#i'll never do you no harm

[braedencox]

#oh darling #please believe me #I'll never do you no harm #digital art #digital collage #cactus #flowers

[dragon-tamer-1]

I want to be able to reblog people's art without having to worry about people's negative reactions when it's someone that a majority of people don't like, is that so much to ask?

Why must it be a problem if I like someone's art even if the person believes in something others don't? Why must people treat people like they're bad for liking someone's art and writing when others don't like that person because of their beliefs?

I'm just hanging out and reblogging art and writing that I find enjoyable. In the end that's just what I'm doing when I reblog stuff. Enjoying it. If it's something I don't enjoy/like to see, I just block the tag or, if it's a specific blog that I decided that I didn't enjoy and don't want to see I block that blog as well. Otherwise just vibing. I don't hate anyone that doesn't like someone else of course, but the way people talk about that one person, it's like they think it's the worst possible thing for someone to enjoy that person's art and writing. I just can't hate someone based on that person's beliefs, it just goes against my own personal beliefs, and I can't help that I still enjoy those things.

I try to keep the drama and stuff off my blog cause I'm not about that. And it shouldn't be treated like some kind of crime to still enjoy someone's art/writing/etc just because other people don't like that person, in my opinion.

#vent post #i only feel this way cause someone on anon asked why i still follow a certain person cause i reblogged that person's post updating their fic #and i think it's weird that if people don't like that person. then just don't like that person #i just enjoy the art and writing #i only see hate going to that person yet that person has never spread hate for anyone to anyone #i just want to reblog stuff without it becoming this big thing of drama #discourse tw #stop spreading hate and just move on #at this point it just seems like toxic behavior (not attacking anyone. just how it feels to me) #like i said you can freely dislike someone #its just that it seems controlling when you want others to think like you do and dislike who you dislike and congorm to your own beliefs #I'm just here to enjoy art and writing #regardless of who it's from #unless that person has legitimately hurt people #just block certain tags and the person you dislike and move on #i don't think anyone is bad for liking or disliking people for their own reasons and personal beliefs #i also just cant hate someone for their own beliefs. especially since they're not hurting anyone with those beliefs #sorry for the down mood #this whole thing is just tiring for me and i just want to enjoy the things i like without being all “man people are going to dislike me - #just because i still like the art/writing of someone that everyone around me dislikes. i just want to enjoy stuff why must it be such #a controversial thing to just like something “ #can't we all just agree to disagree instead of being mean to someone who likes something /someone you don't? #liking and reblogging stuff that doesn't have any harmful stuff in it can't hurt anyone #i wish this stuff didn't make me feel as stressed as i did #I'll be fine #i just want to enjoy the art and stories that i came to love by the people who made them #regardless of their beliefs #cause i think that just because someone believes something doesn't make them a bad person for believing that

[cyborgsurprise]

This is like my worst nightmare: imagine tripping with a friend and seeing this shit. Trill is yea close to turning straight edge.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #dark urge #dark urge spoilers #durge spoilers #act 1 spoilers #ch: trill #I imagine Tav is the one who suggests she try the noblestalk #'what's the harm! I'll be there too!' #never trip alone and all that #but how do you explain these memories to your friends

[craycraybluejay]

Flashbacks to when birthgiver talked about how she and her brother used to always stand up for/protect each other and little me casually just accepting this as a core value despite never taking anything else any adults said to me as a kid as a core value. Like, yk what your opinions are stupid and useless except this one. Siblings should always protect each other and take care of each other no matter what. Above all else.

#parentify me more why don't ya #except for once it was a role i wanted and even needed to accept #the one caveat i very much did not internalize was 'never protect them from ME or any other abusive adult with direct authority' #like teachers and stuff #not sorry you are the one thing they need protection from #hell will freeze over before i allow any harm to come to a sibling. your schoolmates SHOULD be scared of me. I'll fucking beat their ass if #they try to bully you #woof! bitch. you're messing with someone under my protection and are about to get your face bitten off #tbh its anyone i care about. someone hurts my loved ones they should start praying. #you will die!!!!! don't even fucking look at them wrong!!! i am fucking watching you!! #'aggressive' and 'unstable' pff just say you don't understand love. being the protector has always been my job #the therapist. the punching bag who learned to punch back. the gatekeeper between all that is good and all that intends to hurt it. #i will protect until the day i die because That Is Who I Am. i will do what was not done for me. i will burn the earth to keep harm from #anyone under my protection #delete later #too emotional

