONTHS and you’re telling me the REAL GUY PLAYS DRUMS??? Is this what validation feels like???

#kiri rambles #I feel like I’m going insane #I start watching Ranboo again and immediately I pick up the latest speech patterns and get almost on the boober sync #and NOW this guy plays drums irl while I’ve been thinking about his stupid little cubito playing them???!!? #(also cubito is what y’all over in qsmp are calling them right? that’s what they’re called? I’m not sure I’m experiencing that mess- #-through osmosis. it’s great and absolutely absurd 👍) #anyways yeah just going nuts over in my little tumblr corner #joel smallishbeans