#i'll go get mine right now!!

[scrappy-possum]

(good grief it been a while......)

anyway hi im not dead

heard it was a special bee's birthday (@realizinau )

so i opened ms paint and doodled this real fast

he put his knitting skillz to use and made a cute sweater :)

the next challange however is giving it to Bailee

#scrappy possum #digital art #oc art #realizin' au #realizin' au extras #< i think #anyway happy birthday littol bee :) #now the little ball of anxiety has to give this sweater to his cru- FRIEND #WOAH WHO SAID THAT :))))))) #HAHAHAHAHAH #(im so very sorry) #im crazy about ocs #so.... #aint no harm in a little thing right #(again im sorry. i hope it isnt rude of me to WANT two ocs to get together. considering one of them isnt even mine) #funfact: scrappy's creator also has anxiety and is worried she will be considered rude or annoying #Please don't indulge my stupid fantasies XD unless you want to #I'm not going to stop you but I'm not going to force you either (do whatever. s'not my OC) #Well scrappy is my oc #I'm sure you know what I mean..... #I'll stop talking now

[sivvan]

whipped | /wipt/ adjective

kim do ha

#userdramas #kdramaedit #kdramanetwork #mine #my lovely liar #lextag #udeokmis #roserayne #swiftletinthecloud #I DON'T KNOW HOW TO COLOUR DON'T LOOK AT MEEEEE #pretty sure every gif here has a different colouring but none of them even look good #anyway #the way he put up no resistance #“i want to see you” okay “i want to go camping” okay i'll hire equipment so we can go right now #like WE GET IT YOU'RE GONE FOR HER #i have been inspired by this scene #i want to make a whipped boys series lmao #sounds fun but it won't happen you say?? you're correct #also ps hated me with this set omfg the text effects and everything >:[ #ah man i need to change the colouring ksh looks so whitewashed on mobile 🤧

[nursemimosa]

all of the larry merch I have from the paldean memories line so far...

#that's right. i keep all those mf thangs on me. #i wanna get the rest but i am in no place to do that right now lol #these were all very belated bday gifts from friends who were in japan a while back #i also want some of the iono arven and nemona stuff #anyways when they make more jacq stuff and actual miriam stuff. nobody will be safe. #this was gonna be a post about my entire larry collection (adding fan merch) but i'm going to a con and might find more so i'll wait LOL #of all the SV characters why do and he and jacq have to be my kinnies (for secret venty reasons) #pokemon larry #larry pokemon #gym leader larry #pokemon sv #mine

[solradguy]

Got me thinking about Halo so here're some pics of the baby (Halo 3 Legendary Edition) and a few of the books I still have. Most of this was pre-ordered so it's as old as its original publishing date (2004-2009). I still have the box/sleeve for the Legendary Edition as well as the Reach Legendary edition (with the statue) and the Halo Wars special edition, but they're in the side room in storage. I used to have the guide books for 2 and 3 too but I can't find them so I may have sold them.

Halo's media is extremely well documented, I'm not going to scan these since they already exist online in decent enough quality

#photopost #long post #Yes the Master Chief figure sitting on the helmet's base is holding a tiny 3D printed Ramlethal Rattle #Hot damn complete sets of the H3 LE go for like $500+ now lol #I got mine for $70 in 2008. Gamestop was having a big clearance thing and I turned to my dad and was like #'If I don't get this now I'll never be able to find it for this little ever again' and I was right. Core memory #I pre-ordered the standard edition of 3 because I couldn't afford the LE at the time (think it was $120 at launch?) #And the Heroic Edition was just a steelbook basically. Not worth it for the $70-80 or whatever it was tbh #I ended up giving my original preordered copy to a friend when his disc broke #It still had the bright orange 'Do Not Open Before 9/25/07' sticker on it hah!

[lunarrepel]

I know a lot of people embrace the "Jenevelle Hallowleaf" name but for stoyline purposes and because Shadowheart even answers the question of "What do I call you now" with Shadowheart, she is keeping that name in my Act 3 and beyond threads.