[miodiodavinci]

writing out my to-do list for the semester and feeling an overwhelming wave of terrified nausea like ohhhhh this is going to suck so so bad huh

#and i haven't even gotten to writing down the weekly responsibilities of my actual Internship yet #this is just the university and state deadlines ! ! ! ! #(and not even all of them because my professors have not released all their due dates yet) #lads i think i am going to be crying and having many a panic attack this spring unless i can forcibly shift myself into a dissociative stat #that craves neither rest nor pleasure nor any other state beyond being hunched over a computer and writing for my life #(face in hands) i'll survive it for sure but. god. #the really frustrating thing is that the department that is supposed to be preparing me for The Big Test has. #created artificial deadlines for each component of The Big Test that. do not include the final component of The Big Test. #they really just said 'oh yeah and fit that last on in there somewhere when you get the chance :)' #'yes we plan for you to be ready to submit the second to last part within days of the submission deadline' #'but just remember to also fit in that last part somewhere' #'during your free time probably lol' #anyway skfdgjkhdf #i'll survive i'll survive #i have survived literally everything the education system has thrown at me thus far and none of it has resulted in physical harm #i am pushing the boundaries of my body's stress tolerance and that means that everything in the future #will be that much less stressful in comparison #just gotta get through it and then i never have to do it again . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #(unless i go back for my masters or something which i will. probably do at some point unfortunately.) #(this user is prone to suffering)

[gideonisms]

sometimes I like to think that maybe there is an older version of me who has different problems and understands why I was the way I was and is able to have pity for this version and maybe would come back and sit next to me if she could. I'd like for there to be a sexy 40 year old version with silver streaks in her hair and glasses. I'll probably be obsessed with myself if I get that old. I've always wanted to look like the one random lady general from the first 30 minutes of any star wa rs movie

#sometimes i think! you know i felt bad about my religion for the entire first 18 years of my life and then it just. stopped being a problem #well it didn't stop being a problem it became an entirely different problem opposite to the one i had #i felt weird about liking women for ages until once again. it became a totally different problem! #idk there are so many things about me that probably are just going to be different someday. i never like to assume i won't change #maybe one day i'll even muster some compassion in my soul for the version of me who lived from 2013-2022. idk. that one's difficult #it's easy to look at yourself at age 11 and be like aw she was trying! give her a break #ages 17-27 are harder. she was grown up all of that was cringe and fail #being kind to your past self is for people who never actually did any harm #i've been kinder the past few years by just leaving a situation when i get angry or sometimes prematurely before i can make anything worse. #but it's not like i'm a better person i just take myself away until i can be nice #i kinda hate that bitch (me) but like what are you going to do. it's wildly impractical to live in that emotion #better to have other emotions instead so you don't think about that one

[thestarmaker]

jfc why do so many people think smoking weed and driving is any less dangerous than drinking and driving??? It makes me both mad and scared, and yep I definitely know not to be in the car w you behind the wheel

#if you 'need' to smoke to be less afraid of driving then don't fucking drive!!! #and if you can't Not Drive then work on not fucking smoking beforehand!! #i fucking hate it. so many cars at bk reeked of weed and apparently everywhere i work I'll have at least one coworker who thinks it's fine #and like. cool so you don't realize you're putting everyone else at risk too? not just yourself?? fuck off #any kind of intoxication is dangerous to drive with. i don't fucking care if you think weed makes you a better driver #BC IT DOESN'T!! it fucking doesn't. it harms your reaction time at the very least. #i smoke daily and even i know to never drive high. it's pretty fucking easy to not do. #backstory here is that my coworker who wants to smoke weed w me (which is fine and cool) #said she and another coworker are gonna take a bong rip in her car before they. drive home #and i said noooo thank you to joining them bc fuck driving high!!! are you kidding me

[andthebeanstalk]

My sister-in-law frustrates me to no end even though we barely ever interact because she keeps inviting my partner to parties with her Christian Republican friends, even though my partner told her not to send an invite to us if those friends will be there. And even though my sister-in-law is bisexual!!

And then she turns around and complains about not knowing how to deal with her friends saying, like, horrible sexist stuff as though that is just some natural unavoidable quirk of having friends!

Like, these Christian Republicans she has befriended don't seem to be kind - they're not even nice a lot of the time! They don't make for good friends, and she doesn't seem happy or supported in relation to them. In fact, she basically only ever talks about how her friends and/or current boyfriend are making her unhappy!

