#i'm a busy person i have things to do

[phantomrose96]

I think we should have a turn of phrase for "I'm not in the right, but I AM annoyed with this situation, so I just need to go bitch to a friend about this before I suck it up and go do the right thing" because more and more I'm finding this is a critical element of functional adulthood.

#the person who's re-emailed me asking for help with something: yes I should get back to you. yes I will get back to you #but in the meantime I will look at the email like 'I am busy right now! I have deadlines! do not bother me about this unrelated thing!' #and like in 15 minutes when I'm ready to be an adult again I'll get back to them

[coolnonsenseworld]

Last piece ❤️💙

There are still leftovers of the Calendar as well as some A5 prints with calendar pieces 💞

linktr.ee/Mezzy (or check my Tumblr for links)

#klance fanart #klance #voltron legendary defender #ooofff you ever feel like you keep doing things and things are still to get done??? #i keep saying this every five posts #i start to think loving getting in the 'art zone' is my biggest vice #because sure i sketch or do some digital work from time to time but if i haven't sat down to draw for hours #until eyes sting and neck cant move and brain sleepy af? is it drawing anymore? is it living anymore? yeah i thought so #im the main person making grocery shopping in this house did you know? for three people #there is always something running out and like let me tell you i already answer business emails while eating #i cleaned the windows today before my first coffee #okay to be fair i started it but apparently i used the wrong bottle and i smeared anti grease all over the windows #and then finished my coffee staring at the curvy roads of a thin film painted between me and the world promising myself to never do anythin #before first coffee #either way i feel like i havent been very present or entertaining lately #by which i mean on and off for months #am i correct or am i partially correct or reimagining things? who knows #but i keep having so many things i want to do it just keeps on going #i'm starting with commissions now #BUT THEN!! #haha yeah i hope you are having a great November and enjoy this piece!! #sending hugs <3 if you like them if not #a gentle wave from a far

[uncanny-tranny]

"The average person will not care if trans people exist in the same spaces as them," and, "some of the most powerful people are of the opinion that trans people must be separated from society, thus, it's important to not stop your allyship with 'I don't care'" are both true.

It is good that so many cis people don't care enough about who is trans and who isn't, that isn't solely what will save us. It's important to stop people in power from affecting the lives of trans people, from preventing them from pushing us out of every space and opportunity they can.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #ally advice #transphobia #transphobia tw #i've come across many a cis person who literally doesn't care what trans people do or do not do and i appreciate the viewpoint of... #...'it isn't my business so i don't make it my business'... #...HOWEVER i do not think that alone is sufficient when it comes to ensuring trans peoples safety... #...because obviously people in power have immense interest in making the lives of trans people either impossible or very hard... #...and that isn't going to stop unless we make it stop #i'm not trying to say that if you're cis and you don't find other people's transness your business you are wrong and terrible by the way... #...what i AM saying is that trans people are still in material danger the longer people have the power to make our lives hell y'know #as far as i'm concerned the whole 'it ain't my business' can often be a good response to transness #in that you recognize that it isn't your place. i do the same thing even though i'm tranS #because even though i am trans it is STILL none of my business who's trans and who's getting what surgery or whatever

[prairiesfire]

shh, tiny grass is dreaming.

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #karlach #bg3 tav #karlach x tav #tiefling #ethna #god ive been so busy i'm in the home stretch of completing my HR degree #i'm gonna be the most pro labor HR person ever guys i'm psyched to get my hands into business and start changing things #hopefully i can draw more as i near completion of my degree aaahh #i'm so tired all i've been doing is playing BG3 obsessively when i'm not working i'm having a lot of fun tho

[khaire-traveler]

Hey, so I find it hard to believe that I have to say this, but it's become a massive problem for me recently and continues to repeat. If I have blocked you in the past and you have hurt me (which you have come to now realize), do not reach out to me, dude. Do not reach out even just to apologize. I don't want to hear from you, and it's extremely upsetting to be continuously receiving asks from people I've specifically cut out from my life because they know I run this blog. It's shitty, it's sometimes triggering, and it's invasive of my boundaries, so stop. Leave me be, and go on your merry way. I've had to restrict who can message me, and STILL people choose to reach out to me through my asks now! I've had to turn them off temporarily because the problem is getting so ridiculous. It's nice that you want to apologize, but some of you have deeply traumatized me in ways I am still reconciling. Please, just leave me be. Stop reaching out on your other/new accounts; you will be immediately blocked the second I find out it's you.