#꧁༺ 𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏༻꧂ ◤ ooc ◥ #[ i don't know if i'll change my mind about this during my playthrough or through exploring more avenues and dialogue mining ] #[ but right now that stands. even on exile path ] #[ i really need to get a carrd or doc going. these announcements are so messy ]

[arsonist-chicken]

hopefully my last flatmate rant but hello this is not a drill, I got a spot in a student dormitory!! I'll know tomorrow when exactly I can move in but it will probably be very soon, and as soon as I know, I'm letting my landlord know I'm leaving and why exactly and be petty as hell on my way out and enjoy my new freedom 🥳🥳🥳

#it's a dorm by the airport so let's see if the windows there rattle like the ones in my old dorm did lol #it's a single bedroom with a shared bathroom and floor-wide shared kitchens which is not the room I was hoping for but #it's cheaper than my room now and maybe I can move to one with a kitchenette in march and until then it's fine #i've spent five years in a dormitory with shared kitchens; it's fine #let's see if 'the stench' miraculously disappears when I tell those [redacted] I'm leaving and they'll coincidentally have someone #they want to move in here. i kinda hope so just because it would mean less effort to find a new tenant for me #and my friend suggested letters to the neighbors saying goodbye and telling them who's been putting wine bottles in the plastic trash #and slamming doors at 2am #which i probably will. yeah. those two have made my life really unpleasant in just six weeks to the point I'm moving out #of an apartment I really like that's conveniently located and has a balcony. I'm gonna be petty when I leave. #mine #anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy you're all invited to my new dorm room to celebrate my new freedom #bring your own bed or sleeping bag as I am now back to a single instead of double bed; also maybe all just sit on the floor #we can stack up on the bed like pancakes I guess #hehehehe off I go hopefully very very soon to people who don't mock me daily and make me want to not go home #I technically really don't have time to move right now but oh well I'll make time #jess' flatmate rants #there'll be another one I'm sure but I can deal with anything now knowing I get to leave soon

[kickassfu]

what if?

and i mean what if

i just got my ass out of the chair

got dressed

put the clothes out to dry outside

and did something?

what if?

huh?

what if

#why does this seem like a poem? LOL #and i need to got to my 'sister's' place to take care of her dog after lunch #because she has to go to work and the dog is a ball full of anxiety and can't be alone for too long #so i should try to get something done around the house before i go #and the longer i take to put the clothes outside the more i'm wasting time and then the clothes won't dry properly #why am i like this #why aren't the meds a fix all #why can't i just do things #why must i hate myself like this lol #i'm just bitching dont worry #i'm going to get my ass up right now #ig i just needed to say it to do it #i'm breathing i'm doing it #cool #mine #ig i'll tag it as one of my poems hahaha #might as well make something out of nothing #my poems

[yo9urt]

local man completely obliterated by strength of narrative and character writing in 2023 game of the year

#mine #last night after putting it off for essentially as long as i possibly could because i knew it would decimate me #i finally attacked c4z4dor and (of course) kept ast4r10n as a spawn and basically finished up his quest #FUUUUCK ME DUDE....i knew what was coming in advance but that did not make it any less impactful #i mean holy shit the writing on this guy......the fucking graveyard scene (DO NOT GET ME STARTED)... #and of course neil's performance ohhh my god he deserves every award he can possibly have #god i love asta so much i'm literally never going to be the same this game is soooo insane #the only things i have left are the house of hope and then disabling the foundry and killing gort and doing the final fight stuff #i am ... nervous lol #ive heard the raphael fight is HAAAAAAAAARD #i'll find a way... #i think in the future i may reorder my act 3 quests i think it would be interesting to tackle some (ex companion quests or raphael) #sooner in the story #shadowhearts quest was like...3rd or 4th last thing i did cause i think i did that and then ansur and then astarion #i'm actually SO excited to replay the game i think im gonna have the time of my life doing roleplay and making diff choices #plus i know i missed a TON of stuff in this run so its gonna be fun to see what else is out there #after this im planning to do my first durge run which is REALLY exciting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i may do another regular tav run simultaneously but not totally sure.... #anyway yeah... awesome game everyone should buy it and play it its on sale right now go buy it and play it

