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lisysturniolo · 2 days

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𝐒𝐋𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 ୭ ˚.⁺⊹ .ᐟ

𝐒𝐋𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒!𝐓𝐎!𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐂𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐒

𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃!𝐂𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐒 𝐗 𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃!𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

𝐀/𝐍: hello!!! im back from the dead lolol! so this story is actually a snippet from my wattpad i’m writing and you should follow! my user is @lisysturniolo and the story is called saturn! ( if you see any mistakes, NO YOU DONT! ) enjoy! 🪐

𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: this story does have oc’s but the reader is called y/n if that makes sense. emersyn and estrella are sisters, you and kinsley are sisters, obviously the triplets are brothers, and rarity is a family friend of yours! okay happy reading!! 📖

⋆⭒˚｡⋆ REAL LIFE !

"i'm not going in that water with you!" you scream from where your umbrella is on the beach.

nick, matt, and chris decided to go to the beach for the weekend and thought to invite everyone. you mainly, but then you invited everyone else and they couldn't say no.

"why not? the weather is so beautiful n/n," rarity chimes, wanting you to oblige to her request. rarity goes and tries to get you up by your arms. "the whales and sharks aren't for miles away, let's just go."

"rarity, i'm not doing it. you know how i feel about the ocean." you pull your arms down and lean back in the chair.

"yeah i know, you're a fucking pussy," rarity laughs, sitting down on the sand near her, going on her phone. "where are matt and chris?"

"they're getting the cooler out the car." you pick up your magazine and starts flipping through the pages.

soon after, emersyn and estrella come over with nick.

"where have y'all been?" you question the three while they come over and lay on their towels.

"nick had to pee and i wanted to go inside for a few." estrella replies, laying on her towel face down.

matt and chris eventually come back with the cooler and a few gas station bags.

"i knew you guys weren't just getting the cooler, you guys took forever bro." rarity gets up from her spot and makes her way over to where the cooler is.

"ask this fucking kid why we took so long." matt comes over and sits down in front of you, leaning his head back against the edge of the chair.

you and matt are genuinely best friends. like you don't have awkward tension between you guys, you tell each other everything and even though matt has a suspicion that you might like his brother, he doesn't bring it up, knowing the subject makes you want to crawl in a ball and die.

"shut the fuck up matt, at least i got something for everyone." chris sets down the gas station bags on the cooler and sips his pepsi.

"can someone hand me my drink and chips?" you ask, and chris immediately gets up and hands them to you. you blush very faintly. stop fucking blushing you idiot.

"here n/n," he says.

"thanks."

estrella, nick and rarity all lock eyes and laugh silently. nick and his posse, consisting of estrella and rarity, all have been down your throat about this tension they think is upon you and chris. so when they started laughing, you just rolled her eyes and flipped your magazine again.

"how long do we all want to stay here again?" emersyn asks.

"maybe like half an hour? i'm trying to get my tanning in."

a few minutes after rarity last spoke, kinsley finally turns up from wherever she was.

all eyes eventually end up on kinsley and she widens her eyes and puts her hands up in defense. you tilt your head slightly and raise your eyebrows. "and just where the fuck have you been? i low-key forgot you were even here."

"i went to the hot tub inside, met a few guys, they're cool," she replies, getting her snickers bar and mountain dew from the seven eleven bags. "just came by to get my stuff. i'll meet you guys back at the hotel."

"were they at least cute?" emersyn giggles from her towel.

"some of them are, yes emmy." emersyn decides to get up and follow kinsley to the hot tub.

"just be safe and text me please." you beg.

"alright see ya later." kinsley walks away with emersyn, chatting away at anyone they could find.

everybody, after three more hours, decided to go back to the hotel and change into their pajamas.

the way this trip was set up is that everyone was in a different room. rarity and estrella shared one, matt and chris, kinsley and you, and emersyn and nick.

for some fucking reason, nick and matt wanted to talk about something without chris, and emersyn wanted to sleep with kisley to talk about all the hot guys they saw, go fucking figure, so chris and you had to share a bed and a room.

currently, chris was showering and you were sitting on your shared bed, watching tiktok and scrolling through instagram. when you heard the bathroom door open, you turned and faced the door, revealing a shirtless chris.

your eyes widened a little bit at the bluntness of him coming out the bathroom shirtless. chris noticed her eyes widening and chuckled, "i just forgot a shirt, i won't be like this for long,"

you didn't say anything, stuck in your own trance. chris was shirtless in your room. what if he wanted to stay shirtless? what if he just pulled you in for a kiss right then and there? not that you had a problem with that but what if everyone else di-

"you also don't have to stare either." he laughs, setting his phone down on the nightstand. and pulling up the desk chair to sit in front of the tv.

"sorry, i wasn't trying to stare." you mumbled.

"it's alright, seriously, you just seemed out of it. your eyes were really wide too." he replied, setting up his ps5 in the room.

"chris why are you setting that up in here? you're only saying for the night."

"yeah but matt wanted to play duos on fortnite so i gotta plug it up here."

you just roll your eyes playfully and go back to your tiktok, making sure to put your headphones on, knowing that chris would be screaming if he lost.

after some time, they got off the game and chris crawled in bed with you hesitantly. you notice his hesitant behaviors and decide to question him.

"everything alright?"