If I've blocked you, Do. Not. Reach. Out. To. Me. If I wanted to talk to you, I would. Move on with your life, please, and respect my boundaries if you truly care.

#blog post #personal #I'm very frustrated with this issue #had someone recently do this in a really triggering manner #i think i may have to take a tumblr break #my life is already so crazy and busy right now; the last thing i need is all these people swarming back into my life #it's great that y'all want to apologize for doing something wrong #that's very nice #but it's triggering as hell for me most of the time #some of you who are trying to reach out #have deeply hurt and traumatized me #you do not have the right fo hurt me so deeply #and just invade my boundaries by reaching out through this blog #because you know that I run it #stop. it's fucking exhausting. i am done with you people.

[not-poignant]

Jesus H Christopher, Pia. Your writing load is insane.

Maybe you should cut back on how many chapters you release for certain stories? Like Stain and Palma (since these stories dont equal income) until UtB the other Underline stories are almost done. Just a thought

Because I feel burnt out just by thinking of writing that much, so I can only imagine how you feel. Please take care of yourself

Hi anon,

TL;DR: My brain is stupid, which is why I can't do this, even though it makes sense and is logical.

Unfortunately the fanfiction is what often makes the original fiction possible, or more enjoyable.

If I lock myself down into too much schedule and rigidity, or if I only focus on writing for money, I actually start to hate writing, even if I love the stories. There is nothing like 'will this earn money, do people like this, would people pay, what if they all decide to stop paying for this, why would they pay for this, would I pay for this, how much would people pay for this, is there any incentive for them to pay for this, actually if I wrote a ton of different tropes maybe I'd make more for this, but that's depressing, but I need the money, shit what do I do, what if I lose my income, what if it all stops tomorrow, I need to write more, I need to write more, I need to write more' that is actually very exhausting and makes writing not much fun at all.

And to deliberately break out of that headspace as much as possible, I write fanfiction. Because that headspace (the one I wrote about above), on its own, even if I'm only writing two stories, can and has led to burnout and depressive episodes. I don't recommend it.

In a way, one of the reasons I can write so many stories right now (ADHD meds aside) is that I am letting myself break out and just have fun with fanfiction, and remember that my original writing is meant to be fun too. But without fanfiction, I lose sight of that very quickly.

Fanfiction means that when an original story chapter does super badly, generally there are still excited comments elsewhere that keep me going. That's how I survived The Ice Plague, and that story would never have been completed without fanfiction, because that was my worst performer of any story I've ever written. It also means if a lot of subscribers leave at once, I don't feel like The Worst Writer In The World. So having fanfiction behind me was like...a literal safety net or my security blanket.

If I have to discard my security blankets or use them less often in order to keep writing the original stuff, I might as well just stop entirely, because my longest hiatuses from Patreon (i.e. one lasted 1.5 years, many have lasted 4-6 months) have been when I'm mostly just writing original fiction, and am not writing much fanfiction, or not deliberately finding time for it, and finally get so stressed out re: money I literally have to stop. I'm on a (partial) Disability Pension.

A long time ago some professional people told me I probably shouldn't be working at all because of my mental illnesses and then paid me money because of the severity of those mental illnesses. My dumbass brain be pretty fragile, actually, and keeps chugging away because I make bad business decisions and write stuff I enjoy instead of writing to market, or doing rapid release, or releasing more novels (or novels). Writing does ironically help when I'm stressed, but not when I'm stressed about making money because of writing.

I will cut at my income before I cut at my love of this job, and unfortunately fanfiction keeps me going in this job, which means I can't really cut at that first.

(Also from a business perspective, it's actually a very good funnel to the original stuff and then subscription. Most of you wouldn't be here if you hadn't read one of my fanfics first and then gave the original stuff a try - I try not to think about that too much because I need fanfic to not be about money, but the fact is, I would not have this career without fanfic).

I do have plans to take two weeks off in January from posting chapters (I can still post rewards in the second half of January) and that's not too far away.

And the reality is that I probably would have kept going okay if real life hadn't imploded on top of everything like the world's worst bukkake party.