[executiveibex]

going from the Lake Timea arc in PARTIZAN where the Ashen, their long history as the Hypha largely lost, are introduced thanks to a chain of events beginning with the murder of the Ashen elect of Past —

— to the Road to PALISADE Lancer game where Zeke and Dianthe are uncovering buried Hyphan history and a new generation of strati are learning from the dead to tap into their powers and defend their community from the Principality —

— to the Road to PARTIZAN Dialect game where everything about the Hypha is laid out, and suddenly you see the ghosts everywhere in their story since then... but also that even after millennia of persecution and forced assimilation and language death, one core principle of the Dialect game was ultimately adhered to, in the long spiral of history.

whether carried with the Hypha and their descendents or not, the dead were not forgotten. even if meaning was lost or changed or stamped out over time, it was found again.

... out of all the emotionally devastating moments in my personal sci-fi FatT seasons onion, this arc of events is the most affecting one by a mile.

#i realize the f@tt blogging topic of tonight is sexeter leap and his stolen dick HOWEVER #the dialect game almost made me cry at work so you're all getting my feelings about it #anyway nice to get to the road to partizan games at long last! #since i hadn't listened to twilight mirage i skipped them and went straight into partizan #which was a good decision at the time i think but every time they would reference one of these games in partizan i would go MAAAN #but now!! i FINALLY get all the context RIGHT when it will be most deliciously painful to me :} #and considering it's my busy season at work i don't think i'll have ANY trouble finishing these eps before palisade starts in earnest #mine #f@tt liveblogging #f@tt meta #friends at the table #the road to partizan #partizan #the road to palisade

[heffrondriving]

❝ Hey y’all — first of all, the show was amazing, but back in my room and I’m eating rice now without a fork, so . . . ❞

#the way kenny just. noms it right out of the cup nawww cutie-chii!! also as a lazy asian this method of eating rice is 💯 approved (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #that plus the classic schmidt floof curls™ peeking out of his dad hat and his somft voice and cozy vibes :'> does he know i adore him <3 #ALSO LIVING FOR THE WAY HE SAYS 'ROOM' THE SECOND TIME HE SAYS IT LIKE 'RÜM' A-LA MARKIPLIER HAJAJA IDK EITHER #btr #big time rush #kendall schmidt #gifs #gifset #edit #mine #rusher #btredit #btr gifs #kendork #stop it forever #anyway i'm pretty sure i've eaten rice in far weirder (and messier) ways but aye lez not go there bc my lola will k*ll me for it 🤐 #it's been a while since i made one of these kendall story gif thingies...i think the last one was the cardio and mimosas one lmao #he doesn't really post much stories (or post in general bc we stan a socmed-averse king) so i'll take anything i can get for this shrine #and yes these gifs look like utter dogtrash but i'm horrible at gifmaking and these are just for my own personal indulgence so :'^) #it took so long to get to this that it's lichrally the end of btr's forever tour US leg by now vad fan jag är alltid jattelångsam grngrhgr #anyway timezones be damned sneaking in one last post at work inb4 i get drowned out by documents to sign and stamp rip

[layla-carstairs]

I may be getting new bookshelves (they were my dead grandfather's)

#I also might be getting their room #since my grandma doesn't want to sleep in there anymore (she's currently sleeping with my mom) #and she doesn't want all the space anymore since she has significantly less stuff #she wants my brother's really tiny room & he'll move into mine #we're all moving to the left 😭 #my cousin it getting their bed & furniture set which mind you was orginally my mom's before she got married #will say its a good thing my grandparents live with us because while it makes the loss 'worse' for my mom & dad & brother & me #since we were a lot closer than people generally are with their grandparents/parents later in life/in laws #it's really good my grandma isn't alone right now and won't be when people have to start going back to work & their own houses #since we're still going to be here. especially me since uni's basically over now minus exams so I'll be home most of the time #idk thinking thoughts #if buddie goes canon on 911 I'm going to be watching it happen sitting next to be grandma lmao #bonding!! 😁😁 #bella talks