"yeah i was just thinking because did you want to put a pillow in-between us or did you just want to sleep together?"

you laugh and wipes your eyes, "you act as if we haven't shared a bed before."

"yeah i know but i didn't know if this would be different-"

"kid just get in the bed."

he sighs and gets in the bed with you, flipping over and going on his phone.

you wake up out of your dream.

your eyes start adjusting due to being closed for so long. but you didn't even have time to process your dream because-

"n/n, are you alright?" chris gets up and rubs his tired eyes.

"what? yeah just a dream."

chris yawned and pulled a pillow to sit under his neck, facing scarlette now. "do you want to talk about it?"

"umm, no not really."

"okay."

the two of you sit in slience, looking up at the ceiling for a little bit before you laugh, speaking up again. "do you think stars are actually big balls of gas or something else?"

"what?"

"like how do they get that shape? you know with like the pointed sides? how are they shaped like that if they are actually just big balls of gas?" you put your hands above your head, giving chris a visual.

"i don't know n/n, what do you think?"

"maybe like the angels made it so they look pointed for our visual and up in the sky, they are actually big balls of gas."

chris chuckles at the girls rambling but decides to feed into it. "do you actually believe everything that we were taught in school about science and everything?"

"i mean they are payed to teach us this stuff so, no not really. but if i find a cool tikotxk explaining how science works then, then i'll believe it."

he laughs, "so you believe everything you see on tiktok?"

"not necessarily, but i think it's just interesting."

"hmm," he yawns again." we should probably go to sleep, everyone wants to get breakfast in the morning."

"okay," you turn away from him.

before you could fully go to sleep, you very faintly feel chris's arm sneak around your waist and pull you a little into him.

#𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒚'𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁#chris sturniolo #matt sturniolo #nick sturniolo #sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #chris x reader #chris sturniolo x reader #nicolas sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #sturniolo fluff #sturniolo fan

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strawberryblue-blog · 2 days

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Disaster. Part 1 —Joao Felix.

summary: You see Joao again after he broke your heart and nothing goes as you expected.

warnings: none. enemy to lovers, exes to lovers, many curses, cute, soft.

words count: +2.3k

#SEXYNOTE: Don't worry, there will be a second part of this and it will come faster than you think. Thanks for waiting, sorry for being late. love y'all 💙

The Uber took you to the place you had indicated when you left home, right outside the restaurant where you were supposed to have dinner. Before entering you took your purse and took out a gloss to put some on your lips, it was just a little gloss to look more appropriate. Even though you had left work an hour ago and after a quick shower and putting on the first thing you found, it wasn't like you were ready for your date.

Yes, a date. A blind date that your best friend had set up for you, which you clearly hadn't asked for but had had to agree to when she was so insistent that you come along.

Camila had taken it upon herself to find the perfect suitor for you, according to her. You had absolutely no idea who this was, you didn't even know if it was true or if it was going to be a joke from your friend. She was very insistent that your partners were invisible because she had never really seen you with one. But you had never done anything official with anyone for a long time, you didn't invest your time in men anymore.

You walked into the fancy restaurant, which you allowed yourself to admire as you closed the door behind you. Your friend had mentioned dressing well and you felt a little offended when she said it, but now you understood. Eating here was probably going to be expensive but you could treat yourself for today and if it all ended badly on the date, you would never come to this place again.

"Hello, excuse me" you called to the receptionist. "The table in the name of Y/LN?" you asked at the girl's kind smile.

"Good evening, your table is table 9" she kindly replied checking on her computer.

You politely thanked her and as you turned to go your way, your legs shook. You were nervous and you were not one to get nervous. But the thought of sitting down to dinner with a complete stranger made you hesitate. However, you plucked up your courage and went on your way, spotting the tables guiding you to find your number.

A man's marked back made you swallow your breath. You were a few steps away from him and when your eyes caught sight of the young man with his back turned, you sighed, calming your nerves. I'll just be a while, eat, chat and then leave. «Be nice» You said in your mind. Above all you were going to be polite, whatever your date, you were going to make a good impression.

You took your last steps, approaching the table and when the boy heard you, he looked up at you.

Oh, no. No way.

"Hello, Y/n" he greeted with a smile.

You, on the other hand, frowned in confusion feeling your legs wobble. Damn it. It couldn't be. This was a dream.

"I'm sorry, I think there's been a mistake" you said trying to pretend you didn't recognize it. Your voice dropped and you looked to your sides in confusion.

But inside you, everything moved. This was not true.

"There isn't" the young man mentioned. "Camila wanted to get us together apparently" came back a chuckle.

Damn it. You couldn't believe it was him sitting there. He looked so changed. He really looked more handsome, more mature, like a real man. But in your mind he was still the young man from a few summers ago, the handsome boy who had been driving you crazy since you were little.

"This has got to be a fucking joke," you sigh in disbelief.

Your friend really is crazy, how could she think she could bring you on a date with Joao? The same guy who had rejected you years ago and broke your heart, you hated him!

"You look great" he announced trying to flirt.

"Not with me, Joao" you warn denying.

You don't know whether to be offended by the situation, whether he had been sent by someone who hated you in this life or what was the reason he was here. But he definitely knew you would be here, while you came here hoping to connect with someone else.

