#i'm bi for them either way

[lunarharp]

more phoenix wright situations

#ace attorney tag #maybe i should tag this narumitsu or something. but i dont really care. #gearing up to rereading/illustrating bits of my fic i suppose...i think nick really is too dense to realise he's in love with edgeworth #without some scheming fop trying to intrude. i love villains like kristoph..villains can be fun..witnessing their pathetic folly.. #or more like edgeworth would never have mentioned his feelings ever in his life if he wasn't sure phoenix reciprocates. #i want to see it this way because Falling in love during childhood with the person you're going to end up with. is not relatable #there have to be Situations that make you Realise. #as with orufrey i adore the idea of people not working out their romance with that person until their 30s+ #but... i mean. even with orufrey i often think how alaira could be qifrey's ex. and oru having been pursued by noble fops through his work #there is that delicate sliver of time before orufrey start living together that such believable situations could have happened. #Then the relief of politely and amicably extricating themselves from those untenable situations #the idea of falling in love age 7 and saving your first kiss for age 35 or something is all very well but more relatable is #people realising how they really feel whilst trying something that ends up feeling wrong. #The comfort and joy of living with your dearest one as if it's platonic - much preferable to trying anything more with anyone else. #But i doubt i will ever portray that or mention it further. it is indeed very delicate to me. #and i really am an OTP FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of person who can barely bear to consider this anyway...NOT a polyshipper i'm afraid ! #so i wouldn't mind either if they do have their first kiss in their lives age 35 with each other either. I would not mind that at all. #i love bi/gay couples apparently... bi father figures & their grumpy gay men waiting for them to work it all out... #not used to using colour in comic-style drawings..or at all..so this is messy and awkward looking..but colour is refreshing #i imagine i will go back to witch hat art soon btw. my destiny in life. #i still remember writing my nrmt fic expecting to write their first kiss & then partway through twas like Umm No. They have kissed prior. #does that really line up with this comic though... i think i had their early dinner dates/first kiss BEFORE disbarment. #so i guess this comic doesn't line up with my ficverse.... No..... U___U Oh well. sorry kris! <3

[alfhildr-the-word-weaver]

Currently watching this very cliche (but still decently enjoyable) Christmas movie and it has this horse girl subplot where the older sister is falling in love with horses, but there are these long, lingering shots where she's looking at this female farmhand working with the horses, and she keeps talking about how great and cool that farmhand is, and I can't decide whether it's actually a burgeoning lesbian subplot or just a heavy accidental implication, but it really does feel soooo close to overtly romantic.

Anyways my hot new ship is these two. Time to build it from the ground up ;)

#All Good Things (2019) #Christmas movies #it's so heavy handed but I'm not sure they realize it #tale as old as time I guess #also there's apparently a completely different movie also called All Good Things from 2010 that keeps dominating the search results #but yeah still watching but I'll let you know if anything actually comes of it #tempted to make a sappy video edit of them together either way but also that'd be a lot of work #maybe not building the fandom singlehandedly then but putting it out there that they're cute #Christmas lesbians #or bis or whatever #maybe it's the shipper goggles but how long do you spend staring longingly at your friends? #anyways #'tis the season #Merry Christmas! #I ramble #I should tag the characters but I already don't remember their names #Callista and Fiona #thanks imbd #no last names though #I don't think I feel compelled enough to write a fic about it but I like them #also Shawn's dad from Psych is in it! #some pretty flat acting here and there (not from him) but par for the course in this genre

[mynameisbillandimaheadcase]

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#it's so funny that trans men aren't safe where gay men are #the most popular hooking up place/ nude beach for gay men ? #not safe for trans guys #one of the most historical queer saunas ? nit safe either #and those aren't even rumors #people and travel guides warn that those places aren't safe for trans men #some lesbian places are more accepting but then i feel like I'm trespassing #the majority of people that are coming out are gay men #probably bc it's the acceptable socially #and they are actively creating hostility against their own community #it's making me feel like I'm trespassing when i go to gay bars #but I AM a gay man myself #a gay man is still a man that only accepts what's appealing to him #trans fems ? mostly okay bc gay men see them as MEN so appealing to them #bi women? too confusing either seen as straight or lesbian bc they refuse to understand the duality that exists #so not accepted #trans men ? not sexualy wanted so at the same time not accepting #of them #i am ranting on bad English while in the bus home bc i just had that realization #gay men still operate the same way straight men do #they only accept what they find sexually appealing or benefiting to them