#asks and answers #personal #pia on writing #i am not a smart business owner #i'm an emotional fragile mentally ill one #who has to make decisions that keep me wanting to do this job #because at the end of the day #my severe treatment-resistant mental illnesses #do not do well with the pressure of making money #and feeling like a failure #so i need to actually do things that aren't about money at all #to remind myself that i don't need to have a breakdown #over never making a minimum wage #(i'm getting closer though which is probably why this burnout came on) #(i've been pushing a lot harder than normal because... well... i'd like to make #an average income one day) #(i may not be smart enough or well enough to do that) #(but i will keep trying) #i just have to keep trying as someone with a very broken mind #who copes with that brokenness through working hard #breaks are stressful and i have to think hard about what's best

[iero]

I don't know if this is a universal experience or not (probably not), but does anyone else have to leave the room if there is people in it to make a phone call?

#personal #Not even for 'I can't hear the other person talking on the other end.' reasons either. #It's for 'I have anxiety and I don't want the people in this room to hear my voice quivering as I'm talking.' reasons. #I love being an Adult and being able to do Adult Things (make a phone call to a business) by the way!

[moviesstoriesandbooks]

To people who don't know what happened :

Basically another chat got leaked between what seems to be Build and someone else , where he's seen asking for money multiple times , and cursing people who exposed his old problematic tweets on twitter , being homophobic (as a joke 🙁) and other things among many.

As any sane person would think , i also had doubts about the authenticity of the texts and all , but then everyone basically unfollowed him on Instagram and build also tweeted an apology.

Apology confirms that those are genuine right??

He genuinely badmouthed his costars who were there working their asses off for a show that got cancelled once and had to begin production again.

Like , he does not seem like a good coworker , all things considered. And he's so much trouble to the company as a whole , which has pretty ungrateful fans following it's artists.

(idk some tweets just make me go , it's a tough industry . They're atleast still getting work from a show that's been done airing for a year and with no hope of season 2 . They can't create work , but they're still doing very well for a smallass company)

I initially read his fans' responses which were along the lines of "if your texts with your bestie leaks then will you be safe?"

And although that's a very .... Erm ... creative way to view things , I don't think that's barely enough here.

He was badmouthing basically apo , jeff and barcode, and nodt and mile(?) I'm unclear on the details. I get that you may be angry at your coworkers , there may be squabbles but that's not what this was about?? Jeffbarcode were accused of being boc's favourites (??????) and had more pictures taken than everyone else(??????????????) They had like 15 mins of screentime. What is this man on about?

I just straight up don't trust this man anymore.

I don't care about his story. He's so much trouble than he's worth and every day there's something up with him.

#i don't even know what i should tag this as #don't fight me #I'm honestly not posting this as a call for action against anyone #just these things have been on my mind especially seeing some twitter peeps complaining about how less barcode has schedules compared to #this or that artist and it's like - that boy's in his first year of uni . he might be busy . his parents may have requested lesser scedules #he has a drama lined up for release what even are you talking about . am i crazy or this is getting way more toxic than ever? #i don't know and i may not know enough about everything that's happening but for goodness sake I don't care . don't want to #especially about build and his drama i guess some people do good for them i just like being aware and not caring because he just doesn't #seem like he's learnt anything at all and seems like a not good person ya know #i don't wish anyone any hate please don't hate under this too i just wanted to rant and organise my thoughts kinda #thai boys love series #thai drama #drama. huh. #kinnporche the series #mileapo #jeffbarcode #barcode tinnasit #build jakapan

[gourmet-trash]

me: shares unfinished fic with a friend and encourages them to read it

also me, the second i see them pop up in the google doc:

#happy birthday! #i have given you a sneak peek #and i have given myself unending anxiety #i will be unable to do or think of anything else until i hear from this person again #writing is SUFFERING #we can only hope this will encourage me to KEEP WRITING THE THING #i'm not dead btw! #just busy and dying on the INSIDE #writing #fanfiction #gourmet trash talk

[forbiddennhoney]

would y'all still think I'm hot if i slammed my head into a wall repeatedly until i started bleeding?