You felt somewhat frustrated by what happened that the hunger or anxiety you felt vanished and the urge to run from the place came over you.

"I-I think I should go" you stammered starting to walk.

"Wait!" you heard him yell but you started running to get out of the place.

Yes, you felt offended, humiliated and weird. How were you supposed to connect with Joao if you guys weren't speaking to each other since that day, you hadn't even thought about seeing him again. You were supposed to move on with your lives and never cross paths again. Had Camila lost her mind? Of course she had. There was no other explanation.

You stood on the sidewalk of the place with your head looking sideways, waiting for a cab to arrive as quickly as possible. Damn it! You'd come here for nothing, now you were hungry and a goddamn craving for Joao!

It was clear that seeing him again had had an effect on you, even more so when he looked as fucking hot as he did. You weren't the same as before, now you were both grown up and you had the strength to face him, but he wasn't going to play with you again.

A sigh escaped your lips as no one seemed to appear in the night. Great, what else could go wrong? You'd already ruined dinner, you'd drive home hungry and embarrassed. There were no cabs around and walking was not an option.

Lights flashed in your view as a car approached you, you sighed gratefully. When it parked in front of you, you bit your lower lip with a grimace. It wasn't a cab or an Uber. It was a damn sports car that was worth more than your entire estate put together. It was Joao's car.

You ignored him as he leaned out the window, averting your eyes to the road praying a cab would show up right now. You weren't going to let him drive you home, you weren't going to let him into your life again.

"Stop acting immature, get in" he indicated after a few minutes.

No one had shown up until then. Not even a damn bus that could take you home. But you couldn't give in.

You turned on your heels and started walking briskly, with your head held high and taking it all in. Getting a little further away was a good option and maybe on the way you would find a cab. Beside you, you could see the car start to approach you, and you pressed your lips together indignantly. Why hadn't he left yet? Wasn't it enough for him to see you running out of the restaurant or to ignore him here?

As you walked, the car's lights still shining on you, you could see out of the corner of your eye how he was getting closer and closer to you. You were starting to get annoyed.

"Get in, Y/n, please" he shouted from inside like a plea. "It's late, let me take you home safe and sound" he said again and you stood up with a start.

You hated it. You had done something wrong in this life for karma to pay you back like this, right where it hurt the most. Of course. It's not easy to forget when a man rejects you in your full youth, much less one you liked very much. And he had hurt you so much.

You sigh cursing and grab the doorknob of the car, opening the door to sit in the seat with a serious little pout on your face. You stare straight ahead at all times, not giving him the pleasure of looking at you even though you know he smiled like he had won the lottery.

"Don't say a word" you point out angrily. Joao nods with a chuckle and sets off.

The silence is overwhelming inside the car and you can feel the nerves stinging on the tips of your toes. Your palms sweat and you don't know what to do. There is no music, no words. There are only sighs and the voice of the geolocator pointing the way to your house.

The tension becomes more and more suffocating, at times you find it hard to breathe and your gaze wanders a little to the boy's place. You swallow as your eyes focus on his muscular thighs and you shift uncomfortably in your seat. Joao notices your tension and turns from time to time to look at you, making it increasingly difficult.

Damn it. Through the window you catch a glimpse of his profile and your heart races at the sight of him looking so calm, when you're a mess inside thanks to him. The heat in your neck makes you swallow your saliva nervously, the trip seems to take forever and you start to get anxious about getting home.

A current of electricity runs down your back when Joao's hand releases the steering wheel and goes to your leg. Your breath hitches and you freeze. His fingers dig into your inner thigh and you stifle a gasp in your throat as he gently caresses you. You want to grab his hand and pull it away but you cannot. He's left you speechless. You don't even recognize yourself right now, but the fire begins to grow inside you and you despair that you can't control it.

You're thankful when you start to recognize the houses in your neighborhood, knowing you're close to home makes you feel a little safe. You need to get out of this car before something else grows inside you.

When his car parks in front of your house, you sigh to fill your sick lungs with air. You haven't breathed easy since his hand caressed you and when his hand is removed from your body, the air rushes back into your system. You open the door, staggering, anxious to get out. You listen as Joao also gets out of the car and you watch him from the corner of your eye circle the car.

On his face is a seductive smile, a smile that makes you think he won. Damn it, you should never have let him bring you home. Or let him touch you. «Great, Y/N, you're an idiot!»

When he's close to you, he's leaning against the side of the hood of his car, his hands in his pockets, staring at you. Your body is on its side, you turn your back to him and it's now that you feel humiliated. You have to thank him, it's the least you can do for driving here but your face falls in shame. You hug your body, giving yourself some reassurance and turn around facing him.

"Thanks for the ride" you say simply.

The distance between you is prudent but you know that doesn't ensure you feel your belly contract as you see him there, licking his lips with his exalted gaze on you. Your eyes tremble as they meet his, you try to look away but you can't help but think how cute they are. Everything about him. Damn it.

"My pleasure, Y/n" he says softly. You nod with a grimace.

You make the feint to turn around but stop yourself. You can't, your body acts on its own. You run up to him and kiss him without saying anything. Even though you took him by surprise, Joao rests his hands on your hips and pulls you to him, kissing your lips. Your tongues dance in rhythm, while your hands are busy caressing his chest. The taste of his mouth is still intact in your memory, recalling your first kiss years ago.

