#i'm actually quite deeply concerned about my ptsd symptoms bc i haven't had a flareup like this in ages

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

for some reason i personally am receiving a lot of snide comments (and a few “kill yourself you pink cunt” etc messages) regarding this tumblr+ horseshit....despite the fact I:

only just heard about it, have literally nothing to do with it

have no intention of signing up for it? it’s bullshit?

have already spoken, multiple times, at length, about how i very specifically and purposely avoid putting content behind a paywall, even when it would make more sense for me financially, bc i genuinely believe in the importance of keeping online content accessible.

i’m assuming this is punishment for the fact i include tip jar links in some of my posts (which some of you have been, haha. passionately rude about), despite the fact reader support is how I try to earn a modest living (hi. disabled and unemployed here), while keeping this blog free of sponsors/ads, and (again) not putting extra content behind paywalls, even though that has always been an option (patreon, ko-fi, other platforms exist).

so no, i’m obviously not signing up for tumblr’s new subscription ‘feature,’ as it’s the antithesis of the values i try to adhere to. and that i have talked about. multiple times.

so great job tumblr. you really fucking excel at punishing people for the behavior you claim to want to see.

#c word #ask to tag #serious post #not a shitpost #harassment tw #only just found out about this nonsense staff is trying to pull #i've been sick all week so i haven't been keeping up with things #food poisoning and then depression symptoms rearing up out of nowhere. don't know what's going on #absolutely miserable week and then i finally check my notifs and find THIS #anyway i gotta go take my anxiety medication bc it turns out when you've been traumatized by online harassment over a period of years #that a resurgence of said harassment is in fact. quite triggering #i'm actually quite deeply concerned about my ptsd symptoms bc i haven't had a flareup like this in ages #and i have some family stuff going on right now #so amazing timing. thanks everyone #'hellsite' is an affectionate nickname but it is also a frank acknowledgement that some aspects of being on this website #are genuinely horrendously traumatizing #i don't have a punchline. sorry #i'm sure i could have written this post in a more convincing & compelling way i'm just. i'm so tired #i'm so fucking tired #i'm about to fucking cry why do you keep punishing people for shit they haven't even done