#i'll probably get sent there to work it

[beanghostprincess]

TW // Food , EDs

Something about Usopp getting sent to an island where delicious food is used as bait and he has to actively fight to eat (thus probably ending up just straight-up not eating some days and relating food to negative experiences) and Sanji constantly using food to serve and make others enjoy but barely eating himself because it isn't as rewarding and he doesn't really care about his well-being because he is used to starving (both physically and emotionally).

Like-- Usopp not really refusing to eat but kind of having a defense mechanism/odd quirks around it (eating too fast, keeping food for later, feeling safer if he straight up doesn't eat, or directly not being hungry at all) and Sanji actively just forgetting to feed himself and when he tries to do so he isn't... Full? At all? or satisfied? It just leaves him emptier. He likes giving food to others, that's what completes him. Eating just because just feels wrong for him.

So you have this guy with strong defense mechanisms against food who treats it as a necessity to live instead of enjoyment and another who treats food as an enjoyment but ONLY for other people and never himself.

And I like to think Usopp, after spending so much time getting used to storing food just in case he can't go hunting for more, still does the same when he's back with the crew. But he doesn't even know why he does it exactly. He is eating. He doesn't need to do this. But then he realizes he always thinks about Sanji whenever he keeps food. Usopp notices Sanji barely eats if the food is something he gives to himself, but gladly enjoys it when it's somebody else's doing. So Usopp just waits until everybody is out of the kitchen to approach Sanji and go "Hey, um, would you like to share the leftovers with me?" and something like that. And Sanji does end up eating more than usual which is, you know, an average meal.

On the other hand, Sanji stays with Usopp while he eats and speaks to him. Makes him feel safe so he doesn't have to make everything quick and running. Make him see that he is alright and he can take his time to enjoy the food without any worries. At the end of the day, they end up eating together after the whole crew has gone away, but that's more than fine with them.

#they mean the world to me okay #as somebody who struggles with food these two characters are my beloveds i would do anything to see them happy and full and eating #usopp getting sent to an island full of food that probably will end up killing you is something that can be so sanuso coded and also #so fucked up. my boy :( we don't talk enough about this #i mean. we do talk a lot about this i've seen people doing it but we need to talk MORE #one day i'll talk about how sanji goes to an island where he finds himself running away from himself and he's afraid and anxious 24/7 #it's like they swapped places and i find that perfect #anyway the food thing-- i think they get better with time being together #after wci it gets... worse. but it's alright they work on it together #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #tw food #tw eating issues

[answrs]

WEED STANK IS OUT, POKEMON TRANSFERRING IS IN!

also I'm pretty sure the *moment* I finish moving everyone my OG ds is gonna materialize out of the ether, but better to get it done now than rely on luck digging it out of a box somewhere.

#scraping in under the wire here but! the DS works! and I've done my diamond to black transfers already #next is plat and y and ss #i think that's it for the ones that need to be sent to black to get them in bank #then I'll probably throw this ds back on marketplace or wherever. pass it on to someone else looking for one before the deadline

[fruitsyrups]

Random yes but thank u for making that frusan art awhile ago it's adorable and i love seeing more art of this underappreciated ship :D!!!

ahhh thank you!!! frusan is so underrated FOR REAL, i guess it's probably because after Islands they all but disappeared (like i think they were only shown twice after that and that's including in Fionna & Cake (which i actually missed when i watched it bc its such a brief glimpse)) but like. still. I actually have a little idea for another frusan drawing (frieda and susan talking on a roof grown-up edition) but I have to break up the dialogue into parts & think of more Susan Reactions so it's not just Frieda monologuing at her lol