When the images of that night that was so special for you (but nothing special for Joao) come into your head, you quickly pull away from him. Your lips are numb and heavy, your heart pounding and the fire in your chest burning.

It was a nice kiss but that will be all.

You won't see him again, you don't want to see him again. This is just part of your mistake in having gone on the date in the first place. Tomorrow you can forget about it as long as you stay away from Joao.

Just like that, you turn and walk quickly for home, escaping his nets before it's too late.

It's not too late, is it?

#football imagines #imagine #football one shot #fc barcelona #joao felix x reader #joao felix x you #joao felix imagine #joao felix

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kfedup · 6 hours

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Regretsy no more

Hey, y'all. It's the lurker here.

I've been in the funkiest of funkless funks for the past few months and over the past few weeks, I've been unpacking why. Seeing how much I'm isolating because of a constellation of health-related issues and generalized depression. Have been considering trying meds. But one thing keeps coming to the surface and I finally decided it's time to deal with it.

The one thing is the only thing in my life that I regret. That thing is never having finished my bachelor's degree.

I'm twice divorced, have lost several important friendships, and moved more times than I can count to places I didn't really want to live to maintain relationships I should have never entered in the first place, but I wouldn't trade any of those things. I don't feel regret about them. Why would I? I discovered who I am and who I am not because I experienced those things. Each of them allowed me to learn how to repair what's possible and how to let go of that which is complete.

I'm very good at this marketing copywriting work but I'm bored senseless. I want to challenge myself and taking online workshops is fine but it's just more interacting through a screen and lord love a duck, my spirit needs more. Plus, I am not using my gifts of communication, empathy, mirroring, and holding space for others in the way I know I am meant to use them. For two years I've felt like I'm wasting what's left of my life.

I am so afraid I will die full of this regret.

The cost has kept me from pulling the trigger on this dream for several years. I wish I started sooner, but clearly, I wasn't miserable enough yet. I'm well and truly stuck in the muck at the bottom of the lake about it now. There's nothing left to do but swim to the surface, so here I go.

Today I applied as a transfer student to the Psychology program at Kent State University to start classes this summer. It will probably take me 3 years to finish the 2 years I have left because I'm a single-income household and will have to work. I'm terrified I won't be able to manage both, but I hope I can rally.

I'm not sure if I'll continue on to get the Psych MA at KSU or go elsewhere to get an MA in Art Therapy after I finish the BA. I also want to get certified in Internal Family Systems therapy, so I'll be 63ish or older starting a new career as a therapist and I feel excited about my future for the first time in... well... I don't even know. A very long time.

I want a career that feels meaningful to me, helps people instead of businesses, and lets me use my gifts. One I can do until I'm dead because I'mma need to work until they're spreading my ashes.

I plan to take a class this summer to dip my toes in.

Holy shit, y'all. Lila will be a senior and I will be a junior on the same campus. She's so supportive and I've been crying happy-scared-overwhelmed-curious-excited tears all day.

Kelly's going back to college. Holy shit.

#it's been 35 years #that's a hell of a gap #my student loan debt can fucking die with me #no more thinking about it #time to grab it by the balls and swing

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tawus · 8 hours

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Happy Birthday to Zaddy Toji Fushiguro here are 150 towards devoted to him~<3

on the bed, on the couch, on the kitchen counter, on the table, on the floor, on the balcony, in the shower, in front of the mirror, semi-public, DA BEACH~, melons, front, back, sideways, legs open, shouting, tight, wet, bondage, gagging, lingerie, a man and his stick, doggy style, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, moaning, hair pulling, scratch marks, hickeys, loud loud, noise complaint, sheets gripping, jaw-dropping, tongue rolling, Twinkie, creamy, gushy, lip locking, pounding, vile, vulgar, name calling, oral, anal, 69, call the ambulance for me, legs tangled, bed soaked, bed dead, chair, chair dead, blow job, mind-blowing, make-outs, hickeys, an absolute beast, salty taste, 10 inches, 3 veins, bulge, woops~ my panties slipped~, whole cake ass bakery, biting, marking, claiming, single parent?, Megumi's half-sibling?, half-siblings?, daddy gonna get milk, your friends don't know what you taste like but I do~, Alexa be a darling and play Fantasize by Ariana Grande.

Oh! And water! LOTS of water

This is the oldest ask in my inbox and it’s about 4 months old 😅 Mokona ayo, you wrote it like you're ready to risk everything, including your happy marriage with Gojo, for a frisky night with Toji 👀 These are mad fertile grounds for Toji scenarios btw, so if y'all vote for one of these, I'll put out a lil drabble on the most voted topic 😌

Toji’s birthday is on 31st December apparently btw, which I consider to be yet another cruel joke by Gege 💀

As for myself, I wanted to write a scene from my Toji longfic idea as a response to this ask. In the conception of the fic idea, I often lamented (and still do) how reduced, sexualised, and simplified Toji is in 99% ‘Toji x Reader’ fics. But then it occurred to me that the goddamn scene I’d chosen to write for him and release to the world first – was chock full of sexual content as well. I was doing the exact same thing that I was trying to address in the Toji/Reader fandom…

I realised it doesn’t always have to be sex with him. So here’s some wholesome beachtime fluff with Toji 💕

Face to face with him at last. Just you and him. Like he’d always promised you.

