#i'd love for my default emotion not to be sickening contempt but nevertheless here we are

[roombagreyjoy]

There's a void inside of me that can only be filled with the most primal of rages but also if I see a dog on the street I immediately stop on my tracks and say "awww it's a dog!" So there's that I guess

#the only constants in my life are apathy and anger but also puppies #i'm just saying if i had a dog i'd even make it outside on a daily basis and eat more than one meal a day #it's just so hard to take care of a dog though #personal #the fact that there's people that go about their lives feeling emotions on a daily basis is unthinkable to me honestly #like ok yes i experience happiness and joy but the underlying default emotions are always either apathy or just. pure unadulterated hatred #i don't know how y'all do it and to be honest i'm a little jealous #i'd love for my default emotion not to be sickening contempt but nevertheless here we are #i need new meds or something tbh