[maddy-ferguson]

i kinda have never seen the appeal of bi4bi ships like i get why people like it in theory but whenever it happens (and it happens so rarely the only two times i've seen it like canonically it was fangs and toni in riverdale which..was the most boring couple ever and big red and ahslyn in hsmtmts and like. the biphobia allegations the writers got for the way they wrote big red in s4 were kinda deserved and for me to be saying that it has to be bad. like it was just weird. but anyway just not ships i care about and them being bi didn't change anything at all in their relationship) they're portrayed exactly like any other m/f ship so it's like. it's nice to have characters who aren't straight for sure but if their queerness isn't gonna add anything to the relationship i would rather have a gay couple😭

#like i get it i do making characters queer is always fun and what's more fun than one character being queer two characters being queer. and #them being together.but idk. people do it in fanon generally so you can totally write it in a way where i would like it better/find it more #interesting in a fic because people who write fics do it for like exactly this kind of thing. but i don't know if you see what i mean. i'm #not saying that bi characters should always be in gay relationships either but bi4bi just doesn't do anything for me it really doesn't #also. controversialer? it's so annoying to me when people are like um this m/f ship isn't straight one of them (or both of them) is #literally bi? (people do this with lumax when like.well how can you actually fault people for considering characters who arent not straight #straight) and like. m/f. het ship. straight ship. it's about the relationship. it's a man and a woman. that's what the adjective applies to #would you get mad at me for calling robin and vickie a lesbian ship because amybeth said vickie was bi. bad example some people probably #would. do people who think mike is bi not call byler a gay ship. it's about the relationship like you KNOW what people are talking about #you KNOW. i find it unbelievably obnoxious #and like i say: brf slt

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

If there is at least one thing I can credit FE for doing better than Tales in localization, it's not trying to actively go out of their way for an entire game to avoid subtext or direct text between two men that is romantic or implied romantic. Funny when it's so present that the attempt doesn't even work; infuriating that it was attempted to begin with.

So as much as I often have issues with some of FE's localizations, at least they have a leg up on loc Tales for that.

#DCB Comments #imagine changing entire sentences and vocal tones just to try to avoid it #if anything I'd say at least in FE the locs just... keep what's there like #they could've toned Soren and Houses Yuri down and they didn't. they just kept their lines or in some cases #especially with Houses Yuri I'd say leaned into them #have to specify bc Houses Yuri got to keep his bi agenda. Vesperia Yuri had the unfortunate issue of #the loc not wanting to keep his gay and trying reeeeally hard to avoid it #including altering entire sentences to avoid any woe is them misunderstandings about men having feelings for each other #meanwhile Houses Yuri is free to call men cute and lo and behold everyone loved that for him #they removed and altered a LOT of Vesperia Yuri's personality traits #(including any ability to express real sadness or fear bc woe is them if he's not a cool edgy man) #but they also really changed his tone toward Flynn PLUS some of what they say to each other #and twisted it to make it sound like Yuri was either angry or wasn't actually emotional abt him #forget the way they brought Grant George in for the DE release and made him sound just completely DEAD with zero personality #like. I can tolerate playing Houses dubbed despite my gripes with it (story based stuff) #it didn't feel like they were trying to alter LBGT+ aspects and they even for some rly leaned into it #basically if you haven't played Vesperia Yuri is... really gay coded. the loc pretended not to notice #in fact he's queer + gay coded bc and doesn't fit male gender norms and the gacha games LOVE that with his hair/outfits #Rays mind you is JP only bc it was shut down very quickly in the west and Vesp Yuri's story in Rays is uh #basically it centers around Flynn he loses his shit to protect Flynn and they do the usual like #don't-admit-it's-gay-outright in fictional media by using the ''Yuri's important person'' shtick #but he activates a special power in the middle of utterly raging to get Flynn back from their enemies #funny thing? that game never made it to that arc. I was told in about five months the western ver would've gotten that #but in some way I'm glad it didn't bc who knows how they would've tried to spin that #It's BAFFLING to me how you can get characters in Tales like JAY but the locs shake in their boots at the idea of queer gays #but given how allergic fictional media is to admitting a male character is gay -gestures to Ike and Vesp Yuri- #I'm not surprised I'm just actually angry that the locs try to censor homosexual relationships as much as possible even when they barely ca #if anyone does know Vesp Yuri and is confused on why I'm calling him gay coded despite what the dub did with Judith feel free to ask #bc I do ship them a little bit myself! but I just recognize that canon wise I really can't see him as anything but gay-demiromantic #but again at least FE locs don't shake in their boots anymore abt same sex pairs including men (side eyes Lucius/Raven)