At long last you could take in the calm stillness of his Zenin features, not strained by his resentment of the lineage, not squeezed by his rage with its present members.

His wide forehead was as smooth as sea. His onyx bangs oscillated like pirate sails over his fanning black lashes – ever a rebel. Even like this, with you. Even as his lips parted, guardless at last against you, not scowling and not pressed in his fury with his clan, ready to finally accept your seal. The dagger-shaped scar at their edge – his unique signature to every kiss he ever gave you, the subtle ridge of which you’d always licked before engulfing him in your love, the ridge you could never ignore — for it was Toji, his history, his mouth.

Even as his broad chest lay bare for you to hug, to embrace, to compress with your heart, to press your happy tears against…it wasn’t really the same.

In this sunlight embalming the beach, Toji finally didn’t push you away. He accepted you. He didn’t tense.

You hugged him tightly like you’d always wanted, while red streaked down the corner of his mouth like dry saffron and his emerald greens glowed emptily toward the fading sky.

The sky that was calm. The beach calm. The sea – calm. Toji – so calm.

Too.

Too calm.

Calmness attained only by one state.

Death.

#ask tawus #mokona #toji #toji jjk #toji zenin #toji fushiguro #fushiguro toji #jjk toji #toji x reader #toji x you #tawus #toji fluff #jjk fluff

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blueparadis · 7 months

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I thought I'll work on the last entry of kinktober after posting what I've written past month but dang y'all just keep disappointing.

#paradistalks #the way it makes me question my writing skill #maybe i need to improve #or stop ig?#at times like these i often just want to delete my every online social existence #like if y'all don't like this i better take my time writing a long fic that i have been wanting to experiment #most of the time these things doesn't matter to me... like i write edit and post #but there are times ( like this ) i should just do what others do... write a single liner smut and tag 100 diff fandoms with x reader tags #and long fics aren't even getting proper tracking lawl #but someday when I'll be super busy with my life and won't have anymore time to write and post #y'all will be here in my notifs with nice comments and asks and ofc polite ones specially #but i won't have time. it's just life :^)

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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if u want to get ahead of the game and block some nasty ppl before they ever have the chance to interact w you, you can just go thru the likes and rbs of a blatantly nasty post (e.g. a post catering to pedophilic pairings) and just ... block everyone in there. esp with the likes, this can effectively block people's main blogs so hopefully they won't even have the chance to see any of your posts. this can help curate your experience on here a little better sometimes!

#done this a few times and its blocked some chuckleheads who are weirdly secretive abt their proclivities lmao #just make sure theres no reblogs with someone saying ''hey man wtf this is fucked up''#bc then u dont know if the likes were for that response or for the original post djdksl #if any chuckleheads see this - I'm curating my experience just like y'all always say to do! peace and love on planet earth 🕊️🕊️#honestly i am tired of thinking abt all of this but like... it genuinely triggers me pretty badly any time i see smth to do w it #so if i can just remove any chance of me running across it in the future then that's going to make my life so much better in the long run #dandy.cmd #im gonna turn off rbs actually fhdkdl if anyone wants to spread this advice feel free to make ur own post!#with my mental health lately though i am afraid I'll attract harassment so I'm just putting this out here for any followers who see it #and ur free to spread this advice in ur own words if you'd like :] i just do not have the ability to deal w any potential harassment -#-if this spreads w my name on it fhfkdl perhaps im letting my paranoia win but alas I'll give it this win just this once

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byanyan · 4 months

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ㅤat this point, they're beyond wasted and vibing out to music that's too loud with several substances on standby for when the buzz starts wearing off. happy new year!!

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic status ⋮ fighting a fight i'll win anyway.#excuse to make use of this gif bc it's one of my faves? maybe.#but mostly i don't want to make an ooc post bc i don't much care for new years #THAT SAID....... i do actually have a goal for this year #and that's to finally ACTUALLY take fucking steps toward getting a diagnosis so that i can maybe start to be a functioning human being #for the first time in far far too long #at this point i'm p sure i'm on the autism spectrum and/or adhd and only having treatment for depression & anxiety #and having psychs guess at MAYBE things like bpd are the underlying main issue #then not actually doing anything about it #has royally fucked over my quality of life since middle school (:#i don't like talking much about my life bc it's genuinely so embarrassing #but i figure maybe baring a little of my soul will help encourage me to finally take steps forward.#this is basically my happy place. my retreat. my escape.#and byan has effectively become my comfort character and a bit of an outlet #so while i'm out here crying about shit i just want to say a huge thank you to all of you lovely mutuals who have kept me company #and put up with my sharp and glittery little freak and given me all these amazing relationships for them #i'd be doin a whole lot worse if not for y'all you have no idea #thank you i love you and here's to hoping that 2024 is good and a better mental health year for all of us ♡♡♡#...there's a good chance i'll be embarrassed enough to delete all these tags later tbh #but i'm in basically the last time zone to hit midnight so it's probably late enough that most people won't see it anyway lmao