#frieda is such a compelling character to me augh because seriously living on the islands sounds like. idk. scary in an existential way #like if I lived on that tiny(?) island always with the same people and didn't have hope that I would maybe someday get to explore someplace #new and meet new people. i would explode i think. #and frieda HAS hope & the drive to follow through with it #but then susan goes robo-mode and like surely any hope is just GONE after that #thats such a crazy interesting dynamic can't believe everyone else on earth isn't also insane about this #obviously it's not susan's fault that she went robo-mode but it's still recieved as a betrayal yk. so sad :( #and then susan went after finn & they probably all assumed she was dead #AHHH??? i can't even imagine how that would have felt for frieda?? like imagine you're trying to get off the islands and your favourite #person won't go with you but she helps you. but then she betrays you (not her fault but yk) and then (i'm assuming its not even that long #after) she's sent off the islands and she goes willingly #like wowww way to rub salt in the wound susan omg (i love susan this is not susan negativity) #my little angsty hc about that is like. frieda still holds a little bit of resentment towards her for what happened but she knows she #shouldn't because what if susan was right? what if she left the islands and it wasn't safe and she DIED? #but then also what if she isn't? what if she just left and it wasn't worth coming back? what if frieda wasn't worth coming back for? yanno #stuff like that. AGHHH hhh i love frieda #and then they go adventuring together and work it out and kiss on the mouth #uhhh i'll stop myself there before i write a whole essay in the tags (or maybe i already have ahahah...) but yeah. i love frusan :3

[sxcret-garden]

hmmmmm i feel like doing a few short drabbles for some instant gratification but for whooooo

#probably either just ateez or some atz and some dream members #i'll assign prompts myself cause we all know i won't get anything done otherwise jdhdnxnx #hmmmmmm but if you guys want i could maybe let y'all vote for a few ppl #that y'all reallyreally want included? maybe djdhjxnxnx #also at this point sorry to the two ppl who send me jisung thoughts - i'm trying to work with them but he just sparks so little ideas for me #sent* #jdbxbxbnxbx #ye a h

[rotisseries]

i think my zelink playlist is my only good one like this shit is devastating genuinely

#the one exception on there being I would do anything for love by meatloaf #which is a classic case of “I like this song so much that I'm gonna black out and insist it goes here anyway even if it maybe doesn't” #lyrically that song is fine its just that the rest of the playlist is sad indie shit so it fucks with the vibes a bit #anyway this post is kind of a lie my el and max ones are also good and also probably better than the zelink one #it's just that 99 percent of the time if I make a character/ship/feeling playlist I get like 4 songs in it #go “hmm I'll work on this more another time” and never touch it again. so. most of them suck #and that's part of the reason my entire spotify profile is private #but the zelink one. well it's technically also not done to me hence why I made it in may and then never sent it to gloomy #hi gloomy sorry gloomy #but it's like 2 hours long which in retrospect is I think a normal length for playlists but not to me not if it's you #2 hours is normal if you curate that shit I don't curate my ideal playlist is an 8 hour monstrosity with every song #that even briefly induces character feelings #so um. georgia by phoebe bridgers though #anyway I was actually listening to the zelink playlist today bc I was thinking about ANOTHER couple. um😐 #and it was genuinely getting rancid awful radioactive in my brain so I was like “FUCK THIS!! I NEED TO THINK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE” #and forcibly induced a zelink breakdown #prescribed 500 ml of zelinkism to combat The Diseases

[izzy-b-hands]

I really wish blocking someone meant their stuff wouldn’t wind up on your dash at all. Like I understand why it doesn’t, but. still.

Actually, I just need to get better abt checking source urls before I reblog. I try to be mindful, but now and again I Forget and have only myself to blame lmao

#text post #I would love to reblog their art and be supportive in that way at least but tbh #every time I accidentally reblog it I remember checking out their blog and seeing how they talked abt fans that like Izzy and the izcourse #and it's like oh no that's right you hate ppl like me and ur art might be gorg but maybe we just shouldn't interact #they do their thing and I'll be over here doing mine #what really needs to happen is I need to remember to check urls on fandom art to make sure it isn't any of the folks I had to block lmao #but sometimes I get excited bc the art is genuinely lovely and i do like it and think the person is v talented! #and then i forget to check and it's only after scrolling my dash that i see my reblog and the url and go 'oh. fuck. that's right. damnit.' #it's a weird feeling to be like yes I want this person to have fun and make gorgeous art but also it seems #they've made it p clear how they feel abt folks like me and so maybe they would prefer i just fuck off #which i tried to do by blocking!! and yet. here we are #i delete the reblogs whenever this happens so they don't have me in their notes but #i do hope they know their art is lovely and I appreciate their hard work even if we wouldn't otherwise get along with each other #idek why I'm blogging abt this I guess bc I feel like usually it's either or online? like u either hate each other or u don't #but I don't hate the folks who sent shit to me or the folks who condoned it i just wish i had found a way to get along with them instead #as useless a wish as that probably is #and i don't talk abt it a lot but it really bugs the fuck outta me sometimes that we can't just start over and try to interact generally #no messages no trying to be friends just reblog from them if u like and otherwise ignore each other #which has been a thing that's worked fairly okay in other fandoms tho things have happened in others to change how workable it was #but for some reason in this one i feel like im just always walking on eggshells to interact w/anyone bc it feels like everyone is waiting #for someone else to say something they vaguely disagree with and instead of just like. blocking and moving on w/the fandom experience #it turns into a massive mess that even if ur on the fringes of it all you still get pulled into or sent shit and just. #idk it doesn't matter bc ultimately none of this does but dang it the show has been special to me and hits all my special interests #and it's hard to let go and accept that there's no changing how things went and how they are and how this fandom experience for me is often #very fucking lonely even when i'm bursting at the seams to share and to hear from others what they think abt anything and everything w/it #no one is gonna read this tag essay lmao pls scroll on

