#i'm alive 🙃

[hooned]

hey there, handsome

#enhypen #*jelly's #enhypenet #kpopco #enhypenetwork #lee heeseung #heeseung #i'm alive 🙃 #*rattles cage* i missed you all huhu #pls show in the tags :((

[grey-wardens]

all right, i decided against installing the no romance limit mod for this astarion origin playthrough so i think this is what i'm going to do

wyll romance path - spawn astarion, grand duke wyll, mind flayer karlach

karlach romance path - ascended astarion, blade of avernus wyll, they both come with karlach to the hells (think i'll side with the emperor for once here)

#yeah AA does not deserve karlach but in astarion origin it seems to be the only way to keep her alive 🙃 #please correct me if i'm wrong though

[running-in-the-dark]

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#currently crying because I'm alone with my husband's 94 year old grandma and I'm the only one who ever lets her talk about certain topics #so she just talked about her childhood and youth for one and a half hours #which means. the war #I'm not gonna go into it but it makes me cry every time even though I've already heard it all before #how can you not cry about a child who lost two of her teenaged brothers and had to watch the third one very nearly die too #the stories about how careful they had to be because the police constantly went to every house and checked everything #how they had to hide some of the milk from their cows so they could make butter because they couldn't afford to buy it #and how dangerous that was. #idk I'm so tired of people dying over senseless and unnecessary shit forever and ever and nothing ever changes and no one ever seems #to learn from it #or at least the ones in power don't #as long as there's disposable people (men) to send to war it doesn't matter. and now that's not even necessary anymore you can just kill #people from far away and. I'm just tired #and I'll shut up now and not talk about these things again as usual. it's not because I don't care it's because it (literally) drives me #insane to think about it and I know it's weak and pathetic but I have to choose to stay just barely sane enough to stay alive #can't stop crying. 🙃 #anyway. shouldn't talk about it so. bye

[sga-owns-my-soul]

haha ignore this i need to vent

i'm so fucking done i'm so fucking mad at everyone i'm pissed at my cousin for fucking me over i'm pissed at my clients for being fucking idiots i'm pissed at my city for NEVER HAVING WORKING FUCKING TRANSIT i'm not okay i'm so not fucking okay and i don't even have my fucking headphones bc they fell out of my jacket in my cousins STUPID FUCKING CAR THAT I BASICALLY PAY FOR BUT GOD FORBID SHE DRIVE ME HOME so now i get to spend over 2 hours (after i've spent 3 hours on transit/waiting for her this morning) on public transit to get home WITHOUT my music and my clothes are ruined with cat hair from my clients today so that's fucking great and OF COURSE everything in the fucking city is delayed bc WHY WOULD WE MAKE ANYTHING EASY FOR ME NO ITS FINE ILL JUST FUCKING SUFFER TO MAKE THINGA EASY FOR EVERYONE ELSE BECAUSE GODFORBID I GET TO CATCH A FUCKING BREAK

#no i'm not okay #i'm fuckimg crying on a train #that's on the LITERAL OPPOSITE END OF THE CITY FROM MY HOUSE #i spent just under 3 hours working today #and i'm spending over 5 hours getting to and from work #i'm so fucking done i'm so sick of being alive #holy fucking christ can ANYTHING not be fucking shit!!!!!!! #i hate being alive!!!!!!! i don't want to do this anymore!!!!!!! #and i can't even fucking kill myself bc god forbid the people in my life be sad #they can't lose me but they can fuck me over constantly!!!!! #god fuck i'm so fucking sick of this #i need a fucking break #humans aren't meant to work this much and im going to start actually commiting violence about it #tw suicide mention #personal rambles #ignore this #i'm just being too sensitive 🙃🙃🙃🙃 #i'm just Letting My Emotions Control Me 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #disclaimer i'm safe i'm not actually at risk of hurting myself at all i promise #i just wanna die but i'm not gonna do anything

[workof-tortured-poetsdepartment]

Guess who got in an itsy bitsy accident-ish situation?