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getting-messi · 1 year

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BREAKING NEWS🚨🚨🚨🚨

I AM ALIVE!!!🥳🤩💃🏾💃🏾

#omg im so sorry for being offline for so long #i miss this website so much :((((((((#life was beating THE HELL OUT OF ME😮‍💨#okay so first i'll talk about some of my thoughts with football and what i missed and then updates about what's been going on with me #**i really wanted to come back online and let y'all know what's up but my sis's getting married this Sunday so i ill FULLY be back Monday #i just wanted to catch up on my notification but I'll go thru my inbox on Monday/Tuesday #okay FOOTBALL:#screw psg like sincerly #i cant believe theyre causing all this mess with him after he took his family on vacation😭#like the pics are SO CUTE??? how could you possibly punish him for that #also it speaks SO MUCH to his character that he FULLY recorded an apology vid like i thought he just released a typed statement #he really showing them so much more respect than they are treating him #im still salty about the lack of wc celebration....and fans booing him outside his house?? losers LOSERSSSS #i also think they're trying to act snobby about not extending him but with neymar most likely leaving they literally have too much to lose #also neymar expecting a child???? how did not know the girl he got pregnant?? so crazy SO crazy #anyways im also not optimistic about barca and messi....as much as they may talk the big variable here is La Liga allowing it to happen #they were the reason behind messi leaving and they're the only thing stopping him from coming back #as much as i dont BELIEVE messi would go to Saudi Arabia right now....i still really hate the rumours about Al-Hilal...like shut up please #if all else fails.....Pep por favor please just bring Messi to city...its not too late #he can be on the bench i don't even mind....i just HATE him at psg but i don't want him to leave Europe #In other news....Arsenal.....my heart hurts too much and I've expected that they wont be winning the league :'(((((#NOW about ME :))))#bad news first - DESPISE my job LIKE to the point where I'm crying almost daily about it but i cant quit. i jus want one summer to relax #good news: OFFICIALLY DONE MY UNDERGRADUATE DEGREEEEEEEE💃🏾😭🤧✨#THANK GOOODDDDDDDD ALHAMDULILAHHHHHHHHHH #SO DAMN HAPPY SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!#i also took my graduation pictures yesterday (thank you to the anons that told me i should get them done)#and i took the NEW ARGENTINA JERSEY WITH THE 3 STARS AND MESSI ON THE BACK AND POSED WITH IT😭😭🤣#im OBSESSED with the pic omg if i wasn't so paranoid about showing my face on this website i would've shared it #but yeah and my graduation is JUNE 9th!!! I AM SO EXCITED! Got a really pretty dress and it literally couldn't come soon enough :)

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transvoxman · 2 years

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can’t stop thinking about my headcanon for why professor venomous left after everything “just” to destroy his very own planet with fink. it *isn’t* that he doesn’t care about anyone!! it *isn’t* that he ultimately cares more about power than literally anyone else!!! The actual reasons are twofold. Yes, it’s because he’s a coward that was terrified of looking anyone in the eye after everything he did, but the Main Thing is Actually that he felt like he needed to repair his father-daughter relationship with Fink first, and he prioritized it above repairing his relationships with anyone else. So he went to a planet far away from everyone else, where he could prioritize spending time with Fink above all else. Fink had been really really missing out on spending time with him for like, the Whole Show, and feeling neglected by him (e.g. all the times he was too exhausted after shadowy taking over to spend time with her, all the times he bought her gifts to make up for not having time for her), and then venomous started dating boxman, and made her move into boxmore, so his time was even more divided up between going shadowy, doing business stuff with boxman, doing couple stuff with boxman, and her not being an only child anymore. So PV decided that making amends with fink at the same time as apologizing to everyone else wasn’t enough. He decided he needed to dedicate Every Single Second to being with fink, on a planet far enough away from everyone that he didn’t even have the Chance to have his attention pulled away from her for even a Second. He spent so much time on a planet far away from everyone just to destroy it all with fink as a way to make up for all the times he didn’t pay enough attention to her, and all the times he wasn’t a good dad to her. And yeah, leaving everyone else for so long without so much as a single conversation or apology wasn’t right of him, but he had been taking care of Fink for longer than he knew anyone else who he cared about there, and Fink must’ve appreciated getting to finally spend so much quality time with her dad boss after so long of feeling neglected. It was the best thing he could’ve done for repairing his relationship with Fink, and tbh, I think that counts for something

#okko thoughts #transvoxman talks #long post sort of #I wanted to write a post-canon fic about this but idk if I'll ever find it in me to write fanfic again :(#since I'm so burned out all the time #but I can at least share my thoughts with y'all!!#unedited thoughts here so I said it in the longest and least concise way possible #but what matters is that I have thoughts that must be shared!!!!#idc if the ok ko writers intended this or not #if they didnt intend for pv to have deeper motivations than just 'i want power lol' then the ok ko writers are wrong

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sonicenvy · 5 months

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Rating Every Lotion I've tried so far from Trader Joe's

As a backstory to this post, I love Trader Joe's, despite its bougie, expensive nature. They have a lot of random fun products, and a few food goods that are for bizarre and inexplicable reasons the cheapest price around despite being sold by a mini bougie grocery store. (noodles at 99¢ for a 1lb bag comes to mind.) There's one near the library I work at, so I go there a lot after work. Their produce kinda sucks, so I usually go to a different grocers which is closer to my house for that. They do have theee best snacks and desserts however, (also box mac and cheese from TJ's is 👌) so I go there for that stuff. They also have an impressively large collection of soaps, lotions, shampoos, conditioners, etc. for a grocery store. I liked the first lotion that I bought there, so something possessed me to go, hmm let me try aaaaallll the TJ's lotions to find the BEST TJ's lotion. I have skin (especially on my hands) that is drier than the Sahara. (it's all the pottery). Note that this is not a TJ's ad, as I am in no way you know, sponsored by literally anyone. Without further ado:

The first lotion I tried ever from them was their "Ultra Moisturizing Hand Cream" This seems to be a product they always have in stock, so it must be a staple product for them. idk.