Because here's the thing: The effect of prioritizing 'including your Trump-supporter friends at your parties' over 'being invested in creating a safe space for marginalized people in your home', is that people who DO care about creating those safe spaces... won't wanna hang out with you! Because if you invite both cats and mice to your table equally, only the cats will show!

She's so afraid of losing the shitty friends she has now that she allows them to act as barriers to accessing friends who are invested in her wellbeing in a capitalistic hellscape!

It makes me sad because she's basically trapped herself, and there's nothing I can do to offer help without either compromising my morals or making my partner's life way harder by starting shit with her family.

Like, I consider myself a good friend, yeah? I try really really hard to be one, and it matters to me immensely. I am ride-or-die for the folks I love, and I am invested in being open and vulnerable and radically safe to be around when it comes to building strong friendships that are mutually fulfilling. I have a unique talent for validating people that I have honed for years because I genuinely want to make sure people feel safe and loved and seen.

And if my sister-in-law and I were friends, I could give all of that to her. I would strive to be an example of what it looks like when someone decides to care about you and treat you right on purpose, without expecting anything in return but your mutual respect. She would be family. She would be [Queer] Family. I would see to it that she knew she could call on me when she needed a friend.

But like.

This asshole has invited me to hang out with Trump supporters on multiple occasions.

We ain't gonna be friends.

#original #diary #family shit #I'll just continue to act friendly at family events #my friends help make me a better person. i don't think she could say the same for hers. makes me mad and sad #reminds me of the time i had to end a friendship bc a woman i had been inviting to group events revealed to me that she was #literally friends with Kelly Ann Conway. yes the aid to the president. that Kelly Ann. and when i tell you this friend of mine did NOT #understand why her defending Kelly Ann Conway made me feel unsafe. it was WILD #that's how my sister-in-law reacted when my wife was like 'hey stop inviting my non-cis ass to parties with transphobes' #both made arguments similar to 'i already don't have many friends why do you want me to lose more??' #like girlies you can't invite me and a bunch of homophobic Christians to the same party what is fucking wrong with you?? #you can goddamn bet if you came to one of my parties there wouldn't be anyone there who'd try to defend the Trump administration #loneliness is frightening and painful and no joke but cowardice is no joke either #and this attitude meant that my wife and i could not safely rely on her when we went through several crisis situations #and this is something i find difficult to forgive bc shit was touch and go over here for a couple years #my wife isn't even as salty as i am about it but she never is when the primary person harmed is herself #maybe if sister-in-law recognized the flawed behavior and changed but she probably won't tbh and i have shit to do #have fun with your fascist friends girlie i wonder if sometimes it feels more lonely than if you were alone #have fun practicing the white silence our parents got so good at; you're really carrying on the family business your dad must be so proud < #i haven't had to deal with friends saying sexist shit for literal years sorry you've made yourself unsafe to trans people i guess #making friends is hard i know that all too well. but i also know that the more friends i make who make me feel sad and small #then the less time i have for friends that make me feel loved and motivate me to be a better person. time=limited. people=over 6 billion. #school was harder because the amount of folks was more limited. same with small towns. but we are all ADULTS LIVING IN CHICAGO #capitalism makes finding friends harder too but like it has GOT to matter to you that Trans people and POC feel safe #we each have control over whether oppressed people feel safe around us. don't fucking waste that.

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Anyway on a brighter note, if I was writing these stupid ass books, we'd have a Mechafarm with an animatronic horse already. Just saying.

#it would be dope as hell okay??? #what would i do with it?? i dunno! #but animatronic horse would be the Guy of All Time lmao #call it equinophobia and have the animatronic horse be 100% realistic... #in that if it kicks you when you're crouched behind jt #in that if it kicks you when you're right behind it... #well hey! you didn't need that skull anyway right? no harm done! #lmao listen!! horse walks you into the ocean never to be seen again!!! #horse leads the kids away like a hooved pied piper!!! #GIVE ME A COOL FUCKING HORSE #bdjdjdid #scott let me on the team right now i have a horse for you #just give me the okay and I'll give you horse #trade offer: you get horse. i get andrea a safe distance from a publisher. #its a win win!!! #lmao anyway

[3rdrateduelist]

Telling queers not to have kink at Pride is like telling cishets not to be sluts over Spring Break like what are you thinking