#personal #the autism is autisming today (negative) #i am literally at a point of 1x/wk meltdowns #and ofc they keep happening around important times #and it doesn't help I'm having severe anxiety again about taking up too much space #and it doesn't help that i know exactly what's going on now bc i cant even go “idk what's happening the world is ending” #and it doesn't help that bc of that it's really hard to talk to ppl and feel heard #and it doesn't help that this feeling never will go away even with medication bc I've alr TRIED all that already #and it doesn't help people think i haven't or that i need to be told to talk to a doctor Abt these things even though i AM #and it doesn't help that the only thing that will help this stop is going home and crying my eyes out #and it doesn't help that i cant do that #and it doesn't help I'm busy for the next 3 days #i wholly and truly may bail on my plans tomorrow bc like i cant do this and i cant bail on today's #bc i already feel like a shitty friend to this person cause of a genuine mistake #ugh

[running-in-the-dark]

I think what I like about moving into a new place (besides it being much nicer than where we lived before) is that we do so much in preparation for that. we go lots of places to buy furniture or paint or whatever, we have to check things and look at things and stuff like that. I don't usually get out much 😭

right now I'm supposed to be painting walls while the others start moving our things, but I've got a massive headache so I've had to take a break for now. 😔 I need to finish three walls today and all on my own, plus I'll need to wait a few hours in between rooms so my hands don't get too painful. so I don't have time for a headache right now 🙃

#the thing is that usually my husband is busy with work and I don't have any energy to do much and/or I'm in pain. #plus doing things or going places is expensive #so it usually just doesn't happen much #but when we're moving - well we HAVE TO do these things #they need to get done so 🤷 #and it's sooo fun #exhausting and stressful and I feel very unsettled without structure and a finished place to live but at the same time it's new and #different and exciting #would be nice if my brain could decide what it wants lol 🙃 #anyway. back to painting #personal

[backpackingspace]

Okay but yin yu needs a raise this yin yu is overworked that. Where is the Ling wen needs a raise content

#Tgcf #Yin yu #ling wen #I do love the idea that yin yu has a great employment plan he's just long suffering and #If he's too busy working than he doesn't need to feel things ever #Obviously hua cheng probably bullied him and definitely made him transcribe his diary bc #“What if his highness wants to read it one day yin yu this is important yin yu” #But he also seems like the person who understands very well that money talks #And that an employee who is comfortable is much less likely to betray you #Meanwhile Ling wen is dealing with some bullshit 24/7 #She's not being paid half the other gods never wrote out reports everyone is sexist she hasn't slept in 3 years #Jun wu calls her into his office twice a day to make her scribe his evil plans (tm) #She's tried she's overworked literally xie lian is the only who's ever said thank you to her ever #Yin yu gets invited to the overworked employees club for drinks (idk who else would be there besides Ling wen but let's imagine that there #Everybody complaining/screaming/wishing for death bc they're so tired #Yin yu: Oh I think there's been a mistake I actually have great benefits #Ling wen considers homicide and defecting right there and then #Idk why I'm trying to push the Ling wen yin yu friends agenda but here we are

[ravencromwell]

Finally decided to indulge in the Siuan/Moiraine meta I've been wanting to write for ages now, musing on the differences in psychology ensuing from their significantly different arcs within the book and show and why Siuan's actions at season 2's apex are entirely in psychological sync with her show portrayal, even if they swerve wildly from the books.

Let's start with some Siuan back-story context. In the books, Tear was undeniably an unfriendly city for those with the One Power. But that translated, in practical terms, to Aes Sedai keeping their stays there brief, and girls who could touch The Source being quickly bustled off to the Tower. There were no Aes Sedai advisers, as in other kingdoms etc., but neither was there the virulent hostility of the show.

Siuan left Tear quickly in the books—the first day she was discovered to have the Power, but only because a sister was traveling through and didn't wish to delay returning to The Tower for such pesky things as sentimental goodbyes. Was that harsh? Absolutely. But the world of the books is exceedingly harsh in some respects, giving girls little to no choice about becoming Sisters, should they be discovered harboring abilities. (Much of Nynaeve's back-story involved hiding her powers precisely because she didn't fancy being ripped from The Two Rivers.)

Siuan faces a much different harshness in the show. The show doesn't do a great job explaining this, but The Dragon's Fang, which is etched onto Siuan's door before her house is unceremoniously torched, is a sign of immense contempt for Dark Friends. Within show Tear, a wary mistrust of Aes Sedai has curdled into something much more dangerous. All use of The Power is suspect, because if men's half was tainted, there's nothing to say women won't go suddenly mad, too.

It's worth remembering as well here that book Siuan was roughly fifteen when she went to The Tower. Now, I'm totally blind, and audio description doesn't give me an age for tiny show-Siuan, but if she's anywhere near puberty, I'll eat my metaphorical hat. And instead of being shepherded to The Tower, she had to flee for her life.

