#i'd given her little daughter some glowsticks we have in the backup liquor cabinet (cuz why the fuck not) and AAAAAND

[purge-that-urge-rhackathon]

i cant write x_x i dont know if this is even technically writers block but i sit to write and like the urge turns inverse x_x and i am troubled by it

#im troubled by a great many thing ahaha x_x #on the plus side a guest at work saw me drawing up the drink menu chalkboard (both in-process and way later done) and #i'd given her little daughter some glowsticks we have in the backup liquor cabinet (cuz why the fuck not) and AAAAAND #she said at first she wasn't very impressed (i mean its a shitty chalkboard and crappy crayola sidewalk chalk) BUT long story short: #i gave her my email and she wants either some cards or an entire tarot deck designed and im pleased as punch like what a compliment :) #it was indeed not at all impressive halfway through my shitty attempts at a godzilla or a phoenix for our drinks haha #IT LOOKED REALLY NICE ONCE DONE THO!! #...i cannot draw people very well but my abstract shit has hung in the congressman's office here in california so heeeeeey #thats all well and good and fun but like my writing ability has left me X_X idk whats going on here #ive been trying to abstract paint again as well and i more or less just ruined a canvas because it just wasnt working #i cant create right now and its driving me nuts and i dont know if i want to cry or sleep or dig a hole and crawl in #come join me in my hole ya'll xD ahahah x_x