[coolauntlilith]

Every now and then I replay the first episode of VLD and I wonder why I thought it be a good show lol

#mostly just the part where Allura is assigning pilots to lions #why lol. the first five people who show up are just perfect fits?? hate it lol #i have no au plot ideas but itd have made more sense to draw out the forming of voltron. like for a longer time. like its the s1 finale #and to be traveling looking for appropriate pilots #or the s2 finale? like what if the original gang somehow stayed in contact despite not being Voltron paladins and they proved being the best #team despite not piloting immediately. i feel like a stronger plot of their forming teamwork outside of being Voltron would have also made #their friendships seem more real too lmao #like what if Lance IS Blue's pilot bit hes the only one for a long time. the other lions couldn't actually *just be* located #*but. not bit. and what if Pidge runs off in a stolen vessel to find her dad and brother. what if Shiro isnt.. so flat as a character and is #desperate to find his old team and runs off with them to help out and free others #Keith could somehow get involved with The Blades a lot sooner #and Hunk finds his footing as a leader in rebellion organization. i hate that he was just the funny guy allll the way thru #also (still not a plot bc my brain is unorganized lol) Allura doesnt die. Shiro actually gets to be gay with a husband. and we either need #to not make Lotor a villain or just go all out on making him the worst. i personally dont want him to be a villain bc it was stupid lol #also PULEEEAASE Lance is bi. Lance “I'm just getting a feel for the stick” *obsessed with his rival who doesnt even know he exists* McClain #i want to see him get over his crush on Allura within like 6 episodes and then see him making out with the mermaids then Keith when everyone #starts reuniting lol. my bicon Lance deserves to kiss mermaids like we all do and then get on when the otp lol #now im nostalgic for s1 VLD vibes. ya know. before hell lol #it really just gets worse after ... s3? everyone feels different. i usually tolerate up to about the end of s3 before i feel like its donezo #aunt posting #vld #voltron: legendary defender

[shopcat]

in all seriousness 🤓. sorry i love saying that. but in all seriousness i think people need to get more comfortable with actually identifying and discussing homophobia even in the small perhaps unintentional ways it crops up, in fandom specifically, and stop automatically jumping to: but doing x doesn't make you homophobic, but people don't have to like a popular gay ship if they don't want to, but people have different headcanons, but they don't mean it in x way they mean it in y way, but accusing someone of homophobia is serious, but homophobia is serious, but they're literally gay they can't be homophobic, but it's not that deep, but no one is doing it maliciously, but people will always think this, but heteronormativity, BUT ANYTHING... sometimes people say homophobic things unintentionally. sometimes people are not being malicious or cruel but have an internalised bias. homophobia is as much a part of society as every other ist and ism and phobia and i think people need to like ACCEPT that and move on instead of immediately deflecting or denying let alone ignoring it but also this entire concept does or course apply to all bigotry especially those inherent in online communities/certain fanbases... transphobia transmisogyny misogyny racism antisemitism and more live at home in fandom!!