In her family's only means of support, I might ad. Book Siuan was by no means well-to-do, but she was firmly in the middling ranks of the working poor. Show Siuan's family are on the fucking destitution brink y'all. And she took her father's livelihood. Dying destitute ain’t fuckin pretty.

Siuan is not a stupid kid, and she clearly adores the shit out of her papa. The first thing that little girl did the millisecond she got any privileges? Wrote to her papa.

And more than likely, Berden never wrote back. It wouldn't take her long to figure out what'd happened. Moiraine is at great pains to tell Alana Jenny was not "her" support dog, and we laugh it off as oh, look at Moiraine being all adorably prim. Which in one sense, it totally is. But I'd almost guarantee you there's a deeper layer there: it wasn't "hers"; it was "theirs" because once Siuan found out her beloved papa was dead, they both needed something to cuddle.

This may seem like somewhat of a digression, but I'm maundering on because in the books yes, Dark Friends are evil. But they're evil because they caused a terrible cataclysm many thousands of years ago that killed lots of people, and they wanna do it again. There's no personal skin in the game for our beloved ladies, except they get thrust into the job through a convergence of some very complicated circumstances—I'd recommend any show-only watchers read "New Spring" because while I love almost all the changes the show has made ferociously, the way Siuan and Moiraine undertake the search is vastly more plausible as presented by Jordan there.

For Siuan in the show, by contrast, Dark Friend has _very personal ramifications. Dark Friends caused the corrosive mistrust that got her papa _killed! And Moiraine, better than _anyone, knows how that broke her.

And she _knows full well she could be deposed simply for having a relationship with Moiraine. The sensible thing to keep all the awful people from committing terrible crimes that will reverberate down the centuries to impact a little girl just as she was impacted would be to keep both their noses clean. And yet, she loves Moiraine so much that she'll take that risk to maintain not only an alliance about Rand, but a romantic relationship which could, realistically, be discovered much more easily.

And now, Moiraine, the woman who parroted back her beloved father's words of farewell about how Siuan was as clever as a pike and strong as the tides seemingly willfully lied; seemingly became a _Dark _Friend. Even her admonition that Lanfear is "too strong" must bring up so many awful questions: just how long have they been working together for her to know that? Because from Siuan's perspective, what it looks like is Lanfear coming in, guns blazing, to save her accomplice, Moiraine.

When Siuan says that there are rules and they have to abide by them, it's reflecting profoundly deep fears—not only about what Rand could do, but the kind of hatred toward those with The Power it could foster. For twenty years, she's put those fears aside. And now it appears that her going against Tower Law has lost her Moiraine to the Forsaken, and made terrible outcomes nigh on inevitable. And people are really confused about why she looks beaten?

Hell, from her perspective, forget Lanfear's entrance. The very fact Moiraine seemingly lied to her and is now talking about love must seem such a cruel mockery: laughing at Siuan's weakness; just as, perhaps, she was laughing at her with that parting comment in The Tower: an Amyrlin Seat still so swayed by what her papa told her so many years ago. (Yeah, we know it was as close as she could come to an I love you, but how the hell is Siuan supposed to know that, given everything?) This was not willful emotional abuse on someone she knew to be acting in good faith, but a reaction to the person she loved enough to risk the fucking Amyrlin Seat for becoming a monster!

Do I wish they'd picked _any other direction for their relationship? Yes, yes I damn well do. There was plenty to play with for angst factor by having the coup go down as it does in the books: Moiraine not being there to save her when all Siuan wanted was more time together, for one thing. Moiraine needlessly obfuscating in front of Siuan and  the other Sisters in S1, when Leandrin already knew! about the Two Rivers folk. Thinking she was being canny, when all she did was get herself pointlessly exiled so she couldn't protect Siuan? Quite enough of an angst sandwich, thanks ever so, without this new development. But! if they were going to include this, Siuan reacted precisely as I would expect her to, given the context I've outlined above, not in some madly ooc fashion worthy of the tags descending into emotional abuse discourse.