#I'm alive and not hurt much(barely 3 4 scratches at different stages of right leg or so) so good for me (Also #Fuck rainy roads in night and this dumb scotty and dumb me I nearly fell twice because it kept slipping at same weird road levels🙃) #My parents don't know ab9ut this yet because obv I don't want family drama rn #And well I hope scooty is okay

[goddamnitkastle]

I JUST WANNA STAY HERE LET’S JUST STAY RIGHT HERE I WILL BE OKAY

#kastle #kastleedit #frank castle #karen page #the punisher #punisheredit #meganeringifs #meganerinedit #kastlenetwork #jon bernthal #deborah ann woll #I am truly fighting here to keep this blog alive 🙃 #The renaissance is coming #...in like 2 years #But wouldn't it be amazing #If I stayed posting this entire time #And created fandom content #Through this entire clusterfuck of a journey #I'm committed to the concept okay

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

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#im so pissed off today #the wind is pissing me off bc it keeps making my braids go behind me and get stuck on my bagzips and ouch #work is pissing me off bc my work senior booked me for overtime without asking #uni is pissing me off bc i can't find the time for it and its my dream and im ruining it #I'm pissing myself off bc im annoyed and angry at everything today #im tryinf so hard not to snap at people but jesus christ i have had enough #i woke up angry and frustrated and im trying hard not to show it #and to keep doing what i gotta bc this whole situation with uni is my own fault #and also I'm angry bc i wanna write comfort but i have no time other than 10 mins here or there #im being eaten alive but theres no chance to bite back and hhhhhh fuck this im so done #says the woman doing it anyway🙃🙃🙃 #i want uncle wayne and eddie💔 #but also i dont bc i wouldn't want them to see me like this

[cnl0400]

Since the anniversary event Is almost here, as much as I haven't shut up since the launching of NB... I actually don't have any hope for Thirteen (or the trio in general) to become dateable this anniversary 🥲🥲

This Is my cope post, If you don't expect something, It hurts less when It doesn't happen (and I wouldn't feel like a fool for getting excited for something that didn't happen)

There's has been columns about them in the recent B-logs issues (This month wasnRaphael I think?) ... So maybe this doomposting Is all useless anyways

#post0400 #last year Thirteen 3D model got leaked... and crickets besides that... #don't get me wrong... I WANT it to happen... but the devs haven't been very transparent... #I was almost sure she was going to become dateable last anniversary but didn't happen... #I'm on the idea that she should been dateable since NBs launch #the only thing keeping me alive was that AMA post but... they also promised for them a project song... #and we have only had songs with the brothers... not even the other charas 🙃🙃 #anyways. the announcements should start next week at least. I hope I'm wrong but I'm not expecting something big for me

[chronomally]

Xuanyuan Sect is so full of self-serving clowns that when everyone sees Yin Hanjiang and Wenren E enter together, sitting side by side on matching thrones and holding hands, they're completely incapable of interpreting what this could possibly mean

#please feel free to ignore this #I'm reading Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know #Wenren E and Yin Hanjiang: *Spend a month consummating their relationship* #Xuanyuan Sect: I thought Wenren E would kill him and take back leadership of the sect? Instead they're both still alive? #Zhongli Qian who has HAD IT: 🙃🙃🙃 #30+ years ago he was like being cursed is actually kind of nice I can be my own man #And then he got press-ganged into joining the circus 😔 Sorry man time to put on the clown nose honk honk