i think it is far more helpful, AND KIND, to be able to point out ways people can improve and to try and make people understand WHY they're thinking the way they are. i don't understand the absolute heels dug in backlash these kinds of things tend to produce at least on an outer level (because i do KNOW why i just think it's ridiculous) and i especially don't understand when people assign any sort of discussion like this as automatically negative or drama or discourse or whatever EITHER. and like yes sometimes it is stressful and i get that but personally i will always feel safer and more comfortable and positive around someone who tries to better their communities in ways where they do attempt to foster a better environment for everyone, and part of that is pointing out and dismantling bigotry when it comes up

and i'm not saying you have to force yourself to involve yourself in topics and with people that make you uncomfortable OF COURSE but it is not like, bad to do so either. bigots should not feel as safe as they do existing among us all and THAT is all you're doing when you roll over onto your back to expose your belly and say "let's just keep things positive okay!!!!! i don't want drama let's all just get along!!!!!" because like yes of course but also like. no. lol. also i have self respect and don't want to rub elbows with people who have bias against me or my community that does not make me a bad person it doesn't make me anything. you don't have to run a discourse blog (which are stupid) or post constantly about the intricacies of bigotry (which is tiring) but it shouldn't be a nails digging in blood drawing experience to occasionally say "stop being fucking bigots on my blog"

#anyway xo #like no i don't think ppl r being homophobic all the time either but they fucking COULD be #and i think that is the important bit. why are you thinking this way!!!!! #why are people running around headcanoning with intent that a character is cishet why are people being ''straight truthers'' out of spite #that last one is so fucking weird too like okay since when is insisting a character is straight in response to them being gay or bi not #fucking homophobic.... #i dunno man maybe it's just the st fans of the world but so many people are such fucking freaks 😭 and it's so silly and tiring being like #hey. stop. and everyone throwing a fit because u said that #i dunno this is just something i've noticed specifically HERE... like illnsay someone is being sort of homophobic and ppl act shocked like #omg.. i'm not saying they're actually evil. Just stop being fucking weird #but maybe i also see it more as a gay steve truther.. ohhh he can't be gay ... because um. no reason! #rmr that one dickhead too. ooo he can't be trans he literally has sex with nancy

[synonymroll648]

sorry if you've answered this question before but what sexualities do you headcanon sokeefitz as? also maybe their gender identities too

i haven't gotten asked this before, no worries!

it really depends on if it's an au and what au for the specifics, but there are some headcanons i have that are pretty consistent: keefe and sophie being bisexual, and fitz being aro-spec, especially demiromantic. i don't picture fitz liking labels a lot though, since he's been put in boxes his whole life and hates it, so in multiple of my au's he simply labels himself as queer. no further elaboration, because he doesn't owe it to anyone and thinking hard about strictly defining himself gives him anxiety.

for gender identities - that's even more dependent on whether or not it's an au, and what au. both demigirl (she/they) and nonbinary (they/them) sophie hold special places in my heart. in terms of canon, demigirl would probably fit better, but nonbinary sophie owns my heart.

i personally headcanon fitz to be that one chill cis (verified) guy that's just along for the ride, listening and awkwardly patting shoulders when someone rambles to him about a gender crisis and just. trying his best to understand. usually he just asks if the person in question wants ripplefluffs to munch on something sweet while losing their mind.

with keefe, i go back and forth with a lot. honestly the way i headcanon keefe's gender is conceptually similar to the way i currently view my gender - i go back and forth about whether or not keefe is cis, or genderfluid, or even bigender. (for me, i question whether or not i'm cis or genderqueer lol.) most of the time, when i write fics with keefe in them, keefe's a cis guy, but i dunno man. keefe's got those vibes where i can't tell if it's funky gender expression or funky gender. we love keefe either way tho <33

#also. they go out of their way to validate each other #i'm pretty sure i've said this before but keefe cuts sophie's hair to be more masculine on request #and fitz gets sophie more masculine clothes like suits and ties and such #also keefe stole all of sophie's skirts and dresses that fit him #also also fitz will steal either of his partner's sweaters. he doesn't care if it's too big or too small. it's his now #keefe's also made them pride art #fitz's is a lot more subtle because he doesn't like putting himself way out there unless the situation demands it #think like. a scarf on mr. snuggles that follows the progress pride flag color scheme #sophie's is like. lovingly painted pronoun pins and tunics with the bi pride colors painted into something abstract #and suits with patterns that follow the nonbinary colors or the demigirl colors #and with keefe it's mostly just funny slogans on stuff that relate to him being bi or gender being weird #but occasionally keefe goes out with a jacket that's had a ton of details painted and sewn in and stuff #like a mural on his back #speaking of murals they all have paintings that are related to queerness made by keefe #like sometimes it's silly little cats stacked together following the colors of the rainbow #or really detailed pieces that take a pride color scheme and run with it #anyway. yeah they love each other #sokeefitz #sophie foster #keefe sencen #fitz vacker #ask #kotlc #belovedyareli