#Siuan Sanche #Moiraine Damodred #I kept hoping this Siuan is terribly abusive discourse would die down but I keep seeing it crop up and it's driving me utterly batshit #Wheel of Time #siuanraine #Moiraine x Siuan #Siuan x Moiraine #fishwives #(posting all this with the obvious caveat that if Rafe uses this to pull some massive bullshit whereby he brought out the queerness some #of us could see in fucking New Spring. because I am absolutely a fan for that long. even if RJ rest his soul tried to brush it off as #'pillow friends that faded out'only to get fucking cold feet and put them in their heterosexual weirdass nonrelationships with Gareth and #Thom (and look. I am really fond of show Thom; he still has no business getting up close and personal with Moiraine #unless she and Siuan decide on polyamory; Gareth was such an utter nonentity and isn't in the show I really have nothing to say. with legit #apologies to any Gareth fans subjected to my salty tags b/c I'm sure they exist and your tastes are also valid) #well. if Rafe. as an openly queer creator pulls a queer bait and switch I will lose my shit so spectacularly they'll hear my screaming #during shooting. but moral ambiguity. in and of itself. is not a bad thing! portrayals of how her early childhood trauma complicate her #dynamic with Moiraine when Moiraine lied! to her which she should have known better than to do #feel very inevitable after that intro we got in S1 is all I'm saying

[fitzrove]

Its ok maybe if you look up the lyrics to was für ein grausames leben and read them in english you will be okj<3

#[gnawing and biting] #ashjdjgjg i think i don't want to live in vienna after all #i'm by nature an easily depressed person and in some places it's too easy to make your life revolve around dead people and death at large!! #i had a lot of fun on my trip but i also had some terrible times #mostly the part where i was sick #one thing that i think would pose a major issue long term is the insanely narrow opening hours for supermarkets - in germany many stay #open until 10 pm. closest one to my hotel in vienna closed at 7:30 pm... #also i just can't deal with big crowds and tourists in my living environment full time dhhfhfgh i always need to be somewhere away and #voluntarily go into the tourist parts only if i want to #like how in cambridge it was insane in the center but i would walk 30 minutes every morning from by the train tracks :') a nice quiet #residential street and i could shop at the local sainsbury's and only go to the historic city centre when i felt like it and could prepare #so like i have to live in a quiet area but within reasonable distance of (and with good transport to!) a more exciting busy area #but um yeah now i have to awkwardly tell everyone irl that i've been talking about it to that i don't actually want to do it anymore xD #it's ok i still want to live Somewhere Interesting with historical stuff... #if i manage not to have a mental breakdown that is ahshhdjdkf #i like my current town a lot :')

[kedreeva]

Deep breath

Last night, I posted the last chapter of my last open fanfic that I had plans to finish. I'm still kind of processing that. I am not done with fanfiction forever or anything, but I'm done with everything I had open and I don't have plans to kick in the door to another fandom as a writer.

This was the point I wanted to get to a few years ago, not long before the good omens series launched. I got pretty fucking sidetracked, though in the long run I think it was good I did. I had a lot of priceless experiences writing in that fandom. Getting to see something I'd written bound into a book especially gave me something. I used to squirm a lot more at just the idea of publishing something official, but it doesn't feel quite so... I dunno. Unrealistic, I guess. It feels like, actually,

So, that's what I'm going to do. I've got a couple of months before Nanowrimo begins, which I'm going to use to get characters in order and produce an outline for the first book. There's 6, maybe 7, total in the story I want to write, and I haven't decided if I want to try to publish them as I go or get them finished before I release.

I'm going to be posting here as I go, though I'm not sure about what just yet, and I may switch to using my writing side blog instead. I'll see how I feel when the dust is a little more settled.

At any rate, I'm very excited, and I just wanted to make note of the day and say I appreciate the folks that have said kind things and been supportive and made me feel safe to try something new. Hopefully I'll see some of you on this new journey, too!

#personal #my writing #i think I'm gonna take a week and play a game or something #I'm having to pick names for all these characters #and that's my least favorite thing #and one of the biggest reasons i prefer fanfiction #what do you MEAN i have to name all these people #don't they have names #terrible business #tell me your favorite names

[onekisstotakewithme]

i know everyone is struggling right now but jesus christ i'm struggling right now.

#personal #school/work stress #this thing with my grandpa #feelings of isolation and self-blame #but dear god the isolation #do you ever just feel like you're just shouting into a void? #if the people you love actually love you as much as you love them? #is it even worth it to keep going? #i miss my friends #my one IRL friend is too busy when I need her but when she needs support i have to drop everything #i'm coming down from my first semester of grad school #and i just feel so overwhelmed and done with it all.