#it's actually so much worse because both kink and pride are forms of radical self acceptance and rebellion against oppression #like if you're going to try police the things I do in private that harm no one you best believe I'll put those things on your doorstep #and if the second I put them away for your comfort you end right back up in my business #you better believe they'll never get put away again #but the spring break comparison is superficially similar because can you imagine how a college student would react to this

[mosstrades]

Every day I want to smoke and every day I don't because I know that beyond the arch of juvenile, relieving self-abandonment, is actual self-destruction, and there's nothing good about fracturing your ability to enjoy being alive (let alone, like, stay being alive). But when it's already difficult to connect with the 'enjoyment' part (to feel it at all, to feel you deserve it or to even believe it exists, sometimes), and you *also* take away the self-abandonment, you sort of have... nothing left going for you except the effort of self-betterment. And that's, y'know. Hard.

#not helpful that every caretaker ive ever had has been a chainsmoker #this also goes for: drinking (though less so) #and *especially* for self harm #both direct classic kinds and more insidious ones #(forcing myself not to barehandedly take cast iron skillets out of the oven at work? harder than youd think!) #ive been lucky that even though addiction runs in the family and i have mental illness ive had enough countering influences to #not fall into that trap before i knew better and could get support about it #but barreling towards your 20s like a deer towards the highway will do this to you i guess #Anyway today im going to swallow down the cynicism and try to start doing yoga and journaling again #i'll never be happy like i was but i can find something else. id rather it be nicer than getting drunk off cider and pretending i dont have #to go to work tomorrow which is what i actually want to do #nah. yoga and journaling and eating dinner. like someone who wants to live. wants to see as many sunsets as he can #and live a life where emotional intelligence and connection are not hindered #and who knows. someone who gets to feel peaceful sometimes #the effort isnt futile. it feels futile and childish but it isnt. there is a world where my heart is coherent more days than it is a fist #and thats a world worth the effort of building it #sometimes it feels inevitable though. like i *have* to come as close to self-annihilation as possible in order to earn having survived #a siren song that wont rest until i answer it and if i survive then I get to live #and everything before is just fantasy and prelude #and everything after is actually real #...guess thats something to journal about later instead of the cider thing #they werent lying that come of can age lmao #nick.txt #self harm recovery #addiction cw #vent #yeah yeah im oversharing to the void i know. its been a long summer

[polzkadotz]

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#gonna be venting I guess lmao #this is what happens when you delete your twitter account I guess lol #I'm getting real tired of being me but above all of being someone struggling with substances. it's hard to be kind to myself #especially because I feel like I dont deserve it #I'm burying myself in debts I barely talk to my friends I'm trying to build routines but it all falls apart the MOMENT I relapse #I've self-harmed for the first time in years I've been more suicidal than ever and I can actually see my body breaking down #and it's hard to care about me cuz well. I've never cared about me. and every time I talk to the people I love I try to put on this front #bc I don't want to upset them or make them worry about how unwell I actually am #and honestly...... I'll be so surprised if I survive until the rest of the year. I honestly don't see myself surviving past my nephew's bday #and that's... two months away? how can it be two months away already wow time really flies when your a piece of addicted shit #not the best way to refer to myself but Oh Well lmao #I'm sorry I'm not a good person to be around friendos. And I'm sorry if my death is gonna affect you/traumatize you but like #me dying would make the life of a LOT of people better. and I think it'd make me happy to go out by doing a good deed I guess lmao #anyway #here's wonderwall

[mako-island-moon-pool]

You want to know how bad my memory is?

I was writing last night and I just straight up forgot that Sanji exists. I have been watching this show since 2012, he was my fave Strawhat outside of Luffy pre-TS, and I FORGOT HE EXISTED.

I was like 'hm yes well the ones who would understand are Nami and Robin... W- wasn't there one more I was thinking of a moment ago? Wasn't there another one who'd Get It?????'