[joyridingmp3]

sick of studying. going to post my notes here: emotion focused therapy suggests that emotions form part of ones identity and as such aims to allow individuals to accept and tolerate their emotions instead of avoiding them. letting go of anger and hurt toward another person and instead building acceptance and compassion for themselves

#killing myself so hard rn #if im in this industry this time next year i'm going to be so mad #im making it my mission to pass this test and get registered and then immediately changing fields as soon as i can #ANYWAY for now i'll learn this >:( #mine #this is so simple its stupid. like literally anything can be therapy if you spin it the right way

[averagecatdoodlesenjoyer]

My Ukranian friend told me that she supports israel because she thinks that it's in a similar situation to Ukraine. Like Palestinians are these evil terrorists like russia who attacked first and poor little israel is just defending itself like Ukraine. Am I insane. Am I going insane. Am I actually fucking insane.

#I am Ukranian too if you couldn't tell btw. And I think that. Is a crazy thing to think and to say #All this time I thought that it's irrational for Ukrainians to not support Palestine when we kinda were in similar situations #And like. How can you go through something so terrible and look at people who are going through something like that and think #Yeah they deserve this. (obviously I know it's just racism duh) #But I guess I hadn't considered THAT huh!!!!!! #I'm so mad. And she sent me 100+ fucking messages about this. She's really passionate about defending fucking war criminals I guess #Like. I don't have to tell you all why that's fucked up right. #I am actually going to go insane this shit is unreal. How can you say that with a straight face #I'm not usually that open about personal matters but like #I don't have any friends now lol (better than being friends with racists and genocide supporters btw) so #it's either oversharing on Tumblr.com or just exploding so #also it's almost 5 am I'm going to fucking die but I feel better now so maybe I'll get some sleep I hope #I could go on for hour about every terrible argument she presented that left me absolutely flabbergasted but I'll refrain #for your and mine sanity #Good night and free Palestine. My final message. Goodbye

[713-4th-ward-g]

.

#fucking swear i hate my dad so much #I'll never forgive him for how he was when i was a child #and right when i was starting to see him as a decent dude #he goes and acts like a child #youre 54 years old and raising your voice at me when i did nothing wrong #his stupid ass was the one who cut the pvc pipe and he thinks me telling him how to properly fix it is me criticizing him #and i told him you want me to criticize you ? fine. why were you cutting below the water lines to the washer? #theres clearly an opening showing the pvc pipe and you were the one who cut there still knowing it was there so why did you do it ? #you want me to criticize ill fucking criticize #all he has to say while screaming at me like im the one who created the problem saying shut the fuck up an go to sleep i dont want you here #he gives a stupid bullshit fix for it talking about using glue 😮‍💨 like dude you need pvc primer and glue to seal it correctly not fucking #elmers glue and tape wtf i was giving him an actual real option to fix it and he cusses me out like im the one who cut the damn pipe #i tried writing in my journal but my hand keeps cramping up #i cant stand how much of a child he is #he has no emotional control he takes his anger out of my mom and i and i fucking hate having to be the one to back away and apologize #when its his fucking issue not mine he was the one raising his voice when all i did was give him sound advice to fixing the broken pvc pipe #and i get cussed at and screamed at being told im criticizing when all i did was offer a solution to his own fucking problem he made worse #on his own accord and now hes breaking shit and kicking doors and slamming them all the while cussing over something #that can be fixed its cool to be like fucking shit i fucked up and get that energy out but to fucking throw a temper tantrum and break stuff #is fucking ridiculous it fucking takes me back to my childhood and how fucking horrible he was to my sister and i.. #we walked on eggshells around him cause any little thing would make him erupt into anger and physical bouts... #lord forbid he has to do something around the house and he breaks something he will cuss and scream at us for no reason like we did it #but im in the one who has to apologize thats fucking bullshit #i really want to kill myself rn im so over the edge rn i just keep thinking of my mom and why i cant kill myself yet #not until she passes away i cant kill myself.. #i long for the day i die im so tired of living here

[keeps-ache]

look into my eyes

look !!