[beetrootbug]

can we just... talk about Wednesday? Because I don't know how to feel about it. I watched the show with little expectations in terms of the plot, and I personally ended up enjoying it, though many people have expressed their distain for it. i didn't like everything about it. It was a bit brain numbing i guess, since after watching it my brain was devoid of thought, which is why i was probably able to watch it without question. I usually pick stuff apart whilst i watch it, but i think I was just so determined to finish it I didn't pay as much attention. Final opinions are:

i enjoyed the cartoon-ish nature of the plot. It wasn't that serious and things were solved very quickly. As a writer, I should despise that. I adore writing books with complex plot points that are long winded and explained with care as to not info-dump but to provide the context needed. However, as a person with horrid fucking anxiety, I LOVE stupid stories with shitty easy to solve plots, such as the one present in Wednesday. It's easy to see what's coming and if an episode ends on a cliffhanger, I know for a fact that it will be solve in the next episode. I also tend to judge shows and movies in context to other shows and movies made by the same company. For example, I was pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed Falcon and the Winter Soldier as I really didn't like the previous marvel movies and show. Of course falcon wasn't the best show in context to other pieces of media outside of marvel, but for a marvel show, it topped my standards. Wednesday is the same for me in terms of Netflix live actions reboots. I don't care what you think of the show Wednesday, you must agree it is better than the other live action reboots. I hate riverdale and i hate Winx fate saga, they are terrible, objectively and subjectively, they aren't good. Wednesday shocked me as it was better than both. This also plays into the other kind of shows that are on the rise: gritty shows with teenagers. Euphoria and the abhorrent Velma show, are disgusting inaccurate depictions of teenagers. Not to say teenagers don't do these things, it's just that it isn't presented correctly. Teens smoke, drink and fuck, we know this, I've heard shit, i've seen shit. But they do it immaturely. Teens are both children and adults. If they do adult things, they do it childishly, and vice versa. Wednesday had a relatively accurate depiction of teenagers (albeit a bit cartoony but it fits with the shows themes). So from that standpoint alone, it blew my expectations out the water.

Now to the stuff i didn't like about the show: the characters. Which is a massive part of the show of course. The characters were easier to stomach when i watched it because i simply liked the actors, but analysing the characters after, yeah, i don't like them that much. I liked Wednesday in the beginning, but towards the end, she wasn't as fun to watch. As far as what she does, she's very fun to watch and has to be the only who holds up well (kinda, i'll explain this later), the rest of the characters are kinda poorly written and become kinda unlikeable. I never thought i would say this, but I don't like Enid as much as I did when i started watching. Not from a "oh she's such a horrible person" but rather "oh, she's been written really poorly". That can be said about all the characters, including Wednesday towards the end. The messages the characters give the the audience is my main gripe with the show. Enid talks about how friends do stuff for friends, even without asking. "That's what friends do". This is stupid, it is. If your friend tells you not to do something, and you do it, you are betraying their trust. You don't know why your friend doesn't want you to do that, and they don't need to tell you, they'll tell you if they want to. You shouldn't assume things that your friend wants, especially if you don't know them well, like Wednesday's relationship with enid and the others. It's not a good message to spread as stuff like this is something autistic people and other nd people struggle with, this makes this line from enid to wednesday, a very nd/autistic coded character, much worse. A seemingly stupid request not to do something could have much deeper roots for an nd person. I got very mad at friend when she intentionally splashed me with water once. I had told her very explicitly not to splash me and explained that i hate getting wet when i'm wearing normal clothes as the texture is horrid and it would make me very cold. She continued to splash and my voice became more and more distressed. She ignored this, cuz duh, a little water never hurt anyone? But she eventually splashed me and i scolded her. I wasn't very cold nor wet, but it meant something else to me. She betrayed something i told her, and i even explained to her before hand why i didn't like it. So yeah it's stupid to most, but now i know i can't trust her with stuff like that, doesn't that seem a bit counterproductive to friendship. Wednesday was framed as a stuck up killjoy for not enjoying the birthday party she explicitly did not want, and yet i understand why. I think this is also a reason i liked this show; i liked wednesday, i related to her (kinda). She's not the Wednesday Addams character that she should be, but if you disconnect her from her roots (which you technically shouldn't since this is an adaptation) she's a fascinating character that could have had a lot more done with her.