'it's not Chopper. Definitely not Usopp. And it's not Zoro. That's all the remaining Strawhats at this point in the story. So... Why am I convinced I'm forgetting someone? Let's go through the arcs in my head agai- OH MY GOD, I FORGOT SANJI'

#When I tell you my memory is shit... 😭 I used to own a Sanji shirt. What the fuck?? #When that post about the memory issues finally leaves my queue #Like I joke about it but this shit can be genuinely terrifying. Like knowing my brain is getting worse. Knowing I'm probably forgetting #Seriously important things and just 'oops I can't remember haha' #It's scary. #I'll never get better because I'll just relive the pain over and over because my brain refuses to remember the help and progress I make #Every day I wake up back at step 1 it's so depressing and scary and horrifying and I hate it #I can never process anything bc I just forget and if I do remember it's like a punch to the chest for the first time every time #And people get SO sick of you after a while. Constantly asking for help. Never remembering anything. They get so annoyed with you. #Anyway. On a lighter note (not actually) I'm trying out a new one-shot :) #Not to speak ill of the 'soon-to-be' dead but Garp was a shit grandfather #So I was like What If Me And Luffy Had The Same Reaction #Because self love starts in recognizing your self through the other god damn it #Even if I finish this idk if I'll post it bc of how personal it is but it has been very cathartic to write #Then again I could just publish it anonymously so my irl friends won't see it. No harm no foul. #I (kid) once pushed my mom (grown adult) out of my room when she caused me to have a meltdown so I could 100% see Luffy doing the same thin #In my defense she had a habit of taunting me and destroying my stuff to punish me after inciting meltdowns and I just wanted to be alone #I was like 7 years old at the time (hell year hell year) so I doubt I actually hurt her. She just looked surprised. I remember that. #Sometimes I wonder why I identify so much with werewolves and then I remember ah yes. The childhood of being treated like a monster. #Like a freak because when people kept pushing your boundaries you'd rather bite than let them do whatever they want to you #Oh boo hoo such a terrible thing for a child to be... Protective of themselves... #ANYWAY. like I said this wasn't going to be much lighter. #I want Luffy to punch the lights out of Garp to protect his friends. Not even in-canon just in this fic #Ik in-canon Garp is a complex guy and loads of fans love him but... Smash eggs make sandwiches know what I'm saying? #Yeah GROOVY

[eugeniedanglars]

lord help me i'm about to become the patient every doctor hates and argue with my psychiatrist based on google

#listen the woman is very nice i'm glad she picked up on my polite hinting around my anxiety/possible pmdd and prescribed zoloft #but also she's so overly cautious that it's driving me fucking crazy #she made me get vitamin testing and an ecg. okay sure no harm in that #she wrote me a prescription for high-dose vitamin d supplements. fine it's actually cheaper than otc stuff #but now she's making me go to a fucking cardiologist because i have respiratory sinus arrhythmia?? #respiratory sinus arrhythmia is fucking good for you!! it means your heart is healthy and has good parasympathetic output!! #(admittedly my ecg just says 'sinus arrhythmia' and 'normal variant' so theoretically it COULD be a different type of sinus arrhythmia) #(but like. it's fucking not. i don't have heart disease and i've never had a head injury or taken digoxin #and also i can literally feel my heart rate change when i inhale and exhale and i've been aware of it for years) #and also!!! i cannot find a single goddamn paper that even suggests methylphenidate is unsafe in people with sinus arrhythmia!!! #also as dental students we send a lot of consult requests to cardiologists so i KNOW how much cardiologists hate doing unnecessary consults #like they are NOT nice about it they get extremely bitchy and passive-aggressive #anyway. i did make a cardiologist appointment so if she can provide me with an actual good reason for concern i'll keep it #but if not then i'm cancelling that sucker. sorry i'm not wasting my time and money just so a cardiologist can tell me #that i'm allowed to keep taking the medication that i've been taking for 7 goddamn years with no issues #personal post shut up

[bleuberrygliscor]

sometimes trying to find out what happened to a blog you liked turned into a long deep dive through the Farms and 2016 CallOut posts written by people who do not know what they are talking about, seconded by the people who are actively dismantling the community youre apart of, to defend teenage girls wanting to take selfies with Hard Lemonade and designer bags they got from escort jobs.

#rem rambles #casual reminder that Jir*i girlies will be shot on sight <3 #imagine saying menhera promotes self harm when there have been Jir*i bands that encourage their followers to post pics of their cutting. #i'll be real with you chief. ive been into menhera shit for a long time. i have never felt the need to relapse due to it. #i want every Jir*i girlie to read Metamorphosis (the manga) and let me know if youre still down with the cause then. #i want you to look at the lifestyle you are encouraging these kids to have and i want it to sit on your fucking soul. #you look at the movement that says 'cut your clothes- not yourself' and say ''thats abelist'' #but you turn right around to the one that encourages alcoholism in children - escorting - doing drugs and being 'passed out' as 'cute' #and say 'nah thats feminism. we're reclaiming a slur <3'

[scientistredacted]

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