Texture: Thick, creamy, medium greasy. You don't need a lot of this lotion when you use it. For your hands you probably need like, a bit the size of a small pea. I find it to be fairly pleasant, as long as you don't use too much of it at once. I give this an 8/10, docked only for the slightly greasy factor when too much is used.

Scent: This lotion is unscented, which is nice for all of us with sensitive skin. 10/10 love unscented lotions, because I don't have to worry about whether the scent is going to disagree with my skin.

Container: This lotion comes in a metal tube that looks exactly like those tubes that acrylic or oil paints (and fancy water color paints) are sold in at art supply dealers. It's a charming aesthetic and makes it easy to throw in your bag on the go, which is what I typically use it for when I buy this. It has a plastic screw-on top. The container is sold in the store in a cardboard box, which feels a little unnecessary from a materials use POV, but makes sense from a "This makes it easier to display on store shelves" POV. The flaws to this design are: the plastic screw on top can crack, making it difficult to put on or take off, and when the lotion gets low in the tube, the metal of the tube becomes quite hard and difficult to squeeze with your hands alone. This makes the end of the lotion difficult to get out of the tube. I haven't tried cutting it open, since I like my scissors and my box knife a little too much to sacrifice to that experiment. I am also fairly certain that this container is not recyclable. This is probably the worst part of this lotion. 4/10.

Moisturizing efficacy: When the right amount is used, this is very effectively moisturizing lotion. Not perfect, and it takes a few tries to get the right quantity, but I liked it a lot 10/10t

Overall Rating: 7.5/10. The major downside to this lotion is its aesthetically charming, but difficult to use packaging. It gets major plusses for being unscented, thick, creamy, and very moisturizing.

The next lotion is the "Nourish Antioxidant Facial Moisturizer". A thing that sucks about TJ's is that sometimes they pull a product from shelves and it doesn't return for like, months. I assume this is because their stores are small, and they want to make room for limited seasonal products (which they have in spades for every season). This lotion seems to be currently off the shelf, which is a shame because I actually really like this one.

Texture: Thin, medium grease, mildly watery, but like, in a good way that makes it easy to spread quickly. No complaints about texture here. Big fan. 10/10

Scent: This is also an unscented lotion, which all facial lotions should be imho. 10/10 for that.

Container: This lotion comes in a small plastic pump container. This is great for at-home use, but bad for on the go, but honestly I'm not taking it anywhere, so I don't mind. The pump pushes out just the right amount to cover your face with a single pump, which is great. I haven't gotten to the bottom of this one yet, so I can't say how it will do at the end, but for now, it seems to be chugging along great, and isn't getting jammed. Also probably not recyclable. 8/10.

Moisturizing Efficacy: The single pump is enough to cover my whole face, plus leave behind a tiny bit to moisturize my hands with. Because it is a little bit thinner (but not, like watery) my skin seems to absorb it pretty quickly, and is nice and soft after use. It pairs nicely with my cerave face wash and my super goop unseen sunscreen (which I literally cannot recommend enough -- absolutely worth the high price). 10/10, no complaints, would buy again (if they still carried it that is...😥)

Overall Rating: 9/10. Outside of my general distaste for pump containers, because I think they're somewhat wasteful, I love this lotion and am very sad that it seems to have disappeared from the shelves of my local TJ's. Maybe it will come back in the spring???

Next up the "Coconut Body Butter" This one's a year round product that they seem to always have on shelf:

Texture: This one's nice, thick, smooth and creamy, also medium greasy. It's pleasant to use for that. However, my tub had a few weird solid/gummy chunks in it, that I was not a fan of. I think they were, like, hardened chunks of the lotion that came from the lid as I used it? They weren't there when I first bought it. 6/10

Scent: Fairly strong, but definitely pleasant coconut oil scent that lingers. Fortunately it didn't seem to aggravate my skin which is a plus. I personally find the scent pleasant, but if you aren't a coconut person it's probably deeply unpleasant, as it lingers after use and you can smell it on someone else who has used it from a couple of feet away (ie: across the dinner table.) 7/10.

Container: This lotion comes in a classic round lotion tub. The tub is made of unusually thick, clear plastic and has a screw off lid. The lid was sealed off with a bit of "sealed for freshness" type plastic, presumably to prevent people from opening it in the store. When it was completely full on the store shelf, I almost mistook the thick, clear plastic for glass because of its weight. But there's something, uh, funny about the lid! You're actually not supposed to open the lotion by screwing off the lid! Instead it has a flap life in the lid that you're supposed to use. I find that those things are typically fragile, annoying to use and prone to breaking at the joint, so I just forgo using it like that entirely and unscrew the lid instead. Round lotion tubs are nice because you can get every last bit of the lotion you paid for out of them, and you can clean them out to recycle them or re-use them for something else. Nifty. 7/10 for the confusing lid.