So to end off: The plot is objectively bad, but a fun and easy watch. The characters are bad, but the main character is relatable yet lacking (which almost makes me wanna watch the next season because i want to see her expanded upon). She's fun by herself, but as a supposed wednesday addams adaptation, she falls completely flat of that title. Which is why i feel the show would have been better if it wasn't attached to wednesday. If it was just a show about ghouls going to school and the main character was an autistic coded character trying to survive among bullies while a murder mystery was being solved as a background plot, it would have been better. Think of it like a mix between monster high and gravity falls, heck it would have been nicer as a cartoon, though i did enjoy the visuals. I think wednesday should have had more conflicts with characters that actually hate her than just being a bitch to characters try to be nice. It's more forgiving in this context because wednesday is nd coded, but there has been a rise in the "everyone fucking hates me except no one hates me and everyone likes me" character archetype, like in the I am not starfire comic. It would have been nicer to see wednesday make a proper friend and in the mean time get back at actually horrible people, like bullies or bigots instead of people trying (and failing) to help her.

also TYLER AND XAIVIER SHOULD HAVE BEEN BOYFRIE-

#when i tell you I WAS SO UPSET WHEN WE LEARNED TYLER FUCKING ASSAULTED XAIVIER #YALL COULD HAVE BEEN SO GOOD TOGETHER #wednesday should have been ace aro btw #at least aromantic if anything pleaseeeeeeeeee #wednesday #wednsday addams #netflix series #netflix wednesday #tempted to write a show based on the wednesday plot now (except it wouldn't be related to wednesday addams) #the show may have sucked but the actors slayed fr #also enid should have been bi no way yall can pull a conversion camp on us and NOT HAVE the character be queer that's just insensitive #the edits of the show are fun you can't lie about that #maybe don't bully people who like the show? we can't all be either neurotypical cis straights or Addams family purists #i'll be honest i've never watched any addams family related stuff before this #but i still know shit about them dw #had to learn the theme song for a theatre group ages ago #i'd say “i'm not hating” but no one's gonna fucking listen anyways so i don't give a fuck #hate me if you wish hopefully you can get it out of your system and not take it out on others #have a nice day! #DRINK WATER BITCHES #screaming into the void

[blujayonthewing]

aubree: hey tell the cook that dinner was really fuckin good the bartender: fuckin good or fuckin good? aubree: whichever one has the most emphasis...? bartender: no- which one? there is a distinction aubree: aubree:

#aubree last session: oh the cook here is a gnome who's REALLY passionate and serious about cooking? #please tell them to cook whatever they want to cause it'll either be fucking amazing or fucking weird and I'm here for it either way #cook: [audibly shrieks with glee from the kitchen when receiving the 'whatever you wanna cook' order] #me: how can I spin this into getting rooms at this inn with no vacancies 🤔 ahhh I probably can't lol #WELL I GOT... *A* ROOM HEEHEEHOHO #aubree gets a LOT of mileage out of being just... guilelessly and sincerely nice to people and it's really fun to play out #and really rewarding! she has Rustic Hospitality as a background feature but I've never needed to invoke it she just has it organically #but it was also funny because our bard was trying to get-- in fairness ALL of us-- a room with Conniving and Shenanigans to no avail #and then Aubree's just like 'I was nice to a person with no expectations ¯\_(ツ)_/¯' #also #me: I keep waffling but I think aubree is straight? despite presenting herself Like That #my fiance: would you like to hook up with an extremely enthusiastic chef #me: .... [kombucha girl] #the THING IS it's just more fun for me if my dnd characters are bi or pan!! why limit my options! #the way this played out especially wrt our bard was so good and funny I would have been sad to opt out of the scenario you know? #aubree's been through SO much in the last... well the whole campaign but especially the last couple weeks she deserves A Nice Night #I do think aubree is still probably a one on the kinsey scale or whatever but like yanno. incredibly good cooking is sexy ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #my OCs #aubree

[beaversatemygrandma]

It’s a fun realization when you finally notice that all the guys you were previously into weren’t really guys you were attracted to, but ones that gave you gender envy and you had No Idea what that feeling was.