[magentagalaxies]

went to toronto again for new years weekend and spent pretty much the entire time hanging out with paul bellini which included us rewatching a bunch of episodes from kith s4 during dinner on new years eve. and y'know the second best thing about watching kids in the hall with paul bellini is getting to hear a bunch of behind-the-scenes backstory about the inspiration for sketches, previous versions that never saw the light of day, , etc. but the actual best thing about watching kids in the hall with paul bellini is when an entire sketch will play without comment and at the very end he goes "the fuck was that?"

#i already sent a similar thing to the kith discord like right after this happened but i can't stop thinking about it that was so funny #the specific sketch he was reacting to was mark's monologue about having no sex appeal #(paul had completely forgotten that one bc he didn't write it and he wasn't even there the day it was filmed) #we were specifically watching s4 bc he's seen seasons 1-3 fairly recently but s4 he's less familiar with #partially bc he and scott spent so much of the year working on chalet 2000 #but yeah i'll do a full end of the year post as soon as i get the rest of the pics from hanging out at bellini's apartment on new years eve #but yeah this weekend was so fucking good. like we've really come full circle #from the days when i'd joke on here that ''paul bellini is my bestie'' bc he replied to my comment once #bc now i genuinely consider him one of my closest friends and it seems like he sees me that way too #like just the fact that we were hanging out all day both days i was in town even if it was just like running errands together #and any time someone called him he'd make sure to mention ''jessamine's here!'' and he sounded so happy about that #and we watched the video of my standup final together which i used to cringe at just bc i low key bombed in front of the second audience #like i think the performance itself was great the audience just wasn't giving me any reaction #but even tho paul had clearly watched that video multiple times he was still laughing at a lot of it #and making sure to note whenever he genuinely thought i had a great joke which was often #so now i have a completely different association with that set bc i got to see bellini enjoy it #i don't have a specific favorite kith member (i know it seems like it's obviously scott but i love them all for different reasons) #and it's also complicated by knowing some of them irl bc my relationship to each of them is so different and great in their own ways #but yeah there's something so special about my friendship with bellini #i'm so excited to move to toronto full time next year bc i already know i'm probably coming over to paul's for dinner at least once a week

[pearl-kite]

Finally, an interview invitation. Sucks that it's only a part-time position, but foot in door etc etc

#kite rambles #part-time curriculum and instructional coach for the school district #i can be part-time at the pharmacy and part-time there #one place dead-end one place with so much potential for movement #and back in education! but behind the scenes! how ideal! #unfortunately they sent the email today and the only interview slot was this Wednesday morning and it's like whoa short notice much #i guess I'll try to trade a co-worker for a closing shift uuggghhh i closed all last week #flu/covid season means they probably won't look at me too funny for wearing a mask to hide my snakebites #“yeah i work at a pharmacy so i get exposed to a lot of sick people and i don't want to spread anything if i caught something mhmm mhmm” #like... for an interview I'd personally prefer not to wear one because facial expressions can be so important to look hireable #but idk how much facial piercings would be held against me #it's one of ten part-time openings though so i THINK my chances are okay? depending on how many people are applying for part-time positions? #right?

