#i’ve been so burnt out lately

[charmedcleric]

I’m finally doing my line art and rendering for my astarion drawing woooo

#I’ve been so burnt out lately #bg3

[zsbrainrot]

Something about drawing Kazurei being able to peacefully rest together just soothes my soul.

#kazurei #buddy daddies #reikazu #my art #buddy daddies fanart #kazurei fanart #rei suwa #kurusu kazuki #suwa rei #kazuki kusuru #I’ve been having kind of a rough time lately #I don’t really want to go into details but I’ve just been feeling kind of burnt out and numb #and just kind of bad about myself overall #and some people I used to feel emotionally safe around I kind of…don’t anymore #so it’s just been a sucky time #but I’m hanging in there ❤️ #and I know it sounds silly but drawing Kazurei sleeping peacefully really does make me feel better #drawing them in general does but especially when they’re cozy and snuggly #I think because I just like imagining them feeling so safe #like something about that makes me feel better #I know it’s weird but hey a coping mechanism is a coping mechanism #so I may be posting a lot more eepy kazurei for a bit #and/or fluffy kazurei #I actually might do flufftober this year #because I need some fluff in my life #anyway sorry for venting in the tags

[bluejay-flies]

Uh. So. I might have made another art blog XD

I’ve recently gotten really into Minecraft again, and discovered the vast world of Hermitcraft. I’m honestly hyper fixating a little (a lot) so I might be drawing that stuff for a while. I honestly don’t know if any of my followers like that kind of stuff, but if you do, here’s the link xD

#Don’t worry I’m not abandoning this blog #I’ve just been a bit burnt out lately #and I’m tired of forcing myself to draw things just for pure content #So I’m finally self indulging a bit and drawing whatever I’m interested in #Hopefully it’ll take off some of the stress #Hermitcraft #Art blog #Minecraft #Mod speaks

[smply-sktchng]

Library Mouse

#chainsaw man #csm #csm fanart #csm angel #angel devil #chainsaw man angel devil #chainsaw man fanart #library #I’ve discovered the magic of stock photos #god bless stock photos #I know it’s grainy as hell but I do not care. I’ve been so burnt out lately — this is an incredible amount of work for me lmao #I haven’t been drawing a lot but. I think about him constantly. #I think he’s a fiction and philosophy fiend

[selfrinsert]

I wanna draw Charis in a bunny boy event outfit SOOO BAD

#rambles #I’ve been so burnt out lately cause work has been kicking my ass #but soon….they’d look very cute I think

[nctjpeg]

#so lately i’ve been thinking about a lot… #because i know i’m in a better place than i was at 12 or 14 or 21 or whatever #i have some of the things that i always wanted at those times in my life #i have an active social life and people constantly compliment me for my fashion and makeup and the way i look #but inside i STILL feel like shit!! #and i feel like i’m being melodramatic too bc it’s not like i suddenly became a celebrity or anything crazy like that #but i did go from 200 followers on IG to over 700 in about a year so idk if that illustrates anything #so like. people like me. people know who i am. people want to see me at events. #but i’m overwhelmed i’m burnt out & i feel like an outsider #and it makes me think how honestly? the times i’ve enjoyed myself the most were when i went to things and did things alone #maybe i was happier being that quiet girl standing against the wall? #my correct music opinions #sometimes i just want to disappear #not in the ‘i wanna die’ way but i guess i wish i could take a hiatus from being perceived

[bwambiee]

revampin’ da bloggie . . again.

#໒꒰ྀི𝒹𝒶𝓎𝒹𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂𝒾𝓃’ 🎧🧸꒱ྀི১ #hai haii ! #so sorrie if i’ve been away :(( mooties ! if i haven’t answered u don’ overfink! #will be replyin’ tew everyone’s words v soon ! ‘ve been soo burnt out lately sawbzzz . i needed a teeny break

[goldensunset]

but like bro i really have not done much drawing lately at all

#kinda got burnt out after last month #plus school stress and dread #i wanted something more to show for november as far as the ‘pick your fav drawing from each month’ end of year art showcase challenge #but i guess the simple brain headshot side profile will have to do #i think i’ve been developing an unhealthy relationship with art lately so it’s for the best if i dial it back #like i’m finding myself getting way too greedy for notes and compliments and stuff etc etc #getting bummed out if i don’t get the engagement i expect and even if i get what i expect it’s never enough #i’m losing sight of what i should be doing right? #so i should chill for a second and stop feeding that toxic mentality #the solution is to draw oc art #or even something i wouldn’t even post at all #however. i’m still burnt out and tired lol #december save me please i’ll make something beautiful again #peach rambles

[skylilywolf]

Put some new designs up on my Redbubble recently, just in time for the 30% off sale :3

#gremlinart #nature art #flowers #floral #rose #water #water illustration #stickers #hoping to get more stuff on there this month #just been busy and burnt out lately #I have plans for some like sticker packs #with a bunch of smaller things #might be nice as space fill stickers #so far I’ve planned a forget me not and mushroom pack #will prolly do some like leaves/ferns too

[levmada]

also i’m really tired of tumblr . still writing my longfics for aot and all but. i’m so tired of tumblr for reasons i’ve harped on abt before. so i’m not posting much writing on here rn

#am i quitting this blog? nahhh #but i think from the workload of my 1k event i’m burnt out #especially of writing smut and smut is all anyone wants #as far as my experience goes lately #that’s great and all but then i only get likes and i am Discouraged #and i’m burnt out on smut too which makes things worse #the tumblr environment just has been getting worse + writers have left and well i’m not having a lot of fun #there are a few moots and in general friends that are super great #especially one or two i can think of #but yk at the end of the day i’ve felt more and more like this and i have to think abt happiness n shit #plus i’m starting school soon #so #yeah #i might delete this #to delete #kane says