Moisturizing Efficacy: This stuff leaves my skin fairly soft after a use, if a little greasy. I can tell that my skin is absorbing it because when I had to wash my hands with soap and water not long after an application, the scent and some of the smoothness remained. I think some of it was certainly washed off, because my hands were no longer greasy. It's not as effective on my hands as the hand cream, but it's pretty good. 7.5/10

Overall Rating: 7.5/10. Docked mostly because the scent is pretty strong and the container is weird and confusing. Overall decent product however.

Up next, the "Firming Body Butter + bright clementine scent". This also seems to be a limited lotion (maybe a summer/early fall product?), as they don't have it in my store now that it is December.

Texture: This stuff is thick, creamy and pleasant to rub around on your hands. It is probably the greasiest of the TJ's lotions that I've tried, and it takes a while to absorb into your skin. If you get this stuff on your clothes, you might get a light grease stain which I'm not a huge fan of. 7.5/10.

Scent: As the tube notes, this lotion has "a bright clementine scent". I love citrus-y scents, which was why I picked this one up in the first place. The scent is very strong, much stronger than the coconut one. However, I am a huge fan of the scent! Every time I wear this around my mom, she's always like "What is that scent?" but like in a good way, and I have to tell her it's lotion, after which she always seems to ask if she can borrow some lol. 8/10 despite the strong scent because, uh, I like the smell. I don't wear perfume, so using this lotion's probably the closest I'll get to perfume lol.

Container: This comes in a pretty classic, soft plastic squeeze tube. It's matte and soft to the touch, with a cute, bright color. It's easy to use, and will probably be very easy to cut open to get the stubborn end of it out when you can no longer squeeze it. The light color matte tube does stain easily if you carry it around, so it looks a little janky after a while lol. It is also definitely not recyclable, which is not unusual for every beauty product ever. 8/10

Moisturizing Efficacy: The skin of my hands is pretty smooth and soft after use, but very greasy for quite some time as it takes a while to soak all the way in. Because it sits on top of your skin for a while, if you have to wash your hands off very soon after applying this stuff, you'll probably be washing some of it away. Otherwise quite nice. Between the strong scent and the longer lasting greasiness I'm definitely not about to put this stuff on my face, but it's great for my hands after the studio. 7/10

Overall Rating: 7.5/10 Plusses include pleasant scent, nice texture, easy to use container and decently moisturizing efficacy. Minuses include a little greasier than I'd like, takes a long time to soak in and the scent is particularly strong. Overall decent hand lotion though.

For today's final lotion review, we have the Trader Joe's "Fragrance-Free Body Butter" I've only just bought this one, so I don't have the full experience. I guess It seems to be a new addition to their line up, because they were handing out samples of it in the store when I was there the other day.:

Texture: creamy, soft, moderate thickness, somewhat more watery, medium grease. It almost feels like meringue and overly thick whipped cream had a baby. 9/10

Scent: As the name suggests, this is unscented lotion, which I like! 10/10

Container: Classic round plastic lotion tub with screw top lid. It's the same size as the coconut body butter, but made from a thinner plastic. It also does not have the weird, confusing lid of the coconut lotion. Maybe someone at TJ's design realised that that was a bad design choice and corrected it for this new lotion? Either way, this is probably the best lotion container style. You get to use all the lotion you paid for (easily) and can wash it out and re-use it or recycle it. I've re-used lotion tubs like this one to keep bar soap in when I travel since the lids are nice and tight. 10/10

Moisturizing Efficacy: Pretty moisturizing, if somewhat greasy. Definitely faster absorption than the clementine or the coconut lotion. Good to use all over since it's unscented. Not perfect, but hey, nothing's perfect. 9/10

Overall Rating: 9/10. I think I've found my new favorite TJ's lotion (That's not the facial lotion. This one has the benefit of, like, still being in the store lol).

That's all (for now) folks! Stay tuned as I try even more TJ's lotions. There are like 6 more on shelf that I've seen and not tried. At least. I think there might even be some fun mini scented ones in gift packages. I'm always trying out new lotions, because, again, my skin is drier than the Sahara. This is a combination of the universe going "fuck you" to me and gifting me dry ass shit skin, doing pottery, which makes your hands even drier and living somewhere where it gets cold as shit (and consequentially dry as shit) for like a solid 1/3 of the year.

#lotion #trader joe's #long post for ts #margaret babbles #I'm not sure why I decided to spend my day off saturday morning typing up this post #but uh here ya go #side note if y'all have ANY lotions that you are obsessed with please drop them in my askbox or my dms or the replies to this post #I want to know about ALL the lotions because again i am the victim of dry ass shit skin #y'all let me tell you that YEAR ROUND my skin can get dry enough to bleed especially around my knuckles and the bottoms of my feet rip #it is also scaly as shit all the time. y'all i got old people hands in my 20s because of this #my dermatologist thinks that my dry ass shit skin and my bouts of skin cancer could be related to some mysterious thing that's fucked up #about my immune system 🤷🏻‍♀️#yay for medical mysteries I'll never solve because I'm too broke to see that many doctors

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