☯.☯

#just me hi #thinking about people hfvsh #they're pretty cool !! :> #there's like one person on this planet i'm not too shy to just Say that to. but if you are reading this and i've ever seen your url in my #life there's a 99.99% chance i. need you to just look into my eyeballs #no i don't know how that translates to admiration or appreciation. but it Does mean that hfvhsh #so like. eyestaring contest /extremely positive #//hm you know what whoever called me a cat that one time was right #i keep getting assigned animals (otter poodle goldfish bird(small) and a couple others idr hfvhs) but i think the cat one was closest loll #i get excited and bc people do not like it when you get Excited at them (rip my sibling but they get it. kicking them <3) i like to just #aggressively obtain eye-contact hvfsh #it's very effective! #//look into my eyes boy [you see a frog wearing a wizard hat spinning in the gloss of my eyes] #//funny tho cuz nobody knows what i'm doing when i do that. like dude what are you doin over there. why the periodic whale-eye #i am saying i care about you. look into mine EYES mothertrucker #//okay i'm going now hfhvs #i wanna try to finish this page today.. that would be cool :D #if not. well then i have something to do tomorrow!! #so bbbbyye i'll prolly be back in like. 10 seconds hfbsh

[arsonist-chicken]

Okay my fellow ADHDers or whatever else is up with your brains that makes it hard for you to study and study on time and study in a way that you actually remember stuff:

How do you get yourself to actually sit down and study? For me, the "oh shit deadline/exam soon, we can focus for a bit in emergency mode" hasn't worked in a long time now, which leads me now to an exam last week or so I put off to February and another one I would have tomorrow that I'm almost positive I won't go to because I never was in the lecture (clashed with another mandatory one) and only just now downloaded the stuff the professor provided, and I'm about ready to fall asleep so I know I won't manage it in time anymore anyway. And I have two other things I'd need done by tomorrow and I already know I'll cry during christmas break because of being overwhelmed not only because of staying at my parents' and missing my friends but mostly because I'll be overwhelmed at the prospect of January coming up with all the presentations and exams etc etc to get done, next to preparing for my main translation exams in February and getting started on my thesis.

So. HOW do you sit down and actually make yourself study? I came home at 7:30pm today, it's now 3:40am and I'm queuing this so that someone might see and have some sort of advice, because in that time I have finished one sentence of a translation that I'd been putting off for two weeks - ONE sentence - and revised the translation but like, very half-assed. I did not study for the exam although it was RIGHT THERE in my brain the whole time and I KNEW it was the most important thing and still, my brain just went kinda "eh 🤷🏼‍♀️" and I naturally didn't get my bills or even something I'd enjoy doing done. Just did fuck all for several hours that I swear didn't feel that long.

So, yeah, any advice on how to get yourself to actually START working and then sticking with it would be very much appreciated.

#body doubling only works somedays but often esp in the library i'm also irritated by other people #pomodoro etc doesn't work at all #help #adhd #mine #yeah i'M not doing that exam it's in 12h and I need to sleep now; I'm doing it in february #it's about how to build streets or whatever. not my studies but from the technology faculty as a chosen credit thing. #idk man i'm tired i can't think anymore. i chose it when i still thought i was going on erasmus so I'd be done in december #and not have clashing exams and leaving times #which btw i'm still upsetti spaghetti over. for ONCE i did everything right and put my whole heart in the application and they went na sorr #anyway. good night. #i'm exhausted and idk how i'll manage this semester and then it only gets worse because then there's a goddamn thesis to write #and after that i hope i'll be able to have some summer off at least before i start to work and will only have 5 weeks off a year until i die #or maybe retire if there still is a normal retirement age by then 👍 #yeah i“ #xm #jesus #i'm very excited to start fulltime work a #can you see it?