Bc all of those men were messes and atrocious. But the vibes. I want those vibes. Not the atrocity tho.

#taks speaks #specifically the guys i was into in high school #and maybe a few before i had the whole gender realization #then i realized what kind of guys i'm actually into and as it turns out: it's not many of them. #turns out its the soft and nerdy ones #the vibes of those pretty stoner guys still gets me tho but i know better than to actually get with them now #bc they really are All An Absolute Fucking Mess #i mean i am too so no judging #but. those were some Toxic ass relationships man #a whole lot of jealousy and anger #one was positive. a good guy. but. turns out he was actually a fuck boi so. nah. #he may have been a good guy all around but once it hit me that he was genuinely just there for sex it was a hard no #i dont mind casual relationships. if anything i prefer them. but it got to the point where i overheard him talking to his friends about me #and uh. ew. no. don't do that. #the gender envy was STRONG with him tho #either way im bi as hell and idc what gender i end up with #but jeez. men. #i may have already posted about this before but whatever im thinking about it rn #just looking over the pile of exes in my contacts. i need to delete a lot of these #esp the ones on snapchat bc im 90% sure im going to post a story once im in FL #just saying 'im back bitches' or smth like that and see who contacts me #and knowing a few of those guys. they will. but not for reasons i'd want #time to do a fuck boi cleanout

[amarrymeinbostonwriter]

Why is it so hard to date women??? I am one too. This shouldn't be so hard. And yet it really is.

I can get a man without even wanting to or meaning to (it happened unintentionally every time that way when I still dated men now I realized looking back on it). I could do that again but I never really enjoyed it before so I doubt I would like it any better now.

You're supposed to actually enjoy dating, right?

It's not supposed to be like pulling teeth, RIGHT??? :')

(I am trying to stay positive but WOW, this sucks OMG!)

#It's obvious that I have no fucking clue what I'm doing still #I think I am looking in the literal WORST places #the new app I tried for friends/dating isn't specifically gay but it has way too many men on it literally it's mostly men somehow #I'm sorry boys but I'm not interested #But I feel like I can't talk to girls on there because I don't want them to think I'm some creep :/ :/ :/ #my profile says bisexual currently but I'm not sure that's accurate #I IDed as bi for half my life but I'm still not sure if that's true #I'm thinking of quitting that app too #I got cat fished on the last gay app I tried and it happened multiple times which was frustrating!!! :/ #maybe this is all BAD Karma coming back to bite me #maybe I should reactivate my account on her any way and get catfished some more *shrug* maybe it's what I deserve #tbh I'm jealous of how easily other people seem to find each other I'll admit that #I've been watching too much of the Catfish TV show lately too which does not help either :( #I'm pissed at myself for wasting college now- I was even part of the LGBT student club at both my schools ughh #and though I liked some of the other girls in the clubs I never did anything because most of them were taken already (of course) #I have this weird feeling that I missed the train for someone on here but maybe I'm imagining it??? 0-o #I couldn't be sure and do not want to be annoying about it in case I misread some signals a while ago...? #it's okay I'm not hot and still don't know if I'm gay or bi at my age (I'm really 30 but probably don't seem it) #you can do way better than me girl is what I'm saying basically #dating apps are just...terrible? awful? the worst? #a free unhinged(?) rant for all my single friends :) #if you know you definitely know #though I hope you don't because... yikes I'm sorry if you know #any body got any other app ideas??? I tried lex taimi and her already and I won't do tindr because that's too superficial/all about hook up #wlw dating #I've known I've liked women since I was 16 but never tried dating them until now so sorry if this is obvious or you've heard it before