[i-eat-deodorant]

Hi there!! Is there any chance I’d be able to request a Heket x reader from you where the reader wins Heket’s favor through some kind of cooking contest? Perhaps theirs doesn’t look the flashiest but it’s definitely the tastiest! Quality of flavor over appearance style

going to address this since i don’t want it sitting in the inbox for a couple months again, but i'm not fond of bishop ships and even less of x reader ships. while this isn't a 100% no, my motivation depends on how much i want to write something and i'm very reluctant to write either of those things ^^;

#are you the one who sent the previous HeketxReader request last year? #i did work on a draft but it didn't get anywhere #if i do return to it (unlikely) i'll finish that one first #sorry about that #feel really bad about answering this but i don't want you to wait for a prompt fill that'll probably never come

[tvrningout-a]

this is gonna be ambitious of me, but once i send out the last of the asks i owe, i'm gonna focus on clearing out my inbox! and... if i can stop myself from feeling bad about it... whatever i can't find muse for, i'm gonna delete ( with the exception of any unprompted asks, ofc! ). you're welcome to send me something while i'm doing this, especially if we aren't writing together atm or you wanna test the waters with a new character! i won't delete anything new if i can't find muse for it right away -- i'll give those asks a bit more time. i just wanna try to get to a more manageable place with my inbox, and today feels like a good day to do that!

#after poloma sent me memes i've got 109 in my inbox which had me kicking my feet!! #before i realized i've let my memes pile up and i need to clean them up asdfg #and i feel really excited to write responses ( already wrote a few actually ) so!! i'm gonna try to ride that excitement!! #and do the right thing for my brain and clear out the stuff i just can't write #109 is excessive let's be honest asdfg i shouldn't have let it get so high ;v; #i'm gonna write all my drafts offline in my notebook first though so y'all might not see the responses straight away #especially bc i'll probably queue everything! #i don't wanna flood y'all with writing or with just one muse #anyway!! lemme stop rambling and get to work!! #get ready to ramble | ooc

[kingdom-falls]

Okay not to be dramatic but I think I'm fucked

#Long story short we have a situation at work that we don't have any guidelines for #So I sent it to our technical team for two separate customers to look into it #Only for our team meeting to conclude that we do NOT do that and have the customers wait and see if it resolves itself BEFORE we send it #So that means I just fucked myself over twice and I'm sure I'm gonna get put on a watch of some kind #Like not government watch just a 'making sure you don't Fuck Up again' watch #But like I didn't know what to do? Maybe I shouldn't jumped the gun so much but asking people to wait isn't gonna fix shit! #I'll probably fight it because we again DO NOT have guidelines for this rn and I just went with what seemed logical #But I know I'm still gonna get hit with something for this #And I'm pretty much the only one making money rn. We're pulling from my savings at times which I'm not a fan of but do what you gotta do #And we so cannot afford for me to lose my job #I'm really just hoping shit works out #ramblings about nothing/everything

[cerbreus]

it’s been a hellish last couple months dealing with being caught in the crossfire between incompetent rental car agency that is mad at me and incompetent car insurance company that didn’t tell me the person handling my claim fucking QUIT and MY CLAIM WENT FORGOTTEN FOR MONTHS and it still isn’t resolved in fact things have gotten worse and tbh, when i have major stressful setbacks in life, my body and brains’ response is to just. not. do anything. just shut down. intense fatigue, inability to focus on literally anything because the background level of stress is so high.

#bro im gonna cry #fucking got blacklisted from one of the largest rental car companies in this country and it is apparently #impossible to get off the 'do not rent' list #whats making me more upset is that i literally called them the day the windshield cracked i got things sorted out before i even dropped the #car off and still shit is so far out of my control and now i'm stuck with all these repercussions that shouldn't have happened if my #insurance that i pay a hell of a lot of money for wasn't so incompetent #bro apparently even my ROOMMATES can get blacklisted for sharing an address with me #worse yet payment has been sent out but the company is still going 'fuck you pay me killyourself never talk to us again once u pay this' #i can't get ahold of the DRU person in charge of my claim on their end to find out what happens #so it might end up going to collections anyway which will perma fuck up my credit score which i've been trying. so hard. to raise. #being an adult is a fucking nightmare i want to sleep i can't focus for longer than 5 minutes on anything before i start getting that dread #its so frustrating i can't enjoy my hobbies i can't enjoy my work (which is going well right now) bc i'm so stuck on this i need this to go #away so i can regain my brain's normal functioning and yes i have anxiety this is the worst it's been in a while though #anyway sry for the venting i'll be fine it'll be fine my insurance WILL pay for this and things will be fine (probably) once that goes thru #not that it didn't add to my stress enough that my bp probably took another year off my life lbr #personal stuff #delete later i think #DO NOT rent a car without taking the damage waiver it doesn't matter how much it costs or if you have insurance just take the damage waiver #don't be me