[cheekblush]

me today 💤

#no i did not end up studying 🫣🤐🤥 #the ibuprofen did help with the migraine but i still feel so drained like my energy tank is on 0 😞 #and i'm tired of beating myself up for not constantly studying like why do i always have to neglect my health for school?? #idk how other people do it bc i know others get way more done than me & have way more responsibilities but i just don't have that kind of.. #energy i'm sorry it takes up all of my energy just to survive and exist in this world 😭 #i feel like such an immature crybaby but once again that kafka quote comes to mind: #i could have built the pyramids with the effort it takes me to cling on to life and reason #also my mom recently pointed out to me that i have been studying for 21 years of my life & i just went shocked pikachu face 😯 #like that is absolutely INSANE i've been in school since i was 6 years old it's honestly a miracle i didn't kms yet #and all of this studying for what??? you'd think i'd amount to smth but i'm an utter failure 🙃 #literally haven't achieved anything the only things i got in my name are mental & physical health problems </3 #well this is getting depressing let me stfu #so instead of studying i ended up watching sailor moon & dragon ball while eating chocolate covered strawberries <3 #i actually wanted to take a nap but i just couldn't fall asleep even though i feel so exhausted #i need to survive 3 more weeks of exams before the easter holidays... i'm on my knees but i'm crawling... #i just need to pass everything... no need to have perfect grades just make it through these next 3 weeks alive #i just know i'm gonna have a breakdown soon & cry my eyes out bc it's all getting too much again 😮‍💨 #☁️

[lunarlegend]

the realization that Ignis is technically responsible for the good ending of my AU, and he did it by knocking Stella up

#still the one who fixed everything just in a drastically different way lmfao #i'm dead #for context: Stella didn't go to the final battle in the throne room because she was pregnant #if she had Ardyn would have killed her #since Stella's a Lucis Caelum and was still alive when Noct 'died' the bloodline couldn't end and the Prophecy was ruined #and Noctis didn't have to die either #that's my silly little fix-it take #and only made possible by Ignis & Stella's irresponsible sex so let's hear it for both of them actually #(i need to go to sleep 🙃)

[majoris]

x

#hello I’m still alive (? questionable) #queue's been keeping my blog alive one post at a time so idk if anyone noticed my absence but oh well #now you know #idk what my life's been lately but I do not liek #i am so tired 🙃 #ANYWAYS #hope you're all good and all imma do some rounds so ignore if you see me liking 100+ of your posts etc etc #hope you're all well #sending warm hugs cause it's been a lil cold today and I'm in a blankie #if u prefer cold I got a drink for u #okay that's all of my talky byee now

[feralnumberfive]

So, what's the deal with airplane food

#just putting this here to let people know I'm alive but I'm going to be on a mental health hiatus for god knows how long #S3 has given me a distaste for TUA and I'm not very interested in it rn #I am trying my absolute best not to rewatch it with my mom because I really don't want to 🥲 #I also find it disheartening and annoying that S4 will most likely be the last season despite mr blackman knowing the whole plot of TUA 🙃 #& I'm incredibly sorry to my S3 asks that have been sitting in my inbox for over a month I'll find the strength to answer you guys someday #but yeah after sitting on it for a while I have decided I don't like S3 and I personally believe it's the worst season :[ #life's been shitty and we'll see if I can muster my way back into TUA-I don't want to abandon this blog and my friends 💖 #personal

[returntotheground]

me: "i don't really get nightmares like sure sometimes horror movie shit happens in my dreams but it doesn't ever upset me or affect my sleep"

also me: *wakes up in an angry, anxious sweat after dreaming about fighting with my parents but being unable to escape their control*

#violent murders in my dreams? extreme body horror?? ravenous monsters literally eating me alive??? no problem #dream parents yelling at me to just do this 1 thing & why am i so stupid & difficult & taking away my car keys & trapping me? oh i'm dying #now i've been feeling sick all morning like it's been hours and i'm still nauseous just thinking about it #fun times 🙃 #personal shit

[paris-rokin]

HOORAY INSOMNIA MY OLD FRIEND I didn't miss you fuck off bitch

#paris screams into her pillow #yay physical pain but like not a fun kind #yay mold in my apartment slowly killing me #I'm so fucking happy to be alive rn 🙃

[another-art-studentt]

low key survived marching band rehearsal with a fever going on

#i'm still alive #will survive brass ensemble too #easy peasy #🙃 #music student #music student life