[reikunrei]

taking a week off from work in april for my birthday and I’m gonna be a maniac and binge all of stranger things again >:3 going to glue my eyeballs to the screen to absorb every little detail so I am Prepared for s5

#i say things #EXCITED EXCITED I’ve been so burnt out for so long #been getting better lately but holy shit I’m excited to take 6 days off

[deancaskiss]

you know when you’re feeling kinda sick but it isn’t a cold or anything like that but you feel super drained and tired and like all the energy has been sapped out of you and you just curl up feeling exhausted no matter how much you sleep? that’s been me this weekend. sorry I haven’t been active y’all :(

#bex talks #i feel so tired and so drained #idk what it is #just feel like someone zapped me with a sleepy spell and all weekend I’ve just wanted to curl up and sleep #gonna get a bunch of sleep tonight before work tomorrow and hopefully that helps #maybe this is what being burnt out feels like? #like maybe I’ve been pushing myself too hard lately? #here’s to hoping a good nights sleep tonight will make me feel better!

[luvkun4]

*starts another wip instead of finishing kinktober*

#i genuinely cannot help it #but tbh i unintentionally took a break from writing to game #and it’s been nice bc i haven’t felt burnt out #also these past few weeks i’ve been a little busy #however i still plan to write and post whatever i had planned for this month #it’s just everything will be late #but that’s okay bc they’ll actually be good !! #i’m rambling now but i truly do put effort into my fics #so putting stuff out late doesn’t bother me too much anymore #mostly bc i know i’ll have more creativity to pour into it #OKAY SORRY I TALK SO MUCH #ty for sticking around. ily <33 #[❕] txt.

[mainlyterrestrial]

When I wake up, it’ll be my birthday! 🥳

#nonsense #tomorrow for my bday I want to try to CREATE #I’ve been so burnt out lately with job hunting after my layoff and helping to navigate emotional crises #I just haven’t been able to #I have a job interview at 3 #but around that I’m gonna write or draw something. I swear it! #also I really want some ice cream #so maybe I’ll seek some of that out tomorrow! #I’m sure I can afford one scoop easy

[oncominggstorm]

My sister & I are both autistic and both share a special interest in Doctor Who (I got into it first, about 3-4 years before she did).

She has a HORRIBLE habit of texting me her live reactions whenever she watches something, even when she KNOWS I have not yet watched whatever it is she's texting me about.

Whenever she does this, I tell her yet again to stop doing it, and suggest that in the future she type her reactions into notes app and then send me the note. That way, she can still share her reactions without feeling like she has to bottle up her excitement, but I can wait to read them until after I've watched the episode so I don't get spoiled. Every time, she refuses and just texts them to me anyway.

She did this today with the new episode of Doctor Who. I've been sick and was still trying to sleep while the episode aired, so she watched it first and I woke up to lots of texts about it. I am HEARTBROKEN that she spoiled it for me. It feels like a gut punch, or like I was a balloon that was suddenly deflated.

I explained to her that I was upset, and asked her to apologize and promise to not do it again. She refused, and got upset at ME and said that I was purposefully trying to bring down her joy and excitement.

Word for word copy/paste of our text convo about it under the cut if you want more context/want to see exactly what was said:

Me: Am extremely unhappy because you texted me a million dw things and just from skimming push notifs I can see that SEVERAL of them are things that I would consider spoiler-y which is why I have told you HUNDREDS of times to NOT live text thoughts, and idk why you thought it’d be ok for this episode of all things. Like I have explained to you multiple times that we have very different definitions of spoiler-y Me: Like one of the MANY MANY MANY reasons why I hate when you live text things I havent watched is cuz your reactions to things are very different than mine, and so I see your reactions & make assumptions about what’s gonna happen, and then when it doesnt meet those expectations I get disappointed. Vs if I hadnt seen your reactions I’d have had no expectations & thus would’ve felt ONLY excitement. Me: Your reactions to things are ALWAYS over the top/make things seem even more amazing than they are, so when I see them my expectations get set REALLY high, so then what I watch only ever meets (or in some cases, fails to meet) expectations. Whereas you get the pleasure of having it exceed expectations. But I don’t, because seeing your reactions sets my expectations much higher than they would otherwise have been. Like I get you are excited, I do. But there is absolutely NO REASON WHATSOEVER that you can’t put your reactions in a note & send me the note, rather than text, so that I can remain spoiler free. Her: My reaction to this was TAME. Me: It feels like you are purposefully trying to miss my point/like you are not at all sorry about what you did, & it is really upsetting me. Like do you seriously not realize how not at all ok texting me all that was when you KNEW i hadnt seen the episode yet? Her: I feel like you are purposefully ignoring everything I said earlier about how I literally felt like I was about to die and needed an outlet, and I feel like you are purposefully trying to ruin my excitement and bring me down so

#I’m really upset #I’ve been extremely burnt out and depressed lately and struggling to find joy or excitement in ANYTHING; not even special interests #I have not felt joy or excitement in SO LONG #So for her to steal away some of the little bit of excitement I WAS able to feel because she just HAD to text spoilers? #Instead of using the INCREDIBLY REASONABLE alternate option I’ve given her of using notes app? #It just feels incredibly cruel and selfish at this point tbh #And I CANNOT BELIEVE she thinks that I am the one who owes HER an apology (for making her feel bad about texting spoilers I guess? Idek) #polls #spoilers #dw spoilers #doctor who spoilers

[otakusheep15]

Might try writing something tomorrow once I’m off of work, so be on the lookout for a post this weekend (hopefully!!)

#I’ve been burnt out and unmotivated lately #so hopefully I can get something done this weekend #I really wanna get back into writing soon #especially since I have a few inbox requests!!