[codevanish]

send ↯ for a starter based on a randomly generated location from this prompt

#mmmm #i just love this meme prompt! #‹ out of character ⁽ ¹ ⁾ ‚ local indecisive bri. #the only time i'll re-generate is if .. #i get a location that has already been sent in. #i know i posted a response to (1) and i think i have (2) more ! #but these work SO WELL for starters #and as someone who struggles with sc's .. #this is probably the absolute closest i'll get to it. #but they are meant as starters nonetheless x

[musingsofmyown]

✨ 🌸 ☀️send this to the ten people you’re happy to see every time they pop up on your dash/notif and wish them a good day🌟 🌸 💜(no need to spread this if you’d rather not, but you should know that you’re appreciated!!)

🥺

It's been a rough time in paradise recently so thank you for the positivity

this was nice to wake up to and find in my askbox 🥰

Now excuse me while I go drop this in everyone's askbox (including yours)

💛💛

#aspen answers asks #thanks for the ask! #safedistancefrombeingsmart #inbox games #there are a bunch in my askbox but like they're old and I would feel bad answering them now because they're so old so like- #I appreciate all the positivity posts you guys have sent me over time and Im so so sorry I didn't get to them #Imma probably take a fic/tumblr break for a day or so due to unfortunate mental state #but I'll be back with like 20 things to update on #(btw- safedistance- thank you for being my serotonin dealer of The Beard and Martin's beautiful face. keep up the wonderful work) #((ps I know it's your blog theme to post martin. but I mean it all the same))

[dredshirtroberts]

alright well. if i don't hear from grandma and grandpa by the end of the day, i might try and call them tomorrow (oh heeeyy easterrrr yeah happy that thing i don't celebrate anymore.... hope yours is good soooo did you see that i sent a text message ysterday about an email i sent 2 weeks ago? did you get either or those or.....?) but like.

i'm just so tired of having to deal with my fucking biofam.

#3/5 people who hadn't yet responded eventually got back to me. #one didn't even get the original email (probably went to spam) so sent it along special #momaunt and sister forgot to respond. one of them at least acknowledged that was fucking lame of her to do #the final two fucking live together. i sent the original to BOTH of their emails and i sent the text to the only one of the two #whose cellphone number i'm relatively sure of and also is most likely to text back #idk guys i'm just. so fucking tired of having to be the one doing all of the work all of the time in order to stay connected to people #especially people who ostensibly don't hate me (though that's in fucking Doubt sometimes) #like. again i know we're *all* bad at this which is why *I* am also bad at it but like... #what is the point of trying to improve my skills at this if no one else is going to even fucking try #all of them have years of experience in adulthood and doing keepintouch correspondence #the only one who i'll give a wholesale pass to is my sister because fuck if i struggle with it she's gotta be too #and she's younger than me so like. giving her a break seems reasonable to my brain #but i just... if y'all find it hard then why the fuck was i berated so much for failing at this when i was little and learning? #why am i berated now as an adult when not a single one of them is willing to do any better than me #and in fact all of them DID WORSE

[booasaur]

Hey booasaur I hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself during this difficult time. And if you’re able I hope you enjoy some fluffy undercover fake married kacy tonight

Hey, thanks, yeah, trying to do better but yeah... Yeah...

I'm not caught up on NCIS: Hawai'i at all, actually. It's funny, people were always trying to get me to watch new things and now I'm behind on even my regular stuff. Behind on S19 and Hacks too, and so much else.

#replies #femslash related stuff #Anonymous #sent on 20240304 #5 #ncis hawai'i spoilers #ncis: hawai'i spoilers #I think I don't want to taint things I already like with how I'm feeling right now? #or maybe it's just too draining at the moment to watch something I'll probably gif #it's already tough for me at the best of times: have to be on the lookout for if a scene is gifworthy #noting down all the moments that are #drawing parallels #especially when that requires remembering older seasons #maybe a combination #stopped neighbours and ici tout commence too #though even new things I didn't think I'd gif have their moments lol #once I get done with those I'll work in older shows one by one